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Friday, September 17, 2010

I was never too excited about Fridays up until Aiden started Kindergarten. As most of you who read my blogs frequently you know I have been really trying to become a morning person, off and on throughout the past year, but I would get up early for a few days and then say "screw this!" and sleep in for the rest of the week. Sleeping in is sleeping until like 8:30 or 9am by the way.... a much different definition than what my sisters (who live with me) would call sleeping in. lol, they sleep until after 12 noon on most days.

Anywhoo I have been required to become my definition on an early riser ever since Aiden started school a few weeks ago. In order to give me time to get him up, awake enough to eat breakfast, breakfast in him, teeth brushed, hair combed, face washed, him dressed, me dressed, lunch packed, and out the door... I have to wake up at 5am! Thats earlier than my husband wakes up to get ready for work. He gets up around 5:40.

I have to say this has been my biggest problem lately. Im so freakin tired! I go to bed at 9:30 or 10pm too so I am getting pretty much enough sleep.... even though most nights I want to drop into the bed around 7:30, right after I have put the kids in bed.

So I am looking forward to the weekend... even though tomorrow I am still going to have to wake up around 6:30 in order to get up and get ready to go to my weight watchers meeting. Plus we are going out to go grocery shopping (a normal Saturday occurrence) and we are going to lowes to buy supplies for our kitchen remodel. Counter tops, paint, Tile for the back splash behind the stove, new stove hood. ........... I really can not wait until all this kitchen stuff is finished. I don't know why I thought it was going to be this simple little thing that would not take so long. I Just want my kitchen looking nice and to not have to do any more home improvement for a while. (still have the bathroom to do).

crappy kitchen when we first moved in... after picture to come soon :-)

My week has gone really well as far as eating goes this week. I have done great at tracking and I swear I look thinner. Lets hope the scale tomorrow reflects what I am feeling. ::crosses fingers::
I wanted to get in 5 30 minute exercise sessions in this week and instead I only got in 3.... better than none but I really need to get better about it. I guess my excuse is I am working back up to doing it 5 days a week. The habit is slowly rebuilding itself.

I went out a few days ago to the mall and they always have a costume shop set up around this time of year. I decided to go ahead and try on one of the little slutty costumes they sell.... You know the ones you look at and go... "hmmm shouldn't that girl be wearing that in the bedroom and not to take her 6 year old out trick or treating?" ... yeah one of those. Well I have never been able to wear a store bought Halloween costume so It was pretty scary. I was brave though and picked up a large... XL is the largest they sell in the NON-PLUS costumes. I pretty much knew that I was not in plus anymore.

Anywhoo I went to try it on and the sales clerk stood there and waited and eyed me up like I was going to try and stuff the thing down my pants and walk out of the store. (I hate when people treat you like a theif in stores!" It made me nervous because I did not want anyone eles to see me in this thing except for my sister who was shopping with me. Anywhoo, I went in to try it on ... It was a slutty pirate costume by the way with a really short short skirt. I went in and noticed there was no mirror in the changing room (a plywood half box with a shower curtain for a door lol) //// WTF! I put it on and Didn't really like how it felt for one because it felt really cheap... if I'm gonna pay 40 bucks for a costume I want the fabric to at least be worth half of that.

Anywhoo the skirt came maybe right to the bottom of my butt cheeks. lol. If I had of bent over just slightly even to look at the floor you would have been able to see my entire @ss! woah. It did fit though, almost perfect which was good... but I could not tell how I looked without a mirror.

I walked out and asked my sister how it looked and she agreed that it was waaay too short to wear without anything under it. I told her there was no mirror and she said there was one around the corner.... There was no way in hell that I was walking around the corner in that thing. haha.

So I put it back and left. I think I will make my own costume this year. Just like all the other years. Maybe I will look a little better now though and not have to spend so much on fabric. I can defiantly do better for less than 40 bucks though, even with my novice sewing experience.

A good point to make though was that it fit and that is a huge accomplishment considering that was one of my original goals. Im sure... even though I did not see myself... that I looked alot better than I have in previous Halloween costumes.

So sometime I am also going to be going to the fabric store to look at costume patterns. I want something that I can wear both to the Renn faire and for Halloween. I'm all about multi-function. :-)

Now I am off to make a shopping list because tomorrow is grocery day.
Wish me luck on my weigh in tomorrow!

~ Jess

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JADENTEX 9/19/2010 11:49PM

    Ummm..... If you're not looking to wear your costume specifically for Halloween.... *ahem* ...Then just wait until they go on clearance November 1st! Even Walmart.com sells slutty costumes online. emoticon

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LOSINGJESS 9/17/2010 10:38PM

    Thanks I had fun writing it.


I do only weigh in once a week. My scale at home is off from the one at Weight Watchers so I don't use it anymore. Its lower in number but I find if I weigh lower at home and then go weigh in there and weigh more it just drives me crazy. My scale at home is highly accurate anyway. lol.

