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FEF Food Blog Challenge - Blog 3

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Today I woke up at 4:45 a.m....correction, my DOG woke me up at 4:45 a.m....so I decided to take advantage of it and get some reading in with my morning coffee..



A smoothie with spinach mixed in:



Coffee at work:



Morning snack:


Baby carrots and hummus

LUNCH:


Chicken sandwich on deli flat w/ red pepper and melted mozarella cheese with cilantro


Grapes

Afternoon snack:

(Kudos I was running late couldn't take a picture. This was pure fun, I'm sure not a lot of nutritional value, but from the mini snickers, etc. itwas the best choice)



Snack on the train home (that was delayed by an hour,no a/c and I still only had 1 serving of this delish trail mix from TJ's -Temptations (this is the "Snack" size bag...and has 4 servings in it (a serving is 1/4 cup)



(and I found a recipe on Food.com to make your own)

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DINNER:



Salmon with brown rice, salad and a biscuit

  
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AMBER281 7/24/2011 4:23PM

    Looks yummy!!

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TEMPEST272002 7/21/2011 5:22PM

    The sandwich, especially, looks fabulous!

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TAZIAH 7/21/2011 11:26AM

    I'm curious about your spinach smoothie too! How did you make it?

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INSPIREBYNATURE 7/21/2011 10:26AM

    How was the spinach smoothie???? I'm curious!!

Looking GREAT! So proud of you!

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ROCKINMOM77 7/21/2011 10:20AM

    Looks great! Love the Pampered Chef Dots Mug emoticon

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LOOZINITNOW 7/21/2011 9:01AM

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MRSB929 7/21/2011 8:34AM

    Awesome! What a great day of eating! Don't you just love how much better food tastes now that you're eating healthy? emoticon

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POSITIVE-FORCE 7/21/2011 8:23AM

    Looks really good...I'm coming to eat at your house!

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MESEATURTLE 7/21/2011 2:09AM

    love your control on the portion sizes!!

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ROEANDGO 7/20/2011 11:58PM

    Great meals and snacks again!! You're rockin' this challenge!

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FEF Food Blog Challenge - Blog 2

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

First, this is for Blaize :)



BREAKFAST


V-8 Fusion Cranberry juice (4 oz)


Egg White, Spinach and Mushroom Omelet


Coffee w/ creamer
Coffee mug made by Stemme Fatale
stemmefatale.webs.com/

MORNING SNACK:


The same Fit & Active bar from yesterday, but w/out the wrapper...looks a little gross lol

LUNCH:


Lunch, same cream cheese, raisin and walnut wrap. Added grapes.

LUNCH PART DEUX:

I knew today would be a hard day, so I used the filling for my usual 1 wrap and divided it into two low carb high fiber tortillas - only adding 50 calories onto my lunch, but having a great afternoon snack that was filling. (one of my secrets). Plus light string cheese.



AFTERNOON SNACK:


Greek yogurt with fresh blueberries

RUNNING ENERGY:

Mini Cliff Bar - how cute is this? 100 cals. (I've decided wrapped looks tastier than unwrapped chocolate bars hehe)



DINNER:


Chicken, whole grain rice and broccoli

WATER:

And of course throughout the day I drink at least 4-5 of these



DESSERT:

I had another sundae



EVENING SNACK:

I was hungry after my run, so had a half serving of Fit & Active crackers with a wedge of WW cheese. (taken on my couch, was too tired to get up).

Plus wine (I only drank half of what you see here).





(Wine glass made by Stemme Fatale as well - my special "You'd Better Run B*tch" glass)
stemmefatale.webs.com/



(All nutritional totals are in my public nutritional page..This is roughly 1750 cals for the day)

  
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POSITIVE-FORCE 7/21/2011 8:25AM

    I love your balance on all your meals. You do such a good job!

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CYCLINGSANDY 7/21/2011 4:24AM

    I love your pictures and your motivation.

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KSGROTHE 7/21/2011 3:38AM

    Looks great! I like that you incorporate some sweet things in your meals/snacks. Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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ROEANDGO 7/20/2011 11:47PM

    Great meals and snacks Kathy!! I need to follow your lead!!

