Wednesday, January 18, 2012
this is a journey. i have to keep my mojo up DAILY and start new EVERY DAY
i havent blogged for a while. i really messed up during christmas. At the same time, around end of December and beginning of January, i was trying to go off Effexor, which i have been on for 8 y rs. i gained about 5-7 lbs. i guess i was hoping i could blame it on going off my meds. i had all kinds of horrible side effects due to going off meds, so i have finally just gave up and went back on medicine. so, hoping that those lbs would magically go away since i went back on medicine, i started eating decently and lighlty excercised. those lbs are still hanging on. God forbid i got those lbs by eating too much at christmas. That cant possibly be the reason i gained weight!!!
so now, i have totally lost my mojo. i was doing c25k and i was in week 4. now, i just am really tired. tired of the battle of the buldge. tired of excersicing. tired of trying to eat healthy with no results
i thought about going back to see Carrie at the ymca. She is a wellness coach who has very successfully lost weight by eating clean. i have gone back to her several times. i just feel like such a failure if i go back again.
i have also figured out that i am aftraid. afraid of failing. what if i go to carrie and i follow everything and dont lose any weight or inches? i know how discouraged i wld be.
i really need some help getting back on track. i know i can count on my spark friends to pick me up and help me with this and help me to get my mojo back.
how slowly should i start my excercise back..maybe i shld start my c25k up from begining. i am open to suggestions.