Friday, August 09, 2013
I just feel like I can't do it. I think it's kind of because I've started and stopped so many times. And when it comes down to it, I just feel like the little changes won't make a difference. Boy, I'm a Debbie Downer today. Sorry if you needed to read something uplifting....this definitely isn't it. LOL.
My 21 month old son is my bright spot every day, even when he's getting into mischief. I love that little guy. Today he picked up my cell phone, successfully dialed Dad, and then as soon as he heard the dial tone (I'm assuming) he started yelling, "DA-DAAAAAAAD!!!!!" directly into the phone. Every day he makes me laugh and smile and I want to be able to be there for him. On my worst days, just seeing him reminds me of why I keep to trying to be healthier. I think sometimes of the days when I ran cross country in high school. My coach would often yell, "Mind over matter!" when we looked like we were ready to give up. Once he did a visualization exercise with us before a big race and I saw myself running fast and doing well in the race, and guess what? When I ran the race, it was my best time ever. Maybe I need to keep thinking, "Mind over matter".