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Wednesday, May 18, 2011


I was just thinking about my weight loss total and I was not sure what number I was at right now. I just had not been keeping up with it. When ever anyone asks me how much I have lost I just kinda say, oh 100 and something.

so I was curious so I pulled out the calculator and it turns out I have lost 155 pounds total... which is weird because I weigh exactly 155 pounds currently.

Wow... I never thought I would lose half of my body weight, but I do weigh exactly half of what I once weighed. Its kinda surreal.

Highest weight: 310
Start weight: 273
Current weight: 155
Total lost since highest: 155
Total lost since start: 118

I like those numbers :-)

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DAVEW175 6/19/2011 7:17AM

    You're looking great! What an inspiration!

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IMAGINE_IT 6/9/2011 9:28AM

    You have done an amazing job!! Be very proud of yourself! emoticon emoticon

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SEXYFITME 6/1/2011 9:46AM

    That is amazing!!!

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MOMMACASSEY 5/20/2011 1:05PM

    Congratulations! That's the result of a lot of hard work--thanks for the inspiration!

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STASKER 5/20/2011 8:43AM

  The is AWESOME!! You are an inspiration!!!

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ALLEY2300 5/20/2011 2:10AM

    That is great! Way to go!

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KIRKEN2 5/20/2011 12:24AM

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that is so awesome! you have lost a whole you!

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LINDA! 5/18/2011 5:40PM

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CECE0330 5/18/2011 3:24PM

    That is AMAZING!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BOVEY63 5/18/2011 12:03PM

    Those are pretty darn awesome numbers! You really are an inspiration!
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CRK910 5/18/2011 11:36AM

    Awesome job jess.
Way to go!

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TREASURINGLIFE 5/18/2011 11:03AM

    Those are amazingly fantastic numbers for which you should feel VERY proud of!!!!!!!!! :)

- Michelle

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SWEETNEENI 5/18/2011 10:59AM

    I want to be just like you someday. emoticon emoticon

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RUTHANNE100 5/18/2011 10:54AM

    You've accomplished so much!! What an inspiration you are!

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JENNIFER0807 5/18/2011 10:47AM

    Hey Girl,
thanks for commenting on my blog about my lil girl. i'll take all the help i can get. :)
Your weight loss is amazing. can't believe you used to be twice your size.

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LISA01605 5/18/2011 10:34AM

    You are an inspiration!

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SIMPLYABUNDANT 5/18/2011 10:26AM

    Those are great numbers to have ~ and easy to remember! You know those reveals where the person who's lost weight holds up the pair of jeans they wore when then started out and they drop them, to reveal they've been standing behind just one pant leg? That's YOU! YAY!
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MALIAN1 5/18/2011 10:23AM

    I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO proud of you!!! That is amazing! What a success story...Way to Go!

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    What emoticon numbers!!!! You can do anything you want to do!!! emoticon

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MALEXANDER4 5/18/2011 10:10AM

    I can't begin to tell ya what and inspiration you are to me. You have shown me that it can be done and I just need to set my mind and do it. Thank you Jess for sharing your journey and sharing your food blogs. I always look forward to reading your blogs.

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SARAHJ19 5/18/2011 10:02AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Holla! You go girl! That is so great!!!!!!! You should be so proud!

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BUBBLES1541 5/18/2011 9:51AM

    Way to go!!!

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Food blog Wednesday 5/11

Thursday, May 12, 2011

breakfast - 2 fried eggs, 2 slices turkey bacon, sauteed spinach, mushrooms, zuccini & peppers, 1 tbls salsa

Lunch - BST sandwich (turkey bacon, spinach, tomato, light mayo on 2 slices sara lee 45 calorie delightful bread)
1/2 cup carrots, 1 tbls hidden valley bacon ranch

Dinner - orzo casserole - 1 serving - 1/2 cup orzo, 2 oz lean ground beef, diced onion, canned diced tomato, salt & pepper, 1/4 cup shredded 2% cheddar cheese
1 cup green beans
small salad w/ tomato, hidden valley bacon ranch, bacon bits and mushroom

snack - 25 calorie popcicle (not shown)

snack - Raspberry ricotta ice cream (tastes awesome and has protien!)
1/3 cup part skim ricotta cheese, mixed with 1/8 - 1/4 packet sugar free raspberry jello mix. spread in a thin layer in a cereal size bowl and put in freezer for about 15 minutes until just starting to freeze. Mix up and put a little bit of milk or almond milk to make smooth - about a tablespoon
serve with whipped topping & fresh or thawed frozen berries

1351 calories - a bit low for the day but I just did not want to eat anymore

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IMAGINE_IT 6/9/2011 9:25AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I always love your food blogs!!!
I have to try the Raspberry ricotta ice cream...it looks and sounds yummy!!

