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Roadblocks

Wednesday, July 18, 2012



One of our challenges this week for RockIt is to write about two of our roadblocks that may prevent us from reaching our health goals. Both of mine have the same core principal.

FEAR.

FEAR OF FAILURE: I am a perfectionist. I have to do things perfectly or not do them at all. This doesn't fare well for my dreams in life, which are 1. To get to my goal weight and no longer be "obese" and 2. Publish a novel.

See, sometimes I just stand on the sidelines because it's better to not try at all and look like a fool, than try and fail. Right? Wrong. This is the very thinking I'm trying to obliterate, but it is what stalls me sometimes. I'm not the fastest runner. I will never be "perfect" at running. For me, it is an imperfect sport, and therefore it doesn't fit into the square cutout of my ideal -- but that is also the beauty of it. I can run and flail my arms about if I want to. (Remember the Friends episode where Phoebe runs?) Yes, I will look silly, but I would still be technically running. I would still be burning calories. With writing if I don't get words down on the page, there will be nothing to edit. So without my willingness to step out on the ledge and jump, there will be no story, no art, no beauty. Without being willing to jump, and possibly fall, I will remain the exact same person as I am today. No growth. No movement.

One of my favorite Woody Allen quotes is "A relationship, I think, is like a shark. You know? It has to constantly move forward or it dies." Well I think the same rings true for us as humans. We need to keep learning, and failing, and learning from those mistakes, to truly grow and become the people we were meant to be.

I am a comic geek, and love the quote Batman's father says to a young Bruce Wayne after he falls. "And why do we fall, Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.” It's hard but I do think that every setback makes us stronger and the next time a situation presents itself we handle it a little better each time. And then we may have a huge setback, but we always get back up.

FEAR OF SUCCEEDING: The opposite of fearing failure. Seems silly, right? But how many of us are overweight because of the protection that being larger offered us? (...Raises hand.) Being a larger woman I could be passed by and ignored. I have been mistreated in my life, in my past. By men. When I was a svelte size 6 and considered by some to be beautiful. After certain tragedies in my life, I turned to food. It not only comforted me, it padded me from the world and its risks. I lived over ten years of my life in this fat bubble. To be breaking out of it and seeing men staring at this new creature emerging, to have men open doors for me, to be flirted with, all of this is scary. Yes, I am married now to a wonderful man. But it doesn’t make that attention any less scary, not for someone who has been burned so badly that she is scarred.

I recently lost my childhood best friend unexpectedly. She was young, 37. It was her heart. And while we still talked via text, email and occassionally on the phone, we hadn't seen each other in almost 15 years. Why? Because I had gained 100 lbs. in the span of a year at the age of 24. And I was afraid for her to see me like that. I didn't want her to see what I had become....and felt that she would reject me. Would she have? No. But that was how I lived those 10 + years of my life, living in fear, staying indoors, not having the children we wanted...I lived in a prison that I created myself. This bubble is no longer serving me, and must be burst.

I am no longer going to let fear define, restrict or drive me.

Another quote from Batman, when Henri Ducard says to Bruce Wayne before training him “What you really fear, is inside yourself. You fear your own power .. your own anger... the drive to do great - (or terrible) - things.”

What if what I am really afraid of, in both of my roadblocks, is my own power? That I have the power inside of me to change? Perhaps it’s my own instinct to keep things at the status quo, to avoid change. Change is scary, right?

The thing is, we all have this power inside of us and I think that for me, once I reach my lowest weight (which coincidentally just happened before I hit my 11 month record-setting plateau), I get scared. I see a part of me I haven’t seen in such a long time. And terrible things happened to that smaller person. This weight has protected me, like a blanket. And sometimes shedding that blanket is much more mental than it is physical.

I am going to be strong and let my body take shape and know that now is not my past, I am not defined by my past, and I can step out into the light, and embrace the freedom that comes with it.




Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

~ Marianne Williamson

  
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GETTINGFIT4HIM 8/4/2012 3:18AM

  What a beautifully written, honest blog. Thank you for being brave enough to share your insights with others. It is very inspiring! I can relate very much to what you have experienced in allowing fear in any shape to hold us back and, my 5 year old son has recently decided he is Batman so that brought a smile for that reason, too. emoticon

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AMBER281 7/23/2012 12:54PM

    You are doing amazing!!!
Great blog.

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LINDAKAY228 7/19/2012 8:37AM

    Loved this and all the inspiration in it! I know what you mean about fear of failure and at the same time fear of success. I have to deal with those a lot also.
Have a great day today!

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SMALLERMELORIE 7/19/2012 8:26AM

    Well, you are not failing now. You have accomplished so much and you continue to accomplish. Great job.

