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Monday, March 07, 2011

Well I have been trying to get back on track for a while now... It seems that for the past few months (ever since I started going back to school) I have been slipping when it comes to taking care of myself. I stopped going to weight watchers meetings, except to do my monthly weigh in. I have been eating crap that I would not have eaten in amounts that I would not have eaten and have been pretty much a bump on a log as far as exercise goes. I have also been sick off and on for a little over a month now. Stomach flu, colds, and now I am just getting over an ear infection, sinus infection and chest cold.

The good news in all of it, is I have not let my self slip so far as to gain alot of weight. I have stayed between 159 and 164 for the past three months and am now sitting at around 160. I can thank weighing in on my digital scale every morning to me not gaining. weighing in really makes you take a step back and say, maybe I need to reel it in a bit today.

I had a rough time but I think I am finally starting to get back into the swing of things. I started out rocking the beginning of last week but finished the week strong. I went back to counting weight watchers points and got my etools back so I can now track online again. I find that tracking online helps me so much and looking back on it, as soon as I made lifetime I dropped my etools and started to have major problems staying on track. hmmm. I think its worth the 12 bucks I have to pay monthly.

I am only on day 3 of this week but I have stayed in my points range every day and exercised all three days. That is pretty major considering that I had cut out all exercise for a while there.

I have been eating a lot of frozen dinners. I have either cereal, eggs or oatmeal for breakfast and then a frozen meal and some veggies for lunch, then for dinner I have another frozen dinner and veggies. Then I eat fruit, string cheese, Greek yogurt, crackers and other things for snacks. I have been limiting myself to 2 snacks per day. The frozen meals are really keeping me on track because they are all between 5-8 points and are portion controlled so I cant nibble while I am making them or go back for seconds. Also I have found that they really are not as small in portion as I previously thought. If you take them out of the container and put them on a small plate paired with a serving of steamed vegetables or a salad, it looks like a full plate of food and is pretty good.

I'm hoping to start dropping weight again. I am dropping my goal to 5 pound increments which seems more manageable. Its funny because 10 or 15 pounds is like something to sneeze at when you weight over 250 - 300 lbs..... but when you get down to 160 every pound is a battle. Its crazy.

~ Jess

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MALIAN1 3/8/2011 9:20AM

    You CAN do it!!!

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    Keep on keeping on!!!!!!! :)

- Michelle

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MALEXANDER4 3/8/2011 6:11AM

    You have sure come a long ways. I'm proud of you for going back to school and your going to be fine. sometimes it takes a bit to get in the swing of things. Have a wonderful week.

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    I think you're doing great. It does feel good when we get back on track with our eating and exercise. Keep up the good work!

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HOPE2011 3/7/2011 7:59PM

    Congrats on making yourself accountable to yourself!


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BOVEY63 3/7/2011 4:37PM

    Congrats on getting back on track!
I sure hope you have a much healthier March and so on...

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G9FIRE 3/7/2011 3:27PM

    Wow, look at you! Juggling school, sickness, family life AND maintaining your weight. You are still an inspiration to me, even if you say you've been struggling.

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Photos of my first paintings

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

well alot of you know I am taking classes in college now for art. college is hard and stressful and has really thrown me off but I think it will be rewarding in the long run. I am only taking one art class, painting one. I have completed two paintings and am really enjoying it. I have never painted before so the art teacher was a little surprised and so was I for that matter on how well these came out.

Painting 1 - Moon
( with this project I was suppose to think of something to paint and then break it into at least 9 parts and paint each part in a different style or way, I went with the moon over the ocean and broke it up. Instead of breaking it into squares like the teacher suggested I broke it into different parts of a womans body. If you look you can see a face in one part, a back and legs in another)

Painting 2 - Lyra

I finished my first project ahead of scedual so I did a portrait of my daughter. It was very hard because skin tone and proportion were difficult but I think in the end I did pretty well.


Anyway, thanks for taking a look. I welcome any feed back, positive or negitive.

~ Jess

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READYRACHEL 5/10/2011 10:20PM

    I love the picture of the moon. I would hang that in my house.

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CHERKYLE 3/9/2011 12:22PM

    I love them! I cant even draw stick people LOl these are amazing!!

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RUTHANNE100 3/5/2011 10:41AM

    Wow--this cannot be the first time you've painted! These are remarkable.

