Monday, March 21, 2011
well I have really been struggling with this last 10 pounds or so. It seems that I am at a stand still, I jump up and down between 159 pounds and 164 pounds and it kinda sucks. I want to break through and get down to where I want to be but the truth is I have been incredibly lazy the last few months.
I am use to being able to nibble and do half a** workouts and still drop weight, and unfortunately that is not working for me anymore. My body is pretty much holding right around 162. So I guess something needs to change if I want to go any farther. In general I need to stop being lazy.
I actually for a split second considered taking over the counter diet pills. I knew that was a bad idea though, because they most likely would not work, have bad side effects and cost a butt load of money. Its stupid for me to consider them when I know that what I need is more activity, not a pill.
I know my biggest issue is exercise. 20 minutes 4 days a week on the elliptical at best is not going to help me lose the weight I want so I need to seriously bump up the time and intensity. I have decided that 5 days a week I will do an hour of cardio or sculpting exercises.
Another thing I need to do is workout in the morning. I hate it, because once my son is on the bus and off to school at 7am, all I feel like doing is crawling back into bed and sleeping until my daughter wakes up at 8:00. The problem though, is I feel sluggish all day long when I do this and by the time the kids go to bed at night I don't feel like working out then either. When I actually do workout in the morning, I eat better all day and I feel better and more energetic in general. So I need to just stop talking myself out of it and do it.
I'm going to commit to really put my all into this and hopefully in a few months I will see good results. I took measurements and before pictures today so I can track my progress, I am really hoping to slim down a lot by the end of summer.
Goals for next 6 months
Go from tight size 12 - well fitting size 8
Lose 10 pounds going from 161 - 151 lbs.
Be able to wear a really awesome dress to a wedding I am going to on 09/10/11
Plan to reach goals
Drink two 32oz bottles of water per day
Eat 6 small pre-planned meals per day to = 29 points
Exercise 60 minutes per day 5 days per week in the morning
Track all food & Exercise
Monday, March 14, 2011
I was watching good morning America and was very saddened by the disaster that has impacted Japan. It was amazing to watch as the US reporters interviewed people who were living on the streets or in shelters that they offered to share what little food they had with the reporters and were so gracious that the US was there to share their story with the rest of the world. I don't have very much to give but I gave $20, if everyone did the same it would really add up.
Monday, March 14, 2011
well I had a great week last week. I felt so in control and did the best I have done in a while. I hardly nibbled at all, which is a big deal for me because I would say this is one of my biggest issues. As a result I ended up dropping 1 pound! yay. That is pretty good for a girl my size for one week.
So what did I do to celebrate my success. I went out to a chinese buffet and even though I would say I didn't do horribly, I didn't do great either. So yesterday I felt guilty about it and I think as a result tried to eat meals which were a bit lower in points, I ended up becoming munchy and as a result I ended up nibbling my way throughout the day.
Ok so I am done beating myself up over that and I am ready to get back on track and try to pull a loss out of this week. Its gonna be tough because Im sure I put back on the pound I lost last week.
I have found out a very interesting thing about myself though in the past week, and without this past weekend I would not have figured it out. I dont think if I had overeaten this weekend then it would have dawned on me.
Anyway here it is. I have been eating frozen dinners from lean cuisine and healthy choice for the past week. I have something like old fashioned oatmeal with frozen fruit mixed in or an egg white spinach and cheese flat bread sandwich for breakfast... and then I have a frozen meal and some steamed vegetables for lunch and a frozen meal with steamed vegetables for dinner and then maybe some greek yogurt and fruit for snacks.
Its been working out really great and the portions are really really small compared to how I was eating before, yet they satisfy me. Anyone who has read one of my food blogs knows that my portions are huge! I was doing ok on the portions that big but I would be full full full afterwards. I am nicely content after eating the meals I have been the past week, which is nice, and obviously helped on the scale.
Another good thing about the frozen dinners is I cant eat spoon fulls here and there while cooking it and end up eating another 1/4 serving while preparing the meal. What is there is all I get so there are no leftovers to contend with and no nibbling.
So anyway, last night I ended up cooking something from scratch. I made burrito bowls... inspired by the tortilla free burritoes I order at Moe's.... It was about 2 cups shredded lettuce, 1/2 cup pico, 1/4 avocado, 1/4 salsa, 3 oz steak ..... anyway it ended up filling up an entire full size dinner plate in a giant hill. It was alot of food and after I was done (although it was really good) I was stuffed.
It was then that I realized that the portions I make at home are 2-3 times more food then what I or my husband actually need. I would save a crap load of money if I could learn to just cook less and would be a lot better off on the scale.
I unfortunatly am unable to do that at this point, so I am going to stick to the frozen dinners for a little while longer.
I blame this btw on the fact that I came from a family of 9 and from the time I was 15 to the time I moved out at 22, I cooked all of our meals. So I went from making huge portions of food to feed 9 people (most of which were overweight and ate large portions) to cooking for just me and my husband. It was extreamly hard by the way, when you cook large meals, it becomes very hard to cook small ones. I got the hang of it but maybe not as well as I should.