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SUNNYWBL 7/19/2012 2:24AM

    I am a recovering perfectionist. I am more forgiving of my foibles.

Develop a healthy anger, if men give you any problems as you reach a wealthy weight. Though I found as I got older, I became invisible to most men! An almost pleasant discovery! emoticon

You CAN become a smaller and healthier person as long as you don't expect to be a size 6 again!

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NADINEL 7/19/2012 1:06AM

    I could have written this (some of it). This parallels some parts of my life, too. Except I waited 25 years to reconnect with a childhood friend. Amazingly, I am driving 3 hours one way tomorrow to see her. She drove 7 hours to see me and her relatives, too.
I would imagine that many people can relate to this blog.
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ODDIPA78 7/19/2012 12:46AM

    So true, and so beautifully written!



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TEMPEST272002 7/18/2012 10:32PM

    Thank you for sharing your insights into your roadblocks. I relate completely. Fear is certainly one of my greatest roadblocks. Each time I push through that fear, I'm rewarded with more courage the next time. I imagine that it's the same for you. Step by step, we are getting stronger and wiser.

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KALANTHA 7/18/2012 9:34PM

    Actually, I think you are pretty fearless. It is difficult to be so introspective and honest, then to lay it out for public scrutiny. Kudos to you! This may be the push you need to get past your roadblocks.

I also think that there a probably many others here who have similar fears, who haven't been able to face them this honestly. This blog will help them.

Thank you for sharing your experience, insight, and wisdom.

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POOKASLUAGH 7/18/2012 8:42PM

    I can really relate to that fear of failure. I have a tendency to sabotage myself any time I feel like I *might* fail, because then at least I didn't FAIL, I QUIT. It's stupid, and it's something I'm trying to get past, but it's hard.

And I have missed so many things because of my weight. My favorite singer did one concert with his new band four years ago. Just one. And I skipped it because I was fat. It's one of my life's goal to hear him sing live, but it's a tiny band and I know the singer in person, met him in 2007 when I was a lot thinner, and I didn't want him to see me after I'd gained an extra 40 lbs. Now, I'm kicking myself. I also avoided seeing friends of mine in town for years because of the weight, and events I wanted to go to. Shame ruled my life. Sucks.

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STARLIGHT615 7/18/2012 8:30PM

    Great blog Sweetie!! You will read all ur goals!! XOXO

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DUXGRL1 7/18/2012 7:41PM

    Great blog!

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BABY_GIRL69 7/18/2012 6:51PM

    Amen. Thank you for this blog.

God bless,

Dee

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TRAVELGRRL 7/18/2012 5:26PM

    Everything you write comes from a place of honesty and truth and courage. What do you want to write? Fiction, nonfiction? Maybe one of your next goals is to take a creative writing class to help you express yourself. I would definitely read anything you publish! (I already read everything you don't...) emoticon

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LOOZINITNOW 7/18/2012 5:00PM

    Thank you for being so open and honest! I too struggle with many of the same fears. You are strong and beautiful and can overcome the obstacles.

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MANLEYSANDY 7/18/2012 3:50PM

    First, I am so sorry to hear about your friend...

Second, the first thing that entered my head when I started reading this was, you have not failed at all. Your triumphs are abundent, losing 100 pounds, beautiful childern, wonderful marriage, your educational accomplishments, your professional accomplishments, your unlimited faith, just to name a few!!! It is human to focus on what we have not done instead of all the things we have!! Crossing the finish line, which I know you have done numerous times can be tough, but I know you can do it!!!

Third, I to have that same kind of perfectionist streak in me, and it held me back in the world of exercise for a long time. I know you really love to run, and I think that is wonderful. For me, I hated it, but to be perfect I thought I had to do it. I realized it was holding me back from exercising altogether so I decided to worry less about what everyone else was doing, like at the gym when people run on the treadmill, and worry about what I was doing.

Lastly, You are a success in my book!!!



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MRSRHAWKINS 7/18/2012 3:36PM

    I can also identify with the fears. I always wonder what amazing things God has for me in this life that I am keeping the doors closed with my fears. You are an amazing writer. I cannot WAIT to read your novel. Please let us know when it is published! It will be awesome!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 7/18/2012 3:10PM

    I can relate to so much of what you wrote in your blog. I hate living in fear. Now I'm wondering if I'm fearing my power. Hmmm... gives me something to ponder.

It will be fun to watch you bloom. I hope you will keep us posted. I'm cheering for you!