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TAZIAH 7/20/2011 9:19PM

    Kathy, everything looks totally delish!! You are on fire!! emoticon

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CHUBRUB3 7/20/2011 8:21PM

    Great blog and pictures.
Cute jammies and socks.
Hugs,
Angela
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LOOZINITNOW 7/20/2011 4:48PM

    I love your food pics! Love the mug and wine glass too! Very cute!

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AMBER281 7/20/2011 3:38PM

    Looks yummy!! I love your socks too!!

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FREES1 7/20/2011 2:52PM

    you're right about that bar!!!
and i like your socks too

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OFFDREA 7/20/2011 2:50PM

    looks yummy! I love those wine glasses!

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VICKYMARIEC 7/20/2011 1:53PM

    NICE! I think i see Christmas gifts for the girls!

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LOTUSFLOWER 7/20/2011 1:50PM

    The wine glass is from my sister's company Stemme Fatale, they do amazing glasses and have a store on Etsy...I love them!! THe link is below and I put clickable links in my blog, too. Also the coffee mug is from Stemme Fatale too. http://stemmefatale.webs.com/

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INSPIREBYNATURE 7/20/2011 1:46PM

    Hehehehe I love that I got a special picture!!!! :) I have a crazy sock fetish can you tell? HEHEHEHE. Ok and your food looks great! I could totally eat up that sundae! mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm and I love cliff bars! I need to get some protein bars I think! num num. Love the glass! heheheeh I use mine that you gave me for drinking wine too! tehehehe. You are doing great! So proud of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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VICKYMARIEC 7/20/2011 1:39PM

    Ooohhh...where did you get that wine glass?

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FEF Food Blog Challenge - Blog 1

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

The Bonus Challenge this week is to take pictures of all food 3 times this week. This is my first blog, and the others I plan on doing today and Friday, since Wed. and Thurs. I will be offline most of the day due to meetings.

BREAKFAST - Blackberry Smoothie & coffee





MORNING SNACK: A Fit & Active Protein bar.



LUNCH - My favorite wrap (discovered through the Spark meal plans) - whipped cream cheese, walnuts and raisins. It's perfect especially for those busy days. Plus a clementine.



AFTERNOON SNACKS:

(Not pictured as my battery on my cell phone died)

Unsalted sunflower seeds
Herbal tea
Red grapes
1 Hershey Dark Chocolate mini

DINNER - Healthy Veggie/Tofu Pad Thai



DESSERT - Sundae with Edy's Light Choc. Chip Cookie dough ice cream, walnuts and caramel. So decadent but still low cal.

  
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POSITIVE-FORCE 7/21/2011 8:24AM

    Looks really good!!

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ROEANDGO 7/20/2011 11:39PM

    Very yummy!! That smoothie looks Delish!!

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JENJESS48 7/20/2011 4:08PM

    on nom nom nom. want!

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MRSB929 7/20/2011 2:14PM

    I like this idea! I think I may try this! Good job on eating healthy and making it interesting! emoticon

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KSGROTHE 7/20/2011 4:55AM

    Looks emoticon

- Karen

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GINGERPAWZ 7/19/2011 9:14PM

    The smoothie looks very yummy.

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CHUBRUB3 7/19/2011 7:38PM

    Looks Delicious!
Now I want to eat....hmmm...dinner soon.
Hugs,
Angela
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LOOZINITNOW 7/19/2011 5:07PM

    Your pics look yummy and so sinful even though they are not sinful. That's the best part of eating healthy.

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SGTSUNNY 7/19/2011 3:08PM

    Very yummy! Good job getting started on the challenge. Is Healthy Veggie/Tofu Pad Thai a Sparks recipe?


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KT-NICHOLS-13 7/19/2011 2:15PM

    That Blackberry Smoothie looks sinfully delicious!

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KITHKINCAID 7/19/2011 1:33PM

    Your food blogs always make me drool!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 7/19/2011 11:50AM

    Amazing day! so proud of you! love your socks!

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ROCKINMOM77 7/19/2011 11:40AM

    YummO emoticon

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AMBER281 7/19/2011 10:49AM

    Looks very yummy!!!