I bought the stuff to make dirty rice so Im gonna make that tonight. Im going to attempt to make it a more healthy portion size though and to not eat it while Im cooking.
gotta do great the rest of the week. I have my meals all planned out for the day, Just gotta stick to it.
Friday, March 11, 2011
This is my first essay for English. I decided to write it on my weight loss journey. A lot of it is ripped off from my blurb lol. If anyone feels like proof reading it and giving me any advice I would appreciate it. If not thanks for reading.
PS. I could use a catchy title as well, but cant think of one.
I have been overweight my entire life. I started out as a chubby baby, who grew into an overweight child and by the time I graduated High school I was starting my adulthood as morbidly obese. By 18 years old I weighed 310 lbs and went on my first diet shortly after high school. My weight went up and down for years as I went on one fad diet after another. I would try a new diet for a week or two but after not getting the quick fix that was promised to me I would quit, go on a month long binge, and gain everything back. It wasnít until I realized that quick fixes and magic pills donít work that I was able to lose the weight that had been holding me down all my life. By taking small steps and making lasting lifestyle changes, I was finally able to lose over 100 pounds, and gain a much healthier life for myself and my family.
In January 2009 I had just had my 2nd child and weighed in at over 275 pounds. I could not shave my legs in the shower because I could not breath while bending over, I could not put my pants on standing up because I could not lift my legs up that far and The only clothes I had that would fit me were size 26 - 3X maternity clothes, which I was quickly growing out of. I was constantly in pain from the close to 300 pounds I was carrying around. The hardest thing about being overweight was I knew that I was hurting my children by being so out of shape. I could not run around with my 3 year old son, or get down on the floor with my 3 month old daughter; I didnít feel like going outside with them or doing much of anything. Not only was I stealing away there childhood memories by being this way, I was also setting them up to be overweight as well. I was not being a very good example as a parent. At the time I didnít think I would ever be thin (I had given up hope on that a long time ago) but I knew I could not go on living the way I was. I knew something big needed to change; I knew I needed to change.
On Jan 3rd 2009 I started on a Journey to a healthier me. I made small changes like reducing portion sizes, writing down all the food I ate each day, keeping track of calories, baking food instead of frying it and drinking more water. Slowly I introduced simple substitutions into my normal meals like switching from whole milk to fat free and white pasta to wheat. If I ate a cookie or two, I didnít beat myself up about it, instead I worked in treats now and then so I didnít feel the need to devour an entire box. The changes I made were so simple and easy that it no longer felt like I was on a diet; I was just living my life in a healthy way. I took baby steps when it came to exercise. I knew that if I tried to do too much too fast I would quit, like every other time before. I needed to first make activity a routine and then slowly increase my intensity. Every night I watched 30 minutes to an hour of TV so during that time I would walk in place while watching. It was easy and I could have done more but this allowed me build exercise into my life without overwhelming myself.
After a few weeks had passed I had lost 15 pounds on my own but I felt my motivation slipping away. I knew I needed some extra tools to keep me moving forward. I decided to join weight watchers and an online support group called sparkpeople.com. Weight watchers kept me accountable because I had to weigh in once a week. The thought of stepping on that scale Saturday morning and seeing a gain was just enough to keep me from having that extra helping at dinner time, or skipping my workout. The biggest help I had was sparkpeople.com, with over 1 million members and 500 friends there was always someone during the week between going to my weight watchers meetings to help me out or cheer me on. I know without both of these tools helping me along that I would not have come as far as I have. I think it is important to have as many support systems in place as you can when trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Surrounding yourself with friends, family and even people online can play a big part in how far you will go in reaching your goals. Going it alone was a mistake that I didnít make this time.
Many things about me have changed in the past few years, you might not recognize me. I am now 150 pounds lighter than I was when I graduated high school. I no longer become out of breath doing normal every day things and I have been able to increase my exercise from walking in place in my living room to being able to walk outside, do aerobics classes and even run. In fact, I ran my first 5k in June 2010 and came in top 10 in my age bracket. I am now able to shop in the regular clothing section instead of plus size and have gone from a size 26 to a size 12. The simplest things amaze me now, like being able to wrap a normal size towel around myself instead of a beach towel or just how incredibly small my wrists appear to me. I can run and jump and play with my kids now. Instead of having to rest after a few minutes at the park I am waiting because they canít keep up with me. I can now feel proud knowing I have passed on healthy habits like eating right and exercise and my children will not have to go through all of the problems that I did as they grow older. The most important thing that has changed is not only have I changed a lot on the outside but have also become a better person on the inside. I have love for myself and confidence in myself that I never had before now and it makes me wonder: If I have accomplished the one thing that I never thought possible, what else could I accomplish in my life?
A quote by an anonymous writer that I have kept close to my heart throughout the last two years is this: "Don't take a clock on this journey take a compass. It's the direction you're moving in that matters, not the time it takes you to get there." To anyone who is struggling to reach a healthy weight, I think the best advice I can give is to make small changes that you know you can live with for the rest of your life and also not to give up just because itís a slow process. It may take months or even years to get where you want to be but itís really not that long when you think about it and itís completely worth it in the end.
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