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JESSSPARK 9/17/2010 6:01PM

    Arrrr, you will be a saucy pirate wench! :)

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FISHINGLADY66 9/17/2010 12:12PM

    I'll be looking for the picture of the new kitchen. This was a fun blog. You are so motivated, you don't need luck on the scale. Best wishes to you anyway. Keep the motivation going.

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DONNAEDA 9/17/2010 11:54AM

    isn't it fun to try on clothes and find out they fit. At the beginning of my weight-loss I always went back to my original size or one smaller until I got it in my head that I was really a size 12 and now I go to it naturally. Congratulations on your weight-loss

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BECKYCOLVIN 9/17/2010 11:53AM

    Fun blog. :) I love being able to sleep in (a little) on weekends. And I remember that being able to look good in a slutty Halloween costume is one of your goals on your Sparkpage! Good luck on the weigh in--do you only weigh in once a week?

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SPARKYJEANIE1 9/17/2010 10:32AM

    Good luck, my Jessie girl!!!

What a cute story - the early rise routine is a pain in the a$$ - but like you said with Aiden in kinder now, you have no choice and pretty soon, you'll be looking like me - getting up on time - but half asleep and looking pretty damn robotic until you get some tea or something in ya lol!!!

Can't wait to see the "after" pics of that kitchen!!!

The short a$$ haloween costumes I think are by a company called "Leg Avenue"...I hear ya girl - I went last wknd to the Spirit Haloween Superstore (not sure if you guys have them where u live) and all the women's stuff looked like some stripper gear I swear!!!!!!! I borrowed a costume from my buddy last year I really wanted to wear - it was WonderWoman - but giiirrrrrrl lemmie teeeeeelll youuuu-I think it didn't even cover the bottom of MY cheeks hahahaha...so I opted for a much more conservative (although still a bit slutty looking) school girl outfit. I slightly customized it since I didn't want my tummy all out there like the girl on the pic in front of the pkg so it looked okaaaay I guess...but I was still barely starting to spark and I look back on the pics and think I looked awful!! (Hmm I should post one huh, just to have one from last year and if I dress up this year - to see the progress if any lol)...

OK darling, hope that weigh in ROCKS!!!!


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MALEXANDER4 9/17/2010 10:21AM

    I sure want to see the finished product on the kitchen. we are saving to do our den and I want to do the plantation shutters in the windows, i've been looking around and we have this shop in town, I asked the owner what I needed to do to measure for them, the first words out of her mouth was" those are the most expensive window treatments you know", Now I didn't ask that, i'm aware of the cost...so guess what? she didn't get me business, like your lady in the sales shop, one should never judge a book by its cover. Have a great day and I wish you well tomorrow. Michelle.

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SUGIRL06 9/17/2010 10:15AM

    OMG! I never even thought about sewing my own costumes!!! I can do that! Thanks for the project idea and way to go on the non-plus-sized costume!!! Just make the skirt a little longer :) I like the slutty constumes too but agree, a little too short!

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HULLAF 9/17/2010 9:56AM

    woo hoo - FRIDAY! Good luck with your kitchen project. We want pictures when you are done. :) I don't even dress up for Halloween. Maybe someday! Keep up the good work.

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What have I been up to

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

well Im sure to alot of you it seems I have fallen off the edge of the world... well I havent really, I just have not been online much. Just wanted to let you know that I have not thrown in the towel on losing weight... Im still trying just as hard as ever (ok maybe not as hard on the exercise as I was before) and Im still around.

I have been doing better with the exercise. I have bumped up to 3-4 days a week, where before I was doing around 0 days a week. lol. I was doing the C25K but then my sister got her tooth pulled and totaly flaked out on me. We havent run at all in about a week and a half. sigh. I know I could get outside and do it by myself but I just dont feel like it. At least with my sister there it was bareable... alone it sucks so bad.

So maybe I wont do the 5k... I dont know yet. Im not too concerned about it really at the moment. My biggest concern is just to make sure I am working out in some way so I keep losing weight because I would really like to be at a healthy weight by the end of this year.

As it stands now I am 172 lbs. To reach a healthy BMI I need to get to 164 point something. That is less than 10 lbs off!!! I am so excited about that. Its another milestone that I have never seen before.

Right now I am trying my best to get into my size 12 pants. I have two pair in my closet that have been hanging there since I was about a size 20. The thrift store is great for getting brand new clothes for only like 3 bucks a pair but if you see a pair you like you have to snag them right then,,,, even if you know your 4 sizes off from wearing them... I guess thats where faith comes in. Size 12 seems crazy to me considering that if you had of asked me what my ideal size would be when I was up near 300lbs. I would have said size 14. Size 14 just wont cut it as my final size now though.... it seemed so tiny when I was bigger and now size 14 looks big to me. Its also crazy how your perception changes as you lose weight.

I started decorating for Fall a few days ago. Im so excited that the holidays are approaching. October 1st - Jan 1st is my favorite time of year. Decorating, cooking, entertaining, Halloween, My birthday, my anniversary, The renn faire, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Newyears. Its the best time of year... Such a great feeling about everything.