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KITHKINCAID 7/18/2012 2:56PM

    Here's why you don't have to be afraid of success. Even though bad things happened to you before when you were thin, it wasn't BECAUSE you were thin. It's because you were the person you were at that point, that then became the person you were when you put on weight. All of that was inside you, and therefore, you were susceptible to having those bad things happen. But the NEW you, the you that has grown wiser and experienced all of these things, the you who has risen above and conquered SO many things and achieved SO many successes is the you that you are now. Just as there is no going back to 300 pounds, there is no going back to that person who was a victim before. So feel free to succeed and bask in the success that your wisdom has bought you.

And running is amazing because when you run there are no mirrors (aside from store windows which I try to avoid). I have no idea what I look like when I run, but I FEEL beautiful. And it's one of the times when I really, truly do feel completely beautiful. Phoebe or not, I am that person that can do that thing. And so are you!

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JEANNETTE59 7/18/2012 2:56PM

  You are one amazing lady. Thanks so much for sharing your story, I and many others I'm sure, totally relate.

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JENJESS48 7/18/2012 2:28PM

    Oh honey, I know all about this. I was in an abusive relationship and anorexic as a teen, gained the weight as a protective layer, and have had to fight to get my mind and body back as an adult. Do we share a brain? :) One of the biggest revelations I've had on this journey is that not all attention from men is threatening. I can even finally see a lot of it as flattering. I hope some day you can come to that place, too, because it really helps you release the fear. Next time male attention startles you, remind yourself that you're not that scrawny, scared kid anymore. You are a powerful woman and a match for any man. Besides, I can almost guarantee you that he admires you and means you absolutely no harm. Accepting that we are physically beautiful is also hard for women like us, but you need to come to grips with that, too, babe. You're adorable and people are going to notice you. It doesn't mean anything at all about their intent, just that you're pleasant to look at. You are stronger than your fears, Kathy, and won't let them be roadblocks to your goal weight!

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IGSBETH 7/18/2012 1:49PM

    This is a great post. Admitting your fears makes you stronger. Thanks for sharing.

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INSPIREBYNATURE 7/18/2012 1:42PM

    You are such an amazing writer...an inspiration!!!!! I love how you took two opposing fears and fit them together...you are not your past....you are AMAZING! And we are no longer tight in a bud...we are blossoming! You are such an amazing woman and you have come such a long way in the last few years. I love you!

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I Am Officially a Walk Star!

Monday, July 09, 2012

I just got a copy of Leslie Sansone's Walk at Home newsletter and I discovered that I am now officially a "walk star"! I'm the second story down, and the first story is my friend Nancy, who I met at the certification in April.

www.walkathome.com/walk-stars-storie
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This is a dream come true - what initially prompted me to start her program and lose weight was seeing a WAH newsletter with a picture of a Mom who lost 100 lbs. to be healthy for her 2 kids...I printed out that newsletter and wrote on it "This is going to be me! (dated 4/18/08)" (picture below).




Now I AM that Mom!



(Disclaimer: It took me longer than 24 months to achieve my 100+ lb. weight loss, it took over 3 yrs., that is a typo.)

  
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MANILUS 8/5/2012 11:53AM

    That is amazing, congrats!

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  emoticon emoticon such an inspiration both in the weight loss and to know that Leslie's program works! Maybe one day we will both be Walk Leaders. Haven't given up dreaming about making it a reality! Congratulations!

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XHAPPYGIRLX 7/28/2012 10:45AM

    It isn't the amount of time that is important, it is the fact that you did it! Congratulations. You are now inspiring others to do the same :)

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DEBK0923 7/22/2012 1:07PM

    great blog

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35ANGELS 7/21/2012 11:36PM

    Awesome! I've seen you on the her facebook page. Love, Love, leslie.

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    emoticonWhat an honor to have your blog featured in the Spark Mail. Sparks claims that the mail is read by one and a half million readers, so you are a GREAT inspiration to many today. emoticon

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JSANGSTER7 7/17/2012 6:41PM

    That is awesome! You look fantastic. I have one of the 3 mile walk dvds here, I might have to go and find it.

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DOTTY7267 7/17/2012 2:30PM

    Congrats! Whether 2 or 3 yrs, it's still a fabulous thing that you have done.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 7/16/2012 12:27PM

    Wow! Congrats! I love walking with her too. She's so peppy! LOL

Great job and keep going!

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EMILYDOODLE 7/16/2012 11:08AM

  congrats on your weight loss, look very good!

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IACTA_ALEA_EST 7/16/2012 7:14AM

    You are that walk star! Way to go!

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    What an incredible journey you've completed and now have made part of your every day living. Cheers to healthy living!

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    Congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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DEBK0923 7/13/2012 2:47PM

    great job, great blog

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    Congratulations! Way to get it done!
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ELLIEFUNT 7/13/2012 8:40AM

    Congrats!!!!

