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Getting off of this Rollercoaster

Monday, March 19, 2012

I am not happy. For a person who is usually cheerful, I am downright depressed right now.

It isn't fair. It just isn't fair that when I have a bad week I regain weeks worth of work.

I am sick of having to be perfect all the time.

I just want off of this ride.

A few weeks ago I was down to my lowest weight in the past 10 yrs., 193.5. I vowed I wouldn't go back up above 195. At my Saturday weigh-in I was 198.5. Today, because I have a sick sense of humor, I got on the scale again and I was 199.5. To say I am disappointed is an understatement.

Last week a lot of things happened to get me to where I am today. I can whine all I want, say it's not fair, etc., but looking at the facts they look something like this:

emoticonI wasn't feeling well last week. Low energy, head cold. This beautiful Chicago weather does have a down side.

emoticonI only worked out one day last week.

emoticonI got my period.

emoticonI had three family events, where despite my best efforts to make good choices, I still over indulged, bringing my total calorie count up to over 2,000 for the day, and in some cases 2,500.

emoticonI decided that the chocolate-covered sunflower seeds my husband brought home from the store were "healthy" and took a handful, or two, or three, out regularly.

emoticonI incorporated dairy into my diet again.

emoticonI indulged in wine and margaritas.

emoticonI ate too much popcorn.

emoticonI was lazy.

Are these excuses? No. Just the simple reality of it. So when I find I want to whine "It's not fair", I had an especially bad week overall, it wasn't just one small thing, my body could have handled that. It was a series of unfortunate events that brought on my weight gain. 3 lbs. this week, 2 lbs. last week and that extra pound or two from too much salt.

But you know what?

I am tired.

Darn tired.

Here's what a typical roller coaster looks like:

And here's what my weight loss graph looks like:

A little too similar lately if you ask me. Up, down, up, down. And I'm just DONE with it all.

I'm changing this ride NOW.


emoticonBecause I no longer like the mood swings associated with the up and down of the scale, and of my diet.

emoticonBecause I am not afraid of being under 190.

emoticonBecause I wanted to be at goal weight by May 19th for my sister's wedding.

emoticonBecause I have more important things to accomplish in life rather than tackling the beast of a scale.

emoticonBecause I want to get on with my life.

emoticonBecause I have an 8k to train for coming up in less than a week!

emoticonBecause, in the words of Stewart Smally from SNL, I am good enough....I'm smart enough, and doggone it, people like me :)

So, what am I gonna do about it now that my whining and crying is over with?

emoticonI'm going to start by going out at lunch and buying myself some new running kicks. It's time, and my knees are starting to feel it.

emoticonI'm going to run tonight.

emoticonTomorrow I am going to walk.

emoticonThen I'm going to box.

emoticonThen I'm going to run again.

emoticonThen I will walk (again).

emoticonThen I will lift some heavy weights.

emoticonThen I will rest.

emoticonThen I will run my 8k.

And I will repeat the following week, perhaps not in that order, but a few things are certain:

emoticonI will run 3x per week.

emoticonI will box 1x per week.

emoticonI will walk 6 days a week.

emoticonI will rest one.

And I will eat 90% clean, whole foods. I will stop eating the junk hubby brings home - last night it was chocolate peanut clusters - Why you ask?? Because they were "cheap and on sale". I'm sorry, but I'm worth more than $1.99 of chocolate covered peanuts.

And until that scale budges, NO popcorn, NO wine, NO margaritas.

Enough is enough.

I'm aiming for a 4 lb. loss this week. If I could put on 3 this week, I can sure try to take it off, and then some.

And the thing about roller coasters?


They always,

eventually, have to come



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  sometimes just a cough drop can sabotage a month of self control.

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    Not to be a Pollyanna or anything, but your weight loss graph hasa decided downhill slant! Congrats on what you have lost so far. My graph seems to be trying to het to heaven. emoticon

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WUAKOS 4/2/2012 8:54AM

  Great attitude... And it seems that your husband with out doing it on purpose is sabotaging your hard work by bringing all that home. But unfortunately the world is full of bad unhealthy deliciously tasting food and we have to learn to resisted mos times and know when to indulge and that's not every day.
Keep the good attitude you can conquer anything.

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  I can so relate with you!! You are so right...It ISN'T fair. emoticon

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CHERRY666 3/26/2012 11:30AM

    "I'm sorry, but I'm worth more than $1.99 of chocolate covered peanuts. "

I really liked this blog -- I can relate all too well -- but I especially liked what you wrote here. We're ALL worth more than a two-buck package of cheap chocolate.

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TOFUCUTIEPIE 3/26/2012 10:50AM

    Great blog! I could've written that myself.

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DIBANANA 3/24/2012 11:44PM

  I am sorry but I smiled reading your blog. I've so been there. I get whiplash sometimes! You have pulled yourself up and you are ready to go again.

The one time I can remember doing well was when I forgave myself and got back on track asap. Do it and you'll be fine.

Life gets in the way sometimes. Now take it back

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AMBERLEIGHM1 3/24/2012 9:54PM

    I'm glad you are focused on where you want to be and realize you are worth it. I've struggled lately with being at my lowest weight since the 90s so I can empathize with you. I will pray you are successful and that you feel beautiful at your sister's wedding.

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PANIK257 3/23/2012 8:34PM

    This is all normal! You are doing great. Don`t focus on the small blips. Focus on the bigger picture.

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SUPERSYLPH 3/23/2012 1:08PM

    Actually your graph doesn't look like a roller coaster ride at all! Overall, you've lost a good amount of weight! Sure, there are small bumps, but if you look at the bigger picture, there's a huge decline line! Way to go! Don't beat yourself up! You're doing great!

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BEMOORE68 3/23/2012 12:55PM

  Way to set your mind! When you are fed up with the way things are or have been, it feels good to get that righteous indignation. Stay strong and focused!

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IGSBETH 3/23/2012 12:36PM

    You can do it!

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RDGISME 3/23/2012 10:42AM

    I'm on that ride with you! I just keep thinkng that stopping this ride I want to get off sounds great! Thank you for reminding me that I can change up my usual behavior: you are doing very well! emoticon

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CPATRICK9 3/22/2012 8:44PM

    I'm sure you can get back on track toward your goal. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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MARTINT011 3/22/2012 8:44PM

  thanks for the excellent, example of a roller coaster!

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PEANUT883 3/22/2012 8:37PM

  I like that- you are worth more than $1.99 chocolates. You're darn-tootin' you are!

