Friday, September 17, 2010
I was never too excited about Fridays up until Aiden started Kindergarten. As most of you who read my blogs frequently you know I have been really trying to become a morning person, off and on throughout the past year, but I would get up early for a few days and then say "screw this!" and sleep in for the rest of the week. Sleeping in is sleeping until like 8:30 or 9am by the way.... a much different definition than what my sisters (who live with me) would call sleeping in. lol, they sleep until after 12 noon on most days.
Anywhoo I have been required to become my definition on an early riser ever since Aiden started school a few weeks ago. In order to give me time to get him up, awake enough to eat breakfast, breakfast in him, teeth brushed, hair combed, face washed, him dressed, me dressed, lunch packed, and out the door... I have to wake up at 5am! Thats earlier than my husband wakes up to get ready for work. He gets up around 5:40.
I have to say this has been my biggest problem lately. Im so freakin tired! I go to bed at 9:30 or 10pm too so I am getting pretty much enough sleep.... even though most nights I want to drop into the bed around 7:30, right after I have put the kids in bed.
So I am looking forward to the weekend... even though tomorrow I am still going to have to wake up around 6:30 in order to get up and get ready to go to my weight watchers meeting. Plus we are going out to go grocery shopping (a normal Saturday occurrence) and we are going to lowes to buy supplies for our kitchen remodel. Counter tops, paint, Tile for the back splash behind the stove, new stove hood. ........... I really can not wait until all this kitchen stuff is finished. I don't know why I thought it was going to be this simple little thing that would not take so long. I Just want my kitchen looking nice and to not have to do any more home improvement for a while. (still have the bathroom to do).
crappy kitchen when we first moved in... after picture to come soon :-)
My week has gone really well as far as eating goes this week. I have done great at tracking and I swear I look thinner. Lets hope the scale tomorrow reflects what I am feeling. ::crosses fingers::
I wanted to get in 5 30 minute exercise sessions in this week and instead I only got in 3.... better than none but I really need to get better about it. I guess my excuse is I am working back up to doing it 5 days a week. The habit is slowly rebuilding itself.
I went out a few days ago to the mall and they always have a costume shop set up around this time of year. I decided to go ahead and try on one of the little slutty costumes they sell.... You know the ones you look at and go... "hmmm shouldn't that girl be wearing that in the bedroom and not to take her 6 year old out trick or treating?" ... yeah one of those. Well I have never been able to wear a store bought Halloween costume so It was pretty scary. I was brave though and picked up a large... XL is the largest they sell in the NON-PLUS costumes. I pretty much knew that I was not in plus anymore.
Anywhoo I went to try it on and the sales clerk stood there and waited and eyed me up like I was going to try and stuff the thing down my pants and walk out of the store. (I hate when people treat you like a theif in stores!" It made me nervous because I did not want anyone eles to see me in this thing except for my sister who was shopping with me. Anywhoo, I went in to try it on ... It was a slutty pirate costume by the way with a really short short skirt. I went in and noticed there was no mirror in the changing room (a plywood half box with a shower curtain for a door lol) //// WTF! I put it on and Didn't really like how it felt for one because it felt really cheap... if I'm gonna pay 40 bucks for a costume I want the fabric to at least be worth half of that.
Anywhoo the skirt came maybe right to the bottom of my butt cheeks. lol. If I had of bent over just slightly even to look at the floor you would have been able to see my entire @ss! woah. It did fit though, almost perfect which was good... but I could not tell how I looked without a mirror.
I walked out and asked my sister how it looked and she agreed that it was waaay too short to wear without anything under it. I told her there was no mirror and she said there was one around the corner.... There was no way in hell that I was walking around the corner in that thing. haha.
So I put it back and left. I think I will make my own costume this year. Just like all the other years. Maybe I will look a little better now though and not have to spend so much on fabric. I can defiantly do better for less than 40 bucks though, even with my novice sewing experience.
A good point to make though was that it fit and that is a huge accomplishment considering that was one of my original goals. Im sure... even though I did not see myself... that I looked alot better than I have in previous Halloween costumes.
