Friday, July 25, 2014
Lots of good food the last few days. pretty much have eaten completely Vegan for the past few days accept for a few slices of gluten free bread here and there which has eggs in it... there are gluten free breads that are also vegan but I already have this bread so its going to get eaten... the stuff is $5+ for a tiny little loaf that is 3rd the size of a normal loaf after all.
I have noticed with this new eating that I am not hungry... I dont feel the need to snack all the time and also I have noticed that I am thirsty which is really weird for me because I am the type of person who is never thirsty and has never been thirsty. I have always had a huge problem drinking enough water because my body never tells me I need it. I can go all day with no water and then I may realize at the end of the day that I have not drank anything all day so will have a glass of water. I actually desire water throughout the day now... I dont know if this is a thing... If maybe processed food blocks thirst. Its odd.
Peeing a lot lately! tmi
Ok on to the food.
I worked out on the elliptical for 30 minutes while watching extreme weightloss... Love that show! took a shower and got breakfast.
I burnt my darn english muffin! uhg. Most ppl would throw away and start over but my gluten free english muffins cost near $7 when not on sale so I scraped the black off as best I could and put a little raspberry jam on. apple has natural peanut butter on it which contains only peanuts (fancy!) lol... and had the last coconut yogurt which I stated before I dont care for but its there, its paid for, Im eating it.
I didnt track so I dont know how many calories but I did measure the peanut butter which was only a 1/4 of a serving.
Lunch was really yummy. Made a portobella mushroom "burger" fried with some worcestershire sauce topped with avocado and lettuce on gluten free bread. had a few polenta rounds and some carrots and hummus.
Went out with my sister to this grocery store called earth fare. I was looking for nutritional yeast for a pizza I was making for dinner because I herd you could use it as a vegan cheese substutute. They had some in the bulk bin but it was surounded by wheat flour which had migrated EVERYWHERE! There was no way I was going to risk eating that. I ended up finding it pre-packaged but it was processed in a packing facility that also manufatures things that have wheat in them so again I was not willing to take that risk. I ended up buying some vegan shredded mozzarella and some vegan parmesan instead which was actually not badly priced at about $3-$4 a container which is very close to regular cheese products.
I got Archer a bag of puffed organic dinosaur snacks because I knew he would start throwing a fit on the 30 minute drive back home. I opened them up in the car and they were waaaay too crunchy for him to eat... I would say they felt more stale than anything else but I dont know how they normally so I cant really say either way. If they are ment to be that crunchy then they suck, really bad! Luckily I bought him a pack of freeze dried apples as well which held him over.
I ended up eating at least a serving which was about 140 calories or so... they were not good... why did I eat them?
Dinner was a bit disasterous. I made pizza with a polenta crust. I have made it before and it wasnt bad. This was like 2 years ago when I first went gluten free. Well my sister found a recipe online for it and the lady that posted it said to bake it for 10 minutes and then top it with ingredients and bake it for a bit longer to cook the toppings. Looking back on when I made it before later I realized I baked it a lot longer in the beggining to crisp the crust.. like at least 30 minutes. I didnt think of that though and followed the directions at hand which were to add 1 part corn meal to 2 parts water. cook the hell out of it while stiring constantly till it was reeeeally thick. I got quite the work out on my arms.... wooo!
Then I took the mix and spread it on parchment and baked it for the recomended (too short!) time of 10 minutes. Then we topped it with toppings, veggie cheese and such and put it back in the oven for another 12 minutes or so
The result was a big soggy mess that once the toppings were on it was pretty unfixable. My kids were not happy with me at all :-( It was edible but only because I am an adult and I made that crap so I put my big girl panties on and had a few slices along with a salad. it wasnt good but it was a learning experience. I made the kids a sandwich lol.
later I laid in bed with my sweetie and we watched Master Chef together while I had a few peices of reeealy super dark chocolate (which I loved, and he didnt care for) and drank fancy tea from teavana. I try to pick up a few loose teas every month... Its my not guilty, guilty pleasure :-)
Yesterday I didnt work out, instead I spent most of the morning and afternoon cleaning my room. I got some other house cleaning in but it was mostly tackling the disaster that is my bedroom or should I maybe call it a clothes hamper? In any case it was horrible and I wasnt feeling relaxed and organized and put together. The state of my home directly reflects my mood and emotional state and vice versa. I have found if I can keep my home somewhat organized and clean I am a much much happier, and put together person. When I had gotten so depressed the last few months I really let the house go and in turn the house would end up making me feel worse to the point where I didnt even want to get out of bed in the morning and face the world. I got the kitchen really good to begin with and that has helped me so much. I ended up cleaning out the cabinets doing a really deep clean and that made me feel so much better. So I knew my room being clean would help me feel that much more better. It took a while but now I can sit and relax at the end of the day or just get away for a few minutes in the middle of the day when the kids are driving me up the walls. Makes my soul feel happy.
