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Hard time adjusting

Thursday, December 09, 2010

I was doing so well and I felt like I really had some good momentum going and then what happened? Weight watchers went and changed there freakin program on me.

If you have not herd about it. Weight watchers has changed there point system. Instead of using calories fat and fiber they now use - fat fiber carbs and protein. Fruit and veggies are zero points and you get more points per day to eat. Things that are higher in carbs have gone up in points, and I geuss they are trying to stear you more towards high protein and lower carbs.

I was really excited at first. I went through that first week and stuck to everything exactly. I was nervous because fruit was zero points and because I was unsure of how everything was going to add up but I trusted it and just went with it.

I weighed in last week and gained a pound... and this was a week after gaining almost a pound the previous week. So I am almost two pounds up since reaching my goal and to make lifetime you have to maintain your weight no more than two pounds above your goal weight. So I started freakin out.

I came home and kept doing the new program but I was feeling all of a sudden very out of control. I found myself not feeling like I could have one cookie or even whole wheat pasta because it was higher in points on the new program. I know its all a mind trick though because I get more daily points as well. but this little mind game I was playing with myself made me feel very out of control and made me want to eat a whole plate full of cookies. Even though I did not eat a whole plate full I ate more than I wanted. I ate more than I planned at that holiday party last week.... I found myself nibbling and not writing down so I could avoid what the new points system would tell me. I was also annoyed every time I had to buy something at the store or eat anything because I had to calculate the points for it and had to use 4 elaments instead of three. Its much easier to go the the kitchen and pull a box of crackers down and remember 100cal 2 fat and 1 fiber .... then it is to remember 2 fat 33 carbs 1 protien and 1 fiber as you are walking down the hall to the computer to look up how much it is. Maybe I am being ridiculous but these things just made me want to cry.

So I sat down and took a deep breath and decided even though this is what weight watchers wants me to do I need to decided what is good for Jessica. Jessica was doing very well on the "old" weight watchers system and had lost 100 pounds doing it. So why change? I know weight watchers says that its because new science has come out about food in the last 15 years blah blah blah blah.... but what does that have to do with me.

I have finally found something that works for me.... found a groove that I can stick to after years of struggling to lose weight, only to gain. And I know the one thing that did not work for me was hopping from one "diet" to another and never sticking with anything. That is what this change felt like to me.... even though the new system is sound nutritional advice and all it just felt like another "diet".... I dont feel like its a good idea for me to switch to this right now.

You know its funny because I almost feel guilty for switching back to the old points system....(which I did mid week because I was feeling so bad about it).... like I'm doing a forbidden thing or should have given it more time. The way I was headed though I could only see gains in my future.

Anyway now I am in this place where I am just struggling to do anything right. I'm finding it very hard to get motivated to exercise and very hard to stick to good eating. Im trying to find that good place where you can just get up in the morning and workout and not feel like stabing yourself in the head.

Its hard because I am tracking on paper and before I use to live by the weight watchers e-tools tracker. They switched everything over to the new system to its useless if I am using the old system.

Hopefully in the next few weeks I can get into that good place again. I have to be at or under my goal by the time 6 weeks rolls around at weight watchers because I want to make lifetime and be done with paying. It would be nice to take the money and join the gym... I think that would really help me stay on track.

Jess

  
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DETERMINEDJANET 12/9/2010 11:13PM

    You're making the right choice! I remember when they went from the very ancient exchange program to points that even the leader had to step down because she could not maintain the weight on the new program. Same idea! I still have to go back to the ancient exchanges to lose easily. They'll never know you're doing the old points system and why should they care if you are losing and getting healthier! Personally I don't think fruits should be zero because a lot of those are higher in calories and even my doctor says you can gain weight on fruits and veggies.

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PANFRIEDTROUT 12/9/2010 10:26PM

    yep ... "if it ain't broke, don't fix it" ...

and as BAttistoli said, I have to MAKE myself do physical activities & like him/her, feel better after I have

lastly (but not least important) way to go on the 100# loss!!

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MALEXANDER4 12/9/2010 10:22PM

    You wrote what i've been feeling. I have all the new tools (finally), they started the program but online users had to wait and when I ordered the tools that others got at a meeting for 4.95 I had to pay 11.95 for the same caluclator, I just got my books today. . Maybe now I can sit down and come up with a plan. Like you I gained the first week. This is my second week and tomorrow wiill tell. I'm almost tempted to go back to the old way myself. I feel we should of been given a choice. Good luck to you no matter what you choose. You will reach lifetime and soon.

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HOPE2011 12/9/2010 10:00PM

    I agree with the others - if the old system worked for you, then work the old system. Just because they changed doesn't mean you have to. Heck, I remember hearing people having a hard time with WW when they changed over to Points all those years ago! The bottom line is that you know what works for you. It's healthy, not a fad, and there is no reason why you can't do what's best for you.