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LIVINHEALTHY9 7/12/2012 8:32PM

    Congratulations!
Way to Go!

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    That's great! Congratulations

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HAPPYWRITER7 7/12/2012 3:34PM

    Oh my goodness! That's awesome! Congratulations!!

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  Looking Great

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SEATOWN_GAL 7/12/2012 11:43AM

    Congratulations, you are a wonderful inspiration and should be so proud of yourself!

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    Incredible!! Congrats to you and all of your hard work!!
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HEALTHYN10 7/12/2012 10:08AM

    Congratulations!!! I walk for exercise as well, and you are an inspiration!

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 7/12/2012 9:20AM

    Great post....

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HAPPYCUPCAKE 7/12/2012 9:14AM

    WOW that's awesome! Congrats! :) :)

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 7/12/2012 9:13AM

    How cool is that? We give ourselves a gift when we lost weight and get healthier, but it is really nice to get some notice for it from others too. I submitted my own story on the site, after I read yours, because I used Leslie's WAH program too. She's great and so are you!

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THEIS58 7/12/2012 8:22AM

    Wonderful! I love walking!

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SBNORMAL 7/12/2012 8:10AM

  I have her dvds and they are great!! Wonderful progress!!

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AMPROSKE1 7/12/2012 7:38AM

    Congratulations! I love Leslie Sansone!

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CORGIGIRL2 7/12/2012 7:08AM

  I tried one of her videos but my knee started hurting. I think I'll give it another try! You look great!

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EWL978 7/12/2012 6:45AM

    Fantastic!! You gave a lot of folks here some reason to keep going, especially me! Thanx.

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WILSON1926 7/12/2012 5:52AM

    emoticon it might have taken you that long but YOU did it.
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    FABULOUS! Walk ON!!

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My RockIt! Plan For the Week

Monday, July 02, 2012

MAIN CHALLENGE: For the main challenge this week, plan 3-5 workouts through out the week and complete them. Once you have your plan picked out, either post in your team or on your blog so that it is out there and we can help support you. Having a plan is one of the many steps that you can take to help you achieve your goals. Baby steps lead the way to your goals! Rock It! Ladies!!!!! These workouts need to be at least 30 minutes long and can be either strength training or cardio. Get it done ladies! You will feel AMAZING!

I will be going to Michigan tomorrow afternoon so I wanted to plan workouts that I could do in Michigan as well as here. The run scheduled for tomorrow morning depends on how I feel, I am still exhausted from the weekend, and drinking a few too many martinis...but without the run this still equals 5 workouts.

I also have a healthy eating plan for Michigan, eat all of my lunches and dinners with a salad, or make it into a salad. For example, if it's burgers I will have it minus the bun and put it into a salad with lots of veggies. Also striving for no grazing on chips and the like.

My planned workouts:

Monday: Teach Walk Live Class
Tuesday: Run in the morning
Wednesday: Swimming in the lake
Thursday: Lead a walk at the cottage with my family.
Friday: Walk
Saturday: Run in Michigan

  
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THEEASYKILL30 7/7/2012 5:01PM

    Vacations/Travel are tough when it comes to maintaining the fitness routine... Best of luck with yours!

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KITHKINCAID 7/5/2012 3:53PM

    Hey Sweetie! Glad to see you're setting forth a kick-ass plan! You can totally do this. I think all of us have fallen into a case of the "Hot Hazy Summers". Drinking is too easy. Eating is too easy. And exercise is hard cause it's so hot. But you got this!

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LINDAKAY228 7/3/2012 5:26PM

    Great plan! Have a wonderful time on your little vacation. SOunds like so much fun!

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ROBYNROSE26 7/3/2012 4:40PM

    Great plan Kathy!

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TEMPEST272002 7/3/2012 2:17PM

    Great plan. Walking is always a great option when you're away from home.

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JENJESS48 7/3/2012 10:45AM

    Great plan! Have fun in Michigan!

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LASKIE2 7/3/2012 6:57AM

    Where are area are you planing to visit in Michigan? What is a Walk Line Class? This sounds like a great plan!

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AMBER281 7/2/2012 8:18PM

    Awesome plan!
Have a great time on your trip.

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SAINTBERNARD6 7/2/2012 8:01PM

    I will be leaving Missouri for 6 to 8 weeks in Michigan on July 23.

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STARLIGHT615 7/2/2012 5:30PM

    Awesome Plan!!! Have a great time in MI

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CANNOTFATHOM 7/2/2012 5:19PM

    Great plan Kathy! Have fun on your trip!


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TRAVELGRRL 7/2/2012 3:14PM

    Vacations are a challenge, but part of life. I'm going next week!

