Monday, January 02, 2012
Hello, and welcome to my blog. I hope you find something that will inspire you today.
As you may know ĖIím Lynn, and I love life. I know this sound like an introduction and thatís what it is. This is an introduction to who I am. Not who others may want me to be, who what others see me as, but this is an introduction to me.
When I stepped away from sparks for a small moment. I stepped away to clear my thoughts. It was not hard for me at all. Not only did I step away from sparks. I stepped away from my gym platform, and gave that pressure to those who have the time and energy to deal with those emotional people. Iím emotional myself, and itís hard for me to deal with people with high emotions. I have high emotions and when you have women who canít get a break with this ďweightĒ thing it makes it hard for you to stay motivated and clear headed on what you are trying to achieve for yourself.
So, I took a few steps back. I love the gym. I really do, but I felt it was about time for me to just step back. With that stepping back, I let a lot of things fall as they may. I had to learn how to really get a hold of this stress. What was eating at me, and what was making me fat. I could not get a hold of those issues dealing with life at the same time.
I had to step back and balance myself. Find that thing that sparks concerns in my life, and stop focusing on everyone elseís concerns for a moment. I had to stop looking at all the. He said. She said. They said. And become one with my own.
I within 2 months learned that. My weight didnít make me who I was. It was I who made me who I was. My curves didnít make me a woman. It was I who made me a woman. It was not my smile that made me appealing to others. It was my spirit that made me look appealing to others. It was not my waist size, skin, or height. It was my frame of mind.
And when I started to look at the true beauty within; everything started to balance out.
I feared no more. I worried less, and I became aware of what was going on around me. I became one with myself. I removed those who didnít concern me Ėand those who didnít have concerns for my wellbeing. I was not ashamed to go into 2012 friendless.
I saw a vision and I locked on to that vision with my eyes and my spirit.
I now pray every night before I close my eyes. I can lie there and pray in song until I fall to sleep. Iím praying within my thoughts, and I can hear my voice, and if you havenít tried prayer without moving your lips, you should. Iím speaking with my heart and mind, and it might sound as if Iím going on and on, and bouncing all over the wall with my prayer, but God knows where Iím heading, and what Iím all about.
I had to learn what direction I needed to point this vessel in.
Should I go left, right, or straight through? The answer is. Straight!
I had to be straight with myself. Open with me about me.
Leaving all the lies and worries those others said about me.
Iím sure you all have heard this line before.
ďHere she goes again with this diet talk Ėfamily, friends, & spouseÖĒ
Yeah, they are quick to place judgment; because of your past actions.
They are quick to turn your positive into a negative.
They are quick to motivate you against your own self actions.
Quick to shoot you down, before you are able to get up.
Donít let people push you to putting yourself off.
Donít let people walk around in your thoughts with muddy feet.
Donít let people drive your vessel. Thatís your vessel, and you have the right to guide it in any direction you choose.
Find balance, and move forward.
If you feel you need to tell people you are on a diet.
Tell them, but be strong about it, and tell them what you need from them.
Be serious! Donít let your health become a joking matter for them.
We only have one life. 1!
We are responsible for many when we become mothers, fathers, grandmothers, grandfathers, aunts, and uncles. We set the foundation for those children, and they need us to be around to help them become who they are. We canít show them, teach them, or provide for them when we are broke, weak, lost, or stolen in others moments.
So, Iím posting this blog so you all can free yourself.
Free yourself from negative vibes, and start speaking positives into your life; for the sake of your family.
You only have one life to live, and believe it or not.
If you have a family; you no longer live for you. You live for them too.
So, in 2012; cast your concerns and place them on high.
Place them in the hands of the father ďGODĒ.
And build your stair case to life a high one, and start to R-E-A-C-H.
Return back to you, enter into you, achieve you, center you, and become healthy.
Good luck, and blessing unto you in 2012.
Letís make this a wonderful year.
And let all things be GODS Will.
Sunday, January 01, 2012
Hi, Iím BACK! Yes, I am going to be sparking my behind off.
You got it. Itís time to unleash the madness, and take charge once again.
Now, letís get to the truth of the matter here.