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MAMAFEELGOOD 5/13/2011 4:51PM

    I have missed these. Thanks for posting

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    Your food looks delish! especially the frozen raspberry stuff! creative way to solve your icecream cravings!

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BOVEY63 5/12/2011 12:39PM

    Can you please come prepare and cook my meals? Yours look so yummy!

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HEIDIC75 5/12/2011 11:05AM

    yummie!!!!! emoticon

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JENNIFER0807 5/12/2011 9:52AM

    your meals look so hearty and tasty! Good job! emoticon yum

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BRENDAF761 5/12/2011 9:16AM

    Your meals look so good! Thanks for sharing your ideas. It's great to get some new food ideas! emoticon emoticon

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    I think food blogs force you to really pay attention what you're eating. emoticon

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    I love food blogs and your meals look delicious! emoticon

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BAKER1009 5/12/2011 8:29AM

    That all looks awesome! Quit the little chef you are!

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4EVERFIT011 5/12/2011 8:29AM

    What and excellent idea on the Raspberry Ricotta ice cream. I will definitely be making that soon. You had some yummy ideas. I will be checking your blog more regularly. Have a good day.
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MALEXANDER4 5/12/2011 7:48AM

    I have always loved your food blogs. You are so original and I get so many ideas from you. Thank you.

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Painting class is over. Photos of my final two paintings (warning nudity)

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

well tonight was the last night of my painting class and I had a really good time doing it. I really surprised myself with what I came up with ... although not as good as I envisioned them in my head they made me feel something when I looked at them so I know they are pretty good. I am really hoping I progress more with it in the future.

My next class is sculpting which I am really looking forward to... I have a feeling that I am going to be a bad ass sculpter. lol.

Here are my last two painting. I finished 4 in all for the class. (the first two I posted in a previous blog)


Untitled Tree
acrylic & sand


This was an abstract self portrait that I just finished. I really wanted to capture not only the physical aspects of going from obese to healthy but also the emotional change. When you go from being large to being small there is an emotional battle that you go through to mentally adopt your new body as being your own. Also I painted the hair all fiery in contrast to the dead looking shell of the cocoon, to represent how much more alive, free and confident I feel now compared to how I felt when i weighed around 300 pounds.

Not yet titled
Acrylic & liquid gold leaf


both paintings are pretty big btw... the tree comes from my feet to my stomach and the self portrait comes from around my feet to my chest. woosh, hard taking them to class on windy days lol... like carrying a boat sail around lol.

Feel free to give me positive or negative criticism

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JANRTEACH 5/12/2011 11:33AM

    I really like both of them and the feel that they have. Bravo./

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GOODBYEHORSES 5/11/2011 5:25PM

    They would both look incredible hanging in my home! emoticon The self portrait really speaks to me though. I think we all feel just like that.

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CARTONIFIED 5/11/2011 2:49PM

    They're both AMAZING.

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    The visual of your new self emerging from your old cocoon is just astounding! WONDERFUL! Congratulations!

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BOVEY63 5/11/2011 12:24PM

    beautiful paintings - I love how you depicted your weight loss!

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    I LOVE LOVE LOVE them both but the 2nd one......that is fantastic! absolutely stunning!

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JELLI-LEAN 5/11/2011 12:03PM

    WOW...you know how to capture what you were feeling when you were heavy and became thin! You paintings are wonderful...I am a painter myself, just haven't done any for several years!

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MALIAN1 5/11/2011 11:13AM

    Beautiful!!! You are amazing!

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WISCHY30 5/11/2011 10:15AM

    Those are absolutely beautiful-I love them!!

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41SUSAN14 5/11/2011 10:10AM

    Very inspirational

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BAKER1009 5/11/2011 9:55AM

    Those are all great! I especially love the last one. That is a great way to capture the journey of living healthy and losing weight. Great job! I can't wait to see what you sculpt!

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MOMJMGR 5/11/2011 9:32AM

    Love them both. What great talent!

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LISA01605 5/11/2011 9:17AM

    I love your work. The self portrait is so right on. I love the imagery of emerging from a cocoon of fat. You are very talented.

