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Gettin' my Skinny Jeans ON!!

Friday, October 23, 2009

Since starting Mommy Boot Camp toward the end of September I have been working really hard. I feel thinner and have lost about 5 lbs. My clothes have been fitting looser, especially my jeans. They literally fall down as I walk up the stairs in my home. So today I glanced at my pile of jeans and saw my "skinny jeans" which I haven't been able to wear since before my 3 yr. old daughter, Lucy, was born.

I thought, what the heck? I tried them on, thinking they wouldn't go over my rear, but they did. Then I pulled them up to my waist. And guess what? They buttoned!!! They are a bit snug, but they fit! I wore them to work today as well! When I get home I'm going to take a picture of me with them on!

I'm bringing "skinny" back, yeah!!!


Update: Here's the pictures of me in my skinny jeans!

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BUSYMOMTO3PLUS6 11/18/2009 6:28AM

    Sometimes these non-scale victories are exactly what we need to keep going! You look great!!!

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ANDREA963 11/5/2009 7:46PM

    Awesome! I saw your post about having two young (1 very young) children and the determination in your post to workout. You're amazing!

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NEXTYEAR 11/4/2009 7:37PM

    I know how neat that feels. Congratulations!

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2BTHINMAMMA 10/31/2009 3:28PM

    AWESOME!!!! Congrats!

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CGREEN717 10/29/2009 7:57PM

    Great job!!! :) Keep at it!!! :)

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JEN4DICE 10/27/2009 12:39PM

    Way to " bring skinny back"!!! Go you, be proud and remeber this feeling when you want to eat something naughty!
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PAMSELLERS 10/25/2009 12:07AM

    Applause, Applause!!!!! Thanks for allowing us to share in your success!

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BLUEGIRL36 10/24/2009 10:48PM

    Good job honey!

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SHERRILOU47 10/24/2009 3:27PM

    I want you to know I am so proud of you for fitting into those skinny jeans!!!! That is fantastic..every single pounds that leaves our body and every single inch that disappears is wonderful and we need to enjoy the journey as we walk it!!!
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Hugs and Prayers,

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SHERLYN-WILL 10/24/2009 12:20PM

    Nothing like this to keep you going. I am tickled for you. Post that picture you take when you can.. I will be looking for it.

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YELLOWBIRD01 10/24/2009 10:13AM

    Great Job!!! You are doing so good, thank you for being such an inspiration!!! That always made me feel soooooo good, when I put something on that I hadn't been able to wear for a while! Gives you the extra boost you need!!

Keep up the great work!!
God Bless,

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NEXTYEAR 10/23/2009 6:38PM

    Really wonderful! emoticon

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MAMONTOYA 10/23/2009 12:48PM

    You go girl!!!!!!!!!! Isn't it the best feeling to reach the skinny jean part. You should be proud of all you efforts. emoticon emoticon

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JCARDINAL 10/23/2009 12:03PM

    Congrats on the weight loss!

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ASDOBBER 10/23/2009 11:51AM

    LOL!! Congrats! What a great accomplishment. I think it is great that you wore them to work. You are going to feel good about yourself for the rest of the day. WOO HOO!!

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It's a Beautiful Day

Friday, October 16, 2009

I live in a suburb of Chicago. It's been cold, rainy and generally miserable all week long. We've gotten out the fall coats, the warm cozy socks and the hot tea. My 3 yr. old daughter, Lucy, is an outdoors girl and in the summer is outside all day long. When I think of the sun I think of her.

This morning we were rushing out of the house to get her to preschool, myself to work, and my husband to run errands with the baby. It was a crazy morning, as some of you mothers out there can relate to. My car is not working so we are down to one car. We all have one goal in mind - to get where we are going.

I step outside with my daughter, me holding my briefcase, my purse, my lunch tote and my Medela Pump in one hand and her hand in the other. It is grey out. It is cold out.

She stops and looks around and says "It's a beautiful day out!"

I stop too, and look around, wondering what is beautiful about it. She goes on to say "It's not raining! Just a little chilly." (her vocabulary is great for a 3 yr. old).

I smile in amazement. My wonderful daughter could stop to see what was good about the day before us. She, the golden girl who loves the sun and has been cooped up since fall began, could see the beauty in this day that the Lord has given us.

She taught me a lesson today. It is a beautiful day! It's the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad!

