Monday, October 28, 2013
After 36 days, I am still logging what I eat. This deserves a celebration. I am officially at the 4 month mark for consistency in my exercising, and I have lost 12.8 pounds, which is 5% of my body weight. I am finding ways to sneak in more water during the day, and I starting to do weight training.
This is a VERY good day!!
Saturday, October 05, 2013
I think about the people I love and care about and how (un)healthy they are and I look in the mirror and I see my unhealthiness and I think that is my lot in life. I so don't want it to be, but I focus on it so much that there is no alternative. "I don't want to get to THAT point!" And I got there.
This journey isn't about a 180 degree, change-everything-right-now, look-in-the-mirror-an-hate-myself, go overboard change. This journey is about small steps and consistency. It is about trying to find one thing about myself that I love-every day. It is about making one small change and staying with it til it becomes a habit, and then making another small change.
This is about taking responsibility for what goes into my mouth, and why it went there. This is about focusing on what I want to look like, and how it will feel when I get there. It is about doing what makes me feel good, rather than what I feel others want me to do. It is about taking care of me, finding my voice, and being true to myself. It is about becoming the person that I want to be.
I will be outside of my comfort zone here, but in the end, my comfort zone will expand as I shrink. Every day is a new day, a new beginning, another chance to do better.
Monday, September 30, 2013
I can't even count the times I have started a "diet", only to give up after 2-3 weeks. Occasionally, I would make it to a 20 pound decrease. Then I would quit. I guess I just wasn't ready to really make the change. I had the 'all-or-nothing' 'diet' mentality. There was always an 'excuse' as to why I wouldn't stay the course. And a LOT of beating myself up for being 'weak'
Also, I have been so focused on what I don't want to do, be, look like, or give up, that I wasn't in any mood to look at the possibility of a lifestyle change, or what I DID want. I also didn't feel worthy of the effort. I wanted that 'miracle pill' that would allow me to drop all my excess weight with no effort at all. Life doesn't work like that.
This time, I am looking at what I want to gain. Breathing easier, better health overall, longevity, self-confidence, and learning to care for/about myself. I am not giving anything up, food-wise. If I want it, I can have it. I have been choosing not to. If that changes, that is OK. This time, It is about the progress I make, and how I am doing overall.
I didn't get this way overnight, and I won't get to my goal overnight. Slow and steady is the key, and focusing on what I want to look and feel like. I will get there, one day at a time.
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
I am feeling good today. I had a doctor appointment yesterday, so I wan't able to exercise. On a good note, all my labs and tests were normal, so I am in good health.
I am working right now on tracking EVERYTHING that I put in my mouth. This has been an issue for me: I didn't want to face it, and it was too much work. This time, I want to track it, and I don't mind facing what I am doing. I don't know for sure what changed, but I am so glad it did.
I am also focusing on drinking more water. I don't drink nearly enough. With the combination of the medications that I need to take making me dehydrated and not drinking enough, lets just say it isn't in my best interests. I need to triple my daily intake. I am at almost double what I was. That is a good start.
This time around, I am making small steps to achieve my goal of a healthier lifestyle. I got the exercise down, now tracking what I eat and getting to 12+ cups of water a day. Next will be measuring and trying to be more active during the day, in addition to the exercising.
Wish me luck!
Friday, September 20, 2013
This time is different. This time, I am going by how I feel. This time, I am tracking ALL that I eat, without dreading it. This time, it feels right. This time, it is an adventure. This time, I feel that I can do this. This time, it is about progress. This time is the last time. And it is the only last time I will ever need.
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