Wednesday, September 02, 2009
I texted my sister, TEE803, in a total panic today.
We were driving to Deep Creek, MD for a little R & R and a family wedding this weekend. I haven't been away from home since I really began with Sparkpeople on January 4th. I've lost 38 pounds so far and was in a complete panic that this 4 day adventure would totally have me backsliding.
TEE assured me I would be OK. I was going somewhere with a health center, a pool, and plenty of walking trails. I brought most of our food, so that only 1 meal a day would be eaten out.
I told her that what would I do about the other meals, the appetizers, the wedding dinner, the desserts? And no scale to keep me accountable?
She texted me through it, being my Life Coach, instead of me being hers for a change!
I brought my new laptop, figured out how to access the internet here so I could keep up with Sparkpeople.
Lo and behold, I've drank all my water, made sure to eat the best I could out, took a 45 minute walk with hubby and then 30 minutes on the elliptical trainer. I'm now on the last set of reps for my QuickFire challenge!
A year ago, this NEVER would have been this way! I truely owe Sparkpeople and all my fellow sparkers for this total lifestyle change!!!!
I now KNOW i can make it through the wedding and even the upcoming holidays!
Thanks to all who have helped me with support & love:-)
Friday, August 14, 2009
It may sound ridiculous, but one of my original goals when I began this journey was to not have to shop at Lane Bryant any longer!
Today I had to go out bra shopping. My old ones were woefully the wrong size now. I treated myself and went to Victoria's Secret. I NEVER thought a bra shopping trip could be so amazing! She gave me a black tshirt to put on over the new bras, so I could see what they would look like under a tight tshirt.
My jaw thumped on the ground! I actually looked good! I mean, really good! 38C!
Then I went to Old Navy to do the other dreaded chore. New jeans. I have no long pants that even begin to fit me any more. I got rid of over 3/4 of my clothes this past week. They are having an "all jeans $19.99 sale", so I figured I'd try.
I got to buy a size 12!!! I'm still dreaming. I used to buy an 18 or 18/20.
Then I thought I'd try a few shirts because with fall coming, I have no long sleeve shirts. I got to buy a size L! I used to buy 1X or 2X.
I then hit up Kohl's clearance rack and tried all all "normal" sized clothes. Tops & dresses.
Not until today did I see my new self in the mirror. I realized maybe people weren't just being nice by saying how good I looked.
It's still going to take me some time before I actually accept the new me. The fat person inside of me still clouds the vision of myself.
This is going to have to be my next step to work on. First more water, exercise, fruits & vegetables. Now, learn to love myself. This may be the toughest step yet!
Monday, June 22, 2009
I did it! I actually did it!
On January 4, 2009 I really set my mind to losing weight and getting healthy. My blood clot was still very active and I am still on 3 meds that "weight gain" is a top possibility. I had just had a surgery to stop the hemorrhaging. My balance was a little iffy due to my MS. But I decided that those things were not going to bring me down!
I figured July 4th was a great 6 month goal date. No one can forget that day. I lost 1-2 pounds a week, backsliding every time it was that TOM. (and I had a LOT of TOMs due to the coumadin) I really started drinking water. My hematologist and headache neurologist (migraines for 30 years) kept telling me to drink lots of water, but it was Sparkpeople who helped me slowly achieve my goals of upping my water and fruit/vegetable intake.
I started using a pedometer at the start. I used to use one before and knew it kept you honest about how lazy you were that day. My first goal was 10,000 steps a day. Now I never go a day without having 12,000 to 20,000 steps!
I really starting getting serious about exercise again. The New You bootcamp in January was a Godsend! Now I mix it up every day and LOVE doing it!
My sister (TEE803) had gained a lot of weight after getting clean and sober. I bought her a pedometer and told her to aim for 10,000 steps and that 5000 was sedentary. She has now lost over 30 pounds and we are workout buddies! She pushes, supports and amazes me every day!
My 25 year old son was laid off and very overweight and spent most of his time on the computer. He had the time to start walking with me. He soon picked up many of my habits. I bought him a pedometer and told him about the 5000 step rule of thumb. He now never goes to bed without at least 10,000 steps, limits his time on the computer, drinks lots of water and is making amazing choices about what he eats! He's now my second workout buddy and joins my sister and I all of the time!
