Friday, January 16, 2009
I want to get super fit this year. I'm not really calling it a "New Year's resolution" because I've been working at it since November when I got my Gym membership & ipod back. I'm focsuing on a better body compostition rather that losing weight. Though I want to get to my ultimate goal which is about 20 lbs away, I'm more focused on making sure that my body is fit and tone on the way there. I don't want to be just skin and bones (or rather flab & bones). I want to be lean, muscular, and strong. Curves are good, flab is not. I've been pretty tough with my workouts lately but it feels good. I'm trying to also make sure that I don't over do it though. I'm probably going to have to schedule in some " rest days," meaning I either don't work out as hard, or at all. The last thing I would want to do is injure myself or burn out. As of this moment I'm proud, I've acheived so much in the past couple of years. I still have a long journey ahead of me but I know it is going to be a long, wonderful, and above all a healthy ride.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
So I've finally rejoined the Y and couldn't be happier because of it. I've gone a few times already and have had the chance to work out a great deal. It feels awesome to go back and be excited about working out once more. I now remember what it felt like when I was joining the first time. Of course, with the previous joining I weighed a little more and was probably more anxious than excited really. But it didn't matter. Just like then I knew this was going to be something that was going to be good for me; not just physically but mentally too. After a work out I just feel so much better about myself. Even though I haven't changed in a appearance at all after one work out. I know I'm doing something good for my body, my mind, and my spirit. I know that what I'm doing will help make a difference not only in my life but in lives of others. I know that I'm altering my future. In a sense I'm conquering battles before they begin. Preventing disease and reducing my risks left and right. Plus, I'm feeling better about the way I look and well I'm sure self-confidence just adds to one's hotness. So as you can see I'm getting back in the swing of things. but......
I'm also struggling a bit too. Mainly with eating right. I think it would be easier if I had internet access 24/7 in my apartment that way I could plan my meal situation a little better. At least it seams like it would be easier, but internet costs money. Also I wouldn't go as far to say that I'm failing. I just haven't seen super fast results like I'm used to seeing, but I'm going to keep at this. I need this, especially now more than ever to keep me out of a funk. My boyfriend recently broke up with me and though I know it's not my fault, I still feel for him and get quite lonely. So working out helps me in a cathartic and therapeutic way. Plus it gets me out of the house, and i don't feel like I'm annoying my friends again about "that guy." It just really gives me time to reflect and work out aggression that I would otherwise bury away and never deal with sitting at home--in front of the TV or a book.
All in all I'm optimistic about my situation. I'm just taking one day at a time and focusing on me and how I can be my most authentic and best self. I don't ever want to go back to the person I was before and I now I just want to find out just exactly how awesome I can truly be.
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