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Why I do This

Thursday, May 05, 2011


This week our challenge is to blog about why you decided to change your habits to become a healthy, fit person.

I have never really felt comfortable in my own skin. I think thats my initial answer to the why, why did I decide to change my habits. But then thinking further about it, I realized that wasnt really it. It was part of it, sort of like an itch when you get a mosquito bite. The itch is the reaction to the bite. In my case, what was my bite? Quite literally, that I was eating too much. I was TOO FULL. I got big, and bigger, and then was at my biggest ever. But that, too, was just a reaction to what I was putting in my body. That had nothing to do with my soul. No, the reason I changed my habits was because I didnt know who I was anymore. I had just become this person who didnt recognize herself in the mirror and a person who, instead of feeling her emotions, or anything really, just stuffed them down her mouth. This person I did not love. I didnt even LIKE this person I had become.

So, there was a problem inside of myself, and I was protecting myself from the outside in... or so I thought...filling myself so full of food that it left little room for anything else in my life. I was cushioned all right. But I had no life. I had no joy. I had..THINGS, I had PEOPLE in my life. I had been blessed with a wonderful husband and looking back I dont quite know how that happened except when I met him I was ME, and he fell in love with that person and as that person gained 120 lbs. before his very eyes he still loved that person inside, the soul. There arent many people in this world that can look past 120 lbs. and I thank the Lord every day that my husband is one of them.

I had a great family, a good husband, a job, a home. From the outside things looked great. I kept up appearances. I even had fun every once in a while. But when I got home from work, from that party, from putting on the show, I was sad. I didnt like being alone with myself because I didnt like myself. I turned to TV, food and alcohol to numb it all. To be honest with you I thought a life full of sleeping 24 hrs. a day would be a dream come true. And I wanted to change. Boy, did I want to change, but I wanted the fast magic quick as lightning pill that would reverse time and make it all go AWAY. Well guess what honey, that doesnt exist. Just another excuse for me not to get healthy. It was impossible , right?

Wrong.

I tried every twist, turn, diet, pill, fad, trend. I tried it all. I wanted to be healthy and fit, not only physically, but mentally and spiritually as well. It was always on my to do list to go to church. To exercise. To start that new diet.

But when I realized that I had failed at it all, when I reached that brick wall and just surrendered and reached out to God, a God I hadnt spoken to for at least 15 years because I felt He had betrayed me through a deep loss earlier in my life (and most likely the reason I started to overeat and fill myself up) it was only when I came to that point that my life started to change. I prayed and reached out to a God that did not know me and I didnt know Him. But, I had one small thing. Faith.

It was that little speck of faith that changed my life.

I began to pray more, and to ask God for help overcoming my overeating, and my urge to binge and purge my food, like I had in H.S. when I was a size 6. I began to pray for the strength to eat, but only to eat enough, as I had been anorexic previously as well. My family has some serious addiction issues, my uncle drank himself to death and thats not all, I knew I needed prayer to get through this thing.

And I think God had a bigger plan to have me go through the pain I went through earlier in my life, and the despair. I had always had church on my list, as I said, but now I have something even better...through the broken road I went down I discovered a deep faith in God that I can rely on, and use for my strength, and now church is something I want to do, just like working out, eating right, etc. Maybe I had to go through that to get to where I am now.

So through my faith I began to do it all one step at a time. Youve all probably heard my story.. couldnt walk even a half mile at first, now Im running up to 6 miles at a time. I always wanted a family, and now I have 2 beautiful daughters. I have a healthier marriage and stronger friendships.

And now I feel like ME again. Thats the most important part to me. Not the size jeans I can fit into, not that Ive dropped 10 sizes or almost 90 lbs. But that I love myself again. That I can SEE myself again. I look in the mirror and I recognize that person looking back at me. Instead of wanting to be numb I want to feel it ALL. I love running mainly because it forces me to connect with myself. To push from within and to hear the sound of my breath in my ears and my feet on the pavement. I love yoga because I can feel every curve, every muscle and every stretch and I just know its great for my body, like a cool drink of water to thirsty lungs. I love walking, biking, dancing. I love being me again. But Im also discovering new things about myself every day, and becoming even more of the person I was always meant to be. I was hiding from life and now Im living it and making the most of each day.