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SYLVIALYNN2 12/9/2010 8:18PM

    Please don't sabotage yourself at this point. You are so close. Stick with what works for you. Do your paper tracking and maybe once a week, enter your information into the new etools to compare. Once you have made lifetime, it may be easier for you to switch to the new program.

I am loving the new program and have lose 5.5 pounds in 2 weeks. When I started the old program last year, I honestly did not work at it. This is serious business and if you are serious, you win.

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BRIAEL 12/9/2010 1:15PM

    Ouch. I'm sure you're not alone in discovering this is a much harder pattern to maintain than the one you're used to.

My suggestion would be ..... build your own document based on your historic WW paperwork and continue working with the old system. It worked for you, you were familiar with it, your nutrients were right for you (or you'd never have stayed healthy and happy with the plan) and you weren't doing a mental nosedive with it.

If WW aren't prepared to work with you on this, then they aren't in it to help. Something to consider. :)

You CAN eat properly and you lost a helluva lot of weight doing it. Don't keep following a path that is making your lifestyle unworkable and you anxious. :)

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BOVEY63 12/9/2010 12:56PM

    I hate when they change programs!
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I think that you are right in doing what works best for you - the success you have achieved has definitely proven it!
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MKELLY72 12/9/2010 12:39PM

    I absolutely agree with everyone else who has posted. Do what works for you! I had a little trouble adjusting, because I started this entirely on my own with shared information. I did everything on paper, which I don't mind at all. That's what I'm still doing. When I started the new program, I still tracked everything the old way too, and I found that I was staying in target on both sheets. That really helped me to get a grip on it and put the proper perspective on the change, and it reassured me that I was doing fine. I already made lots of fruit and veggie choices anyway and whole grains, lean protein, etc.
Don't stress about it. I'm sure if you track the old way, and make a comparison on your own terms, you will find that you are just fine:-)

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ANGELBELIEVER 12/9/2010 11:44AM

    I am a life timer and have maintained for 2.5 years. I am sticking to the "old" program as that works for me too. Sometimes change is good and sometimes we are better sticking to what we know works for us. You'll be fine. Stay the course!

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62NVON 12/9/2010 11:40AM

    Do what works for you, Jess... You are the only one who knows your body. If you have access to a spreadsheet program, I have the old Points formula. You could make your own "tracker" on your computer.

I'm so freaking proud of how much you've accomplished. Keep going! =)

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ASHLEYW_206 12/9/2010 11:32AM

    You have to do what works for you! Don't feel bad about sticking to what you know. Maybe you could experiment a bit with the new program before committing 100%. It's hard to change when you've become accustomed to how things work a certain way. Don't give up and don't feel bad about doing what works for you....I think that's the best way to work a system anyway! Each person needs to do things a little bit differently. Remember how far you've come! Keep it up, girl...you are such an inspiration to so many!

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BATTISTOLI 12/9/2010 11:21AM

    i am glad you decided to go back to the old system. that was going to be my first suggestion. i mean, hey, if it worked for you, then i say stick with it! forget the new program! keep your goal of wanting to reach lifetime right in front of you. put it on the fridge. in your purse. in your car. this is what you are reaching for. that way, when you get ready to eat something you shouldnt, see your goal and remind yourself "i want lifetime". its all a mind game unfortunately sometimes. i wish i could wake up and WANT to work out... i literally have to pick my a** up off the chair and FORCE myself to do it. i can tell you i feel much better once ive done it. dont beat yourself up. keep doing what works for you.by the way, CONGRADS on losing 100 lbs! that is fabulous. im right behind you!

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My Birthday

Sunday, November 21, 2010

well I had a great birthday yesterday... as you know I reached my ww goal which is a gift in itself.

My sisters gave me some really awesome gifts, including some dark kiss lotion and body spray from bath and body works... mmm smells so good, a new table cloth and new pot holders... yay. I asked for all kitchen stuff this year.

My mom came down and gave me some new ear rings, that were really cute and then me and my husband took her out to dinner (it was her birthday two days ago so that was my gift to her)... we went to a japanese hibatchi place... the kind where they cook the food in front of you. I had miso soup, a salad with ginger dressing, we got three sushi rolls to split and then me and my husband split the chicken & steak and the Salmon & shirmp entree, which came with veggies, fried rice and noodles.

After that we went to go see the new harry potter movie. It was really well done compared to alot of the other movies. There were some things in it that really did not match up with the other movies though, things that were in the books but not put in the previous movies.... you would be lost if you had never read the books. But all in all it was really good.

