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Happy 4th of july

Friday, July 04, 2014

Independence day!! A day to be thankful for the freedom we have living in this great country!

I have joined the"half size me"community. If you don't know what it is it is a great podcast and community of people that weightless and getting healthy as their goal. Heather is a great leader who has lost 130 lbs I urge everyone to check it out
She was blogging about how she turned her life around on 4th of July. She used independence day as her day to break free from things in her life that was binding her down

That is what I am going to do. No more" stinking negative thinking" concentrate and write down one positive thing each day that I have accomplished. No more feeling like I am ugly or fat. I am free to change my life and the things that hold me back

Her last meeting meeting talked about saying can't vs won't. Instead of saying I can't do something say I won't or I choose not to because.,.. that is bringing the ownership back to you. I can't jog? I won't jog because I am afraid my knees will hurt. Well, then take ownership and start with slow intervals.

This whole can't vs won't is freeing for my life. A whole new concept.

I am going to try this all day today. Every time I have a negative thought I am going to turn it around into an" I won't because" statement

This will increase my self confidence because I will realize anything I want to do is in my control


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KAREN-IS-HERE 7/5/2014 7:03PM

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LILHOBBIT29 7/5/2014 8:03AM

    Lovely blog!! Enjoyed reading about taking ownership of ones actions or lack of them! I agree that one must realise that we are in control here, not our feelings... :-)



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NELLIEC 7/4/2014 4:53PM

    Yes, that does sound like a very good way to turn your life around!

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another day of negative thoughts is teaching me

Friday, July 04, 2014

my second day of observations and i statements. i think it is time to take action on these things''
i have tried to be positive today but it just didnt work so well.

you know what, that is ok. i am reading a lot of blogs from people to help inspire me and help motivate me.

my first blog was a turnaround for me. it is time to start taking action. i need to take action and get this done. i am important enough that i need to do what ever i need to do to stay motivated and get at the top of my game with excercise.

maybe i am starting out to high. maybe jilliian michaels is a little too hard for me at first. maybe intervals are too much for me at first. i am going to walk on an incline steady state. i will increase and decrease incline as i walk. i will also do leslie sanases walking videos. i need weights also so i will do spark people videos for that. this wiill start me easier and get me off on right track and give me confidence. i will do this for 2 weeks and then move up.

i will track my food and eat plenty of veggies. i will eat every 3 hours to keep my sugar level steady. lots of protein and no refined sugar of any kind.

i am starting this tomorrow. i dont care if its a holdiay. i need to start.

some of my thoughts today were.....i feel so ugly with my hair. so sat i am going to go get blond hightlights and get a new style if possible.,

some more were..... saw a pic of myself. didn t look too bad but i def need to work on my body and on my hair. i need self confidence. i am going to look for articles on spark about this.

until tmr..keep being positive

  
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SLIMMERJESSE 7/4/2014 9:35AM

    Change takes time and patience. And it sounds like you are sticking to the journey. Good for you.

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BABYBARNEY 7/4/2014 9:28AM

    CELEBRATE each small step you make...it is an achievement!

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WORKNPROGRESS49 7/4/2014 9:13AM

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LILHOBBIT29 7/4/2014 7:03AM

    I agree completely! starting off with Jillian Michaels is (for me) a sure shot way of starting today and stopping by tomorrow or max day after!! Same goes for interval training.. Definitely start slow, start small and slowly add more into your plan whenever you feel like you can take on more! :-)

This is very do-able!! Keep at it!

Good luck!!

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PUDDLE13 7/4/2014 1:57AM

    Hey stick with it - it's so hard to change what you think.

I didn't exercise for years because I didn't think I was fit enough and it would hurt my knees. Then I found the 10 minute videos on Spark so I did those and tried to walk a bit more. Now I have moved onto the Jessica Smith website. There are long and short workouts 10 minutes to an hour with weights and without. I can pick and choose depending on how I feel but I try to do 10 mins everyday. My weight loss is iffy I struggle with comfort eating and consistency but I'll get there.

Pick something small to start with. Drinking water or 10 mins of exercise each day, walking to the shops. Start small and build it up and you'll start to see changes. For myself, I try to make a big change and I resent it.

And try to take a moment each day to see something positive each day - even if it's something simple or silly. It's simpler to see the things you want to change and harder to acknowledge what you like already.

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observations about myself--need help

Thursday, July 03, 2014

i really paid attention to myself today...my thoughts and actions a i was going about my day. these are some of the thoughts that i had regarding my negative self. i must work on these

1. my husband wanting to know why i dont want sex anymore...at first i didnt tell him but eventually i realized it wasnt fair for him to not know how horrible i felt about my body. i told him i have gained weight and didnt feel sexy. i needed to lose some weight to feel sexy again.

2.. as i was shopping with my mom...i had to return something to macys cause it was too big( i guess i not as big as i thought). i hurried and returned it before mom could tell i was in the plus sizes. i am so ashamed to shop in that section.

3. just an observation-- i was so disgusted with myself as i was looking at all the cute clothes that i just look really bad in. all because i never stick with anything. i do not put eating right at the top of my list. nor do i put excercise at the top. this has got to stop. i want to be a vibrant healthy,confident person.

4. as i at a light lunch with some girls i used to work with about 25 years ago. i wanted them to say i look great. they didnt . i know i have gained and i dont look great. the next time i see someone that i havent saw in a while i want them to say wow!! you look terrific. i want to be confident and in control. i just felt really out of place with them.

