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Update & Fall game plan!

Thursday, September 02, 2010

I am feeling much better about today then I have about every other day for the past two weeks. I think that's because I actually got in a workout today. I have really been avoiding it... for no other reason than pure laziness.

My sister suggested that we go out and start C25k this morning. She wants to run the 5k I was considering running in November. It will be her first 5k. This was the first time she has ever run.... she use to be really big (over 350lbs) and was unable to do anything like this before, but now that she is down between 220-230 I think she feels she can do alot more. It was nice sharing in this moment with her and gave me a good excuse to get out and start moving again. It was a good workout and starting back to running (have not ran once since my last 5k in june) was alot easier than I thought it would be.

I ate really well today... I tracked all my food (something I have not done very well in the last two weeks) and I feel like I'm on that right track again.

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Right now I am indulging in a treat that I have been looking forward to all day. I'm drinking a cup of suger free apple cider and eating a small rice crispy treat. OH MY GOD... its so buttery. lol. I had to share.

I'm really feel fall approaching. My favorite season. I love everything about fall, including Halloween, my birthday and my baby girls birthday, which is two days before mine and christmas. ..... Even though Christmas is technically in winter I consider fall running from September up until christmas day. After that there is nothing to look forward to except the bleak damp winter. yuck!

Fall is great.... except for a few food pitfalls that I have to watch out for. Lets see, first off is egg nog! .... I love love love egg nog, and that includes the pumpkin flavored egg nog that they come out with around thanksgiving. Right before I started living healthier back when I was 270 lbs, from November through New Years I ended up drinking a half gallon of egg nog every two days.... and ended up gaining 20 pounds in a month. Its like crack. .............. I did really good last year, I told myself that I was going to have egg nog on christmas eve and that's it, and I stuck to it. I got a 20oz container and mixed it with half 2% milk to stretch it and stuck to having it on that one day. It worked out well and was really satisfying and so that's what I plan to do again.

Another fall problem I have is I get in a freakin martha stewart, food network bake-a-holic trance where all I want to do is bake every day. I did a fair amount of baking last year but ended up packing up everything I made and sending it home with relatives.... which is bad for them but kept me in the clear. I really dont want to do that to them of course and I dont want to feed all that junk to my kids either so I think I am going to again stick to a few things baked at specific times. Its gonna be really hard but I am going to do my best.

For Lyra's 2nd birthday I am getting one of the little round cakes... you know the ones that are prob 4 small slices. We have been doing the tiny cakes on birthdays and its been working really well. That way everyone still has cake (although I usually pass because I get regular cake and I dont like regular cake) but we dont have leftovers tempting us. If we had leftover birthday cake I would end up picking at it, even if I dont like it that much.

For my birthday I chose to go out to eat and get one slice of cake and share it with my husband and kids. There is a diner near out house that has Gyros (my fave food) and HUGE slices of cheesecake!!! I LOVE CHEESECAKE!!! It is my absolute favorite but instead of eating it freaquently like I use to I make that my birthday tradition and it makes it taste so much better. So yes that is one slice of cheese cake per year.... wow I am so strong now. lol. They have pumpkin cheesecake at the diner we go to, so Im combining my favorite season with my favorite desert! I am so looking forward to November 20th! Yum!

I did well last fall, I picked a few days where I was going to eat what I wanted but not over do it and I ended up losing weight over the holidays.... that is a first! I hope to continue with the trend this year. I am pretty confident that with my plan in place I will do really well.

So I'm excited and but still a little scared as well. Anyone eles have some good holiday strats? If you dont have your plan in place yet, you should think about it. Its really hard to fall back into bad habits around the holidays, so you gotta forsee whats comming and think of how you will handle it before it gets here. :-)

~ Jess

  
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JADENTEX 9/5/2010 2:11PM

    Two things. First, tackle the challenge of making your baked goods healthier. Like using Splenda instead of sugar and substituting apple sauce for oil. Make more breads. Apple breads, banana breads, pumpkin breads. And you can make your baking days like a really big event with your kids/family instead of an every day batch. Make some cider, put in a Christmas movie or CD, have the kids make decorations, etc. If you pick two things to health-ify and make it an event, then that may help you keep from baking every day. Also: CANDLES. That way the house smells fresh-baked with zero calories!

