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Decisions, Decisions

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Today was a difficult day in the food department. You see its my baby brother's 18th birthday and in my family you get whatever you want for dinner on your birthday. Well my brother chose to have a cookie cake from Nestle Cafe. In case you don't know a cookie cake is basically a giant cookie with frosting. Well let me tell you that he chose white chocolate macadamia nut cookie which happens to be my favorite. Well one piece of about 112 grams (don't know how big that really is) is over 600 calories with 33 grams of fat. Even if I took off the frosting and had a small piece a regular macadamia nut cookie is 270 calories and 14 grams of fat. No matter how you look at it partaking of this particularly sweet treat would take up all of my fat for the day and half of my calories. Ugh so I passed on the cookie and chose a 100 calorie snack pack of chocolate covered pretzels.

Well not only did I have to fight the urge to have a piece of cookie cake but we also had Arby's for his birthday dinner. Now let me tell you there is nothing low calorie or low fat anywhere on Arby's menu. Well I'm not a big fan of Arby's anyway but there is one item I love. Their Market Fresh chicken salad sandwich is delicious. I fought with myself all the way to Arby's to go and get dinner about if I was going to have a salad at 270 calories or this sandwich at 740 calories. Okay well obviously the right choice for my healthier lifestyle would be the salad. However, I was already disappointed in having to skip out on the cookie and I really wanted this sandwich. Well while I stood there letting my son in law order for the other 10 people I thought about which salad I would force myself to eat all while looking at the chicken salad sandwich. I finally asked the guy jokingly if he knew how many calories this sandwich had and joked about how Arby's was trying to kill me. He laughed back and said it was the delicious honey oat bread that was the killer. Aha so if I have the salad without the bread (which is delicious) then I would cut the calories in half. So that is what I did. I compromised. I enjoyed the chicken salad without the bread and only had a little over 300 calories which gave me room in my nutrition for the pretzels.

I've had to sacrafice a bit but I've also learned healthier ways of preparing things to lower the fat and calories. We did this the other day with comfort meatballs which we prepared with deer instead of ground beef. Proper portions are great too like eating a happy meal when at McDonald's instead of a quarter pounder. I've come to realize I can still enjoy and eat things I like but I just have to be careful not to overdo it. Just skip the bread and remember not to eat the cookies the same day you eat out. Maybe I'll have a lower calorie day tomorrow and can save some room for a small piece of cookie but if not I still have some more pretzels. emoticon

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RRFIT72 1/13/2011 5:11PM

    Way to go! I'm not a big fan of Arbies either, but probably would have given in to the cookie! That's my favorite kind! Great job!!

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NATPLUMMER 1/13/2011 12:33PM

    You made some excellent food choices! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SUNNY332 1/13/2011 9:41AM

    I am in awe too. I don't know if I could have avoided the cookie cake. White chocolate macadamia nut cookie is my fave too. Good choices however at Arbys. Way to go to avoid the Honey bread and cut the calories in half.

Do have a Terrific Tuesday. I love your attitude about not avoiding things you love but to have them in moderation. That is my attitude about food. If I avoid things I love, I feel deprived and it leads to destruction.

Hugs, Sunny

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MAGGIE805 1/13/2011 1:39AM

    Wow. You skipped the cookie from the Nestle Cafe.I am in awe. Those suckers are yummy. Sometimes it's just best to avoid trigger foods. Way to go on the restraint. There will always be room for a little cookie tomorrow.

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    Way to go! It is all about moderation.

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CUPCAKE_LIL 1/12/2011 10:43PM

    I'm just speechless. YOU SKIPPED THE COOKIE?? Almost the first whole paragraph I was believe that you ate it and it was just a matter of how much. Wow. Do you feel me bowing down to you right now???!!

You made some REALLY wise choices tonight. I'm proud of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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My Obsession

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I have come to realize I need to find balance. I am on day 9 of my journey to a healthier me and have realized that it has become all or nothing with me. Well I already knew I was well am an extremist. I tend to become consumed with things to go beyond giving it my all. When I was in school I would spend hours on end editing my papers and rewriting them to make them perfect. Many times I would have to turn in work that I thought was awful due to an approaching deadline and then be floored when I received an A. When I got my first A- (in statistics, ugh I hate math) I cried. I graduated with a 3.94 and had to realize that perfection would only hurt me and that I gained more from making mistakes and then learning from them. Until I got my degree in August of last year school was my obsession. Well now I have a new obsession....SparkPeople. Well not just Spark but the whole weight loss/getting healthy journey. For the last nine days I've spent all day on this site tracking my nutrition, water, fitness, sparkpoints, etc. It's been all about this. I haven't been doing anything else but focusing on this.