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2BEHEALTHYAGAIN 2/28/2011 2:21PM

    WOW!! Love them both!! I can hardly wait to see what else you do.......you truly have a talent! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SPARKYJEANIE1 2/25/2011 10:52AM

    OMG Jess!!

You are freaking talented!!! They are absolutely beautiful! I must admit I was staring and staring at the moon one - but...I can't see the face or the body parts lol! It looks very soothing and peaceful.

AND - Lyra! Wow...faces are the toughest thing of all! Especially your baby girl! She looks full of mischief and so innocent at the same time - and those beautiful big blue eyes! Love, love, LOVE it!!!!

These are your FIRST??!! Can't wait to see how you progress in this class love. Sorry I've been off quite a bit lately...personal stuff. But, I'm good - and you're always in my good thoughts! So proud of you for school - and driving...and for being the bestest mama and wifey as well!

Have a wonderful weekend!
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JLOSORIO 2/23/2011 12:02PM

    These are awesome! I REALLY like the moon photo!

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MALEXANDER4 2/23/2011 8:55AM

    Girl those are awesome. Don't give up your talent. Someday I can say I knew her when.

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STUDIETWO 2/23/2011 7:50AM

    Nice work! What a gift to be able to capture your imagination on canvas. Your daughter is beautiful. emoticon

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SYLVIALYNN2 2/23/2011 7:38AM

    Wow, you have talent!

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SPMOM2 2/22/2011 9:53PM

    Very beautiful and creative.

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G9FIRE 2/22/2011 9:49PM

    Amazing! I am floored at how awesome these are. The moon one just blows me away. I want it for my house! The picture of your daughter is also very good. I like your style. You are off to quite a start!

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SLIMSUPERNOVA 2/22/2011 9:45PM

    Am truly amazed that this is amateur art. Keep this up! Down the road you could sell your work + make some extra cash. No exaggeration.

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ANGELBELIEVER 2/22/2011 9:38PM

    These are beautiful. You have found your hidden talent. Be sure to help it grow and nurture it. All the best in your new found passion.

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NURSE_FAWN 2/22/2011 9:36PM

    They are both beautiful. You have a natural talent and you need to keep painting. I'll be seeing your paintings in an art gallery before you know it. emoticon emoticon

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AMLGARRIDO 2/22/2011 8:52PM

    They're very good!!! I wish I could paint like that!

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KTTAYLOR21 2/22/2011 8:43PM

    You did a fantastic job on both pieces!!!!! Great work!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LISA01605 2/22/2011 6:21PM

    I like both of them but I LOVE the moon one. You are very talented!

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JANRTEACH 2/22/2011 5:17PM

WOW WOW WOW they are gorgeous!!

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CECE0330 2/22/2011 4:39PM

    Love them! And trust me, as a former art student myself, I am VERY critical. If I thought they were bad...I wouldn't post!

Keep up the great work!

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I*AM*BLESSED 2/22/2011 4:31PM

    You have a God-given talent, Jess! These are very nice...

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(. ♥ Cheri ♥

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BRONXBABE 2/22/2011 4:23PM

    Jess, these are fantastic! I really love the moon one. emoticon

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P0KERS0PH 2/22/2011 4:23PM

    Wow, great job! You are very talented indeed.

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HOPE2011 2/22/2011 4:22PM

    Wonderful - you definitely have talent!

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SARAHJ19 2/22/2011 4:04PM

    WOW! Those are amazing! You did a great job! emoticon

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CARLA-216 2/22/2011 4:02PM

    Wow, these are amazing! You sure you've never done this before? :)

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MNCYCLIST 2/22/2011 3:56PM

    That's awesome! I can paint a mean stick figure but that's about it so I sure respect people who have talent like yours. Thanks for sharing.

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PINK_TEACUPS 2/22/2011 3:55PM

    Those are beautiful!

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CAMPBEND 2/22/2011 3:53PM

    Wow! You're so talented!

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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

well I am better now and hubby is better and the kids never got the horrible stomach flu that put me and hubby down for the count.

woosh it was bad. I came down with it at 3am on Thursday and just laid on the couch between running to the bathroom all day. Then Thursday night I got up around midnight to use the bathroom and while sitting there decided I felt really weird and bad and needed to get back to bed fast. I got up, walked over to the door and then the room went black and I opened my eyes to find myself on the floor. I have never passed out ever in my life. I suppose there is a first for everything. The only thing I can figure is I must have been dehydrated.