After being lost for so many years I thought I had lost her. That girl who loved to roll down hills and run through the woods and explore. I wasnt sure how, or if, I could get her back. I didnt know what that would look like.

But now I know.

It looks like me, only better. I am a healthy mom, wife, sister and friend. I am pursuing my dreams to run a 10k and a 15k and eventually a half marathon. I also plan on honoring my writing and get back to it, and find myself there again.

I am worth it. I can say with certainty that we ALL are.

So, my final answer to the why? Why did I start this journey? Because I had to. Because I didn't know who I was anymore and I needed to find out. Because, deep deep down...underneath it all...I wanted to LIVE.




I feel it all, I feel it all.
The wings are wide, the wings are wide
I know more than I knew before.
Lyrics from Feist, I Feel It All

I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, Move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. Matthew 17:20

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
Id like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
Youve been there you understand
Its all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Lyrics from Selah Bless the Broken Road:

  
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RECIPE4ME 8/30/2011 9:59PM

    Great blog! inspiring!

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KATV865 8/29/2011 11:34AM

    So inspiring!!

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PAMELALYNN2011 8/27/2011 2:26PM

    i absolutally adore this page and all your inspiring blogs and writtings!!! you are very inspiring and i am so happy for yu and your successes!!

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WONTBEWAISTFULL 5/13/2011 8:04PM

   
Wow. I am at a loss for words. If you knew me you would know that doesn't happen often! LOL !!!!
What a testimony.

blessings to you, Sue

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GOGOMAMA 5/13/2011 3:29PM

    Beautiful!

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TRAVELGRRL 5/8/2011 4:35PM

    You brought tears to my eyes! I will read this blog again and again when I am feeling discouraged. Thank you.

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JENJESS48 5/7/2011 12:11PM

    Fabulous blog, Kathy! I heart you so much. emoticon

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INSPIREBYNATURE 5/7/2011 1:53AM

    I LOVE YOU!

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SMALLERMELORIE 5/6/2011 8:51PM

    What a special blog Kathy.

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ROEANDGO 5/6/2011 8:16PM

    Fabulous blog Kathy!! Congratulations on finding YOU again!!

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KSGROTHE 5/6/2011 7:35PM

    emoticon blog! I have felt some of the same things about losing the me I once was. You have done a great job rediscovering the you that was hiding!

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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MANLEYSANDY 5/6/2011 6:36PM

    Great blog!!!

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TABIKATZZ 5/6/2011 4:28PM

    wonderful blog. It was beautiful and so are you! Congrats on your journey and your discovery of yourself along the way.

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AMBER281 5/6/2011 1:06PM

    Wow what a wonderful blog, I will definately come back and read it again. Thanks for sharing.


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SEWINGMAMACDS 5/6/2011 12:29PM

    Thanks for sharing!

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MARCH_ 5/6/2011 10:44AM

    In our daily life, sometimes a lovely grind, it is so important to keep in view of the bigger picture. You've got that, and I thank you for it.

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LOOZINITNOW 5/6/2011 8:06AM

    What a beautiful blog! God is good!

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KITHKINCAID 5/6/2011 12:33AM

    I'm so proud of you. I don't have much more to say than that. You have changed your life and it is wonderful!!!

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MOMFAN 5/6/2011 12:02AM

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TEMPEST272002 5/5/2011 11:32PM

    Geez Kathy, you literally made me cry. I got to the part

"I look in the mirror and I recognize that person looking back at me. Instead of wanting to be numb I want to feel it ALL."

& the tears just came. Incredibly moving & beautiful blog. Thank you so much. You have been a real inspiration to me on this journey.

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SGTSUNNY 5/5/2011 10:52PM

    Yes you are amazing. And I think we gained for the same reason, it was a grief reaction. So lets continue to lose the weight and make strides towards relearning and revisiting ourselves. I love reading anything you write, but this was particularly moving and touched my heart. Hugs.