You have an awesome plan, now Work It, Girl!!

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HEALTHY156 7/2/2012 2:57PM

    that sounds like an awesome plan! Enjoy your trip!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 7/2/2012 2:51PM

    Great way to plan while you will be on vacation!!!!!! Love this!!!! Love you! Easy peasy!

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Reflections on SASS and my Rock It! Plan

Friday, June 29, 2012

I started off the SASS Seasonal Done Girl challenge at 196 lbs. I had recently reached 100 lbs. down and I felt like I was going to reach my goal weight during this challenge. That was not to be. I ended the challenge weighing 197.5. Well, weigh in isn't until tomorrow...and I have a funny feeling I will end the challenge at the exact same weight that I started.

I want to say it's a plateau. I've been here for a long time, and I know that in a weight loss journey such as mine, where I have so much weight to lose, I will hit a few of these potholes along the way.

But....

I've slacked off, too.

I read an article about plateaus that asked an important question: "Is it a Real Plateau or Not?"

Well, yes, this feels real enough. But I read on further.

"Just because your weight loss has stalled does not mean you have hit a “true” plateau. A true plateau is one that results from you “tapping out” the weight loss capacity of your current efforts. So, for example, if you stuck to your 1700 calorie diet and worked out 4 times a week consistently, eventually you would stop losing weight from that specific effort. That plan will only get you so far, and you will know how far when the weight loss stops. Often people hit their first plateau at about a 7-10% weight loss, and then more plateaus will follow at various increments. The most important thing to figure out though is if the plateau is real or instead being caused by your calorie intake having increased or your exercise having decreased. So, back to our example, if your 1700 calorie diet has drifted up to a 1900 calorie diet and your 4 day exercise plan turned into 2, then you are drifting not plateau’ing."

I think I am drifting. (see link below for tips on stopping a "drift")

www.fudiet.com/2011/03/catch-your-ow
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(Who else had the lyrics "Like a drifter I was born to walk alone" go through their heads? Ok, onto it).

I haven't burned my goal of 2200 calories per week in a while. I've been eating out, I've been indulging a bit too much.

I've been lazy.

I might have had a few weeks where I did give it my all and the scale didn't budge...that frustrated me so I slacked off. Why not, right? Where was all this doing things by the books going?

I looked back and the last monthly progress report blog I posted was back in March. At that time I was at my lowest weight: 193.5. Now I've drifted back up to 197.5.

I know I have mental work to do, too...Am I mentally ready to be in the 180s? I don't know.

But I'm not going to give up without trying.

So, what I am going to do is analyze my food. Log everything and stop indulging in too much popcorn or wine, my vices.

I am going to blog monthly about my progress.

I am going to workout every day.

I will not be too strict or hard on myself, as that leads to more drifting, especially for me, but I am going to be honest with myself.

WEIGHT GOALS:

Challenge Starting Weight (Your weight on 07.01.2012): 197.5
Long-Term Goal Weight (in pounds): 178
Challenge Goal Weight (in pounds): 181

Weight goal: To lose 16.5 lbs. during this 16 week challenge.

Notice that my ultimate goal weight is 178, but my challenge goal is 181. I always set goals that are too high for myself, and I don't attain them. Over time, I've remained the same. So my thinking is to set an attainable goal for me. We are all different and when I am losing, I am a slow loser. So this weight loss goal calculates to a weight loss of about 1 lb. per week. That is completely do-able.

FITNESS GOALS:

To start making running a habit. I have only been running on average 1x per week. I want to bring that up to 3x per week so that I am ready for half marathon training come September.

To incorporate yoga back into my routine.

To start boxing with my husband.

GOAL: Burn at least 2200 cals. per week:

Monday 3 Mile Walk Live Class (515)
Tuesday Run (525)
Wednesday Boxing with Jim mixed with cardio and ST (300)
Thursday: Run in the morning and 3 Mile Walk Live Class at night (1100)
Friday Walk & kickboxing (150)
Saturday Long Run (630 - 700)
Sunday walking and yoga: (125)

Total: 3415

NUTRITION GOALS:

1400 - 1750 calories
10 glasses of water per day.
Only 2 cups of coffee in the morning, tea in the afternoon.
NO dairy – going cold turkey. (working on this!)
Get all of my freggies in.
Popcorn – break out the air popper and make it truly healthy. Then I can have 2 bowls.
Wine – only 1 – 2 glasses on special occasions. No more casual drinking.
Track all of my food into the fitness tracker and check my stats nightly to see where I need to tweak anything.
Start using SP meal plans again.
Start cookies recipes from the Spark Cookbook again.

