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Pizza, Wishes and the Map to my Heart.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

I have been very proud of myself and my willpower, or what I more like to think of as my planning and my change in tastes. It's been easier lately for me to turn down snacks at work, cake at parties and junk food at friends houses. I always have a plan and I stick to it.

Except when it comes to my parents' house.

Being the place where I nurtured my eating disorder since the first grade, it is the hardest place for me to go and stay on plan. This is the place where the memories are the strongest. I remember hoarding food in my room, I remember the hours I spent after eating and then purging, and then eating again. I was too full, and then I was not full enough. I remember that pain. And when my family sees the new me emerging, I can see that they aren't quite sure what to make of it, and they offer me the pizza, the wine, the cake. In my warped mind, they are testing me, not being good hosts.

Last week was the first time I kept to my plan at my parents' house. I had brought a pre-made spinach salad complete with toppings and dressing, and knowing they were having pizza, the usual, I saved enough calories to have ONE piece. And I did it. I felt like the cycle was broken. (Usually I just don't track on the days I go to their house, and we get together once a week).

Last night it was a double celebration - my mom's and sister's birthdays. I wasn't prepared. I had planned to stop at home and pack a salad as I did before, but my baby girl was sick and so I ended up going straight to their house from work, leaving my husband to watch over the girls. I had no plan. My dad called and asked what I wanted on my pizza, and I said - salad? So he was nice enough to oblige, and ordered a salad for me. Well...salads at pizza joints aren't really "salads", not in the terms of a filling, healthy salad. I was presented with a mound of iceberg lettuce and a few red onions. I still tried - I filled up my plate with all of the lettuce and added some vinegar and oil dressing. I took one small piece of pizza, because I knew this salad wouldn't fill me. I spent more time talking than eating. I was doing good.

Until the wine was poured. I agreed to one small glass. Well, me and wine equals me and food. It's a sad love affair. The more I sip, the more I eat. So one piece of pizza turned to two. Turned to three. Turned to 3 1/2. And then. The cake. The cake I had previously turned down at work for a co-worker's birthday. The cake I never eat! I took half a slice.

I left feeling so bloated and just gross. I was on a roll, and had to literally stop myself from pulling over at the Dairy Queen because I had a hankering for a Peanut Buster Parfait. I haven't had one of those in like 10 years. But yet, I wanted it. It was like the little girl inside, the one who was always chubby, always wore husky pants, was never picked for teams in gym class, the girl who boys pretended to like because it was so funny to see my reaction when I thought a boy actually LIKED me, well it was like this old girl got back inside of me and said, "eat...it will get better. just eat."

I went to bed with a headache and a belly ache, and to be honest, a heart ache. I thought I was past this point. I thought I was over the hurdle of this sad, young, fat me bombarding my life. This little girl who lies to me because that's all she knows.

It was ok. It will be ok, but not because of the food.

I was honest enough to track it all down, every last bite, and my total calories yesterday were 2,233. I actually had a deficit of -30 calories somehow, it must have been the mile with Leslie I did in the morning.

This morning is a new day. I am not going to beat myself up over yesterday. Will I have a better plan when going to my parents' house next time? YES. I will not go empty handed again. I put on my best black dress, the one that hugs my hips. I had a healthy breakfast this morning and a lot of water. I am going to be ok.

But I worry. I worry about my daughters and what sort of world they are going to grow up in. If I was teased when I was little, what's in store for them? I heard on the news this morning that a poor boy his freshman year at college, a promising violinist, committed suicide because his roommate videotaped him in relations with another man and broadcast it to the school. This poor young man saw the only way out as taking his own life. My heart is so sad, and heavy, over this news. What is the world coming to? I mean, really.