Breakfast was eaten on the run... I scarfed down a bowl of honey nut chex with almond milk and didnt take a picture and about 2 hours later I was starving because chex is a really crappy cereal because it has no staying power but its gluten free which is why it was in the house. I need to make some granola or something since I cant find a good gluten free cereal that has staying powder. Had a mid morning snack of one peice of gluten free bread with unsweetened apple butter and a clementine.
Lunch was really good. I put 1 cup of rice on the plate and had this urge to put more but I knew there was going to be a lot of veggies so I didnt. one cup was enough and I was super full afterwards and it held me over till dinner. so yummy!!! omg.
1 cup of rice topped with black beans, sauteed bell pepper, mushroom and onion with salsa, lettuce mix and avocado.
Dinner I ended up making the rest of the family pasta with alfredo sauce and carrots, peas and broccoli. I had the alfredo sauce up there and its gotta be eaten so thats what they had and they were really happy with it. I guess a nice change from the pizza disaster from the night before. lol.
I cant have the dairy anyhow so I took a little bit of the gluten free pasta from they're dish before adding the sauce and instead made some sauteed broccoli, bell pepper, carrot, peas, onion, mushrooms and sundried tomatoes tossed with fresh basil. I sprinkled a little bit of vegan parmesan cheese on it once I plated it. I didnt miss the cheese really. It had a lot of flavors going on and was really good. I dont think most of my family would have minded it either accept for my 9 year old son who is really not that keen on very many vegetables.
I am feeling so in control this past week. I am loving it!
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Monday marked week 3 with no drinking and I have to say I feel sooo much better in just that short amount of time, emotionally and physically. I have actually felt great this past week and not quite as tired as I was feeling before.
Eating has been pretty good the last two days. I want to start tracking again... gonna do that today... but over all I feel like I havnt over eaten or eaten the wrong types of foods and I feel really healthy. I have decided to go dairy free because I have been feeling really bad every time I eat anything with dairy products, the last few days with no dairy have been much better for me so I think I hit the nail on the head. I am toying with the idea of going Vegan. Its something I have thought about for a few years after watching many documentaries of the health benefits of going to an all plant based diet plus the environmental and ethical reasons are also really strong.
I wanted to post this yesterday but never got around to it so I ended up with two days of food pictures. My sister is staying with me right now and she is completely vegan so I have made a few meals that are vegan so she can eat with us. most are pretty good :-)
Monday I don't think I worked out... at least I cant remember if I did or not so Im gonna say I didn't. I did get out the day before walking though.
breakfast: left over quinoa salad from the night before. Omg was so good. had quinoa, mango, blueberries, basil, dried cranberries and a lemon vinaigrette.
Lunch: a roasted vegetable and hummus sandwich with butter lettuce blend, gluten free pretzels and a coconut yogurt. Sandwich was awesome but I don't think I care for the consistency of the coconut yogurt. I'm not a huge yogurt eater though thankfully so I'm not really going to miss giving that up.
Dinner: Amazing! I made a vegetable lasagna out of the engine 2 book called raise the roof sweet potato lasagna. I was really worried about how my family would respond to quite so many vegetables and no cheese. My two older kids looked down at their plates like "what the hell is this?" They tried it and refused to eat so I added a little more salt since I had used no salt added tomatoes and sauce. My 5 year old ate half of it but my 9 year old tried a few bites but wasn't feeling it... he ended up eating two helpings of salad and an apple instead. My husband loved it and the baby was a step away from licking his plate.
Its going to be a big change for the older two kids if the family does go vegan... I think I will prob start off with meals that look slightly more familiar.
I ate two midsize pieces and was stuffed... No snacking later on :-)
I got up and put Archer in his high chair with some cereal and got 20 minutes in on the elliptical before he started crying to be let down. Then I did another 15 of dumbell work on my arms and squats.