I joined the YMCA when the heat started early this year. I can't tolerate the heat with my MS, so I finally broke down and joined for the air conditioning. Now I've tried spinning, kickboxing, zumba and water aerobics! Water aerobics and yoga have really helped my balance issues. And along the way I've met some other people there that have truly inspired me!
Now my daughter in grad school has started walking with me every time she's home and joined me and her brother on some great walks! She never ceases to amaze me! She's recently become a vegetarian and I now incorporate vegetarian meals into our mix when she's home. I'm sure I'll start trying more vegetables because of her!
My husband of 26 years has the metabolism of an 18 year old. He is still in absolutely amazing shape. He wears the same size jeans as he did in high school. But he is hypertensive with moderately high cholesterol. He has now quit fighting me on all of the food changes in the house and joined the band wagon. His high blood pressure is under control and his cholesterol is within normal ranges. He walks with me on occasion and we're going to start bike riding soon! All in all, our relationship has really improved. I feel better about myself and am feeling much more like the person I was when we met when I was 16 and he was 17.
As I reflect today on the past 6 months, I feel truly grateful and blessed.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
For our Sparkpeople Swimsuit Bootcamp, we're supposed to write a new blog about staying on track or a problem we're having.
I'm actually very proud of myself for how far I've come! 21 pounds now!
My problem is worrying about what kind of surgery I should have. I'm still having 2 TOM a month on coumadin. So Mirena IUD or hysterctomy?
I desperately need a bladder sling, but having to take a full month of not working out worries me terribly. And after seeing my sister go through it a couple of weeks ago, I'm even more doubtful. But I haven't had bladder control since age 18. That's 26 years now and it's only getting worse.
Not too mention I never to well with any medical procedure. My oblation in December is one of the worst "fails" the office had for the procedure.
I really just need to make up my mind and move forward. The obsessing is only getting worse every day. And as my sister and I are fond of saying, "Stress makes you fat!" SIGH.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Our youngest, Elyse, graduates from Pitt tonight with a Bachelor of Philosophy in Rehabilative Sciences. To earn that she had to write a thesis and defend it as a undergrad. Only 20 students are receiving a B.PH. out of thousands. And now Pitt wants to have her paper published.
We actually got watch her present and defend her thesis to the committee. I am still in awe of her 2 weeks later.
It really got me thinking about our 3 children. First of all, all 3 kids graduated with over a 4.0 from high school and were involved in everything from marching band, orchestra, varsity baseball and the musicals.
-Raymond graduated from Penn State with a degree in Plastics Engineering. Then received a master's degree from Carnegie Mellon in Chemical Engineering. (he earned a 2 year masters in 1 year.) He is now a research engineer.
-Kevin graduated from Pitt in 3 1/2 years with a degree in Business Finance with a minor in history. He bought his first house in his senior year and got married that summer. He now works for Westinghouse and starts grad school in August.
-Elyse not only earned the degree mentioned above but also a certificate in the Psychology of Rehabilitation. She begins graduate school in June working toward her PhD to work in research.
I'm not bragging. Only totally amazed by our 3 children. My husband & I got married at age 18 when I found out I was pregnant. The estimates on how long our marriage would last ranged from 6 months to a year. Then we had 3 kids in 3 1/2 years. We've now been married over 26 years!
We had so little money that most weeks I was relieved just to feed them. Things didn't really get better til a few years ago. I have horrible guilt that all of our kids each have SOOOO much in student loans.
Even with little money, we were involved parents from the beginning. Everything from PTA president to girl scout and cub scout leaders to baseball coaches to marching band chaperones. We honestly have no regrets about how we raised our kids, but just wished we had the money to pay for college.
I was a terrified pregnant teenager 26 years ago and now our youngest is graduating valedictorian from her school in college. I'm usually pretty down about myself, but I can be so proud of being the parent of 3 absolutely amazing kids! I need to learn to keep this feeling of self-worth with me all of the time!
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