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Run For the Kids 5K Race Report - May 5, 2012

Friday, June 08, 2012

This race report is a little late in getting posted, but that doesn't make it any less important. This was my baby sister Missy's FIRST 5k. Missy is a mother to 4, having had twins a year ago. After she had the twins (2 beautiful baby girls to balance off her two toddler boys) she made a commitment to run a 5k. I told her about the Couch to 5K program and she trained with that program on her treadmill at home, along with her husband, my BIL, Tony.

One weekend in Michigan we went for our first run together:

Before our run.

After :)

A week before the race her and I took a test run outside, she hadn't run outside often during her training and it can be intimidating. It's different than running on the treadmill. She did awesome, she is faster than me, which I knew she would be, and I was so proud of her!

This race benefits the mission of Easter Seals, to enable infants, children, and adults with disabilities to achieve maximum independence and to provide support for the families who love and care for them.

On race day I met my sister and Tony at their house and we walked to the race.

Me (left) with Missy (right) - See the twin walkers behind her? She's a rock star!

Missy with Tony at the house

Me with my workout partner, Jackie!

Missy with Tony before the race

And we're off!

See us in the front? You can't miss my pink skirt/leggings :)

(See my pink leggings? LOL.)

The start of the race had an actual gun (shooting blanks of course). But it threw me off, and I think a live gun makes people run faster. So while my plan was to stay with my sister, once that gun went off I ran as if I was running for my life! I honestly thought she was in front of me anyway, since she's faster. I saw her husband book ahead, too.

About 5 minutes into it my sister comes running up to me and wasn't very happy with me. She said something like "Nice job waiting for me." I felt about as big as a tack. I felt terrible, her first 5k and my plan was to stay with her! So from that point on we were together. Both of us started too quickly due to the nature of the start (did I mention we were in the front of the pack? Not a good idea it turns out). Both of us were feeling a pain in our side. I told her to go ahead, I felt like I was slowing her down. She did for a bit, but then around the 2 mile mark was waiting for me, turns out her side was hurting her as well. We started to do a bit of walking and running. I reassured her that this was completely fine for her first 5k, and I didn't want her to feel bad about it.

We ran/walked the rest of the race, but truly we only walked for a few minutes over all. Then the finish line was in sight!

Coming toward the finish line!

After the race! Victory!

Final time: 34:21. I actually got 7th place in my age group! It was a smaller race, but still, what a victory! I almost PR'd, this was my second fastest 5k. And for Missy's first 5k this is a great time! I am so proud of her!

And just for fun, here's a picture of me (left) with Missy (right) at my sister's recent wedding all dolled up. I just love this girl!

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RESTORED_ME 6/10/2012 9:05AM

    Fantastic!!!! How amazing!

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Super job - BOTH Of you!!! Rock on!!! and WOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!


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RUNNINGOMA 6/9/2012 8:11AM

    Great job!
So I'm interested in your skirt - it is attached to the leggings? Where did you get it? I have looked and looked - but would like something not attached that I can put over my running pants.
Awesome time!

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BRIGHTSUN4 6/8/2012 7:45PM

    Great job. Be proud of yourselves.

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SUE_2U 6/8/2012 6:41PM

    That's awesome! You both rocked it. You guys are beautiful!

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TRAVELGRRL 6/8/2012 5:32PM

    What georgous, beautiful, strong, loving women! You two look amazing and I'm so proud of both of you for doing this together. Thank you, LF, for sharing this amazing race with us!

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KITHKINCAID 6/8/2012 5:16PM

    Yey - I love race reports! And this is a great one for sure!!! Congrats you guys!

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ROBYNROSE26 6/8/2012 1:32PM

    Awesome! Looks like you had fun.

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JENJESS48 6/8/2012 1:19PM

    Kathy, it's so great that you run with various family members! What an inspiration! And Easter Seals is such an appropriate charity to run for for you two supermoms!

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NEW-CAZ 6/8/2012 1:03PM

    emoticon emoticon I love the leggings.

Loved the pics!

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JEANNETTE59 6/8/2012 12:21PM

  emoticon emoticon love the photos.

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THEEASYKILL30 6/8/2012 12:08PM

    emoticon job to both of you! I LOVE the pink leggings. That's a very smart idea - it makes you easy to spot. I can never seem to remember to take pictures before and after the race so I'm impressed that you have so many!

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LIVIN2LOVE1 6/8/2012 11:39AM

    Nice job! Great pics too! You two (and BIL) look great!

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LINDAKAY228 6/8/2012 11:37AM

    Awesome job by both of you!!! Congratulations to her on her first race and for you for placing 7th and also for running your second fastest race! You both look so awesome!

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GETFIT2LIVE 6/8/2012 11:07AM

    Way to go--you BOTH are rock stars! It can be hard to stay together in a race, especially if you aren't expecting an actual GUN to go off to start things out. Well done; you both look great.!

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BIRDLSLAURIE 6/8/2012 10:56AM

    Way to Go! What an outstanding result and what a treasure to be able to share that with your sister. By the way, you both look beautiful.