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TAZIAH 7/19/2011 10:13AM

    Looks super yummy! I love that coffee mug!! emoticon

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LOVESLIFE48 7/19/2011 9:57AM

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You are Beautiful. YOU. And Me.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

We all know that famous celebrities, models, politicians...virutally everyone is being photoshopped nowadays. We have to look perfect. We have to look beautiful. Beauty is defined in our society by what other people think of us. And it's not right. Having two daughters, one who just turned 5, but when she was 4 in preschool feeling pressured ALREADY to wear makeup and that she wasn't pretty enough..well, this is a subject that is close to my heart, to say the least.

But.

I have a confession to make.

I photoshop myself.

Before you feel like I have misrepresented myself, hear me out.

It isn't every photo. It isn't any photo on Facebook, for my FB friends.

I don't make myself look thinner, or whiten my teeth.

It's just some photos that get close up and personal.

Because I suffer from psoriasis and have for over 20 years.

See, it's just parts of my skin that I "fix". I use a handy tool in Photoshop that is called the "healing brush". Isn't that a nice word? Healing.

This confession has been coming for a while now...earlier this week I was talking to my dear friend Blaize about my skin disease (yes, psoriasis is a disease but it isn't catching), and I felt the need to come clean about how I hide it in some of my photos since she could never tell.

For those Spark friends who have met me, you probably couldn't tell either.

I'm "lucky"...I have it in places that are easily hidden....and for the places on my face I use lots of coverup. However, lets just say that nude modeling is NOT in my future. My body is at times 80% covered with lesions.

But I'm coming out from the shadows...I feel sick about this and I at the time, earlier in the week, I felt this, too, and I didn't really know why. Blaize understood and knows about psoriasis and the self-esteem issues it causes, she has family members who suffer from it.

But still. I am a very honest person....and this was kind of my "dirty little secret".

Today I read my daughter Lucy the book "You are Special" by Max Lucado. In it there is a woodworker named Eli who represents God. The wooden puppets that he makes have a system where they put a star on those who are beautiful or talented, and a dot on those that aren't. Well one poor puppet named Punchinello got bombarded with dots because he was different. He was ugly. He had no talent. He meets a girl named Lucia who had no dots or stars. It turns out that because she didn't care what the others said, and only cared what God thought of her that their stars and dots didn't stick to her. It's one of my favorite stories to read the girls.

As I was reading that this nagging thought kept chipping away at my brain....about MY values and why I cared what the Spark community might think of my very real psoriasis dots.

Then I was directed to this website by a new Sparkie in the Chicago team and it touched something so deep inside of me....about beauty and how sometimes we don't find ourselves beautiful....how I don't find MYSELF beautiful.

stophatingyourbody.tumblr.com/

I realized that I don't love my body....in fact I hate my psoriasis and how it alters my body and makes others look at me strange. Over the years I've heard some terrible things from mostly strangers, not my friends or family. But still...it hurts. I've been asked if I was burned in a terrible fire, or if I had AIDS and just last week a guy in my running group asked if I was attacked by a dog.

It's these comments that made me look for a solution (other than the very real drugs, doctors, naturalists, hypnosis, etc. that I've had over the years). I could just use the "healing brush". It started maybe about a year back, when I started to lose enough weight that you could tell the difference. I would actually have a picture that I LIKED. Wow! It was a new feeling. And then I would see my psoriasis...ruining the entire photo...until I discovered the "healing brush", of course. That changed it all. I could look beautiful to me and to others!

Well, the thrill is gone. It hurts me to realize that I don't honestly think I AM beautiful. That I need to hide behind a facade. I am crying now writing this because I feel I have lied to you all...let you down....

What would my daughters think...that Momma's a fake? I'm telling them to love themselves as they are. Just as they are. But I'm not doing that.

I've removed all touched up photos from my Spark page. I apologize for any misrepresentation. From now on what you will see is me.

The real me.


Left, my original photo. Right, my touched up version.

I know that the difference here is subtle...you may not notice my face, the spot on my collar bone or by my breasts. But I do....and I felt a need to hide it.