My daughter is 4 and she already feels this pressure. Girls in her class are already wearing makeup - yes, makeup. Girls are already talking about boys. She talks about one of her friends who happens to be a boy and how he doesn't want to play with her. She takes everything to heart, and I see myself. She takes any sort of rejection and pins that to her sleeve and some inner voice tells her that she isn't good enough. She is FOUR. I try to explain that sometimes boys don't want to play with girls. But that's not it, not really. She looks at herself and is already comparing. Her hair isn't straight like the other girls, it's kinky and curly (I love it). She is taller than the other girls, she is smarter and thinks more in her head, is more introverted at times. She sees all of these differences and instead of realizing that this is what makes the world such an awesome place, she wants to be the SAME as everyone, wants to conform. I want to cry.

I don't know what the solution is. For her, for me. But what I DO know is that tonight I'm mapping out a route. We are going on a mommy daughter walk and I'm going to make stops along the way. I know where a great park is, I know where wishes lie, waiting to be blown away in a field, I know where the ballerinas dance. And I know where my heart lies. In her. And at each stop along the way, I'm going to tell her how beautiful she is. How wonderful she is. How her kinky hair bounces when she dances, how her dress twirls just so. How my world wouldn't quite spin the same without her. And we'll lie down in the field of wishes and try to feel the earth spin.

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 10/1/2010 1:33AM

    This was an awesome and powerful blog! Many huggs to you!!!!!

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YATMAMA 9/30/2010 9:15PM

    He who lacks wisdom, let him ask of the Lord. That's my only answer, sweetie, for you, for your kids, for me, for my kids. Pray, pray, pray.

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SHERLYN-WILL 9/30/2010 8:20PM

    OH what a great blog... sad about what you went through as a child and your eating memories...

Precious because of what you say in the last paragraphs about teaching and nurturing your sweet child!

You will be such a wonderful role model for her... and you her heart tied to yours!

YOU are a great mom!

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KSGROTHE 9/30/2010 5:23PM

    I'm not sure what to say. Have you mentioned to your parents that the pizza they have at their house doesn't fit in well with the healthy lifestyle you want to live? I know that kind of discussion can be hard to have with loved ones.

I was always glad I had sons because I was always afraid I would not be a good enough mom for a daughter because of my own childhood issues with being a smart girl who was not all that girly and didn't fit in all that well. I think your mommy daughter walk idea is a great one! Keeping the lines of communication open with your daughter will be key. It's not so hard when she's 4, but it might become more difficult as she gets older. You might want to check out the self-esteem resources for girls on the web, too.

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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JLITT62 9/30/2010 2:20PM

    Heck, I never even dated til I was in college. No one even asked me out to tease me!

But there's a silver lining to every cloud, as they say, cause I married that first date, and we're celebrating our 25th anniversary in a few weeks. Well, we'll be on opposite sides of the world, but anyway.

Life was so much more innocent when I was a kid. And yet I still ended up with not an eating disorder, but disordered eating. I suppose that pressure will always be there, but it's so sad that it's starting earlier & earlier these days.

I'm not a mom, but I think the best thing you can do for your daughter is lead by example. And your plan to go on a walk sounds wonderful! Don't dismiss her if she wants to talk about her weight, but obviously don't make everything about weight, either.

Kids just want to know they're loved. And it's so obvious that you do.

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ZURDTA- 9/30/2010 1:38PM

    There is nothing I can say... sorry. Just emoticon

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FARLEY_GIRL 9/30/2010 1:36PM

    ((((HUGS)))) I can't relate to the daughter thing b/c I don't have children.....but the rest -- definitely!!! My husband has been on the road a lot lately w/ work -- when he is gone, I am able to plan and stay ON plan...my weight loss slow but steady. When he comes home I have the same struggle w/ eating since he is all about large portion and carbs!! I am not yet strong enough to not eat so much of what he cooks or completely ignore what he cooks and cook something separately for myself. He unfortunately is extremely overweight as well (birds of a feather!) and not yet on board w/ changing our eating habits & exercising. I'm on this road alone at home....so every night is extremely tempting and torturous food wise...similar to your trips to your parents.

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GOGOMAMA 9/30/2010 1:21PM

    Beautiful blog! Honest and straight from the heart to my heart! I deeply feel your struggles and remember the thoughts and pain from my childhood as well! Food was love and comfort - still is at my parent's house as well and I am learning to say no to the dysfunctional and yes to me! I love how you are giving your daughter exactly what she needs via your love and attention, rather than food!

