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What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!

Friday, September 23, 2011

A little more than a year ago, I decided I'd had enough and it was time to take control of my life. My weight had skyrocketed and my energy and fitness had plummeted. I'd gained at least 50 pounds in one year and was gasping for breath climbing the stairs to my bedroom. Definitely time to make some serious changes.
I started looking online for a way to track my food, exercises and hopefully, weight lost. So many sites do this, but some charge and others weren't quite what I wanted or were difficult to use. I "found" SP. Turns out I already had an account because I'd been here a few years before. Wow, wish I was motivated then, but I'm thrilled that I got going last year.
I was so out of shape that I couldn't walk a lap on the track before I had to stop and stretch my calves, because they got so tight that it was painful to walk. Doesn't sound too awful until you understand that the indoor track at the Y is only an 1/8th of a mile. So I realized that I was going to have to find another option. I then found the pool and started walking in the water and joined a water aerobics class. Both of those, I could do. Also started swimming some laps after a couple of months. I'm exercising and looking forward to it. What?!?
Well, school started and I have a niece and nephews I help with homework and reading, so afternoon workouts had to change to morning workouts. Who knew that I would actually enjoy getting up at 530am and going to the gym for an hour or more before work. That first couple of weeks were killer, I wasn't sure I'd be able to make it through the days at work. I was so sore and tired, but amazingly I never considered giving up. I'm not sure where I found the determination, but there it was.
Well, I kept walking and adding a little running. Also, started ST a couple of days a week and before you knew it by the end of winter I was usually exercising at least 6 days a week. Summer came along and it is hard to go to bed with no A/C at 900pm when the sun is still shining. So I switched back to afternoon exercising that I did by taking the dog for a walk or walking the perimeter of the dog park while he was having fun. Wasn't as consistent, but tried to be a lot more active with the kids around.
Well, the times they are a-changing and I'm now able to get back to the gym in the early morning. I'm a creature of habit and so I immediately started walking/running and ST again. Well, one of the regulars invited me to the aerobics class that started at 6am this morning.
Considering how far I've come I thought I was doing pretty well fitness-wise. That might have been a little optimistic. Well, ALOT optimistic. Oh my God! That woman has a streak of sadism running through her. I think the class was about 50 minutes long, but I can't be sure because I must have blacked out in the middle. I'm not even sure how I got showered and home. Now I'm at work and starving, because I can't lift my arm enough to feed myself. Actually, it wasn't that bad, but it did point out that I'm too consistent in what I do for workouts. It also gave me a goal to see how long it takes me to be able to do all of the moves. I kept up really well except for some of the abdominal/core moves.
So, when SP or one of the challenges suggest that I change up my routine, I'll be a lot more focused on doing just that. I'd say it is time to look into some different classes or sports to add in more variety.
Sorry this was so long and thanks for reading. Have a great weekend.

  
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MABELL1WFTX 9/23/2013 9:50PM

    Great blog. Really enjoyed reading it.

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SABLENESS 11/3/2011 4:37PM

    You are awesome! emoticon

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MARZIPAN22 10/31/2011 1:58PM

    Great blog !! Hoping to read more of yours in the future (I subscribed!) emoticon

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IGSBETH 10/27/2011 12:45PM

    Way to go!

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WILDFIREKRISTIN 10/26/2011 11:12PM

    I know how all this feels and I am wayyyyyy proud of you! You are doing so right..and you are completely right! emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 10/26/2011 10:15PM

    Yay! New adventures. That's cool!

Congrats on all of your fabulousness :)

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JULIAOAK 10/2/2011 10:41AM

    well done on all your hard work!! emoticon

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CANOGAPARKGAL 9/28/2011 12:21PM

    I guess it's good to have our thinking shaken up once in a while. Thanks for sharing.

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COACHKRYSTIE 9/23/2011 9:06PM

    GREAT!!!

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KARENDEE4 9/23/2011 4:13PM

    Good for you!!! I am so inspired by you!
Karen

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AMARILYNH 9/23/2011 3:46PM

    EXCELLENT blog! Been there, done that, and am living a much better life because of it!! Just keep on keeping on - you are doing great!!

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Aunt update

Friday, April 15, 2011

My aunt came through the surgery yesterday with flying colors. The doctor was very pleased with the results and said she was doing great. The doctor said it was cancer but she thinks that they got it all. Since there wasn't time with her being under for so long to remove the lymph nodes as well, she will have to have some radiation, but the doctor was very optimistic about all of it.