  
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LINDAKAY228 7/2/2012 11:48AM

    Great blog with lots of honesty and great plan to get you going again. I know you can do this! We're gonna Rock It!!

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JENNIFER_67 7/2/2012 7:59AM

    I hadn't heard the term "drift" used in this context before. But it really fits what I end up doing too. I can feel it starting the last week or so, and I'm working hard to get back on track. Starting now.

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SLIMLEAF 7/1/2012 11:02AM

    Sounds like an excellent, structured and carefully thought out strategy. I wish you well.

I too had been 'drifting' for far too long and am now one week into the Summer 5% Challenge which is just what I needed to get myself back on track.

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and so can I.

So we WILL!

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TAZIAH 6/30/2012 3:47PM

    I love that drifting theory. I think you're right. We both have been plateaued during this challenge, and while initially it may have been a real plateau, it quickly became a drifting phase due to frustration, etc. Let's kick it into gear and see if we can't get it to start moving in the right direction again! emoticon emoticon

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THEEASYKILL30 6/30/2012 2:44PM

    I like the term "drift." I had read the thing about plateaus not being real plateaus either and I think being honest with yourself is the most important thing. If we lie to ourselves, how can we achieve our goals? I'm glad that you've re-evaluated and are changing up your routine. Best of luck! I know you can do it!

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HSMOM2FOUR 6/30/2012 8:01AM

    You've got this girl!! The key is to realize you are drifting!

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GETFIT2LIVE 6/30/2012 2:06AM

    You WILL reach your goals, I have no doubt! "Drifting" is a good description; being honest with the food logging and following through with those fitness and nutrition goals should help move you in the right direction. You can do this!

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VICKY31MOM 6/29/2012 11:54PM

    Love this blog. I love your plan! I feel like I have been faltering, or drifting too, for way too long! Gonna read up on plateaus and check out the link in the blog!

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AMBER281 6/29/2012 9:57PM

    You have a great plan and a great attitude.
I know you can do this!

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TEMPEST272002 6/29/2012 9:22PM

    I'm also drifting in the wrong direction. Good news we already know what it takes & we've already proven to ourselves that we have it inside ourselves to do it. I've got my clean eating plan to go grocery shopping with tomorrow. I think you have a great plan too. We''ve come this far together. We just need to keep pushing through.

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TRAVELGRRL 6/29/2012 7:25PM

    Hey LF,

This is a lifetime journey; you'll be tweaking from today until the day you take the Dirt Nap! But staying true to yourself, honest with yourself, is the first step to meeting your goals. You've set out some lofty ones. I'd like to suggest that you print out your blog and post it somewhere prominent (bathroom mirror?) so you can reflect on your goals while you brush your teeth or comb your hair.

You are so worth the effort, and you WILL make it happen!



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TRACY31502 6/29/2012 7:07PM

    GREAT blog and goals!!!! thanks for sharing!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 6/29/2012 7:03PM

    I think you are too hard on yourself. YOu have had A LOT going on. And as I've said before I am very proud of everything you have done in the SASS challenge. You are amazing and I know that ROck It! will have you break through this plateau of yours!!!! Great big hugs to my inspiration!

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KBRADFORD88 6/29/2012 6:28PM

    I wish you the very best, It is hard to see things for how they are, but you are looking it in the face and moving forward. emoticon

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JEANNETTE59 6/29/2012 6:04PM

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ROBYNROSE26 6/29/2012 6:04PM

    Love your blog Kathy, I am with you, I would like to say I am doing everything right, but I don't think I am? I love your goals for Rock It and you will be at that goal weight before you know it!

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RHIANNONTHEWOLF 6/29/2012 6:01PM

    Glad to see you have a plan. I have been "adrift" too and letting my calories float high.

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A Dream Fulfilled: Walk Leader Certification

Saturday, June 09, 2012



Three years ago when they introduced the Walk Leader certification program from Leslie Sansone, I saved the postcard that my Aunt Barb gave me announcing it, and put it up on my desk. I wondered if I would be a good leader. However, at that time, I was still at the beginning of my journey. I still needed to lose 100 lbs. And I wondered, how could I lead, when I needed to be led? So I put that postcard away and shelved that dream. But as anyone knows with a dream deferred, as the poem by Langston Hughes states, it “explodes”, meaning this dream kept building in my head and it was something I would think about, then disregard. This certification is only offered once a year, so every year come certification time, as I grew closer to my weight loss goal, I would think about it, but then think of a million reasons why not. It cost too much money. Who would come to my class? Who did I think I WAS, really.

