Thursday, September 02, 2010
I am feeling much better about today then I have about every other day for the past two weeks. I think that's because I actually got in a workout today. I have really been avoiding it... for no other reason than pure laziness.
My sister suggested that we go out and start C25k this morning. She wants to run the 5k I was considering running in November. It will be her first 5k. This was the first time she has ever run.... she use to be really big (over 350lbs) and was unable to do anything like this before, but now that she is down between 220-230 I think she feels she can do alot more. It was nice sharing in this moment with her and gave me a good excuse to get out and start moving again. It was a good workout and starting back to running (have not ran once since my last 5k in june) was alot easier than I thought it would be.
I ate really well today... I tracked all my food (something I have not done very well in the last two weeks) and I feel like I'm on that right track again.
Right now I am indulging in a treat that I have been looking forward to all day. I'm drinking a cup of suger free apple cider and eating a small rice crispy treat. OH MY GOD... its so buttery. lol. I had to share.
I'm really feel fall approaching. My favorite season. I love everything about fall, including Halloween, my birthday and my baby girls birthday, which is two days before mine and christmas. ..... Even though Christmas is technically in winter I consider fall running from September up until christmas day. After that there is nothing to look forward to except the bleak damp winter. yuck!
Fall is great.... except for a few food pitfalls that I have to watch out for. Lets see, first off is egg nog! .... I love love love egg nog, and that includes the pumpkin flavored egg nog that they come out with around thanksgiving. Right before I started living healthier back when I was 270 lbs, from November through New Years I ended up drinking a half gallon of egg nog every two days.... and ended up gaining 20 pounds in a month. Its like crack. .............. I did really good last year, I told myself that I was going to have egg nog on christmas eve and that's it, and I stuck to it. I got a 20oz container and mixed it with half 2% milk to stretch it and stuck to having it on that one day. It worked out well and was really satisfying and so that's what I plan to do again.
Another fall problem I have is I get in a freakin martha stewart, food network bake-a-holic trance where all I want to do is bake every day. I did a fair amount of baking last year but ended up packing up everything I made and sending it home with relatives.... which is bad for them but kept me in the clear. I really dont want to do that to them of course and I dont want to feed all that junk to my kids either so I think I am going to again stick to a few things baked at specific times. Its gonna be really hard but I am going to do my best.
For Lyra's 2nd birthday I am getting one of the little round cakes... you know the ones that are prob 4 small slices. We have been doing the tiny cakes on birthdays and its been working really well. That way everyone still has cake (although I usually pass because I get regular cake and I dont like regular cake) but we dont have leftovers tempting us. If we had leftover birthday cake I would end up picking at it, even if I dont like it that much.
For my birthday I chose to go out to eat and get one slice of cake and share it with my husband and kids. There is a diner near out house that has Gyros (my fave food) and HUGE slices of cheesecake!!! I LOVE CHEESECAKE!!! It is my absolute favorite but instead of eating it freaquently like I use to I make that my birthday tradition and it makes it taste so much better. So yes that is one slice of cheese cake per year.... wow I am so strong now. lol. They have pumpkin cheesecake at the diner we go to, so Im combining my favorite season with my favorite desert! I am so looking forward to November 20th! Yum!
I did well last fall, I picked a few days where I was going to eat what I wanted but not over do it and I ended up losing weight over the holidays.... that is a first! I hope to continue with the trend this year. I am pretty confident that with my plan in place I will do really well.
So I'm excited and but still a little scared as well. Anyone eles have some good holiday strats? If you dont have your plan in place yet, you should think about it. Its really hard to fall back into bad habits around the holidays, so you gotta forsee whats comming and think of how you will handle it before it gets here. :-)
Saturday, August 28, 2010
I have not really been on spark in a week. I know alot of my spark friends have been wondering where I am ... thanks for checking up on me. I have not fallen off the edge of the world though. Im still here.
This past week has been a bit rough. I really let life get in the way of my healthy eating and exercise. I did not get on spark people hardly at all, hell I hardly got online. I did not work out at all... not even once and even though I did not binge or eat horribly IMO I didn't track anything, ate alot of convience foods and really did not think about what I was putting in my mouth.
I suppose this happens. The important thing is I am getting back on track now and I only gained 2 pounds as a result of my bad week. I can easily make up for that this week if I work at it.
Well this past week Aiden my 5 year old started Kindergarten. We went to open house on monday, only to find out that he was not enrolled at all! I went to a meeting at the end of the last school year, he was transfering from another preschool to the elementary school near our house. They were suppose to take care of all of the enrolling and everything and never did. The lady at the desk was a total B face to me and no one seemed to care. To make matters worse after we did finally get him enrolled the next day they dropped the bomb that he would not be able to ride the school bus because they cant add new routes for 30 days. I threw a big fit and got the principle envolved and they finally let him catch the bus at a stop down the road a little ways untill they can add a new route close to our house.