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JESSSPARK 9/30/2010 12:22PM

    What a powerful blog. Thank you.

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TEMPEST272002 9/30/2010 12:00PM

    Ah family dynamics - isn't it amazing how we revert to being children in the company of our parents?! Well, at least you learned from the experience - quite a lot actually.

As for your daughter, I think the walk idea is really beautiful. What a wonderful way to show her your love! I want to recommend a book to you - one I wish I had read when my son was 4! It's called "Hold on to your Kids" by Gordon Neufield. It's an EXCELLENT book on the peer relationships that children form and how you can keep your own bond with your child as s/he enters school. I highly recommend it to EVERYONE who has kids!

Try copy/pasting this link:

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KITHKINCAID 9/30/2010 11:36AM

    Oh. I am in tears at my desk right now. Yes. Yes. Yes. Right down to the Peanut Buster Parfait, yes. I understand absolutely, every single word you just wrote. Except for the part about your daughter because I don't have my own yet, but I can even feel your pain there because I know that you're hurting because you've been through it.

I just had therapy this morning, so this hits me even deeper than it would on any other morning because we just spent an hour talking about this very thing. I'm so happy to hear that your dad ordered you a salad. That's a start. But ultimately, if your family REALLY supported you and really wanted you to lose the weight, pizza wouldn't be on the menu in the first place. I commend you for being prepared because as hard as it is to say, they don't want you to lose the weight (mine don't either). It makes people in general uncomfortable when other people in their life make big changes that don't involve them. So you have to do it on your own. I don't know if thinking about it that way will make things easier or harder for you, but I find that it helps. It helps me to say no to things, to have a little anger under the situation. Then I choose to eat healthy out of spite :)

And if I were your daughter, I would love that walk. And make sure she hears all those things from your hubby too. But in addition to telling her she's smart and beautiful just the way she is, really engage her to talk about how being different from the other kids makes her feel. And decide together if, for right now, she needs to be the same as everyone else. If she does, I might allow it - only because once this phase passes, and she accepts and loves her individuality, she won't want to jump on the unhealthy food bandwagon in her teenage years like so many of us did to fit in.

Sending BIG hugs your way today. I am with you in spirit - empathizing with you right along the way.

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RUBIEAGLE 9/30/2010 11:33AM

    Tell your daughter to embrace her differences - they make her unique. I would rather hang with her than with some other little girl who was like everyone else because at least your daughter's conversation would be more interesting than the other girl's conversation. Talk about boring!

Congratulations on not beating yourself up & having a plan! If it had been me & I was craving one that badly, I probably would've gotten a small DQ Peanut Buster Parfait & split, but that's me, too. Congratulations on not giving to temptation!

You will succeed & so will your daughter! emoticon emoticon (the crown is for your daughter)

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JENNIFER4242 9/30/2010 11:30AM

    I so understand where your coming from. I ALWAYS seem to over eat when i go by my mom's house. I told her that i'm going to have to stop going there b/c all she wants to do is feed me. I know it's not her trying to sabotage me. It's an Italian thing... Food is Love and Feeding someone is taking care of them. It's up to me to say NO.

Also, Pizza is a weakness for me too!

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Halloween Challenge - Blog 1

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

My starting weight/measurements

Weight: 221
Waist: 40.2
Hips: 42.4
Bust: 42
Upper Arms: 13

My specific goals for this challenge:

Nutrition: I want to stay within my Sparkpeople calorie range, roughly 1200 – 1500 calories per day. I also would like to continue with the Flat Belly eating plan as it seems to be working for me – eating a MUFA with every meal. I will track my food every day, even on the weekends.

Fitness: I would like to continue to add onto my running time, right now I can run for 35 minutes straight. I want to be able to run comfortably for 40 – 45 minutes straight by the Hot Chocolate 5k on 11/6. I plan on running 3x per week. I also want to focus more on strength training and flexibility, this is the area that I am lax on. I like Jillian Michael’s The Shred and plan on doing that 2x per week as well as yoga 1x per week. Also following Sparkpeople’s ab exercises 2x per week.