Still redoing my kitchen. Cabinets are painted and look pretty good... Im just waiting for hubby to tell me when have the funds to do the counters, then paint the walls and celing... then put new lanolium down on the floors. I have so much to do, not enough money and I want to get it all done before thanksgiving.

Stress stress stress... I hardly ever feel it but I feel it slipping in here and there these days. I dont see how these moms that work and have 3 or 4 kids and keep there house clean and take kids to soccer practice and go to PTA meetings ect... do it. WTF. I am over here with two kids under 5, one in school and one not.... I am exausted just trying to keep the house clean, cook a few meals a day, and work on the house a bit. Are these women on crack or something? I geuss I am just really sh*tty at being a Stay at home mom. ::shrugs::

So anyway, not too much going on but enough to where spark people is not getting my full attention and certainly not enough time for food blogs, which I know upsets a few people who really like them. I think I may start posting new recipes and pictures at least once a week up here though. I really want to try a lot of new recipes this year and It would be fun to blog about them as well. That will give the food blog fans a small fix anyway. lol.

I hope everyone is doing great sticking to there healthy goals.... Hopefully come Saturday I will be able to post good news that I have lost some weight. I feel pretty good about this week and I think I deserve a loss after losing zero last week, and gaining two weeks before that.

~ Jess

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BIZENMO 9/17/2010 9:56AM

    Hang in there, Jess! I think you are doing an awesome job!! I have no children, but have been home and trying to help out by doing laundry, dishes, cooking, etc. I have to chuckle cuz I find myself whining when someone hasn't brought all their dishes to the sink and I just dumped the water!!! Ugh! Who wants to leave one dish or a piece of silverware, etc. I can't imagine what it would be like to have all that AND little kids to handle. Wow! My hat is off to all Moms!

What you need to do is take yourself off for the weekend and leave the kids to your husband for a couple of days and see how well HE handles things. ha ha ha Naturally, he won't do it as well as you do, but you will get a break and he will have the opportunity to walk around in YOUR shoes! Maybe he wouldn't think so unkindly to your getting a little relaxation where you can!!! LOL! And, keep in mind, he probably wouldn't be able to "afford" you, if he was to "pay" for all the things you accomplish on a daily basis...assuming you wouldn't have the $$ to do so anyway!

I'd say share how you're feeling and make the suggestion. What have you got to lose except some stress??!! LOL!! Have a great weekend!!!

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MALEXANDER4 9/16/2010 7:54AM

    Glad to see your still holding on. Miss your blogs. I'm a mom that worked and took care of family. We don't do as you think, It isn't a nature occurance. Where you cook, we bring home, you clean, we pickup. Something has to give. Good luck with this saturday's weigh in. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. Michelle.

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PLANSEEKER 9/15/2010 11:49PM

    You should be so proud of yourself getting so close to your goal. I am still a good 25 to 30 pounds away from mine, but am proud of myself just the same. I am actually buying regular pant sizes now and am no longer having to buy women's sizes. My aunt told me I looked like I had lost 20 more pounds by changing to the slimmer cut seat and legs. I bought 18's and 16's today at Good Will and came out feeling so good. I don't know what I would do if thrift shops didn't keep me in clothes. I can't find anything I would be caught dead in at regular retail stores..everything is targeted toward the younger crowd and I am long past that age! I need to bump up my exercise too..have kind of neglected that over the past week or two. When I think back to when I was at my heaviest, I can't believe I am this close to my goal weight. It is recommended that I weigh even less than my goal, but I'm not so sure I want to lose that much...I have a lot of muscle weight that isn't figured into those charts. I will wait and see what I think when I get closer to goal. Keep up the good work and congratulations on your accomplishments so far!

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LOSINGJESS 9/15/2010 1:52PM

    Thanks so much for your comments :-) Its nice to feel appreciated by someone even if it is only by my great spark friends. You guys are so awesome.

I sometimes feel like my husband thinks I sit around all day and do nothing. He gets home and I have to wait on him as well. grrrr! I sit down and say I am tired and he says "why you got a nap today" .... Just because he came home and found me laying on our bed... which was for like 30 minutes because I felt like my eyelids were about to close automaticly.

Sometimes I just want to scream at him and say... "Yes you work all day long and make all the money... but I work all day long too and then have to work all evening long Cooking dinner, helping with homework (kindergarten homework wtf?), cleaning up the kitchen after dinner, Giving the kids a bath, getting them ready for bed, reading them 3 or 4 books, singing them 2 lulubyes a peice (they are so needy but I love it lol) and then he has the nerve to ask me why I never made him a snack while he is sitting playing computer games.

I know my husband must sound horrible after all that but he is a great guy... Im sure most husbands fall into this category.... I just wish he would offer to wash the dishes occasionally after dinner. .... sigh.

I love them all though... even if they drive me a little crazy.

