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Monday, November 01, 2010

well I had a pretty good halloween... I ate a few peices of candy out of my kids bags but nothing major and did not partake in any of the bad for me halloween food I made. I made cupcakes and caramel apples and we got stuff for smores but ended up not making them. Stuff is still sitting on top of my refridgerator.

for dinner I made baked macaroni and cheese and pigs in a blanket made from light hot dogs and reduced fat crecent rolls.

the macaroni and cheese came out soooo good. I was messing around and came up with an absolutly awesome recipe.












There is hardly any cheese in it but wow its really really good. Even my kids ate it and they usually can tell when I have introduced a new vegetable into a dish.

We pretty much celebrated halloween on thursday. There was a trunk or treat thing at the high school and we went up there and played games and got candy then we came home and I pulled out the food and we carved pumpkins and the kids watched a scooby doo movie. Aiden had alot of fun because my youngest sister came up to visit from my parents house and they are very close in age.

Anyway, aiden went as a pirate - second year in a row... and lyra went as a pirate for the second year in a row. I was not about to buy new costumes when I knew we were not going to be able to go out on halloween (aiden had to go to my xhusbands house this weekend and I had to go drive to pick him up yesterday. It took 11 hours round trip for me to go all the way to his dads house to get him so we were driving durring trick or treat time). Which is why we did halloween on thursday. Its ok, they dident know the difference.

Hubby dident dress up (so unfestive) and I looked like I stepped out of a bad 80's teen movie. lol. I took a few pictures so enjoy.

both kids candy combined... will stay in the cabinet and they get 1 peice a day. Im giving them the chocolate first because that is the only thing that looks appealing to me.

cupcakes my sister bought for us to make.... yuck... not appealing at all, I dident even try one. yay me

these were a bit harder to resist because they looked good... but I made them out of red apples because no one eles likes granny smith. Yuck, I cant stand red apples in caramel apples because they are too sweet. I had a granny smith with fat free butterscotch pudding. was alot better for me and was really good.

my little sister delana

Aiden chowin down

lyra dressed up like a pirate.... I dident get any good pics of the kids in there costumes this year. :-(

80s flash back - costume put together on the fly

Hubby Andrew not dressing up but diving into the cupcakes

carving pumpkins

my pumpkin

andrew being goofy

my sister andrea

my sister dawn

ahhh scary


anyway, it was fun and as far as eating goes I did really well.... alot better than I have done any other halloween.

Halloween use to be my favorite holiday but I have to say Im glad its come and gone, cause my favorite holiday has become christmas and I am really looking forward to it.

:-) yaaay !

~ Jess

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QUEENAN1 11/3/2010 1:59PM

    Nice pics! Can't believe hubby didn't want to get into the Halloween spirit. BOOOO. LOL. Love your costume! The kids look adorable.

Those apples looked sooooo yummy. MMMMM. The cupcakes too. Might have to just try your recipe out. Sounds delish. Which sisters shirt were you able to fit in Dawn or Andrea? I remember that from one of your pics.

Glad you and the fam had an awesome time.


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MALEXANDER4 11/2/2010 10:11PM

    Your pics are awesome. thank you for sharing. Your kids looked great, and you....you look awesome. I'm proud of you for being good this year. I don't know if I could of not eaten the cupcakes.

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SPARKYJEANIE1 11/1/2010 6:00PM

    Great pics Jess!!! You all looked adorable and BOO hubby for not getting into the spirit lol!!

OMG WHY did I practically dive into my computer screen to eat those YUMMY looking apples????!!!

The kids are too cute - and great idea just recycling the costumes from last year - I totally know how it is having to do the switch-a-roo residence thing...thankfully, it fell on MY time this year lol!

I have to post some stuff soon - prob tomorrow since todays busy at work!

YOU looked soooo cute!! Molly Ringwald would have loved the black tulle and pink!!


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FLYSOHIGH 11/1/2010 5:00PM

    Wow, you do look like A TEENAGER from bad 80's teenage movies! Great pics!

Congratulations on eating so well!

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BOVEY63 11/1/2010 4:53PM

    Looks like you had a wonderful time.
I believe I had an outfit similar the one you wore - and actually wore it out dancing in the 80s! OMG!

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REBECCAMA 11/1/2010 3:41PM

  Never would have thought to put pumpkin with mac and cheese. Good for you for being so creative!