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THEADMIRAL 5/5/2011 9:38PM

    Bravo! emoticon A beautiful blog - we can do all things through Christ! You ARE doing it and you're overcoming all that hid you from your sight and God's. emoticon

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ZURDTA- 5/5/2011 3:56PM

    Lovely. You see that person inside you - the real you - is why you are such an inspiration.

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HEATHIELAUREN 5/5/2011 3:23PM

    Thank you for sharing this! So many people are looking for exactly what you've found and they feel there's no hope, but Praise the Lord there is!!! That dark place is no fun to be in, but there is light at the end of the tunnel and it just takes time to get there. You have a wonderful, beautiful soul and I'm so happy that I stumbled on your Sparkpage many months ago. Again, thank you! emoticon

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INSPIREBYNATURE 5/5/2011 3:02PM

    Awww sweetie you are such a beautiful spirit! I am so glad that you feel like you again. Your faith inspires me and encourages me to be better and to have faith and hope. You are seriously amazing and your daughters are lucky to have such a great role model....and a mother who is so adamant in her faith and self confident in her decisions that you are making an improved version of you! Gosh I love ya!

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COLT2008 5/5/2011 2:59PM

    emoticon, emoticonfor sharing!

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OFFDREA 5/5/2011 2:58PM

    Kathy you are an amazing woman. I am in tears reading this. You deserve all the happiness in the world. You have changed your life the way some people can only dream about. You are a true inspiration and motivator. You be proud of all you have accomplished and the goals you will conquer in the future. Nothing will ever stop you.
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April Progress Report and a Look Back

Monday, May 02, 2011


Start weight: 213
End weight: 209.5
Weight lost: 3.5 lbs.
Total weight lost this year: 16 lbs.
Goal weight progress: 31.5 more lbs. to go to goal weight!
Onederland progress: 10 more lbs. to reach ONEderland!
Total weight lost: 88.5 lbs.
Total fitness minutes: 1.045


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My goal this month was to lose 4lbs, bringing me to 209. I nearly reached that by losing 3.5 lbs. And I gained 3.5 lbs. this month, so my highest this month was 215.5, not 213. I am very happy with my progress this month.


FITNESS ACCOMPLISHMENTS:

emoticonI ran my first 8k – the Shamrock Shuffle!!! 1:01 PR for me!

emoticonI signed up for my first 10k! (and I wanted to)

emoticonI ran in the rain for the first time!

emoticonReached over 1,000 fitness minutes for the month.


NON-SCALE VICTORIES:


emoticonI am feeling like a "thin" person.

emoticonWhen the hot weather arrived unexpectedly I embraced it and didn't try to cover myself up like I used to do in the summers. I actually welcomed it.

emoticonI worked out with my tankini bottoms on and a sports bra and nothing else so as to not wake my family gathering clothes in the morning and I felt slim! I looked down at my legs and they looked trim!

emoticonI ordered 2 swimsuits from Old Navy and was sure that the "Regular size" I would have to send back, but it fits! I actually look good in it! I am so excited for the summer! A complete NSV for me.

emoticonMy wedding ring literally fell off of my finger while I was in the store.

emoticonI went to my yearly dr. checkup and the dr. couldn’t stop saying how proud she was of me and how much I’ve changed in the last year and agreed on my goal weight and that I could reach that by next year.

emoticonI gave some of my tops that are too big for me now to my sister who is 8 mo. pregnant w/ twins – this weekend she wore a shirt I purchased for my wedding anniversary last year, after I had lost 40 lbs already – and it fit her perfectly. Shows me how far I have come.

emoticonI inspired my cousin Kim to purchase a treadmill and start training for a 5k, and her husband John to join Spark!

THINGS I’VE LEARNED:


emoticon It’s ok to ask for help.

emoticon There’s always a time to change things up.

emoticon The only competition is myself.

emoticonThat turtles do win the race….eventually… emoticon

emoticon That weight loss ISN’T a race, but a journey.

Enjoy it :)

I usually use my paper Spark calendar, but this month proved to be very busy, so I used the Spark Summary calendar feature. Below is my snapshot.






A comparison photo - left me at the beginning of this journey, right at my current state of the journey.