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    What amazing and beautiful work! I especially liked the second one ~ so visceral, that breaking free, that emergence, the escape of butterflies swirling around the newborn woman as she rises from (and above) her old self. It truly spoke to me. Wonderful!

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ASHARON 5/11/2011 8:43AM

    Wow they are both so great!

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WATCHMEGO2 5/11/2011 8:02AM

    awesome. awesome. awesome.
That's all I can say.

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HISARTIST 5/11/2011 7:58AM

    Great work!! I love the self portrait!! I can really see and feel the emotion behind the work, which is what we all strive for as artists. Congratulations, and I can't wait to see your sculptures!!!

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PRINCESSNURSE 5/11/2011 7:41AM

    They are both beautiful, but I LOVE the second one!

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ANGELCOWBOY1 5/11/2011 7:17AM

    Beautiful work !

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MALEXANDER4 5/11/2011 7:12AM

    Again Jess you move me. I have always seen you as beautiful and now you see you that way also. You inspired me to run my first 5k and For that I thank you. You have so much talent my friend. I have to tell ya I feel like that a lot of the time. I'm starting to see the new me but some days it is very hard.

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GEMINI-SKY 5/11/2011 6:58AM

    2 Things
1. Your Paintings are Simply Beautiful.
2. So Are YOU ! ! !

You sure have a lot to be Proud of ! ! !

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TRACYZABELLE 5/11/2011 6:24AM

    Beautiful work jess-- it definitely touches many of us.

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RETURNOFSARAH 5/11/2011 2:52AM

    Wow, you are very talented. The self portrait is amazing, what a wonderful concept and you have painted it beautifully xx

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HANNAHROSE1209 5/11/2011 2:12AM

    To see it in person was extraordinary and inspiring. You have inspired me and I want to feel this way about myself. Thank you for sharing! :)

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MSDHARMA 5/10/2011 10:45PM

    These are awesome. I love the tree woman.

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SWEETNEENI 5/10/2011 10:37PM

    That self portrait is PRICELESS. The concept is so personal, so visceral, it's truly a stunning image.

I can't wait to see your sculptures emoticon

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ARGYLE-RUNNER 5/10/2011 10:27PM

    Both lovely in their own ways, but I'm especially fond of the tree one - very beautiful :)

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    Beautiful. Moving. Awesome.

And then I scroll to the second. I lose all words. As tears stream down my face, I see that this person I do not know has captured me ... a butterfly emerging from my own 300 pound cocoon. My God! You've captured ME! I am moved beyond words. How do I thank you for putting me, my feelings, my emotional me in front of my face for me to see? I am stumbling for words to tell you how grateful I am to you. Oh my God! I am simply stunned. You, dear, are magnificent. Such talent to draw what is in your mind's eye. Thank you, thank you, thank you, from the bottom of my heart!

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READYRACHEL 5/10/2011 10:18PM

    These are both extraordinary! You are very talented.

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MIPALADY23 5/10/2011 10:18PM

    Very cool...keep painting!

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I miss you my friend ice cream :-(

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

well I just got home from school and as always the first thing I do is make my husband a snack. The man will not eat unless i make it for him.... well thats not completely true... I made him a bowl of ice cream and then 10 minutes later found an empty frosting container in the trash... and he wonders why he does not lose weight lol.

Anyway, I am missing ice cream so much. You see I just recently became lactose intolerant. :-( ... It started about 2 years ago when I could only have maybe a cup of ice cream or milk and anymore than that would give me stomach cramps...

then about 8 or so months ago I noticed that every single day I would have horrible smelly gas and stomach pain and I had no idea why. At first I thought maybe too much fiber and then I thought maybe it was broccoli or beans. No matter how I changed around my diet thought it would not let up.

It was extreamly offensive too... OMG. I was killing my husband at night... quite litterly and in general it was not pleasent for me either.

So I decided that maybe it was milk... I cut out milk completely, all dairy and in about a week and a half, not a problem at all.

Introduced cheese and ice cream and other dairy products and did just fine.... but then one night I had a bowl of cereal with 2% milk ... the next day I was doubled over in pain and smelled like the bog of eternal stench. emoticon emoticon

So I have been drinking Almond Breeze almond milk for the last 5-6 months and have been doing fine. I have not missed milk at all because the almond milk tastes so good and even has lower calories than milk. (I dont like the silk almond milk btw, just the almond breeze, silk is thicker and grosses me out)...

