Monday, November 01, 2010
well I had a pretty good halloween... I ate a few peices of candy out of my kids bags but nothing major and did not partake in any of the bad for me halloween food I made. I made cupcakes and caramel apples and we got stuff for smores but ended up not making them. Stuff is still sitting on top of my refridgerator.
for dinner I made baked macaroni and cheese and pigs in a blanket made from light hot dogs and reduced fat crecent rolls.
the macaroni and cheese came out soooo good. I was messing around and came up with an absolutly awesome recipe.
BAKED PUMPKIN MACARONI AND CHEESE
1/2 BOX WHEAT ELBOW MACARONI
2/3 CAN CANNED PUMPKIN
1 1/4 CUP FAT FREE MILK
2 TBLS WHITE FLOUR
1 TSP DRIED THYME
2 TSP DRIED ROSEMARY
1 TSP SUGAR
1/2 CUP PANKO BREAD CRUMBS
1/2 CUP FAT FREE CHEDDAR
1. HEAT OVEN TO 400* AND SPRAY RECTANGLE BAKING DISH WITH COOKING SPRAY
2. BOIL MACARONI UNTIL JUST DONE. DRAIN AND SET TO THE SIDE.
3. HEAT MILK ON MEDIUM HEAT UNTIL ALMOST BOILING. WISK IN FLOUR, THYME, ROSEMARY AND SUGAR AND STIR UNTIL THICKENED. STIR IN PUMPKIN.
4. MIX PUMPKIN MILK MIXTURE INTO MACARONI AND THEN SPREAD INTO BAKING DISH.
5. COVER MACARONI WITH CHEDDAR AND PANKO BREAD CRUMBS AND SPRAY TOP LIGHTLY WITH COOKING SPRAY(COOKING SPRAY HELPS TO MELT FAT FREE CHEESE AND BROWN BREAD CRUMBS). BAKE FOR 25 - 30 MINUTES ON 400*
There is hardly any cheese in it but wow its really really good. Even my kids ate it and they usually can tell when I have introduced a new vegetable into a dish.
We pretty much celebrated halloween on thursday. There was a trunk or treat thing at the high school and we went up there and played games and got candy then we came home and I pulled out the food and we carved pumpkins and the kids watched a scooby doo movie. Aiden had alot of fun because my youngest sister came up to visit from my parents house and they are very close in age.
Anyway, aiden went as a pirate - second year in a row... and lyra went as a pirate for the second year in a row. I was not about to buy new costumes when I knew we were not going to be able to go out on halloween (aiden had to go to my xhusbands house this weekend and I had to go drive to pick him up yesterday. It took 11 hours round trip for me to go all the way to his dads house to get him so we were driving durring trick or treat time). Which is why we did halloween on thursday. Its ok, they dident know the difference.
Hubby dident dress up (so unfestive) and I looked like I stepped out of a bad 80's teen movie. lol. I took a few pictures so enjoy.
both kids candy combined... will stay in the cabinet and they get 1 peice a day. Im giving them the chocolate first because that is the only thing that looks appealing to me.
cupcakes my sister bought for us to make.... yuck... not appealing at all, I dident even try one. yay me
these were a bit harder to resist because they looked good... but I made them out of red apples because no one eles likes granny smith. Yuck, I cant stand red apples in caramel apples because they are too sweet. I had a granny smith with fat free butterscotch pudding. was alot better for me and was really good.
my little sister delana
Aiden chowin down
lyra dressed up like a pirate.... I dident get any good pics of the kids in there costumes this year. :-(
80s flash back - costume put together on the fly
Hubby Andrew not dressing up but diving into the cupcakes
andrew being goofy
my sister andrea
my sister dawn
anyway, it was fun and as far as eating goes I did really well.... alot better than I have done any other halloween.
Halloween use to be my favorite holiday but I have to say Im glad its come and gone, cause my favorite holiday has become christmas and I am really looking forward to it.
:-) yaaay !
Monday, October 11, 2010
well this past weigh in was a hell of a lot better than I thought it was going to be. I lost another 2 pounds bringing me down to 164! That number seems all wrong looking at it, like something foreign. I mean the last 20 pounds have really gone by in a flash and I was just getting use to 180. Not that I am complaining because the sooner I can get there the better.... I mean my goal weight at weight watchers is 160 pounds (even though I plan to go 10 - 15 pounds lower than that) so I am really excited to get to that goal and then in a few weeks not have to pay weight watchers membership fees anymore. that will be awesome.
I have been feeling really bad lately... depressed, unenergetic and horrible about me. I Think Its because I am having a bit of a problem with my self esteam. I know most people, expecially the people who still have alot to lose prob want to smack me... I know me back when I was 270 pounds would want to smack me right now.... but I have really been feeling bad about my body lately. I think its because I am now 160 pounds and back when I started all this, 160 looked alot different in my mind then it does in reality. I wish someone got you ready for the fact that once you loose all the weight, expecially if you started out reeeally big, like I did... that your body may not look the way you expect. I think I see myself alot different then most people though... I feel like I look really big when I know I am not as big as I see myself.