Me today, no makeup. No touchup. (taken on cell phone)


Me today.





Other resources:

operationbeautiful.com/

Lyrics from the song "You Are Beautiful" by Mercy Me

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

  
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SKINNYMINTY 8/30/2011 8:47AM

    Thank you for the reminder :)

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JENJESS48 7/20/2011 4:41PM

    Oh honey, it's okay. I agree with Jenn: nobody's angry or disappointed that you touched up your photos. And we certainly don't feel like you've been lying to us.

My former roommate had psoriasis, mostly on her scalp. It was really painful because she had long hair that she always tried to keep done nicely, partly to cover up the psoriasis. It's no fun and no one can blame you for wanting it to go away.

Always remember: you ARE beautiful. No matter what.

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TABIKATZZ 7/19/2011 11:24AM

    Girlfriend, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! Inside and out. Your daughters are blessed to have such a stong, beautiful mother to guide them and teach them that beauty begins on the inside.

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STARLIGHT615 7/19/2011 9:02AM

    You are beautiful!! No matter what! You are who you are and people who cant see that are not worth your time!! XOXO

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CHICAT63 7/19/2011 9:01AM

    You are beautiful:) Our daughthers help us realize things, makes us grown as women that's for sure ! It is a disease and there is no need to hide, as for the comment from the guy in your running group DUH, unaware of skin conditions for sure.

As for your last photos, I see a radiant Mama, sexy & sassy who is wearing a hot pink or red tube top sundress - Woohoo, HOT MAMA.


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TEDDYBEARGIRL 7/19/2011 2:02AM

    God made you beautiful!!!!!!!

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ROEANDGO 7/19/2011 1:32AM

    You know....I take about 30 digital photos to get one "postable" shot to put on facebook or Spark People (my "dirty little secret")! And why? Same reason as you. I don't love the body I have. I love ME but not all of me. I love the wonderful, internal woman I am but not the external. You've inspired me to STOP and love the person I am...both inside and out! Thank you!!

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TEMPEST272002 7/18/2011 11:47PM

    I don't want you to feel bad for one moment for touching up your photos. We are not obliged to share everything about ourselves. At the same time, I'm glad you shared this with us. It was weighing on your mind. These things lose their power when they're brought into the light.

I don't want to trivialize the psoriasis and the way it's impacted your life. I understand that people can be cruel & those words hurt for a long time. But when I look at your untouched photos, I noticed the psoriasis AFTER I thought about how pretty your smile is & after I felt a pang of jealousy over your lovely shoulders. You are such a pretty woman!

As I'm typing, the image of your two girls, under the "Of course I can do anything" is smiling out at me. I'm glad that you've realized the connection between what you're telling your girls and what you are telling yourself. I needed to hear it today too.







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KITHKINCAID 7/18/2011 6:23PM

    You know - I knew you had it from the couple of times that we've met and hung out, but who cares? Doesn't make you any less of a beautiful person - inside AND out. It's a tough and terrible affliction to have, but none of us are disappointed at you for touching up pictures. Everyone deserves to have beautiful photos of themselves that they can be proud of - and you have so many. I say show 'em and let your beauty shine out!

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ROCKINMOM77 7/18/2011 12:00PM

    You are Beautiful Sparkfriend!! emoticon emoticon

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STRONGASTHUNDER 7/17/2011 10:06PM

    I am really glad that the blog I linked had such a positive effect on you! StopHatingYourBody was also the blog that really changed how I saw myself and my outlook on life. It's wonderful to see that you are able to love yourself and see that you are beautiful, without photoshop! emoticon

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CANNOTFATHOM 7/17/2011 4:46PM

    Kathy,

Since I am new to the group I haven't had the pleasure of getting to know you very well, but if I could share an observation..... You strike me as a lady with style. Stylist. I don't know why I think it, I just do. When I see your various profile pics I just think you "rock it". So kudos to you for decided to be "real" and I'm a firm believer if you see the beauty...kindness.........uniquenes
s in yourself, others will see it too :)


Penny

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DAISYDIVA74 7/17/2011 3:20PM

    Thank you so much for this blog! You are absolutely beautiful just the way you are. You are a amazing person and your daughters are so blessed to have such a strong mother. Love you so much.

