Friday, September 23, 2011
A little more than a year ago, I decided I'd had enough and it was time to take control of my life. My weight had skyrocketed and my energy and fitness had plummeted. I'd gained at least 50 pounds in one year and was gasping for breath climbing the stairs to my bedroom. Definitely time to make some serious changes.
I started looking online for a way to track my food, exercises and hopefully, weight lost. So many sites do this, but some charge and others weren't quite what I wanted or were difficult to use. I "found" SP. Turns out I already had an account because I'd been here a few years before. Wow, wish I was motivated then, but I'm thrilled that I got going last year.
I was so out of shape that I couldn't walk a lap on the track before I had to stop and stretch my calves, because they got so tight that it was painful to walk. Doesn't sound too awful until you understand that the indoor track at the Y is only an 1/8th of a mile. So I realized that I was going to have to find another option. I then found the pool and started walking in the water and joined a water aerobics class. Both of those, I could do. Also started swimming some laps after a couple of months. I'm exercising and looking forward to it. What?!?
Well, school started and I have a niece and nephews I help with homework and reading, so afternoon workouts had to change to morning workouts. Who knew that I would actually enjoy getting up at 530am and going to the gym for an hour or more before work. That first couple of weeks were killer, I wasn't sure I'd be able to make it through the days at work. I was so sore and tired, but amazingly I never considered giving up. I'm not sure where I found the determination, but there it was.
Well, I kept walking and adding a little running. Also, started ST a couple of days a week and before you knew it by the end of winter I was usually exercising at least 6 days a week. Summer came along and it is hard to go to bed with no A/C at 900pm when the sun is still shining. So I switched back to afternoon exercising that I did by taking the dog for a walk or walking the perimeter of the dog park while he was having fun. Wasn't as consistent, but tried to be a lot more active with the kids around.
Well, the times they are a-changing and I'm now able to get back to the gym in the early morning. I'm a creature of habit and so I immediately started walking/running and ST again. Well, one of the regulars invited me to the aerobics class that started at 6am this morning.
Considering how far I've come I thought I was doing pretty well fitness-wise. That might have been a little optimistic. Well, ALOT optimistic. Oh my God! That woman has a streak of sadism running through her. I think the class was about 50 minutes long, but I can't be sure because I must have blacked out in the middle. I'm not even sure how I got showered and home. Now I'm at work and starving, because I can't lift my arm enough to feed myself. Actually, it wasn't that bad, but it did point out that I'm too consistent in what I do for workouts. It also gave me a goal to see how long it takes me to be able to do all of the moves. I kept up really well except for some of the abdominal/core moves.
So, when SP or one of the challenges suggest that I change up my routine, I'll be a lot more focused on doing just that. I'd say it is time to look into some different classes or sports to add in more variety.
Sorry this was so long and thanks for reading. Have a great weekend.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
In preparation for the start of the 2011 Winter-1 5% Challenge, we were given an assignment:
"Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. What do you want to change? How do you want to look? How do you want to feel? What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? And list all the OTHER things that you want to change!"
On the surface this looks so simple. Of course, there are the "right" reasons. You know the ones we all spout off as soon as someone asks us why we're losing weight. I just want to be healthier and able to live a long and non-medicated life. I'm tired of being so tired all of the time and I feel great now that I'm losing weight. All true of course, but not the complete story, or at least not for me.
Digging a little deeper, I discover that there are so many more reasons than those. The vain, not pretty, reasons or the ones that are embarrassing or oh so private. So I'll list some here, but this is by no means a complete list.
1. I DO want to be healthy. Weight loss combined with *gasp* exercise makes me feel better physically and mentally. Iím still quite a ways from my goal and my self-esteem and confidence are higher than theyíve ever been. I know this is because of the exercise combined with trying to lose weight.
2. I want to be able to go into any store and buy clothes. Lord help everyone around me when that becomes the case, because there is NO telling what I'll be wearing. There's a lot to say for dressing classy, but that isn't going to be the case here. Oh, well, if you don't like it, look over there.
3. I want guys to stop what they are doing to watch me walk past. I'd even appreciate a wolf whistle or two.
4. I want to be able to choose whether I want to do something, not be forced to sit on the sidelines because I don't "fit". I've always wanted to go skydiving, but when I had the opportunity when I was younger I didn't go. I figured they wouldn't have a jumpsuit big enough and who in there right mind would want to tandem jump with me. Don't get me wrong, I've done a lot, but I hate that I've ever turned something down because I was too big to participate. If I choose to not do something, fine, but I want it to be my choice for a change.
5. I want to run a 5K. And then a 10K and then... anyone catching on to where this is going?
6. I want to be able to do 100 "boy" push ups! And then 100 situps, and then 200 squats and then 25 pull ups. I want to be STRONG, STRONG, STRONG!
7. I want people to say "Wow, you have great arms and great legs and geesh, look at your back and you must workout all of the time. I could never do that". And then I can say Thank you and Oh, but you can.
8. I want to get under 200 pounds for the first time since HS or college (I stopped weighing around there, so I have no idea when I passed that milestone.)
9. I want to walk into a room and feel like people are staring because I look good not because they hope they never let themselves go like that.
10. I want to be able to get nekkid without turning out the lights.
11. At 6 feet tall and even at my goal weight, this is probably just a wish, but hey a girl can dream. I want to be light enough that a guy can pick me up. I don't expect the romance cover sweeping me up, but like I said, a girl can dream.
12. I want to lower my risk of diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems and all of the rest. And if I do face any of these or worse, Iíll be as healthy as possible to fight and survive them.
13. I want to be able to fit in any seat in any car and not have the arm or seat belt buckle gouging me in the leg.
14. I donít want my niece and nephews to ever be embarrassed to introduce me to their friends. Hope that I can serve as an example so , those same niece and nephews to grow up eating healthy and being active and not learning to be unhappy with their bodies.
15. Would love to inspire other family members to get moving and take charge of their weight and health. I really want them around a long time. Not going to be much point being healthy and living longer if the people I love arenít here.
16. I want to wear a bathing suit, in public, and feel comfortable. Really want to be able to wear a bikini, but, whew, thatís a tough one to even contemplate thinking much less doing.
17. I want people who havenít seen me in a while to not recognize me. I want the double-takes and the gasps and the whole shebang. I want to go to a HS reunion and be the most changed.
18. I want to share my journey in the hopes that it helps someone else get started or keep going. Cause being overweight is painful inside even when you say you are comfortable with yourself. People are mean and the things you hear hurt. Truthfully, the things Iíve said to myself were even worse, but NO more.
19. I want to be in pictures. Lots of pictures. Front row center!
20. I want to sit in one of those flipping white plastic chairs with NO FEAR!
I know losing weight wonít make me a happy person. But it will make me proud of myself. Understand that I CAN set a goal and make it happen. That my life is in my control, so I have to take charge. My life is happening now and I want to participate 100%.
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