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Feeling Good

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Well I have to admit quitting was the best thing I've ever done. I quit trying to push myself too hard and have gone back to enjoying my runs. I still have goals of course and today was to run week 6 day 1 twice. Well it's interval training so its not all running but still counts. I left the house pretty confident although a little worried about it being too hot (got up to the 80s here in Austin today) so I drank plenty of water before I left. Hmm not exactly the best idea. I got down the street and into my run and decided I needed a bathroom. Ever remember your parents asking why you didn't go before you left well I did but I guess I just had too much water. Anyway without risking TMI I struggled to make it over 2 miles needing to find a bathroom so the first round was pretty much shot. But that's not to say it was unsuccessful I was able to run up the entire hill that had stopped me on Friday so that in itself was an accomplishment. I have never run up a hill before. My usual route is pretty flat with some slight raises but that are barely noticeable. This is one of those long hills that just keep climbing gradually forever. Anyway I have to admit I was really thrilled to make it up that hill and didn't feel bad about walking a little early during the 8 minute run since I had just come up that hill.

So anyway I finally made it to Kohl's and decided to use their restroom. Ugh did I feel out of place going in there drenched in sweat with no money or nothing just my iPhone and headphones. But hey when you gotta go...Anyway I got a drink at the fountain and headed back out. I started the timer over and warmed back up and headed back out to run back home. This time I was much more comfortable and made it through all the runs without difficulty. I thought "hmm I have trouble making it for 3 miles straight but I could run/walk intervals till doomsday". I think I could probably even do a whole marathon that way. Of course that will have to wait since my first 5K is coming up on Sunday and I feel like I might actually do well. I think that if I give myself permission to walk for a few minutes a couple times I may actually make a decent time. I know I'll finish that never has been and never will be a question. I will finish it will just matter how much of it I run and fast I do it in. Either way I'm feeling a lot more confident and motivated and am excited but really nervous about it.

So not only did I do so well on my run I lost two pounds again! That's 6 pounds in 3 weeks which is amazing to me. I am in no way complaining but I can't help but wonder if I'm insane or my scale is playing tricks on me or something strange. I mean I totally get the whole calories in versus out business and that a pound weighs 3500 calories or some such business like that but there is no way I'm burning enough calories to lose a pound plus having a food deficit in order to lose two pounds per week. I mean this is awesome but I guess I'm just waiting for that weight gain or plateau or something since I just don't understand how I can possibly be doing so well. Please do get me wrong I'm amazed, proud, and overall thrilled with this but seriously how can this be possible?!?!

Then comes the other side I started doing the 28 day challenge and I'm on day 8 or week 2 day 1 whichever the case may be and I'm doing pretty well. I'm impressed its a challenge but not so bad that I can't do it so that's cool. Anyway that day 1 (or day 8) cardio video coupled with my run/walk today burned almost 600 calories. Okay completely awesome but it left me with a deficit of almost 1000 calories. Okay totally cool but its kind of worrying to think well I only ate 1300 calories today and I burned 600 exercising and like 1700 just living so does that mean I'm starving? I mean I burned almost half of the calories I took in with exercise alone. Hmm maybe that's how it's supposed to be maybe that's why I've lost 6 pounds in 3 weeks. I guess I'm just a little worried that I might end up going into starvation mode if I burn too many calories. I'm staying within my recommendations and I feel great today and for some reason I wasn't even really hungry (except around meal times) so I don't think I'm doing anything wrong. I guess this just goes back to always thinking I'm going to screw up or fail. I'm having some serious success here and I'm waiting for it to stop or for someone to tell me I'm doing it wrong. I don't know all I know is I'm no longer overweight which the last time I can think of that happening is 2003, I'm running my first race on Sunday, I quit smoking (that still shocks me), and this really seems to be working. Hmm I wonder if I'll always feel this way or if maybe one day I'll be able to accept the positive things in life for just what they are, positive things.

  
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MAGGIE805 2/24/2011 10:39PM

    I have that issue too. I always need to go before I run. Annoying. Wtg, on the hill. I have yet to tackle the hills where I live. I'm halfway up the one that is on the route to Bay to Breakers which for me that's progress.

Good luck with your training and just know you can do anything you put your mind too. :)

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BAILEYS7OF9 2/23/2011 2:00PM

    emoticon emoticonon beating the hill!