Eggnog: Silk used to make a soy egg nog that tasted a lot lighter. I didn't see it last year, so I hope they still make it! I'll definitely be looking for it. My husband hated it, but I actually preferred it to regular egg nog.

Your blog makes me feel all festive now, even though it's still in the 90s here in Texas. emoticon

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SUSANHGREENE 9/3/2010 4:25PM

    I'm gonna have to try that with the eggnog - my husband doesn't like it so I end up drinking every drop all by myself!!! Of course I don't complain but I sure don't need to do that! I'm also trying to think ahead to plan for the fall - like you, I love holiday baking and I'm trying to think of some healthier treats I can make this year. You have a great plan - thanks for sharing!

Susan

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SARAHJ19 9/3/2010 11:10AM

    Sounds like you have an awesome plan for this fall! I need to get my plan going now!

My daughters birthday is 2 days before mine too! Fall is my favorite season! Pumpkin patch, Halloween, my birthday, Lexi's birthday, Thanksgiving! I love going apple picking with my hubby and girls! It will be Lexi's first time going! I am so excited!

I am going to try your pumpkin pie recipe! That sounds so good! That is one of my favorite desserts!!!

Great plan for fall! Good luck with your c25k training! emoticon emoticon

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AMBERADAMS1 9/3/2010 10:40AM

    I've been thinking about the holiday season too b/c I'm a big holiday baker also. I'll be giving most of mine away this year too. I'll just enjoy the smell it leaves in my house. :-) I also plan to keep my eating as normal as possible except on the actual day of each holiday. I'm not going to use "tis the season" as an excuse to binge every day. But, come Thanksgiving and Christmas day, all bets are off! LOL Good luck, Jess!

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LOSINGJESS 9/3/2010 9:59AM

    I discovered a great cure for the pumpkin pie problem a few days ago. .... You have to try it!!!

You mix up a box of sugar free vanilla pudding - use skim milk

mix in 1/2 a can of pumpkin

fold in 1/2 - 1 container of fat free or light cool whip

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OMG! It tastes just like pumpkin pie with whipped cream. I made this and my whole family loved it. Im planning on putting it in a nice bowl and serving it at Thanksgiving instead of pumpkin pie.

Not sure the calorie count but I know its gotta be way less than the real thing.

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KMARTIN9061 9/3/2010 8:36AM

    You made me LOL at --- Eggnog being like crack ... it really, really is! You're same troubles seem to be just like mine ... baking, birthday cakes, CHEESECAKE, and Eggnog! LOL. Also added to my list are - Halloween candy, pumpkin pie, and Thanksgiving Dinner .... this should be an interesting year... :)

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MALEXANDER4 9/3/2010 7:18AM

    I love this blog. Congrats on setting goals. I just go with it. I'm not a big baker, so no trouble there.

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FLYSOHIGH 9/3/2010 2:04AM

    Planning ahead, I see!:-) Awesome success with the egg nogg last year! Very inspiring!

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When Life Gets In The Way

Saturday, August 28, 2010

I have not really been on spark in a week. I know alot of my spark friends have been wondering where I am ... thanks for checking up on me. I have not fallen off the edge of the world though. Im still here.

This past week has been a bit rough. I really let life get in the way of my healthy eating and exercise. I did not get on spark people hardly at all, hell I hardly got online. I did not work out at all... not even once and even though I did not binge or eat horribly IMO I didn't track anything, ate alot of convience foods and really did not think about what I was putting in my mouth.

I suppose this happens. The important thing is I am getting back on track now and I only gained 2 pounds as a result of my bad week. I can easily make up for that this week if I work at it.

Well this past week Aiden my 5 year old started Kindergarten. We went to open house on monday, only to find out that he was not enrolled at all! I went to a meeting at the end of the last school year, he was transfering from another preschool to the elementary school near our house. They were suppose to take care of all of the enrolling and everything and never did. The lady at the desk was a total B face to me and no one seemed to care. To make matters worse after we did finally get him enrolled the next day they dropped the bomb that he would not be able to ride the school bus because they cant add new routes for 30 days. I threw a big fit and got the principle envolved and they finally let him catch the bus at a stop down the road a little ways untill they can add a new route close to our house.

So his first day was friday and I had to walk him to the bus stop before the sun came up... we had to walk through peoples yards because there is no side walks on our street and our feet were soaked by the time we got there. I had to call his teacher and ask her to change his socks when he got to school.