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MARTHAWILL 3/22/2012 8:16PM

    Good for you for taking ownership of the reasons the numbers on the scale were not in your favour. Like many of us, I've been on a roller coaster ride, currently heading downwards again but have always acknowledged and admitted the reasons the ride started going up again. Admitting it and facing it head on (especially-gulp-publicly) is the best way to prevent the spiralling back to where we started from. Good for you. You go!
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SLUDERCATS 3/22/2012 7:58PM

    I believe in you...you will take off the weight that you put on plus some!


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GAUNTTRUE1 3/22/2012 6:31PM

  Most journeys are long and hard. WE will have our ups and downs. THat is what life is all about. I enjoyed reading your blog. Stay focus on your goal, keep striving, it is within your reach.


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    emoticonGreat to see you featured in the Spark Mail with THE BLOG. What an honor. emoticon

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OWENZZOO 3/22/2012 12:47PM

    That is a fantastic blog. Thank you for sharing.

I hope your week is going great!

Anna. emoticon

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BMCKEOW1 3/22/2012 12:00PM

    You can do this. Don't let one week beat you. You are better then that, just like your better then the $1.99 peanut clusters. You have been working so hard and keep up the good work. You had a couple stumbles now get back up and get back on track cause your worth it.

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FLPALM 3/22/2012 11:18AM

    Very good outlook! WTG!

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FLCUPCAKE 3/22/2012 11:17AM

  You have inspired me to get off of my rollercoaster as well!

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IAMAGEMLOVER 3/22/2012 11:00AM

    You go girl. I like your spirit. I am looking forward to a follow up of this blog to read about the progress. emoticon

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SCDALYNCH 3/22/2012 10:56AM

    Thanks for your story. How much that is like my life. You have done well even with the spikes in the graph. Sometimes we have to look at the beginning and end result. No path is easy or fast.

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GIBBY551 3/22/2012 10:40AM

  Your story could be my story. It is so easy to concentrate on the short term. But, when I look at your graph you have done very well! Be proud of what you have accomplished and keep going! YOU CAN DO THIS! emoticon

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    aaaaaaa like the post.

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BLAUTO63 3/22/2012 10:25AM

  I love your can do attitude and the fact you own your mistakes. Well said and you can do this...I too continue that rollercoaster ride and am sick of it and know only (I)can change it but always much easier said then done.

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 3/22/2012 10:22AM

    You GO girl! I'm so glad my hubby is not a shopper, he never brings home goodies, Thank God. I would have a devil of a time resisting chocolate peanut clusters. God, I remember their sweet chocolate saltiness like it was yesterday.

It's frustrating when we sabotage ourselves and ruin weeks of good hard work. WIth that goal of your sister's wedding in May, I know you will get back on track and be at your goal weight by then, because doggone it, WE DO LIKE YOU!

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VOLLEYGIRL77 3/22/2012 10:05AM

    You can do it! You have the knowledge and the power to regain strength!

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STARLIGHT615 3/22/2012 9:51AM

    Yes you can totaly do it!! No matter if u have a bad day or bad week just get back on the wagon and push!! XOOX

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    I love your sttitude! The power is in you...and I know you know how to turn it on!!!

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SOCIALWALKER 3/22/2012 8:34AM

  You are worth the effort it takes! Keep up the good work...your graph might have spikes in it, but overall you've come a long way. And remember, you are so much more than a number on a scale- the scale has NO power to define who you are. emoticon

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    When I look at your weight loss graph, I see how very very far you have come! And now you have reminded yourself of good goals for the future! You can do this!

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Cleaning House

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

I’m talking about cleaning out the clutter in our lives, and I don’t mean paperwork, or house chores or cleaning. Well, maybe I do.

I’ve had day long meetings all week that I am the organizer for – the behind the scenes lady. I have to make sure the people have coffee, breakfast, snacks, lunch, water, more water, and refresh it all.

This morning one of the guys tried making coffee himself before I got in and he made a mess of it. The coffee overflowed into the drawer beneath it, into the cabinet below that, underneath the water cooler, under the coffeemaker, under the microwave, in all the cracks and crevices it could find.

As I was cleaning up the mess he stopped in to say he was sorry again, I told him no problem, it had happened before and he wasn’t the first. He said “I tried to clean up the best I could, this may actually be a good thing, there was tons of junk in the drawer and food particles, etc., that hadn’t been cleaned.”

I agreed.

And then it hit me.

That mess, that junk, while annoying and took time out of my day to clean, was ESSENTIAL. Without the mess I wouldn't have had to clean up. Without having to clean up I wouldn't be looking under every little thing to be sure the coffee wouldn't stain the drawer or counter. The mess made me lift up things I wouldn't have before. Made me take a closer look and examine.

When bad things happen to us, and we need to clean up our messes, that is shaping us.

Everything shapes us.

When we have to clean up a mess we discover all the things that need changing. That dust in the corner, the old socks under the bed. Metaphorically there are things inside us that need to change too.

I recently got into a fight with a family member and it was a bad one. I usually avoid conflict like the plague, but this time I tried to do something different – I called her out on something and I acted in anger. I was hoping to prevent the emotions building inside of me and becoming a bigger mess, but I can tell you that this new method didn’t work either. It didn't produce a good reaction, or resolution. (Next time, calm down first, and then address the situation). We got into a big fight and before I knew it I was yelling. Very unlike me. But it made me realize that I don’t handle conflict well and that that needs to CHANGE. Yes, I have every right to speak up, but not the way I did. Next time I need to handle conflict in my life I know I will do a better job. Life is all a dress rehearsal, didn't Shakespeare say that? The world is the stage. I am practicing with every action I make.

Same with this weight loss journey. If we go to a dinner party, or out to lunch and make bad choices, well those choices shape us too. When we see the outcome reflected on the scale, we CHANGE.

We all have frenemies. I’ve encountered some that make me feel bad that I am not up to their level of fitness, or always try to show me how great they are. And I’m happy for these people. But I will not let their comments meant to lift them up and me down shadow anything I am doing. Like the dust mites in the corner, some of these people I am going to have in my life less (or ignore them). I don’t need the comments/jabs meant to make someone else feel better, and for me to feel less. I am not a person who compares me to anyone. So when a friend compares her journey to mine, or another how far she can run vs. me, or perhaps someone saying how much faster they are. All of that just doesn’t matter. Plain and simple. We are each on our own journeys and we can lift each other up and be cheerleaders for each other, or we can try to bring someone down in order to lift ourselves higher. I choose to be a cheerleader. I always did want to wear that cute skirt and pigtails.