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REENSKI 7/17/2011 3:05PM

    I love you just the way you are!
You are such a beautiful person inside and out. I see your beautiful smile, the beautiful aura that surrounds you.
It's difficult to love yourself, thank you for coming clean and posting such a beautiful blog.

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MADE-FOR-MORE 7/17/2011 2:02PM

    Beautiful!

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TAZIAH 7/17/2011 12:46PM

    Kathy, you are so beautiful - inside and out! Honestly, when I looked at your untouched pics, I didn't even notice the psoriasis.That amazingly beautiful smile you have was the first thing that I saw! Thank you so much for this incredible blog! I also have a really hard time accepting myself, and it is something that I am still working on.

I love that you're teaching your girls to love and accept themselves as they are! I do the same with my son - he has autism and ADHD, so forming relationship for him is so very difficult. Kids are incredibly cruel. But he was made in His image, and his disabilities have given him strengths that just blow my mind! He is beautiful the way he was made! I am beautiful the way I was made! You are beautiful the way you were made! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SKFEREBEE 7/17/2011 12:17PM

    You are being you, and you are just amazing! Very refreshing! emoticon

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FREES1 7/17/2011 12:01PM

    You are beautiful - through and through, inside and out.. we all have our imperfections, things we don't like about ourselves.. accept who you are and move on...
when peple make these comments its your opportunity to be a spokesperson, to open their eyes, enlighten them, educate them.. not always a lot of fun but an opportunity to show your daughters you are not fake (and you're not). touching up photos is nothing new and nothing that is going away...
you are one of the most honest folks I have encountered.. you do yourself proud!

and 5 year old girls do go through phases of wanting to be prettified..

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LOOZINITNOW 7/17/2011 9:14AM

    This blog brought tears to my eyes because you have such a beautiful true and honest soul. You are so beautiful inside and out. It does not matter what others may think. We all have some kind of imperfection. That's the way God made us and we are absolutely beautiful to him. Stay true to who you are and let the real you shine!

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HSMOM2FOUR 7/17/2011 7:58AM

    You ARE beautiful!
And, I thank you for your message -- because while I believe everyone else is beautiful (no matter their size/shape/skin/etc) I have a hard time thinking that of myself. Thank you! I'll work on it!


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SISTERDEAR 7/16/2011 11:18PM

    Thank you for sharing how that book by Max Lucado opened your eyes to how God sees you. I love that. And I'm sure that it will make a difference for others, too!
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LMLOPEZ 7/16/2011 11:18PM

    Kathy, I am so proud of you for using the healing brush-on your attitude toward hiding your condition! As a nurse I know how hard it can be when you have a chronic condition and as a mom of a boy with cerebral palsy, I know how strangers can be. Good for you for showing your true beauty-and know that when people ask it's the perfect opportunity to educate someone who is probably not trying to be mean but unaware of the way you feel.
Hugs and good wishes to you!!! :)


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INSPIREBYNATURE 7/16/2011 11:09PM

    Oh my beautiful hunny bunny!!!!!! I am SO very proud of you for being true to yourself, for honoring you trueness. You are such a strong woman. So amazing and just....fabulous. Ok now of course you know I"m going to say it, but it's the truth. The beauty that resinates within you, that which shines through and your amazing spirit...that is what we all see. I know why you feel the way that you do but I hope that you realize you shouldn't see yourself as anything other than absolutely breathtakingly BEAUTIFUL! That's how I see you! Gosh I love you!

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KKINNEA 7/16/2011 10:31PM

    You seem like you handle this disease very well and I'm sorry you felt bad about touching up your photos. I appreciate your words and your journey - you have a wonderful spirit that shines through!

You know that some of the most "beautiful" people are so ugly inside you can barely see the outer picture. Far better to be an excellent person even if you're not "perfect".

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PEPPERLEAH 7/16/2011 10:22PM

    Kathy, what a wonderful blog! Your honesty and vulnerability at revealing this are so touching. Let me tell you something. We ALL have our hidden problems, things that we would just rather not have other people know. But the truth is, that no matter what is on the outside, it is truly the inside that matters. You have a beautiful heart, and you freely reach out to others with the love of Jesus.

