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As a young person most people described me as incredibly competitive. Indeed as a child if I did not surpass all my peers in anything and everything then I saw my efforts as abysmal failures. As an older person though I am trying to learn personal competitiveness with the primary focus of being the best me. Silly as it might seem, my greatest failure in life remains the complete inability to just be me and concern myself with being the best me. I am really trying to make huge strides in my life right now but I am so frustrated it's taking so long to mature into a grander, more refined version of this author. I feel lazy but I wonder if this is just something I need to experience on my journey. 
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BARBANNA
12/6/2012 2:01PM
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  I understand totally! My father was a major drill sargeant and raised his children to be high achievers. We are all anxiety ridden and competitive which often leads to disappointment with too high expectations. I try to like myself as I am, but feel like I would be better if only.... Someday I will sit back and ask if it was all worth the time and effort. I know there are friends and family who look at me and think, slow down girl!Please try to be happy with youself for all the special achievements and try to see the big picture. I have a husband and daughter who have altered a lot of my thinking with their love and appreciation. Unfortunately I married a man like my father, so I help him with all his high expectations. We are trying to raise our daughter to be less like the too of us, but it's in her blood, she's worse. Have a wonderful holiday and count your blessing, especially SP. Report Inappropriate Comment |
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LJOYCE55
12/2/2012 4:59PM
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Very introspective - hope it helps focus your efforts.
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PJ2222
12/2/2012 1:09PM
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LYNNA1968
12/2/2012 1:04PM
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your not lazy! You will take on this challenge when you have no others, maybe this is your journey and now your started to get motivated to get it done.
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TRAZIJANES
12/2/2012 12:54PM
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Like this. I can relate ...especially where you talk about the inability to just be me and concern myself with being the best me....If you get enlightened...share it with me too. 
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Well as I live and breathe my boss handed me an expected promotion with unexpected twists today. I am really apprehensive about taking over the good once my friend moves on to a better opportunity but at least my financial woes will settle down. He's giving me a sizable raise which I sorely need to make other opportunities open up in my life. I just wonder if this is the right step towards medical school. I just wonder if this is the right step for me all the way around. It's obvious my current position would turn into a mundane boring job once the dust settled and any gains made would fizzle out. So moving on to a new mobile manager role ought to, at the very least, give me hope of something better. I am praying that's the case anyways.
I am due to see my doctor next Friday for my monthly weigh in. I am little nervous to go since I gained weight this month from stress and frankly poor stress management. I am trying to get back on track, which is going better, but I am really concerned about showing up as a dud come the 7th.
Dear Lord I need discipline. I really need to get back into the swing of my Mandarin lessons. I really want to be fluent in both Mandarin and Spanish before I apply to medical school. That will take a fair bit of studying on my part somewhere in between work and taking care of my mother. I am really not sure where to fit it in but that's probably because I am lazy. Truly lazy. If only there were a few more hours in the day or I didn't need to sleep. . .
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MTGIRL2012
12/9/2012 10:52AM
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Hi there, don't become defeated by setbacks. We all go through challenges and I feel like with a little jumpstart by even seeing your doctor to face the dreaded possibility of disappointment maybe you will get back on the right track. I am so excited to see you participating in the holly jolly 8 week challenge. As a teammate and also overweight, I definitely have my challenges. I look forward to seeing you reach your goals!!!
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LJOYCE55
11/28/2012 12:08PM
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Piffle - we are all lazy to some degree. Who would not like to sit on a beach sipping mai tais rather than attend work meetings. The fact that you have such high aspirations for yourself and many projects in play shows you are not very lazy. Stress mgt is difficult, but you at least recognize it and can do something about it. Good luck on your projects and finding your path.
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LTMURPHY7
11/27/2012 11:19PM
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Best of luck Since you know you're lazy, what will you do??????????? Report Inappropriate Comment |
Excellent! Keep up the great job!
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