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Inspirational Quote #2.

Monday, June 20, 2011

"If you focus on results, you will never change. If you focus on change, you will get results." ~ Jack Dixon
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My quote today is something that I need to remember, because I'm once again in that dreaded P word funk...the bulk of my weight loss has been full of pot holes I like to call plateaus. Especially since I hit 80 lbs. lost these have consumed my journey. They are so frustrating...and seem so unfair. I reached 80 lbs. down before the holidays, and gained a lot during the holidays, so now I've reached 90 lbs. down and I'm once again at a halt. It's actually quite maddening at times. So when I get depressed about it I turn to quotes to help keep my eyes on the prize.

If I keep focusing on the fact that I am not seeing results, that won't bring about change. If I change up things, try something new, try calorie cycling, trying to change on the inside (eat less on weekends for instance), then I will see results and I will have changed, so that once I reach goal I will maintain it easier because this is a lifestyle change and not a quick "fix".

Also all of you inspire me, too. Some of you say the nicest things to me and sometimes I write them down and look back on them. One of these recent quotes is from Holly, a fellow Chicago sparker that I got to meet briefly after the Shamrock Shuffle 8k. She said:

"...You are are so full of life! You are a beautiful strong woman and leave inspiration in your trail." - Hope (CHICAGOHEALTHY)

Now this really inspires me because it shows how much I've changed already. Two years ago I wasn't a person that reflected health, or life....I didn't inspire anyone. So for people to say such things when I'm feeling discouraged and like I can't win this fight...well it reminds me of why I am doing this and how far I've come.



I want to end with another quote that is very similar to me....I saw this on a card somewhere and had to scribble it down. I just love it.

Go down to the end of the path toward the horizon.
Keep going.
Sit down and have a rest every now and again.

But keep on going. Just keep on with it.
Keep on going as far as you can.
BECAUSE THAT'S HOW YOU GET THERE.

  
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TODAYIAM 6/21/2011 1:06AM

    Wonderful Blog!

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KSGROTHE 6/20/2011 11:10PM

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- Karen

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CELEBRATELIFE1 6/20/2011 6:32PM

    I love your blog and the quotes you have picked up. I am going to use it as my mantra.

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LOOZINITNOW 6/20/2011 5:47PM

    Love the quotes and what a great friend to have on your side. emoticon

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THEADMIRAL 6/20/2011 5:21PM

    Great blog and you're blessed to have such an encouraging Spark friend! Hang in there and you will get closer to your goal!

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RUNTRILAUGH 6/20/2011 4:16PM

    Love this!!! Thank you so much for sharing!

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JENJESS48 6/20/2011 3:04PM

    Love this and love you! CHICAGOHEALTHY is absolutely right - you are full of life and an inspiration!

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TEMPEST272002 6/20/2011 2:15PM

    What a fantastic quote! It really is true. You have to let the destination arrive when it arrives... it's the moments in between that count the most.

You are an inspiration to me & have been for a long time. It's your ability to persist & push through again and again... and your gorgeous, cheeky smile. Love your smile.

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MOMFAN 6/20/2011 1:41PM

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INSPIREBYNATURE 6/20/2011 12:14PM

    So true!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU!

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APMAC_D 6/20/2011 11:58AM

    Love this- great blog!

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AMBER281 6/20/2011 11:54AM

    That is a great quote!! Thanks so much for sharing!

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Inspirational Quote #1.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

My quote for the day is the chorus from the song "More Beautiful You" by Jonny Diaz and Kate York.

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you, more beautiful you

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late, you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear, they can all be washed away


I think that I've always had a hard time believing that I was "normal", let alone beautiful. In my past I've been called many things, but beautiful wasn't one of them. I was always overweight, since switching schools in the third grade and using food as a means of comfort, as a friend. When I entered High School I decided I didn't want to be fat anymore. So I starved myself and the food I did eat I threw up. I was sick. But you know what? I became popular. People liked me. People called me beautiful.

So my idea of beauty is pretty warped, and I am still discovering who I am, both on the inside and out. Losing over 90 lbs. is a little scary for me. I'm seeing myself again in the mirror, without the added comforting layers of fat...and I want to remain who I am, be true to myself.

This song reminds me that God has a purpose for my life, and that in God's eyes we are all beautiful.

The entire song is very powerful, but the chorus especially hits me hard.



  
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FREES1 6/20/2011 11:25AM

    you are beautiful - inside and out...
the past is behind you , let it be....
know that you have a whole community behind you to comfort your fears, to hold you up and to celebrate the person that you are!

