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Back after hiatus & I need your help! Please read!

Thursday, May 09, 2013

Wow where to start. I have been gone for a bit. Went through some traumatic things. In November my sugar spiked and would not go down at all for months. January I thought I had food poisoning twice, turns out I have Celiac Disease. In February I found out I was pregnant, at the same time I was put on insulin because of outrageous blood sugar and landed in the hospital for several days from very dangerous diabetic ketoacidosis. Ended up on bed rest for over 3 months. Was told my baby's heartbeat was low and there was a 50/50 chance. Found out at 9 weeks that the baby died a few days earlier. Carried the baby for another 2 weeks before taking meds for induction and having the baby at home. (This was beginning of April)

Since then I've experienced 2 more bouts of ketoacidosis and is something I fear will happen often because even though my numbers are good it's still happening. I have been a mess to say the least. Weight loss has totally been on the back burner. I did gain 7 lbs with the pregnancy but have since then returned to my pre-pregnancy weight so at least I am no worse for wear in that department. However all the meds and sickness have caused me 17 cavities in my teeth and I am in need of 2 root canals and an overdue wisdom extraction. Fun for me I am going to the dentist today to get started on all that. BUT I mean 17 cavities in a year!?! I have had maybe a total of 7 in my whole life. I totally feel like I am falling apart.

I could seriously use your guys help though. Here's why. My dear sweet husband, whom I couldn't have made it through these past few months without, signed me up for our local news stations Mothers Day contest. I personally don't know very many people and don't think I can get the votes. Today is the only day to vote. After finding out he submitted me and reading his tear-jerking submission, I knew I had to do the best I could to rally votes. Not only that, but if I won I would get a spa package (I've never been to the spa) lol, and more importantly I'd win a gift card for furniture and my boys desperately need new dressers for their bedrooms. It would mean absolutely the world to me if you guys could vote for me today, and even pass it along if you know anyone else who could vote. I would be forever grateful and it's an opportunity I'd be so blessed to have.

Here's the link

If you cannot access it, type ABC 22 News Dayton into google, pull up contests then marvelous moms and search for me - Amber Richards.

I thank anyone in advance who can take a couple minutes of their time to do this for me. I'm not the kind of person who is lucky nor wins anything but just knowing I have support is awesome enough for me!!

On a side note...I feel like I need to get back on the bandwagon for weight loss. I believe I am 54 lbs down now and I'm thinking at least walking and doing more things, as long as my body is able, will also keep my mind focused on other things than my recent loss. I won't has totally messed with my mind. If I were still pregnant I'd be hitting 16 weeks, and just around the corner from finding out the baby's gender. It's hard, and I do not know why one person has to go through so much, but I do know that if God didn't think I was tough enough, he would not have me go through it. So there must be a greater purpose out there that I have yet to figure out. Anyways, thanks everyone for reading this!

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LUVLYATHENA 5/9/2013 8:52PM

    Thank you DRSUNSHINE1. And many blessings and well wishes for you and yours as well!

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DRSUNSHINE1 5/9/2013 5:14PM

    Voted for you - sending warm thoughts and well wishes to you and your family. emoticon

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LUVLYATHENA 5/9/2013 10:08AM

    Thanks guys! Everyone has been so helpful. I really appreciate it!!

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SANDICANE 5/9/2013 9:30AM

    Ok, I voted for you and sent the url to my hubby's e-mail. I'll run down there and vote for you again.

Good luck!

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MOM2OR 5/9/2013 8:24AM

    Sorry to hear about everything you've been through. I voted for you, good luck!

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LUVLYATHENA 5/9/2013 1:35AM

    Oh and on a weird side note...I had the baby EXACTLY one year to the day I was diagnosed with diabetes. Freaky. I think that's why I've told myself it has to be all my illnesses that caused it. It was already on my mind, but the fact I had the baby on the 1 yr anniversary just made me feel sure that it is my health that did it. Doc says I can try again in the future, but at the same time if I were to cause another loss it would rip my heart out and I'd want to die. It's such a tough thing to think about and if I can risk another pregnancy. I just don't know yet. Maybe in time things will fall in place.

