Sunday, February 27, 2011
Alrighty, it's the end of February, so that means measurements and making March goals!
Neck - 13.5
Bust - 38
Waist - 31.5
Hips - 41.5
W/H ratio - 0.75
And now, 2/27/2011
Neck - 13
Bust - 36
Waist - 29
Hips - 39.5
W/H ratio - 0.73
Right thigh - 24
Left thigh - 23.5
Chest - 32
So yay!! losses all around! ... now if I'd just lose a couple inches in my hips I'd be an hourglass, haha. But I really AM glad to be under 40 on my hip measurements. And I'm super glad to have lost that half inch in my neck - it sounds silly, but I ALWAYS notice my gains and losses in my neck and face before I notice it anywhere else. Losing that half inch tells me that this is working for real.
Now for March goals.. well considering there's spring break and all those crazy distractions..
- do a JM video each day of spring break
- gradually start running outside again
- make an appt. with a personal trainer to get an idea of how much I should be lifting
- cook fish once a week
- learn to cook quinoa
I think I can do all that =) Again, I'm not really sure what kind of goals I should be making for my measurements, so I won't. I'll be happy as long as I'm losing inches - heck, even half inches.
As far as the scale goes, I'd LOVE to reach my 15% loss milestone and weigh in at 142.8 by the end of March, but I think my dream would be to reach 140 by then. That's the "goal weight" by body composition results gave me, and even though I definitely want to get below that (115 - 125), it would be really nice to meet that goal and know I'm near a healthy body fat percentage.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
I know yesterday I celebrated 20 lbs lost and that should have me super motivated to keep going and not lose steam, etc. And I definitely don't want to get comfortable at 147 and just stop here cause it's easy. That's not the plan.
But you know, I had a really long night last night, so I didn't wake up in time for an early morning workout. Then I had a late lunch, which is never good for me - it always means overeating at dinner and going overboard on snacks through the day.
So yeah, today I ate more than I should have and didn't work out. I'm not super happy about my decisions , but I also don't necessarily regret them. Today was ONE day. Yep, I had a lotttt of carbs, and I'll have to be a little extra careful through the rest of the week. But I enjoyed them, tracked them, and I refuse to dwell on it.
Worst case scenario, I gain this week. Gains happen. That's not going to stop me from reaching my goal. And, even if I do gain, I know I'm not going to reverse all of my progress in one day of semi-irresponsible choices.
I'm not getting comfortable; I'm not making excuses. I'm allowing myself to be a little imperfect when I know I need that kind of flexibility.
On another note, today one of my roommates told me "Hey, I just wanted to let you know, but I really noticed tonight that you just look so much healthier."
That was really good to hear, even at the end of a not-perfect day. She's lost more than 130 lbs in the past couple years, and she's smaller than me now. We're both extremely competitive people, and with my history of EDs, she and I try to be discerning with how much we talk about weight, food choices, and our bodies, so I really appreciated that she noticed and felt confident enough in my mental/emotional health to let me know.
Friday, February 25, 2011
Oh boy. Half of me wants to post this, half of me doesn't. I'm really embarrassed by the "before" pictures, and still not super comfortable with the pics now, but I want to be able to look back and see my progress the whole way through, and I know how inspiring it is to me when I see other SP girls doing the same (I'm talking about you, Miracleinsixty!!!)
Anyway, here it is:
Barely starting - 1/05/2011, 163 lbs
1/14/11, 158(ish) lbs.. a little difference, but not too noticeable yet
2/05/11, 154 lbs
2/25/11, 147 lbs
So I STILL wouldn't go out in that bathing suit (yet), but I'm at least getting there. When I first looked at the 163 picture, I was like, "What?! I can't even see a difference!" ... but rest assured, I see it now, haha, and I'm proud of myself.
Anyway.. that's that, I spose.
Friday, February 25, 2011
Yep - I've officially lost 21 lbs. From 168 on Dec. 27 to 147 today, Feb. 25. And this is HUGE for me. I've never lost that much weight without going back into ED behaviors. I've always "had" to start purging again if I wanted to lose, or I always "had" restrict my calories below 1,000/day if I wanted to lose.
Not this time! I kind of hate to sound like one of those gimmicky commercials - "I got to eat whatever I wanted and still lost weight!" ... but that's kind of true. This week I had french fries, ice cream, pizza, and cornbread. Of course, I had small, appropriate servings of each of them and I was ABLE to stop myself after I was done. And most importantly, I made sure to track it and make sure I made good nutritional choices through the rest of the day, getting in all my protein/carbs/fat/etc.
But this has really proven to me the quote at the top of my sparkpage - I don't have to let perfect be the enemy of better. If I focus right now on making better choices, I don't have to live under the pressure of being "perfect." As I keep making better choices, I'll get closer and closer to where I want to be. This time last year, I would have been appalled - "I can't eat pizza! I can't eat ice cream! That's just like sooooo many calories!"
and then you know what would happen? I'd live like that for like, 6-8 weeks, have a moment of weakness, and end up binging like crazy. Then I'd feel guilty, refuse to track it, drown myself in negative self talk, end up binging again, and then I'd give up.
I haven't had even ONE true binge since December. Sure, I've had days where I ate more than I originally planned, but nothing like a real binge. THAT is an accomplishment.
I still have 12 to go to reach my "Healthy BMI by B's wedding" goal, and March is a notoriously difficult month to stay on track for me -- I lose the "New Year" steam, I have midterms, Spring Break effs up my routine.. But hey, I'm still gonna go for it. And if I don't lose much in March, I'll be okay.
Also.. March 5, 2010, I weighed in at 146... which means I've pretty much "caught up" to where I was before I gained! And I really can't wait to do measurements. It'll be good.
Finally, I wanted to post my new favorite workout song. I listened to it last night on the elliptical (Zumba and Jillian have ruined me for the elliptical) and it made everything so much better.
The best part? Near the end, when it goes:
"I'm a horrible dancer, I ain't gonna lie
But I'll be damned if that means that I ain't gonna try!
I'm a shitty romancer, baby ain't gonna lie,
But I'll be damed if that means that I ain't gonna try!
Get up! Get up! Get up! and DANCE"
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
There's a girl at school who normally takes aerobics and sometimes Zumba classes with me, and even though we're not super close, we're definitely friends. I rarely see her outside of aerobics, though, since we don't have any classes together and live in different buildings. Anyway, I got on Facebook today and saw that she wrote me a message:
"Hey girl! How's the weight-loss journey going? I'm so proud of you for tackling the beast of weight-loss/self-control/healthy living, blah blah blah. It is rather inspiring. I've been thinking that I would really like to kick a few pounds and re-establish healthier habits. I think it would make exercise more comfortable, and I'd really like to lose at least 10 pounds, esp. after going to the health fair and learning my body fat ratio/bmi thing. Not awful, but not within the healthy range. Boo. I don't plan to join WW (lack of money), but I do plan to start food-journaling again, and I just wanted to let you know. Thanks for the inspiration! :) "
SO encouraging! She knows about my past and about how I'm doing WW now, and while I'm so so so so incredibly blessed to have my SP friends, it's amazing to know that there's someone here who wants to encourage me - and who I can, in turn, encourage as well. I'm definitely going to tell her about SP!!!
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