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    I love all the pictures!!!!!!! Amazing!! And I'm so proud of you! You look amazing sweetie...so FIT!

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A Brief Photo Inspiration Intermission

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

So I am way behind. On reading my favorite blogs, on posting my own blogs. I have yet to write one about my latest 5k and my Walk Leader Certification. But those can wait...at least a little bit longer.

I'm determined to reach goal weight in 2012, and I've been in a plateau for the past 6 months. SO, it's inspiration time. This is what helps me to see how far I've come, and to keep going.

I wore a favorite dress over the weekend and my sister snapped a picture of me. I realized that I had used this dress in a comparison photo 40 lbs. previously, so I thought I would update it:

Left to right: Me at 300 lbs., at 234 lbs, and 196 lbs. now.

Then I also realized I took a cute picture of me and my beautiful daughters, and wanted to compare it to a picture of me right after Marlo was born, which is about the start of my journey to lose over 100 lbs:

And I realized that I have come a long way, and I have a little bit longer to go, but I'm in the home stretch and I'm in this to win it!

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SUTERSPACE 1/22/2013 12:44PM

    Wonderful progress and delightful pictures to show it. Way to go!!

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BRADIA 1/3/2013 11:37AM

    Amazing. Someone up there called it motivation, to me it is much more. I have hated letting my picture be taken, so I might start having some pictures taken to be able to compare. But I very much believe, as far as I am concerned, it takes courage.
Thanks for sharing and congratulations.

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SOUTH_FORK 7/19/2012 9:39AM

    Great comparison shots and statement of mission!

That green dress made me think of all the times I've put off buying new clothes until I've lost that nagging 5 pounds (or 10 or 15 or.. ). Isn't it great when you find a piece that will accommodate a changing body and still makes you feel great? I've got a few of those in my closet and have found a few more recently- hope they'll stick with me for a while!

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HUNGRYWOMAN2 7/14/2012 1:35PM

    What an awesome way to keep the motivation! You truly have come a long way. You are looking fantastic.! emoticon

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BLACK741 7/6/2012 10:38AM

    Wow oh Wow, fantastic progress you must be so very happy!

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ELLENSANGEL 7/1/2012 8:22AM

    awesome progress.

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ROXYHON 6/28/2012 2:27PM

    Incredible!!! You looking amazing and simply glow with happiness...be proud of yourself and know that you inspire so many with your success.

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SOLOMUA 6/26/2012 1:58AM

    I really like your blog, but especially the differences in the pictures you've shared with us. Thank you for sharing with us, it definitely makes me feel good to know that I can do this too. Blessings!!

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DEBK0923 6/25/2012 1:57AM

    way to go, great blog

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INGMARIE 6/16/2012 10:24AM

    emoticonway to go.

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PMFISH 6/11/2012 11:49AM

    Wow!! Congratulations on a great job. You look fantastic, keep up the good work.

You not only look beautiful, but happy and healthy! emoticon

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    You look at least 20 years younger. Wow what a transformation.

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WIDARLING 6/9/2012 5:58PM

    Wow, you look fantastic. God bless. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 6/9/2012 6:29AM

    emoticonWOW, how grand to have your BLOG FEATURED in the SPARK MAIL. What an honor. You are certainly an inspiration to thousands of people. emoticon WOW, you look so much younger. It sure is amazing how being fat makes a person look old.

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DORISJJ1 6/8/2012 11:50PM

  Great job! I'm proud of you. Keep it up.

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MCJULIEO 6/8/2012 1:21PM

    Oh, how wonderful! What fantastically inspiring shots!

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CHERYLSBUTT 6/8/2012 12:47PM

    You look amazing!
Congratulations and I too am in it to win it
Stopped losing in Nov but haven't gained so I am staying steady with my plan.
I may make an adjustment nutrition wise to see if it gets me going!

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BANDMOM2012 6/7/2012 9:49AM

    Amazing! you look so happy and healthy emoticon

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JESSIG5 6/7/2012 8:32AM

    emoticon Girl! You look great.

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SRHALLIN 6/7/2012 12:03AM

    Congratulations on your success thus far, and best wishes to you on your journey to good health and personal happiness.

Your pictures reveal that the transformation is truly more than skin deep. And the light in your children's eyes say that you're not the only one enjoying your newfound good health. :D

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CPATRICK9 6/6/2012 10:46PM

    You look fantastic! Looks like you are well on your road to your goal weight. Keep up the great work! emoticon

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SHAWNY2 6/6/2012 10:25PM

    It is amazing how much younger you look! Beautiful pictures! You look fantastic! Congrats

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CITYDWELLERS72 6/6/2012 10:22PM

    Congratulations! You are beautiful before and after!! emoticon

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AMALYDAVIU 6/6/2012 8:02PM

    Thank you emoticon

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LUVTOBOWL 6/6/2012 8:01PM

    Congrats! You look amazing! Thanks for sharing the inspiration pictures. I can't wait to hit onederland....see at least you've done that. Keep up the good work-you'll reach your goal. emoticon

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SLIMTHICK2 6/6/2012 6:35PM

    Congratulations! emoticon

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PATASSA 6/6/2012 5:55PM

    What an inspiration you are! I will come back to this page again when I need encouragement. Merci beaucoup!

