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This week :-(

Saturday, October 24, 2009

well I have to admit I did do a bit better with my eating this week. I tracked my food and made mostly wise choices. I only exercised twice but to my credit it was for 40 minutes one day and 60 minutes the other. Its funny I feel bad about only working out two days because if I had of exercised 5 days this week for 20 minutes each time I would have felt good about it.... even though I exercised exactly the same amount of minutes.

Anyway, I ended up gaining 0.5 pounds this week. Its not alot but I want to have a really good week.

As the time gets closer and closer to christmas It gets harder and harder for me to stay on track. You know I dident think it would be this hard on me. It just seems that all the festive good holiday feelings I have engrained in me revolve around food some how. I saw pumpkin egg nog in the store yesterday and I really wanted to buy some but it was 400 calories for a small little bottle. I remember last year I gained 10 pounds in 2 weeks from drinking egg nog and eating christmas cookies. I must have bought 4 or 5 gallons of egg nog within that period. It was a bad time for me.

I dont want to blow everything I have accomplished and Im sure if I slacked off a bit I could get away with the holiday season without gaining any weight. I still eat pretty well but there are all the little extras here and there that get ya. I really do want to lose some more weight this year.

Why is it so hard?

I really feel like a failer right at this point. I want to turn off spark people and go hide under a rock somewhere. Its really really hard for me to get up here and write this blog. I like being a success and everyone seeing me as a success and its hard to say, you know what Im doing bad right now, Ive gained some weight, Ive eaten badly. I know if I crawl under the rock.... the thing I like to do when I do badly I will end up back tracking ... I will be under the rock eating and trying to forget I gained weight... which in turn will make me gain more.

well I will try and check in throughout the week... I want to have a good week so I need to make myself more accountable.

Jessica

  
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ATHENAFOREVER81 10/26/2009 10:34PM

    Congrats on staying with SP! Dont ever forget that you do have friends to help you stay motivated! What I usually do when I am struggling is read blogs about people's success, and of people who are really into fitness. You learn alot of information and seeing what they do sometimes inspired me to get up off of my bum! I have the same problem with the holiday treats! My weakness if for Hard Cider (apple cider with vodka) I bought a gallon of it this past weekend thinking well I will have a couple of glasses, but I didnt get to ABC in time for the vodka...lol. It still sits in my fridge.. but I know a little treat on halloween wont hurt me as long as its in moderation!

Dont worry about the .5 lb. If you are doing strength training you might have gained muscle and that will cause the scale to go up slightly before it comes back down!

Keep your head up and hang in there!!!

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LOSINGJESS 10/24/2009 3:29PM

    Thanks for all the great comments from everyone, It feels good to have people looking out for you. :-) I think I will start exercising every day for 20 minutes a day. Its not much to do 20 minutes and I think doing that instead of doing 40 minutes or an hour twice a week will be better for me... keeping me more on track.

Jessica

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LADYIRISH317 10/24/2009 11:23AM

    I've heard it said many times that you're only a failure if you quit trying -- and you obviously haven't quit! Hang in there and let your Sparkfriends support you.

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FADEDONE 10/24/2009 11:15AM

    *hug* you'll do great next week -- plus that might have just been a water fluctuation. If not, at least it wasn't more. :) Half a pound can be dropped quick if you jump up and start moving.

Re: eggnog. I dont know if this is something you'd consider trying, but personally I LOVE soymilk based eggnog. This stuff: http://www.silksoymilk.com/products
/silk-seasonal/nog you can get at most grocery stores around this time of year, and especially in November/December. Now that I drink this stuff I can't go back to the regular. It's not calorie free but it's alot better than the regular stuff and ALOT less fat. If you do decide to try it, let me know! :)

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NEVERFORGET911 10/24/2009 9:59AM

    I have not been eating healthy through a holiday season yet. I started my quest at a better lifestyle in March.

I haven't had too many problems yet with staying with my program, even on my birthday. I think that's because I want this so bad. My biggest motivator is ME and your biggest motivator is YOU.

