Monday, January 23, 2012
well today will be my 5th day I think, of gluten free eating.
I suppose its been going ok. I have gone through a roller coaster of emotions the last few days. At first I was actually excited, and up for a challenge. I knew I needed to learn a new way to cook and learn about new foods and get creative. I went shopping and discovered that most foods, even foods that you would not think contain gluten, do in fact contain gluten.... Worst part is that even the foods that dont contain gluten have in some way come in contact with things that have touched gluten. Its frustrating... which is another emotion I had, frustration.
I also felt shock and outrage at the price of gluten free food. I know that there is alot that goes into making a gluten free product and the company has to most likely pay some sort of fee to be able to put gluten free on there product just like they have to do to put organic but I dont think it justifies charging $6 for a tiny bag of oatmeal or $6 for a tiny pack of chocolate sandwich cookies that is half the size of a pack of oreos. $5 dollars for a box of brownie mix which is half the size of a regular box of brownies. I feel like they are just trying to take advantage of someone with a medical condition because they know we will eventually break down and want a sandwich on that gluten free bread or want a brownie because everyone around us can have brownies.
I was exausted saturday afternoon from shopping and reading lables. I came home and I had been out shopping twice as long as normal because going through ingredient lists take time and I had to drive like 30 minutes out of the way to one store because I herd trader joes has a lot of gluten free food and the closest is 30 min away.
I got home and gave the family the mcdonalds I got for them. I wanted to sit down and relax... instead I had to make food for myself. I was not in a good mood.
That night I sat down to eat dinner and went through a little denile. "Oh maybe Im not gluten intolerant. Maybe I have just been eating something with dairy and not knowing it. Maybe I am just lactose intolerant." But then I think about the pasta and shrimp that I ate the one night and got really sick from it. I checked the ingredient list really well to make sure there was no dairy and I still got sick.
The next (yesterday) I was really irretable, hungry and depressed. I snapped at my husband as I was making him and my children pancakes. I was really hungry and just wanted to sit down and eat. I served all of them and then I had to pull out the gluten free cook book I got from the library and make myself pancakes. My husband was like "why dont you just make eggs for yourself and you wont have to go through all of that" I ended up yelling at him and feel bad about it now. I told him that I had been eating eggs for the past 4 days and I dident want anymore bleeping eggs. about 20 minutes later I sat down to eat and appologized.
I poured my syrup all over my pancakes and took a few bites and my husband asked me "are you sure that syrup is gluten free? all the Aldi foods that you have been buying say "gluten free" on the lable if they are". I broke down at that point and cried my eyes out and my husband repetedly said he was sorry but I could not stop crying.
After I calmed down I told him it wasnt his fault and told him he was right... my syrup was not gluten free. Aldi lists everything that is gluten free as gluten free on the label. Even the green beans.
I feel like Im on adkins... I cant eat certain foods.... but its much worse because I know I wont be able to eat thouse food forever and whats worse is that when your on adkins you dont have to worry about your beef jerkey being cross contaminated by bread because trace amounts of carbs are not going to affect you.
All the books I have read these people say "oh pretty soon you will stop focusing on food so much and you will learn there is more to life than eating. Food wont matter anymore. yada yada yada". I have a hhhhhuuuuggggeee feeling that all of these people saying this have never had a weight problem. They found out they had celiac disease and they were 120 pounds and already didnt really focus on food that much. I on the other had think about food all the time. I love food. I blog about food. I take pictures of my food. I spend hours looking up new foods to eat and scanning restaurant menus. I watch TV shows about food every night and when Im not watching them Im watching TV shows about people who ate too much food or the wrong food and are now eating healthy food to lose weight. I will never get to the point where food is not a huge focus for me, a point where there is so much more to life than eating. Its horrible and I wish it was not true... but it is.
So I was really depressed and figured it would be good for me to get out of the house and do something relaxing. I looked up some restaurants with gluten free menus and found that ruby tuesdays had one. That is my go to place to it was pretty perfect.
I informed the waitress about the whole no gluten thing, told her that my food cant touch pans that have been cooked with other food, ect. I got a steak, a baked potato and some spaghetti squash, all of which is on the gluten free menu. I ordered a tequilla sunrise because I read they are gluten free. I skipped the salad bar just in case a stray cruton had touched anything.