So sometime I am also going to be going to the fabric store to look at costume patterns. I want something that I can wear both to the Renn faire and for Halloween. I'm all about multi-function. :-)
Now I am off to make a shopping list because tomorrow is grocery day.
Wish me luck on my weigh in tomorrow!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
well Im sure to alot of you it seems I have fallen off the edge of the world... well I havent really, I just have not been online much. Just wanted to let you know that I have not thrown in the towel on losing weight... Im still trying just as hard as ever (ok maybe not as hard on the exercise as I was before) and Im still around.
I have been doing better with the exercise. I have bumped up to 3-4 days a week, where before I was doing around 0 days a week. lol. I was doing the C25K but then my sister got her tooth pulled and totaly flaked out on me. We havent run at all in about a week and a half. sigh. I know I could get outside and do it by myself but I just dont feel like it. At least with my sister there it was bareable... alone it sucks so bad.
So maybe I wont do the 5k... I dont know yet. Im not too concerned about it really at the moment. My biggest concern is just to make sure I am working out in some way so I keep losing weight because I would really like to be at a healthy weight by the end of this year.
As it stands now I am 172 lbs. To reach a healthy BMI I need to get to 164 point something. That is less than 10 lbs off!!! I am so excited about that. Its another milestone that I have never seen before.
Right now I am trying my best to get into my size 12 pants. I have two pair in my closet that have been hanging there since I was about a size 20. The thrift store is great for getting brand new clothes for only like 3 bucks a pair but if you see a pair you like you have to snag them right then,,,, even if you know your 4 sizes off from wearing them... I guess thats where faith comes in. Size 12 seems crazy to me considering that if you had of asked me what my ideal size would be when I was up near 300lbs. I would have said size 14. Size 14 just wont cut it as my final size now though.... it seemed so tiny when I was bigger and now size 14 looks big to me. Its also crazy how your perception changes as you lose weight.
I started decorating for Fall a few days ago. Im so excited that the holidays are approaching. October 1st - Jan 1st is my favorite time of year. Decorating, cooking, entertaining, Halloween, My birthday, my anniversary, The renn faire, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Newyears. Its the best time of year... Such a great feeling about everything.
Still redoing my kitchen. Cabinets are painted and look pretty good... Im just waiting for hubby to tell me when have the funds to do the counters, then paint the walls and celing... then put new lanolium down on the floors. I have so much to do, not enough money and I want to get it all done before thanksgiving.
Stress stress stress... I hardly ever feel it but I feel it slipping in here and there these days. I dont see how these moms that work and have 3 or 4 kids and keep there house clean and take kids to soccer practice and go to PTA meetings ect... do it. WTF. I am over here with two kids under 5, one in school and one not.... I am exausted just trying to keep the house clean, cook a few meals a day, and work on the house a bit. Are these women on crack or something? I geuss I am just really sh*tty at being a Stay at home mom. ::shrugs::
So anyway, not too much going on but enough to where spark people is not getting my full attention and certainly not enough time for food blogs, which I know upsets a few people who really like them. I think I may start posting new recipes and pictures at least once a week up here though. I really want to try a lot of new recipes this year and It would be fun to blog about them as well. That will give the food blog fans a small fix anyway. lol.
I hope everyone is doing great sticking to there healthy goals.... Hopefully come Saturday I will be able to post good news that I have lost some weight. I feel pretty good about this week and I think I deserve a loss after losing zero last week, and gaining two weeks before that.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I sent these recipes to a friend this morning on spark... I thought that maybe a few of you may want to check them out too. They are such good recipes I cant keep them all to myself. You may be able to make substututions to make them more weight friendly but as of now they are full fat.... In my personal oppion, thanksgiving and christmas are two days out of the year.... why not eat really great food without guilt and then get back on track the very next meal. My Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners last year were horrible as far as calories go... but I lost weight durring last holiday season. brag brag brag.... kidding... anywhoo If you want to use them go ahead... make sure you tell me if you liked them though.
UPSIDE-DOWN TURKEY ( www.ehow.com )
NOTE: this turkey is moist, loaded with flavor and juicy but also has the picture perfect golden brown color everyone wants on a holiday turkey.
