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Wednesday 5/21/10 photo food journal & update

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Im having a tough time tonight... I have desided I am done for the day though with my eating. I want to eat more... because I feel like crap mentaly and physically but Im not hungry so I have desided not to.

My baby just cried and cried today because shes sick... and Im sick too and she kept me up all night long... I could have really gone for some good old fashioned emotional eating today but I resisted and kept myself on track.

I would like to say I got a workout in too... but I dident. :-( I totaly flaked on the workout because I feel like Im going to snap already and I dont even want to think about it... I know I would prob feel better afterwards but right now that dosent make me want to jump up and do it anymore.

Hopefully I will feel better tomorow and get a good workout in to make up for the lack of one today... But besides maybe eating too many snacks with nutella involved and maybe one more serving of veggies that Im lacking.. I think I did pretty well today.

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Breakfast: 1 cup cooked plain oatmeal, with 1/2 tbls brown sugar, 1 tbls raisins, spray butter..... Strawberry smoothy with 1 cup frozen strawberries, 1/4 cup plain yogurt, 1/2 cup milk, tsp ground flax seed & tbls splenda - 363 calories


Lunch: 1/2 can progresso clam chowder (maybe not the best of choices but I was craving some), 15 wheat thins: 330 calories


Snack: Orange push pop: 90 calories


snack: 1/2 sandwich thin and 1 tbls nutella... (because I knew the push pop was not gonna cut it as a snack): 145 calories


Dinner: Parmesan crusted tilapia & 1 tbls or so ketchup, 1/2 cup peas, small salad with 2 tbls regular ranch dressing, 1/2 cup mac and cheese made with whole wheat rotini and ragu cheese sauce : 599 calories


Snack: 1 graham cracker, 1 tbls nutella: 120 calories


Total for the day: 1652 calories

  
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CHARANN3 4/22/2010 7:43AM

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MSNIKE 4/22/2010 1:22AM

    This makes me want to try Nutella! Thanks for sharing :)

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BANANNA38 4/22/2010 12:17AM

    Oh, I LOVE Nutella but haven't had it in a few years!!! Thank goodness there is none in the house or else I might be eating it out of the jar. Chocolate and hazelnuts are an amazing combo!

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MALEXANDER4 4/21/2010 11:02PM

    Love this journal. Great thinking.

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NICKANOODLE 4/21/2010 10:31PM

    Ugh! So sorry you and baby girl aren't feeling well! That's so hard when they're up all night crying....I know the feeling! Hope you feel guys feel better soon! Love the food picture journal, that's a great idea.

Nicky

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Tuesday 5/20/10 photo food diary

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Yesterdays total calories came up to 1689 which is much better than the day before. I really love this way of keeping track of my food because I can just take a picture of it and then at the end of the day write everything down while scanning through the pictures. This has really kept me from nibbling too, I had alot of moments where I wanted to put something in my mouth that I shouldent have and I rethought it because I dident want to have to snap a picture of a bite of my kids leftovers or a peice of easter candy... Im staying on track better than I have in a long time.

I had a hard time finding the time to fit a workout in yesterday with the kids being sick and all... I got in 10 minutes in one segment and 20 minutes in another segment yesterday... I ended up doing squats and leg lifts while doing dishes last night and then I did sit ups, pushups and lunges while I was watching the biggest loser last night.

Here is what I ate yesterday

Breakfast: 2 slices double fiber bread, zero cal spray butter, 1/2 tbls strawberry preserves, 1 tbls nutella, 1/2 banana, 1/2 cup 1% milk - 338



Lunch: panini w/ wheat sandwich thin, 1/8 cup shredded 2% cheddar cheese, roasted red peppers & turkey.... 1 small apple..... 1/2 can light chicken noodle soup - 393



snack - hummus & wheat thins - 200 calories



snack - green tea w/ splenda and one lemon wedge - 1 calorie



Dinner - Gnocchi w/ red peppers, onions, alfredo sauce and itallian turkey sausage... steam fresh lightly sauced broccoli carrots, cauliflower and cheese sauce.... bread stick - 578 calories



Snack - 1 waffle cone & 1/2 cup coffee fudge brownie ice cream




Yum!!!