The next day I was still feeling a bit bad but had to get everything ready for the weekend. Me and hubby had plans to take the kids to my inlaws for the weekend and we were going to go to the art museum, get a hotel room in the city and then go see a symphony. ..... http://www.videogameslive.com/index.php?s=
So I had to get the kids and us pack but I still felt like crap. Then I had to pick up my son from school later that day and drive them to my inlaws house which is like an hour away. Thank goodness for GPS.... my hubby got me one for valentines day. :-)

Anywhoo Im not even at my inlaws for an hour when my hubby calls and says that he now has the stomach virus and came home from work early. So I had to rush home and baby him for the rest of the night in hopes that he would be well enough to enjoy our prepaid, no refund weekend.

I have all the luck

Fortunatly he made a very quick recovery thanks to my awesome TLC and we had a wonderful weekend with just him and I. It was a nice break from parenting and school and all that. The show we saw btw was awesome! you should check out the link above.

I feel like the stomach bug I had although horrible got me back on track in a since though. I wasnt really in a mood to eat much of anything so I really got out of the all the time snacking I was doing. Then my stomach was tender for a few days afterwards so I got back to eating small, lighter meals. Which is nice and hopefully I can keep it up. Also all the walking on saturday, between taking public transportation in the city and walking the art museum made me realize that I need to start moving again. I have not done any formal form of exercise in over a month.

Today was the first day I have exercised (besides the walking on saturday) in more than a month. Im really hoping to get back on track because lately I have just kinda been floundering along. Not really losing or gaining.... well maybe gaining a pound or two. I lost what extra weight I had gained over the past month with the stomach virus though.

Anyway. I feel like I am doing better (besides the chocolates I had today, damn whitmans sampler my hubby got me for valentines... I gave the rest to my sister though so it wont tempt me anymore) and hopefully I can keep up the trend.

~ Jess

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ASHLEYW_206 2/25/2011 11:47AM

    You amaze me....how you manage to have the stomach flu and still keep up with your kids is truly impressive! I'm so glad you got to enjoy your one-on-one weekend with your hubby and you're both feeling better!

Sometimes it takes stuff like that to get us on track....I always try to remind myself what hungry REALLY feels like after I've been a crazy snacker.

Sounds like you're back on track! Awesome job! emoticon


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SPARKYJEANIE1 2/25/2011 11:21AM

    Wow love...

That was sooo much going on...and the stomach flu is NEVER ever fun in any way,shape or form!!! =( Glad you all are over that!!

Videogameslive? SOOO COOL!! My hubby and son went to that about 2 yrs ago. My son was about 11 or 12 at the time and TOTALLY LOVED THAT! Hubby too! They even bought a CD of the songs - I loove the Castlevania one...so cool how they do that - and the lazer light show made it even more amazing! Good for you guys!

Glad to hear things are getting back on track!

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 2/22/2011 4:41PM

    That was some flu, glad it is gone! Bet it is Great to be back to your workout routine, emoticon

Thank goodness for in-laws!

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So much drama - Warning - Long blog / rant

Friday, February 11, 2011

Well if you read my status you know that I wanted to be able to come up here on spark people at the end of yesterday and report a fabulous day of healthy eating and fitness.

The day started well, I tracked my food, ate a good breakfast. I had plans to go to the mall and eat lunch with my daughter (a healthy preplanned lunch), and then walk around the mall to get some exercise. We went out and I got a Moe's burrito, minus the tortilla shell, minus sour cream and minus cheese... which came out to about 300 calories. They gave me chips with my meal, a whole suitcase full.... (the bag was big) and I gave them to my sister when I got home later. I got lyra a chick-fil-A sandwich and a fruit cup which she only ate half of the sandwich and I ended up eating the other half. Not planned but not too horrible. Then we walked around the mall for 30 minutes.

Not a bad afternoon, but then I got home and my sister told me some lady called but the only thing she could remember is it was important. Big help.
The lady called back about an hour later though and it turns out she was from child protective services. I already knew who called on me when i heard that. The same people who called on me the three times before, my xhusband and his mother. This will be the 4th time in 3 years they have called CPS on me for crazy things that are not even close to be true.
She set up an appt to come over this morning because I had to go to school last night.