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LAROSEBAUGH 11/1/2010 2:45PM

    Holy cow that sounds amazing!! Making it this week! I love me some pumpkin :)

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    Wow...I'm not sure I could have resisted those apples!! :)

By the way, I love the 80's! LOL! Back in the spring my girlfriend had an 80's themed bachelorette party and it was so fun dressing up for it. Man, I miss my poofy hair!!

- Michelle

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KARVY09 11/1/2010 11:25AM

    AHHHHHHHH! Those apples look amazing!

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KEIRASMAMA 11/1/2010 11:23AM

    Good for you on managing the halloween goodies. I can't say I fared quite as well but today is a new day lol! It looks like everybody had fun!

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PASTAFARIAN 11/1/2010 11:15AM

    Wonderful pics, thanks for sharing!

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Monday, October 25, 2010

well I did not lose the 3.6 I was hoping for... I knew it was a big long shot. I ended up however gaining a pound. A little disappointing but Im ok. I have had such good weigh ins for the past 6 weeks that I am due for a little bump in the road.... which is all this is.

I have been sick for the past week... its been over a week actually. It started out as just a teeny soar throat and some nasal drip, nothing big... about 10 days ago. Since then I have managed to get everyone else in my family horribly sick and now that its run its course through my hubby and my sisters and my kids its hit me like a mac truck. I woke up feeling really bad on Saturday morning and now my lungs hurt and Im coughing up green crap. Its not fun.

Saturday kinda sucked. I was up a pound at my weigh in and then I went to a chili cook off at my sons school and out of 6 people did not even place 1st 2nd or 3rd. 1st deserved it because his chili was really good .... the other two people did not. There chili tasted like canned! WTH? ..... Im guessing that my dish was a little too complex for most of the people that tasted it. I suppose most of them are hamburger helper kinda folks.

I should not enter cook offs because this always happens lol.... I guess I am a soar loser. :-P

Anywhoo then I cam home and felt like crap the rest of the day and when It was time for the kids to go down to sleep Lyra just cried and cried and was really bad off. I had to get her up and give her a breathing treatment because its looking like she has athsma. She had problems breathing like 3 colds ago and they gave her a nebulizer.... well she has needed it for the last 3 colds because she just could not breath well. The doctor said its too early to tell but It is not looking too good. So it took 3 hours to get her calmed down and sleeping.

Even though being sick sucks, I would much rather me be sick than any of my kids. Its so horrible watching them go through that and feeling helpless to do anything.


This week I am really going to watch my eating. Im doing simply filling this week. (eating only filling foods and using my weekly points for other things) Which seems to be working out so far. I just felt like I really wanted to eat a little more food, and simply filling gives me that option. It sucks only having 22 points a day.... its been making me feel so deprived which makes me nibble... which I think was my problem last week. I nibbled myself up a pound and prob would have gained more if I had not been exercising my a$$ off.

Im going to try to get some exercise in this week but Im not going to beat myself up over it. I still feel really bad and its really hard for me to do anything cardio wise with my lungs hurting to bad.

If I only lose half a pound this week thats ok. I really want to get to my goal and all but I know stressing myself out over it is not going to get me there any faster.

~ Jess

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DAVEW175 10/30/2010 8:02PM

    I hope you're feeling better. It's hard to focus on anything when you're sick.

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FEISTYJEN 10/27/2010 9:50AM

    You can do it! Bravo for staying with it even when you are sick... that's when I always want to curl up with ice cream and stuff my face (it makes my throat feel better). emoticon

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QUEENAN1 10/26/2010 5:43PM

    It always sucks being sick. You are most definitely right. Don't beat yourself up about not being able to workout as much. You need to give your body time to heal so it is ok. Although if you are anything like me, you expect nothing but the best of yourself. Sick and all.

That sucks that you didn't get 2nd or 3rd! WTH?!?! Canned chilli won! Ugh. I guess I am a sore looser too. LOL.

Hope you are having a better day today. Feel better soon!


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MALEXANDER4 10/26/2010 7:44AM

    Get well soon. I'm down to 20 points daily and I know how hard it is to be creative and busy. You are so close to goal it is just a matter of time before you see the magic number. Feel better and the rest will fall into place.

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SPARKYJEANIE1 10/25/2010 6:31PM

    Oh Jeesh...Jess..