I put on some pounds. Last week I was 197. And today I am 191 point something; rounding that point number up the nearest number giving me a total of 192. I dropped 5 pounds, and I dropped those 5 pounds eating a little better than I had been in the past, and eating more foods. Iím going to be honest with you all. I took a break. And when the weight started to hop on; I didnít care. I knew I was going to get back on track right after Christmas, and I knew I wasnít going to pig out on New Year Eve, but I did. And I still woke up 5 pounds down. I weigh on Sunday. And I plan on sticking to my plans. I will not let the scale become a part of my household dťcor. I just step on and put it back up. No need in keeping it out so I can see it. I know I must keep my mind on the prize, and the prize is HEALTH. Not some million dollar jackpot. Iím focus and I am ready to do this. With Christ who strengthens me. Iím not going to say, this is going to be all carrots and apple slices. This is going to be work as well. And Iím so ready to put in my work. Do my best, and to keep on swinging the bat until I knock the ďFATĒ out of the ball park.
So, Iím back. I donít have much to say. Iím just letting you all know. Iím back, ready, and willing to do what is RIGHT for me.
Happy New Year, and start living.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
How many times will I do this?
I know you are like. What is this? What is she saying? How many times is she going to do ďWHATĒ?
How many times will I lose weight? How many ďdietsĒ will I go on in 2012? How many times will I fail at this?
~Fact! I am no longer on a diet.
~Fact! I am no longer comparing myself to others.
~Fact! I have nothing to prove to NO-BODY.
~Fact! Counting calories and fat grams, and weighing ourselves, has made us the fattest nation on the planet!
~Fact! There is no proper diet!
~Fact! One diet does not fit all.
~Fact! Weighing ourselves is the one misleading manner by which we gauge how fat we are.
~Fact! The issue is not weight. The issue is body fat.
~Fact! We are too fat, and as a result, some of us are also too heavy. ďBig BonedĒ
~Fact! Lack of muscle leaves you sluggish.
~Fact! Not building and rebuilding muscle is part of the reason why we are fat.
~Fact! When you go on one of those crazy starvation diets, the first source of fuel your body is going to use is your organs. Not the extra loads of fat.
~Fact! A scale cannot tell you ďyourĒ fat Ėonly you and a highly trained professional can.
~Fact! Weight, gets more credit than ďfatĒ.
~Fact! We all donít believe the scale, but we trust it anyway.
~Fact! We have little faith in what our clothes say. We always run to the scale.
~Fact! Watching the scale means watching your weight.
~Fact! We do not know our true ďfatĒ weight.
~Fact! When you weigh on a scale; it weighs and reveals everything about you.
~Fact! All it takes is 1 day out the week to set up a great fitness and meal plan. Can your scale do that?
~Fact! You donít need to invest into some crazy gimmick to lose fat. All you need is commitment and anyone can commit to something as simple as that.
~Fact! Have a little sex a few times a week to burn extra calories. Cheap exercise that does not require a gym membership!
~Fact! Get up and start doing for yourself, reading my blog isnít going to get you there.
Ask yourself these questions. Are you losing ďweight or losing fatĒ?
Do you know the difference in the two? Weight vs Fat!
You donít know the difference in the two. We all set our goals based on the scale.
Okay, Iím not talking for the ďspark nationĒ let me clear that up before the post replies come rolling in on this blog right here.
No disclaimer hereÖ
Iím talking about ďWEIGHT vs FATĒ. I want to make that clear and simple.
Everything is weighed on that scale. Hair, teeth, organs, skin, water, bones, and body waste. Iíve known this for umpteen years.
Iíve known this-like forever as my daughter would say. And when I started to break down my ďfatĒ I came to this big understand of what is what.
What is lean body mass and what is fat. Iím working my behind off to lose weight. Not fat, but weight. Iím pushing my body to the breaking point with cardio and a host of other Bcrap and Iím stressing myself out over 1 freaking number. A pound is a pound loss. You cheer about 10 pounds, and someone is quick to tell you- you didnít lose weight. First of all! You lost weight. True enough, but what type of weight was it. Is it really unknown to you? Why YES! You lose some more. The scale is moving true enough, but the jeans still fit the same. You lose another 10 pounds, and now you see some changes in those jeans. You almost gave up, but the scale kept you going now didnít it. You start to think the dryer did one hell of a shrinking job on your jeans or your hips are spreading from all those squats. You were getting ready to say. ďThe hell with Kim Kardashian behindĒ! But the numbers on the scale starts to balance out with the fit of the clothes.
