Monday, March 14, 2011
well I had a great week last week. I felt so in control and did the best I have done in a while. I hardly nibbled at all, which is a big deal for me because I would say this is one of my biggest issues. As a result I ended up dropping 1 pound! yay. That is pretty good for a girl my size for one week.
So what did I do to celebrate my success. I went out to a chinese buffet and even though I would say I didn't do horribly, I didn't do great either. So yesterday I felt guilty about it and I think as a result tried to eat meals which were a bit lower in points, I ended up becoming munchy and as a result I ended up nibbling my way throughout the day.
Ok so I am done beating myself up over that and I am ready to get back on track and try to pull a loss out of this week. Its gonna be tough because Im sure I put back on the pound I lost last week.
I have found out a very interesting thing about myself though in the past week, and without this past weekend I would not have figured it out. I dont think if I had overeaten this weekend then it would have dawned on me.
Anyway here it is. I have been eating frozen dinners from lean cuisine and healthy choice for the past week. I have something like old fashioned oatmeal with frozen fruit mixed in or an egg white spinach and cheese flat bread sandwich for breakfast... and then I have a frozen meal and some steamed vegetables for lunch and a frozen meal with steamed vegetables for dinner and then maybe some greek yogurt and fruit for snacks.
Its been working out really great and the portions are really really small compared to how I was eating before, yet they satisfy me. Anyone who has read one of my food blogs knows that my portions are huge! I was doing ok on the portions that big but I would be full full full afterwards. I am nicely content after eating the meals I have been the past week, which is nice, and obviously helped on the scale.
Another good thing about the frozen dinners is I cant eat spoon fulls here and there while cooking it and end up eating another 1/4 serving while preparing the meal. What is there is all I get so there are no leftovers to contend with and no nibbling.
So anyway, last night I ended up cooking something from scratch. I made burrito bowls... inspired by the tortilla free burritoes I order at Moe's.... It was about 2 cups shredded lettuce, 1/2 cup pico, 1/4 avocado, 1/4 salsa, 3 oz steak ..... anyway it ended up filling up an entire full size dinner plate in a giant hill. It was alot of food and after I was done (although it was really good) I was stuffed.
It was then that I realized that the portions I make at home are 2-3 times more food then what I or my husband actually need. I would save a crap load of money if I could learn to just cook less and would be a lot better off on the scale.
I unfortunatly am unable to do that at this point, so I am going to stick to the frozen dinners for a little while longer.
I blame this btw on the fact that I came from a family of 9 and from the time I was 15 to the time I moved out at 22, I cooked all of our meals. So I went from making huge portions of food to feed 9 people (most of which were overweight and ate large portions) to cooking for just me and my husband. It was extreamly hard by the way, when you cook large meals, it becomes very hard to cook small ones. I got the hang of it but maybe not as well as I should.
I bought the stuff to make dirty rice so Im gonna make that tonight. Im going to attempt to make it a more healthy portion size though and to not eat it while Im cooking.
gotta do great the rest of the week. I have my meals all planned out for the day, Just gotta stick to it.
Friday, March 11, 2011
This is my first essay for English. I decided to write it on my weight loss journey. A lot of it is ripped off from my blurb lol. If anyone feels like proof reading it and giving me any advice I would appreciate it. If not thanks for reading.
PS. I could use a catchy title as well, but cant think of one.
I have been overweight my entire life. I started out as a chubby baby, who grew into an overweight child and by the time I graduated High school I was starting my adulthood as morbidly obese. By 18 years old I weighed 310 lbs and went on my first diet shortly after high school. My weight went up and down for years as I went on one fad diet after another. I would try a new diet for a week or two but after not getting the quick fix that was promised to me I would quit, go on a month long binge, and gain everything back. It wasn’t until I realized that quick fixes and magic pills don’t work that I was able to lose the weight that had been holding me down all my life. By taking small steps and making lasting lifestyle changes, I was finally able to lose over 100 pounds, and gain a much healthier life for myself and my family.
In January 2009 I had just had my 2nd child and weighed in at over 275 pounds. I could not shave my legs in the shower because I could not breath while bending over, I could not put my pants on standing up because I could not lift my legs up that far and The only clothes I had that would fit me were size 26 - 3X maternity clothes, which I was quickly growing out of. I was constantly in pain from the close to 300 pounds I was carrying around. The hardest thing about being overweight was I knew that I was hurting my children by being so out of shape. I could not run around with my 3 year old son, or get down on the floor with my 3 month old daughter; I didn’t feel like going outside with them or doing much of anything. Not only was I stealing away there childhood memories by being this way, I was also setting them up to be overweight as well. I was not being a very good example as a parent. At the time I didn’t think I would ever be thin (I had given up hope on that a long time ago) but I knew I could not go on living the way I was. I knew something big needed to change; I knew I needed to change.