So I went to school last night and was all stressed out because I had to come home and clean the house from top to bottom. It wasent disgusting or anything but was rather dirty because I have been going to school all week and just have not had the time to clean up. I was also stressed about the visit from the social worker in general. I know I am a good mom and I go everything I am suppose to do, sometimes even more than I am suppose to do, but there was that feeling that maybe I am doing something wrong that I dont realize and they are going to take my kids from me. I know this is silly... they dont take peoples kids away for not dusting or having a messy fridge. Having my kids taken from me is my greatest fear though, they are my whole world and everything I do in my life is for them. My X took my son from me for 3 months when he was a baby and that has damaged me and I have never gotten over it. Its still hard to think of. I felt like crawling into a hole and dieing when it happened. I think that is why I am such a good parent to my kids, I know to never ever take them for granted.

Anyway, I ended up going to ruby tuesdays and getting a burger and a salad and an appitizer of dumplings. I brought that home and split it with my husband. We ended up not eating the salad because we were full after the other stuff, so I dont think I ate that bad.... but it was not planned and was not the best choice. I was so stressed out..

oh and i knocked back two 4oz glasses of wine.

considering how I was feeling I dident do too bad, but it was not a planned event and I most likely should have done something other than eat to cure stress. Lets just say over all it could have been worse.


So anyway, unrelated to my health. I met with the social worker this morning. It turns out that this time the abuse that I have been inflicting on my son was.

1. He has a cough when he goes to there house (kids get colds)
2. I am on an extream diet and have made my son afraid to eat anything
3. My son is frail and malnurished because I starve him, and you can see his ribs and back bone.

::shakes head::

Well I guess my X husband and his mother have realized Im all skinny now. I suppose they have come to the conclusion that durring the last two years I have become an anorexic and have made my son one as well. My son is not frail or underweight by the way, he is a normal healthy weight for his height and age. He feels like a sack of bricks when i lift him. You can see his ribs when he sucks in his stomach, and you can see his spine to but not in a 3rd world country sort of way. Hell I am at the top of a healthy bmi and you can see my ribs when I suck in my stomach too.

I feed both of the kids healthy food. last night they had whole wheat lasagna with spinach and zucchini. They ate it too. Its alot of spinach I put in my lasagna too. I pack aidens lunch every day and pack him a snack, because I want to know what he is eating. I try to teach them both healthy habits so they dont have the same problems that I have had, and I must be doing a good job if he is telling my X husband that he dosent want to eat certain unhealthy foods when he is at his house.

I think because of how my X and his family live they actually do think I am starving him. My X-husband (who was a pretty skinny guy when we were together before he went mentaly insane and broke up with me to move in with his mental mother) is around 350 - 400 lbs now and his mother who is very short is most likely around 250 lbs. The two are not the picture of health in any standard. They feel Aiden nothing but soda and pizza and other junk when he goes over there.
Aiden came home a few months ago and told me that when he is at there house he eats peanut butter and sugar sandwiches. I told him that eating a lot of sugar is not healthy for you and a better choice would be to put bananas on his sandwich instead of sugar. Anyway he went back and told them that eating alot of sugar will make you unhealthy and he would not eat the peanut butter and sugar sandwiches anymore.
And this past time when he went to there house they celebrated his birthday from last month and got him pizza and cake. He told me that he ate too much pizza and he was full so he dident want any cake. That prob made them upset and pushed them over the edge to call social services on me again.

Sigh, its all ridiculous to me.

anyway the visit from the social worker was very casual and quick. Im sure she figured since this is the 4th visit and the last visit (which was about me starving him also) was not found to be true, so this one would not be either. I showed her the food in my kitchen.... including all the junk that is up there for the kids (ravioli, macaroni and cheese, cookies.) I think she knows Im not starving them.

She said after she left the house she was going to go to aidens school and ask him a few questions and then have the school nurse check to see if he was a healthy weight and then close out the case.

