Friday, September 19, 2008
Just for Today...
Just for today I will adhere to my food plan and know that having this plan makes me free - it doesn't confine me.
Just for today I will let God do as he sees fit, and stop trying to control every aspect of my life.
Just for today I will be thankful for all of the blessings in my life, even the things I see as negatives because they are what shape me as a person, and even the bad is a gift.
Just for today I will smile and know that I'm taking time for myself.
Today I am hopeful that I can continue down this path and make the right choices. I know that God is watching over me and helping guide me. I know that with a lot of faith, and a little bit of hope, I can reach my goals.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I had my first weigh-in today since starting back, and of course had weighed myself throughout the week. My weight fluctuated so much that I feel like I'm back where I started. I was 169 early last week - OK, only 2 lb. gained since my last weigh-in, I can handle that and probably deserve it. Then later in the week I was 175, a full 6 lb. gained! Then at my weigh-in today I was 172. Which is 3 down from the 175, but still up 3 from 169.
I am putting this in my blog because this is what always happens to me, and my reason for usually quitting even trying. And I'm just at the beginning. So I want to document this frustration and my thoughts about it to look back on, and hopefully push through this.
I am on a path, and the path is never just a straight one. Paths curve, there are rocks in the road, obstacles to overcome. If I quit now, it's like coming to the turn in the path and just going back the other way. I need to keep going and not focus on the number on the scale. I only just started back, I need to stop making everything black and white and realize that this weight did not go on overnight, and it will not come off that way. I need to be realistic with myself.
I can do this, and I WILL do this!!
Sunday, September 07, 2008
"Take the First Step, No More, No Less, and the Rest will be Revealed."
I am surrendering myself to this process, and recommitting to my health. I feel like I am treading water, just doing enough to keep my head above the water and not actually making any progress toward the shore. I'll float for awhile, and sure the sunset looks nice. then I'll start to go under, so I doggy paddle and forget about my goal - which is to get to shore.
I do this with other areas of my life as well - I'll start a writing project (2 novels now, both shelved in the first draft stage but full of promise), just to let it go to the wayside. These are important things to me! But I go back to my lazy habits. With my family and friends, I realize that I need to put in more time, but then again, go back to being a workaholic and not spending time where I should.
My life at present is not balanced. I want, and need, more balance and more time taking care of myself so that I can take care of my life, my family, and me.
I know that I can't do this alone. As God said, "I am the vine..." and all good things come from Him. I need to release my need for perfection and realize that starting is a big step. It doesn't have to be perfect, I just need to be headed in the right direction.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
I signed up for the "Late Ride" in Chicago, which is basically a couple hundred of people driving down the lakefront at midnight to 6 a.m. for a 25 mile bike ride. My sisters all do this ride every year, and each year they ask me and I always refuse, saying "no way!" This year I wondered what my resistance is for. Maybe this is something I should do, a voice inside said. So I signed up for the ride.
Let me back up and start by saying that I am NOT a bike rider. I am not coordinated by any means. I am a klutz. Well since it's gotten nice out my husband has been riding with our daughter in the bike trailer. I am not comfortable on a bike, and so I wasn't able to participate. I can't tell you how much this upset me, and so I decided to get a bike. I knew I wanted something that was comfortable, easy to ride and "klutz-free".
Well I shopped around and decided on a Cruiser-type bike. If you're not familiar with these, it's like the Pee-Wee Herman bike - retro, you ride while sitting straight, etc. Piece of cake, right?
I found the best bargain at Wal-Mart, and when the bike arrived I was so excited to take it for a test spin with the family. We head out, and immediately I know something is wrong. The seat can't seem to hold my weight, the handlebars even seem to bend a little. The gears are all messed up, and I feel like I'm riding a tin can that is about to fall apart. It was horrible. So horrible that once safely back home I announced that the bike was going back. I then binged on some trigger foods and basically stuffed myself until I couldn't feel the pain of not being able to ride the bike with my daughter and husband.
The next morning I woke up and knew I needed to beat this. I was not going to let this bike get the best of me. So I went to a wonderful local bike shop, Koslow Cycle (if you're in the Lombard, IL area check them out), and the nicest woman helped me get fit for the right bike, and I took a few test rides and picked the perfect bike - a Giant Sedona (photo above). She was so encouraging and helpful and didn't make me feel at all awkward. She reassured me that yes, I would be able to ride with my family and even ride in the Late Ride.
Today I just got back from a 2.5 mile trip to the park with my family and I feel exhilarated. I know I have many miles left to go, but I have a month to gear up for the Late Ride, and I will take that journey slowly, with my daughter in tow, and mile by mile, pound by pound, step by step, I will make it.
So what have I gotten into?
A healthier life, a challenge, and an attainable goal.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Today I walked a 5K (in Chicago called "The Shamrock Shuffle" around the lakefront).
Last year I barely made it. This year I could tell the difference in my health and walked much quicker. I was actually passing people up! I walked with my father who is a very fast walker and he told me later he had to work to keep up with me. He said he was proud of me, and I was proud of myself, too. Last year my time was 1 hr. 20 minutes to finish 5K (about 3 miles). This year I made it in 58 minutes, 58 seconds. 58:58!!! Over 20 minutes quicker. Other stats include:
Total steps: 10,584
Aerobic steps: 7,090 of those steps were aerobic
Calories burned: 521
Miles walked: 4.17 (total with walking from parking garage, race, etc.)
Since January I've been walking with Leslie Sansone at home, and I have lost almost 15 lb. I am only 3 lb. away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I feel exhilarated, excited and hopeful that I will regain my health. I love working out now and look forward to it.
I'm going to continue to make myself proud, and my family.
(I'm the one in the middle. On the left is my sister, who ran in the 8K portion and on the right is my dad).
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