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Funny Thing Happened At My Doctor's Office

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

I had a visit with my doctor Tuesday and the summer was quite a difficult one. I'm still waiting to get another test EEG coming up in October. Anyway we were talking back and forth and since the nerve in my face has settled down it was definitely an improvement. The other prob I had bugging me was my hip and it still needs to rechecked...again another specialist visit.
So in the midst of this talking back and forth he said oh you have a Birthday coming up in 4 days....I guessed he noticed i was a little taken back from what he said and he chuckled. I said no it's nothing that you said about my birthday coming up the funniest part of it was I forgot. LOL
I remember when I was about to turn 60 I really thought ugh I can't believe it. So I was actually down about for about a week. (silly I know) Anyway as the day got closer I thought this is ridiculous there's always the alternative not turning 60. So from that time I really didn't think too much about it and my family doesn't live here but my friends have been good. I honestly have to admit even last week I thought it was a long way off until my doctor reminded me of it.
Now that's what you call an attitude change......these days I'm not in the least thinking about my age just a more healthy body. I know by getting some weight off my hip will most likely feel somewhat better. When I couldn't come on it made me more depressed and so ate more to not think about how well I started out and the excitement I felt. Just soooo many things back to back it was a downer but Lord willing this is my time to finally shine and kick those pounds to the curb. emoticon emoticon

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CHERYLHURT 9/29/2013 8:11AM

  Have a wonderful year!

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CHERYLHURT 9/27/2013 6:56AM

  Have a wonderful birthday!

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FUNLOVEN 9/26/2013 9:22AM

    Age is but a number in our heads! I am going to say that "We are as young as we think"! I didn't say "as young as we feel" because some days my body, and especially my hips, feels ancient.

emoticon Here is to a Sparkling year! ! !

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Glad To Be Back

Saturday, September 21, 2013

The last 3 months have been very difficult. Due to problems with my neck which will be ongoing but does get better after I have procedures done. My biggest set back was when I fell down a flight of stairs rushing to get my garbage out and should have listened to a friend who said one of these days you're going to fall going down those stairs that fast. Well one of these days finally had come. The entire leg has been hurting ever since.

Before this happened they thought I had Osteoarthritis but thankfully no but said I had bursittis. I went to the specialist had a cortisone shot and thought this is wonderful. Now my leg won't pain as much and it's not osteo so I was pumped. Apparently 2 days and it should have been good. So after 2 days with spring in step and walking along all of a sudden I had this unbareble pain go from my knee to my hip I nearly hit the ground. I was already closest to the grocery store so I hobble there. I actually was going for peanut butter on sale and i'm 5 min walk away but I had to get a cab back. That was one expensive jar of peanut butter so much for a sale. LOL

So I am hoping that I can continue this journey that I started. I gained another 5 pounds from inactivity but I'm really trying to watch what I eat even if aerobics, strength training unable to do now waiting to have another procedure done on it. That's a long process and painful. So that left walking which was my passion. I think the hardest of all of this is had I known about Spark people when I was able to do Zumba and and mild aerobics and walk I most likely would have had my weight down. I'm not a quitter but I have gone through about 3 months of emotional eating. We all can identify with that one. Food is your enemy but becomes your friend and I tell myself I don't care but deep down I knew I did just too tired and in so much pain for it to matter.

I'm not going to put limits on myelf as far as just not wanting to do it, it's more of a smart approach to get to do something. I bought strength training rope and instead of a Video I bought a book from my pharmacy. It shows how to safely do the exercises and starts with beginners. When I watch a video and even if they say go at your own pace that doesn't compute with me. I try to keep up then I'm in set back mode. I have to get this weight off as I know the knee pain may get somewhat better and until they find out what's wrong with it I'm going to cope as best I can and that has to be enough or my ship will sink and may stay stuck. I'm hoping I'm wiser for all the things I've learned about myself.