~ Jess

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JESSSPARK 9/15/2010 1:33PM

    Did you try the c25k with some podcasts? It might help. Glad to hear you are getting back into exercise mode, and how amazing that you are so close to your goal healthy weight! :) :) :)

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BHAWKINS00 9/15/2010 12:23PM

  Amen to what Jeanie says above!! We go to work so that we don't have to look at the dirty house, and to have an excuse not to cook! Don't put yourself down when you are truly doing so much. Renovating my kitchen, decorating for fall?!?!?! These are things that may have to wait until I retire!
Hope you get good weight loss news on Saturday - and remember to keep pushing on. You have come so far and are doing great!

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BOVEY63 9/15/2010 12:20PM

    You are doing so awesome in this journey and I know you'll be in those size 12s before you know it.
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I completely agree with SPARKJEANIE1 when it comes to stay at home moms - I have the utmost respect for all of you. I love my sons more than anything in the world, but always knew that I was not cut out to stay at home with them all day - I need to work (no BS here, I need to). I was so blessed to have the most amazing stay at home moms to care for them while I was working. My oldest son (in his first year of college) still calls his first daycare provider "Grandma Ann" and that is just what she is to all of us.

As for getting it all done - we don't. Not only that, you have more to clean up - I didn't have to clean up after them all day, do dishes after breakfast and lunch and entertain them, someone else did. The mess was at their house, not mine. I am now getting most of it done but then I have one son living at college and other one who only spends every other week with me (split custody with dad). When they were younger I was never caught-up.

Have fun with the decorating. I love doing it too - especially now that I live in town and have a great deck to decorate.
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CARLA-216 9/15/2010 11:51AM

    I have no kids and wonder how parents (SAHMs or not) do it! I must not use my time wisely as I feel I never have enough time to do everything AND get some down time in as well. :::sighs:::

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SPARKYJEANIE1 9/15/2010 11:29AM

    Jess, Jess, Jess...

You are no way near a sh**ty stay at home mom...Let me let you in a little secret...us moms that have 3 kids that do work 40hrs/wk go to work to ESCAPE!!!!!! lmao - no joking. Girl, being a stay at home mom is the world's toughest job of all! I mean, being there slaving all day in the house doing chore after chore especially with having a wee one there in the house with you all day that requires 100% of your attention, - I tell you I take my hat off to YOU!! And so do so many ppl here!!! We don't know how YOU do it!

You got me in the spirit of fall as well - thanks again for all the yummy recipies!!! I can practically smell it cooking already!

The thrift store has become a frequent haunt of mine. I love how you are so super motivated and bought 12's even at a size 20! Well, you got that little white dress to fit - remember???? It'll just be a matter of time that those 12's will be falling off ya and you'll be buying 9's!! Yes, you WILL!

If the run doesn't happen, don't sweat it. You'll have plenty more opportunities to get out there. Look at all you've been up to! I say you've probably accomplished several runs worth of calorie burning with all that crazy activity you've been doing at home!


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Holiday Recipes.... awesome but may not be low in calories

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I sent these recipes to a friend this morning on spark... I thought that maybe a few of you may want to check them out too. They are such good recipes I cant keep them all to myself. You may be able to make substututions to make them more weight friendly but as of now they are full fat.... In my personal oppion, thanksgiving and christmas are two days out of the year.... why not eat really great food without guilt and then get back on track the very next meal. My Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners last year were horrible as far as calories go... but I lost weight durring last holiday season. brag brag brag.... kidding... anywhoo If you want to use them go ahead... make sure you tell me if you liked them though.

UPSIDE-DOWN TURKEY ( www.ehow.com )

NOTE: this turkey is moist, loaded with flavor and juicy but also has the picture perfect golden brown color everyone wants on a holiday turkey.

Things you'll need

* 12 lb. turkey, thawed if bought frozen
*2 cloves garlic
*2 tbsp. chopped fresh basil
*1/2 tsp. fresh marjoram, chopped
*1/2 tsp. fresh rosemary, chopped
*1/2 tsp. salt
*1/2 tsp. freshly ground black pepper
*1/2 tsp. fresh thyme, chopped
*6 tbsp. unsalted butter, softened
*2c. dry white wine
*chicken stock for basting


1. Rinse the turkey inside and out. Pat dry with paper towels.

2. Combine garlic, herbs, salt and pepper, along with softened butter, in the bowl of a food processor. Pulse for a few seconds until mixture is well-combined and set aside.

3. slip your hand under the turkey skin and break the membranes that hold it to the body. Smear most, but not all of the herb butter under the skin and directly on the meat.

5. Stuff the turkey loosely and close the flap with skewers. Spread the rest of the herb butter over the turkey skin.

6. Butter a roasting rack and place it in a shallow roasting pan. Place the turkey breast side down on the rack ......

NOTE: I did not have a roasting rack so I used about 6 or 7 ribs of celery placed along the bottom of the turkey. Keeps the turkey elevated off of the bottom of the pan so it wont stick and adds another layer of flavor to the turkey broth when you go to make gravy.

7. Pour the wine in the roasting pan under the turkey.

8. Roast the turkey basting every 15 minutes with stock. making sure that the liquid in the roasting pan does not evaporate. Anticipate 12 minutes of cooking time per pound of turkey.

