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Alright, I can do a daily 10min walking challenge

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Exercise is really difficult for me because of recurring injuries in my feet and ankles. I am usually anemic as well so my muscles tire rather easily during exercise. Despite those issues I am going to try walking 10 minutes everyday for a week, starting today. I am hoping starting a simple walking challenge will segue into a full blown exercise plan in the future. Grant me fortitude and fortune fate to contradict popular belief.

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BOOGITY12 9/16/2012 10:21PM


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SPIRALDOWN 9/16/2012 11:53AM

    You can do it.... Starting small is a gd start...... Go go go

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LINDAMARIEZ1 9/16/2012 11:41AM

    I know you can do it too! good luck! remember 1 day at a time!!!

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Angry at myself for getting so heavy

Thursday, September 13, 2012

I logically know why I got heavy in the first place. Poor understanding of nutrition, a crippling abusive relationship, major financial loss, chronic health issues and poor living circumstances created a huge crater in my life. By the way, I'm only 27. Today brought on the realization that I am not just fighting weight loss, I need to fight everything else leading to my unhealthy life. I just am so frustrated I didn't see this train wreck coming. Why did I have lose so much? Why must all lessons be learned at such a price? I am just old enough that getting back into pursuing my dream seems unrealistic. My peers are running around with glittering careers and I am stuck trying to accomplish the same goals I had in high school. If I don't lose weight I will never be the person I want to become. Yet my heart is heavy like the rest of me. It simply won't commit toward success. I am so angry. I am so hurt. And I am so frustrated.

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LOYAL_HEART 9/14/2012 6:27PM

    Thank you everyone for your kind words.

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ELISE415 9/14/2012 8:00AM

    Never feel like you are any less than the person standing next to you. You ALWAYS come first no matter what. You're only 27, you have so much time to persue your dreams. So what if you're starting late? The only thing that matters is you're doing it. Now that you know where you went wrong you can always fix it, there's always time for a new beginning. Don't give up on yourself, I'm pretty sure you're stronger than that :-)

I had to learn the same lesson as you, if you keep looking at other people and seeing what they're doing and how they're doing it you are never going to get to where you want to be.

There's a quote that I love by a Psychologist names Carl Jung he says:
Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.

It's time for you to look inside and wake up Ms. Thang, because life won't wait for you!

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FENWAYGIRL18 9/13/2012 10:37PM

    I thought that once upon a time when i was 23 yrs old and dropped 150lbs and then I met my husband , got married , had a child, went back to school and it was all because I believed in myself and I had a lot of obstacles also...
You need to BELIEVE in yourself and start living your life NOW before it passes you by, stop thinking negative and start living! emoticon emoticon

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GOOSIEMOON 9/13/2012 10:31PM

    You CAN do this! Just take it one good decision at a time - one day at a time...

and be patient with yourself and don't expect perfection.


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LYNNA1968 9/13/2012 10:25PM

    Take a step back, take a breath & realize that it didn't happen overnight so don't expect it to change overnight that will just set you up. Baby steps. Check out some teams, there are several for stress, esteem, even some for chronic issues.
Remember everyday is a do over emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOTPINKCAMARO49 9/13/2012 10:16PM

  Today is the 1st day of the rest of YOUR LIFE!

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You go, girl! God Bless your journey.

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How the hell do people plan?!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

For some reason my protein intake is always sub par. Never fails. Not only that but I am missing other important nutrients like potassium and magnesium in my diet. My sporadic, ill conceived eating habits are really catching up to me. After starting a food journal again I am noticing how random everything is in my life. Cleaning, done whenever I remember. Mandarin lessons, happened sometime a couple weeks ago. Exercise, problematic. Nothing seems to stick like it should. It's not that I don't work hard but I certainly am not a "smart worker" in my personal life. All my deficient planning really gets me thinking, how in the hell do other people adhere to plans? My worry is that I am not going to accomplish my weight loss goals purely because I can't stick it out. Experts always site mimicking other people who exhibit a desirable skill eventually leads to learning the skill... but how am I to peer into someone's personal habits? How will I be successful?

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LJOYCE55 9/12/2012 11:38AM

  On the positive side, you started a food journal so you already have the first part of a plan. Keep up the good work.

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"Motivationally" Challenged

Sunday, September 09, 2012

I am motivationally challenged. Over the past two weeks since starting a weight loss medication I consistently avoid building the rest of my weight loss plan. Although I am starting to see why. I am reading the Power of Habit right now and it's obvious why I am not designing and executing a solid weight loss program: no real goal. Sure there are what seems like infinite reasons why I want to lose weight but not one real reason, something I truly want above all others for myself, that sticks out. I threw in the caveat about "for myself" because I do want to find a partner which I mentally tie my success in weight loss to achieving that dream. But is that really for myself? Making someone else find value in me because I am thinner is not "for myself." So back to the original problem, there is not one thing I visualize day in and day out as a goal for weight loss. Finding that one motivational link escapes me constantly. I am afraid of mirrors and I dodge reflective surfaces daily. One would think that would be enough, right? I am really embarrassed that I cannot keep up with my friends due to my lower limb injuries. Again isn't that enough to change? I could go on, but I think the most productive use of today is to think about what one thing to charge after.

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SLIMMERKIWI 9/10/2012 7:49PM

    I wouldn't include finding a partner in with the motivation part. That makes it seem like you are out shopping. Relationships form regardless of size - it is the mind/personality that does it.

Sometimes motivation just doesn't happen in an obvious way, but the baby steps program (just introducing one or two small changes) and allowing your mind/body to get used to them before introducing something else is really the best way. That way you are kind of tricking your mind into thinking that it has always been like this. Before long you will find yourself on that weight-loss journey and you will find it much easier to stay on course.

Sometimes looking at the "I have to get from here to there" can be quite daunting, especially if you add in "and I have to do this, this this and that!" This is where those baby steps come in to their own :-) Even the goals need to be baby steps for some - small packages, and when you reach it, add another little package!


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CAGMUAHFO2 9/9/2012 12:41PM

    I too am struggling. I need to find my motivation. I guess I just haven't had my ah-ha moment yet. But just need to emoticon you will figure out what your real motivation is.

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LOYAL_HEART 9/9/2012 12:20PM

    It's so funny you typed back before I got up to get my collage board! I am actually going to a half price book store today to buy old magazines for 50 cents a piece so I can make a vision board later.

I did like SparkCoach and I'll go ahead with the program. I like the fast break goals but you have to switch them over to "other" goals so it calculates your streaks properly.

Ok I read several books simultaneously so I am 1/4 through The Spark by Chris Downie and The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg. For me both books really put into perspective what needs to change and how it needs to change. I was really down on myself last night for failing at my weight loss goals until I read a chapter about habits. Really very helpful for me. If you like reading it might be helpful for you too!

Let me know how the visual goal page goes! emoticon


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MJMONE 9/9/2012 12:03PM

    I am right there with you, struggling with maintaining my motivation.

Have you tried the Spark Coach option? I've just started and so far have found it very helpful. Also the Fast Break goals.

I am learning to look forward instead of backward. I'm thinking of finding a pic of some size 10 jeans and putting it above my computer screen would help. Maybe that could be our 'assignment'...creating a visual goal page...


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Monday, August 27, 2012

My doctor prescibed a weight loss drug for me. The reason being I have difficulty exercising because of injuries and I am on a medication with a side effect of weight gain. I am not entirely sure how I feel about pills to counteract pills, but if it works...? Maybe it's worth it to try for awhile and see what happens.


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