Things you'll need
* 12 lb. turkey, thawed if bought frozen
*2 cloves garlic
*2 tbsp. chopped fresh basil
*1/2 tsp. fresh marjoram, chopped
*1/2 tsp. fresh rosemary, chopped
*1/2 tsp. salt
*1/2 tsp. freshly ground black pepper
*1/2 tsp. fresh thyme, chopped
*6 tbsp. unsalted butter, softened
*2c. dry white wine
*chicken stock for basting
1. Rinse the turkey inside and out. Pat dry with paper towels.
2. Combine garlic, herbs, salt and pepper, along with softened butter, in the bowl of a food processor. Pulse for a few seconds until mixture is well-combined and set aside.
3. slip your hand under the turkey skin and break the membranes that hold it to the body. Smear most, but not all of the herb butter under the skin and directly on the meat.
5. Stuff the turkey loosely and close the flap with skewers. Spread the rest of the herb butter over the turkey skin.
6. Butter a roasting rack and place it in a shallow roasting pan. Place the turkey breast side down on the rack ......
NOTE: I did not have a roasting rack so I used about 6 or 7 ribs of celery placed along the bottom of the turkey. Keeps the turkey elevated off of the bottom of the pan so it wont stick and adds another layer of flavor to the turkey broth when you go to make gravy.
7. Pour the wine in the roasting pan under the turkey.
8. Roast the turkey basting every 15 minutes with stock. making sure that the liquid in the roasting pan does not evaporate. Anticipate 12 minutes of cooking time per pound of turkey.
9. About and hour before the turkey is done, remove the turkey from the oven and turn it breast side up.
NOTE: may want another persons help to do this, its a bit tricky. armed with a carving fork and knife you can usually skewer it and turn it pretty easy though.
10. Return the turkey to the oven and roast until a meat thermometer inserted in the thickest part of the thigh registers 180 degrees F.
NOTE: Alot of the herbs were a bit pricey so some of them I used dried... you may have to adjust measurements but just use your best judgment.
CRANBERRY, APPLE AND SAUSAGE STUFFING (food network; Robert Irvine)
Prep Time: 20 min
Cook: Time: 55min
Serves 6 with leftovers
*4 tbls. butter, unsalted
* 1 large Onion, Finely diced
* 2 cups chopped celery
* 3 - 4 Coarsely chopped leeks (if you have never used these before they are really good but make sure you wash them really well, they have alot of sandy grit in between the stalks)
* 2 Large apples, peeled, cored and chopped
* 1/2 lb - 1 lbs. Breakfast sausage or italian sausage, casings removed
* 3 tsp. poultry seasoning
* 1 teaspoons chopped fresh rosemary leaves
* 1 tsp. chopped fresh sage leaves
1 tsp. chopped fresh parsley leaves
1 cup dried cranberries
1 bag stuffing mix ( not cornbread) (recommended: Pepperidge farm)
1 - 1 1/2 cups vegetable stock
Salt and freshly ground black pepper
NOTE: THIS RECIPE MAKES A FREAKIN LOT!!! USE A REALLY LARGE PAN TO MAKE IT IN OR SPLIT IT INTO TWO PARTS..... I HAVE A HUGE PAN AND STILL HAD PROBLEMS STIRRING THERE WAS SO MUCH. IT WAS GOOD THOUGH AND VERY LEFTOVER WORTHY!
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. F
Melt the butter in a large skillet and saute the onions, celery, leeks, apples and sausage. Breaking up the sausage as you cook. After about 10 minutes add the poultry seasoning, fresh herbs and dried cranberries. Add the dried stuffing mix and moisten with the vegetable stock. Season stuffing mix with salt and pepper to taste. (If you like your stuffing dryer or moister add less or more stock. I like mine a little on the dryer side, so I think this amount of stock reflects that)
Place into a buttered casserole dish and bake for 45 minutes.
NOTE: I AM GOING TO TRY AND LIGHTEN THIS ONE UP A BIT THIS YEAR BY USING LIGHT BUTTER, TURKEY SAUSAGE AND WHOLE WHEAT STUFFING. I DON'T KNOW HOW IT WILL TURN OUT BUT WE WILL SEE. IF YOU USE THIS ONE HOPE YOU ENJOY, ITS GREAT!