I have been smiling like crazy ever since. I don't think anything could bring me down today.

Thank you Lord, for this beautiful day that You have made. I am glad.

(Photo below of Lucy with my nephew, her cousin, Tony as Wendy and Peter Pan)

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YELLOWBIRD01 10/17/2009 1:35PM

    Thank you so much for sharing your daughter's thoughts!! It put a smile and tears in my eyes!! Little ones always have a way of putting things in perspective! They are a true blessing from the Lord!!

God bless!! You and your beautiful family!!

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PEPPERLEAH 10/16/2009 10:40PM

    What a beautiful story!

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MERCYNGRACE 10/16/2009 8:48PM

    HOW precioussss! Made my heart just melt away. What a blessing for us all! Thank you so much for sharing this beautifully, wonderful moment. My heart is full! emoticon

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NEXTYEAR 10/16/2009 6:43PM

    Beautiful blog. Thank you so much for sharing your morning. I love your Peter and Wendy artwork! emoticon

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MAMONTOYA 10/16/2009 12:59PM

    Don't children have such a special way of putting things/life in perspective. Their innocence is amazing.

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SCORPION1352 10/16/2009 12:24PM

    OUT OF THE MOUTHS OF BABES. That's all it takes is a child to see the beauty that God has put before us.

Have wonderful day.

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LHLADY517 10/16/2009 11:50AM

    It is a beautiful day. Thank your daughter for reminding us of that.

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JEN4DICE 10/16/2009 11:40AM

    Hi! thanks for your comments and compliments on my blog yesterday. you are too sweet! I can tell just by the things you write that you have an amazing Spirit. I love reading the things you write you make my heart smile! In what town do you live? I have been in that area about 7 years ago.

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THALIAY 10/16/2009 11:11AM

  I totally agree with your daughter! I live in Tennessee & I don't think we have seen the sun in weeks. But at the same time, the trees are turning & are like red, yellow, & gold flames against the grayness. I started to work one morning this week and looked at my neighbor's yard. I thoought at first that he had dandelions coming up. I looked closer and there was a multitude of tiny yellow mushrooms. This brought me a big laugh & I felt happy & was whistling on my way to work. As the song says, "What a Wonderful World!"

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RANDYB 10/16/2009 11:09AM

    Yes it is, enjoy it.

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Wrap Your Love Around Me

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Last night I was wiping the counter top in our kitchen down and my husband came up behind me, like he often does, and he said "Wow!" I asked him what had happened, wondering if perhaps our 3 yr. old daughter had spilled yet another drink, or if our 2 month old had spit up somewhere. He showed me that he was able to fully hug me, and could touch both of his wrists. Before he was not able to do that. And I don't mean before as in throughout both of my pregnancies - of course, he wasn't able to hug me fully then -but even before that, when I weighed almost 300 lbs. He wasn't able to fully hug me, yet he did hug me.

My celebration is two-fold. I celebrate that my husband can now put his arms fully around me. I have lost 35 lbs. and a few dress sizes. I am getting leaner and healthier for myself and my family. Yet I also celebrate the fact that I have such a man who gives me love so unconditionally.

I met Jim, my husband, back when I was 18 years old. At that time I had just gotten out of my anorexic stage and was still pretty thin, although eating healthier. I wore a size 6/8 jean. I looked great. The first words he said to me were "My god, you are beautiful", later telling my best friend that I would be the woman he would marry. We did, in fact, marry after many years of love and friendship. However those years have taken their toll. Being a person who has always struggled with weight and food issues I began to gain weight - now that I was no longer anorexic I perhaps ate too much food. The love of a good man also nourished me. Throughout the years I have gained over 100 lbs. 100 lbs. is a lot of weight to carry, and it's not something you can hide. Yet this man has loved me throughout this time without question. He has not made me feel like I am this size, like I am unhealthy. The look in his eyes has not changed, he still looks at me with utter love. I sometimes wonder why? Why and how can this man love me so much? Who am I to deserve this love?

I have a gift of this man's love and adoration yet sometimes I cannot accept that. The sad reality is we are not always able to not identify what love really is. In a daily bible study the question came up about what love is and how do you know what love really is?

We only have to consult the bible for detailed descriptions of what love is. John 13 4:7 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I could say more but I donít think itís necessary. I rejoice in the fact that my husband loves me with the sort of love Jesus has for us all. The kind of love that never dies.