We all have drama. We have those friends, family members or kids who just loooove the drama. I have a sign in my daughter’s room that says “Save the Drama for your Mama”. I thought it was funny when I purchased it as she was growing inside of me. Now as she is living into that I question…hmmm.why did I buy this? And why SHOULD drama be saved for the mama? I know why. Because mamas are STRONG and they GROW as a result of the drama. We get more patient and learn to handle more of it.

We all could use more money. I don’t know anyone who is 100% comfortable with their financial situation and can just do whatever they please. Even the ones who have it all, all the money they need, they want more. We all strive for MORE. We want it all, don’t we? I challenge you to be comfortable where you are at, with what you have. (Note: Take my own advice). I think a natural result will be that we lead simpler lives. And there’s not that stress of where is the money coming from.

Patsy Clairmont, from Women of Faith, recently said something similar to this concept. Instead of calling it “De-Cluttering”, or “Cleaning”, she simply calls it Pruning.

Patsy tells a story about how several years ago; her husband bought one of those huge riding lawn mowers. He was so excited about his new “toy”. When he got ready to mow the lawn, he was so excited that he shifted into high gear and ended up going through her beloved flower garden.

Her garden being ruined wasn’t what her husband intended, obviously, not the best case scenario. After her husband lifted the mower off the flowers she describes what the aftermath looked like: “my hydrangea bush looked like a handful of pickup sticks, my roses were potpourri, and my butterfly bush was not fit for a gnat.”

She went on to say that despite the damage done to her garden that the following year those same bushes came back “with gusto”. They had gorgeous blossoms. And the following year they were even better. Then she says that: “It’s really a reminder that what others do accidentally or spitefully can be used to cause us to flourish. “

While none of us want the conflict, the strife, this hard job of losing weight, family issues, financial troubles, all of these things SHAPE us. They help us to become better people. Become who we are. Discover our purpose.

As Patsy says, we were BORN to GROW. And for those fellow Christians, as we grow we become more like Christ in His own image, he is inside of us all.

And each obstacle that comes our way is just an opportunity for GROWTH.
My challenge to you is to look at your life and at those things that you would rather change. Can you see how they perhaps are a blessing in disguise? Does looking at them this way help you to embrace them more fully?

So take out those dust rags, sponges and mops. Clean out under your bed, in the corners of your soul. And you might just be surprised at what you see.

Artwork by Kelly Rae Roberts "Everything Shapes Us"
(which I have on my office wall)

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ASPENHUGGER 4/14/2012 3:15PM

    I've been living this scenario lately. Lots of anger & resentment & painful moments, but also lots of hope because the pruning is clearing away the undergrowth and allowing the sunlight into more areas of my life.

Thank you!

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RACHEL-SPARKS 3/30/2012 10:11AM

    Thank you. I have been thinking that a big part of my weight problems is the way I handle conflict. This made my day.

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GEORGIAGIRL26 3/24/2012 8:16PM

    What a great blog. Thanks for sharing sister!
Hope that you have a great week! Holly emoticon

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KLONG8 3/21/2012 5:02PM

    I need to prune today. Thanks!

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SIMPLY-EVA 3/21/2012 11:20AM

  Loved the story! Your so right about the need to clean out the cobwebs.


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TERESANAVARRO 3/19/2012 4:03PM

    Awesome blog. Thanks emoticon

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PHOEBESMIMI 3/16/2012 6:30AM

  Thank You I will start this morning

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DZINE4KING 3/13/2012 12:48PM

    Awesome blog...just exactly what I needed! Thank you so much for sharing.

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TRYINGHARD1948 3/12/2012 11:49PM

    A wonderful lesson in your blog. Thank you.

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HRISAAC42 3/12/2012 11:15PM

    I loved, loved, loved the pruning analogy. I am going to start pruning away at the things that are holding me back so I can flourish. Thanks so much for your thoughts. They really hit home for me. emoticon

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TOOBIGTOFAIL07 3/12/2012 9:10PM

    Great analogy. Just what I needed to read. Thanks

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SNOWMAIDEN 3/12/2012 5:05PM

    Really thought provoking - thank you.

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    I so needed to find your blog this morning. Thank you so much for your insight. emoticon for sharing.

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JIVANA108 3/11/2012 8:20PM

    great blog ....needing a deeper spring cleaning in my life and since I'm on a vacation from work...what a better time:)

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  Really good food for thought. Thanks emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 3/11/2012 6:28PM

    What an excellent blog! Especially timely for me as I faced a significant gain (11 lbs in 6 weeks - ouch) this morning. I see the pounds as the price I pay for the lessons I've had to learn (or re-learn, as the case may be). Thanks for the insights.

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    Wise Words! Gonna take them to heart and do some cleaning out in my own life!

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WIDARLING 3/11/2012 4:30PM

    Thanks for sharing. God bless. emoticon

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    Frenemies. That's a great word. I've got one in my life. Have to think of other ways to react ... Thanks.

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DIRTYBUNNY 3/11/2012 12:00PM

    "And you might just be surprised at what you see."
And you might find that you don't need to hang onto some things anymore.
And you might find some things that delight you because you didn't know you still had them.
And you might be able to take a moment and remember the way things used to be--whether good or bad--and then put those things and memories in their proper place.

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BUFFALOGAL1952 3/11/2012 11:39AM

    Wonderful way of stating what should be obvious to us, but that which we generally would like to sweep under a carpet. Better to face it and attack it head on. Great Blog!!!!

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HEALTHYOTTER 3/11/2012 10:06AM

    Great perspectives,thanks. I needed to hear it.

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THEIS58 3/11/2012 9:22AM

    Just great.

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 3/11/2012 6:25AM

    You've hit it on the head. I'm doing a prune (I like that word better than purge) this week in a couple of areas.

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  very nicely written

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ANHELIC 3/10/2012 7:00PM

    Great ideas. I'm going to follow some of them.

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RELISA4HEALTH 3/10/2012 6:25PM

    Awesome post. Thank you for sharing your thoughts in this area.
Your blog reminded me of how life is like the rooms of a house . I know that God is dealing with me with some of those rooms.
Have a blessed year as you walk out your personal goals for health and fitness.

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REDBIRDFLY 3/10/2012 4:18PM

    I find it easier to keep a uncluttered house and a uncluttered mind. Both easier to clean up when a mess gets in there. emoticon

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ONTHEPATH2 3/10/2012 12:51PM

    Working on spring cleaning - lots of clutter to sort through. Thanks for the great blog!