Dinner was really great and I felt like a normal person for the first time in a few days.
We went to a movie and then came home.
I got on the elliptical before bed because I had yet to workout and I am still on my exercise streak. Yesterday was my 22nd day straight. I was going to do a good 30 minutes but at about 5 minutes my stomach started hurting and I looked down and looked like I was 3 months pregnant. I could barely get through 15 minutes and ended up calling it at that. I was in pain, bloated and had horrible gas.
Looks like my meal was not as gluten free as I thought. ::sigh::
I went to bed curled up in a little painful ball. The symptoms that were annoying last week when I was eating gluten all the time are now completely horrible now that I have cut it out.
I have determined that eating out is really not safe... at least not on a normal basis. I cant say that I will never eat out again because I know some day I will have to and really want to. Its sad though... I have a lot of things that I have not been able to break and eating out has been one of them... another is nibbling when I am preparing food (which I have also had to tackle, since I am preparing food for my family still that has gluten)
I plan on going gluten free with all my cooking and food prep. I figure it will just be easier. I have some foods that contain gluten that I have to go through first though because I can throw them away considering my family can still eat them. It bothers me having them in the kitchen though, I cleaned out my whole kitchen and put them all in a bottom cabinet until they are gone through.
This whole change is hard and it sucks and I am having a really rough time right now. I went through this whole weight loss journey and one of the things that helped was not depriving myself and now I feel like thats all Im doing. I know I can make substutions for foods I like but its not that easy because I still have to stay on a budget. You need a surprising amount of things to make gluten free bread. I got some baking mix on sale at this health food store but I still need a few other types of flours which are hard to find and expensive and xanthum gum which I have to special order.
I know it will get easier as time goes on or at least thats what others have said. Right now I am just trying to take it one day at a time. I geuss thats all I can do.
Thanks for listening.
Friday, January 20, 2012
After a day and a half of gluten free eating I have had no problems with gas, bloating or unpleasant smells. I am so happy.
I look skinny too. I was having problems fitting into my pants a few days ago, infact I was muffin topping over the waist band. Today I look amazing in them. It's crazy how much bigger my mid section was just from gas.
Posted the pic on my Facebook because I couldn't upload pic to this blog from my phone. Sorry to any who can't see it.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
For a few years now I have been battling problems with my stomach, gas, bloating, cramps. Its horrible. About 2 years ago after dealing with the problems for a year I thought, hey maybe I'm lactose intolerant. So I cut out all dairy and the problems got better, a week later I ate a big bowl of cereal with milk and boom, problems back.
I discovered milk did me in but I could still eat small amounts of ice cream, cheese, yogurt and other dairy. I switched to almond milk and was pretty good but slowly over the next year I started having problems again, had to cut out the ice cream, and then the cheese and yogurt and its gotten to the point where any small amount of dairy in baked goods will give me problems.
Over the past few months even when I eat nothing with dairy I have problems. Its been getting worse and worse and now I find it hard to go to the gym or out restaurants or even shopping because I am so flatulent (its reeeealy bad) and I cant just let it rip so I am in constant pain when in public. At home is not much better because even though I don't have to keep bottled up I feel disgusting and smell even worse.... my poor family. Plus I am still in pain.
A week ago my sister mentioned that maybe I had celiac disease. Our aunt was diagnosed with it a few years ago but I dident know what it was, I just know everyone in my family thought my aunt was a hypochondriac already so it was just another thing she thought she had and I never paid it any mind. I did some reading on it the past week and I now kinda feel bad I thought that of my aunt because all the problems she had for years before she was diagnosed can be caused by celiac. Turns out it makes your body attack itself when you eat wheat and one person can have one list of symptoms while another person has completely different symptoms. My stomach cramps, bloating, gas and it turns out lactose intolerance are all symptoms.
I went to the doctor today and told him my lactose intolerance story and before I could even ask to be tested for Celiac Disease he suggested that might be my problem. I told him that this past week I experimented with eating no gluten during the day and then eating something with gluten at night and getting horrible gas and cramps after having no problems at all during the day and he said after hearing that he is almost certain that is what I have.
I got blood tests and set up a nutritionist appointment and he told me I should start a gluten free diet right away.
