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Update on my little girl

Friday, April 01, 2011

My baby girl came home on Wednesday and its been good having her back. She has a long road to recovery but thankfully should be okay. In order to keep the infection from returning the wound has to be left open so she has a gaping hole in her upper right arm. She has been fitted with a wound vac which basically sucks out any fluids that start to build in the wound. We call it her leech but basically it's a vacuum that is attached to the wound itself and can be quite painful for her. I'm so happy that she's home and that she will be okay but it has been a challenge to help her and for her to adjust to not being able to use her arm. She can't dress herself, bathe herself (she's not allowed to get the arm wet), drive, carry anything over 10 pounds (including her daughter), and most normal activities cause her pain. She has to be driven to her wound care appointments three times a week which is challenging with my 3 year old and her 1 year old in tow. For a highly independent 19 year old this has been difficult but the most important thing is that she will be fine, did not lose her arm, and thankfully is still here to complain about being bored and going stir crazy. Thank you all for your prayers, well wishes, and encouragement. We all appreciate it!!

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BAILEYS7OF9 4/4/2011 3:24PM

    Thank goodness she did not lose the arm!

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JACRBUNCH 4/3/2011 11:12AM

    I'm glad to hear that she is doing better.

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DSHERMAN244 4/2/2011 4:59PM

    Glad to hear that she is home. It wont be long until she is feeling much better. Seems like a long road but it will be healed before you know it.


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NATPLUMMER 4/2/2011 12:10AM

    I'm glad she's started the healing process. Hopefully it will be better very soon.

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FROSTY99 4/1/2011 11:25PM

    Glad to know things are looking up. Hard to not take the hurt away from our children, but we can't always do it.

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My Poor Baby

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Okay so its been a while since I've blogged because this month has been stressful and I didn't want to complain. A lot of things out of my control have been going on but this weekend is the worse. My daughter had a swollen red area on her upper arm and I kept telling her to go to the doctor. She's 19 and thinks that she is fine no matter what and unfortunately I can't make her do anything anymore. But as the week has gone on the area has gotten larger and was warm to the touch, she couldn't move it and was in a lot of pain. I finally convinced her to go to the doctor. So yesterday evening she went in figuring they'd give her some antibiotics and send her on her way. Well it was worse than either of us knew and they immediately admitted her to the hospital for IV antibiotics. She ended up having a Staph Infection and its pretty bad but thankfully hasn't moved to her blood or bones. So we figured a couple days since they said at least 48 hours of IV meds but then today her arm has gotten worse and they have decided surgery is needed. Again we underestimated the seriousness of the situation and hung out watching TV and complaining about being hungry until the surgeon came in to look at her and see if he needed to do the surgery right away. He was concerned which is never a good sign. The infection is getting bigger and is causing her a lot of pain and difficulty moving. The surgeon said she needed surgery tonight and as soon as possible. Basically he has to cut out a chunk of her arm and then wash out all the infection and then leave the wound open and let it heal from the inside out. She's going to have a lot of scarring and take a long time to heal and will need to spend days in the hospital. The alternative....lose her arm or maybe her life. This is serious and I'm so worried about her and little upset that she didn't listen to me and go to the doctor sooner. I hate leaving her there. I hate the idea of my baby being cut open. I hate all of this and I'm so worried about her and all I can do is help care for my granddaughter and let her keep my laptop there with her to try and comfort her. I've also got to try and care for myself and my two sons without falling apart with worry about my daughter. I'm the opposite of an emotional eater and when upset I just don't eat at all. I hate all this that I can't control or even influence a little. I hate that I can't be there for my daughter and can't make her feel better or take away her fear. Anyway I'm very worried even though I know she'll be okay. It's bad and she unfortunately waited long enough to need surgery but as it stands now she won't lose her arm or her life and that is what matters. She will heal and hopefully learn a valuable lesson about caring for her health. Ugh I feel like going back the hospital but I promised to care for her baby since she can't when all I really want is to care for mine. Well anyway I know you all were asking about what was going on and really I needed to talk about it a bit. I guess I should get some dinner now.

