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What to do with our at home time?

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

The "trouble goal" I have to deal with is too much sitting. Too much computer, TV, etc. I think it happens because I am bored. I don't know what to do with myself and I'm too tired or down to do anything else. The only thing I can think of to stop this is to make a schedule, plan out my day (including TV and computer) and then stick to it the same way I have my sparkpeople diet and exercise plan.

I will try to commit to writing every day in my journal. I love writing and reading, but it seems lately I am too tired to do it. Maybe I need to keep a sleep journal and address the fact that I am not getting enough rest. I have been driving my husband to work early in the morning because we are down to one car. Perhaps it is taking a bigger toll on me than I thought because that is kind of when all this started. Maybe I should plan a nap into my day or something. This really has helped me to see some of the root causes, just like SP said it would.

I feel down because this tiredness has impacted how much I do with my children. It is very humid and buggy outside and my daughter gets eaten up even with bug spray on. That makes things limited to mostly indoor activities right now. The problem is finding indoor things to do with them. They are 3 years apart and my son gets frustrated with games easily if my daughter constantly wins. It has made it hard to think of no-cost activities I could be doing with them. Time with them always picks me up, but between running the car back and forth (because I work in the mornings and need it) and also hearing "I don't know, what do you want to do?" every time I ask them if they would like to hang out. It's never the same, my daughter wants a game, (because she can win) my son won't play that, he wants to make something, she says it's boring, etc. etc. etc., it can be so tiring and difficult. I think to tackle this I will post for some no-cost, no-competition type of indoor activities. Boy I better make a list, I have a lot to do to get on top and stay on top of this one.


Love the side effects of SP

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Well, for 2 days I have done 0 exercise. The fact is, with everything going on with my daughter and having to talk to the local girl scout council about her camping incident and getting lost, It has just been emotionally and physically exhausting.

I know that doesn't match the title, but the rest of this blog does. This morning I woke up and looked in the mirror. I was dressing in the bathroom where there is a wall length, large mirror because I didn't want to wake my hubby. As I glanced up, wearing just underclothes, I was amazed. I didn't look bad! I mean, nothing was hanging out over anything. It was amazing. I just stared for a minute almost in disbelief. Two things hit me, 1) two hard days really don't mess anything up and 2) this is really a forever thing. If I never lost another pound, (which I don't plan on letting happen), I am healthier, happier and down from a 22w to a regular 18.

If anyone who reads this feels there life is out of control, I just want to tell you to really work at getting control here. The last two days my "LIFE" was out of my control, but the beauty is "I" wasn't! I still ate right, and although I really didn't have the strength to exercise, I didn't lose control. I just chose to let myself rest. There is a huge difference! And I have to tell you that looking at yourself and seeing the loss, knowing that you have control over YOURSELF, your choices, your body, really helps those lows that come when that's ALL you can control. Don't give your control away!

Thank you SP team and all the wonderful people I have met here! God bless you all !

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FIREFLY78 7/18/2007 9:32AM

    That's such a wonderful post!!! I love your enthusiam and I feel the exact same way. So many times we let ourselves become victims of our circumstances but you are so right...WE HAVE CHOICES! just in the last week I have really started making better choices and truly am starting to realize that I don't have to be subject to my cravings. I have options!

What a great job on your weightloss!

Keep up the great work and God Bless!!!

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Saturday, July 14, 2007

Well, my weight is good, but slow because I have not been focusing on SP for almost 2 wks. It is realy amazing how I maintained though and didn't gain any weight back.

The rest of life is a bit of a rollercoaster with school out. My son is having some loneliness issues with all his friends away and my daughter is suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from having been lost in the woods at her girlscout camp for a couple of hours. It was really traumatic for her and none of the leaders told us what happened when we picked her up. They also didn't let her call us right after it happened when she was begging for them to let her. I am not sure what we are going to do about that, but we are obviously going to have to get her some professional help to deal with it. It looks like I will need to (hopefully temporarily) suspend volunteering at the pregnancy center until she is doing better. Right now, she can't be left alone for any lenght of time. She can't even shower without someone in the room next to her. This is going to be very hard. Please pray for us, and especially for her.

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PAMELARU 7/30/2007 9:54PM

    Greetings MADESPECIAL,
I've been reading the "Do you believe in God?" thread and I have so enjoyed many of your comments - so I thought I'd check out your sight.

I will be standing on the promises in the word for your daughter.
I proclaim that what the enemy planned for her ruin God will in time use for her good. I pray for an extra amount of wisdom for you and our family during this rollercoaster ride. Thanks for sharing!!
In Christ,

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CHRISTIE2007 7/16/2007 4:10PM

    Congrats on not gaining any weight with all that you have going on. Isn't it great to have developed new habits that keep that from happening, most of the time. (for those extra bloaty weeks) Keep up the good work!

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Monday, June 04, 2007

Wow, what a turn around! Everyone is healthy. I talked to my boss about some trouble at work and I think it will get better there and on top of all that I have lost 15 pounds. The amazing thing is that for about 6 days while I was really sick, I didn't do anything, track my food, do exercise, etc... and I still lost weight that week. I am feeling very positive about how spark people can help me. I have been reading about so many topics on this site and I am just so greatful for all the info. Thanks to all those who prayed or offered some supportive and encouraging words over the last 2 weeks. How blessed I am to have you all.

Lee Ann


Rough week, but making it through

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Well, this was a rough week. My tracker and logs went completely out the window. I got sick Sunday evening and worsened through Tuesday. My doctor gave me an antibiotic and I was off work until Thursday. Anyway, I just haven't had the strength yet to do my cardio or training exercises. My plan is to start over with this coming week and give myself through Sunday to recoup. Hopefully, with the kids and my husband home Monday, I will get a chance to just take another day of rest. God has been faithful to keep me going so far and I know He will continue to guide and strengthen me as I go. If you read this, please pray for me that God would show me the path He wants for me.

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XHASTEDMOMOF2 5/31/2007 7:45PM

    Hi Madespecial! I hope you get feeling better! Being sick is just so miserable, especially with little ones! After reading your sparkpage, I thought I would share with you a little about my life. You know it is such a shame when people do these things to us; they have no clue about the effect it has on us for the rest of our lives. My mother was an alcoholic who became addicted to painkillers and moved onto the harder stuff. It is hard to go into the details of what I overcame, but I feel like even today I am still healing. When I was 14 in order to bring some sanity to our family, my dad divorced my mom and the judge gave him custody of his 2 kids. (That was unheard of in the 70s!) There is a bit of a happy ending tho! My mom almost died from pancreatitis 3 years before she died from cancer. She was 5 feet tall and weighed over 300 pounds at the time. The doctors told her after she spent a week in intensive care that she had to quit smoking, quit drinking, quit the drugs prescription and recreational, and lose the weight. AND she had to do it all at the same time!! And she did it!! But then shortly after she had been enjoying being thin (and getting noticed!) and healthy, she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer that had already spread all over her body. She lived 4 months after being diagnosed. She went thru chemo and radiation without ever falling backwards! I am so proud of her and I just know that she would be fine today had she not gotten sick with cancer. Well, that is part of my story but I thought I would share it with you as an uplifting story. Take care and get better soon!

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GOING4MUSCLE 5/26/2007 10:26PM

    All my best to you. Hope you are feeling better, real soon. And don`t worry over not following your plan..getting well is just as important as exercise. You WILL get back on course! :)

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