Friday, December 17, 2010
well yesterday was great. I had the best day as far as eating goes that I have had in weeks. I tracked everything, I stuck to my plan and I did not feel out of control at all. I also got in an hour of exercise.
As a result I feel like today is going great as well.... I feel really confident that I'm heading in the right direction again.
Its so weird how you can struggle so hard for weeks to have that one good day... and once you have it, it sets everything in place and you just feel like your back on that wagon, instead of chasing it or walking in the other direction.
The night before last night I was telling my husband about how I'm excited to Join the YMCA. I have been wanting to join for a while now but we were never in the position for me to be able to join. For one, I don't have a drivers license. I don't really tell people that, that often because I find it embarrassing that I am a mother of two and almost thirty years old and I have never gotten my license. The reason behind that is when I was 16 my parents could not afford to put me on there car insurance... and after that I could not ever afford to get my own... then when I got married me and my husband still could not afford it... and unlike a few years ago where once you reached a certain age the price went down... now it only goes down after you have been insured and driving for like 3 - 5 years! It sucks.
Anyway I was not able to drive to the gym if I wanted to and we could not afford the membership fee anyway.
This year we got two credit cards and a few other bills paid off so we are in a better place and I told my husband that I wanted the membership to the Y for Christmas. It was actually really easy to talk him into it, especially since after this month I wont be paying for weight watchers anymore (that's 40 bucks a month).
But anyway, back to two nights ago. I was telling him about how much I was struggling to stay on track and he asked "what if you don't make lifetime?" .... cause you have to be no more than two pounds over your goal weight, 6 weeks after making it. And I said... "oh well, If I don't make it, its no big deal. I would rather just have the gym membership anyway"
That's when he told me that I could not join the Y unless I made lifetime.
I was like, you never said anything about that. He told me that I had worked way to hard to not do this and if I wanted the gym membership then I better start working to get it.
I dident really put up a fight about it. I think its really sweet that he cares enough about me and my goals that he would say something like that. It really gives me alot of added motivation to work really hard for the next two weeks.
I really love my hubby so much.
After that the next day I put everything I had into my day and it came out great. I have that reward to look forward to in the future and its helping to push me. Another good motivation is even though I don't think I have gained much weight, I can tell hubby has put back on about 20 pounds since summer. I know that is my fault because I have been bringing things in the house that are bad for all of us. I have also been making him bigger portions and super bad for him mixed drinks at night. I want to help get him back on track too.
He even said he might come workout with me once we get the membership.... we are getting a family membership, which will be really great. That is a huge thing for him to say because it was like pulling teeth to get him out at the park to take a walk with me, when we started all this two years ago. He always thinks people are going to think bad about him because of his weight. He cares way too much about what others think. Maybe that self consciousness is fading a bit.
well Im off to have another great day... and then a great weekend after that.
You do the same!