9. About and hour before the turkey is done, remove the turkey from the oven and turn it breast side up.

NOTE: may want another persons help to do this, its a bit tricky. armed with a carving fork and knife you can usually skewer it and turn it pretty easy though.

10. Return the turkey to the oven and roast until a meat thermometer inserted in the thickest part of the thigh registers 180 degrees F.

NOTE: Alot of the herbs were a bit pricey so some of them I used dried... you may have to adjust measurements but just use your best judgment.



Prep Time: 20 min
Cook: Time: 55min
Serves 6 with leftovers


*4 tbls. butter, unsalted
* 1 large Onion, Finely diced
* 2 cups chopped celery
* 3 - 4 Coarsely chopped leeks (if you have never used these before they are really good but make sure you wash them really well, they have alot of sandy grit in between the stalks)
* 2 Large apples, peeled, cored and chopped
* 1/2 lb - 1 lbs. Breakfast sausage or italian sausage, casings removed
* 3 tsp. poultry seasoning
* 1 teaspoons chopped fresh rosemary leaves
* 1 tsp. chopped fresh sage leaves
1 tsp. chopped fresh parsley leaves
1 cup dried cranberries
1 bag stuffing mix ( not cornbread) (recommended: Pepperidge farm)
1 - 1 1/2 cups vegetable stock
Salt and freshly ground black pepper



Preheat oven to 350 degrees. F

Melt the butter in a large skillet and saute the onions, celery, leeks, apples and sausage. Breaking up the sausage as you cook. After about 10 minutes add the poultry seasoning, fresh herbs and dried cranberries. Add the dried stuffing mix and moisten with the vegetable stock. Season stuffing mix with salt and pepper to taste. (If you like your stuffing dryer or moister add less or more stock. I like mine a little on the dryer side, so I think this amount of stock reflects that)

Place into a buttered casserole dish and bake for 45 minutes.



Great appetizer.... used this one at Christmas and everyone was so full from eating them before the meal no one really wanted much of the meal lol.


serves 4 - prep time: 25 min


1 can Pillsbury refrigerated crescent rolls
4oz Philadelphia cream cheese
8 slices of oven roasted turkey breast lunch meat (sliced thin)
1/4 cup dried cranberries, chopped


1. heat oven to 350*. Unroll dough, and separate into rectangles (two triangles together). Press the seam of the two triangles together sealing it to make a uniformed rectangle.

2. spread 2 tbls. of cream cheese on dough within 1/2 inch of edge.

3. sprinkle with 1/8 cup of chopped dried cranberries, and place two turkey slices on each rectangle.

4. start from short side and roll up rectangle; press seam to seal. cut roll into six slices. Place cut side down on ungreased cookie sheet.

5. bake for 14 - 16 minutes or until light golden brown. serve warm

CHANGE FLAVOR: replace cream cheese and cranberries with Philadelphia white cheddar with roasted red pepper cracker spread or Parmesan with garlic and herbs cracker spread.

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GRANDMAAMIE 9/16/2010 1:10PM

    emoticoni'm ready emoticon

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SARAHJ19 9/15/2010 11:50AM

    oh my gosh, now I want a turkey dinner! That looks yummy! I am going to try the turkey recipe! Thanks! emoticon

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Update & Fall game plan!

Thursday, September 02, 2010

I am feeling much better about today then I have about every other day for the past two weeks. I think that's because I actually got in a workout today. I have really been avoiding it... for no other reason than pure laziness.

My sister suggested that we go out and start C25k this morning. She wants to run the 5k I was considering running in November. It will be her first 5k. This was the first time she has ever run.... she use to be really big (over 350lbs) and was unable to do anything like this before, but now that she is down between 220-230 I think she feels she can do alot more. It was nice sharing in this moment with her and gave me a good excuse to get out and start moving again. It was a good workout and starting back to running (have not ran once since my last 5k in june) was alot easier than I thought it would be.

I ate really well today... I tracked all my food (something I have not done very well in the last two weeks) and I feel like I'm on that right track again.


Right now I am indulging in a treat that I have been looking forward to all day. I'm drinking a cup of suger free apple cider and eating a small rice crispy treat. OH MY GOD... its so buttery. lol. I had to share.

I'm really feel fall approaching. My favorite season. I love everything about fall, including Halloween, my birthday and my baby girls birthday, which is two days before mine and christmas. ..... Even though Christmas is technically in winter I consider fall running from September up until christmas day. After that there is nothing to look forward to except the bleak damp winter. yuck!

Fall is great.... except for a few food pitfalls that I have to watch out for. Lets see, first off is egg nog! .... I love love love egg nog, and that includes the pumpkin flavored egg nog that they come out with around thanksgiving. Right before I started living healthier back when I was 270 lbs, from November through New Years I ended up drinking a half gallon of egg nog every two days.... and ended up gaining 20 pounds in a month. Its like crack. .............. I did really good last year, I told myself that I was going to have egg nog on christmas eve and that's it, and I stuck to it. I got a 20oz container and mixed it with half 2% milk to stretch it and stuck to having it on that one day. It worked out well and was really satisfying and so that's what I plan to do again.

