Wednesday, June 29, 2011
So I did really well on the fitness goal. I got up at 5 a.m. jogged 2 miles in 20 minutes. Then I did Ripped in 30 with 5 lb weights, and I really gave it my all. I'm keeping up with this part of my goals.
Unfortunately when it comes to my nutrition/ no binge goal, I didn't do quite as hot. Actually I failed miserably. I started craving sweets the moment I woke up. I had a bunch of candy that someone else had brought to work, plus a not so sensible sandwich from subway for lunch with a small dairy queen blizzard on the side, pizza for dinner etc etc. My lunch alone was probably around 1500 calories! All within a 30 minute period. My lunch was really the only binge type episode. The other "meals" if you can even call them that were just bad choices.
It's like there's this horrible downhill momentum. I focus on whatever food I want. I hunt it down although it's usually in the kitchen or right next door. I eat it and whatever poor things happen to be next to it so fast I don't even enjoy them. Repeat cycle each time beginning with the little devil on my shoulder whispering "you might as well have that [insert forbidden heart attack causing food here] since you've already ruined your day."
Small stress at work triggered me to act on the cravings I'd been having all day, and I just couldn't stop myself after that. I realize the damage I've done. But it would be so easy to repeat tomorrow. It's a vicious cycle.
The downhill rolling momentum of "might as well, I've already ruined my day" somehow keeps going. The next day it becomes "Have that apple fritter for breakfast. You might as well. You've already ruined your week."
But even though my mind is talking me into eating all sorts of delicious foods of the not so low calorie variety, today I'm determined not to go there. I started my day with delicious, fruity steel cut oats and soy milk. I've already planned out my lunch (organic frozen meal). I'm taking broccoli to snack on instead of the basket of fancy chocolates in the work kitchen.
I'm even leaving late for work, so there's no chance of stopping by [ insert forbidden fast food restaurant here]. I'm taking small steps to make sure that I am in control today.
Day 7 EPC Blog will hopefully be a better one.