Sunday, February 03, 2008
I feel so motivated and happy! I am walking on air today. Things are coming together in my life - emotionally, spiritually and physically. I feel content, and as far as my weight-loss journey goes, I'm not even halfway there. Yet I am HAPPY. I feel beautiful, and I feel like I can do this. When I look at things in terms of the blessings I have, instead of the way I look, the pounds I weigh, the material things, I am happy. It is enough.
It is when I focus on what I DON'T have, what I am NOT that I get down on myself and depressed. I am going to strive to continue to focus on the positive and keep making the changes that will take me where I need to be.
And as the saying goes, it's not the destination that matters. It's the journey that counts.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
I am excited for the New Year. I know that resolutions are so easy to make, and harder to follow through on. But this is my year. I won't have forever to count on to make these changes. The time is now, and I can't avoid it any longer. I won't call them "Resolutions", since that can be a big, scary word, and make the tasks seem like climbing a mountain. My small, easily attainable goals are:
I will workout at a minimum of 3x a week.
I will aim to eat at least 35g. of fiber to help with my health issues and to promote weight loss.
I will not overeat, I will remain abstinent from overeating.
I will spend less time on the couch and more time playing with my daughter.
I will remain a positive outlook, no matter what life throws my way.
I will drink 8-10 glasses of nice, cold water.
I will love myself, my body and my abilities.
I will be creative and express myself in other ways than eating, or blowing up at family members, and then hating myself.
I will live a purposeful life.
I will create an eating plan that suits my life and doesn't stress me out.
I will not strive for perfection, I will strive to do my best, and take things one day at a time.
I will stress less, and laugh more.
I will let things go instead of holding onto them.
I will write more letters and less email.
I will live, and remember that I am blessed to have my family, friends and health.
Happy New Year, everyone. 2008 has a nice ring to it.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I have been feeling so healthy lately, it's awesome!!! I have been only eating my 3 meals a day with a snack inbetween, and trying to eat more fiber and my goal is to move every day.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
I am working the 12 steps and am on Step 1. I am looking for a sponsor. I am proud to say I have 7 days of abstinence behind me, and with the grace of God, I will remain abstinent tonight, tomorrow, and the next day. But I am getting ahead of myself. Because it's one day at a time. That's the only way.
Working the steps is like stepping off of a cliff, and not knowing what, if anything, will hold you up, and you are almost certain that you will fall. But upon taking that first step, and the second, and so on, you discover that you are being not only held up, but you are being elevated. You are experiencing something that you have never known. You are experiencing recovery.
I am thankful for this day. For my family and for my eating disorder. I am thankful because without it, I wouldn't realize all that there is to live for, and to appreciate all that I have.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
I went to my first face-to-face (f2f) OA meeting yesterday, 9/5. It was awesome, and had many attendees. I isolate myself so much that I hadn't attended a f2f meeting in over 8 years. I realized and shared with the group that I never had a stretch of abstinence that lasted over two days. I am going to change that. One day at a time, one step at a time. I have my first day of abstinence behind me, and today is a new day. I pray that God get me through this day abstinent.
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