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LOWFATFOODIE 3/10/2012 12:22PM

    great post in so many ways. I identified right away with the cleaning up a huge mess. My STBX made a huge mess of my life, but I am so grateful that without that I would have not noticed all the things I had let 'get dusty' and messes that were just left to sit there. Cleaning up the big mess let me clear the cobwebs, dust off my soul, and get rid of those old holey ideas that were building up in my life.
Sometimes it takes a epic disaster to show up what we're made of and to clear our world of unneeded baggage.

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SBNORMAL 3/10/2012 7:23AM

  I am trying to unearth my soul.

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KIPPER15 3/10/2012 6:51AM

    Great blog and super quotes. I am inspired to clean up and shape up some other areas of my life. emoticon

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RINA2002 3/10/2012 5:08AM

  That's the great thing about clutter - once you start tackling it in one area of your life, you find other places where it needs to be cleaned up as well.

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KATEM200 3/10/2012 12:21AM

  Interesting thoughts. I've been trying to clean up my life lately too.

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CM_GARDNER78 3/9/2012 10:23PM

    emoticon This is fabulous,,,and timely! Thank you for sharing!!!

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BROOKLYNROSE 3/9/2012 10:05PM

    great blog. Thanks so much!

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KEEPITSIMPLE_ 3/9/2012 8:39PM

    Great blog! You are exactly right on so many things and one thing I've finally gotten comfortable with in My OWN journey, is regarding the pressure from others regarding exercise, mainly on this site. I'm doing what is right for me, in my "balanced healthy lifestyle". I've been maintaining for 2 years now on this schedule, but I used to feel so inadequate that I don't, nor do I want to exercise 1-2 hours a day. Or run miles, or run at all. I love my exercise, on my time, for however long I see fit. But it seems like the pressure is on to do hours of exercise. I've joined and left many teams because of this pressure. I am happy with who I am, who I have become, how my body has changed, how healthy I feel spiritually, physically, and mentally, and most importantly, I am happy and content with my quiet, peaceful, and simple life. I wouldn't trade it for the world! And everyday, as I see others around me scurrying around to pack in all they can each day just to come in on Monday and compare how much each has accomplished, I appreciate my life even more. Thank for your blog. I truly do pray for simplicity for others in their lives! Thanks for the wonderful blog.

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KATHIERAE 3/9/2012 8:06PM

    Wow. I so need to spend some time "spring cleaning" and "pruning" in my life... I hate how life spins along and I don't take time for introspection anymore! Thanks for the awesome fantastic reminder!

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My Binge On the Page

Sunday, March 04, 2012

I am in the middle of a binge right now. Instead of continuing to eat, I am going to journal my thoughts publicly, unedited, in the hopes that it may make this uncontrollable feeling of wanting to shove everything in my mouth and take it away.

That it may help some of you who read it and may be in the same place yourself.

This is not a pity party. This is my binge, in haphazardly constructed sentences that may or may not come together.

I already feel sick from the handfuls of trail mix, pecans, roasted plantain chips and sushi I've shoved in my mouth. Each on their own? Not unhealthy. Eaten at the rate of taking a couple of shots of vodka? A recipe for disaster. For guilt. For remorse. And for a tummy ache.

I think it started earlier today while in church. See I have a week-long series of very important meetings at work that I need to pull together somehow although half of the attendees haven't given me the necessarily presentations and paperwork to do just that. I wasn't going to go to church, I was going to work through it. But I felt that tugging to go. I wanted to go. And my husband has been going with me and that is so special to me. So I went, fully knowing that I had a busy day ahead, but that I could get my work done later, after the day-long baby shower that would follow church. At church I usually avoid the baked goods, but today I took a small homemade blueberry scone and nibbled at it, knowing I wasn't hungry, but it helped ease my anxiousness.

Then at the baby shower I was next to a group of very loud women who were very opinionated about everything, including my kids, who were hiding under tables, running around, being, well, typical 2 and 5 yr. olds. I was embarrassed, I kept running after them, but it was difficult. I usually wouldn't even eat a piece of cake. Well, not only did I eat mine, but I ate my 2 yr. olds too, and every time I passed by the sweets table I grabbed something. I also frequented the champagne punch too many times. I ended up leaving early with the girls.

Once home they are screaming, running amok, I'm trying to make dinner and they are just DONE listening to me (Note to self - never bring them to a 5 hr. long baby shower ever again in this life). My husband was at a meeting and so I was on my own. This is when I grabbed handfuls of WHATEVER just to help me...what? Feel better? Feel sick? Was that going to help things? No.

Would it make me forget that I feel insufficient at times, like a bad parent at times, like a not good enough wife, like I'm still that larger person who weighed 300 lbs., that I'm fearful of my job, of my future, of my life, of the impact I will make? No.

So here I am, and after my husband has returned home with McDonalds, a rarity in our household, but he had gotten my franctic text about dinner possibly not being ready when he got home, and after I downed half the filet o fish and some fries and chicken nuggets, I read the following Spark article about how to stop a binge, and it made me remember my own tools that I used at the beginning of this journey. I haven't had a binge in a very long time, so I had almost forgotten. There was once a time when I had to use these tools every single day to get by. But along the way it became easy for me, and I felt those emotions and didn't eat through them. But today, today the old lie of food being my friend got me. Old familiar habits do die hard.

I remembered what helped me most was journaling about my feelings, prayer and reading the bible. Also water. Lots of water.

So that is what I am going to do. And I realize that I should be more in the Word than I am. I need to seek Him every day or else, like today, I will be chasing after Him and I may have lost that relationship I once had with Him. Will I ever be perfect? No, far from it. That isn't even a goal of mine. But the next time this binge monster rears its head, the next time I feel an emotion I'm uncomfortable with, like telling the loud-mouthed ladies at my table to kindly shut their mouths, I want to face it head on, and not quiet myself with too much food, which also muddles my heart and spirit.

And tomorrow is not only a new day, but this moment is new. Right NOW.

Below is a link to the article for those it may help.

Thanks for listening.


EDIT: After posting this my Spark friend Leona left a supportive comment and when I went to her Spark page to thank her I saw this poem called "Don't Quit". I just had to share it.


When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down,

And you feel like the biggest failure in town.

When you want to give up just because you gave in,

and forget all about being healthy and thin.

So What! You went over your points a bit,

It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!

It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.

It's learning the skills to get back in your range.

It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.

You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."

It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.

You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.

To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,

if you summon the will to get back in the race.

But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip,

Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.

And learn too late when the damage is done,

that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.

Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,

but facing each challenge will help you grow.

Success is failure turned inside out,

the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.

When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit,

If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit!