So then of course a few days ago reality set in. There is more to life than exercising, tracking, and earning points. I still need to find a job, I still have errands to run, laundry to do, a life to live. So yesterday I actually played a game for a bit and being obsessive I ended up playing for hours. Well during those hours I forgot to drink water and ended up trying to shove all my water and half of my calories into a few hours before bed. I did it but I also felt awful. Now for my confession. I was short 3 carbs. I know what's 3 carbs but you see that is my obsession. So instead of accept my failure or humanity or just the fact that I couldn't find any more carbs without going over calories I changed the goal. I shortened it by 3 to be at least 160 carbs instead of 163. All so I would miss the streak so I wouldn't have that failure staring me in the face. I cheated so I wouldn't get that first A-. I know its ridiculous but I feel guilty. I feel wrong like a failure and a cheat.

Okay so forget beating myself up for missing 3 carbs I have admitted my failure and am moving on. Today of course life has continued and I did not melt away into oblivion for missing those 3 carbs. Today I tried to do something worse. Today I tried to skip my workout. I had many errands to run today and as I said I've been obsessing so these errands have needed to be done for a few days now. Well I went out first thing knowing that if I put them off I would miss out on another day. Well by the time I got home it was about 4:00 and I still hadn't done my strength training or daily cardio. I actually thought about just skipping especially since I hadn't taken Sunday off like I had planned. This is when I realized that I needed balance. I can't allow this to consume my life but at the same time I can't allow life to take away my goals. There has to be balance a fine line between all and nothing. So I made time for my workout and I've admitted to my missing carbs. Tomorrow I will continue on my journey but will strive for more balance. I won't give up but I won't allow it to consume me either. emoticon

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MAGGIE805 1/13/2011 1:54AM

    It's so hard giving ourselves permission to be human sometimes. We can be so hard on ourselves. Our own worst critic. Sometimes things come up and it's when we need to be flexible with ourselves. It happens to me quite a bit. Morning runs will turn into afternoon runs on the treadmill or a late night ST session because I had something come up or I did'nt get my booty out of bed early enough. Stick with it and hang in there. Adjusting your routine sucks but, it happens sometimes .You are working hard to accomplish what you have set out to do and you are doing great! :)

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SUNNY332 1/12/2011 4:45PM

    Balance is a tough one. I am working on that this year too. Seems I spend a lot more time on the computer than I do on the bike or treadmill. Working to change that around and see more results.

Thanks for the add and I added you too. I see you are from Texas. My parents were from Texas and I spent all of my summers growing up in East Texas Hill Country. We still have most of our family from Austin to Beaumont and points in between. My Father settled in Kansas after the war and my relatives always called us "the yankees".

Nice to meet you and best wishes on your journey.


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Monday, January 10, 2011

I've heard amazing things about Yoga. About how it makes you stronger and stretchier, and have better breathing and posture. Really I've just heard amazing things about Yoga all the way around. In fact I'm not sure I've ever heard anything bad about it. Well I got two Yoga DVDs and decided to try out the AM/PM one. Last night I did the PM one and it was nice, easy, and relaxing. There was a point where I was just laying on the ground breathing. It felt really good. Today I did my aerobic work out to help me warm up and then went on my run. When I got back I did my Zen workout which is like Tai Chi and then did the AM Yoga session. Now let me tell you the stretching felt amazing especially after my run and all today. However, Yoga is not easy and while it may make you stronger and stretchier I am not starting off that way. Some of the moves were impossible for me at this level. I was somewhat disappointed that I couldn't do all the moves but I know that I will get stronger and be able to do them soon. Tomorrow I will try Jillian Michaels Yoga as part of my strength training and for my days calorie burn. I figure if Yoga for beginners was torture then Jillian will probably kill me. emoticon

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DAWN.BELIEVES 3/25/2011 10:59PM

    I am going to start with Yoga tomorrow morning. I also have the element am pm yoga. First time...hope it doesn't hurt to bad :)


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FITNESSFOODIE 1/11/2011 11:26PM

    Good luck with your yoga practice! emoticon

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CALIKIKI 1/11/2011 9:46PM

    Remember when you started running? starting out at smaller distanes than you do now? Yoga is like that too. With practice, it gets better and you will get stronger.