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KSGROTHE 6/20/2011 3:18AM

    emoticon song quote and analysis! emoticon for sharing!

- Karen

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TODAYIAM 6/20/2011 1:22AM

    That made me tear up!! You are BEAUTIFUL Kathy!!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 6/19/2011 7:48PM

    Beautiful! We will always have a hard time seeing ourselves as beautiful, but you my dear, are stellar!

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TABIKATZZ 6/19/2011 7:10PM

    Great blog and great song!! p.s. you ARE beautiful!

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Recipe Swap Out - Peanut Butter Cups

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Our bonus challenge this week was to share a recipe swap out that we've done and one of mine that I love to do every month, during that time when I crave peanut butter and chocolate, is these Frozen Peanut Butter Cups (Spark recipe submitted by: JGAUSTIN)

They are amazing. The link to the recipe is at the bottom if you want to make them and add them to your tracker.

Ingredients:
1/3 c peanut butter
1 1/2 c fat free whipped topping
3 tbsp chocolate syrup

Directions:
Mix 1c whipped topping and peanut butter
Fold in additional whipped topping
Divide into 12 lined muffin cups
top with drop of chocolate syrup
freeze

Number of Servings: 10


recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detai
l.asp?recipe=45925

  
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CYCLINGSANDY 6/19/2011 7:39AM

    Amazing recipe swap! I really have to try thme out.
Thanks for thinking of those of us with the chocolate/peanut butter urges! emoticon

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LOOZINITNOW 6/18/2011 9:14PM

    Oh my goodness! I must try!!!!

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TEMPEST272002 6/18/2011 8:48PM

    I have made this & it IS so yummy! My husband loves it. Definetely a PMS favourite. Think I might make some now!

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TAZIAH 6/18/2011 7:16PM

    That really has me curious! I'll have to try it and see what my hubby thinks! emoticon

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INSPIREBYNATURE 6/18/2011 12:53PM

    ooooh yummy!!!!!!

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Stealing Time for ME (Challenge Blog)

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

MAIN CHALLENGE: For the main challenge this week, take some time for yourself! Do something special, just for you, that you've been thinking about but haven't followed through on. I know we all have so many responsibilities, but sometimes taking time for ourselves is the best way to ensure we can get through all of that without pulling our hair out!!

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Yesterday, after a long day at work (don’t you love Mondays?) I got picked up by my husband as my brakes were being worked on. Our two girls were in the car (where else would they be haha) and something happens in my household around 5 PM. Like werewolves after midnight, my girls go CRAZY. (For some reason my dogs do, too, and have even before we had kids.) They all go gaga for me. They freak out, act up, and do anything and everything in their power to get my 100%, COMPLETE ATTENTION. This may sound flattering, but it truly is not. It’s like having raw meat strapped to your body and being in a field of rapid dogs.

Joking aside, it really drains a person. And being in a hot car, in traffic that doesn’t seem to move, for 48 minutes (yes I counted) is just brutal. Two time outs on the side of the road later and one meltdown, and we are finally back home.

I had plans to go walking with my oldest daughter…plans to even bring the little one along and walk to the library, get them signed up for the summer reading program, get a workout in, get some girl bonding time.

But after that car ride I walked in the door, took a look around, and announced that I was NOT taking either of them in public – anywhere – and I sent them outside to play while I made dinner and my hubby worked on the car.

I had plans, great big Mommy plans…the walk, the library, coming home and doing nice baths, a story or two. No plans for ME, but plans for them. And yes, I do like spending time with them, but last night was a different story.

A quick dinner later, a few more time outs and refereeing fights, and I was DONE. Up to bed and a few stories later and that was it. I looked around. It was barely past 7 p.m. I had all of this…TIME. I thought about all of the story drafts sitting on my office desk….I decided I would go to the library after all…just by myself.

I grabbed my writing bag, kissed hubby goodbye (and sort of felt like I was escaping, but pushing that feeling aside)...I even stopped at Dunkin’ Donuts for my favorite French Vanilla coffee. Oh, this was going to be GOOD. The smell of the coffee in the car hit my senses and I was already daydreaming about the writing I would do. The writing I had missed for the past months….it is just so hard to make time for yourself when you work full time, am a Mom, a wife, the bill keeper, organizer, party and play date planner….where did I fit in with all of that? I’ve been great about making time for working out (usually before the girls are awake or after they are asleep). But where was my creativity going to bloom if I didn’t give it a place to grow?