Well, no more. This past year when the class was offered I went through the usual hemming and hawing, and then I decided I was going to DO this. I got so many signs that it was the right step to move forward with this. They say you should do what would make you happy even if you didn’t make any money at it. For me, that is simple. Writing and walking. I lead walks for my family in Michigan all the time; I led my sister when she was pregnant with twins, my parents, my other sisters, my own kids and family. This was something I loved to do, and the core of my workout program during this weight loss journey. A walk always makes me feel better. Wouldn’t that transfer to other people and help them? I had to try. I wasn’t afraid of failure anymore.

Now I am just so excited to be a certified Walk Leader for Leslie Sansone so that I can teach others how to start working out and becoming stronger. I am thrilled to be able to say I am now a certified "Fitness Instructor". I lead 3 classes a week. I am still pinching myself, I can hardly believe it. And to hear my students say "I love your class!" as they are leaving? Just amazing.

And to think at the start of this journey I couldn't walk even a half mile with Leslie. The journey of 1,000 miles does indeed start with that one, first, single step.

I can't wait to inspire others to take the first step, if they haven't already.

Is there a dream out there that is deferred to you? What steps can you take to reach out and grab it?




Graduation Class of 2012 in Chicago


Picture of my class. There's my daughter Lucy in the front row!


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What happens to a dream deferred?
~ By Langston Hughes

Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.

Or does it explode?

  
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3G1RLS4ME 7/10/2012 1:23PM

    Wonder if I can do it too I inspired my mother in law who is 100 lbs overweight to start walking now and my nephews want to go on walks with me when I visit them too :) but I live in Tijuana Mexico.

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NASFKAB 6/27/2012 3:17AM

  congrats proud of you

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AMBER281 6/26/2012 1:48PM

    Congrats!!!
I am so happy for you!

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GLITTERGIRL69 6/24/2012 12:30PM

    Another wonderful inspiring blog! God puts dreams into our hearts and then waits for us to realize we can do whatever we want to do! When He made me a leader of our team,Can't do this on my own, I was like ME a leader! In my life prior to becoming a leader I followed not ever leading any one. I followed my morals, and was not led astray, but lead a group, no not even one person had I led. But God put this burning desire to lead the team, Can't do this on my own. I was only a member of Sparkpeople for a few weeks. Barley knew how to do everything. Yet, "somehow" the leader got my email address and asked me if I wanted to leader the team I just joined. There were 4 other members who wanted to lead this team. I surely thought she had mistaken me for another team ember, or made some kind of mistake! however, when she asked me to lead the team, I told her I would love to, but was honest and told her I just joined sparkpeople. She wrote me back and told me that she had no idea how she even received my email address, and assured me that God gave her my email address! God pouts us in placed we do not know, asks us to do things we feel unequipped for, then He gives us the wings to fly. If we fly too high and do not use Him to help balance us we will floor to the floor. If we feel we are steady enough to do it on our own, we lose balance and we start to falter. It is when we take God's gifts, treasure them and seek hIm always that we not only float effortlessly, but we soar!

Well, God put this message in my heart, it was not really me at all! I was just going to tell

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MISSROCKABILLY 6/14/2012 3:08PM

    I love this, and I'm so proud of you! You're incredible!!

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WOLFKITTY 6/13/2012 11:05AM

    Aww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's fabulous!
HUGS!!!!
Jocelyn

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KROLES55 6/12/2012 3:57PM

    emoticon Kathi! You are inspiring!

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CHICAT63 6/12/2012 4:52AM

    So awesome, congrats on your certification !

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KITHKINCAID 6/11/2012 9:32PM

    I cannot even tell you how PROUD I am of you. Go get em girl - you're amazing!


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LOOZINITNOW 6/11/2012 4:50PM

    So happy for you!!! emoticon

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LOTUSFLOWER 6/11/2012 10:40AM

    I teach in the Western Suburbs of IL for those interested, send me a spark message for details!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 6/11/2012 10:21AM

    You are so amazing sweetie! You inspire everyone you meet!

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ELLIEFUNT 6/11/2012 8:22AM

    Awesome! Are you teaching in the Chicagoland area?

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GOOZLEBEAR 6/10/2012 8:17PM

    Congratulations on becoming a Walk Leader and fulfilling your dream! That is awesome and I know you are going to make a great leader!!! I love the Walk Away The Pounds dvds and have been doing them for years!!!

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Well done - and thanks for the encouragment to the rest of us.

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LINDAKAY228 6/10/2012 5:50PM

    Congratulations on making one of your dreams come true! I know you are doing an awesome job with the classes and if I lived near you I'd come to them! I'm so excited and proud for you. Glad the classes are going well. Your daughter looks so cute!