I got to see her for a while last night and while she's pale and has a sore throat from the breathing tube, she joked a bit with us. She's not looking forward to getting up and walking sometime today, but she knows it will speed her recovery. Her spirits have been really good through all of this and she managed to not cry longer than any of us.

This has been a lot of stress on my mom and she's been staying at the hospital the whole time with my aunt. She's exhausted, but will probably stay until my aunt is released (or she drops from exhaustion), hopefully tomorrow. I'm ready for her to come home for at least one night and get some much needed rest.

I really want to thank everyone for their prayers and well-wishes. It meant a lot to me knowing there were people praying and thinking of her and us. All the best to all of you and emoticon

  
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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 7/11/2011 1:29PM

    I now I'm very late, responding to your blog. But happened upon it, and realized your Aunt was ME, just two years ago. Everything was compromised by my weight. I hope your Aunt realizes that losing weight will make everything better, her mobility, her cancer treatment, her overall health. I have had two minor surgeries in the last 2 months, and both were a breeze, compared to what they would have been when I weighed 328 lbs. Now that I am down to a reasonable weight, hovering just below 150, life is so much easier. Everything is easier, you fit on the exam tables, the gowns close, the blood pressure cuff fits, it's easier to find a vein for IV's and blood draws. MOVING is easier. Losing weight has been a Godsend for me. I wish you, your aunt, and your mom the best of luck in your journeys. Sounds like you, at least, are already well on your way!!!

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MTULLY 4/17/2011 1:31PM

    The news from the doctor sounds encouraging. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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SEWINGMAMACDS 4/15/2011 11:42AM

    Great news! Continue praying for your aunt.

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JULIAOAK 4/15/2011 11:39AM

    great news - I will continue to think and pray for you and your family emoticon

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MELLIL 4/15/2011 10:31AM

    PRAISE Him!!! That is wOnderful news!!! I will continue to pray for her healing and that the radiation does what it's supposed to do! emoticon I am SO happy for your family!!! emoticon

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A little help here, please.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My aunt is going into the hospital today for surgery tomorrow. She is like so many of us in my family and is seriously overweight with the accompanying bad health to make matters worse. She's gotten progressively less mobile and therefore gotten more fragile/feeble. The doctors say the cancer is well contained and if she makes it through the surgery she should be cancer-free. But she is in such bad health that the fear is that there will be complications during and right after the surgery. (Wow, that was hard to write.)

And on the other side, she is my mom's twin sister. So I'm almost as worried about my mother and what this would do to her. (If you've ever seen the Hallmark movie "Skylark", you'll understand the reference.) We call my mom and aunt "The Treasures", partly as a joke but also because they are to us.

Anyway, I don't usually ask for a lot of help but I think this time I will. My aunt, my family and I can all use any prayers, good thoughts or well wishes we can get. So if you have a chance in the next couple of days and are so inclined could you wing a few up for us? Thank you!

  
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JULIAOAK 4/13/2011 4:31PM

    thinking of you and your family emoticon emoticon

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4THEJOURNEY 4/13/2011 1:20PM

    Keeping your Aunt and your family in my prayers. I truly hope your Aunt comes through this surgery with no complications whatsoever, giving your Mom many more years to enjoy life beside her twin sis.

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SEWINGMAMACDS 4/13/2011 12:03PM

    Your Aunt and family are in my prayers. May God comfort, and guide.
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MELLIL 4/13/2011 11:23AM

    Oh darlin'... I am lifting your Aunt and your family this very minute -- and will continue to pray in the week ahead! DO let us know how everything goes.

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Went blonde and no one noticed?!?

Monday, February 21, 2011

I think all of the changes I've made in the last few months have blown out the circuits in my coworkers' abilities to notice anything new. I've been wanting to dye my hair, so last night I finally got the stuff and stayed up late doing it. Hmmm, not one person has mentioned it today. Not even a "what have you done to your hair!" comment.
I do believe the guys have reached saturation point. They've been so good about commenting and supporting my efforts to lose weight. They've grabbed the phone while I'm doing a set of push ups for the 100 push up challenge (I'm doing bench style, since I couldn't do the others). They've only complained slightly when steaming my broccoli in the microwave has "stunk" up the office. Someone usually asks about once a week if I went to the gym before work and then how far did you run/walk. These guys have even given me a figurative kick in the rear when I say something less than positive about my efforts.
So, I really can't complain that they didn't notice my hair. And I guess that means it doesn't look bad, because I don't believe they could control themselves if it was hideous.
You know what? My guys rock and I have been so lucky to find such support from such an unlikely source. Hope the rest of you are lucky enough to find support from unexpected people.