Then the whole day I worried about if he was doing ok. If he found his class ok, if the kids were being nice to him or if he got the cap off his thermos of milk at lunch.... stupid crap I should not be worried about. Its hard letting him go... last year was only two days a week so it wasn't so bad. I guess its gonna take some getting use to. Part of me is so proud of him as he gets older but the other part never wants him to grow up.

Other stresses this week included my X husband calling Child Protective Services on me saying I was beating my son and not feeding him to the point of starvation. This will be the 3rd time he has called them on me in two years, not including when he called the police on me saying I was killing my child.... when they came that time they would not even tell me why they were called untill they were allowed into my house to see if my son was ok. 3 cop cars and a K9 unit were called....what a mess I cant even do anything about it... they said that no matter how many times he calls and the allications are found to be false they still have to come check it out and there is nothing anyone can do to him for calling. I really cant stand my X!

Im working on getting signed up for college because I am planning on going back to school this comming spring so I had to go up to the school and fill out a bunch of stuff. I was going to start this fall but I got things in a little late. I have always wanted to go to college for art but never went right out of high school. I told my parents I needed a break and would go back next year. Next year never happened though and that was 10 years ago. My main reasons for not going was I was scared and I got tied up with boyfriends. Stupid reasons I know. ..... Im going to be starting a fine arts transfer program at community college and then from there Im planning on transfering to a 4 year college. By that time Lyra should be starting school so it wont be that big of a deal. Comminuty college is nice because you can work around having a family. Im really excited to start.

I have also been working on my kitchen. Im starting with painting the cabinets and then moving on to repainting the walls, replacing the floor and the counter tops... ect. The cabinets are in bad shape and there is alot of prep work before I can paint them... plus I have to work around taking care of the kids at the same time... Its alot of work but Im hoping that it will look nice when I get done.

Anyway, thats just the stuff I can think of off the top of my head... I usually dont let life get in the way but I had alot on my plate this week. I know I need to find ways to manage stress though and still take care of myself.

This coming week will be much better.

~ Jess

  
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SPARKYJEANIE1 8/30/2010 3:42PM

    GOSH!! Sounds like a terrible, horrible, very bad, no good kinda week!!!!!!!!!

OK this is for your X: emoticon (except there's only 1 finger pointing up in my version of this pic)...dude...how the heck could he dare say all that crap???!! Obviously you are a good a$$ mama....and hellloooo...starving and beating your kids...??! I bet your hubby has a tough time biting his tongue over all this stupid crap!! I know how ex's can be...I have one I've been dealing with since my son was 2 - it's been 12 yrs and thankfully, our situation got a bit easier to deal with (for the most part) over the years. It's sooooooo hard though. What a friggin LOSER...how bout MOVE ON BUDDY and find something to DO in life other than harrassing your ex!! Sorry, Jess! {{{hugs}}}

Life has a tendency to grab us in a chokehold every once in a while, huh. AND that B in the office at your boy's school...here's one for her too.... emoticon (take THAT beezy!!) lol What a friggin DRAG!! I'm happy finally everything was straightened out...and worrying about whether Aiden got the lid off his thermos? TOTALLY and COMPLETELY normal, from one mama to another! I've worried about practically EVERYTHING!! And cried when I dropped off all my babies after I walked away from them in kindergarten. (of course they don't know this haha). It's gonna be ok. This too, shall pass...and in 10 years when both Layla and Aiden are big, you'll wish you had only thermos lids to worry about instead of teenage stuff. One day you'll look back and laugh at this. I promise.

Good luck with school...I know you'll do great, and it'll be something for YOU...no one can take that from ya, love!

Hope this week is MUCH MUCH MUCH better =)

xoxo
Jeanie
I missed the hell outta ya!
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RUTHANNE100 8/29/2010 10:12PM

    Quite a week....but it sounds like you're facing things head-on. Good for you. And starting up college--that's awesome!! What fun for you to be able to show your degree to your kids one day.