I asked my hubby to stop by a local diner near our house on the way home. They have the best cheesecake and I wanted a slice, I have been planning on eating a slice of cheesecake from there for the entire year. I love cheesecake, its my favorite but I have made a deal with myself that I will only eat it once a year on my birthday because then that keeps it special and I dont have to worry about how high the points are.... because its only that one time.

They were out of the new york style cheesecake.... it was karyoke night and I geuss everyone there had a taste for plain cheesecake. :-(

So I went to the grocery store and ended up getting a sample pack of 4 slices.... I just wanted one big slice but it was either the sample pack of 4 tiny slices or buying a whole cheesecake to get my one big slice (which I knew would turn into the whole 8" cake by today)

So me and hubby split the pack of 4 slices. It was not the best but it satisfied my need for cheesecake once a year. and I am so done with it till next year.

I was so full last night I felt kinda ill. Even though I only ate half of my meal at dinner and did not get snacks in the movie theater I still ate waaay more then I normaly do and it was alot of points.... I added up the points for yesterday and it came up to around 60 points. My daily allotment is 22, so thats alot. I used up the majority of my weekly points on my birthday.

You know what though, I really enjoyed it and I know that I will make up for it this week. I am back on track this morning. I used the measuring cup to measure out my shredded wheat and fat free milk and I plan on exercising today too.

Overeating happens, its nice to be in a place now where I can jump right back to eating well the next meal. That makes me really happy.

One sad thing about yesterday though that really bothers me is how little my mom ate at dinner. I really wanted to take her somewhere nice and she did not hardly touch her food. I think it was because she was self consious about her weight. She lost alot of weight last year... she had gone from like 200 down to 150 lbs because the doctor gave her diet pills. Well she stopped taking them and guess what happened. :-( .... Now a year later she weighs more than I have ever seen her weigh. She looks like she is almost as big as I was when I started and it makes me really sad for her. I can just see this look on her face every time I see her. Expecially last night because she has not seen me in 20 pounds.
I really wish she would get her head in a good place to do this too... but you cant make someone take thouse steps, they have to be ready on there own. I of all people know that.

On a lighter note though overall the day was really good, overeating aside. Im looking forward to another great week.

Hmmm.... I just thought of this though... if thanksgiving is this week and I used all of my weekly points on my birthday.... hmmm, this is gonna be interesting. I think I may need to tweak my thanksgiving menu some more and make it even lighter. It will be interesting to try and eat on target that day, but I enjoy a challenge.

~ Jess

  
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MAMAFEELGOOD 11/23/2010 12:11PM

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JENIFROUFROU 11/21/2010 10:24PM

    Glad you enjoyed your birthday dinner. Try stepping up your activity every day this week so you can bank some extra activity points for turkey day :)


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MALEXANDER4 11/21/2010 3:04PM

    don't forget your activity points. You could use those for thankgiving or some of those. I don't like to use them for food all the time but I have on occasion. I'm glad your day was wonderful. I was so happy for you yesterday I told my husband and daughter. I showed my hubby you pic and he couldn't believe how wonderful you look. You really are a new and improved person. You know what you mom will come to that place, give it time, I'm hoping my daughter does also. She is where you were. that is why I wanted her to see you, I want her to see taking care of yourself really does pay off. You look awesome.

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BOVEY63 11/21/2010 11:57AM

    Sounds like a very nice birthday celebration. Here's to another wonderful year!
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SWEETNEENI 11/21/2010 10:57AM

    Sorry I missed your birthday but glad you enjoyed it. Make this year your best one yet!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 11/21/2010 10:40AM

    emoticonHappy Birthday! And kudos to you for spending your day the day you wanted to because you made a plan to do it that way! Your birthday is a much more important day than Thanksgiving day! It's all about YOU!!!! WAY TO GO on achieving your Goal Weight!!! What a Gift to yourself! I'm soooo happy for you!!!!

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HOPE2011 11/21/2010 10:30AM

    Glad to hear that you enjoyed your day - that's most important of all!

I am really impressed that you're getting right back on track - that's a lesson I need to learn. I also like your strategy of keeping your cheesecake craving to one day a year - that is awesome! You've given me a lot to think about for me and my strategies - thank you!

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DONNAEDA 11/21/2010 10:21AM

    you remember that you have an extra 35 points for special events like your birthday. and you earn extra activity points for exercising. So you really didn't do that bad. Happy birthday to you and many many more.

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CIVIAV 11/21/2010 10:12AM

    Wow! It sounds like you experienced a lifetime of life on your birthday and what a wonderful birthday it was! Your thinking is amazingly focused and balanced. Now, to Thanksgiving and the coming week. How about a Spark People Challenge to get through Thanksgiving and to Spark your Mom?!

