Sunday, September 09, 2012
I am motivationally challenged. Over the past two weeks since starting a weight loss medication I consistently avoid building the rest of my weight loss plan. Although I am starting to see why. I am reading the Power of Habit right now and it's obvious why I am not designing and executing a solid weight loss program: no real goal. Sure there are what seems like infinite reasons why I want to lose weight but not one real reason, something I truly want above all others for myself, that sticks out. I threw in the caveat about "for myself" because I do want to find a partner which I mentally tie my success in weight loss to achieving that dream. But is that really for myself? Making someone else find value in me because I am thinner is not "for myself." So back to the original problem, there is not one thing I visualize day in and day out as a goal for weight loss. Finding that one motivational link escapes me constantly. I am afraid of mirrors and I dodge reflective surfaces daily. One would think that would be enough, right? I am really embarrassed that I cannot keep up with my friends due to my lower limb injuries. Again isn't that enough to change? I could go on, but I think the most productive use of today is to think about what one thing to charge after.