Thursday, May 09, 2013
Wow where to start. I have been gone for a bit. Went through some traumatic things. In November my sugar spiked and would not go down at all for months. January I thought I had food poisoning twice, turns out I have Celiac Disease. In February I found out I was pregnant, at the same time I was put on insulin because of outrageous blood sugar and landed in the hospital for several days from very dangerous diabetic ketoacidosis. Ended up on bed rest for over 3 months. Was told my baby's heartbeat was low and there was a 50/50 chance. Found out at 9 weeks that the baby died a few days earlier. Carried the baby for another 2 weeks before taking meds for induction and having the baby at home. (This was beginning of April)
Since then I've experienced 2 more bouts of ketoacidosis and is something I fear will happen often because even though my numbers are good it's still happening. I have been a mess to say the least. Weight loss has totally been on the back burner. I did gain 7 lbs with the pregnancy but have since then returned to my pre-pregnancy weight so at least I am no worse for wear in that department. However all the meds and sickness have caused me 17 cavities in my teeth and I am in need of 2 root canals and an overdue wisdom extraction. Fun for me I am going to the dentist today to get started on all that. BUT I mean 17 cavities in a year!?! I have had maybe a total of 7 in my whole life. I totally feel like I am falling apart.
I could seriously use your guys help though. Here's why. My dear sweet husband, whom I couldn't have made it through these past few months without, signed me up for our local news stations Mothers Day contest. I personally don't know very many people and don't think I can get the votes. Today is the only day to vote. After finding out he submitted me and reading his tear-jerking submission, I knew I had to do the best I could to rally votes. Not only that, but if I won I would get a spa package (I've never been to the spa) lol, and more importantly I'd win a gift card for furniture and my boys desperately need new dressers for their bedrooms. It would mean absolutely the world to me if you guys could vote for me today, and even pass it along if you know anyone else who could vote. I would be forever grateful and it's an opportunity I'd be so blessed to have.
Here's the link wkef22.upickem.net/engine/Details.as
If you cannot access it, type ABC 22 News Dayton into google, pull up contests then marvelous moms and search for me - Amber Richards.
I thank anyone in advance who can take a couple minutes of their time to do this for me. I'm not the kind of person who is lucky nor wins anything but just knowing I have support is awesome enough for me!!
On a side note...I feel like I need to get back on the bandwagon for weight loss. I believe I am 54 lbs down now and I'm thinking at least walking and doing more things, as long as my body is able, will also keep my mind focused on other things than my recent loss. I won't lie..it has totally messed with my mind. If I were still pregnant I'd be hitting 16 weeks, and just around the corner from finding out the baby's gender. It's hard, and I do not know why one person has to go through so much, but I do know that if God didn't think I was tough enough, he would not have me go through it. So there must be a greater purpose out there that I have yet to figure out. Anyways, thanks everyone for reading this!
Thursday, September 20, 2012
The more weight that I lose, the more I am starting to realize that I've been a pear shaped lady and NEVER knew it! How could this be...when all the while I considered myself proportional or slightly hour glass! At first I thought the 50 lbs I've lost just hasn't caught up to my bottom half. But as I was reading online, truly pear shaped women will continue to lose up top, even if they aren't large up top anymore, and the bottom half will always be the last to lose.
Your shape is also more genetic than anything. So even if I was able to get down to my target weight and be in the normal range, I would still more than likely have a pear shape. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being pear shaped!! It's just that I never thought I was, and now I'm learning to accept that my previously larger body was never its true shape because I was never meant to carry that much weight around. My dilemma now is trying to figure out if there is a way to even out the weight loss a bit. I'm thinking of going back to Pilates because if nothing else, it will possibly help tone up those areas which have become problematic. I just don't want to end up a stick on top and a rock on the bottom, KWIM?
Perhaps acceptance of myself and things unknown is a far bigger obstacle right now than losing these last 50 lbs. Maybe I'm just freaking out over everything because I'm starting to realize my goal is attainable. I think all of us on our weight loss journey have learned more about ourselves than we could ever think possible. I am learning that this hasn't just been about the weight, or even controlling my diabetes. This has been about trying to learn to love myself no matter what shape, size or weight that I am. I am learning to love and appreciate life more. I am hoping that one day I can truly love the person who stares back at me in the mirror. I know I have gone too far to give up now, but it isn't an easy battle we have chosen to fight! Diligence. Diligence. Diligence.
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