  
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AUBRAZILLA 5/14/2011 10:52AM

    I love this recap, mind if I steal it?

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TRAVELGRRL 5/3/2011 8:47PM

    So proud of you! Keep up the great work! WTG on your 8K!!!

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ZURDTA- 5/3/2011 6:41AM

    Awesome - your hard work work and dedication have paid off.

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THEADMIRAL 5/2/2011 9:46PM

    emoticon What a difference! And what a emoticon month! emoticon

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SMALLERMELORIE 5/2/2011 7:26PM

    Hey Kathy, I know the girl on the right, but who is the girl on the left. hehe. I love it, you have done so well and I am very proud of you.
Great job

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TEMPEST272002 5/2/2011 7:13PM

    I just melted at the family photo at the bottom. You look 10-15 years younger this year & so happy. Loving the NSVs!

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HEATHIELAUREN 5/2/2011 5:54PM

    You ROCK!!!!! I tell you all the time, but I must say it again, You're such an inspiration!!!! You're one of the reasons I know I can conquer this thing!! emoticon

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KSGROTHE 5/2/2011 4:53PM

    Great lists of Fitness Accomplishments, NSVs, and Things You've Learned! emoticon

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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SLFRISBEY 5/2/2011 2:44PM

    Woohoo! You look amazing and are so kicking some serious booty! Keep it up, you're a great example to follow! :)

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LOOZINITNOW 5/2/2011 1:24PM

    Great non-scale victories and accomplishments! Those are worth a lot!!! emoticon

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JENJESS48 5/2/2011 12:30PM

    You're doing fantastic, Kathy! And your girls are absolutely precious!

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KITHKINCAID 5/2/2011 12:17PM

    Oh my gosh, I love how Marlo sucks her two fingers instead of her thumb! Super cute.

I'm so proud of you this month. You stuck it out and the scale finally paid you back. I know it's been a tough haul for you, so WAY TO GO KATHY!!!!

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LMLOPEZ 5/2/2011 12:15PM

    Woo Hoo!!! You look as amazing as you feel. Great job!!!
The health benefits alone that you have gotten in your weight loss and getting fit are wonderful enough. The benefit is that you ARE a healthy mom and a good role model for your children.
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OFFDREA 5/2/2011 12:11PM

    Kathy you are amazing!!!!!!!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 5/2/2011 10:57AM

    I am so proud of you! You look AMAZING!

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Spring Activity Challenge

Friday, April 22, 2011

Our challenge this week was to do a spring activity and blog about it. Well my spring activity was to get a spring run in, but...well...Chicago hasn't really seen "spring", at least not this week.

I joked about our weather this week (which is typical of Chicago spring actually) and my team mates Mary and Anne told me that they wished it would rain for me because running in the rain is refreshing, and cools you down, and is just plain beautiful.

That's when I realized that I've never run in the rain. And a little part of me wanted to. A bigger part of me wanted the sun to come out and perhaps a nice spring breeze too, but there was that part of me that wanted to do something I hadn't done before.

So when I woke up this morning, the day of my planned run, and heard raindrops on the roof of my bedroom, I was excited! I got out of bed like it was Christmas morning and got my gear on, including thermal, and shot out the door.


The view out my front door

I had a great run, it wasn't raining too hard on the first half of my run, the second half got a little brutal with the wind and the sleeting rain, but it was everything I had hoped it would be. It WAS beautiful, refreshing and new. Like Sam in Green Eggs and Ham, I can say "I do, I do like running in the rain!"


Before my run in front of my Sunny Gals car decal. Go Sunnies!


After my run, glistening with sweat and rain and geeking a pose.

  
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SMALLERMELORIE 4/30/2011 2:54PM

    You are such an inspiration, I am sp proud of you running in the rain. I guess Chicago and Lansing Michigan have the same kind of Spring. LOL

Thank you for commenting on my blogs.

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CHICAGOHEALTHY 4/24/2011 8:39PM

    I was so proud that I got out for a run today, but it didn't rain by me at the lakefront. Now I feel like I missed out on something. That's GREAT that you got out and ran in the rain. To be honest if it had been raining, I probable wouldn't have gone for my run. KUDOS to YOU!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 4/24/2011 2:35PM

    you are so cute and i'm proud of you for running in the rain!