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BELLALUCIA 11/21/2010 10:10AM

    Hey Jess, Happy B-day! Spoiler alert about Harry, so beware!
I enjoyed the jokes, lots of them. The end was just right! Voldemort desecrating Dumbledore's grave was epic! I love Voldemort's evil ways, lol. He is a great villain, Snape is one note, well he's not really a villain is he? Malfoy is a one note villain for realz! I cried when Dobby died and laughed when Potter was dancing with Hermoine. What song played when they were dancing, I wanna listen to it again! I'm gonna stay on plan on Thanksgiving if at all possible! Here's to us!

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Reached Goal At Weight Watchers

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Well this morning I got up early and felt really good about today. For one its my 29th birthday and I have a really fun day planned. Im going out to eat later today with my mom and my husband and then we are going to go see harry potter.
I also felt good because I have done really really well this week... I stuck to my eating and got in around 40 minutes of exercise M-F.

I needed 1.8 to reach the goal I set at weight watchers and I have been trying to make it for a few weeks now but I will only lose a few oz. and I even gained one week. I had really been struggling.

I really pushed this week because how cool would it be to make goal on your birthday!

So I nervously got up on the scale at my 7:30am meeting and when my leader held up two fingers I said .... "2 pounds?"
She shook her head yes and I started jumping up and down... I could feel the tears welling up. lol.

I pulled out a sheet of paper with something I had written out last night on the computer. I knew if I reached my goal today then my leader would want me to share my story with everyone and I knew I needed to write it down because I would leave somthing out or be so flustered I could not compose my thoughts. thats just how I am.

When it was time for my leader to announce my 100lbs lost and reaching my goal I handed her the sheet of paper and asked her to read it... because I knew I would cry. and I started crying as soon as she started reading so it was a good thing.

here is what I wrote

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I have been overweight since I was a baby. When I graduated high school I weighed around 310 lbs. I went on my first diet shortly after high school and my weight went up and down for years as I went on one fad diet after another. I would “diet” for a week or two but after not getting the quick fix I wanted I would eat everything in sight as I went on a month long binge and gained everything back plus some.

By the time 2009 rolled around I had just had my 2nd child and was 273 pounds. I could not play with my kids because I would get to tired, I could not shave my legs in the shower because I would get out of breath bending over, I could not put my pants on standing up because it hurt to lift my legs and The only clothes I had that would fit me were 3X maternity clothes, that I was quickly growing out of.

At the time I didn’t think I would ever be thin, I had pretty much given up hope on that a while ago but I knew I could not go on living the way I was. I knew I needed to change my mind set because the quick fixes I tried in the past never worked. I told myself that I would do this and no matter if I only lost a quarter pound a week I would not stop.

I started my weight loss journey on Jan 3rd 2009 at 273lbs. I started by just eating smaller portions and lower calorie foods but after a few weeks I decided to join weight watchers. I had done weight watchers once before and done well for the few weeks I stuck with it. I knew I needed the accountability of the meetings because even though I had lost 13 lbs. on my own I could feel myself slipping.

Shortly after that I decided to start exercising. Every other time I tried to lose weight before, exercise was something that was missing. I would always work out for a few days and then just get sick of it and quit. I could never get into a routine. This time I started with baby steps because I knew for me to stick to anything I needed to build it into a habit. So I started with the most minimal exercise I could think of; walking in place in front of the TV.

After almost two years I have lost over 100 lbs. and around 150 lbs. since high school. I ran my first 5k this past summer, I am now able to shop in the normal side of the store and am wearing a small - medium in shirts and a size 12 in pants. Shopping in the normal side of the store is something I had never been able to do, not even in middle school! I can now wrap a normal size bath towel around me instead of a beach towel, I have become a good role model for my children, and have even helped my husband lose 90 pounds just by cooking healthier meals for our family.

This has been the hardest, greatest, most wonderful thing I have ever done for myself and my family. I have learned so much in the past two years and have grown more than I thought I could from just learning to live healthy. I have no fears that I wont be able to maintain my weight loss because I know I now have the tools and support I need to keep me on track.

I am so excited for the years to come and to finally be able to live my life with nothing holding me back.

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By the time she was finished reading half of the people in the room where crying! I was really shocked over that because I did not expect my story to move so many. I had people come up and hug me and tell me how inspired they are by me... there was a man who was around 50 years old and you could see the streaks left on his face where he had cried... wow.

I got my 100lb charm for my key chain and in 6 weeks I will be a lifetime member. I am so so happy. I am not at my final goal yet... I have a personal goal of 150 lbs.... but It feels like I have gotten there already even though I know this is not the end. I am so incredibly proud of myself.... that is an amazing feeling in its self because I really truely did not think I would ever be able to do this.

