Monday, October 31, 2011
Today was a freebie day for me...
I didn't want to be hard on myself, so I made it a free day, mainly because of my kids.
They love to see me free and living in a happy moment.
Even if I had all the ripping and running to do with them and my GOD Children...
I made it happen, and I made it a happy day for them...
So, I had a low protein day. I didn't want to have a low one, but I did it anyway.
I also went on and did a wonderful cheese dip and chips. It was so good, and you know what.
My body was in need of that freedom day of eating... And I do eat, but it's been 90% RAW...
So, I had nacho "chips"... LOL! And it was great.. With beans and tomatoes... And some Sour Creme.. I know.. Shame on me. Shame Shame.. LOL, but it was good, and I understand a freedom day. It does not mean.. PIG out...
I ate some candy too.. I would be lying to you if I didn't...
I had a few pieces.. And that's all I needed .... Love Jawbreakers, and that's what I had.. Just 3 of them. And they were worth the fire jaws.. They were great..
Now, I must regroup..
Do 56oz of protein in the morning...
Drinks lots of water..
And RAW eat for the next 2 days..
But you know what.. It was all worth it...
Sunday, October 30, 2011
4 the past few days. I've been looking at my INDIVIDUALITY as a PERSON.
We were not meant to be the same. If we were- then we'll understand all things as a group of people...
I started to really go down memory lane. "How I was as this 1 of a kind person!"
My mom said. A lot of fashion statements should have started with me- because I was doing way before it became hip. So, I started to look at myself as an individual and my individuality.
YOU ARE MEANT
SO YOU CAN
MAKE A DIFFERENCE
IN YOUR LIFE!
I'm not your run of the mill cookie cutter girl.
And I do not CHOOSE to be one either.
So many thing started to bounce through my mind the other day.
I mean- I'm always picked out of the crime line up.
And who I am isn't a crime. It's far from a crime.
But to be an individual who stands on her on individuality- should not have me labeled as a trouble maker. And so far- I've been labeled as one...
A label- I do not care for or take to .
Is it so wrong to be me? To be who I am?
Should I be question on why I choose to be "sexy"?
These questions are "none above answer."
There is no..
A/B/C/ Or none of the above answers to me.
I am who I am. I'm simply unique.
Rough around the edges- but I am clearly me.
And it took awhile for me to go back to who I use to be.
Awhile, and it all started with the first date.
Then it started with the first kiss...
And yes ladies, I am talking about my wonderful husband.
He didn't date me because I was one of your cookie cutter girls.
He dated me- because I was simply unique.
You could not mold me over like clay.
I am who I am, and I choose to be me.
Now, there were times when I would act as if I didn't have a personality or individuality.
But I had it. I just didn't care to show it to the world.
I locked it away- because who I was at one point of time was beating out of me...
Pretty much. Emotionally abused out of me. So it became very hard to stand up and see my worth after years of emotional stress...
Then this colorful flower started to blossom within.
It's hard for me to explain- but I knew what was changing within me.
How I saw myself on the inside was changing, and the outside just grew into this woman with this full blown individuality... And I became this unique soul.
Who started to not only live for me. But I would die for me.
That's how unique I had become over the months. I'm this unquiet soul.
Who is fighting to live OUT LOUD with passion.
I'm passionate about who I am.
I will NOT back down- because someone does not know how to stand up for their on rights as a woman or a human begin.
Yes, I love me all over.
I love me- from the top of my head down to the soles of my feet.
I love me some me.
So, should I be ashamed of my individuality and personal drive for self worth?
No! I should not be. And my very own family member "cousin" - was making me feel bad for being proud of myself for understanding... Who I choose to be.
I choose to be sexy in my own right.
And I put the work in, and I focus on my goals.
I do not do this for my husband.
I do this... Because I am who I am.
I'm not doing this... To keep my husband at home or my marriage everlasting.
I do this because... I care a great deal about who I am as a individual.
I do not want to be labeled as a lacker or a lackey.
I do not want to be in this shell... When I've earned the right to be who I am.
I just won't hide or play dead to who I am on the inside or outside anymore.
Because someone choose not to do them.
Because... I am doing me...
And if I dress- some what like this...