After she left I got lyra's shoes on and we went down to social services where I applied for child support for the first time. I had been avoiding it for the past 5 years because I dont really need it... my husband has a good job and supports us very well.... and because I knew that it would cause more drama with them. It seems that the drama is always created anyway though, even when I try to avoid it they make it for me in some way. So lets see how he likes getting harrassed by the system. He has never paid me a penny for the care of aiden.... not even for the year we were together while aiden was a baby. He was unempoloyed because of his mental illness and I worked to support him... I think aiden deserves it anyway, because he does nothing for him, including taking care of him while aiden is at his house.

You know they feed my son so badly at there house that he comes back constipated from only being there one weekend. Its been a full week since he was last there and he still has not gone to the bathroom. It really makes me so mad. then they have the nerve to call CPS on me saying I am mistreating him.


Well sorry for this rant.... I needed to vent a little bit.

~ Jess


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BECKYCOLVIN 2/13/2011 2:50PM

    Considering how stressful this was for you, I think you did great! :) I can't imagine how it makes you feel to have your unhealthy, overweight ex calling Child Protective services on YOU--he's the one feeding your kiddo pizza, soda, and sugar sandwiches!! You're feeding him whole wheat spinach lasagne and fruits & veggies. What a creep! And as far as filing for child support goes, good for you!

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ESMOMMY13 2/12/2011 10:18AM

    One of the great aspects of sparkpeople is that we can blog about our crazy lives and learn we are not alone in this crazy world. I hate what you are going through with your ex but you do have great kids and I love that you are teaching them to be healthy. :) Gosh, I love that they ate that lasagna. I don't know if I would be that lucky with my 6 year olds. Good luck on getting the child support, I don't blame you for wanting to start annoying them after the stress they have put you through!

Good luck and I hope today will be an awesome day for you and your family. :)

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MALEXANDER4 2/12/2011 7:19AM

    Oh honey, I can feel your pain. I have a son who needs help, he is an addict, I can say that now, and his father my ex thinks there is nothing wrong with him, he is living with him now(he is 21) and my daughter told me that her father called and he said not to tell me that they wanted him in rehab and that they are having fits with him. Now I did all this since the boy was a teen, I did ask for help from the system and was told it was a family problem, that was until he ended up in jail the first time. I then asked if something would be done now? I'm still waiting. The system is there for some and not for others, it is abused by most and the ones of us that need it get passed over. Your an awesome mom, I love to see your photos, and I love your halloween ones best. Michelle.

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NURSE_FAWN 2/11/2011 11:22PM

    I am a nurse and I have raised 3 children of my own. You have beautiful children that practically glow with health. It sounds like your ex is trying to make you as miserable as he is. Keep up all your good work and keep loving your wonderful family. CPS can tell what your ex is doing. emoticon

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LOSINGJESS 2/11/2011 7:38PM

    Thanks for the comments and allowing me to vent. I try to think about my x as little as possible and stuff like this really annoys me because it causes me to think about him alot.
I would send food with my son but it didn't help... I have done it in the past and the stuff I sent got sent back. This was when he was a baby. I have sent sunblock and still got sent back a sunburnt kid, sent insect reorient and still received a child covered in 50 mosquito bites. I have talked to social devices about how they feed him and how they don't care for him right... But it's never enough to do anything about. It's very frustating.
Luckily they end up missing alot of visits with him so he is not seeing them as much now. He is not really minding much so I am not worried about it. He has a good father in his life. In fact right now he is out at the movies with my husband having a daddy night out and then my husband is taking him to the Lego store as a surprise. My husband has been there for him since right after his first birthday and started calling him daddy a few months later. I'm happy for that.

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MEDICGURL1769 2/11/2011 6:32PM

    Hate that you are being stressed out. X's are PAINs!!!!

Went to your page and checked out your before and after's and all I have to say is WOW!! You go girl!!

Teaching your children healthy eating habits is not neglect or abuse, it's being a responsible parent. I am thankful that my son doesn't care too much for sweets, of course he doesn't care too much for veggies or fruit either but I try to provide those that he does like. Your children look healthy and happy and I know when my son was about your sons age that he was skinny as a rail, but well fed and whenever he hits growth spurts he thins out.

Hope you have a stress-free weekend.

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IBSHAUN 2/11/2011 5:30PM

    I was thinking as I was reading your blog, that perhaps CPS needs to investigate his living arrangements and examine his habits. Makes me mad when people abuse the system like this! There are kids out there who really needed that visit today and instead she had to waste her time (and yours) and your house. You fight for your support - he needs to pull his weight especially since he is being an ass.