I think the most wonderful part of it all was a lady came up to me at the end of the meeting and she was crying. She said she was planning on quitting after today because she was just fed up with the whole thing. She said that she was going to stick with it because of me. That has to be the most rewarding feeling of all because I know how painful it is to be where she is now and how frustrating it is when your on that road and it seems like you cant get any farther along. I hope that one day she will get to where I am now and feel how happy and proud I am.

Its already a great Birthday.

Happy Saturday everyone!

~ Jessica

  
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MAMAFEELGOOD 11/23/2010 11:57AM

    Congratulations! You should be proud and doing a happy dance!

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MG3KDZ 11/21/2010 1:03PM

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PIXIEMOM13 11/21/2010 12:29PM

    I followed Ruthanne100 over here (and because I saw the title about Weight Watchers, which is the plan I am following.

Happy birthday! And you've given yourself such a tremendous gift of good health.. how awesome is that?

I read your entry out loud to my husband and as I was reading I was getting choked up and was crying. I don't know you, but I'm so happy for you! (and I hope to one day be able to post something similar to your post).

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SWEETNEENI 11/21/2010 11:00AM

    You are a superstar! I'm so proud of your accomplishments! WTG!
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NANFACEMIRE1 11/21/2010 8:52AM

    emoticon. Job well done. I am a lifetime WW member and have been maintaining for 9 years. It is still sometimes a struggle, but I do it because I want to be where I am. WW teaches you a new way of eating and you can eat anything you want.........just COUNT it. emoticon for you and a belated Happy Birthday.

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DAVEW175 11/21/2010 8:00AM

    Congratulations and Happy Birthday.

You're an inspiration to so many of us. emoticon

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DRB13_1 11/20/2010 11:26PM

    emoticon Happy tears!
I saw the title of your blog on my friend feed and thought I was just stopping by to say how significant reaching goal weight is and congratulate you, but then I read your blog and I am just so inspired and proud and happy for you and so overwhelmed how much you have changed your life and ...there aren't even words to describe all the feelings!
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congrats on reaching goal weight
congrats on losing over 100 lbs
congrats on helping others see what is possible
congrats on one of your best birthdays ever
congrats on taking control of your life and living it fully and spectacularly and persistently
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all the best in everything you put your mind to do
because you can!
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JENIFROUFROU 11/20/2010 10:00PM

    Happy birthday and congratulations on your 100 pound victory!!!

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RUTHANNE100 11/20/2010 9:31PM

    Now THAT'S what I call a great birthday! Congratulations...how rewarding to see your hard work paying off!!!

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BOVEY63 11/20/2010 8:51PM

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Your story so inspirational that it brought tears to my eyes too!

Happy Birthday - enjoy your night out and the movie (my son and his Godmother went to the first showing and they both enjoyed it).
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ELSCO55 11/20/2010 7:03PM

    emoticon emoticon Wish you were in our WW meeting. You are an inspiration.

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46SHADOW 11/20/2010 5:42PM

    So happy for you!

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CHICAT63 11/20/2010 5:30PM

    What an excellent way to celebrate your birthday, losing 100 pounds and gaining wellness !!!! Have fun tonight, enjoy. Wishing you a happy birthday, health, happiness for the year to come.

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MALEXANDER4 11/20/2010 4:51PM

    Oh jess that is awesome. I"m so happy for you. I've already wished you a happy birthday but I want to wish it to you again. I'm still holding out to finally see my magic number on the scales....i'm 5 lbs away and each week I feel farther away. You have given my the motivation I need to finish this. I'm so proud for you. Michelle.

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BRIAEL 11/20/2010 4:43PM

    Darn girl, you have me in tears now too! First of all, have a wonderful birthday. A special day in which you celebrate both your birth and your "coming of weight age".

What an awesome achievement. I'm so thrilled for you, and overjoyed that you got such recognition from your fellow Weight Watchers. I bet everyone in that room was hoping that they have your strength, determination and courage for their journey.

Whether you know it or not, you inspire people every single day. Just because we don't pat you on the back, doesn't mean we aren't here admiring from a distance and hoping to be just like you in time. :)

You are awesome sauce, Jess! :)

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MKELLY72 11/20/2010 4:37PM

    Incredible story! Happy Birthday! You are truly inspirational. It's great that you share your story and so wonderful that it has the effect on others like it did. You did a great thing by giving this gift to yourself and by bringing hope to others who felt they couldn't go on. Congratulations!

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MAMAGOSS 11/20/2010 4:01PM

    What a wonderful birthday gift to yourself! You rock!!

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AMLGARRIDO 11/20/2010 1:03PM

    Congratulations!!! Happy Birthday!!!

Can I start crying now??? LOL. You truly are an inspiration to us all!I am so happy that you've come this far! You are my motivation to keep going forward! Keep up the awesome work!