5. i thought i heard a dog howl as i walked through the parking lot. when you feel like you look good, you will put a better effort in looking good. i mean, i think looks wise i am ok. not drop dead gorgeious but ok. def not dog howling material. but oh well

6. right now, my level of confidence is low. i think of things men (no one in particular) just men i have ran across through the last year have said to me. calling me fat names, saying i dont look hot. i am just really tired of this. it hasnt even been all my life. it has been in the last 3-4 years cause i guess i stopped caring about myself.

7. the only one to change this is me. i dont know where to start. perhaps i will go back to weight watchers. excercise, i am trying some dvd and treadmill at home to save me some money. i have to increase my confidnece .

thank you everyone who read. i have just had a very thought provoking day. and i need to make some changes.

  
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LWADE1963 7/3/2014 4:59PM

    Rawcookie- I dint know there was a 100 days of Spangler team. I have the book and will look for the team

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RAWCOOKIE 7/3/2014 1:05PM

    This kind of negative feeling about ourselves is very familiar - and I have nothing to say that other people have not already said............ you are not alone. The self-esteem issues - there are lot of articles and things here on Spark People - get yourself inspired.

I'm going to give the 100 days of Linda Spangle team a try - it addresses the behavioural stuff................. want to join me?



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AMBERNICHOLE3 7/3/2014 9:51AM

    This has been me so many times, I am here if you ever need a friend

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BIGPAWSUP 7/3/2014 8:33AM

    Sweetie, break up with the negative. I know it's hard but you can make that changes you really want. Start right now, focus on good!

You returned things that were to BIG - who cares what size. At one time they would have fit, now they don't.

You got a howl!! OMG - I'd kill for a howl. Obviously someone liked what they saw.

And best of all, you have a hubby who WANTS you. How awesome is that!?!

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KAREN-IS-HERE 7/3/2014 7:54AM

    wow! I never actually ever heard males call women names in real life unless it was a couple arguing in public. I'm sorry you heard anything like that real or imagined-
I certainly used to imagine my obesity was my defining moment no matter where I was.

It's very hard to break up with one's own negative self-talk.... but it must be done. The narration in my mind now is still a little nutty- but not hateful as far as I can tell-
And to tell the truth, I've been know to ignore me myself- just because I get fed already with being me and want to think about something else- and yet I'm generally happy anyway...good luck with your goals

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DETERMINEDJANET 7/3/2014 1:53AM

    Oh....I can so relate to your blog!! You are right though...the negative has to get turned around so you feel worthy of making the necessary changes. I am down 87 and have about 40 to go and still am struggling at times. I think we have to really work at catching the negative talk quicker. I am in your corner saying YOU CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!!!

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BUBBALOOGA123 7/3/2014 1:38AM

    Ooh and for some fun workouts try Leslie Sansone on YouTube. She is SO upbeat! You get a nice workout AND feel great doing it.

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BUBBALOOGA123 7/3/2014 1:34AM

    I just went to your pictures and you look darling! Now back to your blog. One of the battles that I have fought and continue to fight is determining what does and does not serve me. Being aware is definitely the first step and one you should be proud of.

Finding a role model (even fictitious) and playing that role can also be a starting point to getting to where you want to be. And I'm not talking body image either. I'm talking about swagger and zest for life and devil may care! With that -- my backbone becomes stronger and then I can care less about what ANYONE thinks about me and my life, even the ones I love most dearly. Then that frees me to say what I want to say, enjoy sex, tell my mom to stick it (not in those words exactly, but you know what I mean) and tell myself that I'm beautiful and even tell my friends that they are beautiful without having to hear it from them in return. You ARE beautiful. Feel it and enjoy it -- you are worth it. :)

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i am in control of me

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

i read a great article on my 100 day challenge group that puppies4me posted. it was about making "I" statements. so i need to start this because i have not been doing so well with excercise and eating. i doing better with the eating part than the excercise tho.

i have not put excercise at the top of my list. i have put it on back burner. i need to do this first thing in the morning. i feel better about myself when i excercise and tone up. i
i have been wanting to do jillian michaels 30 day challenge so i am just gonna start and do it regardless of how i feel.

i also am in middle of c25k but not doing it faithfully 3 times a week. so i am gonna just do that on the days i do not do jillian michaels

i am gonna concentrate on "i" statements because i need to start responsibility for my actions.

i am in control of me



  
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BUBBALOOGA123 7/2/2014 11:05PM

    What a great blog. Taking personal responsibility has definitely been a key component in my journey to live a more healthy lifestyle. You're doing great! :)

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KAREN-IS-HERE 7/2/2014 7:17PM

    "I" like your blog!

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NELLIEC 7/2/2014 4:16PM

    Yes, those I statements do help!

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MAGGIEVAN 7/2/2014 3:55PM

    Just keep on keeping on!

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can I survive 2 more days?

Friday, June 27, 2014

2 more days till a week off. I feel like a slow moving turtle seeing the finish line but it will never get here.

Haven't been feeling so good. I take effexor and I took some benadryl for about 4 nights. I think the phenaldrymaine in it contradicts my effexor. After doing research found out a cream Dr gives me for my feet also causes problems.
Try asking a pharmacist or Dr if they cause problems and the answer will be"no" I been on the medication for a long time and I know it does

Anyhow, hope to feel better in few days and start vacation

  
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KAREN-IS-HERE 6/28/2014 2:39PM

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DETERMINEDJANET 6/27/2014 11:16PM

    Hugs!!! You can do it...one moment at a time!

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BIGPAWSUP 6/27/2014 4:45PM

    You can do it. Just focus on the time off

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