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IMAGINE_IT 8/29/2010 4:05PM

    What an awful and stressful week you had....try and get your routine back..and stay positive..things will get better...hopefully your Ex will see how wrong he is and leaves you alone with those horrible allegations. emoticon

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CHOCMOM 8/29/2010 3:15PM

  We all have weeks like this, but you know the key is not letting them stop us, and not letting them turn into months (like I did this past Spring). You will be fine - I see a very strong young woman in front of me. I wish I had had half your strength and courage when I was your age. Keep on moving forward in your life. emoticon emoticon

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MG3KDZ 8/29/2010 10:09AM

    Aw.. my little girl just stated kinder and I can relate to all those feelings..We went to our meet and greet and they had put her in a third grade class..CRAZY...I know my baby is smart but come on..lol..As for your x, it is a bummer that u can't do anything legally but he will eventually get investigated himself..Because I can't see that the state will put up with all the false allegations if each and every time the children are found to be in clean and healthy conditions..I wish you the best of luck and a wonderful and happier week:-)

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JADENTEX 8/29/2010 1:29AM

    An awful, horrible week, and yet... you're still moving forward! Signing up for college is awesome; I wish I could! You're an awesome positive role model. Keep moving forward!

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BECKYCOLVIN 8/29/2010 12:49AM

    Wow, you have had quite a week! It's a good reminder that it's easy to slip back into "easy" and "convenient" even when you've made major changes in your life! I've been having a lot of that recently, (haven't recorded my nutrition on SP all week). I have to remind myself that I still have a ways to go on my journey and that I care enough about my health to do the healthy things. I'm glad you're recognizing the triggers for yourself. Take care of you this next week! :)



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JESSSPARK 8/28/2010 11:22PM

    Wow your ex sounds like a real tool- I can only assume karma will have her way with him eventually! I'm sure this week will be a better one! :)

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JUST_SIMONE 8/28/2010 10:18PM

    I'm glad your X is an X! You don't need people like that in your life any more than you have to. I think a lot of people are struggling with change of routine now that schools are starting up. You can do this though, you've been so successful, and we all get shaken up now and then, but the important part is getting back to our healthy rountines. Good for you for making some college plans too!

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MORGANLAFEE 8/28/2010 10:18PM

    What a nasty man and horrible Father your X is. Good for you going to college. I gained 6 pounds last weekend while in Vermont at my Granddaughter's wedding but have lost it again.

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LOSINGJESS 8/28/2010 10:09PM

    thanks for all the encoragment guys.... Im so lucky to have friends like you, just a keyboard away. :-)

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MICHCLEARY 8/28/2010 10:05PM

    Good for you for pursuing your dreams of going to college. That will be a good role model for your kids as opposed to what your X is doing. That is crap that they can't do anything about that. You should ask an attorney if you can file a civil suit against him for slander & libel. That would shut him up! Especially now that there is police evidence that you had done nothing wrong.

Hope you have a better week. Sometimes you just need to focus on one day at at time.

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CALLIKIA 8/28/2010 9:47PM

    Life happens and I'm sure with the healthy habits you've established you didn't go completely off track! Putting that little one on the bus must've been hard, though. And the X sounds like a real piece of work (good for you that he's an X!). *hugs* to you girl! Know that we'll be here when you're ready and able to come back. Know that we're rooting for you even when you're not here. You have come so far and still inspire me each and every day!

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MALEXANDER4 8/28/2010 9:47PM

    Funny I was thinking about you during my walk this evening. I hadn't heard from you and was wondering if you were ok. I'm glad your fine. I had a gain this week myself of 2.6 pounds so I understand about life getting in our way. It woke me up to reality and i'm back on the ww wagon this week. Your babies are growing up and that is always hard. My baby is 21 but I still worry. That is our job as moms. I hope your kitchen turns out fine. i'm sure it will. that should keep your hands plenty busy. Think of the exercise you'll be getting from the painting and such. Have a wonderful evening. Michelle.

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MELISSA5824 8/28/2010 9:43PM

    life can get in the way sometimes. i try not to let it get to me. life is something to deal with every day. i try to keep in touch with those who are an important part of my life.i am so glad that i do not have someone in my life like your x-husband. he sounds like a terrible person. sorry to hear that he did that to you and what happened to you and your son this week. you will get through this,one day at a time. anytime you need some support,encouragement, motivation or even just to vent, i am here for you. have a good day.