Great appetizer.... used this one at Christmas and everyone was so full from eating them before the meal no one really wanted much of the meal lol.
CRANBERRY TURKEY CRESCENT PINWHEELS ( Sam's club recipe )
serves 4 - prep time: 25 min
1 can Pillsbury refrigerated crescent rolls
4oz Philadelphia cream cheese
8 slices of oven roasted turkey breast lunch meat (sliced thin)
1/4 cup dried cranberries, chopped
1. heat oven to 350*. Unroll dough, and separate into rectangles (two triangles together). Press the seam of the two triangles together sealing it to make a uniformed rectangle.
2. spread 2 tbls. of cream cheese on dough within 1/2 inch of edge.
3. sprinkle with 1/8 cup of chopped dried cranberries, and place two turkey slices on each rectangle.
4. start from short side and roll up rectangle; press seam to seal. cut roll into six slices. Place cut side down on ungreased cookie sheet.
5. bake for 14 - 16 minutes or until light golden brown. serve warm
CHANGE FLAVOR: replace cream cheese and cranberries with Philadelphia white cheddar with roasted red pepper cracker spread or Parmesan with garlic and herbs cracker spread.
Thursday, September 02, 2010
I am feeling much better about today then I have about every other day for the past two weeks. I think that's because I actually got in a workout today. I have really been avoiding it... for no other reason than pure laziness.
My sister suggested that we go out and start C25k this morning. She wants to run the 5k I was considering running in November. It will be her first 5k. This was the first time she has ever run.... she use to be really big (over 350lbs) and was unable to do anything like this before, but now that she is down between 220-230 I think she feels she can do alot more. It was nice sharing in this moment with her and gave me a good excuse to get out and start moving again. It was a good workout and starting back to running (have not ran once since my last 5k in june) was alot easier than I thought it would be.
I ate really well today... I tracked all my food (something I have not done very well in the last two weeks) and I feel like I'm on that right track again.
Right now I am indulging in a treat that I have been looking forward to all day. I'm drinking a cup of suger free apple cider and eating a small rice crispy treat. OH MY GOD... its so buttery. lol. I had to share.
I'm really feel fall approaching. My favorite season. I love everything about fall, including Halloween, my birthday and my baby girls birthday, which is two days before mine and christmas. ..... Even though Christmas is technically in winter I consider fall running from September up until christmas day. After that there is nothing to look forward to except the bleak damp winter. yuck!
Fall is great.... except for a few food pitfalls that I have to watch out for. Lets see, first off is egg nog! .... I love love love egg nog, and that includes the pumpkin flavored egg nog that they come out with around thanksgiving. Right before I started living healthier back when I was 270 lbs, from November through New Years I ended up drinking a half gallon of egg nog every two days.... and ended up gaining 20 pounds in a month. Its like crack. .............. I did really good last year, I told myself that I was going to have egg nog on christmas eve and that's it, and I stuck to it. I got a 20oz container and mixed it with half 2% milk to stretch it and stuck to having it on that one day. It worked out well and was really satisfying and so that's what I plan to do again.
Another fall problem I have is I get in a freakin martha stewart, food network bake-a-holic trance where all I want to do is bake every day. I did a fair amount of baking last year but ended up packing up everything I made and sending it home with relatives.... which is bad for them but kept me in the clear. I really dont want to do that to them of course and I dont want to feed all that junk to my kids either so I think I am going to again stick to a few things baked at specific times. Its gonna be really hard but I am going to do my best.
For Lyra's 2nd birthday I am getting one of the little round cakes... you know the ones that are prob 4 small slices. We have been doing the tiny cakes on birthdays and its been working really well. That way everyone still has cake (although I usually pass because I get regular cake and I dont like regular cake) but we dont have leftovers tempting us. If we had leftover birthday cake I would end up picking at it, even if I dont like it that much.
For my birthday I chose to go out to eat and get one slice of cake and share it with my husband and kids. There is a diner near out house that has Gyros (my fave food) and HUGE slices of cheesecake!!! I LOVE CHEESECAKE!!! It is my absolute favorite but instead of eating it freaquently like I use to I make that my birthday tradition and it makes it taste so much better. So yes that is one slice of cheese cake per year.... wow I am so strong now. lol. They have pumpkin cheesecake at the diner we go to, so Im combining my favorite season with my favorite desert! I am so looking forward to November 20th! Yum!
