Sunday, October 18, 2009
I havent really had my head on straight the last two weeks. I geuss I have just had my head wrapped around other things that I kinda pushed my health to the back burner. I know I cant do that.
I havent gained any but I havent lost any either. Im not saying I totaly gave up and went back to old habits because I dident. I still ate reasonable portions most days and reasonably healthy food most days, but I dident track what I ate, I dont know how many calories or points I ate and I only exercised maybe two or three times in the last two weeks.
My anniversary came around and I was doing alot of sewing because I was altering my wedding gown to wear to the ren faire. My other sister moved into our house so now we have 4 adults and two children living in a very small 3 bedroom 1 bathroom house. My sisters have been getting on my nerves too so there is a certain amount of stress Im feeling at the moment. To wrap all that up money is really tight so I havent had alot of food I like eating around... so I tend to want to eat double of the food I dont like to make up for the fact that I dont like it in the first place (if the makes any sense at all).
I went to the ren faire yesterday and I had a good time... I ate food that was not very good for me. I ate a bread bowl of broccoli cheese soup... I had 2 apple ciders at the faire.... I came home and ate 2 1/2 brauts and 3 cresent rolls and then had two more apple ciders with rum and buttershots.
It was a heavy eating day to end two weeks of not so good eating. I stepped on the scale this morning to find I had not lost or gained. Im ok with that.
I am off to a good start today. I exercised 40 minutes all ready, I ate a healthy breakfast, I already drank 3 glasses of water, and I took my vitamin.
I will reach my goal of 200 or under by new years! I am still pretty much on track to do it, I just need to step up my game and think about why I started this and finally finish what I started.
Im smaller, my pants fit better, I feel really good about me....... but Im still a fat girl, I still cant fit into the clothes I want to wear, I am still at a very unhealthy weight, Im still obease. I cant settle for mediocrity! I wont settle!
Im worth doing this.... I just need to get my head straight and realize it.