About a month or so ago the gas and stomach cramps came back. The only thing I had eaten was ice cream. So I cut it out, they went away and then reintroduced it a while later and back it came almost instantly.... emoticon

So I suppose its progressing, because I can also only eat small amounts of cheese now too. But soon I will not even be able to eat that.

I have a love affair with ice cream too. It has to be one of my all time favorite desserts. Now I am forced to make hubby bowls while I sit here and sip my tea. So sad.

Anyone know a nice lactose free ice cream. I have looked and looked and cant find one. I would love you for it.

~ Jess emoticon

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MIPALADY23 5/11/2011 8:10PM

    OMG I could have written this! I have had to eliminate all dairy, when desperate for ice cream I eat several lactaid pills and have only about one cup. It's very sad. However I have found that if I freeze chocolate soy milk in premeasured amounts they work great to blend into milkshakes. Add banana, honey, couple drops of vanilla and blend just until mixed...yummo!


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SKYEPHOENIX 5/11/2011 12:07PM

    Just a thought...

Stop making him bowls of ice cream?

I don't know what the dynamics of your relationship are, so I can't say if this is an unacceptable idea or not...but it seems to me, if spooning it out is making you miss it so....maybe try and buy individual sized servings, so he can help himself.

OTOH...So Delicious makes coconut ice cream which is REALLY good. Not sure what stores in the U.S. carry them, but it's fairly common up here. :)

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ASHLEYW_206 5/11/2011 11:18AM

    They make these delicious ice cream sandwiches called tofuti cuties (?) and they're really good, made out of tofu but you would never know! They also make a really good soy ice cream called "So Delicious" that you could check out. Not sure what you have available where you are. If I Couldn't eat ice cream, I'd probably be around 20lbs lighter! Ha ha!

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KJDOESLIFE 5/11/2011 11:16AM

    Large chain grocery stores should carry soy ice cream. The store by me has a separate section for the "healthy/organic foods" with a separate freezer section. I'm lactose intolerant, too, but can eat small amounts without a problem. The soy stuff is great, but I don't remember the brand name. Good luck!

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MANDABEAR11 5/11/2011 11:09AM

    OMG I live for frozen yogurt before even considering ice cream, billion times more delish, or is that considered dairy too? If not sorbet is equally amazing :D

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MISMIS19 5/11/2011 10:44AM

    Hey I loved your blog it was great lol. I am also lactose intolerant to a degree I can eat everything but drink milk, and ocassionally have problems with other products. I love ice cream, so I couldn't stand to think of ever not eating it. You should def try the dairy pill, so you can enjoy the riches of life too emoticon

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ORIONAIMEE 5/11/2011 8:54AM

    Do you like sherbert? If you haven't tried it you should, it isn't creamy like ice cream but it sure is yummy and cold. The other thing you might try is Water Ice. There are a few in the Charlotte/Matthews area...

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MALEXANDER4 5/11/2011 7:34AM

    They make a lactaid tab you can take before you eat cheese or milk. You may try that...but may I suggest while at home. lol. Just in case it doesn't work for you.

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PUNZIE73 5/10/2011 11:17PM

    I feel for you. I just don't know what I'd do if I couldn't have soy milk with my favorite snack of all time ... cinnamon graham crackers. But since you mentioned the Almond breeze, I'm gonna try that and see how I like it. Sorry I can't be of more help.

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ARGYLE-RUNNER 5/10/2011 10:53PM

    have you tried the coconut milk ice cream (Luna & Larry's Coconut Bliss) - I think there is also rice and almond milk versions too - the coconut is really good, and comes in a lot of flavors - I find it here at the health food store - the only downside is that it costs $6 something for a pint of it

we recently had to switch to diary-free for the kids, and I've actually been enjoying the Silk coconut milk more than the almond (we buy both) - I especially enjoy it for making iced coffee

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SWEETNEENI 5/10/2011 10:49PM

    I see you your ice cream and raise you a french fries. Oh how I miss diner fries. Every time I try to eat them lately I turn into a human Goodyear Blimp.

A moment of silence for our forbidden goodies. emoticon

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AMANDAB1327 5/10/2011 10:28PM

    Have you tried the lactaid pills? I am lactose intolerant and the pills help a lot! I try to stick to frozen yogurt as my stomach seems to handle that much better.