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20 week Challenge - Week 10 Progress

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Well me and my husband started out with some personal goals in mind for the 20 weeks between the middle of summer and Halloween. So far I have been doing really well, even though the numbers might not reflect that... the reason the numbers don't is because I started using my weight watchers scale weight which is off by about 10 lbs from my scale at home... so in the middle it looked like I had a huge gain but the truth is I my actual weight was a bit higher than what was stated originally.

Hubby started off good but the scale seemed to tip up and down between the same 5 pounds. He has been losing the last two weeks but is the same weight he was 5 weeks ago because of a few gains. He has made a few non scale victories though, including fitting into a smaller pants size, which he is really happy about. I am proud of him... most would have given up after such poor results on the scale.

My week 10 weigh in is not until Saturday so I dont know exactly how much I weigh right now... I will post my week 1 and 10 weight on Saturday. I desided to take pictures today and no matter what the numbers say you can not deny the huge differences in my body shape. I am very very happy.

I recently went shopping and discovered that I can now shop in the juniors section... thats really weird lol, considering I could not do that when I was that age... most of the stuff over there I did not really like but the fact I could was a sweet victory. I ended up buying a new hoodie, some new shirts and some size 7 Panties.... I started out at size 12!!! There was a dress I really liked but I dident want to spend the money on it.... It looked really good on me though.

For a recap of my 20 week challenge here were the goals I wanted to reach by Halloween of this year.

My Goals

Lose at least 1.5 pounds a week
Lose a total of 30 pounds
Go from 180lbs 150lbs
Go from a loose size 16 Jeans to a comfortable size 12
Get into a routine of waking up early and going to bed early
Drink more water
Incorporate more activity into my day to day life and still get my regular workout in as well


My Reward

Trip to Carowinds (local theme park) : Saturday October 30th 2010
New Outfits for both of us

Im doing well with my goals so far. I do well on my exercise one week and the slack the next so I geuss that is so-so. As of last week I weigh 173 lbs so if I manage to lose another 2 lbs this week I will be down 10 lbs.... its more like 20 though if you factor in me using a different scale. My scale at home and the weight watchers scale is off by about 7-10 lbs. Im pleased with the way the scale is moving though. I am already able to button and zip a size 12 so I know that I will be in a size 12 or maybe smaller by halloween... very happy about that. I never thought I would be any smaller than a 14 at my goal weight. 14 looked so small to me when I was 300 pounds and even then I thought I would never reach a size 14. Now that I am almost smaller than a 14 it blows my mind... I feel like I am in a dream sometimes. I know it sounds silly to feel so happy about a pants size but I never thought I would ever reach a healthy weight. It really is a dream come true.

I dont know if I will reach 150 by the end of october but thats ok.... I will be happy if I manage to lose another 10 lbs. and Im sure I will still look really good.

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Progress Photos

  
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KIRKEN2 8/31/2010 1:17PM

    you are looking great!

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RUTHANNE100 8/24/2010 7:36PM

    Rock on!

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SUSH_ASH 8/24/2010 5:12AM

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GRANDMAAMIE 8/23/2010 1:12PM

    emoticon emoticonyou look great!

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JADENTEX 8/20/2010 8:50PM

    Amazing progress! I love your blogs. emoticon

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IMAGINE_IT 8/20/2010 3:49PM

    WOW!! I can see a big difference...and in this case "BIG" means 'Smaller"!! emoticon You look great!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MAMAFEELGOOD 8/19/2010 10:56PM

    You can even tell that the muscles in your arms are more defined.

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MALEXANDER4 8/19/2010 10:05PM

    Hey jess? I see definition in the tummy area...woohoo girl. YOu have done awesome. I see a trip in your future...I see goal for you coming up also. You have come so far and i'm so happy for you, you make me smile whenever I see one of your blogs. Michelle.

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2BTHINQUILTER 8/19/2010 9:19PM

    You go girl! The photos are fantastic. Keep up the good work, you're very inspiring.
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CALLIKIA 8/19/2010 3:29PM

    Definite changes! Your body is really starting to thin out ...that side photo tells ALL! Keep up the great work and you'll be surprising yourself with a size 10 in no time!

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JESSSPARK 8/19/2010 1:57PM

    Here's to getting to 150 soon! This was my original goal weight so I can't wait to see that number on the scale. Rawr!!!

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CRK910 8/19/2010 1:26PM

    i am having a similar problem that your husband is going through... i seem to be going up and down in the same 5-6 pounds and its driving me crazy haha.

