Monday, January 24, 2011
Well first for those of you who read my previous blogs, I did end up taking some times off this weekend. I did strength training on Saturday but no cardio all weekend. It was hard and kind of boring but I survived it and I think I was better off for it. I ended up doing my official weigh in today as many of my teams weigh in on Mondays and also because the scale is in my mom's room and she doesn't get up until late on Sundays and I've usually eaten before I can weigh on Sundays. Anyway my official weight for the beginning of this week is 154. That's four pounds lost since I started which is definitely better than nothing. I was really thrilled and it did help me to realized that if I keep working towards my goals they'll become reality even if it takes me a little bit to get there.
Anyway the whole point is I keep surprising myself. I was so sure I was going to fail that I was going to gain weight and I'm always sure that I won't be able to make it through the next run. Today though I came about my run with a different attitude. I left the house thinking about how I was going to be able to make it through the run because I had done five minutes straight before. I figured that I could make it through 4 sets of 5 minute runs. Okay so I did my warm up walk ( I was already warmed up from light kickboxing at home before leaving) and was psyching myself up for the 20 minutes of runs I was facing. The chime went off and started on my first five minute run. It was a little rough at first but the beginning of the first run always is. I thought about how I shouldn't have taken two days off and that I must already be out of shape. I know that must be ridiculous but that is what I was thinking. Then the timer went off and I was supposed to walk. Oh wow I'm done oh okay. My breathing was a little heavy which was also concerning but I quickly got it under control. Three minutes went by and the timer went off again and I started off on my second 5 minute run. The first half of it I was doing well but I think I was out of the gate a little fast and toward the end of that my chest was feeling tight and I was a little concerned about my breathing. I kept thinking about whether or not I'd be able to make it through running with no intervals if I was having trouble breathing. The the timer went off and I was done. I thought okay two down, two more to go.
I figured well there's not failing now I was already half way done and now the timer was going off and I was running again. I always notice when I get to a certain point in the route I have planned because I remember in the beginning I was walking by that point and wouldn't even make it back home before the timer signaled I was completely done. But here I was running past this point thinking that during my fourth run I may make it further than I had before. Then before I knew it the timer went off telling me to do my cool down walk. I thought what I'm done I thought I had another set left. I thought I needed to run another 5 minutes. I was so shocked that I thought I had put it on the wrong day but no it was run 5, walk 3, run 5, walk 3, run 5, cool down. I was totally prepared to run another 5 and I have no doubts I would have been able to make it.
So there it is I was successful on the first day of week 5. I don't know how long it will be before I stop being surprised by my abilities, before I stop wondering if I can make it. I wonder if maybe I will always feel nervous and if I can do it. I'm sure I'll question myself during my first 5K and probably even think about stopping but as long as I just keep going and never give up then I will be okay. But maybe that's normal. Well on Wednesday I'm going to do 8 minute run intervals and on Friday it'll be 20 minutes straight with no walking. That is definitely intimidating but Ive made it through every day so far so I'm sure I'll continue to be successful. All I know is today I did it and I could have done more!!