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THEEASYKILL30 6/10/2012 12:25PM

    You're a walk leader for Leslie Sansone? Do you know how much I LOVE those workouts? That is so fricking cool! emoticon

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FABN50S 6/10/2012 10:49AM

    That is so cool. I too love to walk and have always dreamed of teaching a LS walking class. I have been working out to her DVDs for years. Maybe I should work towards getting my Walking Certification here in Missouri

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FABN50S 6/10/2012 10:49AM

    That is so cool. I too love to walk and have always dreamed of teaching a LS walking class. I have been working out to her DVDs for years. Maybe I should work towards getting my Walking Certification here in Missouri

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CHIPLEY_FL 6/10/2012 7:49AM

    That is so cool. I can just imagine how many people would be more willing to start getting fit with you because you have been there. Congratulations.

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_AIYANNA_ 6/10/2012 3:32AM

    Congratulations!!! I am so happy for you and proud. It takes true guts to follow your dream and achieve it too. If I didn't live half-way round the world, I'd love to join on of your classes :)

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ANGELWENDYMAMA 6/9/2012 10:00PM

    WOOHOOOO!!!!

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KBRADFORD88 6/9/2012 9:59PM

    emoticon emoticon I know you are on top of the world

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TEMPEST272002 6/9/2012 9:20PM

    I'm so proud of you! I think you'll be an amazing leader & I'm sure your students will be just as inspired by you as I am.

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/9/2012 8:56PM

    I am so happy for you!!!!!!!!! You will be an awesome leader!

I use to enjoy walking but walking for me is soooooo painful physically that it has ceased to be anything but enjoyable......it is something I have to do to get from point A to point B in everyday life but I have not walked for exercise in several months due to the lower back pain and pain in the bones in my feet now.

My dreams?????? wow I pretty much stopped dreaming when just getting through every day tasks became a challenge. But I am slowly beginning to learn to dream again. My passion is outdoors and sports......I am a true tomboy at heart. My body just does not match my heart and mind LOL.

I am the odd one who watches a pro soccer game and thinks about how much fun it would be to be able to run like they do for 45 mins non-stop, or watch a mountain bike event and wish i could do that too etc.

I dream of a day that I have to work SUPER hard to get out of breath, not getting out of breath walking across the street to the mail box.

So i am glad you did not give up on your dream!!!!!!!!! I had never heard of that poem but I like it.

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VICKY31MOM 6/9/2012 7:35PM

    Congrats!!!! That is amazing!!!

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BRIGHTSUN4 6/9/2012 7:29PM

    Be proud. How exciting!!! Keep up your inspiration---it sure helps me. emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 6/9/2012 6:44PM

    WOOHOO!!

God bless & congrats!

Dee

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DUXGRL1 6/9/2012 5:03PM

    Good for you!

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 6/9/2012 4:23PM

    Congratulations! How awesome for you! Have FUN!

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JEANNETTE59 6/9/2012 4:04PM

  emoticonaccomplishment. I love that you chose this Langston Hughs poem; you rock!

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LYNNA7499 6/9/2012 3:51PM

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PRESBESS 6/9/2012 3:35PM

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I am so happy for you! Thanks for the inspiration.

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LASKIE2 6/9/2012 3:13PM

    emoticon on your new endeavor! You have a great drive and determination. Good luck with your classes.

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IGSBETH 6/9/2012 2:48PM

    Congrats! That's super!

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NADINEL 6/9/2012 2:31PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon That's just so great!!!

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ROBYNROSE26 6/9/2012 12:45PM

    Kathy, you are so Amazing emoticon

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NEW-CAZ 6/9/2012 12:33PM

    emoticon on pursuing your dream, you look confident and happy.

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GAMEON123 6/9/2012 12:16PM

    Very inspiring! Thanks for writing about it.

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_JODI404 6/9/2012 12:16PM

    emoticon Way to go on pursuing your dream!!!

You are looking just beautiful, HAPPY, healthy and fit in every photo!!

Best wishes for much fitness fun in your classes!!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 6/9/2012 12:12PM

    This FANTASTIC news! Love your drive and determination.

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MAGGIENCALI 6/9/2012 12:08PM

    Amazing!!! Congratulations on such a wonderful acheivement. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BIRDLSLAURIE 6/9/2012 11:54AM

    Fantastic! Congratulations!

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UNICORN212 6/9/2012 11:43AM

    You are just awesome!

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NFSISTER 6/9/2012 11:31AM

    Amazing! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Made me start thinking.

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JOYCRN 6/9/2012 11:27AM

    Well done! Congratulations! emoticon

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TRAVELGRRL 6/9/2012 11:07AM

    I am so proud of you! Your blog brought tears to my eyes. The power of a dream...the power and confidence you are demonstrating and teaching to your daughter...you are really an inspiration, LF!



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