I got to the library and first signed the kids up for the summer reading program, like a good Mommy, and THEN. THEN it was all about ME. I got a quiet cubicle away from the children’s library. I opened the lid of my coffee. And I WROTE. I wrote for about 45 minutes. It felt amazing.

And after I wrote I took a minute to read a chapter from one of my summer reading books, a guilty pleasure.

And I didn’t even bring my cell phone into the library. I left it in the car.
Things could wait. People could wait. Me? I’ve been waiting long enough. It was time for me.

I’ve decided that I’m going to write 5 days out of the week, and 8 or 9 p.m. seems to be a good time, after the girls are sleeping.

And I even got more miles in after I got home.

It was just amazing. I felt like my old self again, the self before I had kids….and I’m honoring the writer within me.



“Planning to write is not writing. Outlining, researching, talking to people about what you're doing, none of that is writing. Writing is writing.”
E. L. Doctorow

"Empowerment is what the emerging artist needs to win for herself. And the initial sense of urgency to create can easily be dissipated because it entails making the one choice many people, especially women, in our society with its emphasis on the 'acceptable' priorities, feel selfish about making: taking the time to create, stealing it from yourself if it's the only way."

-- "5:00 A.M.: Writing as Ritual" in The Latin Deli by Judith Ortiz Cofer, p. 168 (reprinted in Sleeping With One Eye Open)

  
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BRAVACHASER 6/15/2011 5:44PM

    My time to myself lately, has been watching the complete Ally McBeal DVD series while eating popcorn, or drinking tea. It's one of my things lately. After that I think I'll take up reading again.

Loved your blog! Congrats on finding time for your writing!

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AMBER281 6/15/2011 5:36PM

    Sounds like you had a wonderful evening!!
Glad you got some ME time to do something you love to do!!!

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FREES1 6/15/2011 12:34PM

    good for you!!!! sometimes 15 minutes behind a closed door can do wonders for many... for you write write write!!!

my mother had a friend who was a writer and she taught her kids that if she were in her writing room and the door closed not to disturb her unless the house was burning down, and in that case to slide a note under the door!!

depending on how old your kids are they should be able to learn that idea.. and you can adjust the time the door is closed by their ages and YOUR needs!

happy writing!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/15/2011 1:20AM

    Good for you!

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ROBYNROSE26 6/14/2011 8:12PM

    Way to Go Kathy!

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KSGROTHE 6/14/2011 7:18PM

    emoticon on making some time for yourself, for your writing! It sounds like you really needed it!

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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TEMPEST272002 6/14/2011 5:39PM

    Well done. The time writing in the library sounds wonderful. It's so hard to carve out time for yourself when every one is trying to get your attention. You were smart to leave the house entirely!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 6/14/2011 4:57PM

    Oh my darling partners, I just love reading your blogs!!! I am so incredibly proud of you for taking that time for you! You are an amazing mother but sometimes I think we really just need a moment to ourselves. I can tell you feel a MILLION times better!!! And that is amazing and I am so so so proud of you and happy for you! It makes me smile that you got so much joy out of your hour away!!!!!!!

Wait wait, did you log that coffee you had? hehe Ok you knew I just had to ask!!!!!

I think it's hard in all of our busy plans during the day to remember tha tsometimes we need a second for ourselves....thank you for this! Because you reminded ME that this is something I have to do also...before I go completely crazy!!!!!!!!

On that note, I've also decided to look into the library program here to see if they have a summer program like that! Woohooooo!

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CHICAT63 6/14/2011 4:44PM

    "Vouloir c'est pouvoir" - let me know if you need translation. You did great, actually I would have exactly the same thing. My girls are only 22 months apart so I hear ya:) Of course today they are 18 and 20 it's a different kind of dilemna *lol*.

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JENJESS48 6/14/2011 3:44PM

    Sounds lovely, Kathy! Congrats on making time for yourself. And remember: if Mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy! So you need to take care of yourself and your needs, too. It's not selfish. It's healthy.

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KITHKINCAID 6/14/2011 2:40PM

    This sounds heavenly. You make me want to hit up the library!

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KANSASROSE67 6/14/2011 2:02PM

    I am so proud of you! Great job!!! And you were not a bad mom, you were a good mom, by teaching your girls that there are consequences for behavior. I know from personal experience that I am much better to my family when I get a little time for ME.

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KKINNEA 6/14/2011 1:11PM

    Awesome, you made me feel calmer just by reading your blog!

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GETFIT2LIVE 6/14/2011 12:41PM

    Ohhh, good for you at making the time to do this for YOU! It sounds heavenly to make time for actual, focused writing. I hope you can continue to make the time for doing it!

