Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I had my first weigh-in today since starting back, and of course had weighed myself throughout the week. My weight fluctuated so much that I feel like I'm back where I started. I was 169 early last week - OK, only 2 lb. gained since my last weigh-in, I can handle that and probably deserve it. Then later in the week I was 175, a full 6 lb. gained! Then at my weigh-in today I was 172. Which is 3 down from the 175, but still up 3 from 169.
I am putting this in my blog because this is what always happens to me, and my reason for usually quitting even trying. And I'm just at the beginning. So I want to document this frustration and my thoughts about it to look back on, and hopefully push through this.
I am on a path, and the path is never just a straight one. Paths curve, there are rocks in the road, obstacles to overcome. If I quit now, it's like coming to the turn in the path and just going back the other way. I need to keep going and not focus on the number on the scale. I only just started back, I need to stop making everything black and white and realize that this weight did not go on overnight, and it will not come off that way. I need to be realistic with myself.
I can do this, and I WILL do this!!