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GOODBYEHORSES 5/10/2011 10:06PM

    I kinda sorta know what you're going through. But with me I can't have dairy on an empty stomach. As long as I've eaten something else I'm fine, but if I have dairy before anything else I get terrible stomach cramps. I'm not a big fan of ice cream though, so I can't help you there. I hope you'll be able to find one you enjoy!

BTW. Have you tried taking the OTC Lactaid? It may help when you're really craving ice cream.

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CARTONIFIED 5/10/2011 9:51PM

    i haven't tried any non-dairy ice creams but here's a link of reviews: http://www.grist.org/article/2009-0

just search soy ice cream in google and there are other links.

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Ups & Downs ~ Monday 4/4

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Yesterday was a good day in general. The past few days have been pretty good actually, I would not say spectacular but pretty good. I have been eating on track and getting my exercise in most days. It has been helping that the weather has gone back to being super warm after a week of it reverting back to artic temperatures. It was damn cold last week and all I wanted to do was crawl into bed under the covers and only peak my head out to eat full fat comfort foods. I did not do that though, I still got my workouts in on most days and ate pretty healthy and just tried to keep in mind that warm weather would soon return.

I spent yesterday and the day before outside alot of the time. I took the kids out on Sunday and let them play in the dirt while my husband worked on his car. He has taken half the engine apart in the last 1 1/2 months and is now in the process of replacing the parts that went bad and putting it back together. It would have most likely taken less time if he was experienced in fixing cars but he is not a mechanic, he is a computer programmer. lol. But he also happens to be an extremely smart guy who can pretty much fix anything he puts his mind to... so I have alot of faith that once he does finally get it put all back together, it will run again. ::crosses fingers::
I really hope so anyway, because I have been without a car during the day for almost two months now and I want my freedom back. With warmer weather rolling in I want so badly to go to the park during the day with my daughter and get some activity and sunshine in.

Anyway, yesterday I cleaned off the back deck... In preparation to scrub it down and finish staining it. Last year I started staining it and only got it half completed. I cant wait to get some nice lawn furniture back there and put up my screened in awning and really enjoy the outside this summer, instead of being cooped up in the house. I also cleaned up the covered porch area where we have piled crap over the winter. I still had Fall and Christmas decorations out there that had not been put back into boxes. I got all that packed up and ready to go into the atic. better late than never I guess.

Last night we had dinner outside on the back deck which was really nice. We had oven fried chicken, corn on the cob and broccoli & cheese orzo. It was a great meal. When the kids were done they had fun picking up the acorns that had fallen between the slats of the deck. Lyra thought they were peanuts and kept trying to eat them. lol.

I put the kids to bed at 7pm and Aiden who is in kindergarten, read me Green eggs and ham. I swear its like I had never herd the book before until he read it to me. I have to say it was seemed like such a simple thing but it was amazing to me.... He was just a baby only a second ago and now he is reading. I know I will remember that forever. I was so proud of him.

It was a great day but then I came in my room to give Bow (like a bow tie) the hamster his medicine, (he has been sick with the hamster flu and we took him to the vet and they gave me medicine to give him last week) and clean his cage like I do every night and he just was not looking good. He was breathing hard and had his little face pressed up in the corner of the glass tank. I picked him up by the scruff of his neck and turned him over on his back to give him the medicine and instead of licking it up out of the dropper he just kinda let it roll down his chin onto his belly. He was not looking good at all.

I put him in his ball and he slowly pushed it across the floor and I took his cage into the kitchen to clean it. The vet said we need to clean his cage every night so any bacteria did not reinfect him. I was trying really hard to make sure I did everything the vet said because I really wanted Bow to get better.

I came back into the room with the clean cage and put down the news paper and was about to put in the wood shavings for him to sleep on. I stopped myself and figured I better check on him just in case. I looked around the room and over by my dresser was Bow's hamster ball, laying still. He was laying down on his side, so peaceful and I pretty much knew right then that bow was no longer with us. I picked up the ball and he wasn't breathing, just laying there. I said good bye and then started crying.

I felt two things.... really sad and really silly. Sad because I had gotten really attached to this furry little creature and silly because I had gotten so attached that I was now crying over a hamster when most people would just flush and be done with it. Not that I could flush bow, he was a really fat hamster.

I searched at alot of pet stores to find the perfect hamster for Aiden's Birthday. It was his first pet and I wanted it to be really special. Pet smarts hamsters were all really tiny and I wanted a big fat hamster that was really holdable. I went to a little pet store and when I looked into the cages I saw a really fat black teddy bear hamster, he was huge and he came right up to the glass and looked at me, he seemed like a really playful hamster. I knew he was the right one.

