Friday, February 26, 2010
1. Health - Before losing the 44 pounds that I've lost so far I was/had: pre-diabetic, high cholesterol, migraine headaches, swollen ankles/feet at the end of every day, every bone and muscle from my waist down ached all the time, especially my hips and knees. And enough was enough... Now, after losing only 44 pounds, my sugar is normal, my cholesterol is normal (I see next week if I can drop my cholesterol medicine completely), my migraines are few and far between, I no longer take water pills for my swelling lower extremities because they no longer swell, my hips and knees still are little creaky, but feel much better, nothing that losing another 50 - 60 pounds won't take care of.
2. Self-confidence - I have been heavy since I was a pre-teen, nothing drastic, just always the chubby girl. It's just been within the last few years that I have lost control of my weight and zoomed like a rocket. I wouldn't even look at myself in a mirror because I couldn't stand the sight of myself. I made sure I put on my makeup in a "face only" mirror. I hated buying clothes, everything was tight, or pinched, or pulled. And no matter how much time I would take to try and look nice I always felt like a big ugly blob. So it's time to feel good about myself again!
3. Self-respect - Goes along with #2. I would see myself pass a mirror, or even worse yet a store window, and not even recognize myself. Not even see myself as that big reflection. Because even though I knew I was "big", I just couldn't imagine that that "really big" person was me. How did that happen? How did I let myself go and become this? So I not only need to look at myself now in a full length mirror and feel confident about what I see, but I need to look in the mirror and be proud of myself for what I've returned to.
4. Family - I want to go out with my husband among his friends and coworkers, take my mom out shopping and run into her old friends, go out with my kids and grandkids and their families among their friends and other family members, run into my old friends at the store - and not feel like an embarrassment to whomever I'm with. I want whoever we run into to afterwards say "wow, she was a really attractive woman", and not say "good lord, I never knew so-and-so's wife, daughter, mother was so big. I know all the above mentioned people love me the way I am, but I want them to be extra proud of me for what I'm doing.
5. Shopping - I am having so much fun already going and shopping in the "normal" size clothes, not the "woman's" section. And as I shrink I will continue to keep shopping, and celebrating, and looking "hot" in my new "little" clothes. I think I'm going to need a bigger closet!