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ASHLEYW_206 11/20/2010 12:37PM

    Incredible! Thank you for sharing your special story with us today....and happy birthday! Here's to a wonderful year ahead Jess!

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THENEWSHANNON 11/20/2010 12:33PM

    Happy birthday, and way to go!!!
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DEANABABY 11/20/2010 12:30PM

    Happy Birthday and congratulations on all of your hard work and success!! emoticon

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HOPE2011 11/20/2010 11:49AM

    The people at the WW meeting are not the only ones you brought to tears - you are such an inspiration, Jess! Congrats to you for everything. I want to be like you. emoticon emoticon

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MASHEI 11/20/2010 11:47AM

    FAN-freaking-TASTIC!!! I don't even know you and I am proud of you! Congratulations on your successes. I hope you have many more! Here's to you reaching your ultimate goal!
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Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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PRINCESSNURSE 11/20/2010 11:40AM

    Congratulations! What a wonderful birthday present you gave to yourself--way to go! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NIELSENSLADY 11/20/2010 11:38AM

    This story is just awesome! Happy Birthday! emoticon emoticon

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BROADCASTER 11/20/2010 11:35AM

  Terrific and congratulations. Your story is most inspiring and really reflects the power within. Way to go!

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hair cut & window shopping - PICS

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Yesterday my sister decided to take me out to eat dinner for my birthday.... my birthday is this coming Saturday.

We went to eat at a Chinese buffet that I really like, it has hibachi where you can pick out what veggies and meat and sauce you want and they cook it up for you... and sushi... I have been having a huge craving for sushi lately.

Anywhoo I was really mindful while eating. I got my hibachi with just some veggies and shrimp... I told the dude cooking "NO Butter!" ... they usually ladle butter on the grill before cooking your food which can add easily a few hundred calories. Then I got some teriyaki sauce on it. It was really good.


I split a plate of sushi with my sister, staying away from mayo sauce and fried stuff.


And then I got a few of the extra little things that I really like, 1 or two small peices of sesame chicken, wonton soup (I only ate about 1/3 of the wonton and soup was bland to did not eat any of that) a dumpling and a few fried cheese wontons.... yum! I remember when I use to come to this restaurant and eat an entire plate stacked with like 20 cheese wontons. Wow I have come a long way since then, its no wonder I was almost 300 lbs!


Dinner ended up coming up to about 15 points, which is kinda high and all but I had the forethought to eat very lightly for breakfast and lunch and stayed on track for the day! Go me!

Later we went up to the mall. I got my hair cut for the first time in almost 2 years. I got my hair cut about two months into my weight loss journey and it was horrible. I ended up with boy hair cut up to my ear... you can look at my progress pics to see that hack job.
I usually go really short... I have every time I have ever gotten my hair cut. I get it cut short and then grow it out to about my shoulders and get it all cut off again. This time I only got about 1/2 an inch cut off of it. Very different for me. I geuss I always wanted something that was really dramatic... I was just concerned with doing something that looked good this time and something that would work for me. I guess I have changed some in the last few years.
I was very specific this time and I brought a picture. It was a few pictures of Kristen Stewart, the actress who plays Bella on Twilight. I thought her hair would really work for me since her hair type is wavy like mine and she has sort of a square face like me too.

Hair cut came out awesome but the lady was not a very good hair dresser... she kept whipping my hair in my face for one and when she styled it I felt like she was going to rip it all out at the roots. not a very pleasurable hair cut but at least I got what I wanted. She waaaay over product it though so my hair was hard as a brick... When I got home I had to take a hammer and chisel to it. lol.

After that we went over to a store called Maurices - www.maurices.com ... they had a lot of clothes I really liked. I'm not in a position to buy anything right now because I don't have the money but I thought it might be fun to try on skinny girl clothes. I have not really had a chance to do that yet because Im always out with my husband when I go out and you know how guys are when you try to try on anything. He would not have been happy about me trying on an entire armful of clothes that I had not intention of buying.

My sister on the other hand was more than happy to join in on my little fashion adventure though. She took her roll as my personal fashion consultant and started pulling things off the racks for me to try on. I just let her, I don't really have any since of fashion yet.... I have never been able to wear clothes like that, its only been t shirts and jeans for me... because thats all I could ever find to wear because hell if I was paying Lane Bryant prices. lol.

So I started trying stuff on and I was looking really good. At one point I remember saying out loud "Damn, I'm hot!" It was more in an astonished tone though... lol, Like I was just realizing something. I realize its much easier to feel good about yourself when your clothes fit right and are flattering. I'm really looking forward to getting a little bit of extra money around tax return time and buying myself some new outfits.