Girl - let me tell you firsthand - your symptoms sound freaking IDENTICAL to mine...but mine's still on the way out - bronchitis and an asthma exacerbation. Totally wiped me out girl...I'm so sorry the entire fam has gotten sick and it's the toughest thing in the world with teeny ones that have asthma. I grew up with it - so did dh. So I guess out kids were just destined to get it too. Try a humidifier in the room when Lyra sleeps and elevate her as much as possible. The nebulizers really work good - but holding that little mask on their face while they're crying always makes you feel like a monster...I'm so sorry!

Please rest as much as you can and I hope everyone feels better in time for Trick or Treating!

PS - boo to those judges at the chili cook off!! I'm sure yours totally deserved a place!! And imagine - canned tasting chili??! ewwwww!!


ots of love and well wishes my dearest!!

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ANDREAGAL531531 10/25/2010 3:18PM

  Feel better ! :)

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SILVERWING2623 10/25/2010 12:13PM

    Feel better! Take gentle care of yourself.

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GARDENER091 10/25/2010 10:55AM

    You are doing great! Hang in there and pat yourself on the back for the success. You are making progress. Just keep to the plan and you are going to succeed. Sorry about being sick for so long and about the results from the chili cook off. Good thing is you made some great chili an dyou entered and gave others the opportunity to enjoy something wonderful.

Hang in there and hoping you have a better week this week.

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DONNAEDA 10/25/2010 9:45AM

    I hope you feel back to normal real soon. I know about feeling sick, I too was sick but with a parasite not the flu. Discriminating people don't like hamburger helper, and I am sure you would have been a winner with us in the chili department. By the way, don't forget you also have 35 exra points for the week, so don't deprive yourself. That pound was probably water retention and very temporary because you weren't moving the way you usually do when you are well. You will do just fine next week. Remember weight, measure and track your food.

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WATCHMEGO2 10/25/2010 9:37AM

    You are doing great! I know it is hard, I am down to 21 points per day now and I need to get creative with my food choices to not go over. Sorry to hear that your house is full of sick people, hope everyone is feeling better soon.

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FLYSOHIGH 10/25/2010 8:59AM

    Hope you feel better soon!

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Sunday, October 17, 2010

3.6.... That is all I need to lose before I reach my goal weight for weight Watchers. After that I get to make life time and get to go to meetings for free. That will be really nice. 160 is my goal weight for weight Watchers but I plan to go lower.

I usually dont try to shoot for more than one or two pounds a week because anything more than that is pretty unrealistic especially at the weight I am at now but I would really like to shoot for a big number this week. I'm not going to be devastated if I don't reach it because I know I most likely won't but I figure it can't hurt of I give it 100% and I will maybe make my goal by the end of the month.

So I got up this morning and did my biggest loser workout video for the first time in like 3 months. I have really been avoiding getting back into them... It was challenging but not anywhere as bad as I was anticipating.

I planned out exactly what I am going to eat today ... Even working in some pumpkin ice-cream. I am really looking forward to that later on.

If anyone has not tried it you have to get some pumpkin ice cream by breyers. It's not light or anything but surprisingly it only has 120 calories per 1/2 cup serving.

I really hope I can stick to working out and stick to my meal plan


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SILVERWING2623 10/20/2010 11:53PM

    That is amazing. I am so thrilled for you!!!

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CALLIKIA 10/20/2010 5:34PM

    Just 3.6 more! YAY!! And NOM on Pumpkin Ice Cream! That sounds wonderful!

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MAMAFEELGOOD 10/20/2010 3:24PM

    Good luck! I think planning your meals is the way to go

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BELLALUCIA 10/19/2010 6:20PM

    I'll try pumpkin icecream one of these days.

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HEATHERSCOTTTN 10/19/2010 11:00AM

    YAY! for you... You can do this! You are almost there... WOO WHOOOO!!!

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MRSSIBRAT 10/19/2010 8:13AM

    that is so awesome girlie!!!! then you won't have to pay membership fees anymore! you should use that money to do something special for yourself!

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LOSINGJESS 10/19/2010 7:50AM

    I followed ww for the first year, then I counted calories using the spark people food tracker for a while and now I have been back following weight Watchers for the last 5 months or so.

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LOVEMYKIDS874 10/18/2010 11:43PM

    WTG! You're almost there! Have you been following WW's since you started your journey?

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NIKKIV2 10/18/2010 8:34AM

    Way to go! You must feel amazing! You can do it.