  
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MSNIKE 4/22/2010 1:24AM

    This is really a great idea! Keep at it!

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BIZENMO 4/21/2010 8:11PM

    You are doing so fantastic!! I like your blog...love the pics!
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JESSSPARK 4/21/2010 6:29PM

    looks super tasty, and has me craving nutella..

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HULLAF 4/21/2010 5:43PM

    I like this idea and might just have to try it! ;)

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What I ate today Photo Food Dairy 5/19/10 - lots of pics :-)

Monday, April 19, 2010

I desided that doing a photo food diary would maybe keep me on track a little better today and I was right... I did awesome today and came in right at the top of my calorie range.... I think tomorow I will try to plan out a little better what I eat so I maybe come in midrange.

I got my workout in this afternoon... Biggest loser bootcamp. ..... I was really tired and dident want to do it but I did it and felt much better afterwards.... :-)

Well here is what I ate today ~

Breakfast : around 6:00am

1 fried egg, 2 slices turkey bacon and 1 light wheat english muffin with zero calorie butter spray and trader joes strawberry jam. It looks alot more greasy than it was, expecially after I blotted the bacon with a paper towel.



Snack : around 8:30am

breyer's 1/2 the fat coffee chocolate brownie ice cream and waffle cone .... Maybe not the best mid morning snack but I bought it last night and dident eat any because I was over on my calories already.


Lunch: 12:15pm

Salad with red peppers, mushrooms, bacon bits, turkey lunch meat and sweet onion dressing



Snack: 1 small apple & 1/2 oz dry roasted peanuts 3:00pm



Snack: Lipton caramel truffle tea, 2 tsps splenda & 1 lemon wedge 3:30pm



Dinner: 1 slice lasagna, 1 bread stick, 3/4 cup whole green beans 5:00pm



Snack: 2 squares Ikea dark chocolate 6:00pm



Snack: 1/2 Can progresso light meatball soup, 15 sun chips 8:30pm



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Well that was my day emoticon Im planning on having just as good, if not better tomorow!!!

Sweet dreams

~ Jess emoticon

  
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LEAHANNE1989 4/20/2010 1:36PM

    Sweet val onion dressing my fav.

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COOKIES4MONSTER 4/20/2010 8:24AM

    That's a great idea! I love the photos; it keeps you accountable.

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WATCHMEGO2 4/20/2010 8:21AM

    mmmm, I love sweet onion dressing especially on spinach salad

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MIGHTYFINEWINE 4/20/2010 8:09AM

    That salad looks so delicious! I love photo food diaries!

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SKINNYJENNYBY10 4/20/2010 7:42AM

    Food Dairys allll ways make me so much hungry!!!!!

Yummmy!

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JESSSPARK 4/19/2010 10:26PM

    nomnomnom. That's some good looking food!

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wake up call

Friday, April 16, 2010

well I weighed in this morning and although I had already eaten breakfast and had not used the bathroom yet I weighed 4.4 pounds more than I did last week.

Its really amazing how much you can gain in just one week, I wish it was that easy to lose.

It really shows me though that its very easy to gain it all back and its very easy to slip back into old habits.

Im glad I desided to weigh myself this week... Im glad I dident wait untill next month because It would have prob been devestating if I had of gone a few more weeks like this.

Gaining 4 1/2 pounds sucks but Im going to turn this into a positive... Im going to use this as a huge learning expereince and a wake up call to myself. If I do what I have been doing Im gonna continue to gain weight... and I would rather stay the same than gain. Im going to go back to doing exactly what I was doing before and stop all the little things that have got me in the downward spiral I have been in for the last couple weeks.


-things I will not do-

* I will not eat out more than twice a month!
* I will not nibble mindlessly throughout the day
* I will not obsess about how much I lose or gain on the scale
* I will not make excuses when It comes to my workouts


-things I will do-

* I will make smart and healthy choices when I do deside to eat out... which means no more buffets!
* I will put everything I eat on a plate and sit down to eat it
* I will plan out my meals and not let myself get to hungrey
* I will workout at least 20 minutes a day - 5 Days per week
* I will drink 8 glasses of water per day
* I will write in my blog every day to keep myself accountable
* I will write down everything that I put in my mouth!!!