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NATPLUMMER 2/22/2011 11:16AM

    You are doing great! Congratulations for conquering the hill!!!

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APIRLRAIN888 2/22/2011 9:57AM

    you are doing awesome! yeah to positivity

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TEDDYBABE 2/22/2011 6:16AM

    Wow girl! You are really figuring it out for yourself. That is part of the process. Stay on your focus, keep the running fun. The quitting smoking is huge in a serious lifesaving way! Good for you! First race on Sunday? That's awesome! Good luck with that!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 2/22/2011 12:27AM

    Congrats on running up the hill!! That's awesome! It seems like what you're doing is working for you now but maybe it wouldn't hurt to up your calories a bit and see what happens if you're worried about starvation mode. Good luck at your race!

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I quit!

Saturday, February 19, 2011

That's it I can't take it anymore. I'm so tired of pretending to be something that I'm not. I'm tired of forcing myself to reach impossible goals. I'm done with this. I just can't do it anymore and I quit!!! One of my friends says to be positive and to make that a goal well I'm positive that this is it I am done. I quit!!

I quit beating myself up for not being perfect. I quit putting myself down anytime I don't reach a goal. That's it I'm done trying to force myself to be a robot who has no way for growth and learning. I've taken something I love and I've turned it into a punishment for not being perfect. But really this is not just about running its about a lot of things in my life. I have got to get back into the belief and living that everything happens for a reason; that life is full of opportunities for growth.

Of course running is what brought this on. As I set out today determined to ignore all distance and time. I just wanted to run until I didn't feel like and then I walked and then I ran some more. I had my calorie and distance counters on but no annoying little voice telling me how far I had come or how much I had left. I even did a different route so I wouldn't know when I had reached a mile or two or half way. I ran for about 13 minutes and then had to stop. My armband with my iPhone in it had come loose and was flopping near my elbow and that was driving me insane so I started walking to fix it but it slipped from my hands and crashed to the ground. Thankfully my phone was in the armband so that protected it. Anyway that caused me to stop and is why I knew the time but once I had things situated I was off again. Unfortunately I had lost a lot of momentum and had come to a part in the route that is hill. Not too steep but one of those long gradual climbs. I made it about half way up and stopped again. Anyway I won't go into all the details but between the walking and the running I did 3.38 miles in 51 minutes. I'm okay with that.

I realized today that I've been so focused on being perfect that I have stopped listening to my needs. I finished week 6 strong but then forced myself to do week 7 while sick and have suffered through week 8. I realized that I wasn't ready. I made excuses but I wasn't ready to move on to week 8. Yes I did run 25 minutes all through week 7 and I did the 28 on Monday but the point is that mentally I wasn't ready to go on. I can physically do it but I'm still in that frame of mind that I can't make it and until I get my head on straight I'm not doing myself any favors. So I've decided to go back to week 6. I'm going to do it until I feel comfortable and then I'll move on to week 7 and continue that way until the end. I don't need to follow the program exactly what I need is the guidance to follow along but like all things in my life I need to take the lessons and learn from them and grow from them in my own way.

I had to realize that at one point I was terrified to run for 3 minutes and the first time I had to run for 5 minutes I was panicked. The same continued on until week 6 when I was actually challenged and struggled to get through. Running 3 minutes now is a cake walk and 5 minutes is nothing but a warm up. I know that if I keep at it then 25 minutes will be common place and eventually running 3 miles will be just another daily run. I've only been running for a couple months so I needed to realize that I'm still new at this and I need to take it slowly until I'm ready to move forward. My new goal is to feel comfortable running again and to regain the confidence and motivation I had in the beginning. When I find that enjoyment again then I'll be ready to move on.

The same goes for so many things in my life but I seem to be okay there. I look at my weight loss and think how wonderful 9 pounds is and how amazing it is that I have drank the right amount of water everyday for the last 47 days and how I've been practically perfect on my nutrition. I think about how I'm on day 5 of the 28 day challenge and how awesome it is that I haven't skipped or cheated. I look at the fact that I've continued to stay cigarette free and that even when I was massively upset the other day I thought about running instead of buying a pack of cigarettes. There are so many areas in my life where I am a success and I need to be careful to make sure I treat myself well in all areas not just in healthy eating and exercise. I'm worth it in all areas and I for one can't wait to see the end results and look back at this incredible journey.