- Author Unknown

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BECCABOO127 3/20/2012 5:30PM

    Yes, I was in the same boat the other day. I knew I shouldn't have brought in my favorite Asian cracker mix, but I did. The first few days, I only ate the alloted amount. The third day, I finished the bag! I don't binge as much as I used to either. The funny thing is that I call it my binge monster too.

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N_STITCHES 3/20/2012 11:49AM

  Thank you. I needed this blog this week......Patti

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    I'm so sorry sweeting. You are so amazing!

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MSPOOH404 3/8/2012 9:40AM

    Wow...Thank you. Upset, anxiety, anger, guilt...been there. I had a bit of a mini-binge on Sunday, but I was able to cut it off before it got the best of me. This emotional eating is a monster!

I realized this time around that I would not be able to succeed in my weight loss journey if I kept treating it as if it were separate from my spiritual life. I mean, it is through Christ that I can do ALL things...and this is no exception.

Thank you so much for sharing your struggle. I think you wrote what most of us feel. And I'm going to have to borrow that poem...it also speaks VOLUMES about this journey!


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ANDREA963 3/6/2012 4:33PM

    You look great! I've been in and out the past 9 months and lost a little footing, but I'm back. Boy I have to tell you, you look great! I can see all the progress you have made since the Hot Chocolate in 2010! Way to stop the binge. You're a great writer.

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AMARILYNH 3/6/2012 4:16PM

    Awesome blog!! Definitely sharing this one with my BLC team!!

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UNICORN212 3/5/2012 11:05PM

    I had to borrow the poem...

And personally, I think a 5 hour baby shower would drive anyone to outright insanity!

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OLANDAVE777 3/5/2012 10:06PM

    I have felt like this so, so many times. Thanks for the amazing blog! I love the poem!!

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LINDAKAY228 3/5/2012 3:51PM

    I can definitely relate to what a binge feels like. THe other day I did the same thing. Only I didn't stop it like you did to journal. Those insecure feelings rise up inside of me, or pain when dealing with a family situation, and my response is to eat. I haven't gotten it fully under control yet but a lot of thoughts go through my head recently about this topic, though not always in the middle of a binge. I need to write some of those thoughts down. I know I had a good one yesterday and intended to remember it but I was busy at the time and didn't and now for the life of me I can't remember what I thought was such a great thought yesterday. I also need to journal more about those feelings.

Wow, a 5 hour baby shower! Definitely longer than I could have handled with or without kids LOL. Definitely not with a 2 year old and a 5 year old. You did awesome that you managed to make it through that much time at an event like that without choking them LOL. Not that I'm saying they are bad kids because they aren't. But that's a long time for kids that age to sit still and be what those other ladies thought should be good kids. They were just being natural and trying to work off their boredom and energy. Having had 5 kids and 10 grandkids I know well what they can be like just because they are normal kids.

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KITHKINCAID 3/5/2012 2:48PM

    Good job girl. Hey - at least you got it all out and wrote it all down. And remember - you can ALWAYS text me too in the heat of the moment! I'm here for you!

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PRETTYPITHY 3/5/2012 1:15PM

    Thank you. 99% of my binges begin with anxiety and it looks and sounds and feels a whole lot like this. Thank you for reminding me how to pull myself out and that I am not alone (neither are you!). emoticon

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BLOSSOM2344 3/5/2012 12:56PM

    Bingeing is so personal, such an intimate experience and I don't think we talk about it nearly enough. The specifics of your situation are different from mine, but the feelings -illness, shame, anxiety, lack of control - that's universal to all of us who've been there. Thank you so much for talking about it!

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MANLEYSANDY 3/5/2012 12:54PM

    Kathy, you are in my prayers!! emoticon

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STARLIGHT615 3/5/2012 12:44PM

    I have definietly been having days like that recently too!! and I just have to keep telling myself.. You can still get back in the race! You dont have to go back to the bad self u once were.. just because u have a bad day or few bad days.. Today is a new bright day!! Just keep pushing forward. This Blog hit home big time!! thanks sweetie, it helps me a bunch !! XOX I love the poem by the way.

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OFFDREA 3/5/2012 12:35PM

    It takes a lot of courage to share this with everyone, even in this environment. Im proud of you for recognizing what you are doing and making a concious effort to arm yourself for the future. Thats all we can do. These are years of habit we are working on breaking, it does not come easy.

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KISHYMARIE 3/5/2012 11:59AM

    This was a wonderful blog, and at a perfect time, too. I did this yesterday too... it was my son's birthday party, and I had cake; which I had planned on. What I did not plan on was the impromptu after-party with friends which included grilling steaks, wine and the giant bowl of ice cream before bed. Sometimes it's so hard to stop once you feel like you've already crossed that line. I don't know why. But your honesty is encouragement for all of us who have that one day of falling into a bowl of ice cream... :) It's ok. We're human. Today is a brand new day and I'm already back on track.

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LIVIN2LOVE1 3/5/2012 11:02AM

    I also struggled with binge eating yesterday. It's heartbreaking when you find yourself in the middle of it all. Thanks for sharing the poem. I love it.

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AMBER281 3/5/2012 10:57AM

    Thanks for sharing!!! Another reminder that its a life long process.
I think you are doing wonderful!

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POSITIVE-FORCE 3/5/2012 10:36AM

    Thanks for sharing this Kathy! You are a wonderful person and I'm glad you got out it out. Just remember it happens to everyone and you already have moved forward!

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SDM0618 3/5/2012 10:31AM

    thank you so much for sharing this with us! I could feel myself though your words and needed to know I'm not alone in this and for the reminder that no matter how bad things get I should stay strong and never EVER quit! emoticon

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KROLES55 3/5/2012 9:20AM

    Thanks for sharing emoticon

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YOUGOGIRL45 3/5/2012 9:10AM

    I've got Goosebumps because that hit so close to home. Thank you for sharing - it made a difference to me. emoticon

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JENJESS48 3/5/2012 9:08AM

    Oh honey, we all have those days that push us to the brink. And yeah, sometimes we binge. Goodness knows I've done it. But you stopped in the middle, which requires a TON of self-awareness and self-control. And for that you win!

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ZURDTA- 3/5/2012 7:39AM


So sorry that your work is stressful and those people were being judgemental. I guess life is like that at times. You just rejoice in the fact that your children are bundles of energy and life - 5 hours of baby shower! They were being creative and funloving - just how children should be - did they expect those darlings to just sit there and DO nothing?

I'm glad you pulled back from the binge. It's hard not to let other people influence your emotions - but it happens. You found inner strength and shared it with us.