I did well last fall, I picked a few days where I was going to eat what I wanted but not over do it and I ended up losing weight over the holidays.... that is a first! I hope to continue with the trend this year. I am pretty confident that with my plan in place I will do really well.
So I'm excited and but still a little scared as well. Anyone eles have some good holiday strats? If you dont have your plan in place yet, you should think about it. Its really hard to fall back into bad habits around the holidays, so you gotta forsee whats comming and think of how you will handle it before it gets here. :-)
Saturday, August 28, 2010
I have not really been on spark in a week. I know alot of my spark friends have been wondering where I am ... thanks for checking up on me. I have not fallen off the edge of the world though. Im still here.
This past week has been a bit rough. I really let life get in the way of my healthy eating and exercise. I did not get on spark people hardly at all, hell I hardly got online. I did not work out at all... not even once and even though I did not binge or eat horribly IMO I didn't track anything, ate alot of convience foods and really did not think about what I was putting in my mouth.
I suppose this happens. The important thing is I am getting back on track now and I only gained 2 pounds as a result of my bad week. I can easily make up for that this week if I work at it.
Well this past week Aiden my 5 year old started Kindergarten. We went to open house on monday, only to find out that he was not enrolled at all! I went to a meeting at the end of the last school year, he was transfering from another preschool to the elementary school near our house. They were suppose to take care of all of the enrolling and everything and never did. The lady at the desk was a total B face to me and no one seemed to care. To make matters worse after we did finally get him enrolled the next day they dropped the bomb that he would not be able to ride the school bus because they cant add new routes for 30 days. I threw a big fit and got the principle envolved and they finally let him catch the bus at a stop down the road a little ways untill they can add a new route close to our house.
So his first day was friday and I had to walk him to the bus stop before the sun came up... we had to walk through peoples yards because there is no side walks on our street and our feet were soaked by the time we got there. I had to call his teacher and ask her to change his socks when he got to school.
Then the whole day I worried about if he was doing ok. If he found his class ok, if the kids were being nice to him or if he got the cap off his thermos of milk at lunch.... stupid crap I should not be worried about. Its hard letting him go... last year was only two days a week so it wasn't so bad. I guess its gonna take some getting use to. Part of me is so proud of him as he gets older but the other part never wants him to grow up.
Other stresses this week included my X husband calling Child Protective Services on me saying I was beating my son and not feeding him to the point of starvation. This will be the 3rd time he has called them on me in two years, not including when he called the police on me saying I was killing my child.... when they came that time they would not even tell me why they were called untill they were allowed into my house to see if my son was ok. 3 cop cars and a K9 unit were called....what a mess I cant even do anything about it... they said that no matter how many times he calls and the allications are found to be false they still have to come check it out and there is nothing anyone can do to him for calling. I really cant stand my X!
Im working on getting signed up for college because I am planning on going back to school this comming spring so I had to go up to the school and fill out a bunch of stuff. I was going to start this fall but I got things in a little late. I have always wanted to go to college for art but never went right out of high school. I told my parents I needed a break and would go back next year. Next year never happened though and that was 10 years ago. My main reasons for not going was I was scared and I got tied up with boyfriends. Stupid reasons I know. ..... Im going to be starting a fine arts transfer program at community college and then from there Im planning on transfering to a 4 year college. By that time Lyra should be starting school so it wont be that big of a deal. Comminuty college is nice because you can work around having a family. Im really excited to start.
I have also been working on my kitchen. Im starting with painting the cabinets and then moving on to repainting the walls, replacing the floor and the counter tops... ect. The cabinets are in bad shape and there is alot of prep work before I can paint them... plus I have to work around taking care of the kids at the same time... Its alot of work but Im hoping that it will look nice when I get done.
Anyway, thats just the stuff I can think of off the top of my head... I usually dont let life get in the way but I had alot on my plate this week. I know I need to find ways to manage stress though and still take care of myself.
This coming week will be much better.
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