You ARE a beautiful woman. Don't let anyone or anything make you think differently. After all, God made you. And you are the apple of His eye! So how dare anyone think anything other than that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

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AMBER281 7/16/2011 10:19PM

    Kathy thanks so much for your honesty. There are a few people in my family that have psoriasis as well. I have been lucky so far *knock on wood*, so far I only get patches on my scalp and occasionaly in my eye brows. But my one cousin who is my age as them all over her body as well. She has gone through many of the same questions and looks that you have gotten, so please know that you are not alone.
As far as what the spark community might think most probably would not have noticed and if they did it would not change their opinion of you...it just part of who you are. We are more critical of ourselves then we are of others.
You ARE beautiful inside and out!!!
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DETERMINEDJANET 7/16/2011 10:02PM

    And you are just that...beautiful! I love that book by Max Lucado so I'm thankful God used it today with you so that you could feel His care and know that you are beautiful because you are His creation!

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RONOSOF 7/16/2011 9:40PM

    I have the same autoimmune disease. We are beautiful.

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WHITNEY0814 7/16/2011 9:37PM

    Please don't feel as if you have betrayed us... no one is mad or angry or disappointed in you. We understand that it could be hard, we all have something we don't like about ourselves. But you're beautiful... Touch up or not. I've always thought you were beautiful.
BTW you are so strong and brave to face your fears by putting up these pictures
I love you!!
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THEADMIRAL 7/16/2011 9:34PM

    All I see is that fabulous, beautiful smile of yours...and your amazing bravery, wisdom and commitment to be a good model for your children. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MISSROCKABILLY 7/16/2011 9:31PM

    You are so beautiful Kathy, just as you are. What a powerful blog you've posted here, thank you so much for sharing your feelings with us all so honestly. I'm proud of you!

I have eczema, and I definitely know what it is like to not like the way your skin looks in the mirror or photos. The thing is, you are beautiful, inside and out, and that shines through all the time!

Love you!
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SGTSUNNY 7/16/2011 8:34PM

    I know we all have things about the way we look that we wish we could change or touch up, but I have always looked for inner beauty and I found it in you! My hubby has psoriasis and my daughter is getting it as well. I think it is harder on women to deal with. Hugs, this was very brave of you! And as far as what the Sparks might think of your skin, I think it is something most will not even notice or care as they see a motivator with a great heart, strong communication and writing skills who is a strong leader and caring friend. I could go on forever listing your many wonderful traits and hope it will erase the thing you do not like about yourself!

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UNICORN212 7/16/2011 8:29PM

    We love you. And it does not matter - as the Bible says, you are wonderfully made.

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BLOSSOM2344 7/16/2011 7:49PM

    It's much more noticeable to you than to any of us. No one gets through this life without scars. And NO ONE is going to hold this against you!
Congratulations on taking the next step in your journey of self acceptance!
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HEATHERDIAN 7/16/2011 7:36PM

    You are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your honesty and courage.

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GOGOMAMA 7/16/2011 7:18PM

    I admire your honesty and genuineness!!! It makes you even more special to me!! My husband also suffers from this and so I understand how frustrating it can be! I love that you are teaching your daughters that beauty is more than skin deep! You are beautiful inside and out! Hugs!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 7/16/2011 7:04PM

    You ARE Beautiful. God made you. May God Bless you with emotional healing for your honest blog.
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FANCY-PANTS 7/16/2011 6:44PM

    I admire your bravery for coming clean. If we're all honest, I bet each one of has has hidden something...I know once in aw hile I omit something in my food tracker. IDK, it's hard to be brutally honest all of the time. But I love your spirit and you are beautiful. Hoping that one day you 100% believe it without a doubt. emoticon emoticon

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What I Did on my Summer Vacation...