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PURPLEPEONY 6/6/2012 4:35PM

    Amazing! You look 10 years younger now. emoticon

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PJDARCAX2 6/6/2012 3:43PM

    Amazing! Thanks for sharing! emoticon

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MAYBER 6/6/2012 2:40PM

    Thanks for sharing your story and best wishes as you continue to strive toward your goal one day at a time
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LYNETTEMOM 6/6/2012 1:04PM

    wow, this is really compelling. My first thought was the cliche "a pic is worth a thousand words" but it is so true here, I gotta say it!

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DATMAMA4 6/6/2012 1:02PM

    How wonderful for you! The weight loss also makes you look younger.

Congratulations of a successful journey so far!

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COUTURELADY 6/6/2012 12:07PM

    Awesome work lady, you're a rock star and you look really lovely as a bonus!

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TMOORE073 6/6/2012 11:53AM

    Way to go😃! Congrats & keep up the good work!

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LIVERIGHTNOW 6/6/2012 11:47AM

    Before and Afters are SO motivating! You look great and I bet you feel wonderful!
Have patience with your plateau, do some experimenting with your exercise and your eating. Something will click but in the meantime be kind to yourself, no negative self talk! Been there, done that!!!!

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DEBBY4576 6/6/2012 11:46AM

    You can see that on the outside you always presented a happy person. The final picture shows that happiness from the inside to the out tho. Good work. You look younger too, which ALL women love don't they?

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MEADSBAY 6/6/2012 11:33AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon
for sharing, Gorgeous!

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1SUNSHINEGIRL 6/6/2012 11:06AM

    You look great...keep the Momentum going!

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TERRRI 6/6/2012 10:35AM

    In your trio of photos the first and third photo could be mistaken for mother and daughter. You look so much younger!

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DONNA_VT 6/6/2012 9:47AM

    A picture really is worth a 1000 words . . . you are doing great! Thanks for sharing

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BERI03 6/6/2012 9:30AM

    How inspiring! emoticon emoticon

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MASHALAZ 6/6/2012 8:56AM

  "Now" is WOW!!! Way to go. You are adorable!

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Pictures on the Shelf

Friday, April 13, 2012

I was talking with a friend over the weekend who has also lost a lot of weight. She said that when she visited her in-laws house she went into the study and saw framed photos of her and her husband on the mantle. These frames held pictures of a woman she no longer knew. She said she was going to go in when they were out of town and take all the pictures out and replace them with new photos. She wondered how she had let herself “go” and get so big. I've wondered that too, it's like when it's happening you don't *see* yourself clearly.

I get it. I do understand that feeling of wanting to destroy pictures. And what she said got me thinking, and prompted me to look at my own shelf.

I saw a larger me, yes. But I also saw a life that was being lived DESPITE those extra layers of fat that surrounded me. Despite the pain that I was in. I think it takes a certain spirit to not only live through this, but to go out, set goals and accomplish them despite the “largeness” and the world being as critical as it is and un-accepting of that.

Here's what I found on my shelf:

This first photo is me when I was maybe in 5th grade, giving my sister Kara a piggy back ride. Holding her felt important to me.

A picture of me with my best friend Cheri, who has accepted me at every size - we've been friends for 25 years now, she always knows how to make me laugh.

A picture from my wedding day. Even though I had to get my dress made by a dressmaker as the style I wanted wasn’t in my size, I was beautiful and happy.

A picture of me in England. I went with a group of 11 strangers. This was out of my comfort zone. I got a scholarship to attend, and I knew that this trip would change me and it did. This was where I discovered my faith that I thought was long gone.

Me graduating with my Bachelor of Arts degree from DePaul University. I earned that degree working full-time and going to school full-time. I left my home when I was younger and only 18 yrs. Old. I had to work hard for everything I’ve gotten and this was no different.

My new role as a mother. Looking into her eyes was endless and holding her I felt I was holding the world.

My sister Missy’s wedding day (I’m on the far right). I was so happy for her and her new life ahead.

My nephew Tony’s first birthday party. Playing with the kids makes me feel like a kid again.

These pictures show a story. It isn’t a sad story, but a story of a life lived.

I think about my husband and what his experience with me has been, looking at myself through the picture frames has made me try to see myself through his eyes. Although I had always struggled with my weight, at the time I met him I was coming off of my anorexic phase and I was a size 8. Through our dating I grew, and when we got married I was a curvy size 16 and weighed over 200 lbs. He still loved me.

After we got married is when I really packed the pounds on. I went from a curvy 16 to a very unflattering size 26. All in a year’s time.

Why do I tell you this? Because I used to think that my husband was a saint for staying with me through this journey but looking back at my pictures on the shelf, I see a woman who despite the odds has soared. Had I not lost the 100+ lbs. that I have so far, would it make me a different person? Not in the ways that count. See, my husband stayed with me for who I am, for that spirit inside, that is who he fell in love with, not the outside wrapper. And my friend I told you earlier about is an amazing person too, and her weight, even when she was bigger, did not define her.