Another fall problem I have is I get in a freakin martha stewart, food network bake-a-holic trance where all I want to do is bake every day. I did a fair amount of baking last year but ended up packing up everything I made and sending it home with relatives.... which is bad for them but kept me in the clear. I really dont want to do that to them of course and I dont want to feed all that junk to my kids either so I think I am going to again stick to a few things baked at specific times. Its gonna be really hard but I am going to do my best.

For Lyra's 2nd birthday I am getting one of the little round cakes... you know the ones that are prob 4 small slices. We have been doing the tiny cakes on birthdays and its been working really well. That way everyone still has cake (although I usually pass because I get regular cake and I dont like regular cake) but we dont have leftovers tempting us. If we had leftover birthday cake I would end up picking at it, even if I dont like it that much.

For my birthday I chose to go out to eat and get one slice of cake and share it with my husband and kids. There is a diner near out house that has Gyros (my fave food) and HUGE slices of cheesecake!!! I LOVE CHEESECAKE!!! It is my absolute favorite but instead of eating it freaquently like I use to I make that my birthday tradition and it makes it taste so much better. So yes that is one slice of cheese cake per year.... wow I am so strong now. lol. They have pumpkin cheesecake at the diner we go to, so Im combining my favorite season with my favorite desert! I am so looking forward to November 20th! Yum!

I did well last fall, I picked a few days where I was going to eat what I wanted but not over do it and I ended up losing weight over the holidays.... that is a first! I hope to continue with the trend this year. I am pretty confident that with my plan in place I will do really well.

So I'm excited and but still a little scared as well. Anyone eles have some good holiday strats? If you dont have your plan in place yet, you should think about it. Its really hard to fall back into bad habits around the holidays, so you gotta forsee whats comming and think of how you will handle it before it gets here. :-)

~ Jess

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JADENTEX 9/5/2010 2:11PM

    Two things. First, tackle the challenge of making your baked goods healthier. Like using Splenda instead of sugar and substituting apple sauce for oil. Make more breads. Apple breads, banana breads, pumpkin breads. And you can make your baking days like a really big event with your kids/family instead of an every day batch. Make some cider, put in a Christmas movie or CD, have the kids make decorations, etc. If you pick two things to health-ify and make it an event, then that may help you keep from baking every day. Also: CANDLES. That way the house smells fresh-baked with zero calories!

Eggnog: Silk used to make a soy egg nog that tasted a lot lighter. I didn't see it last year, so I hope they still make it! I'll definitely be looking for it. My husband hated it, but I actually preferred it to regular egg nog.

Your blog makes me feel all festive now, even though it's still in the 90s here in Texas. emoticon

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SUSANHGREENE 9/3/2010 4:25PM

    I'm gonna have to try that with the eggnog - my husband doesn't like it so I end up drinking every drop all by myself!!! Of course I don't complain but I sure don't need to do that! I'm also trying to think ahead to plan for the fall - like you, I love holiday baking and I'm trying to think of some healthier treats I can make this year. You have a great plan - thanks for sharing!


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SARAHJ19 9/3/2010 11:10AM

    Sounds like you have an awesome plan for this fall! I need to get my plan going now!

My daughters birthday is 2 days before mine too! Fall is my favorite season! Pumpkin patch, Halloween, my birthday, Lexi's birthday, Thanksgiving! I love going apple picking with my hubby and girls! It will be Lexi's first time going! I am so excited!

I am going to try your pumpkin pie recipe! That sounds so good! That is one of my favorite desserts!!!

Great plan for fall! Good luck with your c25k training! emoticon emoticon

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AMBERADAMS1 9/3/2010 10:40AM

    I've been thinking about the holiday season too b/c I'm a big holiday baker also. I'll be giving most of mine away this year too. I'll just enjoy the smell it leaves in my house. :-) I also plan to keep my eating as normal as possible except on the actual day of each holiday. I'm not going to use "tis the season" as an excuse to binge every day. But, come Thanksgiving and Christmas day, all bets are off! LOL Good luck, Jess!

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LOSINGJESS 9/3/2010 9:59AM

    I discovered a great cure for the pumpkin pie problem a few days ago. .... You have to try it!!!

You mix up a box of sugar free vanilla pudding - use skim milk

mix in 1/2 a can of pumpkin

fold in 1/2 - 1 container of fat free or light cool whip


OMG! It tastes just like pumpkin pie with whipped cream. I made this and my whole family loved it. Im planning on putting it in a nice bowl and serving it at Thanksgiving instead of pumpkin pie.

Not sure the calorie count but I know its gotta be way less than the real thing.

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KMARTIN9061 9/3/2010 8:36AM

    You made me LOL at --- Eggnog being like crack ... it really, really is! You're same troubles seem to be just like mine ... baking, birthday cakes, CHEESECAKE, and Eggnog! LOL. Also added to my list are - Halloween candy, pumpkin pie, and Thanksgiving Dinner .... this should be an interesting year... :)

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MALEXANDER4 9/3/2010 7:18AM

    I love this blog. Congrats on setting goals. I just go with it. I'm not a big baker, so no trouble there.