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SPARKYJEANIE1 8/19/2010 12:54PM

    Great job to you AND hubby!! I still think it sooo awesome that you were able to get him to join in on all the incredible stuff you've been doing!

I like the goals you set - you sure make losing 1.5/wk doable! Wish I could get there with ya...in the meantime just as you say - those inches lost are JUST as satisfying (if not more). Don't worry about having a super active week, then slacking a bit the next. I've been going through something very similar. I'll be super energetic one day and do boo-koo excercise, only to be lethargic and sleepy the next...what gives? lol

Overall, those pics don't lie girl! You are the incredible Shrinking Jess, for sure my love!!!

Keep on rockin! You guys will be at that theme park in no time!

xoxo
Jeanie


ps thanks so much for your sweet comments on my page the other day. You really know how to brighten a gal's day!!!!!!

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G9FIRE 8/19/2010 12:49PM

    Wow, these pictures are so amazing. I love that you are wearing exactly the same thing and standing in the same position. I really wish I had done this at the beginning of my journey but you've inspired me to do it now even though I'm at my half way point (almost). You look great!!

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HARMONYBLUE 8/19/2010 12:30PM

    The pictures don't lie. Big difference in your belly and back!

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ANAMIA8 8/19/2010 12:29PM

    Yay! Great improvement and very obvious !!!! :)

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CARLA-216 8/19/2010 12:18PM

    Amazing! Definite, noticeable changes going on with your bod!

Keep up the good fight, Jess! You rock!

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Weekend

Monday, August 02, 2010

MY WEEKEND

well the weekend has ended and I don't think I did bad but I might have done bad as far as simply filling goes. With the weight watchers simply filling plan you get to eat as much filling food as you want to make you full but only get to eat other non-filling foods within your 35 weekly points budget and you don't have to track anything other than the 35 points of non filling food.

I ended up going to golden corral last night and eating alot of non filling foods... If I had of stuck with simply filling then I would hardly have any weekly points left. Fortunately I have tracked everything I have eaten since my week began on saturday so I am just going to track my points this week instead of trying to do the simply filling plan again this week.

I went to my parents house yesterday. I had not visited in a long long time, almost a year! Which is bad because my parents only live about an hour away from me. I'm a bad daughter. I just hate going over to there house because they smoke and I don't like that the smell sticks to my clothes and hair and my kids are breathing that crap in. My parents don't seem to understand that you still breath it in even if they are not smoking during our visit and they don't smell the smell either because they are use to it.

Anyway, it was a nice visit and nice to see my parents. They have seen me in the last year several times. I saw my mom about two weeks ago and my dad a month before but my 19 year old brother had not seen me since last summer when my sister graduated from college. He really freaked out when he saw me and the only thing he could talk about while I was there was how skinny I was now. He has never seen me any thinner than 230 pounds so I guess it was really surprising to see how small I had gotten. It felt really good that he reacted that way.... no one else has really reacted like that before, they have said stuff but never were really shocked at the weight loss. He also told me he was really proud of me and that really meant alot... alot more than I thought it would coming from my little brother.
My grandmother also said something that was pretty meaningful... she said that she didn't think I would gain the weight back... That was amazing to me. You see my grandmother is generally a very negative person. She is the type that calls you fat and then bakes you cookies and makes you feel bad if you don't eat any... and then when you do she tells you, if you eat to many your gonna get fatter... also if you lose a few pounds she says your just gonna gain it all back... or looks at you and says "whered you lose it, between your ears" ... That's a favorite for her lol.
Anyway for her to say something so positive as that she though I would not gain it back is really amazing and nice. It also meant alot.

I'm glad I went to visit even though I smelled really bad afterwards. :-(

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WORKOUTS

In other news I have decided I really need to bump up my workouts again this week. For the last few weeks I have been slacking off by either skipping my workouts all together or doing things that are waaaay to easy for my fitness level. I'm talking, walking in place in front of the TV easy... which is fine for extra activity but I need to have a real, sweat my butt off workout at least 5 days a week.

