Saturday, February 03, 2007
Well I weighed myself today and the scale showed I went UP 3 lb. I am not sure how that happened, I had a great week - but I did have 2 glasses of wine at a party last night, and I tend to retain water when I have any alchohol. So I'm going to weigh myself again Monday, see what the scale says....I'm a little depressed about it.
A wonderful Spark friend of mine, Lara, encouraged me by saying that she looks at things, especially weight, like a wave. She says that "The wave rises and then it settles. The wave is when we are losing at great heights. The undertow is when we are being pulled under and gaining weight. The calm and settled stage is when we are holding our weight steady. "
I love this metahpor, and wanted to share it. It is so easy to get down on ourselves. One little weigh-in, and I feel like my week was all for nothing, when it wasn't. Those pounds lost will either show Monday, or next week. Big deal, right?
Initially the title of this blog entry was going to be "Weigh-In Disappointment". But I changed that to "Acceptance". I am where I am right NOW. I need to accept myself, and move on from here. From where I am NOW.
In Lovingkindness: The Revolutionary Art of Happiness, Sharon Salzberg writes that we believe that "if we abuse our minds enough with self-hatred and self-condemnation, somehow that abuse will be a path that liberates us, [but] generosity coming from self-hatred becomes martyrdom."
Geneen Roth says that "The only way to learn the difference between self-indulgence and self-kindness is to experience what self-kindness feels like. Declare it "Be Kind to Me" day, and get out there and start treating yourself as if you deserve every good thing. Because, in fact, you do."
A favorite quote of mine comes from Geneen Roth as well: "I am the same person no matter what the scale says."