Well I'll be one year wiser next week because my Birthday will be on the 28. I know we're all in this together and each of us must find what we can do until that time comes when we can do more.
I do have the Spark Book and the Spark Solution and the Cookbook and Spark Coach so you wouldn't think I'd get down but the truth is I was so bummed out with what how little I could do that i did nothing. It's not the way to get to a determined goal. I try to do my meal entries at night because even putting my computer on my lap sets things off. I had followed the plan but just couldn't do the entry but yay today I did. My friend who knows I'm a sweet fanatic and easy meals was impressed that I don't have sweets well rice krispy squares but I got them last week and forgot I had them. LOL It's my emergency not fall off the wagon thing but so far healthy choices.
Hope you all have a good night and let's keep going.... emoticon emoticon

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FUNLOVEN 9/22/2013 10:54PM

    Glad you are back! I know EXACTLY what you are going through as I am going through the very same thing with my hip with no definitive help in sight as yet. So I keep plugging away and do the best I can. So lets emoticon

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When The Scale Doesn't Rock And You Still Have The Rolls

Thursday, May 30, 2013

So I was doing quite well with my overall programme and checked after a month notta nothing.....There's not a lot of exercises I can do for health reasons. About a year and a half ago I was doing aerobics at the YMCA 2 days a week and did Zumba dancing 2 nights a week. I was soooo ecstatic. The aerobics were low impact but Zumba was no slow pace. However i felt great after every workout but my short of breath and very red face should have been a clue to kick it down a notch. Did I do it nooooo. It was way too much fun. I went away for Christmas that year to visit my daughter and grandsons. They got a video called Dance 2. I was so on board for that too. The problem....when I wear my shoes or sneakers I wear orthotics. Well I was prancing around in socks and those dance moves really bothered my knees.
I left there and went to my other daughter's on my way back home from Christmas. So I heard they got Dance 2 for Christmas. The oldest boy then 8 challenged me and I picked one that I did a lot when i visited my other daughter....I WON....So he couldn't stand that gave me on that I huffed and puffed like the Big Bad Wolf in Little Red Hood. Depending on you're age you may not know that story. Again I did it on hardwood floors nothing to absorb the shock to my knees. I had to leave aerobics because the exercises started bothering my neck which was injured in a car accident a number of years ago. So I had to go through a procedure on my neck that tied me up for 3 months.
So this 62 yr old grandma did herself major damage but I still admit I'd love to do it again. So when I joined Spark I had to be careful with any exercise. Of course I get impatient do a difficult programme routine and suffer. Now the dilemma was just what do I do now. So I did what my disappointed self failed to realize and of all things I quit. For 2 weeks i ate everything I had gotten away from and was even more defeated then when I joined. I returned joined Spark Coach got the Book The Spark, The Spark Solution. Again I was eager to get to exercising again eat healthy and this time I'd see results Right? No. same weight and no change in measurement because unable to do a lot of the ones that can tone you up.
Does it bother me? Well of course it does. I've come to the conclusion too that I'm not the brightest light bulb in the batch. I decided I'm going to walk because i always loved walking and it doesn't matter how much it hurts I'm doing it. Hmm Does anyone have Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia....You guessed it down for the count exhausted....oh and if it wasn't enough that I pushed myself I started having knee probs after my exciting Christmas vacation last year. This Monday I see a knee surgeon.
Was all of this futile? Did I do this and now made myself worse than when I joined? You would think so. The other day I was at the drug store and they had the Lindt bars on 2 for 4 dollars. UMMMM sounds YUMMMY. I'm sure my alter ego stepped up because it was saying get it and the other one was no don't. What I realized at least I was having a conversation well in my head that caused me to at least think about it. Did I give in? I know everyone is holding the breath by now wanting to know....What I did was passed the big bars up and bought a very small tobblerone with well over half the calories and a lot more money for a little piece of bar that size.
This programme at Spark is Challenging me. Sometimes I over challenge myself and do my harm than good but I like the fact that I think it's not worth it. You're making healthy choices which my scale hasn't rocked one way or the other and I still have the rolls. It's interesting getting to know me, I mean the real me who doesn't want to listen to her body and thinks she has to lose 10 pounds at least by one month. Surely that's not very long. Well it has been long and it's a lot longer than a month. However there are days I'm truly exhausted because of the fibro and chronic fatigue and those days I don't have the energy to even think what I want to eat. So portion control of things I would normally limit on some food I can't even make those decisions. The scale hasn't budged but you know what? I'm still here and if it's 3 months or whenever my time will come. I will probably have to get off several times to make sure I read it right even if it's a pound.
It's my journey and we're trying to find our fit to make this not a quick fix just to lose how ever many pounds. The goals must be ones that we must live with from this time on. In Spark Coach tonight he basically asked why are you doing this....I realized I'd love to say my first thing inkling was to lose weight but it now goes deeper than that. My cholesterol is up and I have medical challenges. I want to be around for those precious grandsons and watch them grow up. So tonight I found out it's not all about the scale it's something bigger than me....It's about living and living longer. What's your reason? Look beyond the scale and realize you're more important than a number because they will drop...Are you learning more than just losing weight.....
Have a great Friday and let's keep our "Spark" glowing. God bless