This morning I really wanted to go back to sleep! Its odd because no matter how early I go to sleep, I still do not want to get out of bed before 8am. I went to bed at 9:30pm last night and still found myself wanting to crawl back into bed at 5:30 this morning. WTH!
I did not go back to sleep though I stayed up and I was determined to get a good workout in. So I just tried to think about it as little as possible and just make my body walk to the dvd player and put in my biggest loser workout video. This is one I know will challenge me and because of that Its hard to pop it in. I can just feel my brain saying "NOOOO NOT THAT ONE!!!" .... my hand wants to reach for walk away the pounds or something but I got it in and pushed play and then pushed myself as hard as I could.

Getting through the squats and lunges are reeeealy hard to do, I tend to want to stop half way through and wait until it switches to the next exercise. But I kept through the burning and shaking legs and kept telling myself "I am strong" ... It really is effective to do this as lame as it sounds. I got through each segment and felt like I was gonna fall over in a heap when the video was over... so mission accomplished.

I want to keep this up and really start toning up my body. I'm small enough now to where it will make a real visible difference ... I just need to stick with it this time instead of getting a week through working out and then stopping for a few weeks. I think I may get some new videos too... the ones I have are a little stale.
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PLANNING

well I think I have decided on a 5k that I am going to do. I was reading about a 5k here in the city I live in that takes place on November 20th (my B-Day). Its called the Santa shuffle or something like that. I thought it was really cool because it happens during the Christmas parade! You start out at the beginning of the parade procession and then run a 3.1 mile loop to the finish line. It sounded pretty awesome and Its also neat because it falls on my birthday. I'm trying to talk my sisters into doing it with me. My one sister is already running several days a week... because of me I might add. LOL... she ran with me twice when I was training for my first 5k and then afterwards kept going. She can now run for more than 30 minutes straight. That's alot better than I can do now. she is in much better shape body wise though.... this would be her first 5k, which would be awesome to be a part of with her... I hope she agrees to do it with me.
I have not run any since I did my last 5k at the beginning of June. I figure I will prob have to start at the beginning of the C25K program again but if I start at the beginning of September then I should have plenty of time to complete it and then hopefully beat the time I set at the 5k in June. :-)

I'm really excited about it though... I'm really hoping the weather gets a little better soon so I can start training. I'm talking 100* days or at least a heat index of more than 100... and a million % humidity. Not good running weather.

~ Jess

  
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BIZENMO 8/12/2010 9:31AM

    You just keep up the good work, Jess. I think you're doing great. And I know that not going to see your folks sounds kinda bad to some, but you have your reasons and it's not up to anyone else to judge whether they are good enough reasons or not. And, it's good you're aware of how your g-ma operates. Helps prevent you from falling into the traps she seems to set.

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LOSINGJESS 8/5/2010 7:02PM

    Thanks, the 5k is in concord

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ESMOMMY13 8/5/2010 6:43PM

    You rock. I love reading your blogs and photo food journals. :) Good luck with the 5K training! Is this one in Concord?

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MALEXANDER4 8/3/2010 7:41AM

    Another 5k? i'm so proud for you. You go girl, it won't take you much to get back into the swing of running. You worked so hard the last one. Woo on the compiments, they always make you want to keep going don't they, the moment when all your hard work is finally being noticed. have a great day.

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BOVEY63 8/2/2010 12:50PM

    Congrats on the comments from your brother and grandma!
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Running a 5K on your birthday sounds so great, and especially if your joined by your sister.

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WATCHMEGO2 8/2/2010 11:58AM

    awesome! You should definitely do the 5k on your birthday. I bet once you start running again you will find you haven't regressed as much as you thought with it. emoticon

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HULLAF 8/2/2010 11:08AM

    Sounds like you had a great weekend! Keep up the good work.

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CARLA-216 8/2/2010 10:57AM

    I feel your pain at not wanting to visit your parents due to cigarette smoke. That was me for years. I'd still go every other week, but I would have to shower when I got home. Now my mom doesn't smoke inside due to my dad not being able to stand the smell of it. It makes visiting much more pleasant.

I'm glad you had a nice visit and got lots of compliments, even from your grandma!

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GRANDMAAMIE 8/2/2010 10:44AM

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CRIS76 8/2/2010 10:42AM

    Sounds like a good visit home, regardless of the smoke :P Your fitness plan seems pretty good and reminds me that I need to step it up a notch too!