You are not sweating it, but oh no here we go Ėwe done hit a plateaus.
Now, we stuck on this number. We are no longer looking at the abs that stands like two knots under our bust-line. All we see is that number. We donít even see the fact that we done dropped a few cup sizes. We are no longer a Double D. We are barely a D! We donít even notice the hooks. Remember the last one at the very end. The closest ones to you as you reach back to hook up. How many of you are smart enough to hook in the front, and slide those hooks around to the back? Sliding your arms in and tucking those babies in tight. Iím all for the hook it in the front and slide it around the back. Learnt that one from my, Mama. An easy way to drop another reason why you must lose the fat!
We can list all the reasons why we need to lose weight.
But we canít list one reason why we must lose the fat.
Itís all about weight this, pound that, jean fit, dress fit.
Comíon! Get with the freaking program ďgirlyĒ.
YOUíRE FAT get OVER the WEIGHT!
This thing right here canít tell me a D thing.
All it report is numbers. 1,2,3
If I work out every day and weigh once a month, the reading might remain the same.
But my clothes and my eyes can tell me something different.
My metabolism can tell me something is changing.
I do not need a scale to weigh my outcome. I do not need a scale to tell me I need to lose weight. I can clearly see that.
And I do not need a scale to tell me. How many times I will at this. Been there, and done it oh too many times.
You see, we let the scale cast our verdict.
The bath room is the court room, and the scale is the jury.
As we stand there tall, scared, and unsure of the verdict.
The jury comes in with the verdict. Your weight is ---. You step off, and you go on with your day.
Now, people donít believe me when I say this, but Iím going to say this right here.
That number, whenever we receive it starts off our day.
It tells us. We are going to skip a meal today. It even tells us we are going to eat heavy today.
Oh, go ahead. You lost x amount of pounds. Eat up, enjoy, have a carefree day on me.
Oh, and donít let us see a gain on that sucker. Oh Sh here we go again.
This sucker canít be right, Iím going to drink water all day and not eat a darn thing.
Iím not going to eat one bite. Iím fasting. Yeah! That one pound up didnít look too sweet.
Oh, and we better not see more than a pound gained. Sh here comes the nearest drive thru window.
And here comes stress to win another moment with the scale.
You step on that sucker again after drinking water all day long or that melt down order at Taco Bell. Now, we are looking at 9pm and not 9am.
12 hours later, and we standing on that darn scale again. Hoping to see some weight loss! LOL FAT CHANCE!
We step on once again. Now we are 3 pounds up. Sad and depressed, we kick the scale.
And then pray we didnít break it. Walk out the bath room, getting into bed, and pulling the covers over our heads, refusing to give or to have relations with our husbands. ďDONíT TOUCH ME!Ē Snapping at him, because the scale didnít give us our joyful high of successÖ Heís all loving, hugging, kissing, and rubbing, and that funky A scale done won the day. He says, you looking good baby. And we dis him just like the scale dissed us.
Heís like. Did I say anything wrong? Is it my breath! I forgot to take the trash out didnít I? Heís trying to figure out why he isnít getting any tonight, and the fat done won them all. Your number provided by the scale. Who had nothing to do with it! And your husband laying there wondering, is this diet crap ever going to end.
Yes! This diet crap is going to end, because Iím not going to live or lead my life based on ďnumbersĒ again.
Iím not going to let the ďWEIGHTĒ make my status or create my mood for today.
Iím not even going to let that scale rest on my floor day after day.
YES! You heard me.
That scale is no longer welcomed in my bathroom, gym, or bedroom dťcor.
I do not need it making or breaking who I am as a woman.
I do not need it making or breaking my role as a good wife.
I do not need it standing in my way telling me what is what.
I do not need it telling me I did a good job this week.
I have a few good mirrors a darn good man and one pair of jeans that can tell me how good of a sport Iíve been.
And those are the only scale Iíll ever need. If I canít pour this fat into them and zip them up. That means, keep on trying until I can zip them up.
If, I canít judge my fat loss with my own two eyes, then I need to puck them out.
I need to start judging me. I do not need a high price tool to give me false hopes and reports.
Itís just a number, and thatís all it will ever be.
Find yourself without the scale. Find yourself through what you do for yourself.
What you give your body and what you take from that day.