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MALEXANDER4 10/17/2010 7:10PM

    Pumpkin ice cream huh? something in try. You are so close you can do this. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. I'm 5 away and that seems like forever. Good luck. remember slow and steady wins.

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SCS9261 10/17/2010 3:52PM

    Sending you skinny vibes!


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SCS9261 10/17/2010 3:49PM

    Sending you skinny vibes!


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JESSSPARK 10/17/2010 12:44PM

    o.O pumpkin ice cream sounds great- I am so looking for that next trip to the store

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BEESPARKLE 10/17/2010 12:29PM

    That was my weight before I gained back of my stupity and I am aiming for that again. Months ago I was 172. Dang it. So once you get there it is not worth saying. It is only pounds it will come off. The last pounds off when you gain back is rough physically and mentally.
I loved that weight 160. Everyone said. I was 10 years younger and that is a feather in my cap being 68. Ha.ha
plus I could move and was more healthy in all things.

So keep up the good work. emoticon

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TRIP2HAPPINESS 10/17/2010 12:11PM

    Just 3.6 lbs to go? emoticon!! emoticon Jess. After doing the BL tape, you deserve that pumkpin icecream..yuuummmy! emoticon

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TANIKEYA 10/17/2010 11:51AM

    I believe you can do it. Now, you just have to believe that you can do it. COngratulations on our success thus far! Here's to lifetime membership!!

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Trying to feel better

Monday, October 11, 2010

well this past weigh in was a hell of a lot better than I thought it was going to be. I lost another 2 pounds bringing me down to 164! That number seems all wrong looking at it, like something foreign. I mean the last 20 pounds have really gone by in a flash and I was just getting use to 180. Not that I am complaining because the sooner I can get there the better.... I mean my goal weight at weight watchers is 160 pounds (even though I plan to go 10 - 15 pounds lower than that) so I am really excited to get to that goal and then in a few weeks not have to pay weight watchers membership fees anymore. that will be awesome.

I have been feeling really bad lately... depressed, unenergetic and horrible about me. I Think Its because I am having a bit of a problem with my self esteam. I know most people, expecially the people who still have alot to lose prob want to smack me... I know me back when I was 270 pounds would want to smack me right now.... but I have really been feeling bad about my body lately. I think its because I am now 160 pounds and back when I started all this, 160 looked alot different in my mind then it does in reality. I wish someone got you ready for the fact that once you loose all the weight, expecially if you started out reeeally big, like I did... that your body may not look the way you expect. I think I see myself alot different then most people though... I feel like I look really big when I know I am not as big as I see myself.

I am lucky in the fact that my loose skin is not horrible. I mean I have seen people who have flaps of belly skin that hang to mid thigh. I only have a few inches that hang over and I can still see my you know what, so Im really lucky because I had a very very large belly roll when I started and alot of back fat... my belly is pretty small now and my back fat is almost gone, I think it would be completley smooth if it werent for the loose skin and I expect in the next 15 pounds everything will get a lot smaller but everything is all loose and icky and it makes me feel really bad about myself, even when Im all dressed. I mean the truth is, if I did not have all this skin on my belly and back then I would prob be about 2 sizes smaller than I am. ::sigh::

Another thing is... the girls have shrunk even more.... or I guess I should say deflated. I can grab a whole hand full of loose skin on each breast... its horrible. I have gone from a small D cup to a B cup and the skin has pretty much stayed the same size... if that gives you any indication how bad it is. The sad part is, if I dident have the extra skin filling the cup up, I would be even smaller. Its crazy. .... I dont mind being this small really but the fact that I cant wear certain bras and they hang way down with no shape at all, really bothers me.

I dont want to feel this way about myself...I am really proud of everything I have accomplished and want to feel good about me. I am really trying to focus on the positives instead of the negitives but its still hard. I think buying some shapewear would do a world of good for my self esteam but unfortunatly I can afford to get anything right at this moment. Maybe in a few weeks though.

Once I make lifetime thats 40 dollars a month I can be buying clothing with. I really think some clothes that fit right and flatter the body I have would help out. No one feels good when they are wearing workout clothes all the time.... Which is what I wear most of the time. I dont have alot of clothing so thats usually what I end up in... my thought being "well Im going to be working out sometime today anyway". So I end up working out at night usually, taking a shower and putting workout clothes on again the next day... pulling my hair into the same loose pony tail and feeling generaly crappy about myself.

