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Monday, January 29, 2007

Today I feel better about things. I don't feel so down on myself, and I feel there is hope. I am embracing life, and will embrace the challenges along the way, too. I have my pedometer on and am watching the steps add up. I feel like I am doing something healthy for myself.

A favorite website of mine is www.mythoughtcoach.com. There are meditations to end emotional eating and also affirmations to become a more happy person, to eat in moderation, even affirmations to become a better parent. There is a small fee to join, which I have, but there are also free meditations on this site. Check them out!

Be well and happy,


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CABS*MOM 1/29/2007 4:29PM

    Thank you for the kind comment you left on my page. It made my day. You also have a beautiful baby~
If you ever need anyone to talk to, Im hear, it does sound like we have the same goals. I am going to check out the website too! Have a great day!


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I want it NOW!

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Today I have really been feeling down. I have been working out, and bring my daughter to a baby swim on Saturday mornings. This past class my husband videotaped, and I saw myself in a swimsuit for the first time in at least 10 years. Oh my goodness. What a reality check.

Even though I know I weigh 276 pounds, I don't feel like it. I feel thin, when I look in the mirror, I see thin...but I'm not.

I have a deadline for my writing and I have been loafing around all day. See, I want my essays done and finished - without writing them.

The same with my weight loss. I have been down and depressed today, and instead of focusing on the positive changes I have made (back to working out, drinking water, incorporating fruits & veggies in my diet) I am looking at me - in my swimsuit - and I feel it is hopeless.

I can't have that instant gratification. Not with writing, and certainly not with my weight loss. I need to travel that road, go on that journey, and only then can I reach my goal. They say that life IS the journey. I am beginning to see that this is true.

I want to end with a quote by Anais Nin: “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. “

Be well,


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AKIMA06 4/14/2012 5:54PM

  I came to this blog to see what you felt like when you first started and I am glad I did. I see myself as thin also. It is only when I really look that I can see that I am overweight that and in pictures. When I see pictures of myself I can't believe I am that big, it is all like a bad dream. I am so happy for you that you have come so far. It gives me hope that maybe I can get to under 200 pounds also. It seems like so far to go and I am so stuck right now. My son came home from a group home and it has been so hard to exercise with him around. I have been sleeping my days away and not exercising at all and the food, well I have been doing okay but cheating alot and that isn't going to get me anywhere. Thank you for blogging so much it helps me to read them, to see how your journey has gone. and like Kim said above. Good Luck on reaching your goals.

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DIVARULZ 1/28/2007 11:56PM

    I'm so glad that I found this blog....I saw you in the Pregnancy Pounds be gone thread, saw that we have similar weight loss goals, and of course had to see your pics of your beautiful daughter. I checked out your blog, and you are the first person I've seen on here (or anywhere else for that matter) that thinks of themselves as thin. I am the same way, and always have been. I mean, I KNOW how fat I am, and know that I need to by size 24 jeans, but I don't FEEL like I'm that big...I've been overweight my whole life ( though didn't know it until I went to school and was called fat). Our family Dr. put me on a diet in 2nd grade. Anyway, I'll stop babbling, say HI!!, congrats on your precious baby, and if you don't mind, I'd like to add you as a friend. Maybe we can help each other make it to our ultimate goal on SP!!
Good Luck,

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