Tuesday, April 30, 2013
I woke up about 30 minutes ago out of dead sleep so totally discombobulated that it took me longerto figure out that it was the middle of the night & that I was in my bedroom. Lol!
Ever done that before?
As I laid back down there was a surge of emotion folliwed with "I refused to accept thos"! Accept what? I didn:t know. There was no definitive, concrete "Aha". Just a powerful surge of emotion. It took another 30 minutes since I now was wide awake to figure out what has happening.
I had been dimissed that afternoon by someone as if I was a petulant,grey haired child by a 40-something assistant manager in the senior complex I live in & pay to reside in. I had gone to file a complaint. Apart from the fact that not one time did she stop working on whatever she was doing & several times interruptions with the re eptions just walking in on a clised door meeting without knocking so she could eavesdrop (which was part of my complaint),
The unproffesionalism by staff & indifference has led toa host of other things.
But being dismissed was the last straw.
I've now cancelled my project with the complex.
Note that I've not cited what the project was nor the content of my complaint. It is irrelevant to this blog. What is is about being dismissed & waking out of a dead sleep & paying attention to what is needed, what is ac eptable.
Maybe it is part of the process, but I've become far more impatient with crass people nor willingness to live a lie. There:s been many not a whole, whole lot but enough moments in the last couple of weeks where truth telling was alive & rare form". I do not want to be a willing participant in the dance. Somethings one can tolerate because choosing the battle may need to be necessary; there are those other times...well it is intolerable.
I've now released myself from doing this...this thing..this dance.