Having Fun: I plan on dressing as Marilyn Monroe for Halloween for our annual horror movie fest and I am going to have fun – no matter what!! I’ll post my “before” pics as soon as I get the costume, should be any day now!

Supporting Each Other & Blogging: I plan on doing this, this week has been a REALLY busy one for me at work.


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YATMAMA 9/29/2010 11:12PM

    You are READY, girl!!

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LKEITHO 9/29/2010 8:50PM

    Have a great October! You can do it!

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JLITT62 9/29/2010 5:49PM

    Love the flat belly diet! Funny, I just pulled out an old DVD to use today -- it was the Flat Belly Diet workout DVD!

Sounds like a great plan. Yum, hot chocolate 5k. Now, that's my kind of 5k!

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KARVY09 9/29/2010 5:00PM

    Best of luck!

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KITHKINCAID 9/29/2010 4:58PM

    totally loving your page right now.

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KSGROTHE 9/29/2010 4:48PM

    You've got a great plan! I can't wait to see the pictures!

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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Susan G. Komen 5k Race Report (pics)

Monday, September 27, 2010

The morning started off early and with a bowl of organic cornflakes with some cranberries on top. My stomach was nervous and tight and I wasn't very hungry. But I wanted to eat something to help me finish the race and give me energy. I don't know why I was nervous, I shouldn't be since this is my third 5k, but I was. I had asked my sister, Kris, to run it with me, she is such a source of strength and support for me. I was so happy to have her by my side. Also my brother-in-law decided 4 days beforehand that he was going to run it too, although he had never run a 5k. He wanted to run for his mother, the same as me, but also for friends he's lost and those that suffer from cancer. My best friend's sister also ran, it was her first 5k as well.

Me (right) with my running partner and sister, Kris (left).

My brother-in-law Mike with Marlo, pre-race

Me, Mike and Marlo, pre-race

Me, Mike and the girls, pre-race

Me, my husband Jim and Marlo

Kris, me and Mike, pre-race

First we visited the memorial garden, where I had purchased a ribbon to honor Jim's mom. It was front and center and just brought tears to my eyes. It brought it all home, why I was doing this, and the cause I was supporting. A world without cancer would be a beautiful place indeed. I thought about her and felt peace wash over me.

In Honor of Carmella Kubik, Jim's mother

The Memorial Garden

Jim's brother Mike (left) and my husband Jim (right) with Marlo in front of their mother's ribbon.

Then it was time to line up. The announcer walked us through some stretches and warmed us up. Now my nerves were really on fire! I was excited, though.

The start line

Can you see me with my head band on?

Then we were off! I started off at a faster pace than normal, I think it was all the adrenaline.

When we reached the 1 mile marker my pace was a little over 11 minutes, which is fast for me. I don't recall what it was at the 2nd mile marker. The last mile was difficult for me. I think it always is, this is where I hit my mental block. I tried to get into my zone, but every part of me felt like it was on fire. This is when I realize how much different it is to run on a nice, padded track vs. on the street. I think going forward into fall I will incorporate more street runs in my training to get that experience and to help me in my races. As we rounded the last stretch there was a group of Girl Scouts who had signs and were cheering and clapping and they held their hands out for people to high five. I slapped each one of their hands and that gave me the extra push to finish. They were so sweet!

Heading toward the finish line. Missy (left), me (middle), Kris (right).

I did it!

I finished in 36:01 minutes! This is a pace of 11:37 per mile. This is a personal record for me. My fastest time previously had been 39 minutes. At the end I wanted to push it even more, my sister said "let's sprint! but my body was just not cooperating. It felt like heavy mud, or like I was running through heavy mud. It was a chilly day out, everyone else had long sleeves under their shirt but I didn't because I knew how hot I get running. I ranked #262 in a group of 401 5k runners. I wasn't at the end of the pack!

My family at the finish line.