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MAGGIE805 1/11/2011 9:18PM

    I love yoga. Mind you I'm not a serious yogini. But I like how it centers the rest of body, brings balance and releases all the negative tension I develop during the week. I carry all my tension in my shoulders and lower back. Poses in yoga allow me to release all that and I think you have found that out too.

Stretchier is good too. I know my runs are better after a really good yoga session because it's stretched all the muscles that I need. I'm glad you're enjoying it and namaste! emoticon

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LUNATIFF 1/11/2011 5:33PM

    SBITNER1 The brand I'm using is Element I guess and it is just called AM & PM Yoga for Beginners. The instructor is Elena Brower. I don't know much but the PM was really relaxing and the AM was awesome but some of it was really hard.

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SBITNER1 1/10/2011 11:46PM

    Hi! I'm also a Yoga newbie, but I'm going more the Rodney Yee route. Which AM/PM Yoga DVD are you using?

Great job doing both and AM and PM today! emoticon

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Sunday, January 09, 2011

Today was my first official weigh-in. I was sure I was going to be disappointed and/or frustrated but no I feel great! I did only lose one pound but for some reason I don't care. I can't say that I don't want to lose weight but I can say that I feel awesome. I am totally enjoying working out and can feel the exercises becoming easier. I had originally planned on only working out six days per week but I just couldn't bring myself to sit around doing nothing today. I've also decided to start doing Yoga and bought two Yoga DVDs today. One is by Jillian Michaels and is supposed to help with weight loss and counts toward fitness minutes. The other has two programs one for the morning to help wake you up and give you energy for the day and the other is for night to help calm you and relax away the day's stress. I'm really looking forward to trying them out. I'm just amazed at how I feel both physically and mentally. I'm amazed that I have been able to stick with this for a week. I'm amazed that I've cut down my soda and am drinking eight or more glasses of water per day. I'm amazed that I have been able to stick to my nutrition goals without going over or under even once. Really I'm just amazed at my progress, determination, and how I feel. So here I present my new me with my new attitude and new energy and one pound lighter. TADA!!!! emoticon

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MAGGIE805 1/10/2011 11:23PM

    Yay you! It's amazing how we feel when we meet our daily goals and have it pay off like that. It's such a sweet reward. emoticon

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The Moment of Truth

Saturday, January 08, 2011

So tomorrow is Sunday meaning it will be the end of my first week being active here at SparkPeople. Tomorrow I will see if anything has changed from this week of eating right, exercising, and drinking water. I don't think I've ever drank so much water in all of my 35 years not to mention the exercise. I haven't moved this much since I was a child. I'm not feeling very confident because it just so happened to be my time of the month this week. I am proud that I have been drinking so much water as I know that is better for me. The exercise is great. I actually love it! I'm supposed to give myself a rest day tomorrow (figure I earned it) but I'm not so sure I want it. My legs are a bit sore and I've been exhausted even though I'm getting plenty of sleep so I figure I should rest but really I am having fun exercising everyday. Ah but will I really have lost any weight? Even one pound? And even if I do lose that one pound weight fluctuates so what if its really not gone for good? I want to lose weight I really do but I really enjoy exercising and I don't want to give up because of the lack of weight loss. I think I'll keep exercising because I enjoy it but I don't know how much more of this healthy eating I can stand if its not going to do me any good. Ah well I guess I'll find out tomorrow. emoticon

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    Hi. Sometimes its best to give yourself that rest day so that you don't burn out. Also, don't feel bad if you don't lose any weight. Give your body some time to adjust to all this new craziness. I had really good weigh ins and some not so good when I was "in the zone". Just don't throw in the towel! Good luck.

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CAMILLEMANS 1/8/2011 11:14PM

    Good Luck and keep up the good work!

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