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NEEBREW 4/1/2011 7:03AM

    How is your daughter now? I had a spot on my leg before like this but fortunately caught it before it went this far. I probably would have let it go, too, except my sister is a nurse and scared the daylights out of me so I went in to get it treated. I hope all is okay now with your daughter!

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BAILEYS7OF9 3/28/2011 4:02PM

    My brother had that happen to him in 2004...when flesh eating strep was making it's rounds. He almost died if it wasn't for his wife that took him to the hospital and he spiked a huge fever. He said he saw a bright light too. I asked if it was cool (I had an out of body experience once that was cool to me) He said no, it scared the daylights out of him.

he recovered, thankfully, did not lose the arm.

poor baby is right. speedy recovery wishes!

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BRATTY_ME27 3/27/2011 11:26PM

    Glad that she is going to be alright. Sorry that she had to go through this, but hopefully she does learn from it.

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KTMAE2006 3/27/2011 10:44PM

    I am praying for her and your family.

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MAGGIE805 3/27/2011 8:58PM

    I am so sorry. Sending (((positive and healing))) thoughts your way. emoticon

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    Sorry to hear all of this. Thankfully she will be alright.

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PAMATX 3/27/2011 5:28PM

    I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending healing energy your way.
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BUGSMOM211 3/27/2011 4:08PM

    emoticon about the bad news in regards to your daughter. Just know that we are all thinking of you...Be Strong!


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NATPLUMMER 3/27/2011 1:37PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your daughter. I hope the surgery takes care of it and she heals quickly. emoticon

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DSHERMAN244 3/27/2011 12:04PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your daughter. My thoughts are with all of you. Just keep your chins up and take care of yourself.


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PAPAMIKIE 3/27/2011 10:02AM

    My thoughts and prayers.

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TEDDYBABE 3/27/2011 9:10AM

    So sorry to hear this. You have done the right thing, taking her to the hospital and getting her the help. A coworkers husband had this and he has healed beautifully. She will be fine. This is hard to go through, but she will be fine. You take are.

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    I can't offer much other than prayers and thoughts for you and your daughter. emoticon

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FENWAYGIRL18 3/26/2011 11:47PM

    OMG I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter!!! They r our babies no matter how old they r and if they have babies themselves...
I hope all goes well and god will give watch over her! You and your family r in my prayers!
God Bless! emoticon

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JACRBUNCH 3/26/2011 11:09PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter. I can only imagine how you mist be feeling. Remember to take care of yourself during this time as well. I am sending positive vibes and prayers that she will have a speedy recovery. emoticon

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MISS_STACYLEE 3/26/2011 10:33PM

    I am so sorry to hear this! My grandmother had this happen, she is a stubborn old woman! She had a little spot on her leg and then it got so bad that it took up most of her shin, my mother finally convinced her to go in when she just happened to see it, my grandma had been hiding it for some time! She had to have surgery right away and is still recovering after a year. She has had to have a few skin grafts to try and cover up the area. I know this sounds like bad news but as long as she takes care of it and has you there for support and encourgement she will be alright!

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Lunatiff's A-Z

Saturday, March 05, 2011


A. Age: 35

B. Bed size: Queen (I think might be a full for all I know)

C. Chore you dislike: cooking

D. Dogs: I like medium or big dogs. I used to have an Australian Shepard and would be more than happy to have one again.

E. Essential start to your day: Breakfast and a Dt. Dr. Pepper

F. Favorite color: Blue

G. Gold or silver: Gold

H. Height: 5 5" (and a 1/2 ;) )

I. Instruments you play(ed): I used to play flute but barely remember how to hold one now

J. Job title: Um mom?

K. Kids: 3 one girl 19 and two boys 15 and 3

L. Live: Leander, TX

M. Mom's name: Angela

N. Nicknames: Tiffers

O. Overnight hospital stays: When I had my children and a few times when my daughter has been in the hospital

P. Pet peeves: People who leave wet towels on the bed

Q. Quote from a movie: "You are a sad strange little man"

R. Righty or Lefty: righty

S. Siblings: Two younger sisters and one little brother

T. Time you wake up: 7:15 on weekdays and as late as possible on weekends (although that's usually 8 or 8:30)

U. Underwear: Yes I have them

V. Vegetables you don't like: Avocado

W. What makes you run late: Seems like everything. I'm always running late

X. X-rays you've had: My whole body after being hit by a car

Y. Yummy food you make: Well I hate to cook but people really like my blackberry cobbler and when I make tilapia for dinner.