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So I think I just started the 30 Day Shred!?! LOL

Sunday, September 23, 2012

I decided to give it a go yesterday...kinda on a whim. But I made it through it and a few hours later decided to do my daily 3 mile walk. Well I got a mile in and had to turn back because something went wrong with my right leg/ankle. It always gives me trouble but this was like an instant charlie horse x100 and now I'm really feeling it in my muscles, especially in that leg. But I'm still doing my walk today, just taking it easier and am going to try day 2 of the 30 DS if my walk goes well. I think I will be able to continue it, I hope...and I will admit there's a strange side of me that kind of likes the pain in my muscles. It's almost a reminder that I'm alive, striving to be healthier and that I can keep at it and just work through the pain. I plan on keeping an eye on my body so that I'm not over doing it. Not sure the success people have had with this...I don't want to bulk up BUT I need to tone and build some muscle so hopefully with my current cardio it will even out well. I'm thinking of using my recumbent bike too, but don't want to overdo it just yet. Goals to work up to I guess. I went ahead and wrote down my measurements so that I can see how the 30 DS has worked. If I am able to stick with it, I will try to share my results after I finish the program.

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LUVLYATHENA 11/10/2012 2:04AM

    The 30 DS worked well...but my ankle kept me from doing it much. Hoping to try it again now that I have an ankle support.

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ANGELUS__QUINN 9/30/2012 2:49PM

    How's the 30 DS going? I hope your ankle is all better. God bless.

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Hard to accept my new emerging shape, & other dilemmas

Thursday, September 20, 2012

The more weight that I lose, the more I am starting to realize that I've been a pear shaped lady and NEVER knew it! How could this be...when all the while I considered myself proportional or slightly hour glass! At first I thought the 50 lbs I've lost just hasn't caught up to my bottom half. But as I was reading online, truly pear shaped women will continue to lose up top, even if they aren't large up top anymore, and the bottom half will always be the last to lose.

Your shape is also more genetic than anything. So even if I was able to get down to my target weight and be in the normal range, I would still more than likely have a pear shape. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being pear shaped!! It's just that I never thought I was, and now I'm learning to accept that my previously larger body was never its true shape because I was never meant to carry that much weight around. My dilemma now is trying to figure out if there is a way to even out the weight loss a bit. I'm thinking of going back to Pilates because if nothing else, it will possibly help tone up those areas which have become problematic. I just don't want to end up a stick on top and a rock on the bottom, KWIM?

Perhaps acceptance of myself and things unknown is a far bigger obstacle right now than losing these last 50 lbs. Maybe I'm just freaking out over everything because I'm starting to realize my goal is attainable. I think all of us on our weight loss journey have learned more about ourselves than we could ever think possible. I am learning that this hasn't just been about the weight, or even controlling my diabetes. This has been about trying to learn to love myself no matter what shape, size or weight that I am. I am learning to love and appreciate life more. I am hoping that one day I can truly love the person who stares back at me in the mirror. I know I have gone too far to give up now, but it isn't an easy battle we have chosen to fight! Diligence. Diligence. Diligence.

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LUVLYATHENA 9/23/2012 9:17PM

    CHSHULER89 Thank you, that is so very kind! I'm glad my journey can relate to yours! I think we've all been made to feel helpless in controlling our weight, but I am seeing more every day how so many are winning their battle with their weight loss! Congratulations on your success!! I know it must be a great feeling when you can truly look at yourself and love what you see. And it sounds like you must have a great support system, and I know that is a big key to success!

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CHSHULER89 9/23/2012 5:44PM

    So understand! My shape is starting to even out, but i still have more work to do. It's so exciting to see how far we have come! You can do it! You are! You will get stronger physically and mentally. It is an awesome and sometime scary feeling, but so worth it. Reading your blog brought tears, that is how i have felt, you will love yourself more and more each day you go through this journey! I have been blessed to have a personal trainer, we use the mirrors to make sure we are lifting right for strength training and I'm loving myself more that I am looking in the mirror. Good luck with your diabetes! Keep up the great work!

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STHAX10 9/20/2012 9:01PM

    emoticon I understand where you are coming from. As I continued to walk, ride bike and strength train, I see me leveling out. It will get better and it will be worth it. emoticon

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LUVLYATHENA 9/20/2012 7:23PM

    Oh I also have resistance bands and an exercise ball too with the Pilates kit.