Thank you.

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    Thank you for sharing. I wish I would have read this last night when I was binging. Thanks again.

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KARVY09 3/5/2012 5:26AM

    Big hugs. New day today.

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WOLFKITTY 3/5/2012 12:38AM


Thanks for sharing the article link. I've been dealing with that lately, and it was a great read. I haven't seen it in years (if ever).

Take care, my friend!

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NED333 3/4/2012 11:48PM

    Thank you for being brave. Your honesty reminds me that I'm not alone...
Keep on!!

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    emoticonLose Your Quit - I know you can do it!

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SASYBLONDE 3/4/2012 9:12PM

    that is an amazing poem! I do think I'm gonna have to steal that and make copies for my fridge and pantry! The past 2 weeks have been a slow binge for me, so I know the guilty feelings all to well! Just hang in there and keep at it! The poem is all too true! Thank you for sharing!!

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UNICORN212 3/4/2012 8:26PM

    Hang on and don't let go!
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THEADMIRAL 3/4/2012 8:00PM

    Atta Girl! I'm so proud of you! What was then, is not now. Keep taking those baby steps. You're doing GREAT. emoticon

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LOOZINITNOW 3/4/2012 7:43PM

    Proud of you for taking control back and not sliding into a bad place. Journaling is a wonderful outlet. HUGS! emoticon

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NICETOCYOU 3/4/2012 7:43PM

    That's a great article! Thanks for sharing. Now step back and refocus on the new moment :o) You're amazing!

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TRAVELGRRL 3/4/2012 7:40PM

    I feel your pain and I identify with your emotions.

I can't say anything to make you feel better, so I'll say that I think you are VERY brave for writing this blog because there isn't a SINGLE PERSON ON SPARK who hasn't felt your feelings or reacted to them in the very same way.

I have these issues and are off now to read the link you posted. Thank you for being you, and for facing up to your binge and exposing it to the light of day.

The great thing about life is we always have another chance to get it right. emoticon emoticon

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MOMFAN 3/4/2012 7:26PM

    Hugs! So proud of you. I can't imagine my kids being good through a baby shower that long.

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I Heart February! Progress report

Thursday, March 01, 2012


Start weight: 200.5
Goal weight: 194.5
End weight: 193.5
Weight lost: 7 lbs! Exceeded my goal.
Total weight lost this year: 9.5 lbs.
Goal weight progress: 15.5 more lbs. to go to reach goal weight!
Total weight lost: 104.5


I reached 1,866 fitness minutes in February. My goal was 1,000!! Almost doubled that.

Miles walked/run in February: 46.85

I wanted to complete boot camp. I didn’t do that, but I did start a 21 day walking challenge with Leslie Sansone and I’ve walked, or done the equivalent of walking, every day so far. I am on Day 13 of the challenge.

I worked out during the Superbowl – I did the Spark Superbowl Workout with my husband and it was hard, but fun!

I had a healthy weekend away at the cottage and got workouts in plus healthy eating.

I’ve given up dairy products in my diet to help with a skin condition I have. So far it’s been over 20 days!

I took a chair dancing class!


I had to return a size 14 running skirt for a size 10/12.

I got my husband to workout with me – he’s doing the Leslie challenge too and he’s lost almost 20 lbs. since the new year!

I signed up to become a certified WalkLeader through Leslie Sansone’s program. I’ve wanted to do this for the past 3 yrs. Now I feel I actually CAN.

I bought myself a sexy outfit and danced for my husband - have never ever done that in our married life. Needless to say, I’m signed up for the next class. A G-rated picture is below for my Sunny Gals, lol.

A friend I haven’t seen in the past year and a half asked where the rest of me was.
I got my sister to go to boxing class with me! (And chair dancing)

I got a shout-out from Leslie Sansone saying that I “infuse hope” in people.

I was tempted to buy diet pills but instead bought myself a sundress.

I like the changes I am seeing in the mirror.

I am 1 point away from being simply “overweight” vs. obese in BMI

I love that I can, and want to, wear dresses now.

I am getting stronger.


That being accountable helps me. I always track every bite that goes in my mouth, but in the Done Girl seasonal challenge we had to take pictures of our food for 4 days and just knowing that other people were going to SEE what I eat motivated me to eat as healthy as possible.

Doing my monthly progress reports helps me in the same way.

Having a goal helps me. I’m on the 21 day challenge with Leslie and I don’t want a day to go by where I don’t get my mileage in.

Here is my February calendar, yellow highlighting = GOOD. I use the Spark calendar which is separated into 4 quadrants. My goals are: 1. Water - 10 glasses, 2. Workout, 3. Calorie intake and differential and 4. Freggies.



Weight goal: To lose 5.5 lbs. this month. I’m aiming for 7, hey if I could do it in February I can do it in March, right? Even with leap year, March has 2 more days in it!


To train for the upcoming Shamrock Shuffle 8k. I currently run a 5k distance, but haven’t pushed it past that. I have less than a month left.

I also want to incorporate yoga back into my routine.

I want to be able to do a reverse plank – currently I can’t lift my butt off the ground.


1400 - 1750 calories
10 glasses of water per day.
Only 2 cups of coffee in the morning, tea in the afternoon.
NO dairy – going cold turkey - DONE!
Get all of my freggies in.
Popcorn – break out the air popper and make it truly healthy. Then I can have 2 bowls.
Wine – only 1 – 2 glasses on special occasions. No more casual drinking.
Track all of my food into the fitness tracker and check my stats nightly to see where I need to tweak anything.

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PEARL-LADY 3/9/2012 12:29PM

    You have done so well..inspiring those close to you as well as here on SP! I will have to look into the walking dvd's too, the little taster sessions I have seen on the net look good.

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YOUGOGIRL45 3/4/2012 6:09AM

    I hope you are Massively proud of yourself - You should be! emoticon

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ODDIPA78 3/2/2012 1:03PM

    That's a LOT of awesome for only one month--you are such an inspiration and you look fantastic! I've been trying to eliminate dairy, too, and had underestimated how tough that is. Congrats on all your hard work!!!

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LIVIN2LOVE1 3/2/2012 11:03AM

    Great Job!

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    II am so proud of you!!!!!! YOu inspireme! And you are so beautiful!

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REENSKI 3/2/2012 9:56AM

    Fabulous! Your hard work shows~ and oooo -la-la LOVE your pic!

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JENJESS48 3/2/2012 9:23AM

    You rock, lady!