Z. Zoo animal favorites: Elephants.

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TEDDYBABE 3/7/2011 9:32PM

    You forgot to list non smoking runner!!

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NATPLUMMER 3/6/2011 9:30AM

    Fun list!

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MAGGIE805 3/5/2011 8:03PM

    Great list!!!! :)

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Mind Games

Friday, March 04, 2011

Running is a mind game. One where if you believe you can then you will but if there is any doubt you'll fail miserably. Failure hmm well that's a strong word. More like not being able to live up to your full potential or even accomplish what's been done before. This is the category I've been in for weeks. I thought after making it through my 5K I'd be able to get past this mental issue I've been having. I think I did wonderfully in the race but before and even after I haven't been able to perform the way I know I'm capable of. I stopped the C25K at week 8 because I didn't feel capable of running without the walking intervals. Okay maybe not but in reality I had already done it. I ran week 8 day 1 and while it was hard I was able to do it. I should have been able to do it on day 2 and 3 but for some reason I couldn't. I went back to week 6 and even that was difficult. It seems that even day 1 of week 1 is impossible now. I started training my son and even during the 60 second runs I was breathing hard. A 60 second run I mean seriously that is nothing and it should not have made me breathe hard. I should be able to run W1D1 several times over with no problem. That is when I realized it can't possibly be because I can't do it but more because I think I can't. I haven't given up so that's good. I still run 3 days per week and I still try each run to make it through 3.1 miles without stopping. Each run its gets worse. I feel more and more like I can't make it. I walk more, run slower, and run less. I don't know why I have this block. I don't know why I can't get past this mental block and get rid of the mind games. I mean seriously I know I can do it I've done it before so why can't I do it again. It's not just my mind either, my body is following suite. No pain but tightness in my leg muscles especially my right calf and ankle. I have no idea why. Oh and then I got a cramp in my side for the first time since starting running. It's like my mind is all messed and my body is trying to follow suite. I know I can run at least 28 minutes straight. I ran 5K with only about 3-5 minutes of walking but on my regular training runs I can't run more than 3-6 minutes straight. I just don't get it. I've tried changing my route just in case maybe I was bored. I tried challenging myself like making it up a hill or trying to get to a certain point before walking. I've tried changing the music and even running without music. I've tried focusing on a point in front of me and trying to zone out. I've tried really everything I can think of to get out of this. The only thing I'm not willing to do is quit and give up running. I still feel great when I've finished running. I still feel amazing that I am able to do it at all and am still proud of my accomplishments. I still feel great on the days I run its just while I'm running that I have these problems. I want to run in more races and I want to get better and even run all the way through. Maybe one day I can even move up to a 10K or half but for now I can't even get past two songs without stopping and walking. I'm not sure what to do and while knowing its all in my head is useful information it really doesn't help fix the problem.

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KTMAE2006 3/5/2011 4:04PM

    I totally know where you are at....I've gotten off track with my training and am having a hard time getting back to where I was. I think I'm going to basically start over with my training. Just exercise for 20 minutes and see where that gets me. Then try to beat either the time I exercise or the distance covered the next time I workout.

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NATPLUMMER 3/4/2011 11:50PM

    Stopping to walk is not failure. Maybe you just need a week away from running so that when you come back to it you're fresh.

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APIRLRAIN888 3/4/2011 9:46PM

    AGREE!!! I dedicated like 10 blogs to this subject! but I think I figured it out! did you chk out my MAD scientist blog 1 and 2!!! running in the zone! you can MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!