Like Fantasia.... I'm just doing me... I'm not asking your husband to look.
So please, do not ask me to crawl into a shell because you are unsure about who you are.
I know who I am. I've came to far to stop being who I am now.
I've worked to hard to get here...
Just like every woman on sparks.
I'm on a mission, because I choose more for myself. I choose happiness and individuality.
And my personality.. Not just 1 label. A wife & mother. A simple "NOBODY". I choose to be something- someone- in this world.
So, today. After looking myself over.. Looking at my individuality..
I started to really notice my personality for what it is worth.
NO! I'm not a food lover.
NO! I'm not doing this for the swimsuit
NO! I'm not doing this to keep my husband.
NO! I'm not doing this for the jeans.
I'm doing it... Because.. I choose my own path to my individuality.
I share a label of health, blessing, spirituality and reality...
I am who I choose to be- because I am one with he and he is one with me.
And he walks with me.
He is my light and he is my path to my individuality...
Day 7 of Protein Living...
I did a 56oz protein shake this morning of 70 grams of protein.
I did greens & fruit in this smoothie..
I ate 8 chips today.. Really good.
And I had okra for dinner..
And this is my song.. Not gospel.. But this song is all about me....
Saturday, October 29, 2011
As you all know. Today was day 6 of my protein loaded, and I did very good today.
Today was a 75gram day, and I did very well and it was a morning- mid day fast, and then later on that night I had a hot meal with the family. Today was my free day. So I had fries.. I love them, and they aren't on my no no list.. And I had chicken nuggests.. Serving size only. I don't need extra's and my body was telling me. You don't need any extra. You know how you get that little tap from your tummy. A tap that something doesn't feel as good as it taste. Well, I got that tap from my tummy. I knew it wasn't the taste of the food, but since I've been without something really "hot" in a few days. It was a different feeling having hot food hit my belly, and my belly didn't like it that much. So I pressed on with a few more bites and I called it quits...
I had a loaded protein shake with spinach, pine apples, apples, grapes, and peaches. I had more servings of the spinach than I did the fruit, and you should have seen how GREEN that shake was. It was so nice looking. Next time I'm going to take a photo of it. Because it looked good.. All I needed was a mint leaf on top for a topper and it would have been something made in heaven. It was really that good.
What I can't get pass it this. How my body isn't craving stuff... Like junk, because the option to have it is this there.. You know, that's what fails people a lot. That option of not having something being gone. I know about cookies, chips, and the other things he said I can't have, but I have them.. Not the cookies, but I did eat some whole grain chips and they were wonderful. Just a few.. No more than 8.. You see how well I limit myself with my I can't have options.. I do a great job at it.
Anyway! I am loving how far I'm going.. I saw another .6 gone this morning, and I welcome it with a smile. Now, I'm not going to weight drop until the end of NOV.. Because I want to get past thanksgiving before I give myself a yo yo run for my money. That's not going to happen, but as my mother said to me today. How are you going to do our thanksgiving dressing, if you are x-ing out the things you eat.. Like a lot of spices.. Well, Mom! We are going to have to put the spoon in your mouth this year.. And for christmas too.. I have no shame in tossing the spoon in your mouth..
I can't trust my husband or the kids, but your taste buds on my dressing is just right..
So, you'll do great.. I trust ya..
Yes- Everyone.. I am dead on it. I mean business.. I don't have to taste the turkey. I don't have to taste the pies.. I don't have to taste the dressing or the ham.... I don't eat it. So she can handle that.. I will not even taste the mac and cheese.. I'm on a mission.. And that's me!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Uploading on protein isn't that hard, but if this is something you want to try. Please talk it over with your health provider. Many people try different weight loss acts, and don't share any information with their health care provider. So please! If this is something you plan on doing in the future. Talking it over with your doctor will help a lot...
Sorry for all the noise in the background. It's good and cold here in alabama, and my husband had to turn on that darn heat.. He's cold.. LOL!
And one more thing. I was having a bad dread night. It's time to tighten them up. Thats another blog within its self, but I would not trade my natural for the world. Its a journey, and I am seeing growth and change within me- once again.
I hope you like my V-blog.. Stay kind and be sweet to yourself....
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