And so this blog isn’t about “Yaay me, I am so great.”. It’s just my observations of what I found on that shelf. But really, this blog is about YOU. How many times have you felt “less than” because of your size, or any restrictions it may give you? How many times have people maybe pointed at you, or laughed behind your back? And you know what? You are living despite that. You are making goals, working toward goals and becoming new people – not destroying that old part of you, but enhancing it and embellishing it. Letting that spirit SHOW . Because you are all great spirits as well. We all have the power inside of us to reach outside of our comfort zones, to sign up for that 5k, to train for that marathon, to go to a new country. Being on this journey helps us see ourselves through new eyes.

I would have never thought at the beginning of this journey that the very classes I was taking to start incorporating working out into my life that I would one day teach. But I am studying to be certified at the end of the month to teach Walk Live classes through Leslie Sansone’s Walk at Home program.

This morning my 5 yr. old daughter looked at me as I’m practicing for the movement exam, and asked me why am I going to teach classes? She went on to say “You’re just a mom.”

That gave me a laugh, "JUST a mom" (is that all? LOL.) (It's funny how we are viewed by our children). But I told her that I want to help other people change their lives like I have. I've been given a huge second chance. And I'm not wasting one minute of it. I want to just ooze inspiration everywhere I go! And maybe this will plant a bit of inspiration in my two daughters to go for their dreams, too.

I just wanted to simply say that wherever you are, right NOW, it is enough. You are amazing, just as you are. Will you be even greater someday? I have no doubt about it. Whatever you wish for and dream for, it can happen.

We all have those old pictures on the shelf we'd rather never see again. But I ask you to perhaps embrace the person you are, once were, and who you will be.

And remember, just like Dorothy – you have had the power all along.

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DIANNEMT 12/18/2012 3:19PM

    I was motivated to change by a photo of me--I was happy, surrounded by friends--but I was NOT happy when i looked at me in the photo. I looked HUGE to me--and that helped me change. You have written a great blog--we all find whatever will motivate us wherever! Hope all is still well with you!!

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SPSPSP1 9/15/2012 7:16PM

    Well said!

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__AMY__ 8/30/2012 2:08PM

  You haven't posted !!! I am curious on how you are doing so far.

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SNATFURN23 8/20/2012 7:54AM

  Lotus flower! Your blog never disappoints! It has been a while since I logged onto spark and you were the first place I visited and I am so glad that I did. You are getting such great insight which I believe is such a key to real change. Loving yourself and respecting yourself as a beautiful child of God. Your blog gave me goosebumps and I am smiling from ear to ear reaffirming this truth for myself. We are not lacking...our life does not start once we reach a certain size, certain weight, certain look. Our life is a gift to be treasure now!

Thanks for the great inspiration...just what I needed! Keep up the great writing!

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ESCHLETZ 7/31/2012 10:49PM

    I loved reading this! Thanks for sharing. Although it all struck a chord in my heart as I read it, I liked the part where you mentioned how gaining the weight just sneaks up on you. I've been thinking about that, and how my gain happened, a bit lately and realized that now my weight is sneaking back down too. ;o)

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SOLOMUA 6/26/2012 2:04AM

    Just inspirational - thank you!

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KELLYTHEFIT0710 6/14/2012 2:06PM

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts and inspiration with us...you are a beautiful, blessed woman and I love that you appreciate the journey as well as your accomplishments! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DARKLADY25 6/11/2012 2:16AM

    Great blog! I really need to appreciate who I am and what I am, despite the weight, and your blog made me think twice about my life and my family.
Thank you!

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CLOSETOFORTY 6/7/2012 4:32PM

  Thank you for sharing those great thoughts and inspiration. I am the person behind the camera alot of the time because I never like any pictures of me. I have to get in front of the camera more and let my two sons know that their mom is living! I hope they can look back at pictures later in life and see me and them having fun... even if I am almost 300lbs, I am still their mom and I love them. They will be my motivation as I start my journey again... this time I know I can and I have the power inside me to do it! Thanks again this blog. oh and I have just started Leslie's Walk at Home Videos... I cried like a baby when I finished my first full mile without stopping. now on with the rest of the DVDs.

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JACKAAT 6/6/2012 7:05PM

  Many years ago I decided to be the person behind the camera instead of in front of it because I did not want to see myself in pictures. Your story has really inspired me to get out there in front of the camera and let everyone see that I am not avoiding life.
Thanks for sharing your story.
What a great way to see how far you have come.

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MISSLISA1973 6/4/2012 12:22PM

    What a great blog. emoticon

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MSVEEN 6/1/2012 10:37AM

  With tears in my eyes, I just want to thank you for blessing my soul and inspiring me today. This blog has just shifted my thinking. I am enough right now and working toward being even better.