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BAILEYS7OF9 2/23/2011 1:59PM

    Excellent!!!! So glad to read thru this blog.. titled scared me for a minute!

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NEEBREW 2/20/2011 5:25PM

    Wow! I think you've done AMAZING things!

I use to HATE running because I was always trying to follow someone else's program or live up to other's expectations. Once I decided that I am in it for the health, the fun, and that I'm just a slow turtle, I started to LOVE running. I'm not a big program follower, and my personal opinion is that everyone should listen to their OWN bodies. Eventually, just like you and me, you build your time/distance. I love your attitude :)

Renee

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LEGALLYBLONDE81 2/20/2011 3:51PM

    When I have done the couch to 5k type programs I have often found that I need to take the progression a bit (sometimes a lot) slower that what is recommended. Your joints, muscled, heart and lungs all need to adjust.

Go back to week 6. Stay there until you are ready. With running, my experience is always that your body will WANT to do more and that's when you know you are ready for more.

Keep it up!!

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SBATES63 2/20/2011 7:47AM

    Don't be so hard on yourself. Like you wrote, focus on the positive. Remember how far you have come, not how far you have yet to travel.

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TEDDYBABE 2/20/2011 5:02AM

    You are so right. You are a success for just being here and sharing this with all of us in your blog. I went through the same emotions during c25k and had the same conversation with myself. Only I had to tell myself...remember when you couldn't run for 90 seconds! I repeated week 5 of the program for a month. Thought I would be stuck in 5th grade forever. Then. Why am I doing this, I am nearly 60. What a fool. Then one day it all came together. 40 min of running now is nothing to me. Can't wait til I can do 1 hour. Love yourself. Be good to yourself. Hug yourself. You are doing so good. I love the Jeff Galloway theory ...run for fun. Otherwise you will end up hating it. He has a great website. Good reading. Take care SP friend, you really are doing awesome!

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APIRLRAIN888 2/19/2011 2:20AM

    I love this blog!! and yes I hear you! my problem is I let numbers get in the way!!!
BMI. IDEAL weight, PACE. DISTANCE, CALORIES!!

I need to follow you and just run just to run and eat til I am good and to just listen to my body

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REDCARPETWIFEY1 2/19/2011 1:49AM

    Well said.

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NATPLUMMER 2/19/2011 1:18AM

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RORYLYONS 2/19/2011 12:29AM

    Congrats on the 3.38 miles.. emoticon emoticonFantastic with not smoking..Keep up the good work.. emoticon emoticon

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Acceptance

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

So far this week has not been a good one. I got in a big fight with my mom on Monday and have had a headache ever since. I'm not sleeping well and I am in a bad mood. So today I figured the best therapy for this foul mood and headache would be to run my W8D2. I failed. I knew I was feeling bad with the headache and part of my mood is feeling like a failure. There are many things in my life that have made me feel like a failure and I won't take all night boring you with the details but not making my run today did not help.

It actually didn't start out too bad. I allowed myself to run at a comfortable pace rather than holding back to conserve energy like I usually do. I just went and focused on the spots in front of me. I listened to my music and actually felt pretty good. I made it through mile one and into my comfort zone quicker than normal. I was going good but kept having to bring my mind back to focusing on running and not on how far I had left to go. This has been my problem because I just keep thinking about how far I have left. My sister is one who likes to see how much she has left as it drives her forward for me it makes me feel hopeless. When the timer chimed in and told me I was half way there I was fine physically but mentally I had been fighting for a while. At week 8 half way there is 14 minutes with another 14 left. I kept going but when the voice came on and said I had 10 minutes left I just stopped. I didn't think about it I didn't stumble and try to keep going I just stopped. I still don't understand why its like I lost all drive, all forward motion..all everything,

I wanted to cry just like so many things in my life I had failed. I could feel the tears coming on but I decided I would try to go some more. I ran another minute and it said five minutes left and I lost it again. It was just too much I couldn't do it. I started walking again and then when it said one minute I powered as hard as I could for that last minute. The damage had been done though I had failed. After 8 weeks I had failed for the first time. Two weeks from my first race and I couldn't make it more than 18 minutes. Again I felt the tears welling until I saw the dog. The big pit bull that came up to my thigh running full speed toward me. My heart went back up to full speed and I started shaking. I just kept thinking to not make eye contact and to keep my walking pace even. I was actually thankful that I had stopped running as I know the dog would have chased me if I had still been running. Now that pup didn't seem mean and I think she really wanted me to love on her but I was scared. That dog followed me for half a mile until some woman opened her garage door and the pup went off to investigate.