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DONNAEDA 8/2/2010 10:40AM

    what a wonderful visit you had. I'm glad that Grandma had some nice things to say and woo hoo about brother's attitude. You may have had a whole different demeaner about you when you visited and thus created your own positive vibes. Congratulations on shocking your family. tee hee. Also way to go girl on your exercise. As for the filling foods, if counting points is better for you then go for it. Not everyone does well on the ff alternative. Make sure to track so you don't go over your points.

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JESSSPARK 8/2/2010 10:39AM

    I do hope she decides to run with you and I'm happy that your gramma had something positive to say about the weight staying off! I've seen that "you'll just gain it all back" sentiment way too much, even here at SP! :)

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Food Blog - Thursday - 6th Day of simply filling

Friday, July 30, 2010

well yesterday was day 6 of simply filling. I like it alot. I did not take pictures of my food today but tomorow I will post what I ate. By the end of today I will have eaten all of my weekly points and maybe a few activity points... which is ok... there is nothing saying you need to eat only filling foods.. You would get bored fast doing that. I tried to just keep the non-filling foods around 5 points or less per day and that seemed to work out pretty good.

I feel smaller! I really feel like I have dropped fat this week. I dont know for sure yet though because I dont weigh in till tomorow morning... but Im thinking its going to be good. We will see.

Im planning on giving simply filling another week though, even though I dont know if I have dropped weight doing it. Its not hard to follow and all I did to make my menu this week is take the one from last week and make a few changes here and there. Instead of doing mostly chicken like I did this week Im going to do mostly ground beef.... I do that because meat is pretty expensive and I get a big pack at sams club that is like 6 pounds or so.... I cant afford to by more than one type so each week I settle on steak, chicken, or ground beef.... then I throw in a couple vegetarian meals or fish... or if I have some meat left over in the freezer I will throw in a few meals using what I have on hand. It works out.

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Thursday

Breakfast 1 - cream of wheat and blueberries


Breakfast 2 - shredded wheat and blueberries


Lunch - flatout wrap (not ff)... tuna burger w/ avocado, lettuce, carrot & light ginger dressing (2 Points)


Snack - (It was my sisters birthday the day before and she always gets a pepperidge farm coconut layer cake for her birthday because she loves them.... OH MY GOD.... she goes in the freezer and pulls it out and gets a slice... I told her to keep it away from me because I would rip it out of her hand and eat the entire thing and then eat the cardboard tray it comes on too. lol.... then a little while later my other sister comes in ... they both live with me.... and gets a slice. It was killing me. So a little while later it was just calling my name... "Jessica, Eat me... Eat meee!" . So I went in the freezer looked at the calories and fat.... 240 calories and 10g fat for 1/8 of a cake. Thats 5 points. So I go and pull the cake out and look at the cake, determine how big an 8th of a cake is and then determine a 5th of that... and thats what I cut off.... a nice 1 point peice of awesomely bad cake..... I put it in a bowl and sat down and ate it slowly... took me like 6 bites. I dident eat any more and I was good. Im proud of myself for that)
(not a ff - 1 POINT)


Snack - peppers, carrots and hummus
(1 POINT)


Dinner - 1 1/2 cups whole wheat pasta, 2 tbls pesto, 1/8 cup fat free cheddar, 13 shrimp cooked in a nonstick pan w/ cooking spray.... 1 cup broccoli


Weekly points used today: 4
Weekly points used this week: 30
Activity points earned today: 1
Activity points earned this week: 6

  
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GRANDMAAMIE 8/22/2010 6:01PM

    looks so yummy

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MALEXANDER4 7/30/2010 10:20PM

    Omg, coconut is my favorite. I like the one point idea though. I've learned to "piece" items that I want but really are not worth the points. Your meals really do look filling. I like points myself, but I eat a lot of filling foods with ww.

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VIOLET_GREWE 7/30/2010 7:11PM

    Your dinner looks yummy! Good job with the cake!!!

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ZOOLOVER 7/30/2010 4:59PM

  Good job! I'm maintaining a 40+ weight loss for 3 years now with the simply filling technique. I don't like to count points, nor do I get enough every day to keep me satisfied. The simply filling technique takes a little bit to get the hang of, but looks like you did great. Keep up the good work and you'll be a goal be you know it. emoticon

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JESSSPARK 7/30/2010 4:39PM

    Good job with the cake- that must have taken ultimate willpower!@ :)

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