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 5/26/2012 12:53PM

    You used a quote at the end that I often think about.."I had the power all long," just like Dorothy was told by Glinda the good witch. I wish I had realized it sooner. But I also realize those years I spent morbidly obese were not wasted, I had a great marriage, raised three wonderful sons and held a full-time job while holding down the home front. Now...I am pursuing other avenues...doing some substitute teaching after I had given up my dream to teach 35 long years ago when I couldn't find a teaching job after graduating from college. This might have been because of my weight, and I know my lack of ambition pursuing it as the years passed was due to my weight, how embarrassing would it be to stand in front of a classroom of young people, many of whom would be making rude comments about my appearance? I just didn't think I could endure that.

So even though we like to tell ourselves the weight didn't affect our lifestyles, it did and does. And I was lucky like you--I had a hubby who loved me through everything, because he always saw what was inside! And inside I like to think I have been a good person, empathetic and kind, hopeful and loving, always trying to do the right thing.

Great blog--I will come back and read this again...you give me inspiration!

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  I am struggling today. It was like I was supposed to read this. Thank you. I have been working very hard at being healthier and reaching a healthier weight. For my self and for my kids and husband. I am working hard but not seeing results on the scale. We are in full "beach trip" mode and I was beating myself up for not looking better in a bathing suit this year. But it will be better, because I AM healthier, I DO work out more and I am so much more than the numbers on the scale. This trip with my family will be an amazing blessing to enjoy. No time to waste with self doubt. Thanks for the reminder!

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STOPPLAYING2011 5/24/2012 11:21PM

    This Blog is wonderful it speaks to my inner beings thanks for sharing emoticon

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AWOOD1973 5/24/2012 12:15PM

    I've this blog... Even though I am JUST NOW reading it! LOL
What a wonderful reflection of yourself! Great blog!!! How truly inspiring you are!!

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7WORSHIPS 5/20/2012 3:42AM

  Awesome blog. Kudos to you!

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CLSYLADY 5/5/2012 7:25AM

    Thank you for sharing this blog. I totally needed it. I just got home from vacation and was looking at the picture seeing nothing but a beached whale. I told myself that I have to kick things into high gear, and I do and will but this blog helped me to see that I at least was out living life and having new and exciting experiences. THANK YOU for helping me see that part of my life!


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1STICKBLUES 5/4/2012 1:40PM

    Thank you for the share! Wonderful!

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CINDYHN 5/2/2012 11:23AM

    What a joy to read....thank you :) emoticon

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KNITTYKITTY01 5/1/2012 2:03PM

    Well said! It's so easy to say "when i get to my goal weight i'l......" even though theres no reason to wait until then. Very inspirational.

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JENNRUHE 4/30/2012 4:53PM

    Very well said. It definitely makes a person think. I painted my walls last year yes last year and didn't put pictures back up because I was not happy with how I looked. I think I am now ready to put them back up. Thank You

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FIT2BETHIN 4/25/2012 4:53AM

    Your blog spoke volumes to me...at a time I needed it the most. I need to read it again and again. Thanks for sharing your insightfulness.

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LINDA! 4/21/2012 11:42PM

    Wonderful blog!

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ZUZMAJKA 4/20/2012 12:06PM

    This is an excellent blog. I think way too often we try to put out lives on hold before we reach whatever weight. You sound like a lovely, fun person. Best of luck!

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THINNER321 4/20/2012 6:54AM

  Well done blog ...in every way! emoticon

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ALIDOSHA 4/19/2012 4:53PM

    Great blog. Congrats.

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JNPRGR8T 4/19/2012 12:49PM

  great blog!

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POSITIVE-FORCE 4/19/2012 10:18AM

    This was a wondeful blog! You have a way of getting to the heart of things! Love Ya!

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    I love this blog. I think it is so important to accept yourself at every point - thanks for expressing that so well. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IGSBETH 4/18/2012 8:40PM

    That is wonderful!

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SERENAJL 4/18/2012 3:50PM

    So inspiring. It made me cry.

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SEATOWN_GAL 4/18/2012 12:08PM

    Very moving, thank you for sharing.

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SUPERSYLPH 4/18/2012 10:45AM

    This was a great blog! What a more accurate way to look at pictures of us heavier. People always think of how they "could've" looked at certain events, and how it would've made the picture look better, but they're overlooking what's really important: experiences and memories.

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DKTURNER3 4/17/2012 8:13PM

  I love your perspective! You are a very good writer. We are all made up of where we came from, the paths we took and the obstacles along the way. You are celebrating the journey and encouraging all the rest of us to do the same, instead of "waiting" until we are thinner and then living our life. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

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RETURNTOTHIN 4/17/2012 11:30AM

    You are a great writer, and have a great perspective. so glad to read this today. Amazing.... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JUST4ME71 4/17/2012 10:40AM

    Terrific blog! Thanks for sharing. What a neat perspective into the "big picture." It's so easy to discount our blessings because of one (or a few) flaws. If what we "see" is self-defeating, we have to remember that the power is within and take control. I am guilty of perceiving myself as a little less lovable/human when I don't see what I like smiling back at me. This blog helps me to remember the good times and what makes us tick. It also gives me a little kick to find the strength to know what was truly important and heart felt.