Still now I had to go back to thinking that I was a failure. I tried to stop those thoughts by reminding myself that a lot of people have to repeat weeks. I've heard of a ton of people who haven't made it through first go round. I had to tell myself that there was no shame in repeating a day or even a week. My sister even said she had to repeat several weeks several times. I have to accept that not making a run does not mean I'm a failure. I've tried telling myself these things all day.

Well when I got back I called my sister. Not only is she my best friend she is also the one who got me into running. Her advice was to forget the C25K. She said I've pretty much finished the program and I should just move on. I ran 28 minutes on Monday so I know I can do that and what's two more minutes. She thinks that I've made my running too much about finishing the program, too much of a chore, a do or die situation. Running used to make me feel pride and accomplishment now its a chore that needs to be done. I love running and the first two miles is amazing its that stupid timer telling me how much more like the minutes before lunch or quitting time. She thinks I need to go back to running for pleasure and forget the timers and the distance to just run because I want to run for as long as I want to go.

For the last two days I have been in a bad place mentally and emotionally. This place has caused problems in my sleeping and given me a headache. Running is a mental game and I'm not good mentally right now. I do have some good and that's that I have still been doing my bootcamp workouts and keeping my food good. I thought about giving up everything (my weight looks like it will go back up or stay this week) but I knew that wouldn't help. I know I have to keep going forward and accept this small setback as just a speed bump in the road to healthier life.

  
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EUPHMOM 2/17/2011 4:52PM

    I agree with your sister. You don't need the program any more. You ARE prepared for the race. You need to believe that you ARE going to finish this race. And the next race, and the next, and the next.

Just because you didn't meet a goal doesn't make you a failure. A failure is someone who doesn't try!



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RRFIT72 2/17/2011 3:54PM

    Hang in there!! The mental challenges are indeed TOUGH, but we must push through them. Let's get out to the 5k course this weekend and enjoy a good run. I find it so much easier to run with someone, they help me forget about everything else and concentrate on me and the moment.
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BAILEYS7OF9 2/17/2011 1:19PM

    Sometimes emotions will not let you finish. It does not mean you failed. Look at how far you have come! I agree with your sister too, you don't have to finish the program, why don't you just do what you want to do? After I finished the C25K and lost my B210K pod casts and found myself on the street w/ no running plan, I just winged it.

And when thinking of what is left to do... I don't think that, I think with every foot strike that is so many feet behind me that I have accomplished. How many more feet can I add to that... try thinking that.

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NATPLUMMER 2/17/2011 9:30AM

    It was just a bad day. Everyone has them.
I hope that today is a much better one for you.
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MAGGIE805 2/17/2011 2:28AM

    Thank God for sisters! My sister is my best friend and I am hers. We bring out the worst and the very best in each other.

Sometimes it's hard to accept the fact that we didn't make a goal. I know when it happens to me I get irritable and feel like a bit of a failure . But I just keep pushing until I do . You are almost there and I know you can do it.

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FAITH2BWELL 2/17/2011 1:44AM

    A small setback is what it is, you will have a better day today.

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APIRLRAIN888 2/17/2011 1:31AM

    you did awesome!!! seriously you can't have a good run every time! you will be surprise! it's part of running and once you got the physical down!

it's all 100% mental game! if you think u can't, the is run is doomed from the start!!!!

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TRANSFORMWE 2/17/2011 1:03AM

    You ran for 18 minutes?! HOORAY!!! Could you have done that a year ago, or even a month ago? You got out there and ran. That is a SUCCESS!

Humans are complicated, and nowhere more so than in the area of motivation. You learned something valuable about what doesn't work for you. That will make it that much easier to hone in on something that does.

I think your sister may have the right idea. And what's more, I think YOU know what works best for you. So you've tried this tool, and it did what it did. If you don't like where the movie's going it's okay to walk out of the theater. This is no different.

