Wednesday, February 03, 2010
I am feeling so good right now. I just felt like writing. I just got done doing my lower body strength training workout. I have lower body scedualed once a week and I hate it because its hard and I have problems doing the lunges... I can only get 3 sets in... and I have 6 sets planned. I cant hold any weight while doing it either... I tryed it with weights the first time and I swear I couldent walk right for a week. Im just now recovering fully from it and it was two weeks ago that I did it with weights.
Today I had an awesome workout though, I put on some music (www.playlist.com) and couldent help but feel happy. I was dancing when I was resting between sets. lol. I know my neighbors think Im crazy because I dance around my house all the time and I have the windows wide open so I know people outside can see me. I dont really care. I should keep the windows shut just for the neighbors sake though... I walk around in my sports bra too and I know people have prob shuddered at the site before.... again I really dont care what others think of me.
but anyway, Im having a good day. I feel thinner, alot thinner than last week. I have seen visable differences in my body for the first time in months. I dont know if I have really lost that much weight but I know I must have lost inches. Its pretty cool because I have only been doing the strength workouts for two weeks now and Im already seeing a difference. :-)
Im feeling very sexy lately, which is a big deal for me. Im looking less up and around and more up and down. (if that makes any sence) Now If I could only buy some clothes that reflect how I feel. Im really sick of only wearing workout clothes.
lol, my closet is a damn shame. I have two pairs of jeans that fit, 3 regular shirts that fit and then I have two pairs of yoga pants that fall off of me I move too much, a crap load of 2x tshirts that look ridiculous on me, two pairs of bike shorts that I just got last month so they fit good, 6 workout type tops, a pair of workout capris, 6 sports bras and 1 regular bra.
::heavy sigh:: I want something to make me look good. I think when my tax return comes in I might go out and get one outfit that makes me look really good, something dressy. I deserve to look nice and really want to look great on valentines day. My husband is taking me out to a nice resturant and I dont want to go in yoga pants and sneakers.
Anway I hope everyone is feeling as great as me. If not put on some good music and dance around!
Thanks for the Memories - Fall out boy
Seven Boom Medley - freezepop
tetris (techno remix) - DJ Rush
Sincerely Me - New Found Glory
The Bad Touch - Blood Hound Gang
Duality - Slipknot
Face Down - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Bye Bye Beautiful - Coheed and Cambria
Dirty little Secret - All American Rejects
Heaven (Happy Hardcore Remix) - DJ Sammy (Dj tiempo)
Reclusion - Anberlin
Ready Fuels - Anberlin
Adelaide - Anberlin
Antonia - Motion City Soundtrack
Best Friends For Never - Drop Out Year
Somebody Told Me - The Killers
Chop Suey! - System of a Down
Down with the Sickness - Disturbed
Hello Houston - The starting Line
Island - The starting Line
Sunday, January 31, 2010
POINTS® Value: 3
Preparation Time: 10 min
Cooking Time: 20 min
Level of Difficulty: Easy
A store-bought angel food cake, some store-bought frozen yogurt and a homemade strawberry sauce - all together, it adds up to a fabulous summer dessert, ready for your next barbecue.
1 1/2 pound(s) strawberries, hulled and sliced (about 6 cups)
1/2 Tbsp sugar
2 Tbsp fresh lemon juice
1/2 tsp table salt
12 oz store bought angel food cake, cut into 1/4-inch slices
4 cup(s) fat-free vanilla frozen yogurt
1/4 cup(s) strawberries, thinly sliced (for garnish)
To make strawberry sauce, combine 1 1/2 pounds of strawberries, sugar, lemon juice and salt in a saucepan, stirring over medium heat until the sugar melts and the liquid comes to a simmer. Simmer 15 minutes. Use the back of a wooden spoon to mash about half the berries against the side of the pan. Cool to room temperature and use immediately or refrigerate, covered, up to 2 days.
Spoon the frozen yogurt into a large bowl and mash it with the back of a wooden spoon until soft and spreadable.