It was fun and made me feel alot better about myself, I think everyone should do something nice for themselves now an then, it really helps put you in a better mood... I felt kinda bad for the sales girl though, she was looking pretty excited when I had like 300 dollars worth of stuff to try on. She kept coming up to the dressing room door and pitching credit card offers and stuff. I re-shelved the stuff myself though so she couldn't be too upset. :-P

Have a Great Tuesday!

~ Jessica

  
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SWEETNEENI 11/21/2010 11:04AM

    You are positively GORGEOUS! I remember when I first started on spark and you were one of my first friends. You have come so far! I'm all teary-eyed over here because of your awesomeness. emoticon

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LDY_ALI_79 11/20/2010 12:12PM

    emoticon you look amazing!

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HOPE2011 11/20/2010 12:01PM

    Looks great, Jess! What a huge difference!

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NIELSENSLADY 11/20/2010 11:33AM

    I loooooove the red shirt and black vest! You look great!

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FLYSOHIGH 11/20/2010 3:29AM

    Excuse me, but DAMN, YOU'RE HOT!!! Wow!!! You look amazing!!!! Seriously each month you're looking nicer and prettier, not to mention thinner!!

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PLANSEEKER 11/18/2010 8:10PM

    Really like the new haircut and the clothes look really nice, too. You have really done a great job getting and keeping the weight off. Have a great Birthday! emoticon emoticon

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SANDY1969 11/18/2010 2:30PM

    WTG! I did the haircut thing yesterday, scared to freaking death...lol I just needed something NEW after the same do for 25-30 years.

You look great, and better still I bet you feel so much better!


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MALEXANDER4 11/17/2010 9:43AM

    I love your haircut. You lood marvelous girl.

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BECKYCOLVIN 11/16/2010 10:02PM

    This is great! I'm proud of your progress & so happy that you got to try on cute stuff. Your haircut looks good, too. :)

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ASHLEYW_206 11/16/2010 5:56PM

    You look amazing, girl, congrats! And you have such a great attitude about everything. You deserve to treat yourself a little bit....you're amazing! Thanks for keeping me inspired!

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SPARKYJEANIE1 11/16/2010 5:48PM

    Check YOU out miss Foxy Diva Jess!!!!

Firstly - I am soooo very sorry - on my feed I mentioned how work is being crappy about internet stuff - hence your friend here being MIA a bit the past couple wks. I still check in though...shhh!! lol

Second - that haircut is HOT girl! Let that length come back - you can totally pull that Kristen Stewart look off and look even BETTER than her, missy!!!

How fun - I love that Japanese hibachi grill type restaurant - I'd go more often, but dh is a wimp at trying out new foods - I love it all and great work telling mr. chef to skip the blab-making butter!!! lol - Love your main entee - I love miso soup!

The fashion show - FUN - O- RAMA!! Your sissy sounds like such fun to be around - and I'm happy you tried on all sorts of hot outfits!! I love the red shirt with vestie...all that striking a posin going on!! You deserve some treats - hope your tax return is HUGO so you can splurge as you deserve...

Lastly - I have your bday marked on my office calendar!! This Saturday, the 20th!! I wish you a beautiful day full of beautiful things - and may this next year bring you a newfound love for YOU and so much happiness!! I wish you the very best for my Jess!!!

Love ya girlie - and don't forget - If I'm not necessarily "on" here as much, I'm still with you in spirit - cheering you on all the way - I know corney, but what can I say, I'm a total cornball!! haha

xoxo
Jeanie
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*some 100% fat free cake* lol

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CRK910 11/16/2010 4:18PM

    Wow you look amazing. Great Job!

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BOVEY63 11/16/2010 11:21AM

    You do look hot! Looks like you had your own version of Julia Roberts fitting room scene from Pretty Women.
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KTTAYLOR21 11/16/2010 10:56AM

    You are HOT!!! Baby you look marvelous FOR REAL. I love how you put that vest with that top. Very cute. You look emoticon!!! emoticon

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BJW-FARMGIRL 11/16/2010 10:37AM

    Woo hoo! You are looking great! Have a super birthday, and if you get any birthday money, go get that blue top!

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SUZANNEMW 11/16/2010 10:01AM

    I love the pink scarf on you...buy that first! You look great!

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MAMAFEELGOOD 11/16/2010 9:59AM

    You go girl!!!

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VAMPTRIANA4EVR 11/16/2010 9:51AM

    That is amazing! I have been starting to feel alot better about myself lately too... I still have a long way to go but when I look back on where I came from I realize just how much I have already changed. Luckily I have a whole warcrobe or smaller clothes that I have collected from freecycle to hold me over till I can get to goal and finally buy myself a new wardrobe also! LOL I just got down into my size 14's in the past couple weeks and I am so excited to get down into my size 12's next!

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HULLAF 11/16/2010 9:44AM

    Sounds like a GREAT day! Have a Happy Birthday.