On Jan 3rd 2009 I started on a Journey to a healthier me. I made small changes like reducing portion sizes, writing down all the food I ate each day, keeping track of calories, baking food instead of frying it and drinking more water. Slowly I introduced simple substitutions into my normal meals like switching from whole milk to fat free and white pasta to wheat. If I ate a cookie or two, I didn’t beat myself up about it, instead I worked in treats now and then so I didn’t feel the need to devour an entire box. The changes I made were so simple and easy that it no longer felt like I was on a diet; I was just living my life in a healthy way. I took baby steps when it came to exercise. I knew that if I tried to do too much too fast I would quit, like every other time before. I needed to first make activity a routine and then slowly increase my intensity. Every night I watched 30 minutes to an hour of TV so during that time I would walk in place while watching. It was easy and I could have done more but this allowed me build exercise into my life without overwhelming myself.
After a few weeks had passed I had lost 15 pounds on my own but I felt my motivation slipping away. I knew I needed some extra tools to keep me moving forward. I decided to join weight watchers and an online support group called sparkpeople.com. Weight watchers kept me accountable because I had to weigh in once a week. The thought of stepping on that scale Saturday morning and seeing a gain was just enough to keep me from having that extra helping at dinner time, or skipping my workout. The biggest help I had was sparkpeople.com, with over 1 million members and 500 friends there was always someone during the week between going to my weight watchers meetings to help me out or cheer me on. I know without both of these tools helping me along that I would not have come as far as I have. I think it is important to have as many support systems in place as you can when trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Surrounding yourself with friends, family and even people online can play a big part in how far you will go in reaching your goals. Going it alone was a mistake that I didn’t make this time.
Many things about me have changed in the past few years, you might not recognize me. I am now 150 pounds lighter than I was when I graduated high school. I no longer become out of breath doing normal every day things and I have been able to increase my exercise from walking in place in my living room to being able to walk outside, do aerobics classes and even run. In fact, I ran my first 5k in June 2010 and came in top 10 in my age bracket. I am now able to shop in the regular clothing section instead of plus size and have gone from a size 26 to a size 12. The simplest things amaze me now, like being able to wrap a normal size towel around myself instead of a beach towel or just how incredibly small my wrists appear to me. I can run and jump and play with my kids now. Instead of having to rest after a few minutes at the park I am waiting because they can’t keep up with me. I can now feel proud knowing I have passed on healthy habits like eating right and exercise and my children will not have to go through all of the problems that I did as they grow older. The most important thing that has changed is not only have I changed a lot on the outside but have also become a better person on the inside. I have love for myself and confidence in myself that I never had before now and it makes me wonder: If I have accomplished the one thing that I never thought possible, what else could I accomplish in my life?
A quote by an anonymous writer that I have kept close to my heart throughout the last two years is this: "Don't take a clock on this journey take a compass. It's the direction you're moving in that matters, not the time it takes you to get there." To anyone who is struggling to reach a healthy weight, I think the best advice I can give is to make small changes that you know you can live with for the rest of your life and also not to give up just because it’s a slow process. It may take months or even years to get where you want to be but it’s really not that long when you think about it and it’s completely worth it in the end.
Monday, March 07, 2011
Well I have been trying to get back on track for a while now... It seems that for the past few months (ever since I started going back to school) I have been slipping when it comes to taking care of myself. I stopped going to weight watchers meetings, except to do my monthly weigh in. I have been eating crap that I would not have eaten in amounts that I would not have eaten and have been pretty much a bump on a log as far as exercise goes. I have also been sick off and on for a little over a month now. Stomach flu, colds, and now I am just getting over an ear infection, sinus infection and chest cold.
The good news in all of it, is I have not let my self slip so far as to gain alot of weight. I have stayed between 159 and 164 for the past three months and am now sitting at around 160. I can thank weighing in on my digital scale every morning to me not gaining. weighing in really makes you take a step back and say, maybe I need to reel it in a bit today.
I had a rough time but I think I am finally starting to get back into the swing of things. I started out rocking the beginning of last week but finished the week strong. I went back to counting weight watchers points and got my etools back so I can now track online again. I find that tracking online helps me so much and looking back on it, as soon as I made lifetime I dropped my etools and started to have major problems staying on track. hmmm. I think its worth the 12 bucks I have to pay monthly.
I am only on day 3 of this week but I have stayed in my points range every day and exercised all three days. That is pretty major considering that I had cut out all exercise for a while there.
I have been eating a lot of frozen dinners. I have either cereal, eggs or oatmeal for breakfast and then a frozen meal and some veggies for lunch, then for dinner I have another frozen dinner and veggies. Then I eat fruit, string cheese, Greek yogurt, crackers and other things for snacks. I have been limiting myself to 2 snacks per day. The frozen meals are really keeping me on track because they are all between 5-8 points and are portion controlled so I cant nibble while I am making them or go back for seconds. Also I have found that they really are not as small in portion as I previously thought. If you take them out of the container and put them on a small plate paired with a serving of steamed vegetables or a salad, it looks like a full plate of food and is pretty good.
I'm hoping to start dropping weight again. I am dropping my goal to 5 pound increments which seems more manageable. Its funny because 10 or 15 pounds is like something to sneeze at when you weight over 250 - 300 lbs..... but when you get down to 160 every pound is a battle. Its crazy.
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