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FLYSOHIGH 9/3/2010 2:04AM

    Planning ahead, I see!:-) Awesome success with the egg nogg last year! Very inspiring!

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When Life Gets In The Way

Saturday, August 28, 2010

I have not really been on spark in a week. I know alot of my spark friends have been wondering where I am ... thanks for checking up on me. I have not fallen off the edge of the world though. Im still here.

This past week has been a bit rough. I really let life get in the way of my healthy eating and exercise. I did not get on spark people hardly at all, hell I hardly got online. I did not work out at all... not even once and even though I did not binge or eat horribly IMO I didn't track anything, ate alot of convience foods and really did not think about what I was putting in my mouth.

I suppose this happens. The important thing is I am getting back on track now and I only gained 2 pounds as a result of my bad week. I can easily make up for that this week if I work at it.

Well this past week Aiden my 5 year old started Kindergarten. We went to open house on monday, only to find out that he was not enrolled at all! I went to a meeting at the end of the last school year, he was transfering from another preschool to the elementary school near our house. They were suppose to take care of all of the enrolling and everything and never did. The lady at the desk was a total B face to me and no one seemed to care. To make matters worse after we did finally get him enrolled the next day they dropped the bomb that he would not be able to ride the school bus because they cant add new routes for 30 days. I threw a big fit and got the principle envolved and they finally let him catch the bus at a stop down the road a little ways untill they can add a new route close to our house.

So his first day was friday and I had to walk him to the bus stop before the sun came up... we had to walk through peoples yards because there is no side walks on our street and our feet were soaked by the time we got there. I had to call his teacher and ask her to change his socks when he got to school.

Then the whole day I worried about if he was doing ok. If he found his class ok, if the kids were being nice to him or if he got the cap off his thermos of milk at lunch.... stupid crap I should not be worried about. Its hard letting him go... last year was only two days a week so it wasn't so bad. I guess its gonna take some getting use to. Part of me is so proud of him as he gets older but the other part never wants him to grow up.

Other stresses this week included my X husband calling Child Protective Services on me saying I was beating my son and not feeding him to the point of starvation. This will be the 3rd time he has called them on me in two years, not including when he called the police on me saying I was killing my child.... when they came that time they would not even tell me why they were called untill they were allowed into my house to see if my son was ok. 3 cop cars and a K9 unit were called....what a mess I cant even do anything about it... they said that no matter how many times he calls and the allications are found to be false they still have to come check it out and there is nothing anyone can do to him for calling. I really cant stand my X!

Im working on getting signed up for college because I am planning on going back to school this comming spring so I had to go up to the school and fill out a bunch of stuff. I was going to start this fall but I got things in a little late. I have always wanted to go to college for art but never went right out of high school. I told my parents I needed a break and would go back next year. Next year never happened though and that was 10 years ago. My main reasons for not going was I was scared and I got tied up with boyfriends. Stupid reasons I know. ..... Im going to be starting a fine arts transfer program at community college and then from there Im planning on transfering to a 4 year college. By that time Lyra should be starting school so it wont be that big of a deal. Comminuty college is nice because you can work around having a family. Im really excited to start.

I have also been working on my kitchen. Im starting with painting the cabinets and then moving on to repainting the walls, replacing the floor and the counter tops... ect. The cabinets are in bad shape and there is alot of prep work before I can paint them... plus I have to work around taking care of the kids at the same time... Its alot of work but Im hoping that it will look nice when I get done.

Anyway, thats just the stuff I can think of off the top of my head... I usually dont let life get in the way but I had alot on my plate this week. I know I need to find ways to manage stress though and still take care of myself.

This coming week will be much better.

~ Jess

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SPARKYJEANIE1 8/30/2010 3:42PM

    GOSH!! Sounds like a terrible, horrible, very bad, no good kinda week!!!!!!!!!

OK this is for your X: emoticon (except there's only 1 finger pointing up in my version of this pic)...dude...how the heck could he dare say all that crap???!! Obviously you are a good a$$ mama....and hellloooo...starving and beating your kids...??! I bet your hubby has a tough time biting his tongue over all this stupid crap!! I know how ex's can be...I have one I've been dealing with since my son was 2 - it's been 12 yrs and thankfully, our situation got a bit easier to deal with (for the most part) over the years. It's sooooooo hard though. What a friggin LOSER...how bout MOVE ON BUDDY and find something to DO in life other than harrassing your ex!! Sorry, Jess! {{{hugs}}}

Life has a tendency to grab us in a chokehold every once in a while, huh. AND that B in the office at your boy's school...here's one for her too.... emoticon (take THAT beezy!!) lol What a friggin DRAG!! I'm happy finally everything was straightened out...and worrying about whether Aiden got the lid off his thermos? TOTALLY and COMPLETELY normal, from one mama to another! I've worried about practically EVERYTHING!! And cried when I dropped off all my babies after I walked away from them in kindergarten. (of course they don't know this haha). It's gonna be ok. This too, shall pass...and in 10 years when both Layla and Aiden are big, you'll wish you had only thermos lids to worry about instead of teenage stuff. One day you'll look back and laugh at this. I promise.