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HEATHIELAUREN 4/23/2011 11:15PM

    Ohhh, I'll have to remember that! It's starting to get rather hot and humid here. A rain run would be quite refreshing!

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AMBERLEIGHM1 4/23/2011 6:17PM

    I loved your blog, now I want to try running in the rain. I love the rain but I have never considered exercising in it. Thanks for the inspiration.

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LMLOPEZ 4/23/2011 3:15PM

    Great job with running in the rain. We missed most of the crud that demolished St. Louis; I don't mind running in the rain because even though I'm sweet I'm not made of sugar. Looks like you enjoyed it as well!!!
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KITHKINCAID 4/23/2011 1:31PM

    I love Rain Runs :) But not this week! It's been too cold for Rain Runs. Way to go you for actually getting out there and doing it!

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BABY_GIRL69 4/23/2011 1:17PM

    Way cool!! Glad you went out & there sprung into action & did something you have never done. I mean, we all run from the car to get to cover in the rain but to do something that is health related is great!

God bless & enjoy everyday!

Dee

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TEMPEST272002 4/23/2011 12:37PM

    Glad you enjoying your rainy run! It rained for me today too. Not so bad going out, but the wind was in my face coming back and I was just dripping. Feels so nice to be inside again & huddled in front of the fire.

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KAKLUCK 4/23/2011 7:49AM

    Awesome!! I was hoping to get a rainy run in this week too but Wisconsin weather has also not cooperated. My rain date turned into snow and was too slippery to run. Your run sounds great though and I can't wait to do mine soon!!!

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CHICAT63 4/23/2011 7:38AM

    You GO GIRL....rain & snow cannot deter us Running Girls:) Have a great weekend.

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ZURDTA- 4/23/2011 7:01AM

    Brilliant!

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UNICORN212 4/23/2011 2:52AM

    Now THAT is a proud, happy smile!

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KSGROTHE 4/23/2011 2:41AM

    emoticon You look so happy!

- Karen

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SMALLERMELORIE 4/23/2011 12:13AM

    WooHoo on your run in the rain. Take a warm shower.

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FITFUNKYMAMA1 4/22/2011 11:48PM

    that is so awesome!!! I still haven't run outside yet this spring.I really should.We got a new gym out here in our little community and they boast 2 new treadmills,2 bikes and 2 elipticals so I attempted to run 5k the other day....whoa.....I only made it like a little over 1km before I totally petered out...gonna have to go back to my C25K program again!!!


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FEF Bonus Challenge: 3 Books

Friday, April 15, 2011

BONUS: For bonus points, share three of your favorite nutrition and fitness books. Post a blog about why they are your favorites.



1. RUNNING FOR MORTALS by John Bingham & Jenny Hadfield

This book was recommended by Sparker PINKCOCONUT who has run marathons and inspires me, so I picked it up. I think I read through it in one night. Is is a great book especially for beginning runners about how to fit running into their lifestyle easily. It stressed that you don't have to run fast to reap the rewards that running has to offer. That all you need is the courage to start.


2. LIFE IS A VERB by Patti Dingh

I LOVE this book. It's hard to describe, here's what the publisher has to say about it. I can honestly say that this book has changed my life. I began reading it before I started my weight loss journey and I believe it's one of the things that propelled me to change.

"In October 2003, Patti Digh’s stepfather was diagnosed with lung cancer. He died 37 days later. The timeframe made an impression on her. What emerged was a commitment to ask herself every morning: What would I be doing today if I had only 37 days left to live? The answers changed her life and led to this new kind of book. Part meditation, part how-to guide, part memoir, Life is a Verb is all heart. Within these pages—enhanced by original artwork and wide, inviting margins ready to be written in—Digh identifies six core practices to jump-start a meaningful life: Say Yes, Trust Yourself, Slow Down, Be Generous, Speak Up, and Love More. Within this framework she supplies 37 edgy, funny, and literary life stories, each followed by a “do it now” 10-minute exercise as well as a practice to try for 37 days—and perhaps the rest of your life. "



3. THE SPARK by Chris Downie.

Enuf said. This book rocks so much that when it was reprinted in paperback I purchased it for the expanded information (quick start) and also so that I could give my hardcover away to my Mom. I love this book and if my Internet were to crash, I would have support through it.

