Sunday, August 02, 2009
well this past week payed off... I was really good, I only ate a few of my weekly flex points and exercised almost every day for 20minutes - 1 hour.
I stepped on the scale yesterday and got the best number I have had since starting.... 6.6 pounds! I really don't think I lost that much, I will prob see the rebound this week but it felt great seeing that number on the scale.
230.2 ..... wow, it almost seems unreal. When I think about myself I feel like I weigh 260 something for some reason, Its hard to wrap my head around being in the 220s because when I started at 273 pounds that just seemed impossible to me for some reason. I think its because the 220s are so so close to under 200 pounds and I havent been there in so long I think I had just given up on ever getting to my goal. Sad but true.
I'm so excited and happy. So far I have lost around 43 pounds!!!! It feels awesome and really drives me to keep going.
My husband has lost close to 75 pounds since the first of the year and I'm so proud of him. It's amazing losing weight together because when we started dating 4 years ago we were both bigger than we are now ..... so this is the smallest we have ever seen each other, its like discovering a new person every day. Noticing cheek bones or hips or how we can now wrap our arms around each other and do so many new things in the bedroom that I wont go into.... Its nice though and it makes me happy that he is so much healthier. When he was up at 330 pounds when we started I was getting so scared for his health, he dident look good or feel good, kept having chest pains (which is not good for anyone, expecially someone who is only 27 years old). I'm happy that our kids will never know the unhealthy parents we use to be.
I wish I could inspire the rest of our family to start living healthier lives as well but I geuss people can only change, when they make that choice.
Friday, July 31, 2009
I took one of the spark people quizs today about what kind of diet personality I have and it said I was a portion distorter. I geuss I can totaly aggree with that because before changing my lifestyle I had a major problem with overeating.... you know you eat and eat and then you get to that full point but the food tastes and looks really good and you gotta clear the whole plate..... then afterwards you end up feeling like a stuffed turkey, your so full you feel like your gonna burst at the seams or just plain throw up. ...... I have to say I went there alot!
I really enjoy food, I geuss you could say Im a foodie.... or at least I would be if I could afford to be. I like really good food and Im not satisfied with average. It makes it kinda hard to eat out because Im never satisfied with anything I get so luckly most of the food I eat is what I cook myself. I geuss that fact makes it easier to make better choices though.
I have to say even though I have gotten better at eating smaller portions (now I use a medium size plate instead of a dinner plate, got some cute ones on sale from IKEA), and I can control myself if I go to a buffet (only getting a small taste of the bad stuff I really like and choosing normal size portions from the foods Ive determinded are heatlhy options) I still struggle with it sometimes. I sometimes just have this urge to keep eating.... knowing while Im doing it, the sensasion of chewing the food and swallowing feels really good even though I know I would feel like crap emotionaly and physically afterwards. I really have to sit myself down and have a serious conversation with myself about how far I have come and how Im not going back just because I wanna sit down with an entire pack of chips ahoy and eat the whole thing..... (chips ahoy dont come into my house ... lol)
You know with some aspects of being fat .... like this type of desire to eat.... its really like an addiction. I have to say my obsession with eating has to be the closest I have come to being addicted to anything (other than world of warcraft quite a few months ago, I swear I could have quit at any time though... lol). I think it will always be a mental battle to keep my weight in check even after I manage to get to a healthy weight. I geuss thats soemthing Im just going to have to deal with.
I was really good though the last few days. I wanted soemthing sweet yesterday, I wanted something really good... really bad! So I went to target and they had the bulk candy bins there, the kind with the bags and the scoop ... the kind that cost 8 bucks a pound! yikes.
Me and Andrew got for each of us, 1 malted milk ball, 1 chocolate covered raisin, 1 french burnt peanut candy, and 1 jordan almond. We had it on a little dish with dinner and it was only like a point for it and it satisfied me. I have found that if I can eat a square of chocolate now and be good, it actually tastes better than eating a whole bag..... that second bite is never as good as the first. Its not the same as the feeling you get from eating all that but its a better feeling and you feel good afterwards, ....... strong.........in control.........healthy........ happy. :-)
Its hard but its worth it.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
well me and hubby went out tonight for the first time in a while. Ah no kids, just us.
We went to the movies to see harry potter. I have to say I really liked this one, I was a little dispointed, I cant help it, the movies just dont compare with the books at all...... It was one of the better of the movie series though.
Me and Andrew got a small popcorn and I only had about 1/2 a cup. Andrew loves movie theater popcorn and its something he dosent get to often so I was proud that he only got a small bag.
After the movie we were starving because we knew we wanted to go out to eat afterwards so we only ate a cup of cereal and 1/2 cup of milk for breakfast and a salad for lunch. I wanted to save as many points as I could.
I planned what we were going to get before we left, calculated all the points so we wouldent do bad. We were so prepared. We went to Olive Garden and got the new chicken crostini meal that they have been advertising all over TV. We got one plate and split it, Slit the salad which was plain with light ranch on the side and had 2 bread sticks a peice. Then we got desert which was fresh berries with itaillan custard on top (only 5 points)..... we split that too.
It was awesome.... a little points heavy still compared to what we normaly have for dinner, like 20 points with desert..... but managable. We only spent 25 dollars on dinner as well.... something that would have cost $50.00 if we had of both got our own plates.
Oh and to put things into perpective, Im stuffed.... I totaly could have done without desert .... the entree was pretty huge even split in half... more than we normaly eat for dinner.
Why dident we do this all along.... why dont all people split meals when they go to sit down places...... its has so many great benifits!!!
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