Line the bottom of a 9-inch round springform pan with one third of the cake slices, cutting any slices to fit the shape of the pan. Top with half the frozen yogurt, spreading it to the sides. Spread 2/3 cup strawberry sauce over the frozen yogurt, then top with half the remaining cake slices, again cutting any to fit. Spread the remainder of the frozen yogurt over the cake, top with 2/3 cup strawberry sauce, and finally seal the top with the remaining cake slices. Cover with plastic wrap and freeze at least 6 hours or up to 3 days. Let the cake stand at room temperature 10 minutes before unmolding; garnish with remaining sliced strawberries. Slice into 12 pieces and serve.
Monday, January 25, 2010
I have desided I am going to start rewarding myself for every 5 pounds I lose as a way to push myself forward and reward myself for how far I have come.
MY WEIGHT LOSS REWARDS
(200) New Book Light - $10.00
(199) French Manicure - $20.00
(195) New Workout Shoes - $40.00
(190) New Jeans - $20.00
(185) New Make-up - $20.00
(180) Hair Cut & Style - $20.00
(175) Hair Highlights - $20 (at home treatment) $50 ( salon )
(170) Trip to Theme Park - $80
(165) Cute Shoes - $30
(160) Victoria Secret bra - $30 - $40
(155) New Outfit - $40
(150 ) Weekend Trip $ 400
(145) New Clothes $ 200
(GOAL) Locket with amount of weight I have lost engraved on it. Inside I will place my before & after picture.
Friday, January 22, 2010
I have been doing alot of thinking the last few days. I have been looking at every aspect of why my weight loss feels stalled and why I am feeling so out of control of my body and I have come to a few conclusions.
I have been self sabotaging my weigh loss efforts by constantly nibbling and eating larger than I should eat portions. I have been lying to myself when I say that I have been tracking everything and I only nibble a bit. Its a damn lie, I bought a big bag of pita chips from sams club last week and I eat some every day, 11 chips are a serving and I garentee that I have been eating twice the normal serving but in my mind I try and pull it off like its one. "oh this chip is broken, I will add another half" or I portion out a portion in the bowl but add two or three that I eat right out of the bag. there are other offenders too, angel food cake, wheat thins, individual wrapped squares of dark chocolate. ::sigh:: There is also the fact that at dinner I eat alot!!! out of the pan when Im cooking. ::shakes head::
I geuss the first thing I need to do is admit that I have been doing these things. I am admiting that there is issues behind the snacking too, like when I do well for the first half of the week and step on the scale and realize midweek that Im down a pound... then I go and eat twice as much as I should durring the day but try to pull it off like I am eating what I should. I guess some where in the back of my mind I am trying to justify doing it because I have lost weight.... but Its more like I do it and try to ignore that I am doing it.
I was not on this destructive path before the first of the year but now that I am right on the cusp of 200 pounds I am trying to back track for some reason. I need to nip this in the bud now and get back on track.
I admit that I am over eating and eating the wrong things. I need to replan and recommit and start again on the second half of my journey. I dont know if I am afraid to pass 200 but something is getting in my way and I will not let it overcome me.
I plan to tell myself everyday that I can do this... maybe deep down I dont beleive it because I have always been big and it never seemed like a possible thing to get any smaller. I know I can do this and I have it in me... I am not a failer and I will get this done. I have done so much so far and I have done awesome, I need to take that into account as well. I am not 250 pounds anymore and I need to start acting like it... This fat is not who I am or who I will be in the future.
maybe if I drill that into me then I will beleive it and be able to break thru this wall!
ok fresh start.
Im going to try to get away from the processed snack foods. I cant be trusted with large tempting bags of pita chips right now... or low fat cake... or low fat ice cream. Its too easy to nibble away all my calories for the day and go way overboard.
Im gonna try to eat more whole, unprocessed foods.... balance my meals..... and I think I might move away from counting points and start counting calories instead. Its too easy to eat too many zero point foods as well.
I think the snacking is my major problem along with not being honest with myself and feeling generaly out of control. I can work through this though and I plan on going shopping tomorow and having a fresh start.
And I geuss I will see where it goes from there.
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