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I'll take that in a size Medium, please :) (photos)

Monday, June 13, 2011

A good friend of mine got married this past weekend. Months ago I found a dress I loved and it fit me in a size large, but it was a little too loose, and so I did something drastic. I bought it in a size Medium, having faith that I would get into it by her wedding. Well, I am proud to say that I did! Here are some photos taken w/ my cell phone (not the best quality).

I got to see good friends at the wedding I haven't seen in so long and they were so kind about my weight loss and didn't come right out and say "Woah!" but kind of took me aside and asked me about it. Two of my really good friends admitted that they had been talking amongst themselves about how I look half the size I used to be. It was just a dreamy night. I kept looking down at my ring finger at my wedding set that didn't fit me for so long. It felt surreal. And on top of that I got to see a wonderful woman get married to her soul mate. A happy day all around.


Full length after the wedding - I had already taken my heels off :)


Can you tell how happy I am?


My friend Karoline with her three nieces


The happy couple!

  
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HEATHIELAUREN 6/22/2011 11:27PM

    So proud of you! Hope to be in those shoes one day. Keep on keepin' on! You Rock!!!! emoticon

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ROBYNROSE26 6/14/2011 8:27PM

    Way to go, you look amazing! Super cute dress!


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KITHKINCAID 6/14/2011 2:42PM

    LOVE IT!!! You look amazing!

Dibs on that dress when you're into size smalls! :)

Congrats Kathy - you deserve this so so so much!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/14/2011 12:52AM

    You are looking great!

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KSGROTHE 6/13/2011 9:17PM

    Wow! Great job on keeping your weight loss consistent so that you could fit into the dress! You look great!

- Karen

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THEADMIRAL 6/13/2011 7:14PM

    The dress looks emoticon on you! emoticon emoticon emoticon Wonderful picture of your friend and her sweetie!

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AMBER281 6/13/2011 5:45PM

    You look wonderful in the dress!! So glad it was a good day all around.

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NIKKICOLE83 6/13/2011 5:26PM

    Don't you just love the recognition of a job well done? I am glad you went out on a limb and bought that medium dress because I am sure it made you work hard. WHOOPIE!! And your friend was a heavenly bride.

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BABY_GIRL69 6/13/2011 4:50PM

    Priceless!! God bless & enjoy everyday!! Dee

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LOOZINITNOW 6/13/2011 4:32PM

    You look absolutely beautiful in the dress! You deserve every compliment and good feeling that you are receiving.

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QUEENJEANINE11 6/13/2011 4:22PM

    YAY good for you!!!! You looked great and met a goal you put out for yourself :)

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TEMPEST272002 6/13/2011 4:19PM

    You looked fabulous in that dress! Congrats on the medium. Woot!

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CHICAT63 6/13/2011 4:14PM

    What heels *lol* I was looking how HAWT, CUTE and SASSY you looked....woohoo, you looked amazing.

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GLORYBLOGS 6/13/2011 3:59PM

    Awesome! Good for you!

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LOSING107 6/13/2011 3:53PM

    Yayy! Way to go, and you look great!

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THENEWDARLENE 6/13/2011 3:40PM

    You look beautiful... and very happy!

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TREASURINGLIFE 6/13/2011 3:37PM

    BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!! :)

- Michelle

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FREES1 6/13/2011 3:32PM

    such well-placed faith!!!!! pretty dress and a happy face!!! you are looking good!!

my best to Karoline and her Soul Mate - may they enjoy many many years of peace, comfort, joy and contentment together!

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KATYMACK 6/13/2011 3:27PM

    Beautiful dress and you look great in it.

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SLFRISBEY 6/13/2011 3:20PM

    You look BEAUTIFUL!!! Love it!

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DETERMINEDMOM_3 6/13/2011 3:09PM

    you look beautiful!!!! Congrats to you!!!

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JENJESS48 6/13/2011 2:57PM

    Slipping on a medium feels so great! And it looks even better! emoticon

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INSPIREBYNATURE 6/13/2011 2:54PM

    hot damn!!! you are one sexy lady!!!!

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GETFIT2LIVE 6/13/2011 2:48PM

    You look amazing in that dress--congratulations to you and to your friend!

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TABIKATZZ 6/13/2011 2:40PM

    you were Smokin in that dress! Congrats girl!

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CARRES1973 6/13/2011 2:40PM

  HOORAY! What a great feeling.

Carrie

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KKINNEA 6/13/2011 2:35PM

    Awesome! Congrats to you and to your friend!

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