I am just like you!!! If my mind is not in the game, the run is failure! and I have experience all of the things you mentioned!

so I ran the above experiment!

today I ran 5 miles! was fatigued, didn't wanna, and was in the ZONE! it was to be 9 miles, but something happened at 5 miles couldn't recover, so I'll take it. the longest I have ran in a while is 3-4 miles!

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GABBIEGIRL614 3/4/2011 9:29PM

    Aren't our brains amazing? They're capable of lifting us up and helping us accomplish anything, and they're also the things that can send us spiraling into despair.
I know many people who follow the run/walk method (I think Coach Nancy does, doesn't she?) and they are tremendously successful runners. Walking does not equal failure. Maybe you need a change-up? What if you checked out the Spark Your Way to a 5K program instead? Maybe changing up the physical program itself will help you past whatever the mental block is?
Have faith can do this. I still think of you every time I run and I have the "what if" fear set in. We can do anything....ANYTHING.

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Race with Advocare! My first 5K!!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

November 20th I made the sudden decision to quit smoking. I had smoked for 23 years and had never really wanted to quit but for some reason I went to my mom and asked her to buy me the patch. When my dad went to the store I sat outside and smoked my last cigarette. Two weeks later on December 6 I started the C25K program. I had never had a desire to run or really do any exercising. It was strange like I had been snatched by some aliens or something. But as I walked out of the house for my first warm up walk I instantly felt at peace. 20 minutes later as I did my first cool down walk home I had fallen in love with running.

Here we are 3 months later and I haven't looked back and haven't thought about starting smoking again. 3 months later I had trouble sleeping from the nervousnesses I felt about my first 5K this morning. I had a dream that I couldn't find the race. I had been out there before but you know how dreams were I looked and looked but couldn't find it. In my dream I had to come home and tell my family that I had failed and couldn't even run the race. In reality I woke up this morning ate my oatmeal, got ready and left. The race started at 8 am but I wanted to be there a little early just to make sure I wasn't late. I left at 7:20 to get to the park that is about a 10 minute drive from my house. Hmm well maybe 15. I missed my was a dream coming true I had missed the turn. I didn't even see it. Oh well so I turned around and found the county road and headed down to the park. As I turned in it seemed closed like there was no one there and I thought for a second maybe they had cancelled it because it was misting and foggy. All of my dread and anxiety was for nothing of course they were there and there were quite a few people. Nothing like I'd seen with the big city marathons on TV but a good number of people (I think the site said there were 70 finishers). It was nice for a first race; not too many people but not so few that you feel all eyes on you.

I was kind of feeling a little shy and worried that I was going to do something wrong or break a rule or something. I had asked beforehand if I could use my headphones and was told yes but then the FAQ on the race site said no but I brought them anyway just in case. I wasn't the only one. I walked around in circles for a bit while the announcer talked and got all warmed up. That was good since there weren't enough people to make it take a while to cross the starting line. I was all ready to go and by the time I officially started I felt good.

As the crowd thinned out and the slower people were passed and the faster racers took off I found my pace. I picked a runner in front of me and just ran like I always do. I had been worried that I would run too fast if people passed me or were close but I just focused on my run and really got to the zone quickly. I've never been able to do that before. I never felt that difficulty getting warmed up or the tired legs before I hit the first mile. I just ran. I had already given myself permission to walk if I needed to but only when I really needed to. We started out on street which I'm used to and went a ways until we ended up on the gravel road. I had told myself when I got there I could walk but I didn't. When I left the street for the gravel I thought well surely you can make it to the lake. Then it was well just make it past the lake and then you can walk. I don't know for sure but I think I went 2 miles before I took a walk break. I just kept going I was so amazed. When I did walk it was maybe for a minute before I started up again. I had been afraid that if I stopped to walk I'd never start up again but I did until we hit the last hill which is maybe the last half a mile before the finish. I walked for maybe another minute and then ran the rest of the way. I had wanted to run the whole thing but honestly I'm very proud of myself and think that the little I walked was okay and that I did my best. I've never gone that far and I've never run that long and the weird thing is that it seemed so easy.