I am lucky in the fact that my loose skin is not horrible. I mean I have seen people who have flaps of belly skin that hang to mid thigh. I only have a few inches that hang over and I can still see my you know what, so Im really lucky because I had a very very large belly roll when I started and alot of back fat... my belly is pretty small now and my back fat is almost gone, I think it would be completley smooth if it werent for the loose skin and I expect in the next 15 pounds everything will get a lot smaller but everything is all loose and icky and it makes me feel really bad about myself, even when Im all dressed. I mean the truth is, if I did not have all this skin on my belly and back then I would prob be about 2 sizes smaller than I am. ::sigh::
Another thing is... the girls have shrunk even more.... or I guess I should say deflated. I can grab a whole hand full of loose skin on each breast... its horrible. I have gone from a small D cup to a B cup and the skin has pretty much stayed the same size... if that gives you any indication how bad it is. The sad part is, if I dident have the extra skin filling the cup up, I would be even smaller. Its crazy. .... I dont mind being this small really but the fact that I cant wear certain bras and they hang way down with no shape at all, really bothers me.
I dont want to feel this way about myself...I am really proud of everything I have accomplished and want to feel good about me. I am really trying to focus on the positives instead of the negitives but its still hard. I think buying some shapewear would do a world of good for my self esteam but unfortunatly I can afford to get anything right at this moment. Maybe in a few weeks though.
Once I make lifetime thats 40 dollars a month I can be buying clothing with. I really think some clothes that fit right and flatter the body I have would help out. No one feels good when they are wearing workout clothes all the time.... Which is what I wear most of the time. I dont have alot of clothing so thats usually what I end up in... my thought being "well Im going to be working out sometime today anyway". So I end up working out at night usually, taking a shower and putting workout clothes on again the next day... pulling my hair into the same loose pony tail and feeling generaly crappy about myself.
Something needs to change... I know my body will change more but the loose skin situation is not going to. I need to just deal with it and find other ways to make myself feel good. I think Im going to start wearing make up... Im almost 29 and have never really bothered much with it, but I am just feeling like I am starting to show my age.... as horrible as that is. I mean I am only 29 and I feel compleatly haggard most days. :-( I need to spend a little less time worrying about everyone else and spend a few extra minutes a day making myself feel beautiful... Im going to seriously crawl in a hole and cry if I dont,.... I feel that bad most days.
So my focuses this week are working on my self esteam... spending some extra time making myself look good, just for my own bennifit... even if I am just spending the day inside with my 1 year old and no one eles will see me. Eating a little lighter because I have been feeling really bogged down lately and generaly unenergetic and drinking lots of water. I still want to lose some weight this week but my main focus is going to be feeling better.
I hope everyone has an awesome week.
Thursday, October 07, 2010
I had a rough day yesterday... well my whole week has been hard actually. I used up all my weekly points this past weekend and so I was left with a negitive amount of weekly points that I had to try and make up for by exercising. Its been hard because I only have 22 points per day to eat and I find it hard to stick to that. I usually eat about 4 or 5 points over that each day and use my weekly points for it. I cant do that this week because I dont have any weekly points left. do you see my delima?
So here I am, 2nd day of That time of the month, Im feeling hungry and sad and crappy. I feel like crawling into bed and crying. To make matters worse we spent waaay more money than we planned last weekend so I had to cut back my shopping list alot. We normaly spend 150 dollars a week at the grocery store and this week we spent $65. Was not pretty. So Im having to scrape together every bit of creativity I have to make my meals appealing. Its hard.
So yesterday I did alot of nibbling. I was trying really hard not to nibble but I did ... Im really hoping that this week is not horrible and I gain 5 pounds. I am so scared of that.
Breakfast - 3/4 cup honey graham Ohs, 1/4 cup mini wheats, 1/2 cup skim milk, 1/2 banana
Snack - 1 1/2 servings kettle cooked chips
Lunch - 1 flatout wrap w/ 1 morning star chicken patty, lettuce, 1 tbls light ranch..... 1/2 stuffed bell pepper
(did not get a picture)
Dinner - baked whole wheat macaroni and cheese w/ light hot dogs, ketcup, 1/2 baked sweet potato, peas & carrot salad (shredded carrots mixed w/ raisins and light mayo)
This meal I find to be kinda odd but I am just trying to use up things I have on hand right now. lol.
bad day for food blogging... I dident take pictures of hardly anything. I went over my points yesterday by 3 and thats just the stuff I tracked. I know for a fact I was prob at least 7 points over with the other nibbles I had here and there.
Im reeeeally looking forward to saturday. Even if I gain weight, at least my points reset.
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