So his first day was friday and I had to walk him to the bus stop before the sun came up... we had to walk through peoples yards because there is no side walks on our street and our feet were soaked by the time we got there. I had to call his teacher and ask her to change his socks when he got to school.
Then the whole day I worried about if he was doing ok. If he found his class ok, if the kids were being nice to him or if he got the cap off his thermos of milk at lunch.... stupid crap I should not be worried about. Its hard letting him go... last year was only two days a week so it wasn't so bad. I guess its gonna take some getting use to. Part of me is so proud of him as he gets older but the other part never wants him to grow up.
Other stresses this week included my X husband calling Child Protective Services on me saying I was beating my son and not feeding him to the point of starvation. This will be the 3rd time he has called them on me in two years, not including when he called the police on me saying I was killing my child.... when they came that time they would not even tell me why they were called untill they were allowed into my house to see if my son was ok. 3 cop cars and a K9 unit were called....what a mess I cant even do anything about it... they said that no matter how many times he calls and the allications are found to be false they still have to come check it out and there is nothing anyone can do to him for calling. I really cant stand my X!
Im working on getting signed up for college because I am planning on going back to school this comming spring so I had to go up to the school and fill out a bunch of stuff. I was going to start this fall but I got things in a little late. I have always wanted to go to college for art but never went right out of high school. I told my parents I needed a break and would go back next year. Next year never happened though and that was 10 years ago. My main reasons for not going was I was scared and I got tied up with boyfriends. Stupid reasons I know. ..... Im going to be starting a fine arts transfer program at community college and then from there Im planning on transfering to a 4 year college. By that time Lyra should be starting school so it wont be that big of a deal. Comminuty college is nice because you can work around having a family. Im really excited to start.
I have also been working on my kitchen. Im starting with painting the cabinets and then moving on to repainting the walls, replacing the floor and the counter tops... ect. The cabinets are in bad shape and there is alot of prep work before I can paint them... plus I have to work around taking care of the kids at the same time... Its alot of work but Im hoping that it will look nice when I get done.
Anyway, thats just the stuff I can think of off the top of my head... I usually dont let life get in the way but I had alot on my plate this week. I know I need to find ways to manage stress though and still take care of myself.
This coming week will be much better.
Monday, August 02, 2010
well the weekend has ended and I don't think I did bad but I might have done bad as far as simply filling goes. With the weight watchers simply filling plan you get to eat as much filling food as you want to make you full but only get to eat other non-filling foods within your 35 weekly points budget and you don't have to track anything other than the 35 points of non filling food.
I ended up going to golden corral last night and eating alot of non filling foods... If I had of stuck with simply filling then I would hardly have any weekly points left. Fortunately I have tracked everything I have eaten since my week began on saturday so I am just going to track my points this week instead of trying to do the simply filling plan again this week.
I went to my parents house yesterday. I had not visited in a long long time, almost a year! Which is bad because my parents only live about an hour away from me. I'm a bad daughter. I just hate going over to there house because they smoke and I don't like that the smell sticks to my clothes and hair and my kids are breathing that crap in. My parents don't seem to understand that you still breath it in even if they are not smoking during our visit and they don't smell the smell either because they are use to it.
Anyway, it was a nice visit and nice to see my parents. They have seen me in the last year several times. I saw my mom about two weeks ago and my dad a month before but my 19 year old brother had not seen me since last summer when my sister graduated from college. He really freaked out when he saw me and the only thing he could talk about while I was there was how skinny I was now. He has never seen me any thinner than 230 pounds so I guess it was really surprising to see how small I had gotten. It felt really good that he reacted that way.... no one else has really reacted like that before, they have said stuff but never were really shocked at the weight loss. He also told me he was really proud of me and that really meant alot... alot more than I thought it would coming from my little brother.
My grandmother also said something that was pretty meaningful... she said that she didn't think I would gain the weight back... That was amazing to me. You see my grandmother is generally a very negative person. She is the type that calls you fat and then bakes you cookies and makes you feel bad if you don't eat any... and then when you do she tells you, if you eat to many your gonna get fatter... also if you lose a few pounds she says your just gonna gain it all back... or looks at you and says "whered you lose it, between your ears" ... That's a favorite for her lol.
Anyway for her to say something so positive as that she though I would not gain it back is really amazing and nice. It also meant alot.
I'm glad I went to visit even though I smelled really bad afterwards. :-(
In other news I have decided I really need to bump up my workouts again this week. For the last few weeks I have been slacking off by either skipping my workouts all together or doing things that are waaaay to easy for my fitness level. I'm talking, walking in place in front of the TV easy... which is fine for extra activity but I need to have a real, sweat my butt off workout at least 5 days a week.
This morning I really wanted to go back to sleep! Its odd because no matter how early I go to sleep, I still do not want to get out of bed before 8am. I went to bed at 9:30pm last night and still found myself wanting to crawl back into bed at 5:30 this morning. WTH!