As I crossed the finish line my 4 yr. old daughter, Lucy, was waiting for me. She gave me a big hug and it was so nice to see my family, my husband Jim, my baby Marlo and my parents had even come out to cheer on their two daughters. My best friend's sister finished at the same time as me, actually a bit ahead, and then my brother in law finished in a little over 39 minutes. I am so proud of him! He hadn't trained at all, he literally just ran to honor those who have lost their lives and for those still suffering and that pushed him through it. He kept my pace for the first mile and half and I couldn't be prouder of him! I know that without training I wouldn't have made it a block. I love the Couch to 5k program and it has changed my life so much. I praise the Lord that something got inside of me a year ago and made me decide to change my life. I am so much happier now than before, and I went from being a certified "couch potato" to running 3 5Ks this year so far, and 3 more planned. Only God can work through a person like that!

Afterward we went out to breakfast and I was going to get some healthy oatmeal, but then the breakfast burrito caught my eye. I had them add avocado, and I only ate half of it, and it was so good, hit the spot. I didn't eat the hash browns at all.

Half of my breakfast burrito.

Much needed coffee.

My family (a bit blurry, but you get the idea).

Marlo fell asleep on the car ride home, I guess it was all a bit too much excitement for her, lol.

The race route.

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FARLEY_GIRL 9/30/2010 1:41PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon On running the race!!!! One day I hope to be running a 5k rather than walking.... :-)

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YATMAMA 9/27/2010 9:08PM

    Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful story and photos with us. Every time I read about your 5K activities, I know, know, know in my heart I will one day do a 5K. You are my inspiration!! And you are a beautiful one at that!!

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    Wonderful details of your day made me feel like I was there beside you. I know you write for enjoyment but you must pursue writing. You are a gifted word artist.

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LKEITHO 9/27/2010 7:06PM

    Great job! Three minutes off your previous best is pretty impressive!

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BABY_GIRL69 9/27/2010 6:49PM

    This is so great! You keep standing in for those who no longer. . .God bless you guys & have a great week!


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CLAIREMZM 9/27/2010 6:45PM

    Good work! I haven't gotten myself to the point where I really want to run yet, but your blog may have inched me a little more toward it!

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SHERYLDS 9/27/2010 6:30PM

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 9/27/2010 5:32PM

    Awesome job!

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-GOT2FINISH- 9/27/2010 4:46PM

    That is so emoticon
And to get to do it with family must've been the best feeling!
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KSGROTHE 9/27/2010 2:06PM

    emoticon I love your blog and your pictures! That's great that your family was able to support you so well with both running and cheering!

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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TEMPEST272002 9/27/2010 1:49PM

    Thanks for sharing your race day with us! What an amazing thing to change your life by training for & running 5K... and inspiring those around you to run also... and help find a cure for a disease that affects so many of us... and to bring your family together to remember and laugh and celebrate...and to finish up with the achingly beautiful picture of Marlo.

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JLITT62 9/27/2010 1:42PM

    Oooh, maybe I can draft off of you for my own race for the cure this weekend! I'm much closer to my GW, but I'm still real slow & I'd be thrilled to have your time.

Great job!

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POSITIVE-FORCE 9/27/2010 1:37PM

    Great Job! I love your pictures and your story! It's great that you and your family connected in such a positive way. Many blessings ahead!

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WCATAP 9/27/2010 1:29PM

    Wow great job and wonderful pictures. I couldn't run that but possibly walk. I'm asthmatic but would really like to try one day.I think that is attainable for me.

I am impressed and so proud of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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JEREMY723 9/27/2010 1:08PM

    Looks like a nice event. We walked the Komen run/walk in Cleveland a few weeks back. Do it every year but it's getting more wall to wall people before and after, and somewhat during as well.

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KITHKINCAID 9/27/2010 1:02PM

    You have such a beautiful family! Well done on your PR!!! I know I say it like every day, but I can't wait for November!

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IHEARTK 9/27/2010 12:42PM

    Thanks for sharing!! Looks like a fantastic time & such a great cause! Congrats on setting a new personal best time, too! emoticon

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    great job! loved the pics. you're an inspiration :)

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KROLES55 9/27/2010 12:31PM

    Great job. Enjoyed the pics.