So now Bow the hamster is buried in the back yard, under a large rock that encircles a small fruit tree. He was a good and happy little hamster and I feel bad that I could not help make him better. The vet said though that what he had was almost always fatal. I guess I got my hopes up because he really seemed like he was getting better the last few days. He had a really good last few days. I guess that is one good thing.

So I am feeling a bit better now... still silly, but not as sad. I broke the news to Aiden this morning but he really didn't seem fazed by it at all. I guess that is a good thing. I really did not want to have to deal with the whole death conversation for a few more years. I figured that this pet would last that long. sigh.

I have to say though, that Last night I wanted to just sit down and eat. I felt really horrible and wanted to run through a few bowls of ice cream, or some bread, or something of the sort. I felt like that would really make me feel alot better. Instead I made a cup of tea and went to sleep early. Im really proud of myself for that.

well thanks to who ever reads this for listening to me mourning over a hamster. Silly I know. I am an emotional person anyway... I'm not too surprised by myself.

~ Jess

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BECKYCOLVIN 4/24/2011 4:11PM

    I'm really proud of you for not letting your emotions lead you to eat. Far better to do something quiet & comforting and get a little extra sleep. :) Good for you.

And its not silly to grieve the loss of a little animal. Death is never a happy thing, no matter what it takes from you. . .

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    I am so sorry to hear about Bow going over the Rainbow Bridge. I believe all animals have a soul and go to heaven.Glad There is nothing silly about having feelings for a hamster. He was your pet. Glad Aiden was ok with the news and not too upset.

I am proud of you for not giving into your emotional eating. That was emoticon emoticon on thinking it though and being true to yourself.

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MARIEFIYA 4/5/2011 7:34PM

    Sounds like you have been very busy lately! Sorry about the hamster. I am glad that your son didn't get too upset though.

Congrats on the tea and going to bed early! You should be proud of yourself:) emoticon

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BOVEY63 4/5/2011 1:46PM

    It is always difficult to lose a pet. Hope you're doing better today - Aiden too.

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NIKKIV2 4/5/2011 11:33AM

    It is not silly to mourn the loss of a pet. I am glad you resisted to the urge to eat your comfort foods and you are doing great! I am loving this new found warmth we are getting again too.

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JENS_MISSION 4/5/2011 11:27AM

    Animals are also a very special part of the family and I can relate with you. We also had a hampster that died and just recently a ginnea pig (who was 4 years old) that died. I cried like a baby...neither of my daughter's cried as much as I did. We also burried it in our backyard and put a big rock over the grave that my daughters decorated with paint.

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RUTHANNE100 4/5/2011 11:03AM

    Not silly at all. Bow was still a member of the family!

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MALIAN1 4/5/2011 10:27AM

    I am so so sorry for your loss...and it is a loss - nothing silly about that. You are an awesome Mom!

Congrats on having a great day before that and for not giving in to the temptation to eat what you weren't supposed to. Good job!

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TABALICIOUS 4/5/2011 10:22AM

  I hope today is better than yesterday ended. Bow was a cutie! emoticon

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SWEETNEENI 4/5/2011 8:58AM

    Aww, he was cute. I am proud of you for resisting the urge to stress eat. emoticon

And I still want to go to your house for dinner. emoticon emoticon

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MILLER*TIME 4/5/2011 8:53AM

    aww I don't think it's silly at all. I know I'd be heart broken if something ever happened to my puppy!! Sorry about the hampster though :(

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MALEXANDER4 4/5/2011 7:48AM

    My daughter had a hamster and we had him for over three years. They don't live long really but we were so upset when that little guy passed. A pet is a pet no matter what it is. We love them just the same. Once I took a baby bunny and tried to save it. I kept it warm on a heating pad, fed it like a baby, did all I was told to do. It passed while I left the room and I cryed so hard because I wasn't there with it. so hun, cry and mourn, that means you have a big heart and nothing is wrong with that.

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BRENDAF761 4/5/2011 7:32AM

    I hope you have a better day today! Losing any pet is hard. It's finally getting a little warmer in Illinois. Today it's sunny and 55 degrees. I'll be going on a long walk as soon as my daycare gang leave. Keep up your exercise and healthy eating and you'll be successful! Enjoy your day! emoticon emoticonBrenda:)

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