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LUVLYATHENA 9/20/2012 7:20PM

    Thanks to you both! The whole strength training thing is a new concept to me....I just have to figure out how I can do it with the tools I have. I can't get to a gym because I quit driving due to stress seizures and nerves. I have a Pilates kit which has weighted hand balls...and I have an elliptical machine which i used for a few months but I felt I wasn't getting results. I could use it and increase the resistance and then do the Pilates and the hand weights too. Certain things knock me out pretty easy because of the diabetes so it's a bit touch and go as far as what I can physically do. But I think I can handle the previously mentioned exercises. I walk everyday though, so I am wondering do i do it in conjunction with it or switch it up every other day. Not sure what my limits are just yet.

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SILLYLILME 9/20/2012 6:57PM

  My body did a bit of the same thing. It will even itself out eventually but I remember going through periods where parts of me were obviously skinnier than the rest. Your body will pick and chose where to burn the fats reserves but strength training is a MUST to help it along. Way to go on your loss!!

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SALONKITTY 9/20/2012 6:22PM

    Congratulations on your weight loss and new shape!

Strength training with weights (free weights--barbells and dumbbells are best) is what you want to do to "even things out". Don't worry about being "bulky" or getting larger, as it's not gonna happen so long as you're a female (you don't have enough testosterone to get big muscles like guys do) and not eating insane amounts of food, which, since you're here on SP and losing weight, I'm guessing you're not. You can also strength train doing bodyweight exercises. I do a bit of both.


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Half way to weight loss goal - And it Feels great! *PICS*

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

I am 2 lbs away from my half way point of losing 100 lbs. It amazes me that I never thought I'd be the type that could lose weight, and here I am almost 5 months in and have lost 48 lbs. I am finally seeing the changes, but more importantly feeling them. My diabetes has GREATLY improved...I'm walking 1.2 miles every day and hoping to double and eventually triple that. Because of my changes, my husband and kids have been making healthier ones as well. I'm starting to feel happy again and although I still have 52 more lbs to go, I now know I can do it and will be a better person in the end. I have posted some pics to show my current progress compared to past photos. Hope everyone else is doing great on their journey as well!

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LUVLYATHENA 9/20/2012 7:41PM

    I cant believe I posted this a month ago and was only walking 1.2 miles a day. Now I walk around 3 depending on how I feel. This is actually great to look back on so I can see how I'm doing progression wise.

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LUVLYATHENA 8/28/2012 8:49PM

    Thanks MISSB8604. Same goes for you on your success as well!

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MISSB8604 8/28/2012 1:08PM

    Nicely done!!!!!

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LUVLYATHENA 8/28/2012 12:01PM

    Thanks again everyone. Don't know if I could have done it without all the support. I love this community. Everyone is working so hard & lifting up others also working at achieving their goal. emoticon

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OLIVIANIGHT 8/28/2012 7:29AM

    Woo hoo! emoticon on your progress : )

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VBRYANT0726 8/28/2012 6:48AM

    Awesome work! You've done some serious losing, and it's paying off for you and your family! emoticon

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ROX525 8/28/2012 5:28AM

    You look amazing! emoticon

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LUVLYATHENA 8/28/2012 4:00AM

    Aww hugs thanks!! Had to share progress since it's been a couple months! :)

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TINOUYE 8/28/2012 3:56AM

  That is FANTASTIC!

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Today was productive

Monday, June 04, 2012

A few weeks ago I decided I'd try to mow my yard and lift some of the burden from my hubby. Well I felt super useless when all I mowed was like 1/4 of the front and I got dizzy, weak, etc. Today I was able to not only mow my front yard, but my side and back yard and I would have mowed the field behind us had the mower not ran out of gas. I also weed-eated around my whole house and around the curb/sidewalks which go around the front and side/back of my house. My lungs hurt a bit but I wasn't woozy. I came in the house and did some laundry and light cleaning. This maybe seems like a small victory but to me it was huge that I was able to do that. However I AM NOT looking forward to today. I have a doc appointment in 7 hours and then I have to do tons of cleaning and sorting and more laundry, etc because I have company coming over for the next few days and boy am I dreading doing all this. I hope God gives me the energy I need like I was able to find today. If I can get through this week, Friday the hubs and I are going on a mini-vacation for our 10 year wedding anniversary. 3 days, just us, camping under the stars and enjoying things that I couldn't have a year ago!!!

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ANGELUS__QUINN 6/7/2012 6:48PM

    First, I'd like to say Happy Anniversary. I hope you have an amazing trip.

Second, there is nothing small about what you did. You made an amazing accomplishment. I am so happy for you and you should be so proud of yourself. Prayers coming your way for the energy that you need. :-)

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