Monday, November 14, 2011
Breakfast - 1 cup oatmeal
1/2 cup blueberries
1/2 tbls almonds, sliced
1 cup almond milk, unsweetened
6 points plus
Lunch - smart ones sesame chicken
1/2 cup green beans
8 points plus
Snack - 1/2 cup blueberries
1 serving light butter pecan ice cream
1 serving cool whip, light
Dinner - Ruby Tuesday to - go
Ruby Tuesday Avocado Turkey burger - 1/2 portion
1 serving mashed cauliflower
and a swiped peice of Cici's pizza that I did not plan on eating but did
26 points plus
Daily Target: 29 points
Total Points used today: 44
weekly points remaining: 28 out of 49
I felt bad about what I ate for dinner at first, really horribly guilty. Here is the story. My birthday is next week on the 20th and I signed up for all these free birthday offers from restuarants last year. I got a free birthday burger coupon yesterday from ruby tuesday so I figured that me and my hubby could split the meal and it would be free and not too bad on points. Then I looked up the points and found out how many points I would be using if I did that and decided I would let hubby take the burger and I would eat the salad I got on the side.
I got the food home and was sooo hungry and the burger looked really good so I changed my mind and split it. I felt bad afterwards though, like I should have been perfect yesterday because I was doing this food blog and people would see what I ate. I came so close to not taking the picture and just skipping Sunday all together, or at least removing the slice of pizza that really made me look like a pig, before I took the picture, but I really wanted to be honest about what I ate, so I took the picture of everything real fast before I changed my mind, ate it and then I tracked it and I owned up to it.... even that slice of pizza I took from the kids food, which was not planned at all, it just looked good at the time.
Paying for it today though. even with two lactaid the meal has really torn my stomach up. I have been eating alot of dairy lately and a lot of lactaid with it and the lactaid is not really helping much, so I need to really cut back like I was before.
I have decided that I should not feel bad about what I ate last night though. I have been trying to hard to be perfect and maybe that is my problem. I try to be perfect and then fail at it, because I am not perfect... no one is. I was not perfect when I lost all my weight, so why should I be perfect now that I am trying to lose the last 10lbs? During my whole weight loss journey I would go to meetings on Saturday morning, I would weigh in and usually do pretty good and then you know what I would do? I would go out that night and eat anything I wanted. I would go out to Ruby Tuesday or Fridays or the chinese buffet even and I would eat what ever I wanted and blow every single weekly point I had! I knew thats what I would do, I planned it and it worked for me. I would do great the rest of the week and I would feel no guilt at all for doing it because I tracked it and it was allowed. I always figured maybe I would lose a little more than 1 pound a week if I cut that out but I never did and maybe that is a good thing, because maybe I would have felt crazy like I do now and eat bad things throughout the week instead of on one controled day.
Maybe I need to bring my Saturday ritual back. Maybe I have just been trying to be too perfect because I feel like I need to live up to the pride I feel in myself and the pride others feel in me. I dont need to do that though, I am human, I am not perfect and I am posting the pictures of my horrible meal... made a little less horrible by the fact that I did split it in half.
I thought I would feel embarrassed doing that, but I dont. I just know that I am now going to keep the eating that I do, like this, to the weekends so I dont go overboard anymore.
I hope everyone is having a great start to the week.
I am in a good mood, It is the first day that I start training as a receptionist working for weight watchers. I am a bit nervous and a bit excited, I am just hoping I dont fail horribly.