Choose another tool that fits you better to help you reach your goals.

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BRATTY_ME27 2/17/2011 12:33AM

    Luna- Sounds like your sister knows you pretty well, is that the case? If so then maybe her advice is that best advice. I'm kind of like your sister in wanting to know how far/ much time I have left, so I will like those chimes as I get up there week wise, but not everyone does and I can understand that, I need a goal and I need to know how close I am to finishing, it doesn't always make sense, but it works for me.
You have pretty much completed the program, and if you know that you can do it from here on your own then do it on your own- do not let something that you enjoy turn into a chore- trust me on this one, it sucks to lose things that you love because you have made them work.

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Spreading the Spark and Running Thoughts

Monday, February 14, 2011

So its no secret that I'm single and actually quite happy about it but I still had a Valentine. My sister called me Saturday evening and asked if I wanted to go to lunch with her on Sunday and be her Valentine. I said sure and so we went to Red Lobster on Sunday. I was quite excited for the broiled lobster tail and I always love their broccoli. Anyway my sister decided to order the wood grilled shrimp bruchetta. I know from past experience this is delicious but I was pretty sure it wasn't good for me so I asked the waitress to find out. After a bit another waitress came and asked me if I had been told how much it was and I let her know I had found out online on my phone. Well we got to talking and she told me how she was on Jenny Craig before but it got too expensive so she had to quit. So I let her know about SparkPeople.com and how it was free and would give her the meal plans and exercises and a support community. She seemed very interested and I felt great for spreading the spark.

Now for today's run. Well first I should say I decided to join the 28 day bootcamp challenge. I figured I could easily do a 10 minute video well let me tell you that 10 minutes is NOT easy. So I did that for my warm up before going out to run and man my legs were tired and I think it really wore me out. Now I'm on W8D1 which is a 28 minute run with a 5 minute warm up and 5 minute cool down walks. I have noticed it takes me more than 5 minutes to "feel" warmed up so I tend to do something before I leave and then also do the 5 minute warm up walk. I don't know if I'm doing something wrong but I'm usually struggling until I hit the first mile marker. When I say I'm struggling I mean my legs feel super tired and it takes a bit to be able to get my breathing right. In fact it takes me almost the entire first mile to convince myself not to quit and that I'll warm up and get into the groove. I don't know if its because I'm fairly new to running or if I'm just not ready for running straight or what but I'm slow to get started. In fact I usually start out really slow for fear of burning out too quickly even though I want to run faster and think that maybe I could and maybe that it would feel more comfortable. Anyway so the entire first mile is a struggle.

Once I hit mile one and am working toward two miles I'm good to go. My breathing just becomes easy as if I'm not even running and the exhaustion in my legs goes away and I don't feel tired. It's like I just get in the zone. I'm relaxed and feel like I could go forever. This is the point I need to know how to get to faster and how to stay in longer.

Once I hit about two miles which is a little after the half way mark I go back to trying to convince myself I can make it. I don't feel any pain or anything like that (although sometimes there is a little stitch in my side right under my ribcage) and if I think about it I'm still breathing fine. Its just like I'm exhausted all the sudden like I'm running on fumes. Today in particular it tells me I have 10 minutes left and I was already feeling like I was going to fall over. I mean its a 28 minute run so I'm feeling done after 18 minutes? That's like being back on week 5. I should at least feel good for 20 minutes if not 25. I'm on week 8 I should be ready to run 28 minutes. Well obviously I can do it because I did. I didn't stop to walk and I pushed through trying to focus on the music and not to think about how much more I had left. Then it tells me I have 5 minutes left and I think how I'm going to fall over. It is about this time my head starts feeling fuzzy. Not dizzy or anything like that but more tingly I guess and that was a bit concerning but I could still see and hear and really honestly didn't feel like I should be worried it was just a little strange. Then I had 3 minutes left and I thought okay well this is the 25 minute mark I have to be able to run 3 more minutes. Mind you this is my first 28 minute run and everything past 25 was further than I'd ever gone. By now though my feet are shuffling and if I slow down any more I will be walking. I did make it to the end but I'm seriously wondering if I'm ready to be on week 8 (I haven't repeated any weeks) and if there is any way on Earth I'll be able to run the entire 5K on the 27th.