Something needs to change... I know my body will change more but the loose skin situation is not going to. I need to just deal with it and find other ways to make myself feel good. I think Im going to start wearing make up... Im almost 29 and have never really bothered much with it, but I am just feeling like I am starting to show my age.... as horrible as that is. I mean I am only 29 and I feel compleatly haggard most days. :-( I need to spend a little less time worrying about everyone else and spend a few extra minutes a day making myself feel beautiful... Im going to seriously crawl in a hole and cry if I dont,.... I feel that bad most days.

So my focuses this week are working on my self esteam... spending some extra time making myself look good, just for my own bennifit... even if I am just spending the day inside with my 1 year old and no one eles will see me. Eating a little lighter because I have been feeling really bogged down lately and generaly unenergetic and drinking lots of water. I still want to lose some weight this week but my main focus is going to be feeling better.

I hope everyone has an awesome week.

~ Jess

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MCCLOD 10/14/2010 1:40PM

    I love what MVISGAK said, so I just want to say "DITTO!!!" to everything she said. The alternative is NOT an option. I know I got real depressed just like you after a significant weight loss 15 years ago-- yep it was the saggy skin that got me... I said, to heck with it if I look this bad after losing weight. I put on 50 lbs and was miserable. WISH I had someone to tell me the skin will tighten up if you stick with it! so now, at 50, I'm doing it again. This time I'm focused. I wonder if my skin will tighten up at all at my age -- but you know, it doesn't matter. Skin is just skin. I feel Sooo much better IN my body even if that body isn't and will never be "perfect". This 'ol body is darn useful now! and I like that.

You are so gorgeous and brave. Love your life NOW. Not just when you meet your body goal. This day is yours! use it up -- wring it of everything it has to offer. HUGS to YOU!

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KUNIDON1007 10/14/2010 11:33AM

    Definitely start doing little things to make yourself feel beautiful - because you are! I'm the same way - hair in a pony tail all day, sweats if I'm home, little to no makeup, etc. But, I just got my hair cut, and the stylist dried and straightened it just for fun. And man, I felt like a whole new me! It was crazy. I would never think to spend that kind of time on myself, but now that I know how good something like that made me feel I want to try doing it myself some day.

So, something little, like makeup or styling your hair differently might make a bigger difference in your self-esteem and opinion of yourself than you realize now.

Go for it!!


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TURBID 10/14/2010 10:14AM

    like everyone else said, skin takes up to 2 years of maintenance to firm up. shape wear will definitely help you feel sexier. you look rockin, though! take care of yourself a bit more (like you did with the makeup) and it will start to sink in more and more. gaining and losing didn't happen over night and neither will renovating your self esteem

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UNLMOM2 10/14/2010 9:48AM

  You know what's really funny. I just read your main page and looked at the pictures of your progress and I was feeling reassured that the skin would shrink for me like it did for you. I have a lot to lose and I was worried about it.

I think you look great! You are an inspiration to me. Thanks for blogging!

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62NVON 10/14/2010 9:05AM

    You have come SO far. I have read that it takes up to a year after you maintain your goal weight for the skin to shrink back to normal. I have some too, but I'm older and don't think it will go away as easily for me. Add some strength training and keep hydrated and moisturized. All will help with the skin.

You are a beautiful woman, inside and out. Start seeing yourself that way. =)

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LADY_KATHY 10/14/2010 8:31AM

    You have accomplished so much... don't let the negative little devil have you focus on the not so positive.

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MAMAFEELGOOD 10/12/2010 7:33PM

    This first blog is about what she eats

The day she reached goal weight:

Please play around on her blog. She does a fantastic job going to meetings and writing about what she learns. I really like this blog a lot.

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SPARKYJEANIE1 10/11/2010 2:31PM


Look how far you've come girl - for goodness sakes - I know there's little parts of you that you'd love to change or not have there at all, but now imagine - you were practically carrying around a whole nother person inside you girl! You were at 270 and now 164?! Girl - I would be friggin exstatic to weigh 165 - or 170 even!! lol - OK - here's the deal - we play lotto ! I win, I pay for your tucks and lifts - you win - you pay for mine. How's that??