Good luck with school...I know you'll do great, and it'll be something for YOU...no one can take that from ya, love!

Hope this week is MUCH MUCH MUCH better =)

I missed the hell outta ya!

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RUTHANNE100 8/29/2010 10:12PM

    Quite a week....but it sounds like you're facing things head-on. Good for you. And starting up college--that's awesome!! What fun for you to be able to show your degree to your kids one day.

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IMAGINE_IT 8/29/2010 4:05PM

    What an awful and stressful week you had....try and get your routine back..and stay positive..things will get better...hopefully your Ex will see how wrong he is and leaves you alone with those horrible allegations. emoticon

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CHOCMOM 8/29/2010 3:15PM

  We all have weeks like this, but you know the key is not letting them stop us, and not letting them turn into months (like I did this past Spring). You will be fine - I see a very strong young woman in front of me. I wish I had had half your strength and courage when I was your age. Keep on moving forward in your life. emoticon emoticon

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MG3KDZ 8/29/2010 10:09AM

    Aw.. my little girl just stated kinder and I can relate to all those feelings..We went to our meet and greet and they had put her in a third grade class..CRAZY...I know my baby is smart but come on..lol..As for your x, it is a bummer that u can't do anything legally but he will eventually get investigated himself..Because I can't see that the state will put up with all the false allegations if each and every time the children are found to be in clean and healthy conditions..I wish you the best of luck and a wonderful and happier week:-)

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JADENTEX 8/29/2010 1:29AM

    An awful, horrible week, and yet... you're still moving forward! Signing up for college is awesome; I wish I could! You're an awesome positive role model. Keep moving forward!

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BECKYCOLVIN 8/29/2010 12:49AM

    Wow, you have had quite a week! It's a good reminder that it's easy to slip back into "easy" and "convenient" even when you've made major changes in your life! I've been having a lot of that recently, (haven't recorded my nutrition on SP all week). I have to remind myself that I still have a ways to go on my journey and that I care enough about my health to do the healthy things. I'm glad you're recognizing the triggers for yourself. Take care of you this next week! :)

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JESSSPARK 8/28/2010 11:22PM

    Wow your ex sounds like a real tool- I can only assume karma will have her way with him eventually! I'm sure this week will be a better one! :)

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JUST_SIMONE 8/28/2010 10:18PM

    I'm glad your X is an X! You don't need people like that in your life any more than you have to. I think a lot of people are struggling with change of routine now that schools are starting up. You can do this though, you've been so successful, and we all get shaken up now and then, but the important part is getting back to our healthy rountines. Good for you for making some college plans too!

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MORGANLAFEE 8/28/2010 10:18PM

    What a nasty man and horrible Father your X is. Good for you going to college. I gained 6 pounds last weekend while in Vermont at my Granddaughter's wedding but have lost it again.

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LOSINGJESS 8/28/2010 10:09PM

    thanks for all the encoragment guys.... Im so lucky to have friends like you, just a keyboard away. :-)

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MICHCLEARY 8/28/2010 10:05PM

    Good for you for pursuing your dreams of going to college. That will be a good role model for your kids as opposed to what your X is doing. That is crap that they can't do anything about that. You should ask an attorney if you can file a civil suit against him for slander & libel. That would shut him up! Especially now that there is police evidence that you had done nothing wrong.

Hope you have a better week. Sometimes you just need to focus on one day at at time.

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CALLIKIA 8/28/2010 9:47PM

    Life happens and I'm sure with the healthy habits you've established you didn't go completely off track! Putting that little one on the bus must've been hard, though. And the X sounds like a real piece of work (good for you that he's an X!). *hugs* to you girl! Know that we'll be here when you're ready and able to come back. Know that we're rooting for you even when you're not here. You have come so far and still inspire me each and every day!

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MALEXANDER4 8/28/2010 9:47PM

    Funny I was thinking about you during my walk this evening. I hadn't heard from you and was wondering if you were ok. I'm glad your fine. I had a gain this week myself of 2.6 pounds so I understand about life getting in our way. It woke me up to reality and i'm back on the ww wagon this week. Your babies are growing up and that is always hard. My baby is 21 but I still worry. That is our job as moms. I hope your kitchen turns out fine. i'm sure it will. that should keep your hands plenty busy. Think of the exercise you'll be getting from the painting and such. Have a wonderful evening. Michelle.

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MELISSA5824 8/28/2010 9:43PM

    life can get in the way sometimes. i try not to let it get to me. life is something to deal with every day. i try to keep in touch with those who are an important part of my life.i am so glad that i do not have someone in my life like your x-husband. he sounds like a terrible person. sorry to hear that he did that to you and what happened to you and your son this week. you will get through this,one day at a time. anytime you need some support,encouragement, motivation or even just to vent, i am here for you. have a good day.

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