You can come here for support. You can come here for recipes. You can come here to get nutritional advice, workout plans and advice, but ultimately YOU have to want it.

What do you have within you, Jess? Do you have what it takes to turn away from the eggnog? Do you have what it takes to bypass those holiday cookies? I believe that you do.

It's all within ourselves, hon. Keep your positive attitude. Know how well you've done and how well you will continue to do. Know that he strongest ally you have is within yourself.

Congratulations on passing up the eggnog ... and congratulations on your 54 lb weight loss. That is awesome ... YOU are awesome ... and you are worth the battle ... don't ever forget that!!!!

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SJK1997 10/24/2009 9:21AM

  Something that always helps me is if I stay focused on exercising even about 20 minutes a day I get to the point where I want to eat better so I don't 'undo' my exercise...it also helps me feel slightly less guilty when I have a glass of wine

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Get your head on straight Jessica!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I havent really had my head on straight the last two weeks. I geuss I have just had my head wrapped around other things that I kinda pushed my health to the back burner. I know I cant do that.

I havent gained any but I havent lost any either. Im not saying I totaly gave up and went back to old habits because I dident. I still ate reasonable portions most days and reasonably healthy food most days, but I dident track what I ate, I dont know how many calories or points I ate and I only exercised maybe two or three times in the last two weeks.

My anniversary came around and I was doing alot of sewing because I was altering my wedding gown to wear to the ren faire. My other sister moved into our house so now we have 4 adults and two children living in a very small 3 bedroom 1 bathroom house. My sisters have been getting on my nerves too so there is a certain amount of stress Im feeling at the moment. To wrap all that up money is really tight so I havent had alot of food I like eating around... so I tend to want to eat double of the food I dont like to make up for the fact that I dont like it in the first place (if the makes any sense at all).

I went to the ren faire yesterday and I had a good time... I ate food that was not very good for me. I ate a bread bowl of broccoli cheese soup... I had 2 apple ciders at the faire.... I came home and ate 2 1/2 brauts and 3 cresent rolls and then had two more apple ciders with rum and buttershots.

It was a heavy eating day to end two weeks of not so good eating. I stepped on the scale this morning to find I had not lost or gained. Im ok with that.

I am off to a good start today. I exercised 40 minutes all ready, I ate a healthy breakfast, I already drank 3 glasses of water, and I took my vitamin.

I will reach my goal of 200 or under by new years! I am still pretty much on track to do it, I just need to step up my game and think about why I started this and finally finish what I started.

Im smaller, my pants fit better, I feel really good about me....... but Im still a fat girl, I still cant fit into the clothes I want to wear, I am still at a very unhealthy weight, Im still obease. I cant settle for mediocrity! I wont settle!

Im worth doing this.... I just need to get my head straight and realize it.

Jessica

  
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FADEDONE 10/18/2009 11:09PM

    I relate to that last paragraph especially - I know I feel better than I do but I want to do SO MUCH MORE. So yea...lets not settle for less than total success. :)

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BRANDISMARG 10/18/2009 1:06PM

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Reached a small goal

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Well I weighed in yesterday morning and was surprised to find I had lost 6 pounds this past week! wow, I geuss really watching my food and keeping up with the exercised helped alot.

Im am now 218.7..... the 2teens! I have not been this weight since I was around 17 and I went from 180 - 310 in a year. Im 27 now so thats 10 years since I have been this size. ......... wow I feel old as crap now lol.

well anyway, I am feeling really good about myself and very thin...... well I was this afternoon anyway.... I went to the chinese buffet about an hour ago and I am feeling pretty stuffed right now.... even though I only went 10 points over what I am alloted for the day, I ate alot more than I normaly do so Im feeling quite bloated. blah.