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CARLA-216 11/16/2010 9:15AM

    Gorgeous...that is you!

I hate when they put so much product in my hair and it's crunchy. I end up having to use baking soda to get all the crap out the next morning. LOL

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DONNAEDA 11/16/2010 9:07AM

    you are one hot lady. Love your hair.

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JENIFROUFROU 11/16/2010 8:48AM

    I love your idea about trying on skinny girl clothes, even if you can't afford to buy, just to see how fantastic you look! Especially love the fashion show style photos :)


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BETHKK 11/16/2010 8:48AM

    You DO look hot, girl!! LOVE that blue top! And your hair looks wonderful!

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TREASURINGLIFE 11/16/2010 8:46AM

    What a great evening! And you look flippin' awesome!! I love the outfits, and the hair, and the boost of confidence you got! Wooo-whooo!!! :)

Have a WONDERFUL day!

- Michelle

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4DOGNIGHT 11/16/2010 8:42AM

    You look pretty darn good! Congrats!

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6 Week Goal

Monday, November 15, 2010

10 years ago I was shopping in the thrift store and found this beautiful vintage dress that I just loved. I was 310 lbs at the time and knew that I would most likely never wear this dress because it was tiny. No size in it, but tiny. A size I could never imagine ever being.... ever! But You know when your that big you always have that dream that one day you will be able to really do it and get "skinny".

This dress has been hanging in my closet for 10 years and I have almost given it away several times but I held on to it because I love it so much.

Currently I am about an inch or two away from getting it zipped. so freakin close.

I would like to wear this dress on christmas but its gonna really take alot of commitment on my part. I need to not skip my workouts and I need to stick to my plan for eating.

I feel good about it though and I am really looking forward to being able to wow my family on christmas.

~ Jess

  
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HOPE2011 11/20/2010 11:54AM

    What a nice dress! You've proved that you're able to get what you want and I know you can do it!

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VICIOUS421 11/15/2010 7:59PM

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SILVERWING2623 11/15/2010 2:55PM

    Oh wow, it is beautiful! You can do it Jess! I know you can!

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BOVEY63 11/15/2010 12:49PM

    Love the dress - you will look great in it!
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HULLAF 11/15/2010 12:26PM

    You can do it, Jess! emoticon

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BRIGHTBEGINNING 11/15/2010 12:08PM

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I KNOW YOU CAN!!!
And you know what? After reading your blog
YOU'VE INSPIRED ME!! I've been extremely bad, and have
fallen of the wagon...and your progress has inspired me to
get back on and kick @$$!!!
THANKS!
I can't wait to see pic of you wearing that
georgous vintage dress!
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MESEATURTLE 11/15/2010 11:37AM

    what a beautiful dress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!U can and u will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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CSDOWNING 11/15/2010 10:49AM

    You can do it - and we want pics!!!! emoticon

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CARLA-216 11/15/2010 10:48AM

    What a beautiful dream dress that you are sooooo close to making reality! If anyone can fit into that dress by Christmas, it's you, Jess!

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JENIFROUFROU 11/15/2010 10:35AM

    Definitely a beautiful dress! You can do it, and you will look amazing.

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MAMADWARF 11/15/2010 10:30AM

    Now that is some serious motivation!!! You can do it and you know what? You are going to feel amazing when you do wear it. awesome!

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DONNAEDA 11/15/2010 10:28AM

    what a wonderful holiday gift you gave to yourself. Congratulations

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TREASURINGLIFE 11/15/2010 10:27AM

    Oh girl - you got this!!! I believe in you. Just remember that every choice matters. And every event is not "special" in that it doesn't require you to go off your eating plan in order to enjoy the event. Food is fuel - for your mind, health, and workouts. And workouts are the means by which you get healthy and maintain said healty, as well as ease stress and feel good!

I can't wait to see the pictures of you in that beautiful dress at Christmas!!!! :)

- Michelle

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STARLIGHT615 11/15/2010 10:23AM

    Oh that is a pretty dress!! I know you can do it!! and I cant wait to see you in it!!!

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BRENDAF761 11/15/2010 10:21AM

    I really think you'll be in that dress! Keep it out where you can see it and believe that you can meet your goal. I'm cheering you on! Good luck and keep determined! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CECE0330 11/15/2010 10:20AM

    Love it! Keep it hanging in plain sight for a constant reminder! emoticon

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SKINNYPOWELL1 11/15/2010 10:19AM

    Go for it, you can do it and so wonderful that you kept your dream alive all these years. emoticon

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MRSSIBRAT 11/15/2010 10:16AM

    what a beautifull dress..i am sure you can do it

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ERICA071678 11/15/2010 10:13AM

    Awesome! What a goal!! I know you can do it, you have the determination and drive!!

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