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WENDIGAYLE 4/17/2012 10:33AM

  Beautiful. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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DANSMOMTPM2 4/17/2012 9:38AM

    What a wonderful uplifting blog. I think you are very thought provoking and so sincere. I love that you understand that life is worth living, and to love yourself for who you are. Your weight doesn't define you, the people in your life do. What a great husband you have, he obviously expresses his love for you and he too is sincere. As far as your daughter saying your just a mom - always remember - that is the most important role in the world. Don't ever be offended by that, I wish all these years I could have been just a mom, now my baby is graduating and I have missed out on so much. You are probably the Greatest mom, you have a great heart, I can tell that much from your writings. Thank you for a lovely blog to help lift my spirit today.

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ANDYLIN90 4/16/2012 9:38PM

    A great blog...good for you and aren't you glad you have those pictures that celebrate your life regardless of what your weight was?

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MSCRISPIN 4/16/2012 5:12PM

    Thanks for ur story, happen to me few weeks ago and I asked my husband why u let me look like that. I have lost 65 pounds and feel great. Thanks to SP and the encouragement of people like u. emoticon emoticon

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BMCKEOW1 4/16/2012 4:43PM

    Wow that was awesome and brought a tear to my eyes. Thank you for sharing and your right, just because I'm changing me doesn't mean who I was, wasn't awesome. Thanks for reminding me.

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EUNIQ3 4/16/2012 4:19PM

    That was beautiful. Thanks for sharing!!

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ATROTTIER 4/16/2012 3:01PM

    I love this!! Thank you so much for sharing!!!

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RAMONAFLOWERZ 4/16/2012 1:49PM

    This was a FANTASTIC blog. THANK YOU. It was good to read right now.


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MARGARITTM 4/16/2012 12:43PM

    Nice blog and great pics thanks

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The Not Really a Progress Report, Report - March 2012

Monday, April 02, 2012

I wasn't going to blog about March, because, as I said in my status update, "March was a wash." Well, actually...not really.

I did some great things in March. And the fact that instead of losing 5.5 lbs., which was my goal, I gained 1 lb. Well. So what? I'm really sick of my negative attitude about this plateau/rollercoaster/ride that I am on. I am going to celebrate my accomplishments anyway.

I rocked March. I actually actually lost 4.5 lbs. in March -- I just gained those before losing them. I was at 199 at one point in March. I'm 194.5 now. That's why looking at the number at the beginning of the month and the end is sometimes not accurate.

And if the scale doesn't reflect my awesomeness in March further, well, it will. Hopefully in April, but if not, I'm going to keep on doing what I am doing. For me I do have to be perfect or I gain weight. I can point out the 5 days that I went over calories in March and I wouldn't take away any of them. A 13 year wedding anniversary for me and my husband. A bridal shower. A birthday celebration. A wedding anniversary celebration for my parents of 43 years. And a vacation day off of work with my kids where we laid around and watched movies most of the day and ate popcorn because it was raining outside. No, I wouldn't take any of those away.

And the fact that 95% of the time I am doing what I "should" be, I know that the scale will eventually move downward. I'm too close to goal to give up or even think such ridiculous thoughts.

I'm going to just keep putting one foot in front of the others, and step out in faith and know that eventually I will be rewarded.


Start weight: 193.5
Goal weight: 188
End weight: 194.5
Weight lost: (Goal 5.5 lbs.) - Gained1 lb.
Total weight lost this year: 8.5 lbs.
Goal weight progress: 16.5 more lbs. to go to reach goal weight!
Total weight lost: 103.5


emoticonI reached 1,338 fitness minutes in March. My goal was 1,000.

emoticonI ran the Shamrock Shuffle 8k in 56:16. My goal was to beat last year's time by a minute. I beat it by over 5.

emoticonI was finally able to do a reverse plank – before I couldn't lift my butt off the ground.



Weight goal: To lose 5 lbs. this month.


To start training for a longer distance.

To incorporate yoga back into my routine.

GOAL: Burn 2200 cals. per week:

Monday Walk (150)
Tuesday Run (525)
Wednesday Walk & kickboxing (200)
Thursday Run (525)
Friday Long walk & kickboxing (300)
Saturday Long Run (630 - 700)
Sunday walking and yoga: (125)

Total: 2455 - 2625


1400 - 1750 calories
10 glasses of water per day.
Only 2 cups of coffee in the morning, tea in the afternoon.
NO dairy – going cold turkey. (working on this!)
Get all of my freggies in.
Popcorn – break out the air popper and make it truly healthy. Then I can have 2 bowls.
Wine – only 1 – 2 glasses on special occasions. No more casual drinking.
Track all of my food into the fitness tracker and check my stats nightly to see where I need to tweak anything.

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AKIMA06 4/14/2012 5:42PM

  I admire the way you post your goals. I need to do that but I am afraid. Maybe I will get enough courage to do that.

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PS You are not a number...the scale doesn't know or care what an awesome woman you are! Look in the mirror and see how far you've come. Amazing!