Im feeling a bit guilty but I cant really beat myself up over it. You have to be able to work stuff like that in every once in a while.... you cant go on a "diet" and say oh Im never going to have chinese food for the rest of my life. I can work it in..... I did over do it a bit though, even though I was 100 times better than what I did before.... I only had like 3 fried cheese wontons, 1 teeny tiny peice of seasame chicken and 2 steamed dumplings from the fried traditional chinese food. The rest was sushi and hibatichi vegetables. uuuuugh... too much sushi!

well Im going to sleep of the food coma and have a great week! Im ready to make the push to 199! my next goal.

Jessica

  
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SHERLYNN43 10/4/2009 6:16AM

    6 pounds!!!! YESSSSSSS! That's great!!!! Wait until you hit 199! We're gonna be doing the happy dance for sure!!! Keep going! You're doing a fantastic job, girl!

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FADEDONE 10/3/2009 8:25PM

    Ok I could sooooo go for a cheese wonton right now. It would go nicely with the chocolate I just had. LoL. Chinese food is SO good though. I have to figure out more of how to eat healthy with it though. I tend to end up with lots of fried yumminess.

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MSDIAMOND600 10/3/2009 8:14PM

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Won't count till saturday ~

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

well I couldent help it and weighed myself mid-week. I felt thinner and was curious.
I stepped on the scale and have lost a little over 4 pounds since saturday. I know thats prob just fluctuation or whatever and I will prob not be down that much come saturday but it felt good to see and it makes me what to keep up the good work I have been doing the last few days.

It would sure be nice to be in the 2teens come this saturday. Im getting so much closer to under 200. Im really excited.

Jessica

  
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MEDDYPEDDY 9/30/2009 11:49AM

    emoticon Keep on sparking!

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KDENISEB 9/30/2009 11:16AM

    Congratulations! Keep it going! emoticon

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YAMINOKODOMO 9/30/2009 10:19AM

    emoticon Keep up the good work!!

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goals update + SPINACH DIP RECIPE

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

well the past two days I have done really well on the goals I set for myself. This morning I did not wake up when hubby did though :-( Im really lazy and really relish my 30 minutes extra before the kids get up. I told hubby I would exercise tonight durring the biggest loser.... which I really like doing cause its very motivating. I ended up working out for 50 minutes, which is 10 minutes over the goal I set for myself.

BTW... did anyone watch.... the girl on the purple team is an ass! OMG.

anyway I thought I would give everyone a treat.... here was my after workout snack... you can make and enjoy as well, its awesome.

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SPINACH DIP - 8 servings

2 POINTS PER SERVING (dont know the calories, sorry)

INGREDIENTS

10 oz cooked frozen spinach
4 oz canned water chestnuts
3 Tbsp grated Parmesan cheese
1/3 cup(s) Kraft Miracle Whip Light Salad Dressing
1 Tbsp Kraft Miracle Whip Light Salad Dressing
2 medium scallion(s)
1 clove(s) garlic clove(s)
4 Tbsp 2% reduced fat milk
1/2 cup(s) shredded fat-free cheddar cheese
1/2 cup(s) fat-free sour cream

INSTRUCTIONS

preheat oven to 325
cook garlic and green onion whites over medium heat till softened but not burned. set aside.
in med sauce pan melt cheese with milk.
Add mayo, sour cream, parmesan. stir untill mixed over low heat.
Add garlic, green onion, and water chestnuts and stir. Add in spinach and mix thouroghly.
spoon dip into medium casserole dish and bake for 20 - 25 minutes.

(CAN ALSO ADD ARTICHOKES IF YOU LIKE THEM, I DIDENT HAVE ANY TONIGHT SO I DIDENT USE THEM)

  
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REALMOMOF2 9/30/2009 4:44PM

    I agree Tracy is awful!

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TWILIGHTNAN 9/29/2009 11:11PM

    I'm watching it now and don't know the end results yet but I agree...Tracy doesn't deserve to be there!
oh and thanks for the recipe!

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STEVENTS 9/29/2009 10:44PM

  Thanks for the recipe.

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CORPUSKRISTY 9/29/2009 10:42PM

    Sounds yummy.

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