Monday, November 18, 2013
the last few days i feel like i have been trying hard. i got on scale today( even though i told myself only on fridays to do that). it was up.
surprisingly, i did not get discourged. i thought about the last few days and my habits. since we have moved, i have gotten away from my water, only drinking about 2 glasses a day. that is my #1 mistake.
i still am struggling with peanut butter. i just cant control my portion. and i tend to grab a sandwich at about 1 am when everyone is in bed. that is #2 mistake
i consumed about 1900 calories yesterday. that is # 3 mistake
so instead of beating myself up, i am changing my habits. i put my fitbit back on. i upped my water and upped my excercise. i am gonna have to totally give up peanut butter. this is a hard thing
so i am feeling pretty good today. postive and on the right track.
i am going by how i feel, not by the scale.
Thursday, November 07, 2013
all the support i received from yesterdays blog about my husband saying after 50 you could not be sexy really gave me some motivation.
as i was thinking about this, i realized that this is one reason i am afraid to lose weight. i am afraid that i will feel sexy and my husband will not realize that i am alive and sexy.. we had problems in the past when i lost weight. when i lose weight, i want to do things and feel alive. my husband is like a bump on a log . i love him, dont get me wrong, but i know longer want to sit on side lines and watch life pass me by.
i am not sure what direction this weight loss journey will take me, but i do know that it is also an emotional journey. i will change along the way. that is a good thing. i dont want to remain the way i am. in order to progress and grow in life, i must change for the better both physically and emotionally.
now, its off to work i go. it looks chilly out and there looks like snow clouds. yuck!!!
Wednesday, November 06, 2013
i havent blogged in quite a while. i thought this topic is a good place to start. it is helping me to become motivated to see this through this time
i am 50, almost 51. my husband is 57. i had on a pair of jogging shorts this morning and said to him , i know these are sexy arent they? and then i laughed.
he replied back to me, well, at our age it doesnt even matter. sexy is gone and not coming back.
that really irritated me. i believe you can be sexy at any age/
we have been married for 30 years and def need to get the fizzle back in our marriage.
so when i do get over my obstacles and start feeling sexy again and looking sexy, i hope it inspires him and we can get our sexy back
Monday, November 04, 2013
i have flubbed up big time but it is never too late to start living a healthy life. i will learn from mistakes of the past month
i have ate practically everything bad in sight. a bunch of junk food, havent excercised, havent really cared.
it all started when i decided to go off effexor ( my anti deppressant) if you know anything about this drug, it is great and really will help with anxiety. but what the dr doesnt tell you is that once you are on it, you will go thru hell trying to get off it. i have tried 4 times and cant get off it. i tried once again a month ago and failed miserably. i totally screwed up myself.
so i decided the heck with it, i will go back on it and stay on it. so that is what i did and it took me nearly a month and a half to get myself back to my old self where i actually cared about what i looked like and what i was feeding my body.
so now, after moving and buying a great new 4 level split that i love in a great neighborhood, i am feelling good and determinded to get back on track.
today, i have prepared a healthy dinner of broccolli, quinoa, and chicken. i have had my green smoothie, and walked my dog for 30 min.
i love spark people and have missed all the daily support and motivation that this website offers.
love you guys
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