Tuesday, December 20, 2011
this year has been hard. I came up with the bright idea to invite my entire family over to my house for a christmas party on the 17th. I decided I would make christmas cookies and chocolate truffles for the party and make enough to fill a box for everyone coming as well. I bought a bunch of food, none of it low calorie because my family usually does not opt for lower calorie and it was a special occasion, I got a gallon of egg nog, made sangria, ect ect.. I needed a lot of food because there are 17 of us in all... nothing good about the items I made but it was a one time occasion.
I figured I was strong enough not to nibble on the cookies... I was not. I was so looking forward to this past saturday so I could get all this crap out of my house. Well every memeber of my family cancled so I did not have the party I was looking forward to. I was very upset. They all said they were sick but I think they just did not want to come. This is the way my family is... it was like pulling teeth just to get them to come to my wedding 4 years ago... why would this be any different?
So here I am in a house full of bad food and Im feeling really bad because my whole family cancled on my party.... I was already upset to begin with because no one called me on my 30th birthday and then my mom said she didnt call me on purpose because I didnt get her a present this year for her birthday.
I ate... and ate. I was trying to be good but the stuff was around.
I finally managed to get hubby to throw away the rest of the cookies. It was really hard to do because I spent a lot of money on the ingredients. I did not have anyone to give them to though and I was going to gain another 10 pounds if I kept eating them. .... Not to mention I have felt like crap every day.
So I stepped on the scale this morning. I feel bad and I have a chest cold and I have gained 4 pounds in the past two weeks. I now weigh 164 pounds. thats 2 pounds above my weight watchers goal which means that if I am still this weight next time I weigh in then I will have to pay.
I have got to get my butt back on track right now.
I joined a gym last week so that should help... Just gotta get my butt out of the door at night after the kids go to sleep.
well thats how things are going right now. I am looking forward to christmas still even though. I am also looking foward to it being over though, its much eaiser to stay on track after the holidays are over.
Hope everyone is doing better than I am. :-)