Thank you, Lord, for giving me the strength to persevere through this chapter of my life and getting healthier. Thank you, Lord, for sending me my husband as a friend, companion and as a reminder of your faithful love for us always.


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YELLOWBIRD01 10/17/2009 1:47PM

    Thank you so much for the insight!! Sounds like the Lord has blessed you with a wonderful husband!!! The Lord sure knew what he was doing when he brought the two of you together! It is nice to have the love of a wonderful husband, who is always there for you and always supportive, loving and giving of all he has!!

God Bless,

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SHERLYN-WILL 10/16/2009 10:05PM

    NOW... THIS IS A TRUE JEWEL FROM GOD! Little things you notice but really BIG THINGS personally!
Thanks for posting it.

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MERCYNGRACE 10/16/2009 8:51PM

    Amen! I love reading you blogs. lol! Congratulations on your successes and your love! ;)

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DOGLOVER526 10/16/2009 12:21PM

    Thank you so much for sharing! I just love this blog!!! Karla

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NEXTYEAR 10/16/2009 10:09AM

    What a wonderful blog! I am thanking God for your wonderful marriage. Shirley

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TERIE93 10/15/2009 11:21PM

    He is also wonderfully blessed by having a loving Christian wife who truley appreciates and respects him. You too belong together, guess God knew what he was doing-of course!

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HILARY26 10/15/2009 11:04PM

    wow, this is amazing. i am in tears!! your are so blessed, not just b/c you have a wonderful husband but b/c you have depth and insite to appreciate it. this really touched me :)

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PEPPERLEAH 10/15/2009 9:48PM

    This is absolutely beautiful. I am so happy for you that your husband is so loving and supporting! Mine is the same way; and I thank God for Him daily.

Thank you for sharing your story with us!

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SWEETPEAPIG1980 10/15/2009 8:08PM

    This was the most beautiful blog I have ever read. Thank you. You are truly blessed to have such a love in your life and I am truly happy for you as this is something many of us may never experience.

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KINZIEZOO 10/15/2009 6:59PM

  What a touching writing!! Hope I will be blessed with such a husband as you have. I hope HE knows he is blessed with a loving wife who appreciates him!
God bless!

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MKPRINCESS007 10/15/2009 4:57PM

    Hey there.........happened upon your blog, and was so touched. I am also blessed with a wonderful husband, and feel so grateful for having him in my life. I hope for MANY more years of being able to wrap our love around one another! Thanks for the warm thoughts, and congrats on your hard work! :)

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KENCHRIS401 10/15/2009 3:59PM

    What a beautiful blog. Good for you that you have found such a loving, caring person.

God bless the both of you.

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Thursday, October 01, 2009

" Competition is easier to accept if you realize
That it is not an act of aggression.
I've worked with my best friends in direct competition.
Whatever you want in life
Other people are going to want it, too.
Believe in yourself enough to accept the idea
That you have an equal right to it."
--- Diane Sawyer

Thank you, Dark_Storm, for posting the above quote in the 30 somethings wanting to lose 100 lbs. team! It really helped me see something from a different point of view.

I recently joined a Mommy Boot Camp at my gym. It started a week ago and on the first night I joined the group of about 20 women who were gathered near the track to get tested and start boot camp. The problem was, I was the only one there who was even slightly overweight. All of the other moms were thin, nearly all of them in really good shape! I'm talking muscular legs and the stance of an athelete. I was overwhelmed and suddenly felt naked, like everyone could see just how out of shape I am and what in the heck was I doing there. I, in turn, wondered what all of these athletes needed a boot camp for anyway? I am not just overweight, but I am considered morbidly obese at 264 lbs. I haven't run in at least 20 years when it was required in High School. Yet I was here, at this Boot Camp, surrounded by these beautiful, in shape women. I was terrified.

After doing countless pushups, situps, squats and planks it was time to tackle the stairs. I had heard about this from people at my gym but now I was in the thick of it. We were told to run up the stairs, taking every other stair, three times. There were 5 flights of stairs. I could barely walk up every other stair, let alone run. I did my best though, and the first set I did take every other stair. The next sets after I took every stair. We did three sets of this, so that is 9 times up and down the 5 flights of stairs. Needless to say, by the end it was all I could do to walk up the stairs, holding onto the railing (which you aren't supposed to do) and wanting to die inside. But I kept going. I felt bad for the others, that they had to deal with such an overweight person in their boot camp (note I say "their" not "our") I was holding them up. I was embarassed and ashamed. I started to stop at the top of the flight to let the entire group of 20 women go in front of me, so as to not slow them down.