  
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JOANOFSPARK 2/22/2011 1:02PM

    great that they are so supportive, but believe me, I have no doubt that if they didn't like it, they would say something, so just assume they like it. *grin* emoticon

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PEPPERMINT125 2/22/2011 1:47AM

    Funny! Glad they're supporting the exercise! emoticon

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MELLIL 2/21/2011 9:37PM

    Oh listen... I'm a redhead right? I've been a redhead my entire life -- which INCLUDES my entire married life. I got my hair "frosted" one time - ONE time. It took my HUSBAND two full weeks before he said "Have you done something to your hair? It looks different..." I shot my daughter one of those I'm gonna KILL him looks... and he headed for his garage! MEN!
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What do you do Mace?

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ONESPOTLEFT 2/21/2011 6:21PM

    try blue

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BECKYI39 2/21/2011 4:03PM

    Sounds like they are very supportive. Maybe in a few days they will notice. Glad you have a support system at work.

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JULIAOAK 2/21/2011 3:54PM

    brilliant!! emoticon

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MCKATIE2 2/21/2011 2:57PM

    How interesting! :) How wonderful to have such a supportive group though!

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MTULLY 2/21/2011 2:51PM

    Your guys do sound like a supportive group, so they definitely should be forgiven for being so unobservant. Though I do wonder if they collectively might need their vision checked...Of course, it could just be because they are guys - that excuse covers just about everything! They still sound like a great group, and I think you are lucky to have them! They have certainly noticed the important things!

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KAREBARE00 2/21/2011 2:33PM

    i chopped off my hair a few years ago (like 10 inches - donated it), and was surprised by the number of people who didn't notice!!!

i think sometimes people can tell something's different, but if they're not quite sure (even if it's something that obvious), they don't say anything for fear of being wrong.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/21/2011 1:38PM

    Men just don't notice that stuff sometimes. My fiance doesn't even notice a new shirt. Just how I look in it lol.

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MARCYNA 2/21/2011 1:34PM

    They need some more days to notice, but they'll comment favourably, just give them some more time emoticon

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Why am I doing this?

Thursday, February 17, 2011

In preparation for the start of the 2011 Winter-1 5% Challenge, we were given an assignment:

"Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. What do you want to change? How do you want to look? How do you want to feel? What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? And list all the OTHER things that you want to change!"

On the surface this looks so simple. Of course, there are the "right" reasons. You know the ones we all spout off as soon as someone asks us why we're losing weight. I just want to be healthier and able to live a long and non-medicated life. I'm tired of being so tired all of the time and I feel great now that I'm losing weight. All true of course, but not the complete story, or at least not for me.

Digging a little deeper, I discover that there are so many more reasons than those. The vain, not pretty, reasons or the ones that are embarrassing or oh so private. So I'll list some here, but this is by no means a complete list.

1. I DO want to be healthy. Weight loss combined with *gasp* exercise makes me feel better physically and mentally. Iím still quite a ways from my goal and my self-esteem and confidence are higher than theyíve ever been. I know this is because of the exercise combined with trying to lose weight.

2. I want to be able to go into any store and buy clothes. Lord help everyone around me when that becomes the case, because there is NO telling what I'll be wearing. There's a lot to say for dressing classy, but that isn't going to be the case here. Oh, well, if you don't like it, look over there.

3. I want guys to stop what they are doing to watch me walk past. I'd even appreciate a wolf whistle or two.

4. I want to be able to choose whether I want to do something, not be forced to sit on the sidelines because I don't "fit". I've always wanted to go skydiving, but when I had the opportunity when I was younger I didn't go. I figured they wouldn't have a jumpsuit big enough and who in there right mind would want to tandem jump with me. Don't get me wrong, I've done a lot, but I hate that I've ever turned something down because I was too big to participate. If I choose to not do something, fine, but I want it to be my choice for a change.