Really though - I don't know anyone that could have accomplished what you have - weight watchers or SP or whatever - and you keep me believing that although it's taking a freaking eternity, I can also get to where I want to be. As far as the stretch marks or loose skin go, just consider it a reminder of where you DON'T want to end up again - and lovely reminders of your babies that grew inside you. That's the only thing that helps me when I'm feeling crummy about my "Bob" - the tum tum.

I am so proud and amazed at you, my friend! Look at you now!

Look in the mirror - yes, put on a bit of makeup - even when I feel like total crappola, it has a wonderful way of making you look GREAT! And you know what they say - when you look great, you FEEL great - nobody else knows about the skin - just you. And Victoria's Secret makes a fabu wonderbra that will have the girls up where they belong and you will feel good about you. And I say, there's nothing wrong with that!


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LOSINGJESS 10/11/2010 9:43AM

    Thanks for all your comments... I love my spark friends. I did not know about skin firming up after maintenance so that gives me some hope. I'm feeling pretty good right now though, I exercised and then showered and put on some make-up. It's amazing what just that little bit does to make you feel good.

Thanks again guys... Have a really great day!


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TREASURINGLIFE 10/11/2010 9:02AM

    Jess, love, you have accomplished SO MUCH and I want nothing more than for you to feel a great sense of pride and happiness in knowing that. That being said, I totally understand how you are feeling. I've been there. Now that being said, I can tell you that by doing two things on a daily basis, you WILL feel a million times better about yourself. First thing - start your day with positive thoughts and self-talk. Tell yourself at least 2 to 3 positive, uplifing, complimentary things about YOU. Focus on the good. Focus on the beautiful. And the second thing - primp. Seriously. Put a little make-up on. It doesn't have to be much...a little blush, a coat of lip-gloss and some mascara to start. I'm telling you, just mascara alone makes a HUGE difference in how you look. It makes the eyes pop. And the lip gloss - makes you feel girly. :)

Now, I lost 155+ pounds...with 125 pounds of that being lost in about 14 months (via Weight Watchers)...and I had spent 10ish years at 300 pounds, and went over 320 with my 2nd pregnancy, so if you want to talk about saggy skin, I had it. That being said, it does get better as time goes on. Down the road, as you continue to work out and eat healthily, the skin will firm up. Unfortunately you'll never have skin like a 15 year-old who's always been 120 pounds. Period. Not gonna happen, so let it go. HOWEVER, you will get to the point where you put on an outfit and feel beautiful and you not only look great, but you KNOW you look great! :) The key to feeling as though you look great is to be wearing clothing that MAKES you feel great.

You will get there...and until then you just need to fake it till you make it! :) Smile, stand tall, walk with pride, be kind to yourself, be complimentary to yourself, immediately stop the negative self talk and replace it with a positive comment about your accomplishments and your appearance. It takes practice, but trust me when I say that if you do that, EVERYTHING will change - for the better!!

Have a GREAT day. You look amazing. You have accomplished a ton. You should be feeling proud and happy. BE PROUD and HAPPY!!


- Michelle

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SWEETNEENI 10/11/2010 9:01AM

    I am really sorry that you are not feeling as awesome as you are looking. No one is perfect. Everyone has some thing(s) they hate about themselves.

You MUST remember that you are a bajillion times more beautiful, radiant, lovely, condfident, (insert adjective here) than you were at 300 pounds. Every time that nasty little doubt creeps in, shine the light of truth and progress on it.

You have come a long way baby.

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SPIFFYCAT 10/11/2010 8:42AM

    I was reading your blog and thinking that at 29 there is still time for your skin to shrink back, I remember reading somewhere on here that the body can take a year or more to have finished "adjusting" its self after you have reached your maintenence weight.
In the meantime may I suggest a good body cream daily and doing toning exercises.

It's a bit trite but they say beauty comes from within, I think what they mean is you have to learn to love yourself.

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DBELLE39 10/11/2010 8:00AM

    emoticon on the 2# loss --that's emoticon. Focus on "YOU" --take some time to devote to giving yourself some time --we can't perform our best when we are giving to others while neglecting ourselves..
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MALEXANDER4 10/11/2010 7:56AM

    Jess, as I look at each pic you post I see your beauty. Girl you look wonderful. THe rest is just a nusance.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 10/11/2010 7:33AM

    Oh Jess, I relate to so much of what you are going through. I've tried to be extra conscious of the mental part of this journey, not just the physical, because while it IS about the physical, it's not what ultimately takes you down.