  
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CARILOUIE 4/22/2011 10:45PM

    Thanks for the list - I am going to check out Life is a Verb right now.

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BRITCHES82 4/16/2011 2:20PM

    Great list! I am so going to read Life is a Verb now!!

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MISSROCKABILLY 4/16/2011 2:20PM

    Great list! I'm definitely going to have to check out Running for Mortals!

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TEMPEST272002 4/16/2011 1:00PM

    Thanks for sharing your list!

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REENSKI 4/16/2011 11:51AM

    Great list!
I'm definetly getting life is a verb, anbd hoping to work up to running for mortals. Thanks for sharing!

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TABIKATZZ 4/15/2011 6:28PM

    What a great list! I am so totally going to get Life is a Verb! Thanks!

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KSGROTHE 4/15/2011 6:02PM

    Great list! I added the Life is a Verb book to my Amazon wishlist. (It's available for Kindle!)
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- Karen

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THEADMIRAL 4/15/2011 4:52PM

    Thanks for sharing these!

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GMO_JEN 4/15/2011 3:42PM

    beautiful motivation board and great books! love the spark!

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KITHKINCAID 4/15/2011 2:56PM

    Still haven't read The Spark. I suppose I should. I'm generally against "self-help" type books at all, but since I'm on the site, that should be different than anything else.

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INSPIREBYNATURE 4/15/2011 1:51PM

    ooh I LOVE running for mortals!

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FEF Challenge: Spring Motivation Board

Friday, April 15, 2011

This week's challenge was to create a spring motivation board. We weren't allowed to create a virtual one, which is what I usually do, so it was really fun for me to get out the construction paper, scissors and glue stick. The board is something to inspire you to keep going when things get tough.

I have more than just one dream, like most of us here. Yes, we want to get fit, lose weight, and lead happy lives. That is Goal #1. For me it's a goal of mine to lose weight and become a normal weight so that I can be healthy for not only myself, but for my two girls and my husband, too. A big part of that goal for me is running. I have discovered that I love to run and it is great cardio, so it is a goal of mine to continue my mantra to "Run Strong".

Another goal of mine that some of you may know is to write a book (or two, or three). I have two first drafts of novels that are sitting in my drawer. I have a children's book all laid out and composed. I have at least ten great short stories that are doing - what? Nothing. I have discovered that I am afraid. I don't know exactly of what...failing? Success? But nonetheless, there is fear there. It is one of my goals to conquer that fear, toss procrastination and perfectionism out the window and just go for it.

So my collage combines some various elements. There is Faith in there, because for me that is my strength and the foundation on which everything else resides. There is running, because I AM a runner. There are quotes about strength and discovery. And there are quotes to inspire me to write.

My husband is a glass artist and I'm going to have him set my collage under class so that I can put it on the wall of my office at home to inspire me.

Here is my collage, and elements are described below. I took a picture of it, but also scanned it in. It was difficult to get the entire collage without losing some of the sharpness of it. But hopefully you get the idea.

Thanks for taking a look!






Left to right:

Quotes:

"One Inch at a time" - this is not only for my weight loss, which is slow, but for my writing and also for my running. I'm a slow runner, but inch by inch I will get there!

"Little by little deep inside us, the diamond shines, the eyes open, the dawn rises, we become what we already are." ~ Bo Lozoff. This quote inspires me because I feel that we all have the power inside of us, and we have had it all along. This is similar to the quote I posted last week on my spark page, that we are all athletes, just some of us are in training and some of us are not. I want to become everything that I can be.

"Add your own Scenery." A fun quote about the people, situations, etc, in your life, but also about having long fun runs outside to places I've never been.

"Today's the day. No more fooling around." enuf said.

"Run Strong" - my mantra I used in the 8K - I added stickers along the trail in the picture to show movement.

"Find your strong" - OMG I LOVE this! Had to cut it out of the magazine when I saw it.

