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Ah life: promotion... weigh in with the doctor... chinese?

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Well as I live and breathe my boss handed me an expected promotion with unexpected twists today. I am really apprehensive about taking over the good once my friend moves on to a better opportunity but at least my financial woes will settle down. He's giving me a sizable raise which I sorely need to make other opportunities open up in my life. I just wonder if this is the right step towards medical school. I just wonder if this is the right step for me all the way around. It's obvious my current position would turn into a mundane boring job once the dust settled and any gains made would fizzle out. So moving on to a new mobile manager role ought to, at the very least, give me hope of something better. I am praying that's the case anyways.

I am due to see my doctor next Friday for my monthly weigh in. I am little nervous to go since I gained weight this month from stress and frankly poor stress management. I am trying to get back on track, which is going better, but I am really concerned about showing up as a dud come the 7th.

Dear Lord I need discipline. I really need to get back into the swing of my Mandarin lessons. I really want to be fluent in both Mandarin and Spanish before I apply to medical school. That will take a fair bit of studying on my part somewhere in between work and taking care of my mother. I am really not sure where to fit it in but that's probably because I am lazy. Truly lazy. If only there were a few more hours in the day or I didn't need to sleep. . .

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MTGIRL2012 12/9/2012 10:52AM

    Hi there, don't become defeated by setbacks. We all go through challenges and I feel like with a little jumpstart by even seeing your doctor to face the dreaded possibility of disappointment maybe you will get back on the right track. I am so excited to see you participating in the holly jolly 8 week challenge. As a teammate and also overweight, I definitely have my challenges. I look forward to seeing you reach your goals!!!

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LJOYCE55 11/28/2012 12:08PM

  Piffle - we are all lazy to some degree. Who would not like to sit on a beach sipping mai tais rather than attend work meetings. The fact that you have such high aspirations for yourself and many projects in play shows you are not very lazy. Stress mgt is difficult, but you at least recognize it and can do something about it. Good luck on your projects and finding your path.

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LTMURPHY7 11/27/2012 11:19PM


Best of luck
Since you know you're lazy, what will you do???????????

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DAY 70!

Saturday, November 24, 2012

I am about to go on my walk and I realized today makes my streak of walking one mile daily 70 days! I am extremely pleased with myself at the moment. I managed to really stick to my guns on at least one thing for 70 days straight! Go me.

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JENNCABA 11/24/2012 9:22PM

    emoticon emoticon You are doing great !! emoticon

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MJ7DM33 11/24/2012 6:39PM

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EUEK098 11/24/2012 6:15PM

    emoticon you. emoticon

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LJOYCE55 11/24/2012 5:35PM

  Hmm, maybe time to buy a new pair of sneakers as a reward for your efforts. Great job! emoticon

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NANAGO1204 11/24/2012 4:52PM

    Well done...that's awesome!! I wish I could say the same...the bad weather kicked my walking in the shins so my step count is not what is used to be. :( Nevertheless, it does work so keep up the good effort! emoticon

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MAMISHELI53 11/24/2012 3:07PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Go you!
"My grandmother started walking a mile a day...We have no idea where she is!" (joke)

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Over did it

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

I just ate my way through my emotions. Damnit. My fellow manager quit today as expected and my boss is about to ask me to take over her responsibilities as expected. For some reason it just feels like hell. Like there is no end to this roller coaster of a mess. I am truly stumped on how to get around all this nonsense.

Well that's not entirely true. One thing I will be working on over the holiday is my resume. If there is another opportunity I am better suited for, it's definitely time for a change.

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LJOYCE55 11/21/2012 10:28AM

  The last paragraph in your blog is very positive and shows you are making changes without letting life just happen. Good for you.

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NANAGO1204 11/21/2012 12:14AM

    emoticon emoticon
Stay with it...and with us...we are in a place that provides good medicine for discouraged bodies and minds. You will get through this a winner!!

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TEADYBEAR77 11/20/2012 11:14PM

    I've been known to blow it in the past myself. Just remember, tomorrow is a brand new day. You can forgive yourself, dust yourself off and get going once again. Have a great night.

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Gained weight instead of lost :(

Monday, November 19, 2012

Damnit! I gained three pounds! It's really my fault since I've been eating poorly lately. Just letting myself enjoy food as a comfort for all the crap going on in my life. Now I am really pissed at myself. I need to lose weight before my next doctor's appointment and now I'll be lucky just to make it back to the weight I was at last month. Again, damnit!

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LJOYCE55 11/21/2012 10:34AM

  We have all been there. Take a deep breath, start again, and you will make progress. Don't let this ruin your week.

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LILLEAN 11/19/2012 6:47PM

    It's ok you don't have to be so mad with yourself. There are days like these in our journey. Get back up, dust yourself and emoticon

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HORSESHOEHONEY 11/19/2012 6:39PM

    Fat is really slow, so if you walk briskly for 10 or more minutes a day you will outrun it! Good Luck!

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JCW001 11/19/2012 5:29PM

  You can do it.

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MMCKIE 11/19/2012 5:21PM

    Don't be so mad at yourself. It sounds like there are things going in your life that are making you feel stressed. Do something active to get rid of some of the stress, read some motivating things on here and be gentle with yourself. Take a big breath and start fresh!

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WENWASHING67 11/19/2012 5:11PM

    Don't be so hard on yourself. You can fix this, just be more careful next time...you can do this! emoticon

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Saturday morning and my big cup of tea

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Yesterday my co-worker broke the new of her departure at the end of the year. I am not shocked but more or less disappointed. She really added sanity to a very stressful situation. I will certainly miss the relief of talking to her and just venting all my issues to an understanding ear. Another thing is I am in line to take her job and get another raise. If I do 1) I will royally piss off another one of my counterparts who, if he has half a brain will quit, 2) take me farther away from my preparations for medical school and 3) add a significant amount of stress to my life. If I don't I lose the opportunity to pay off some my lingering debt.

Purchasing a rowing machine right now is out of the question too. From researching online it seems like anything priced below $900 will deteriorate in three months. Dropping several hundred dollars on a one hit wonder is not going to happen right now. My other option is joining a gym which historically has been a bad idea. I am much more inclined to do cardio and group exercise than attend a gym by myself. Just another something to assess this weekend.

Lastly I really want to start my Mandarin lessons again. Not just some of the time but on a schedule that sticks! I wanted to do the same thing with meal plans and actually schedule times to go to the grocery store.

So it is Saturday morning..... My tea is keeping me warm while I contemplate all of the above.

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LJOYCE55 11/17/2012 7:16PM

  It is a dilemma. However, both possibilities are positive and bring improvements to your life. Good luck in your decision.

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LUCINDARW 11/17/2012 2:25PM

    The job is a hard one to decide which is the right one for you. think about your ultimate goal of med school and if it will get you closer to what you want plus if you will be able to handle the added stress. Only you can make the decision that will effect you. Good luck! Lucinda

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LYNNA1968 11/17/2012 1:13PM

    A suggestion would be another cup of tea & actually write the pro's & con's off accepting the offer. If the pro's out weight the con's then accept it with a smile & positive thoughts

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ALICIA214 11/17/2012 12:43PM


Important decisions are never easy...I wish you luck in making the right one..


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