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KARVY09 9/27/2010 12:17PM

    Looks like a wonderful race! Congrats on your PR and for doing this race for such a great cause!

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STARLIGHT615 9/27/2010 11:52AM

    Great job Sweetie!!!

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TES5061 9/27/2010 11:50AM

    That's fantastic! I am so proud and happy for you! What a great accomplishment! It looks like you had so much fun. I can't get over how wonderful it was that you had done this. Keep up the fantastic work! You are such an inspiration! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PAULACOLLINS 9/27/2010 11:47AM

    Absolutely wonderful! You are setting such a good example for your family besides all that you are doing for yourself. I can tell that God has much in store for you my friend ! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BUTTERFLYBLUE67 9/27/2010 11:46AM

    Congrats on your 5k, sounds like it was a bunch of family fun considering the reason's why it was created. Looks like it brought the family together for a special event.

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NICOLEMC2 9/27/2010 11:36AM

    Looks like you had a great time!!!!

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Shake it! A Weekend of Belly Dancing and Party in Pink! (Pics)

Monday, September 20, 2010

A year ago my ideal weekend would include lots of couch time, lots of fried foods, and lots of drinking. Perhaps a nap...or two.

The way I have changed not only physically, but mentally as well is just a true testimony to the things that are possible when you decide to make a change. And also the things possible through Christ, as He is truly the one who gives me my strength.

This weekend was chock-full with FUN and MOVEMENT! It started off Saturday night with a girl's night out at a local dance studio where belly dancing was the main event. It was a 2 hr. class of shaking our bellies and truly sweating in a sexy way :) My sister Kris and I went and I meant to take a picture of us in our coin skirts, but I forgot...perhaps it was the two bellinis that are to blame for that.

Then Sunday night I headed to the city with my cousin Kim and my sister Kris for the Party in Pink! Zumbathon at my friend Jenn's (KITHKINCAID)'s dance studio. Now she is a good spark friend of mine but we hadn't met yet. She is the person who inspired me to try Zumba, and so it was truly awesome to finally meet her in person AND zumba with her! I also realized that my Zumba class is nowhere near as intense as hers, I think I'm in the beginner's Zumba, or as Jenn so rightly said "No, you're just in Zumba in the Suburbs". LOL, so true! She rocked it and danced her butt off, and while I had a few missteps, I had a lot of fun. Thanks for a great time Jenn!!! You are an amazing, inspiring person and it was so nice to meet you and I'm looking forward to running with you in the Hot Chocolate 5k! You look Awesome by the way, my friend!!!!!!

I burned so many calories this weekend, and yes, my eating wasn't the GREATEST (I did have a taco party to attend Sunday as well), and I had a FEW drinks, BUT I tracked it all, and I think I came out even. Actually I still had a deficit for both days, Sat. I had a calorie differential of -345, and Sunday I had one of -172. And I had a ton of fun, so it was all worth it!

Here are some pictures of me with Jenn from last night. The first picture was accidentally taken as a video, but I was able to convert it into a picture :)

Before Zumba- me (right), Jenn (left)

After Zumba - me (left), Jenn (right)

After Zumba - body shot me (left), Jenn (right)

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TEMPEST272002 9/21/2010 11:32AM

    I hear so much about Zumba... but no classes in my area. It looks like it would be a lot of fun. I have taken belly-dancing classes (even have my own coin skirt)... and I find that to be a great workout.

I can totally relate to what you said about the changing mindset. I used to think a great weekend was staying in with greasy food & a movie... and now, hubby says I'm turning into the energizer bunny... doesn't it feel fabulous?!

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PEPPERLEAH 9/20/2010 11:00PM

    You look fantastic! Keep up the wonderful work!

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KSGROTHE 9/20/2010 4:40PM

    emoticon on being so active over the weekend! And how awesome that you got to meet another Sparker!

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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DAISYDIVA74 9/20/2010 4:10PM

    Sounds like a wonderful weekend!! So much fun!!

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TITALADY 9/20/2010 2:48PM

    emoticon So awesome!