You know I feel like I should be able to run faster than an 11 minute mile but only from marker 1 to 2 am I even running that. From 0 to 1 mile it is more like 12:30 (there is a 5 minute walk in there to warm up) and from 2 to 3 its closer to 13:00 (including the 5 minute cool down walk). So as you can see I start out slow and then get going pretty good and end on a really slow note. I'm not so worried about the time as much as I feel like I should be able to start out better and that I should also be able to run more than one mile without feeling like I'm going to fall over. I spend the entire first mile struggling to get into that groove and the entire last mile trying to convince myself I'm not going to die.

Don't get me wrong I'm still amazed every session that I was able to do this. I'm still entirely impressed that I've been so successful and that I am a runner. I'm proud to tell people I'm a runner and to offer advice to those just starting out. I just don't know the secrets yet. I don't know how to get into that groove. I hear people who leave right out of the house running. They don't take the better part of a mile to get warmed up. I've heard of finishing strong but for me it feels like a miracle that I even finish. I am so amazed at being able to run almost 3 miles and that in order to include my warm up and cool down walks I had to increase my route to the length of a 5K. I did run (with my warm up and cool down walks) 3.1 miles in 38 minutes. I think that's pretty respectable and if that was race results I think I would be proud of them. I guess that's what's really important. I am proud of these results I am proud I can do this at all. I just wonder if I'm doing something wrong or could change something to make the beginning as strong as the middle. I figure the end will be hard for a while I am after all a new runner.

  
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EUPHMOM 2/15/2011 4:33PM

    You are totally going to be able to run the 5K on the 27th without any problems. You'll be amazed at the momentum of all the participants and the people on the sidelines cheering folks on. When I ran my 5K I had only run outside twice before then and I was running 20 minute miles. I ran the race in 40 minutes flat. Was it fast? Not by any means. But my goal was to not come in last. And I didn't. I'm running my 5K on 3/26 and my goal this time is to not come in last and also to maybe, just maybe, beat my previous time.



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BAILEYS7OF9 2/15/2011 10:47AM

    Great for spreading the spark!!

Okay... emoticonworrying about how fast you are going. New runners are not supposed to worry about speed at all! With time will come speed. Leave it be.

I think you are not ready for the bootcamp video before your run. Try Nat's suggestion and do the video after the run.

My first 1/2 mile including the 5 minute warm up is tough too, then I settle in and go.
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APIRLRAIN888 2/15/2011 6:22AM

    LOL funny you mention it! I run 6-9 miles now! and my first 3 miles is the hardest! mental game! once at mile 4-6 I am golden (best times, in zone!)

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NATPLUMMER 2/14/2011 10:46PM

    Great job spreading the Spark!
When I was doing the 28 day bootcamp and doing the C25K, I did the bootcamp videos after I was done running.
Everybody is different with their running. I have read a lot of people blog about not really getting into their run until after the first mile. Maybe that's just the way your are.
Today it may have been compounded by the fact that you did your bootcamp video before your run. Maybe on Wednesday try the bootcamp after the run and see if your run goes better.

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TEDDYBABE 2/14/2011 10:46PM

    I had some similar experiences. Not fuzzy in the head but with the breathing. One of my SP friends gave me good advice. Said I was going too fast. I slowed it down and wow! It was awesome. Felt sometimes like I was standing still, but that goes away with time. The Jeff Galloway teachings tell you to get your distance and keep that for a long time before adding speed. Speed comes with your strength and endurance. Don't know if this will help you at all. You are doing so great! Happy Valentine's Day!!

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Laugh or Cry

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Today was one of those days where I could either let things get to me or just look at the bright side and enjoy. It was one of those laugh or cry days. First let me tell you I am NOT a morning person. Well my son had a therapy appointment at 8 so I had to leave the house no later than 7:30 to get over to another city where his appointment was. I left the house and all the windows were covered in ice. Needless to say I had to wait to be able to see out of my windows before I could drive. Okay well that made us a little bit late but no worries we made it. He had is appointment and then I took him to school. Then I was going to go to Verizon to upgrade my phone. I've been waiting patiently for my tax return so I could get rid of my stupid phone that won't answer when someone calls. Anyway my daughter said she wanted to go so I went home to get her and my 3 year old son and 1 year old granddaughter.