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Im going to turn this into a possitive and by next month I will be back to the weight I was at last week and the month after that hopefully I will be in the 180's..... but if Im not Im not going to go crazy.

Have a great friday everyone!!!

~ Jess emoticon

  
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BECKYCOLVIN 4/20/2010 4:29PM

    Jess--
I look at my friends' SparkPages every once in a while, and I noticed your weight was just slightly up. (I've gained 3-5 lbs in the last few weeks, too, which is frustrating because it put me back up over 200 again.)
I also am having to reassess, figure out what I've been doing wrong, and get back on track before losing any more ground. Like you said, even if I'm not LOSING weight, I certainly don't want to gain any more. If maintaining is all I can manage right now, then that's what I'll do.

Keep it up!
Becky

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BIZENMO 4/20/2010 12:04PM

    I love how you never get so far down that you can't pick yourself up, brush yourself off and figure out some other way to conquer your goals! You are simply AMAZING!! Keep it up, Girlfriend!!! You CAN do this....YOU WILL SUCCEED!!!
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SPARKYJEANIE1 4/16/2010 3:20PM

    Aw, Jess -

You're so amazing! I love how you're always able to target what may not be going so well with your routine and you switch it up, and aren't scared to do so! You're fearless - and that 180lbs range will appear right before you eyes before you know it! You look amazing to me, already!
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I can totally identify with the whole eating out-thing. I caught myself eating out twice this week already because I procrastinated in grocery shopping, and I really felt bad about it, although I didn't overdo it - guess that's the trick. Knowing when to say "when" and keeping all that to a minimum.
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I think your new goal of 20 minutes 5x/wk will make a ginormous impact. Remember to keep nice and hydrated since summer's around the corner and it just helps in general to flush out all the bad stuff.

Chin up, lovebug! I think you're MARVELOUS!!! Keep up the wonderful work and try to cut yourself some slack. After all, none of us became overweight overnight, so it'll take some time to get to where we need to - BUT GIRL, we WILL make it there!!!!

*hugs*
Jeanie

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YESITSDEB 4/16/2010 11:11AM

    You'll get back on track - no worries! You've got the plan and we know you've got the motivation and ability to make it happen. Go get em. emoticon

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BECKS79 4/16/2010 11:10AM

    It is good to have a plan and to figure out where and what went wrong .. sometimes reality checks are what we need! Great job recognizing and making things into a positive! Keep up the great work!!

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MORETHANWEIGHT 4/16/2010 10:52AM

    Well we all know I can relate having gained 10 pounds just a week ago
Your approach to this whole situation absolutely amazes me
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SARAHJ19 4/16/2010 10:46AM

    emoticon I am right there with you! I had to give myself a wake up call yesterday! It is good you can pin point what you need to change and focus on! Accountability is the main thing I am trying to work on for myself! Way to be so positive! You have such a great attitude! emoticon Keep up your great work! You have sparked me to refocus on a few more things! emoticon Have a great weekend!
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JESSSPARK 4/16/2010 10:35AM

    emoticon Here's to hoping some of it is water retention! :)

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MESSYJESSY22 4/16/2010 9:58AM

    I'm in the same boat as you. 3lbs in 1 week ouch! But at least we're seeing what can happen when we don't stick with it! Keep going with your plan and you'll be there in no time!

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MG3KDZ 4/16/2010 8:48AM

    I just went through the same thing myself and I know that it is very disappointing..But like you said at least you have realized it and are going to make a change emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DELILAS 4/16/2010 8:42AM

    You're still doing amazing! We all need a wakeup call sometimes - and you've got a great attitude towards it! emoticon

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MICHCLEARY 4/16/2010 8:38AM

    Sounds like a good plan. Keep us posted on your success! You can win with a good plan.

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HULLAF 4/16/2010 8:30AM

    This past month (well, frankly, most of this year so far) I have gained and lost the same 10 pounds. I feel your pain! Hang in there - we can do it!

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MALEXANDER4 4/16/2010 8:28AM

    I'm sorry to hear about your gain. But I can understand so the feelings. shoot hun, i've passed the same weight now three times. We are going to do this. we just have to plan, think, and act. Notice I said we, this is a team journey.