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SHERLYN-WILL 9/20/2010 11:22AM

    SOUNDS LIKE A BLAST. YOU guys are so cute in your pictures!

YOU are looking SO SO SLIM!

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JMEPAYNE 9/20/2010 11:14AM

    I've been dying to try zumba! looks like fun!

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KARVY09 9/20/2010 10:48AM

    Sounds like a blast. And you two look so happy!

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ESBELL 9/20/2010 10:45AM

    What a fun weekend!

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AMBER281 9/20/2010 10:43AM

    Sounds like you had a great weekend!

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LOSING107 9/20/2010 10:41AM

    Sounds like a great time =)

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STARLIGHT615 9/20/2010 10:28AM

    Your weekend sounds fantastic!!

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PAULACOLLINS 9/20/2010 10:24AM

    Sounds like you had a wonderful weekend! Jeremiah 29:11

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Lucky number 13...Can I lose 13 lbs. by Halloween? Why, Yes I Can!

Monday, September 13, 2010

I just checked my "Fun Goals" and my next goal is to reach 88 lbs. lost and dress up like Marilyn Monroe for Halloween. I have 6 weeks to reach this goal. That is about 2 lbs. a week, plus 1 pound. The end is in sight, I think I can do this! No, I CAN do this! (I think I can, I think I can, I think I can).

I am going to be ON MY GAME the next 6 weeks and I am determined to make that fun goal a reality!

And 13 IS my lucky number. That's the date I was married, and I LOVE scary movies. So the number 13 just makes me giggle.

"The body is meant to be seen, not all covered up."

~ Marilyn Monroe

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PAULACOLLINS 9/14/2010 10:46AM

    You go girl!! emoticon

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MUSTANGMISSY 9/14/2010 9:02AM

    That is totally cool! You can do it! Love that Marilyn costume too!

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MOMFAN 9/14/2010 12:03AM

    Keep the focus!

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THENEWDARLENE 9/13/2010 10:10PM

    You KNOW you can do it!


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CARILOUIE 9/13/2010 9:22PM

    I love the Marilyn goal! And what a great quote...

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DAISYDIVA74 9/13/2010 8:12PM

    You go girl!! You got this!!

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GODSCLAY47 9/13/2010 6:13PM

    emoticon emoticon

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AMBER281 9/13/2010 5:30PM

    You totally got this!!!
What a great goal!

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YATMAMA 9/13/2010 4:49PM

    Yes, you WILL do it!! Your determination is such an inspiration. I love the Monroe quote!

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SERENITY44 9/13/2010 4:46PM

    Woo hoo!!


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KITHKINCAID 9/13/2010 4:31PM

    OMG you can TOTALLY do it! I want to see pics of that costume!

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COLT2008 9/13/2010 4:11PM

    emoticonYou are on a ROLL!!!

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TEMPEST272002 9/13/2010 4:04PM

    Absolutely, you can do it! 'Cause you ROCK! Halloween is my very fave holiday... creepy, scary... bring it on! And like you - I'm already planning this year's Halloween Costume. Previous years I've gone with gory/scary... but this year, I'm thinking sexy/funny. Hubby & I are going as Dolly Parton & Kenny Rogers. I can wait to see you as Marilyn - you're going to be HOT! emoticon

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CKAY22 9/13/2010 3:45PM

    Woo Hoo, i LOVE it!!! you can dooo it!

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JENJESS48 9/13/2010 3:42PM

    Great goal! emoticon

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KSGROTHE 9/13/2010 3:27PM

    What a fun goal! You've been doing so great, so I have no doubt that if you keep up the good work: emoticon

- Karen

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    Oh this is definitely fun!!!!! YOu can so do it! I have faith in ya!! Just look at her, isn't she beautiful?!!!! I totally know you can be there too!

BTW, 13 is an awesome number for me too! I even have 13 tattooed on the back of my ankle. Friday the 13th was the when one of my divorces was final, and ever since then I liked it. My favorite is 33...but 3 and 13 are just as fun to me! TOO CUTE :)

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