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SARASMILING 4/12/2012 8:35PM

    I cut out dairy too. I also have been really wanting to get yoga back into my life. It's so hard for me to pull it together and do at home but we just can't swing classes right now. I REALLY need to suck it up though and just do it. I miss it too much not to. I hear it calling my name. lol!
We can do this!! One day at a time. :)
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BMCKEOW1 4/9/2012 2:02PM

    Looks like March was a good month. Don't regret any of those five times though. Sounds like they were more then worth it.

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GETNHEALTHY45 4/7/2012 9:46AM

    I love your attitude. Yes! Do celebrate the successes. The scale is not the end-all be-all I always thought it was, though I do weigh myself every day to know how what I ate the day before effected me. You're doing fabulous! Keep up the good work!

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SHAR8676 4/6/2012 2:23PM

    I love how you chose to focus on what you HAVE done. I do that too. It is what keeps me moving forward. It is what keeps me positive. The scale is not moving as I would like it to. I am looking into figuring out what I need to be doing better to get the weight off. I love how you show what you have done, and I think you have a lot of success to celebrate so many things and have such a small gain. That alone is success!!!! Your picking back up and continuing on your journey...again another success!!!!

So glad you shared this, very motivational... emoticon

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AMBER281 4/3/2012 12:32PM

    Keep moving forward!
Good luck with your April goals!

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NEELIXNKES 4/3/2012 10:59AM

    emoticon Keep pushing forward! emoticon

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SEWINGMAMACDS 4/3/2012 10:28AM

    Sometimes we just have to look at those NSV's! emoticon

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JENJESS48 4/3/2012 8:48AM

    You did really well in March, no matter what that stupid scale says. Life isn't about perfection and you chose the days to go over wisely. I'm glad you enjoyed them and let go of the guilt!

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NEWGAL78 4/2/2012 10:49PM

    You are still doing emoticon!!! We still have to enjoy life and learn to live healthy. It's a struggle sometimes but it's possible. Some days I just want to throw my scale out of the window. So I can definitely relate with the temptations and setbacks. Hang in there because April is a new month and a new start.


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BEAUTY_WITHIN 4/2/2012 10:09PM

    Looks like you did pretty good in March! Keep it up!

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NADINEL 4/2/2012 8:44PM

    You are right! You did rock March! Living your life is the most important of all!

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KISHYMARIE 4/2/2012 8:16PM

    I love what KITHKINCAID said. You are rocking it! And so what if you gained a pound, you've got the right attitude. And your attitude is what WILL make it happen. Keep up the good work!

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    I'm always proud of you! You are doing great sweetie. Love you!

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CERULEANSIN516 4/2/2012 5:48PM

    It sounds like you had an awesome month! I like your goals for April, good luck.

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CAMAEL100 4/2/2012 5:18PM

    What a great month you've had. Congrats on your major loss to date - don't let anything let you forget what you have achieved - total inspiration

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VICKI-B--56 4/2/2012 4:53PM

  You did great in March!!!! And I'm sure you'll do even better in April. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KATHIERAE 4/2/2012 4:38PM

    Oh I am so glad you came back to look at what you are doing/have done well! That is so important for continued motivation... and in sharing you motivate all of us too, and I for one appreciate that so very very much!!! emoticon emoticon

Stupid scales... emoticonkeep rockin'--you'll triumph over the scale in the long run!

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GETFIT2LIVE 4/2/2012 4:37PM

    You did rock March--the scale does not always tell the real story, as you know all too well. You got this!

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SMILINGTREE 4/2/2012 4:28PM

    I know what you mean about days that you wouldn't take away but that seem to hinder fitness progress. I've missed work outs because a friend visited unexpectedly, or over-eaten at a birthday celebration, and you are right, those things are super important. Maybe it is just important to have those days as it is to be continually evaluating our health and fitness level.

You DID rock March :) Being able to perform an exercise you couldn't do before is awesome...and 1338 fitness minutes? Holy moly! That's amazing.

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LIVIN2LOVE1 4/2/2012 4:22PM

    I think you had an amazing March too. Even if the scale doesn't confirm it for you.

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IGSBETH 4/2/2012 4:21PM

    That's more like it! Rock what you got, LOL.

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KITHKINCAID 4/2/2012 4:13PM

    The fact that you keep coming back to the ring with your gloves up is a true testament to how hard you rocked March. I will ALWAYS be proud of your determination and your grace at doing all of this with more challenges than I have in my life (kids, husband, extended family). Wow. You're amazing.

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KASPARFAN 4/2/2012 4:09PM

    That's a pretty good Non-Progress Report! :) Minus the 1lb weight gain, look at what you've accomplished physically! That 1lb, and more, will eventually follow suit with your exercise/physical feats! Keep up the good work!

ps--your "total weight lost" is AMAZING! :)

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Shamrock Shuffle 8k Race Report

Friday, March 30, 2012

This is my favorite race. Over 34,000 runners participated in the 33rd annual Shamrock Shuffle, the traditional kick-off to the running season in Chicago.

This race and I have a long history together. My family has been participating in this race for the last several years. They used to offer a walking option for a 5k distance, but they don't anymore.