Wait a second here...wasn't I in this for me? Don't I have a right to this, as the quote above says? I realized that this isn't the first time in my life that I've put myself second, or third, or fourth. You get the idea. Just because I am overweight doesn't mean I am a second class citizen. And the thing of it is, for all I know none of these women thought badly of me. It was me thinking these negative thoughts, not them.

This thought was further exemplified by the next thing that happened. As I was rounding a corner, red-faced and about to faint, a girl joined me and ran next to me. She said "You are doing a great job. When I was 7 wks. postpartum I would never have been able to do this." I looked at her, tears in my eyes, both grateful and ashamed at the same time. Grateful for her kind words, words that I hadn't expected to come from her, the most beautiful and in shape girl on the team. Ashamed because I was the one who was judging. I judged them for their athleticism and good looks just as I thought they were judging me. I realized that maybe, just maybe, these girls wanted me to succeed just as much as they wanted to succeed themselves. That maybe this boot camp stuff is a team effort and we all win.

I looked up the definition of T.E.A.M. and it means: Together Everyone Achieves More. I like the sound of that.

It's interesting that in the word "Impossible" there are actually two words: "I'M" and "POSSIBLE". I am possible. I AM POSSIBLE. So therefore, nothing is impossible.

I also realized that I can be an inspiration to these women, I can show up every day, show my heart, and do my best. That's all anyone can ask and I pray to God for the strength to do this with grace and to take the self-pity out of my heart, it doesn't belong there, it belongs on the floor, along with my sweat.

"For nothing is impossible with God."
~ Luke 1:37 (NIV)

"Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it."
~ 1 Corinthians 9:24 ESV

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JEN4DICE 10/6/2009 3:27PM

    You are amazing and your words inspire me as well as boost my faith and hope. I am sure that you will do what ever you put your mind to, because you have included the Lord in your goals. We are nothing without Him!

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YELLOWBIRD01 10/2/2009 9:31AM

    You are worth much more than you realize!!! You can do this boot camp and come out on top!! Thank you for the wonderful inspiration!!

Keep up the great work!!!

God Bless,

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PEPPERLEAH 10/1/2009 8:59PM

    Yes, you are so worth it! And the thing of it is, fitness is something we are working to acheive. We do not go into fitness classes because we already have the "perfect" bodies. We do not all go in at the same level. The important thing is as you said, you are doing this for YOU. I believe in you, and I know that before long, you will find it easier and easier to run up those stairs. Just keep going! You are doing GREAT!

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CAROLA28 10/1/2009 3:50PM

    Great blog post! This is really inspirational...and it's straight-on common sense which we tend to forget when we're working to lose weight. You ARE worth it, no matter what! emoticon


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Thank you, Lord

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I am so thankful now more than ever for the many blessings in my life that the Lord has bestowed upon me. Most recently the birth of my beautiful daughter, Marlo, who will be 8 weeks old tomorrow. He has also gifted me with the most wonderful and caring husband a woman could ask for. On top of that is my 3 yr. old daughter, Lucy, who is so smart and bright and caring. She has a true heart of gold. I also have my health. Yes, I am overweight but I am healthy. I can walk, run to lose this weight. Lord, thank you for all of these things and more.

Lord, let me thank you.

I thank you for:

* my fear, which sends me under your wing;
* my doubt, which obsesses me with you;
* my shame, which strips me of self;
* my frustration, which exhausts my competence;
* my perfectionism which exposes my shortcomings;
* my failures, which break my heart;
* your birth, for giving value to my world;
* your life, for showing the way of your kingdom;
* your death, for cleansing sin's decay;
* your resurrection, for breaking the wall of death;
* your righteousness, imputed to me;
* your coming again to restore your creation to wholeness;
* your love, which sets me free for all eternity.

Selection Taken From:
101 Cups of Water: Relief and Refreshment for the Tired, Thirsty Soul by C.D. Baker

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GODSCLAY47 10/1/2009 12:02PM

    Yes We serve an awesome God!! Have a blessed day!

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MAMONTOYA 9/30/2009 12:52PM

    Beautiful!! You are truly blessed. May God continue to bless your life and your family.


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