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FUNLOVEN 6/2/2013 5:20PM

    Like I have read so many times here on SP - It is all about the journey and the deviations in the path that lead us forward one small step at a time. Sounds to me like you have the right plan and attitude to succeed emoticon

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CASTIRONLADY 5/30/2013 11:13PM

    If you are still here sticking with it, you are doing great. Keep up the good work and keep the faith. You will get there - not by the leaps and bounds of the very young but by the steady step by step we have learned to cautiously take. emoticon

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People Like Me

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Today I reliazed that when you think you're the only one struggling you're not. When you haven't lost any weight there are so many members here who have stuck with the programme and they have lost very little weight either. I see others who have lost a small amount of weight and some over 100 pounds. Yet they stuck with it. They've had my insecurities, my feeling of failure but what did they do? They kept going regardless. There are people who started then quit. I did it for 2 weeks then thought well this isn't doing anything for me so like many others who quit and maybe stayed away longer so what? We are here now. We all have the same cominalities, we want to lose weight.

We need to lose weight is the bottom line. Some of us for health reasons, some of us because we feel our time is now....So when you get to that point where you feel you can't do it think of what will happen if you don't. Do you really want all those feeling of failure, guilt, and feeling like a quitter following you around in your head as well as your body for the rest of your life. I'm tired of saying to my friends, family or whoever that I need to lose weight. So I asked myself this question "Why did I say that I need to lose weight when it was 5 pounds then and over 25 pounds now?" It's because I knew my clothes were getting tight and wasn't really serious about it. So what am I or you going to do about it?

Well mine are this:
1. I will eat healthy even if the scale doesn't move
2. I will do some exercises even though I'm limited in this area.
3. I'm doing this for me not to look good for someone else
4. When I blow one day of bad eating habits it's doesn't mean I will continue
5. I will genuinely cheer those people who are losing and doing well. However I will not allow their success make me feel like I'm failing because I'm not losing.

So my Spark friends that's my new "Pledge Of Eatence" for me. By the way don't think that Eatence is in the English Dictionary but it's in mine right now. emoticon

Strength and resilience emerge by your own will to become a better person no matter what downfalls happen in your your own hero.

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DAKOTA50 4/29/2013 8:15PM

    Very nicely said! Thank you for sharing it with me.

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CHERYLHURT 4/29/2013 8:51AM

  Great way to think, very positive. We are all in this together!

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WORDWOMAN7 4/29/2013 12:20AM

    Good for you. Stick with it. This WILL work!

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Revised My Meal Planning

Thursday, March 14, 2013

After 2 weeks of no weight loss and because as of now have limations I'm my exercise options I changed my meal planning. I was consuming too many calories in the morning which didn't leave me much for snacks or the other 2 meals. Today I did some mild exercises. I know sitting on your behind and getting off the couch to get somthing from the fridge never did count as exercise. I'm not going back now because I need this programme and was saying all along I wish I had something to make me accountable so now I have it so no excuses.
I'm hoping you're having a good day and if you feel today was a bad day remember as Ann of Green Gables says "Tommorow is a brand new day with no mistakes in it." So fellow Sparkers keep the faith and know your worth this and you can do. God bless.

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CALLIECURTIS5 3/16/2013 7:43AM

    We all learn what works and what doesn`t work for each of us as an individual. I am inspired by your willingness to change. "if you always do what you always`ll always get what you always got". This quote comes to mind often for me. I gave up extra sweet confections. I thought it would be hard but it actually gets easier. I hope I can continue this new change. Sweets are my downfall more than carbs. Bless you and keep going.

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BLUEANGELLK 3/15/2013 11:50AM

    I love that you are learning what works and what doesn't. That is the key to making long-lasting changes

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SPARKLISE 3/15/2013 8:01AM

    emoticon that you are taking control of your health even if it's difficult right now! emoticon
Counting calories can be a pain,but it really works! emoticon

Hope you are having a great day! emoticon emoticon

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MAMISHELI53 3/14/2013 8:47PM

    I loved the Ann(with an E) of Green Gables books!

Spark has some great resources. I have to pamper my knees and hip a bit, and I found some wonderful seated workouts among their videos. Check them out!
Blessings on the journey to a healthy lifestyle.

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