Wednesday, May 18, 2011
I was just thinking about my weight loss total and I was not sure what number I was at right now. I just had not been keeping up with it. When ever anyone asks me how much I have lost I just kinda say, oh 100 and something.
so I was curious so I pulled out the calculator and it turns out I have lost 155 pounds total... which is weird because I weigh exactly 155 pounds currently.
Wow... I never thought I would lose half of my body weight, but I do weigh exactly half of what I once weighed. Its kinda surreal.
Highest weight: 310
Start weight: 273
Current weight: 155
Total lost since highest: 155
Total lost since start: 118
I like those numbers :-)
Thursday, May 12, 2011
breakfast - 2 fried eggs, 2 slices turkey bacon, sauteed spinach, mushrooms, zuccini & peppers, 1 tbls salsa
Lunch - BST sandwich (turkey bacon, spinach, tomato, light mayo on 2 slices sara lee 45 calorie delightful bread)
1/2 cup carrots, 1 tbls hidden valley bacon ranch
Dinner - orzo casserole - 1 serving - 1/2 cup orzo, 2 oz lean ground beef, diced onion, canned diced tomato, salt & pepper, 1/4 cup shredded 2% cheddar cheese
1 cup green beans
small salad w/ tomato, hidden valley bacon ranch, bacon bits and mushroom
snack - 25 calorie popcicle (not shown)
snack - Raspberry ricotta ice cream (tastes awesome and has protien!)
1/3 cup part skim ricotta cheese, mixed with 1/8 - 1/4 packet sugar free raspberry jello mix. spread in a thin layer in a cereal size bowl and put in freezer for about 15 minutes until just starting to freeze. Mix up and put a little bit of milk or almond milk to make smooth - about a tablespoon
serve with whipped topping & fresh or thawed frozen berries
1351 calories - a bit low for the day but I just did not want to eat anymore
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Yesterday was a good day in general. The past few days have been pretty good actually, I would not say spectacular but pretty good. I have been eating on track and getting my exercise in most days. It has been helping that the weather has gone back to being super warm after a week of it reverting back to artic temperatures. It was damn cold last week and all I wanted to do was crawl into bed under the covers and only peak my head out to eat full fat comfort foods. I did not do that though, I still got my workouts in on most days and ate pretty healthy and just tried to keep in mind that warm weather would soon return.
I spent yesterday and the day before outside alot of the time. I took the kids out on Sunday and let them play in the dirt while my husband worked on his car. He has taken half the engine apart in the last 1 1/2 months and is now in the process of replacing the parts that went bad and putting it back together. It would have most likely taken less time if he was experienced in fixing cars but he is not a mechanic, he is a computer programmer. lol. But he also happens to be an extremely smart guy who can pretty much fix anything he puts his mind to... so I have alot of faith that once he does finally get it put all back together, it will run again. ::crosses fingers::
I really hope so anyway, because I have been without a car during the day for almost two months now and I want my freedom back. With warmer weather rolling in I want so badly to go to the park during the day with my daughter and get some activity and sunshine in.
Anyway, yesterday I cleaned off the back deck... In preparation to scrub it down and finish staining it. Last year I started staining it and only got it half completed. I cant wait to get some nice lawn furniture back there and put up my screened in awning and really enjoy the outside this summer, instead of being cooped up in the house. I also cleaned up the covered porch area where we have piled crap over the winter. I still had Fall and Christmas decorations out there that had not been put back into boxes. I got all that packed up and ready to go into the atic. better late than never I guess.
Last night we had dinner outside on the back deck which was really nice. We had oven fried chicken, corn on the cob and broccoli & cheese orzo. It was a great meal. When the kids were done they had fun picking up the acorns that had fallen between the slats of the deck. Lyra thought they were peanuts and kept trying to eat them. lol.
I put the kids to bed at 7pm and Aiden who is in kindergarten, read me Green eggs and ham. I swear its like I had never herd the book before until he read it to me. I have to say it was seemed like such a simple thing but it was amazing to me.... He was just a baby only a second ago and now he is reading. I know I will remember that forever. I was so proud of him.
It was a great day but then I came in my room to give Bow (like a bow tie) the hamster his medicine, (he has been sick with the hamster flu and we took him to the vet and they gave me medicine to give him last week) and clean his cage like I do every night and he just was not looking good. He was breathing hard and had his little face pressed up in the corner of the glass tank. I picked him up by the scruff of his neck and turned him over on his back to give him the medicine and instead of licking it up out of the dropper he just kinda let it roll down his chin onto his belly. He was not looking good at all.
I put him in his ball and he slowly pushed it across the floor and I took his cage into the kitchen to clean it. The vet said we need to clean his cage every night so any bacteria did not reinfect him. I was trying really hard to make sure I did everything the vet said because I really wanted Bow to get better.
I came back into the room with the clean cage and put down the news paper and was about to put in the wood shavings for him to sleep on. I stopped myself and figured I better check on him just in case. I looked around the room and over by my dresser was Bow's hamster ball, laying still. He was laying down on his side, so peaceful and I pretty much knew right then that bow was no longer with us. I picked up the ball and he wasn't breathing, just laying there. I said good bye and then started crying.
I felt two things.... really sad and really silly. Sad because I had gotten really attached to this furry little creature and silly because I had gotten so attached that I was now crying over a hamster when most people would just flush and be done with it. Not that I could flush bow, he was a really fat hamster.
I searched at alot of pet stores to find the perfect hamster for Aiden's Birthday. It was his first pet and I wanted it to be really special. Pet smarts hamsters were all really tiny and I wanted a big fat hamster that was really holdable. I went to a little pet store and when I looked into the cages I saw a really fat black teddy bear hamster, he was huge and he came right up to the glass and looked at me, he seemed like a really playful hamster. I knew he was the right one.
So now Bow the hamster is buried in the back yard, under a large rock that encircles a small fruit tree. He was a good and happy little hamster and I feel bad that I could not help make him better. The vet said though that what he had was almost always fatal. I guess I got my hopes up because he really seemed like he was getting better the last few days. He had a really good last few days. I guess that is one good thing.
So I am feeling a bit better now... still silly, but not as sad. I broke the news to Aiden this morning but he really didn't seem fazed by it at all. I guess that is a good thing. I really did not want to have to deal with the whole death conversation for a few more years. I figured that this pet would last that long. sigh.
I have to say though, that Last night I wanted to just sit down and eat. I felt really horrible and wanted to run through a few bowls of ice cream, or some bread, or something of the sort. I felt like that would really make me feel alot better. Instead I made a cup of tea and went to sleep early. Im really proud of myself for that.
well thanks to who ever reads this for listening to me mourning over a hamster. Silly I know. I am an emotional person anyway... I'm not too surprised by myself.
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