Monday, July 11, 2011

Remember those essays you had to write in school after returning from summer break? Well, here's what I did on my Summer Vacation...

emoticonI woke up with the sun and did yoga

emoticonI took my vitamins

emoticonI tracked my food, writing it all down on paper (no Internet connection at the cottage)

emoticonI drank only 2 glasses of wine per day, if at all.

emoticonI walked 2 miiles with Leslie.

emoticonI ran 2 miles on a rural road, admiring the blueberry fields.

emoticonI walked countless miles with my dogs.

emoticonI swam across the lake and back.

emoticonI paddleboated across the lake and back.

emoticonI ate carrots with hummus vs. chips and dip.

emoticonI made a healthy pb&j before eating a processed snack.

emoticonI did yoga when the sun went down.

emoticonI got my Dad and hubby to walk a mile with Leslie (no small feat!)

emoticonI took my dog on a walk with my bathing suit on and felt fine.

emoticonI did strength training.

emoticonI held the twins when my sister needed a break and changed them, and rocked them, and sang to them.

emoticonI biked 6 miles to the local grocery store to get baby wipes vs. my hubby driving to Wal-Mart.

emoticonI played with my girls in the sand, running up the hill, dancing with them.

emoticonI also played countless games of Scrabble, devoured books, relaxed in the sun and enjoyed a nice glass of wine now and then.

emoticonI also fully enjoyed eating all the wrong things 20% (ok, sometimes 30%) of the time.

But I felt AMAZING.

SKINNY.

STRONG.

HEALTHY.

And when I got home and saw that I had gained 3 lbs. while on my vacation do you know what I did?

I LAUGHED.

Those 3 lbs. are such a joke that I am not going to let them defeat me or define me. I know that they, like my vacation, won't last long. They are HISTORY.

Because, and this is sortof funny (and sort of frustrating)....when I was figuring my 80/20 plan, I forgot one small thing...

My body doesn't DO well on 20% bad. My body craves goodness 100% of the time. And yes, that stinks....BUT I am not perfect and don't strive to be. I am just going to take those 3 lbs. and kindly tell them to get off at the next stop.

I had a great time, and wouldn't have changed a thing.

OK, maybe I would have turned down the pork rinds, but hey, a girl has to satisfy that oh-so-wrong craving once in a while, doesn't she?

I hope you all had wonderful holiday weekends as well!


A picture I snapped on the trail after realizing I was in my bathing suit on a semi-public road and didn't care (untouched).

  
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BRAVACHASER 7/14/2011 1:42PM

    That sounds like an awesome vacation! I'm glad you enjoyed yourself. Keep laughing at that scale...it's a real clown!

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KITHKINCAID 7/14/2011 12:00AM

    You know - I am SO lucky that I don't even like pork rinds. Awesome vacation though Kathy :) So proud of you. And only 3 pounds? PSHHHH! I gained more than that in one weekend away, so WELL DONE! That is totally awesome, and TOTALLY manageable. Since I'm so late posting to your blog, they're probably already gone.

Glad you're back! I missed you!

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TEMPEST272002 7/13/2011 10:18AM

    What a great vacation! I love all the healthy choices - and the perspective on the unhealthy ones aka pork rinds. Laughing at the scale counts, by itself, as a major victory.

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ROEANDGO 7/12/2011 5:34PM

    Whoooo Hoooooo!!! I love, Love, LOVE this!! I love that you laughed at that 3 pounds!!

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JOANOFSPARK 7/12/2011 11:00AM

    emoticonSounds like an awesome vacation to me.....and love your new pic of your walking your dog in your bathing suit....hey, I don't blame you.....you are looking great...:) emoticon Love your attitude.... and I definitely am going to have to adopt your 80/20% strategy when I go on vacation with my sister and her husband in September...to Vegas and Grand Canyon... emoticon

love your background and vision board as well......it is fantastic!!

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ASIAMORA 7/12/2011 10:39AM

    Awesome choices on your vacation!!!!

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UNICORN212 7/11/2011 11:01PM

    Uh huh! It was the pork rinds! I knew there was a reason for the 3 pounds! emoticon

You are looking so awesome! Congrats on the bathing suit! (I don't even think I still own one!)

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SGTSUNNY 7/11/2011 10:52PM

    Wow you had a great time! You were so active and relaxed. I hope my next vacation is just like yours!