So wow, I guess no more chips or bagels or garlic bread or lots of other stuff. It kinda makes you think twice about eating something with gluten when you know your basically killing your intestines. I am hoping that it wont be too hard though, but I am going to try and stay positive and know I have found creative solutions to eating low calorie and healthy, I can do the same in this situation.
Anyone eat gluten free? Any tips?
Sunday, January 08, 2012
well I decided to give you a peak into my very un-organized kitchen. I just went shopping for the next 2 weeks and I just cleaned my fridge which had not been thoroughly cleaned in too long to tell you because its embarrassing. lol. Its clean now though.
water water water - got the big pitcher so i would not have to keep filling it
egg whites & eggs
left over corn
light cool whip
chocolate syrup - kids chocolate milk
grenedine syrup - really bad but it lasts a long time and I like a shirley temple now and then
left over chicken
sour cream - light
light hot dogs
I also have some homemade vegetable soup in there now which is not pictured because I just made it. plan on eating it with lunches.
lettuce, avocados, carrots, cellery, cilantro, spinach, oranges, apples & grapefruit!
FRIDGE SIDE DOOR
pretty much all condiments and then milk, almond milk, juice and I also keep a few bottles of water M- mom D- Dad A- Aiden... Sippy cup is Lyra
ok this part not so clean and organized. lol
found these new wasa crackers... tried them tonight and they were not too bad, very light and not as cardboardy as the other wasa crackers I have tried. Only like 60 calories per serving.
These cocoa roasted almonds are really great too and I think you get a decent amount for only 100 calories. They make you feel like your indulging which is great for keeping yourself on track.
These i got for my sons birthday. I decided to make cupcakes because lets face it me and hubby just cant control ourselves when it comes to desserts. Single serve all the way. Most cake mixes make 24 cupcakes though and thats way too much, I was happy when I found a cupcake mix that made a smaller amount.
Breakfast foods - pancakes, cream of wheat, grits, fiber one and some new cereal I got from aldi... have not tried the aldi cereal yet but its suppose to compare to go lean crunch by kashi... aldi claims are a little hit or miss though I had some stuff that is awesome and some that sucked. I will let you know how this adds up.
MiO liquid water enchancer - got this as a 3 pack at sams club yesterday. really really good and 72 servings for only 10 dollars.
The whole messy cabinet - went over most of the stuff but other than that I got some puff corn, chocolate special k, puff corn and crackers all for the kids, natural apple sauce cups for lunches for hubby and aiden, special k chips which i have not tried yet, taco shells and mustard ( so disoranized lol) Peanut butter, bread, croutons, bacon bits and a crap ton of tea... i also have a box of brownies that I make individual brownies out of. You just take 2 tbls of brownie mix combined with 1 tbls of canned pumpkin, mix it up and microwave it in a small bowl for 1 minute... soooo good!!!
CANNED FOOD & PASTA CABINET
pasta sauce, pasta, barley, blackeyed peas, kidney beans, cannellini beans, black beans, chick peas, BEANS BEANS BEANS!!!, lol, chopped chilis, canned diced tomatoes, tomato paste, pumpkin, Salmon, and hiding in the back there is some sort of chili sauce that my mother in law gave me.... been there for months.
more beans, lentils, brown rice, whole wheat spaghetti, baby oranges for the kids, green beans, black beans, rotini, diced tomatoes.
next cabinet - Protien powder: never tried the soy before but i really wanted to start drinking protien shakes again because i stayed pretty full when I drank them.
pasta, splenda, oatmeal, crap ton of cup noodles, its a nice quick meal for the kids occassionaly but its not something we eat very often
TOP OF FRIDGE & SIDE TABLE
More Oranges & Grapefruit, Bananas, Sweet potatoes, sweet onions, red poatoes, apples
Forgot to take a picture of this but you would find a few diet frozen dinners, left over ham from Christmas for beans, a huge bag of frozen mixed berries, a smaller bag of blueberries, chicken breasts, lean ground turkey, loaves of bread, tortillas, sweet potato fries, broccoli, peas, green beans, coffee ice cubes for ice coffee drinks, thin crust pizza, jimmy dean fully cooked turkey sausage patties, chicken egg rolls, Christmas chocolate (I keep that in my deep freezer out on my deck, homemade lasagna, Gordon's herb shrimp, low fat orange sherbert ice cream bars, hot dog buns, .... I think that's it.
Well hope you enjoyed my kitchen, just something to do :-p
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