I did not go back to sleep though I stayed up and I was determined to get a good workout in. So I just tried to think about it as little as possible and just make my body walk to the dvd player and put in my biggest loser workout video. This is one I know will challenge me and because of that Its hard to pop it in. I can just feel my brain saying "NOOOO NOT THAT ONE!!!" .... my hand wants to reach for walk away the pounds or something but I got it in and pushed play and then pushed myself as hard as I could.
Getting through the squats and lunges are reeeealy hard to do, I tend to want to stop half way through and wait until it switches to the next exercise. But I kept through the burning and shaking legs and kept telling myself "I am strong" ... It really is effective to do this as lame as it sounds. I got through each segment and felt like I was gonna fall over in a heap when the video was over... so mission accomplished.
I want to keep this up and really start toning up my body. I'm small enough now to where it will make a real visible difference ... I just need to stick with it this time instead of getting a week through working out and then stopping for a few weeks. I think I may get some new videos too... the ones I have are a little stale.
well I think I have decided on a 5k that I am going to do. I was reading about a 5k here in the city I live in that takes place on November 20th (my B-Day). Its called the Santa shuffle or something like that. I thought it was really cool because it happens during the Christmas parade! You start out at the beginning of the parade procession and then run a 3.1 mile loop to the finish line. It sounded pretty awesome and Its also neat because it falls on my birthday. I'm trying to talk my sisters into doing it with me. My one sister is already running several days a week... because of me I might add. LOL... she ran with me twice when I was training for my first 5k and then afterwards kept going. She can now run for more than 30 minutes straight. That's alot better than I can do now. she is in much better shape body wise though.... this would be her first 5k, which would be awesome to be a part of with her... I hope she agrees to do it with me.
I have not run any since I did my last 5k at the beginning of June. I figure I will prob have to start at the beginning of the C25K program again but if I start at the beginning of September then I should have plenty of time to complete it and then hopefully beat the time I set at the 5k in June. :-)
I'm really excited about it though... I'm really hoping the weather gets a little better soon so I can start training. I'm talking 100* days or at least a heat index of more than 100... and a million % humidity. Not good running weather.
Friday, July 30, 2010
well yesterday was day 6 of simply filling. I like it alot. I did not take pictures of my food today but tomorow I will post what I ate. By the end of today I will have eaten all of my weekly points and maybe a few activity points... which is ok... there is nothing saying you need to eat only filling foods.. You would get bored fast doing that. I tried to just keep the non-filling foods around 5 points or less per day and that seemed to work out pretty good.
I feel smaller! I really feel like I have dropped fat this week. I dont know for sure yet though because I dont weigh in till tomorow morning... but Im thinking its going to be good. We will see.
Im planning on giving simply filling another week though, even though I dont know if I have dropped weight doing it. Its not hard to follow and all I did to make my menu this week is take the one from last week and make a few changes here and there. Instead of doing mostly chicken like I did this week Im going to do mostly ground beef.... I do that because meat is pretty expensive and I get a big pack at sams club that is like 6 pounds or so.... I cant afford to by more than one type so each week I settle on steak, chicken, or ground beef.... then I throw in a couple vegetarian meals or fish... or if I have some meat left over in the freezer I will throw in a few meals using what I have on hand. It works out.
Breakfast 1 - cream of wheat and blueberries
Breakfast 2 - shredded wheat and blueberries
Lunch - flatout wrap (not ff)... tuna burger w/ avocado, lettuce, carrot & light ginger dressing (2 Points)
Snack - (It was my sisters birthday the day before and she always gets a pepperidge farm coconut layer cake for her birthday because she loves them.... OH MY GOD.... she goes in the freezer and pulls it out and gets a slice... I told her to keep it away from me because I would rip it out of her hand and eat the entire thing and then eat the cardboard tray it comes on too. lol.... then a little while later my other sister comes in ... they both live with me.... and gets a slice. It was killing me. So a little while later it was just calling my name... "Jessica, Eat me... Eat meee!" . So I went in the freezer looked at the calories and fat.... 240 calories and 10g fat for 1/8 of a cake. Thats 5 points. So I go and pull the cake out and look at the cake, determine how big an 8th of a cake is and then determine a 5th of that... and thats what I cut off.... a nice 1 point peice of awesomely bad cake..... I put it in a bowl and sat down and ate it slowly... took me like 6 bites. I dident eat any more and I was good. Im proud of myself for that)
(not a ff - 1 POINT)
Snack - peppers, carrots and hummus
Dinner - 1 1/2 cups whole wheat pasta, 2 tbls pesto, 1/8 cup fat free cheddar, 13 shrimp cooked in a nonstick pan w/ cooking spray.... 1 cup broccoli
Weekly points used today: 4
Weekly points used this week: 30
Activity points earned today: 1
Activity points earned this week: 6
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