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LINDAKAY228 3/2/2012 9:17AM

    Congratulations on your great weight loss and other successes! You're doing awesome. You look so beautiful in that picture!

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NUOVAELLE 3/2/2012 1:49AM

    I totally agree with Leslie Sansone! You are such an inspiration!
Thank you so much and good luck with all your goals!

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MERULE 3/2/2012 12:30AM

  I just love those hunormous goals you achieved, but love the energy even more!! I am so inspired! You're simply the emoticon

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AMBER281 3/1/2012 10:57PM

    You are AMAZING!!
You are so INSPIRING!!

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WHITNEY0814 3/1/2012 9:53PM

    KATHY! OMG! you are an expert lol I think I'm going to copy this type of format and keep track on here as well lol I wanted to take a body shot picture every month so I might add that to the blog.
What kind of things do you have on the calendar?! I would LOVE to do something like that!!!

Anyway... congrats with all your progress!! You are amazing!!! Down 104 pounds?! That is FANTASTIC!!!
Such an inspiration......... emoticon

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SGTSUNNY 3/1/2012 8:18PM

    Great job! You rock. March will be just as wonderful because you are!

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GETFIT2LIVE 3/1/2012 7:08PM

    Awesome job for February, and great goals for March--WOO HOO!

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WINNIE1978 3/1/2012 7:01PM


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    You are doing amazing and you are looking awesome!

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LOOZINITNOW 3/1/2012 4:46PM

    There are so many things to love about this blog! You rock and I am so proud of you! emoticon

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THEADMIRAL 3/1/2012 4:02PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon You're doing wonderful things for yourself and your family!

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DMR023 3/1/2012 3:20PM

    emoticon great progress for February- congratulations to you on your monthly and overall weight loss (over a hundred pounds takes some serious dedication and hard work!!!) Going from 'obese' to 'overweight' is a great feeling - even though it doesn't mean anything specific in terms of your appearance, I know you'll feel great when you get there to be in a healthier category. Best of luck to you on your goals for March, I know you can do it!

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    you are doing awesome!

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KITHKINCAID 3/1/2012 2:54PM

    Wow. It's not a wonder we haven't talked a lot this month - you've been too busy losing weight! Holy cow. I'm so PROUD of you. 7 pounds? AMAZING!!!

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BUTTERFLY_AL 3/1/2012 2:38PM

    Woah! You did awesome last month!! Congratulations! Good luck with March!

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KKINNEA 3/1/2012 2:23PM

    Fabulous for both months!

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MOM23ES 3/1/2012 2:14PM

    emoticon Congrats on a great February!

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A Sundress or a Magic Pill?

Thursday, February 23, 2012

I was tempted this morning. My good friends own a very successful business that is two-fold. One of them is a fitness trainer and teaches amazing classes, and the other sells herbal supplements to promote weight loss. They are all natural, and are based on bee pollen, which I've read is useful for eliminating toxins and the formula used in this particular product contains an appetite suppressant as well. One girl recently lost 16 lbs. in 2 WEEKS.

Well, as I'm about 15 lbs. away from my ultimate goal weight, a weight loss of 120 lbs., this tempted me - the idea that in 2 weeks I could be at goal weight. That I could be ensured I would reach goal weight by my sister's wedding in May. It has been tempting me for the past year. But I am a person who rarely even takes aspirin and I strive to eat clean. I don't really believe in diet pills, and as natural as these are, that's what they are. Diet pills. I don't want my appetite to go away so that I can't enjoy the food that was put on this earth. I enjoy the healthy choices I am making, and also like to splurge every now and then on the good stuff. I don't want to feel jittery, or thirsty, or be going to the bathroom all the time. I want to be an example to my friends and family (and daughters) that this can be done, and done the old fashioned way.

See, I don't believe in a magic pill to loose weight. But still, I was tempted. They are having a sale for $39 instead of $50 for a month's supply. One pill a day is all it takes. I'm not knocking those that take diet pills. I think that if done in a healthy way supplements can be good. Heck, I may look into bee pollen supplements (minus the appetite suppressant) just for the health benefits and toxin removal. But it's just not for me. I've lost over 100 lbs. on my own, and I want to finish it on my own. I think the diet pill mentality goes back to my days of being anorexic and bulimic, and I'm not that person anymore. I know better than anyone that the magic just doesn't exist. It takes hard work.

Well the other day I saw a cute, strappy sundress on sale online at 70% off. As a Goodwill shopper and a busy working mom with a single income family to provide for, I don't usually buy myself new clothes.

But I was tempted to buy into this idea of taking a pill a day, $39 for a month's supply. And the dress was only $34. So I made myself a deal -- no more buying into magic pills, like Jack and his beanstalk, and I could splurge on this dress for summer.

So, I am going to have a cute new sundress this summer (that fits me now, too, it's not going to be too small for me, but I know even at goal weight it will still look fabulous) and I know that through my faith and strength in God, I'll lose these last pounds on my own, too.

I'm feelin kind of good about it.

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SARS613 3/30/2012 4:52PM

    Cute dress! And it is always a help to think about what other things cost the same, whether it's money or calories. Go with what feels better in the long run!

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GOGOMAMA 3/3/2012 10:27AM

    Great choice!! I love the dress!! Looking forward to your pics!

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SHELLEY81 3/1/2012 12:50PM

    What a great decision! That dress is adorable!

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ROOFANGEL 2/29/2012 10:19PM

    Go you! .... That dress will mean more to you than those pills. It will also stand for this time in your life. You made a choice and you keep making it... Keep up the good work! You'll be at your goal weight before you know it!!! emoticon emoticon

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BEENHEREB4 2/29/2012 7:09PM

    Good choice! You deserve a reward.

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LINDABENEDICT 2/29/2012 6:41PM

    Great !

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JO74555 2/29/2012 10:45AM

    i feel your temptation and so happy you chose to opt out! emoticon

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GORGEOUS72305 2/28/2012 8:42PM

    Great choice!

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BANDMOM2012 2/28/2012 1:09PM

    Love it - we all know that magic pills are not the answer. Good for you!

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KMKANDROSKY 2/27/2012 8:15PM

  Awesome blog and congratulations on your journey. You are an inspiration!

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LINLJENN 2/27/2012 8:12PM

  Congrats! I think you made the right choice!

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TIFFY0906 2/27/2012 7:23PM

    I'm with you it is tempting I only have 9lbs left and it would be so good to be in "maintenance mode". But you made the right choice and the dress is a better investment.

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LOSENOW77 2/27/2012 6:43PM

    You go healthy! Good choice! emoticon

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AUNTYEVIL 2/27/2012 6:30PM

    Way to go!