5. I want to run a 5K. And then a 10K and then... anyone catching on to where this is going?

6. I want to be able to do 100 "boy" push ups! And then 100 situps, and then 200 squats and then 25 pull ups. I want to be STRONG, STRONG, STRONG!

7. I want people to say "Wow, you have great arms and great legs and geesh, look at your back and you must workout all of the time. I could never do that". And then I can say Thank you and Oh, but you can.

8. I want to get under 200 pounds for the first time since HS or college (I stopped weighing around there, so I have no idea when I passed that milestone.)

9. I want to walk into a room and feel like people are staring because I look good not because they hope they never let themselves go like that.

10. I want to be able to get nekkid without turning out the lights.

11. At 6 feet tall and even at my goal weight, this is probably just a wish, but hey a girl can dream. I want to be light enough that a guy can pick me up. I don't expect the romance cover sweeping me up, but like I said, a girl can dream.

12. I want to lower my risk of diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems and all of the rest. And if I do face any of these or worse, Iíll be as healthy as possible to fight and survive them.

13. I want to be able to fit in any seat in any car and not have the arm or seat belt buckle gouging me in the leg.

14. I donít want my niece and nephews to ever be embarrassed to introduce me to their friends. Hope that I can serve as an example so , those same niece and nephews to grow up eating healthy and being active and not learning to be unhappy with their bodies.

15. Would love to inspire other family members to get moving and take charge of their weight and health. I really want them around a long time. Not going to be much point being healthy and living longer if the people I love arenít here.

16. I want to wear a bathing suit, in public, and feel comfortable. Really want to be able to wear a bikini, but, whew, thatís a tough one to even contemplate thinking much less doing.

17. I want people who havenít seen me in a while to not recognize me. I want the double-takes and the gasps and the whole shebang. I want to go to a HS reunion and be the most changed.

18. I want to share my journey in the hopes that it helps someone else get started or keep going. Cause being overweight is painful inside even when you say you are comfortable with yourself. People are mean and the things you hear hurt. Truthfully, the things Iíve said to myself were even worse, but NO more.

19. I want to be in pictures. Lots of pictures. Front row center!

20. I want to sit in one of those flipping white plastic chairs with NO FEAR!

I know losing weight wonít make me a happy person. But it will make me proud of myself. Understand that I CAN set a goal and make it happen. That my life is in my control, so I have to take charge. My life is happening now and I want to participate 100%.

  
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PEPPERMINT125 2/21/2011 8:25PM

    What a great list! Some really good reasons to motivate you! emoticon

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FARLEY_GIRL 2/21/2011 2:33PM

    I completely understand where you are coming from!!!! I did go skydiving when I was younger (but still overweight)...it was the most amazing thing I've ever done!! You will never regret it!!! I don't know how much you weigh now, but why not look into doing it NOW? Then again when you hit your goal weight? I think I was around 190-200 when I did it. It is what I will be doing when I reach my goal weight....and compare pics of me in those nasty jump suits :-) Can't wait!!

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MCKATIE2 2/19/2011 10:04AM

    What a beautiful post! Great for you! I understand that our goals are complicated and twisted at times with our emotions. I think it's fabulous to be so passionate! You can do this.. you really can!!!! emoticon

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CANOGAPARKGAL 2/18/2011 3:59PM

    great list. emoticon emoticon

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MELLIL 2/18/2011 10:26AM

    BRAAAAAAVO! Oh how I LOVE THIS POST!!! I don't have all those issues... I definitely don't... I might have when I was younger! Who can remember back THAT far!? But I just LOVE the honesty and the "realness" of this post! And I want ALL of that FOR you! I so DO! You're gonna DO this thing! I just KNOW it! emoticonGOOOOO YOU!!!

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LADYBUGG67 2/18/2011 9:43AM

    Excellent post! Your desires are similar to mine.

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MTULLY 2/17/2011 7:43PM

    Great reasons - very detailed and well thought out. I have no doubt that you are going to make it happen! Go, Cloverleafs!
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PUGLVR760 2/17/2011 5:20PM

    Good for you! emoticon

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JULIAOAK 2/17/2011 3:53PM

    that is a long list!! you can do it!!! emoticon emoticon

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ACCT1908 2/17/2011 3:43PM

    WOW. This sounds a helluva lot like my list. Yes my dresses will be ....skimpy! LOL

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