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
Itís been awhile since Iíve blogged. I havenít had much to say these past few weeks, and Iím in a process of dealing with my personal issues and myself worth. I do not mind sharing what Iíve been doing in my life, but I felt. I needed to let go of some issues from my past in order to make this journey a reachable attainable one. I look around at all this and this Ėand at those who have gotten this weight loss thing down pat. I might have all the tools and know how on how to drop this weight, but I do not hold all the answers nor the will power to keep this thing 100%. Iíve fallen, but I can get up. Iíve been doing my best, and I have mastered some knowledgeable things about myself. Iím blessed to be alive and itís about time I get in line Ėspiritually and mentally.
Food has never been a factor or the factor for my weight gaining.
Eating too much has never been a problem, itís when I eat, how I eat, and most of the time what I eat.
Iím the cleanest eater in the world when It; comes to ďdietĒ and depriving myself from those food I should not eat.
I had to strip away the stress. Slow myself down, and take a back seat and think this thing out.
It is what it is, and it ainít what it is. You know what I mean.
If you donít then Ėyouíll never understand what Iíve been taking myself through.
Let me break it down.
It isnít the food.
It isnít the exercises.
It isnít the calorie count.
It isnít what goes in the body.
Itís ainít what it is. MeaningÖ It isnít too much fat or too little or too much of anything. Itís all emotionally related.
Stress! Is my one and only factor, and in order to really get a hold of whatís going on.
I had to step away from page hopping and sparkís period.
I do spin my wheel for points and Iím off again.
I know this isnít showing much support as a spark motivator.
But I would rather remove myself than to give everyone false information or hope to carry on during a journey like this.
This Journey isnít easy, but this isnít the only journey I must focus on. There is a journey greater than ďweight lossĒ.
Itís all about spiritual awareness. Who am I spiritually and emotionally, and Iím taking the time to find that stuff out.
Thatís why Iíve backed away from sparks. I didnít back away because of something said on Spark People
I backed away because this was something I needed to do.
Itís not as if Iím tucking my tail and closing my account.
No, I am not doing that.
Iím holding my head up with pride, and understanding what is the root of this madness.
I had a few pounds sneaks up on me during the Thanksgiving weekend.
Iíve rid myself of those pounds, and now Iím just going with the flow.
And letting things go naturally Ėwith the spirit in mind.
I didnít get fat alone. I got stressed out and fat with other peoples stuff.
And I didnít lose the weight on my own either. I had help from otherís who had their stuff together who knew what was best for me.
Now, Itís about time I learn how to really use what I have knowledge of.
What Becky did last summer isnít going to help me at all.
What Sam did this fall isnít going to help either.
Learning whatís going to really work for me and apply it into my life is whatís going to work this time around.
So, Iím focus on doing me in 2 ways. Spiritually and Emotionally ĖI have to get those 2 working together hand and hand in order to get some healing and self-improvement.
Thatís the only way one can shed weight and issues.
And thatís to work on your stuff. And no one else stuff, just yours and yours alone.
And I have something to share with you all.
Since Iíve been working on my stuffÖ
Iíve been happy. Not this uptight head hanging low depressed soul.
Thanks to ďSweetlipsĒ a great sparker and friend... She looked at the writing on the lab-top screen and saw what I was in need of.
She has helped me in more ways than oneÖ How to see my inner self, inner beauty and my inner soul...
And Iíve been blessed with an earth angel.
So, Iím okay.
Thank you all for stopping by my page and checking in on me.
I am alright.
Iím just taking a few steps back, so I can know myself better.
Love you all,
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Weight reduction -don't come easy.
It takes a lot of work and big changes, with small steps.
I told my cousin.
Weight reduction can be done.
We didn't talk about weight loss today.
We talked about weight reduction.
I told her. I can lose 20 pounds, and it can all be from the mid section.
I also told her. I can lose 10 pounds and only see the reduction in my face.
I can lose 50 pounds and see the reduction every where.
Now that I'm struggling... I see little reduction, but not a lot.
The scale shows me one thing, and the body shows me something else.
I can go up 6 pounds and notice nothing.
So when you are losing weight and doing your best.
You look for the reduction. Not the weight that is loss.
Weight reduction don't come easy.
It's all hard work.
And we must put in the work to get these pounds off...
A little work goes along way.
Big Changes with small steps with get you far.
Do what it takes, and remember..
That this weight reduction isn't a slice of cake.
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