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STEF52209 2/27/2012 4:00PM

    Great blog and fantastic decision. It is definitely a struggle. I know I'm always looking for the easier, softer way and I just have to remind myself what the easier softer way is going to be in the long run. Enjoy your dress emoticon

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ELPTCLWIZARD 2/27/2012 2:19PM

    I agree with your decision mainly because you already know how to lose the weight. I have chosen to do it the same way because I feel like I did this to my body now its my responsibity to undo it to my body. You go girl. Just stick with what you know works! emoticon

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WOLFKITTY 2/27/2012 1:11PM

    Wonderful! :D

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    "Magic" pills are usually diuretics: a good way for your doctor to supervise your losing fluid for medical reasons - not a very good method to utiilize on your own. Retail therapy way beats self-medication. You go girl!

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ABRANDNEWKATE 2/27/2012 8:29AM

    Awesome post!! I struggled recently with a "magic pill". My sister and I both tried something and we DID lose weight. But after all the time I've spent working hard and celebrating even a tenth of a pound loss, even when I saw a two pound drop in weight, I couldn't be excited about it. It really wasn't worth it. And as with most things like this, the second you stop taking them, it all comes back even if you're still eating and living healthily. There's only one good way to win in this journey and it's to want it bad enough to work for it and to make it a way of life. So glad you made the right choice.

And super cute sundress! You will ROCK it at your goal weight!!!

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223DAISY 2/26/2012 2:07PM

    emoticon You made the right choice, plus it's a cute dress

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NASFKAB 2/26/2012 4:40AM

  correct choice

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SMALLERMELORIE 2/25/2012 10:58AM

    The best decision. If there was a "Magic Pill" we would all be thin by now....right? Good choice.

Thanks for stopping by my food blog.

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GOING-STRONG 2/25/2012 12:55AM

    I'm with you.. wish there was a magic pill... but we both know it is just another way to get your money extracted from you. Spark on!

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JIBBIE49 2/24/2012 10:22PM

    What an honor to see your blog featured in the Spark Mail. emoticon

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EMMAFLY 2/24/2012 9:55PM

    That dress looks awesome and I bet you'll look fabulous in it!

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MARYJOVINCENT 2/24/2012 9:36PM

    You made the right choice and it is the choice you would want your daughters to make. Enjoy wearing the dress and know that you will get to your goal weight the right way.

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LYNCHD05 2/24/2012 8:48PM

    smart decision. In one month the pills would be gone but now you will still have the dress and you most likely will be down a few more pounds. This was a no brainer!

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TERRIJ7 2/24/2012 6:19PM

    Wise decision! The dress will look great and you're going to feel wonderful in it!

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FREESPIRITME 2/24/2012 6:06PM

    Let's see ... KNOW you'll look great right away in that cute sundress, or ... HOPE you'll look better in a few months after taking supplements? A no-brainer. Great decision!

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AMBER281 2/24/2012 4:32PM

    Great thinking.
That dress is going to look great on you.

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DJ4HEALTH 2/24/2012 3:53PM

    Glad that you went for the dress and that will last longer than those pills and it will look good on you too. emoticon emoticon

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SPECIALGURL7 2/24/2012 2:55PM

    Great thinking. It is always tempting to do something different, but to be able to withstand the temptation is great. Cute dress too.

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LINDAKAY228 2/24/2012 1:37PM

    The dress is so cute and I know you will look fabulous in it! I get tempted too sometimes by things I see. The other day I walked by a display in a store for some kind of supplement that promises weight loss and I was tempted but said no to it. I also know the supplements won't work for me if I can't get past the factors in my head that make me turn to food when I'm stressed. I've got to work through that on my own. Some of the things work for some people and I'm not knocking all of them just like I don't knock people who have gastric bypass. It's not a choice for me for one thing I don't have that much left to lose. And it hasn't always worked for everyone. But for some people it's been a lifesaver and that's good for them. Same with supplements (at least some of them). It's a personal choice each of us has to make. But I'm with you!

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ACINNOREV 2/24/2012 12:18PM

  Your family and friends will see you in your new dress and be thrilled for you. Those last ten pounds won't even be noticed --they are yours to manage in good time . Congratulate yourself on making good choices and enjoy the wedding.

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IGSBETH 2/24/2012 12:05PM

    That sounds great!

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TAYGRL 2/24/2012 11:52AM

    and so you should--feel good about it.

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LOOZINITNOW 2/24/2012 11:27AM

    Great blog and adorable dress!!!!

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MIMI315 2/24/2012 11:10AM

    I think diet pills may be tempting for so many of us. Great choice on choosing the dress though. At least this way you know you'll have instant satisfaction for something you are going to look and feel great in.

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GAILRUU 2/24/2012 9:43AM

    I was tempted for a short time to try Alli, but then I read about the side effects and decided I didn't want to have to deal with "anal leaking!" Diet and exercise works better and doesn't cost an arm and a leg.

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JILLSMYTH 2/24/2012 9:38AM

  emoticon Great blog. I love your perseverance and faith in yourself and your willingness to eschew shortcuts in order to do it right!

And congrats on your weight loss!

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TEMPEST272002 2/24/2012 9:05AM

    How many times have I stood in front of the weight loss pills at the drug store and wished, wished, wished upon a star that they actually worked?! lol You are a smart cookie & your choice of sundress shows it. You are so close now to goal. You've pulled ahead of me again in our little foot race. You are going to look so amazing at your sister's wedding. How you have transformed your life really is inspirational. Can't wait to see you in the sundress. You'll have to take a picture when it arrives.

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MIMIDOT 2/24/2012 8:58AM

    Good for you!! The dress is cute and you can enjoy it all summer. You have earned it. Good choice.

Enjoy the dress, and wear it proudly.

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CICELY360 2/24/2012 8:58AM

  Congrats on your weight loss.

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LANNIEMANUEL 2/24/2012 7:51AM

    congrats one the weight loss and I love the dress.

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DJSHIP46 2/24/2012 7:44AM

    CELEBRATE SUCCESS!!! You earned it:)

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TEACHING1ST 2/24/2012 6:46AM

    This is great. You're a wonderful example of "I KNOW I can...I KNOW I can!"

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GRAMPIAN 2/24/2012 6:26AM

  Enjoy wearing the dress. emoticon

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NCSUE0514 2/24/2012 5:35AM

    You're right.
Even if there WERE a "magic pill" for weight loss, it would teach me nothing about how to eat healthier and improve my overall health. Spark People is doing that!

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