What you have accomplished is amazing. I have already made peace with the fact that I am going to need to get plastic surgery for both of the issues you mentioned... not because I am 100% sure I'll NEED them, but I'm 100% sure I WANT them. I still have a long way to go, but you are an inspiration because you are there!

Take it a day at a time friend. You are beautiful.

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Thursday 10/7 Food Blog & Update

Thursday, October 07, 2010

I had a rough day yesterday... well my whole week has been hard actually. I used up all my weekly points this past weekend and so I was left with a negitive amount of weekly points that I had to try and make up for by exercising. Its been hard because I only have 22 points per day to eat and I find it hard to stick to that. I usually eat about 4 or 5 points over that each day and use my weekly points for it. I cant do that this week because I dont have any weekly points left. do you see my delima?

So here I am, 2nd day of That time of the month, Im feeling hungry and sad and crappy. I feel like crawling into bed and crying. To make matters worse we spent waaay more money than we planned last weekend so I had to cut back my shopping list alot. We normaly spend 150 dollars a week at the grocery store and this week we spent $65. Was not pretty. So Im having to scrape together every bit of creativity I have to make my meals appealing. Its hard.

So yesterday I did alot of nibbling. I was trying really hard not to nibble but I did ... Im really hoping that this week is not horrible and I gain 5 pounds. I am so scared of that.


Breakfast - 3/4 cup honey graham Ohs, 1/4 cup mini wheats, 1/2 cup skim milk, 1/2 banana

Snack - 1 1/2 servings kettle cooked chips

Lunch - 1 flatout wrap w/ 1 morning star chicken patty, lettuce, 1 tbls light ranch..... 1/2 stuffed bell pepper

(did not get a picture)

Dinner - baked whole wheat macaroni and cheese w/ light hot dogs, ketcup, 1/2 baked sweet potato, peas & carrot salad (shredded carrots mixed w/ raisins and light mayo)
This meal I find to be kinda odd but I am just trying to use up things I have on hand right now. lol.

bad day for food blogging... I dident take pictures of hardly anything. I went over my points yesterday by 3 and thats just the stuff I tracked. I know for a fact I was prob at least 7 points over with the other nibbles I had here and there.

Im reeeeally looking forward to saturday. Even if I gain weight, at least my points reset.

~ Jess

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MALEXANDER4 10/9/2010 8:32AM

    We are in the same boat this week on money. I'm headed to the store armed with a very short list of necessities. No goodies this week. lol. we can do this. I so know about the points and waiting for them to reset. Good luck this week.

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BOVEY63 10/7/2010 12:26PM

    I have found that some of my favorite food creations have come when I'm trying to use up what has been lingering around.

Hope your TOM symptoms have eased up and you're feeling better today.

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DONNAEDA 10/7/2010 10:58AM

    Sometimes we have to do what we have to do, but next time don't let the emotions dictate how you react to the situation. Count your blessings that you had $65.00 to spend. There are people who don't have a home and food except for a charity shelter. Your meals were creative and beautiful. You can do it, even though it is hard. Count your blessings and look at it from a positive perspective. Hugs to you for trying

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MG3KDZ 10/7/2010 9:59AM

    How was this past Saturdays results? Did you lose anything..By the way you look great and have accomplished so much..I am back at it and hope to make it to your current weight this time..I woke up in Onederland today ..but my weigh ins are on Wednesday so I hope to stay there..lol..have a beautiful day..

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    Make sure you drink lots of water the next couple of days and don't fret a gain - if it happens, it's only temporary. If you have time to get in some extra exercise sessions, go for it. They'll not only help you physically, but they'll help you mentally, which sounds like something you could use right now. LOL - not that your mental or anything. LOL! I mean, that time of the month is wraught full of emotions and irrational thinking, so anything we can to do make it better is great, right?

And remember - everything that happens in our lives are opportunities for us to live an learn. Take last weekend for example - you not only spent too much money, but too many points, and now this week you're cutting back on both to make it work. But the point is that YOU ARE MAKING IT WORK! You should feel very proud! It's much easier to just spend what you don't have instead of cutting back and to eat whatever you want instead of cutting back. YOU'RE ROCKIN' IT!! :)

I hope you have a GREAT day. And remember, Saturday is just a couple days away - you can hold out for a couple days with regard to overeating. Be strong. Drink lots of water. Keep yourself occupied. And keep tracking - even if you go over on your Points!

- Michelle

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