Verizon was supposed to be quick and easy but it wasn't. I had a new employee who didn't know what he was doing. You see I used to be with Alltel but was forced to move over to Verizon. Not that its been really bad but I would not have chosen to do it. Anyway I still have my old Alltel plan even though I have a Verizon phone. I had been planning to get the iPhone now that its available on Verizon and had already asked if I was going to have to change my plan in order to upgrade. Now all the sudden when I'm ready to upgrade I get told I have to change my plan. Believe me I do not want to do this. I have a great plan and no matter what plan they offer me I'll be losing out. Well like I said my phone won't answer half the time and the other half I can't make phone calls so I chose to change my plan (which would make my already $200 bill go higher) so I could upgrade my phone. Now by this time my granddaughter and son were miserable and not in the mood to wait anymore. I told my daughter to take the baby and go run to the bank (an errand she needed to run) and then by the time she was back I'd be done. Wrong!

Now I'm standing there with an impatient 3 year old and a guy who is now trying to change my beloved plan to some other plan that's worse but its not working. Thankfully the guy offered my little Bug a pack of Cheetos and gave me a bottle of water but of course we were still waiting. Finally he admitted he was new and got some help. Now this new woman tells me I can't have the new Verizon plan because my third line is an Alltel phone and I'd have to upgrade that phone (at full price) to get the Verizon plan. That or I could give him the phone I was replacing and add on a data package to his line raising my bill even more. Second option keep the Alltel plan I have and just upgrade my phone with the iPhone. Uh hello that's what I wanted to do two hours ago when I came in. Apparently because I have an Alltel plan the guy needed to go through the system a different way for it to work. So finally after a couple hours I walked out of there with a new iPhone and my old plan. My bill will only go up a couple of dollars because of the insurance for an iPhone and even though it took forever I got exactly what I had wanted. I guess some people would be mad but I figure well hey I won in the end so why stress about it.

Well I wasn't mad but after that kind of day I really needed to release some tension so I decided it was time to run. I set up my iPhone with a new C25K app and with Pandora radio, shoved it in the new arm band I got, and headed out the door. It was a nice 55 degrees so I wore shorts and a t-shirt. It was a little chilly but I knew once I warmed up it'd be great. Normally I set out having already warmed up and with a specific route in mind today I just ran. I started out going the same direction I always do but then I turned down one street which ended up being a dead end so I cut through a yard and ended up on another street and just ran until that street ended. I just kept doing that. After a while my app told me I was half way done and I was kind of surprised because I wasn't really paying attention. I thought at that point I should turn around and go back the way I came. I was in a new neighborhood but I could still figure out what way was home. Well I really should have turned around but I didn't and ended up running 2 miles away from home before I started back. So of course after 2.72 miles the timer went off and I was done but I was still a mile from home. Yay now I had to walk home in the darkening, rapidly cooling evening. 3.7 miles later I was home and very cold but oh so relaxed.

Over all I really have to say that today was a good day. I had a lot of laughs and ended up finishing up week 7 with an extremely satisfying run. Today was a laugh or cry day. I chose to laugh and to run.

  
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EUPHMOM 2/14/2011 3:40PM

    Congrats on the run!!! That is awesome! Worth it after the pain you had earlier :)

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BAILEYS7OF9 2/14/2011 2:02PM

    Sheesh! I hope I never have to change my plan, it's emoticonand they stopped offering it 3 yrs ago! Glad you got an iPhone, you'll have to download Run Keeper. it GPS's where you run and will give you mileage and calories.

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NATPLUMMER 2/12/2011 10:26AM

    That was quite the day!!! I'm glad it all worked out in the end. :-)

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APIRLRAIN888 2/12/2011 8:58AM

    awesome!!!!!!!! great ways to relief stress

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HEALTHYMAMA115 2/12/2011 1:48AM

    emoticon Nice attitude! It's true that sometimes, if we don't laugh, we'll cry. Nice choice with the laughing!

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HOTRODSANDY 2/12/2011 1:24AM

    Congrats on the run. emoticon

I'm just starting the C25K journey but looking forward to the time I can leave the house and run!


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GABBIEGIRL614 2/12/2011 1:10AM

    Oh hon! Well, I vote for laughing....at least laughing works your abs. :D

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