Well the final results I finished at 36.18 which is a personal record for any of my training or running and of is my only record for a real race. I had wanted to make it in less that 40 minutes and I did that. Out of 43 women I was 17 which is pretty good. I'm nowhere near the top but I'm also nowhere near the bottom. Overall I was 37th place. I just can't be more proud honestly even if I didn't run the whole thing. The only sad part was that my family was not there to see me finish. I had told them that it wouldn't take more that 40 minutes and to be there at like 8:30 but they were late and so no to take a photo as I crossed the finish line. Little sad but really couldn't take away my pride and happiness. They did get a couple of pictures which can be seen on my photo wall so I'm happy overall.

Oh two more things. One after the race an old man (he was 85) came up and congratulated me on the race. I thanked him figuring he was being nice since I was alone but then he told me how he hard he tried the entire race to catch up with me. My time was 36.18 and his was 37.17. I felt good that I was his motivation or like my sister said I was his rabbit. To me he is an inspiration and so it made me feel really great to be his motivation. The second thing is that they held a raffle after the race to give everyone a chance at prizes. Of the top finishers and masters were awarded prizes and they gave all the children in the kids race a prize but for the rest of us it was down to a raffle. I won!! I have never won a prize that I can remember ever. And not only did I not get the puny prize of a free pizza but I got one of the more coveted prizes. I won 6 weeks of bootcamp at our local YMCA for free. Free bootcamp!! I'm so excited. Its two hour long sessions per week of intense circuit training. I'm not sure I can survive it but I'm sure as heck gonna try! I can't wait to find my next race and to run again regularly and see if I can do even better next time! emoticon

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RRFIT72 3/1/2011 12:25PM

    I missed you out there! We arrived around 7:15am and I watched for you up to a few minutes before race start... I was hoping you hadn't changed your mind about the race! I knew deep down you hadn't, but when I didn't see you I started to worry. Anyways, congrats on your first 5k. It's a great accomplishment.. especially in less than 40 mins! WOW!

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EUPHMOM 3/1/2011 8:13AM

    Congratulations!!!! You are amazing!

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BRATTY_ME27 2/28/2011 1:01PM

    Way to go! Congrats on finishing and beating your own personal best, isn't it funny how we can think of someone as an inspiration and have them tell us that we are theirs? Have fun with your bootcamp prize! I bet you will love it!
I quit smoking just before Thanksgiving, so I understand just how hard it is, and you are doing great! Keep it up.

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SHRINKINRUNNER 2/28/2011 12:41PM

    You have got bitten by the race bug! emoticon :) emoticon and YOU did such an emoticon job! emoticon hun!!! emoticon

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BAILEYS7OF9 2/28/2011 12:13PM

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that is such a cool prize!!! and that is so great that you ran your race!!!

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BUGSMOM211 2/28/2011 11:59AM

    emoticon You have a good addiction!! I love running too..Good job on your race, and sign up for more emoticon emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 2/28/2011 11:34AM

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Fabulous job!!!!

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SBATES63 2/28/2011 6:11AM

    You are awesome. Don't forget it.

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TEDDYBABE 2/28/2011 2:39AM

    Oh wow, what a great blog and what an awesome story. You did so good. You earned every bit of it. So proud of you. The quitting smoking was huge by itself but then to add the health benefits of running. Just WOW! You will love the bootcamp! You are doing great, I am so inspired by you! You go girl!

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GABBIEGIRL614 2/28/2011 1:22AM

    I am so freakin' proud of you!!! You inspire me daily hon! Awesome story, and great job!

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MAGGIE805 2/28/2011 12:51AM

    I am so proud of you! Congratulations on running your first 5k.This is only just the beginning. :)

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RUNKAYRUN 2/27/2011 11:52PM

  Wow thats awesome! Congrats on finishing your first 5k! Im sure you have many more finish lines ahead of you!!
Keep up the great work!

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YESIRUN 2/27/2011 11:41PM

    Finishing that first race is GREAT!! Congrats on a great time and for just getting there by not smoking and just getting out your door for that first training run. Keep up the great work! Pretty soon you'll have your sights on a 10K (I just finished my first).

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