2007 - I walked it with my husband, daughter, dad, and two sisters. Jim had Lucy in tow (look how small she is!) (I am the second from the right)

2 years ago I caught the running bug while walking the Shuffle with my dad and feeling the urge to run. That same year I crossed the finish line with my dad, dead last.

2010 - Me, my dad and my sister Kris

Last year was my year for redemption. I ran the entire thing. That was my goal. My goal this year was to simply beat last year's time by one minute.

I not only beat my last year's time by one minute, I beat it by over FIVE minutes.

1:01:48 (2011)

56:16 (2012)

I was ecstatic!

And what's even better to me than time is the way I felt - both before, during and after the race.

Last year I was scared. I ran it alone and standing waiting to run in a crowd of 40,000 can be intimidating. During the race last year I was dying and afterward I was so tired that in every picture my smile is the same (strained).

This year I had FUN. I wasn't nervous at all and I actually wore a cute running skirt and compression socks. As I was running through the streets of Chicago I was loving it. Afterward I felt energized, and I felt like I could have run MORE. (Half marathon, do you hear me calling your name?)

My husband and daughters came to cheer me on - they saw me at Mile 2 and then caught up with me at Mile 4 and my husband actually ran along the sidewalk for a bit as I was running, it was so cool! A traveling cheering section!

My favorite signs I saw along the way?


"Don't poop."

"I thought this was a pub crawl." - t-shirt

I didn't bring my camera, so these pictures from the local paper will have to do.

But I did purchase my finisher photo as I knew I would have no pictures of my own.

The start of the race, courtesy Chicago Tribune.

Under the first bridge! Photo Chicago Tribune.

Running through the streets. Chicago Tribune.

Plenty of bananas afterward. Chicago Tribune.

Proof of me crossing the finish line (MarathonFoto)

New PR!!

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NORAB52GOOD 4/8/2012 12:59PM

    It is a great race! I have only done it once but it was awesome. I love your transformation through pictures. And what a great time!!!

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AMBER281 4/1/2012 4:56PM

    Great job and it looks like you had a fun time!

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ZURDTA- 3/31/2012 5:49AM

    Yay - way to go! Fantastic progress xx

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OVERHAULING-ME 3/30/2012 11:33PM

    emoticon Amazing results! It's great to see how you've improved over the years!

Loved the outfit!

That is A LOT of people running!


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BIRDLSLAURIE 3/30/2012 9:30PM

    congratulations! That is awesome.

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KAKLUCK 3/30/2012 8:45PM

    Awesome!!!! Just think how great you'll do next year!

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WINNIE1978 3/30/2012 7:53PM

    Love the progress you've made with this race. I can see why it's your favorite. emoticon

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SLIMLEAF 3/30/2012 5:59PM

    Excellent! Congratulations!

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LINDAKAY228 3/30/2012 2:00PM

    Awesome job! You look great in your running outfit. Those races that we go back and do over and over again as a different experience each time are really special. Way to go on blowing your time out of the water!

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SMILINGTREE 3/30/2012 1:18PM

    Thanks so much for writing this post. I am registered for an 8K in late May and feel pretty nervous about it. The farthest I've ever been able to run without walking (always my goal in a race - to finish without walking) is 4 miles, plus, this race is "mostly uphill" according to the organizers, and is put on by a very competitive local track club! eeeekkkk! But you look so happy, and this post is so upbeat, I feel inspired and a little less terrified.


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BMCKEOW1 3/30/2012 1:14PM

    Looks like you had fun and that's what's important. Congrats on not only beating your time but for also beating your goal. That's impressive.

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KITHKINCAID 3/30/2012 1:06PM

    Ahhh! I'm so proud of you! And you BETTER get on board for that half marathon girl - I'm totally running one with you next year. I'm totally digging your cute outfit :) But what the heck that the shirts were RED this year??? Makes no sense to me at all. Good for you for rockin the green!

WELL DONE! Mojo apparently worked his little gnome magic. Hehehe.

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TORIAMAE 3/30/2012 12:56PM

    Contratulations on a great race!

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SCOTTPILGRIM 3/30/2012 12:13PM

    Way to go! Nice job putting together pictures from the course.

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SIMPLY-EVA 3/30/2012 11:59AM

  That is so fantastic! I love seeing how much progress you have made in just a few years! Congrats to you and how you are doing awesome things!



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    Do you have ANY idea how proud of you I am? You have come so far! You are my inspiration and I love you so much!!!!!!!!!! Keep on shuffling beautiful!

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GETFIT2LIVE 3/30/2012 11:38AM

    Nicely done! The smile says it all; you definitely need to consider a half marathon. It's so fun to do the same race each year and reflect on how far you've come, isn't it? You rocked it!

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LIVIN2LOVE1 3/30/2012 11:34AM

    That is so awesome! You are glowing in your finish pic. I'm running my first 5K in September. I haven't yet started training and I'm nervous as heck. Your blog eased my tension. Thanks for blogging about it!

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MAGGIENCALI 3/30/2012 11:00AM

    Congratulations!!! That race looked like a lot of fun. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JENJESS48 3/30/2012 10:59AM

    You're such an inspiration, Kathy! Way to go!

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