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NIKKIV2 2/11/2011 5:11PM

    I am so sorry you have to deal with this. Just from reading this I can tell your kids are well taken care of. I wish some people would quit trying to make trouble for others and realize that just because a child doesn't want junk does not mean they are starved. What a S.O.B. I am glad that you finally went for child support. If he thinks your son is being starved then maybe he should help pay for the healthy food you do feed him.

Good luck! emoticon

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KAT262011 2/11/2011 4:52PM

    Your X sounds like a P.O.S. (excuse my language). There is nothing worse in my opinion than being a dead-beat who has the nerve to criticize how you are raising your kids. My step sons mom is the same way- never sees her son or helps to support him but still wants to complain about non-existent things. She also feeds him nothing but junk food when he does visit (I know because he always tells me what she feeds him) and he comes back constipated with a bloated stomach every time. Your kids look perfectly healthy and beautiful. Just keep your head up and be the best Mom you can be.

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TADTURC 2/11/2011 4:37PM

    You're doing a great job! Just keep moving forward and onward. Its the best thing for you and your children.

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KTTAYLOR21 2/11/2011 3:00PM

    The sad part is, CPS will be back again and again. Do not think that that was the last time. If he keeps calling them, they will keep coming no matter what. You know you are taking care of your kids and so does your ex. It's a way to piss you off!!

HIGH FIVE on filing the child support papers. If he's going to take you thru the drama at least he will be coming out of pocket...with his sorry-butt-self..UGH!!!! emoticon

Your doing the right thing, and don't give him the pleasure of addressing it to him.

It's over and done... enjoy your weekend. emoticon

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SALINAMATHER 2/11/2011 1:44PM

    Wow, Your ex should be the one in trouble for feeding your son crap! Why is your ex even allowed to spend time with the kids if he hasn't been paying child support? I think I would go after him for all of the past years if thats possible.
P.S. Your children look healthy and beautiful!

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MILLER*TIME 2/11/2011 1:29PM

    wow girl your ex sounds like a real nasty person. Glad you're going to make him start paying child support!!!! Drama or not i would/ve done that a long time ago. your son def deserves it, heck if nothing else it'll help with his college expenses.

Sorry you're going through CPS though. I know my mom's ex husband did that to her a long time ago and it stressed her out beyond belief! Keep being a good mommy :)

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CECE0330 2/11/2011 1:17PM

    Holy cow. emoticon That's a huge ball of stress to be carrying around. i'm so sorry you are having to go through this. Sheesh, my 7 year old is skin & bones, you CAN see her spine & ribs; she's 4'3" and weighs 49lbs! But she eats a lot, it's just that she has her dad's metabolism.

Even though you are dealing with a nightmarish situation, at least he is OUT of your life in the immediate sense: you don't have to live with him and you have found a better partner! Maybe you could send some food with your son when he goes to their house? Call it a "picnic" and pack enough for him to eat the things he likes & are healthy for him while he's there. Even if it's not enough to cover the whole time, at least he'd have healthier stuff mixed in.

Peanut butter & sugar? blech!

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SPARKINGIT 2/11/2011 1:16PM

    good grief - you poor thing. you are doing all the right things. I remember my mom arguing in front of my kids that cake was good for kids because it had eggs in it! hang in there. emoticon

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Quote to live by

Thursday, February 03, 2011

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." ~ Marianne Williamson

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    This is my most favorite quote ever!!

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FATHINSN 2/4/2011 3:40AM

    I like this sentence, "As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." I guess we unconsciously can affect others, I hope I do.

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    Thank you for another great blog and quote. I look forward to these b logs.

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ASHLEYW_206 2/3/2011 2:11PM

    Such an awesome quote! Thanks for sharing!

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CKAJZER 2/3/2011 2:08PM

  i love this quote!! Great choice :)

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SARAHJ19 2/3/2011 2:04PM

    I love this quote! Thanks for sharing it today :)

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MARIA_S 2/3/2011 1:58PM

    I love that quote. I've read it before and it always makes me glad to be alive. Thanks for sharing.

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PARKERB2 2/3/2011 1:51PM

    That's great blog. I never thought of it that way. I remember singing the song "this little light of mine" when growing up but never related it to myself. Now I will.

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