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Thursday, April 15, 2010

It sucks how bad a time I am having getting back on track. I did pretty good for a few days and then I let myself get too hungry yesterday while out at the store and ended up making the choice to go to cici's pizza and eat like a pig. hungry plus an un-ending supply of pizza is not a good idea, ever!

I made the desision a few days ago that I was going to stop weighing myself every week to keep myself from getting so disapointed when I dont lose very much. Ever since I told myself that though I keep getting thoughts running into my head that say " oh its ok to eat a little more because your not weighing yourself till next month" .... "its ok to eat out again for the 2nd time in less than a week because, your not weighing yourself till next month"....

Maybe weighing myself weekly is disapointing to me when I dont lose very much but I think it keeps me on track more than I realize. I think If I do it montly I will end up gaining weight back... or not lose any at all. I really dont want that.

I was looking through some pictures of myself, the fat me and me now.... I really have come a long way. I was thinking about how sad it would be if I quit right now, if I fell off the wagon so to speak and never got back on again. I could just see me in the future looking at pictures of me now and pictures of me all fat again after gaining all the weight back. It would be really sad if I never reached my goal and just threw in the towel.

I have kinda been feeling lately like I have been slipping that way, becoming more lax in what I eat and how I track my food. I do not want to stop here, I want to continue and reach my goal and then stay a healthy weight once I am there.

I know the only way that I am going to be able to do that is if I find a way to get out of the funk I am in and get back on track.

I think I might go back and start small again... maybe start my spark program over again, doing all the small things and working on keeping track of them to get my momentum going again... like drinking all my water and eating enough vegetables.

Im going to make things better again.

~ Jess

Ps... My sister went to my parents house this weekend and they found a picture of me when I was at my biggest. Its crazy to think I was once that big. I refuse to go in the upward direction again. Its so easy to slip back into old habits... Im not going to let myself become that person again though.

  
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LOSINGJESS 4/26/2010 9:29AM

    wow blog spam... not cool

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KENNYWHEELS 4/15/2010 10:32PM

    i think you might need to set up some motivational things around like even that picture as a reminder of what you are doing this for. it might help you. and keep on sparking , it helps
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and always remember you are worth all of the hard work

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JENNIFER0807 4/15/2010 4:31PM

    try mustering up motivation when you GAIN weight after trying so hard to lose...lol. and still im here. You on the other hand have had fabulous results. Better an ounce lost than gained. LOL i guess i have to be glad they dont have a CiCi's around where i live. Only the commercials to tease us chubby folk! emoticon

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LAWRALOO 4/15/2010 4:27PM

    I feel ya. I've been scared lately about the same thing. what if I quit? What if I end up right back where I started.
Honestly...I don't think I'd ever let myself.

I decided to start focusing on something else. Muscles, not weight loss.
Because with building muscles, comes burning calories comes weight loss right?
I'm going to start paying better attention to really 'eating clean' rather than just watching calories. If I watch calories....I can still sneak in crap.
If I eat clean....can I really? Probably not so easily. lol

Maybe just try to find something else to focus on rather than weight loss?


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JESSSPARK 4/15/2010 4:06PM

    Any loss is loss! We are not on the biggest loser and we cannot expect to put up "big numbers" every week- we are not working out 8 hours a day every day! Small numbers add up over time!

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SLOADMAN 4/15/2010 4:02PM

    It's always easier to slip back into old habits than it is to keep the good ones... Personally, I need to weigh in every week, whether there is a loss of one pound or five, a loss is still a loss... or at least staying the same. It keeps you accountable. Like you've said, if you know you're not going to weigh in until next month, you'll eat this and put off that work out, because "you'll make it up" but we've all been there, and obviously it didn't work or we wouldn't be on this website! Good luck getting back on track, you can do it!! emoticon

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SWEETNEENI 4/15/2010 4:02PM

    You are not going to go backward! You are an incredible woman who is stronger than any craving or self-doubt. Look at you! You are an inspiration.

Do exactly what you said - start small, stay accountable.

I believe in you. emoticon

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