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CARILOUIE 7/11/2011 5:54PM

    Your vacation sounds WONDERFUL!

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KSGROTHE 7/11/2011 5:46PM

    Great job on getting in all that physical activity on your vacation! emoticon
emoticon on not worrying about wearing your swimsuit in public and on laughing at that 3-lb weight gain! You've got a great attitude!

- Karen

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CHICAGOHEALTHY 7/11/2011 5:12PM

    What a GREAT vacation! Love your post vacation report. Being re-energized getting away, relaxing, being with family, all the activity you did is a much bigger gain for the health of your mind and body, than a measly 3 lbs is a loss. Sometimes the scale plays games with me and changes 3 lbs a day. You'll emoticon those lbs to the curb in no time. The time you had with family will be cherished for a lifetime!

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RUNTRILAUGH 7/11/2011 4:14PM

    All these make me smile!

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JENJESS48 7/11/2011 3:30PM

    HAWT new pic!!! Btw, you're totally my inspiration: Pat and I are going on vacation this week (Vegas, baby!) and I'm going to stick to 80/20 as well. And what happens in Vegas will stay in Vegas...hopefully not come home in the form of fat. But if it does, I will also embrace your attitude and laugh at it.

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RED_WRITINGHOOD 7/11/2011 3:09PM

    Looks like you had a wonderful time and got in a bunch of healthy living!

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SKFEREBEE 7/11/2011 3:07PM

    Sounds like a fun, healthy vacation to me! I'd like to see a comparison to what vacation time used to be like for you. I'm sure those 3 pounds are all sodium and muscle! Great pic, too!

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PRESBESS 7/11/2011 2:37PM

    You are "girlpower strong"! I'm glad you had a fantastic time on your vacation and that you strolled down the road in your bathing suit! Woo-Hoo! I agree with you... tell those three pounds to back off - they're messing with the wrong chick!

Get'em girl!
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TEDDYBEARGIRL 7/11/2011 2:25PM

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TAZIAH 7/11/2011 1:46PM

    You look emoticon and that attitude of yours is contagious! That sounds like a fantastic vacation, and I certainly wouldn't be regretting those 3 lbs either! You were active, you made memories to last a life time and you allowed yourself to relax and enjoy your vacation! emoticon emoticon

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SEATTLESIMS 7/11/2011 12:40PM

    GREAT vacation!! sounds simply wonderful!
hope the rest of your summer is just as wonderful!

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CHICAT63 7/11/2011 12:35PM

    Oh, wait ....What is that sound I hear....Roaring laughter as 3 pounds is being flushed down the toilet - MOUA !!!! It will be gone in no time. By the sounds of it you had a GREAT holiday, bring on the Sassy, Sexy Summer !!!!

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FREES1 7/11/2011 12:10PM

    sounds a fantastic time!!! and you did great!!! cool not to get upset over 3 pounds gained - our weights fluctuate so much naturally anyways 3 pounds is no big deal in the long run!!!
glad you had such a wonderful time!

welcome home!

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HEATHIELAUREN 7/11/2011 12:08PM

    So awesome!!! Glad you had a wonderful trip!

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TREASURINGLIFE 7/11/2011 12:05PM

    AWESOME!!!! :) You did great, girl!

- Michelle

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INSPIREBYNATURE 7/11/2011 12:02PM

    Oh my gosh you did so great! I am so proud of you!!!!!!! You are so damn beautiful!

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LOOZINITNOW 7/11/2011 11:57AM

    You look absolutely fabulous! Love the attitude! emoticon

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AMBER281 7/11/2011 11:50AM

    You look great!!! Glad to hear that you had a wonderful vacation and don't worry about those pesky 3 lbs they will be gone in no time!!!!

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GOGOMAMA 7/11/2011 11:46AM

    You look beautiful!!! What a lovely vacation and I love that you found a cool balance between working it hard and enjoying yourself!!

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STARPESCADO 7/11/2011 11:46AM

    You look so happy : )

Sounds like you had a great time!

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MARCH_ 7/11/2011 11:37AM

    You look fabulous! I can't imagine walking the dog in my bathing suit, you have found such freedom! That's the freedom I'm looking for!

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