"Of course I can do anything. I'm a mother." How true! And there's a picture of my beautiful dolls to cheer me on.

"Go Write Your Book." No explanation needed.

"They're just pieces of paper. Let GO." I need to remember this.

Heart with Christ inside and words coming out of it like love, peace, joy, faith, etc. I believe that all good things come from Him and if I am in Him I am all of these good things. I show that to the world and it's contagious, hopefully.

Bible at the bottom I put a sticker that says "Found" - I found myself in the bible. I found promises from God and have found my strength there. It is my goal to stitch His words on my heart so that they come naturally to me in all times.

Right picture - me when I was 5 yrs. old. framed. I want to embrace the inner child in me and remember to honor her always. "I'm a runner" is above it, then at the right is "Yoga. Love. Run. Peace" - this quote reminds me so much of my wonderful friend Blaize and I wanted to have a piece of her in my collage. "Be a hero" is at the bottom, reminding me to be a good role model to my girls, and also what my dad said to me after the shuffle.

At the very right of the page is a quote by Aristotle: "Well begun is half done." Meaning just start!

"You have to be willing to write badly." This got cut off on the bottom right.

Upper right - a picture of a woman running with wings on her shoes. I loved this image, it conveyed how I feel when I am running, like I am flying. There's a quote she's running on that says "When you're a vessel from God, you don't even need a boat!" Meaning that God makes a way when there is no way. If it's His plan he will pave the way for you.

On her shirt I put "Got faith?" and then "Running on Faith" over her. Above her it says "There is no place God cannot go."

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SKINNYINMYHEAD 4/18/2011 8:03AM

    Okay, I'll bite... what is FEF? ... and your collage is coolness..
Annie

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SYN-CA 4/16/2011 12:52PM

    Creative, just like YOU! You are an amazing woman, Kathy--realize your many gifts.... emoticon

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MOMFAN 4/15/2011 6:22PM

    "Continuous effort -- not strength or intelligence -- is the key to unlocking our potential."
- Liane Cardes

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KSGROTHE 4/15/2011 6:08PM

    This is emoticon! I still have to work on mine.

You rock! Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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THEADMIRAL 4/15/2011 4:59PM

    emoticon I LOVE it!

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TABIKATZZ 4/15/2011 3:17PM

    great collage!!! perfect!

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KITHKINCAID 4/15/2011 2:51PM

    This is really beautiful. I want to cut & paste now!

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SGTSUNNY 4/15/2011 2:22PM

    You have a gift that needs to be shared with the world! Go for it!
Great job again on the writing and visual!

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LMLOPEZ 4/15/2011 1:57PM

    Kathy, it's beautiful. Thank you for sharing and explaining it for us. What a motivational way to keep finding the strong!!

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TEMPEST272002 4/15/2011 1:44PM

    I love your motivation board. I especially like the idea of putting a picture of yourself as a child in there. You were quite the little sweetie & so like your own girls. I'm off for a walk, then sitting down to do mine this afternoon.

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AMBERLEIGHM1 4/15/2011 1:42PM

    I love your inspiration board, you did a great job explaining the meaning behind everything. I think I need to make one now and put one next to the treadmill. Faith carries me through everything so I really related to your board.

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KKINNEA 4/15/2011 11:24AM

    Sometimes my running feels like "One inch at a time" :) This is a great motivation board!

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INSPIREBYNATURE 4/15/2011 11:18AM

    Oh my goodness, this is amazing!

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ZURDTA- 4/15/2011 11:15AM

    Lovely... just lovely!

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WOLFKITTY 4/15/2011 10:59AM

    Wow! Thank you for the explanation at the bottom, too. This feels like a really powerful vision collage!

WOW!
Jocelyn

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SMALLERMELORIE 4/15/2011 10:54AM

    Great Job Kathy

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GETNHEALTHY4ME 4/15/2011 10:50AM

    emoticon This looks great! I'm gonna have to work on mine over the weekend.. not a glue stick or magazine in sight in my house... *sigh*

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MESEATURTLE 4/15/2011 10:49AM

    Totally totally love it!!!!!!!!

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