Breakfast - fried polenta, sauteed kale and mushrooms (so not good without balsamic vinegar!), quinoa with basil and rice vinegar. sauteed baby zucchini (also just not really feeling it..... I enjoyed the polenta and quinoa but the other vegetables needed something. blah. I ususally add baslamic vinegar to my kale and didnt have any so just sauteed them and added a little salt.
odd breakfast but I am a little odd
Lunch - left over lasagna... was so good
took the kids to go see planes 2 in the afternoon while the baby was sleeping. I took a snack with me but ended up eating a few hand fulls of popcorn from my daughters kids combo before I remembered it was in my bag. I only think I ate about a cup full though which isnt too bad.
snack: 1 cup popcorn, 1 think thin bar, 2 clementines
Dinner: The family had Italian sausages and mashed potatoes. I decided I had done so good during the day I ate the last of the lasagna. Archer had some too and almost ate his plate again. I didnt take a picture of dinner though or the cuteness of Archer eating all his veggies.
I will leave you instead with a cute picture of Archer after he decided to try his sisters rain boots on the wrong feet and run around the house.
hopefully more to come tomorrow :-D
Friday, July 18, 2014
Last summer I was in a really good place. I had my beautiful family and 3 wonderful children, I was able to lose all the baby weight and get back down within a few pounds of my goal, I had friends for the first time in my adult life, I was active, I was happy.
Fall and Winter came and some things happened, curiosity, adventure, confusion, love, heartbreak, a broken friendship, a friendship that will never be the same, depression..... a whirlwind of emotions and events that I wont go into but they turned my whole simple little world upside down and I am still recovering and trying to come to some sort of balance in my own head
spring I was a mess, I was depressed... crying for no reason... I had gained about 25 pounds, I drank a lot and I never really had much interest in drinking before outside of the occasional social occasion. I was feeling bad emotionaly and physically. sick all the time. I did a few stupid things that in all honesty could have been a lot worse but I was lucky and I knew that I needed to stop drinking because I could not just have one drink and stop I would end up getting to that stage where I would black out and the next day I would be so sick I couldnt get out of the bed for 24 hours and my husband would have to be the one taking care of me and the children. Then the next 24 hours I would spend thinking about what I did or wondering what I did in thouse moments I couldnt remember. I would commit to cut down on my drinking but by midweek I was making a margaritta and two weeks later I was in bed with yet another hangover and the cycle would continue.
So almost 2 weeks ago I told my husband I had a major problem and decided to stop all together. My health is really gone down hill and I was feeling physically bad all the time and depressed all the time and I knew there was a more than good chance the drinking might be or was the problem. I decided I really needed to pull myself together again because I wasent giving my best to myself or to my husband or children. I dont want to be that person anymore.
So here I am. I decided to go to a therapist a few months ago... Ive been twice so far and I dont know if I like it or if its for me. I made an appt with a psychiatrist because I am considering medication for anxiety and the issues I have with ADHD that I am sick of dealing with. I stopped drinking and its both easy and hard... easy in the fact that I just stopped and I am very commited to it but hard in the fact that when I get stressed out or depressed I do want to run down and grab a bottle of wine from the store. I have my good and my bad days.... the bad days I start thinking about certain things in my life and they make me sad and I feel bad and weepy and all I want to do is eat my feelings lol.
I am trying very had to take back the control I once felt in my life but I find I cant keep all of this inside and I need some sort of support. My husband unfortunatly seems kinda disinterested, and I really dont like my therapist and even if I did my appointements are only once a month and when I really feel like I need to vent about something I have no one to talk to and when I do go to my appointments I cant even remember half the crap I was thinking or feeling (another great thing about ADHD). So I planning on coming back to spark people and hopefully I will write my feelings instead of eating them, or drinking them or some other unhealthy way of coping.
Its so funny because I think of how I use to be on spark people. A motivation to others, someone strong and in control of her own life someone who figured it all out. I dont feel like I am that same person right at this point but I would like to work twards finding her again. I would also like to lose this extra 25 pounds :-)
Dont know if anyone will read this... seems like people on spark people you knew a few years back tend to disapear but for anyone who does, hopefully my posts will become less heavy as time goes on and I start to feel better. I have already started to feel better than I did in just a few weeks time so I have high hopes for the near future.
Thursday, April 04, 2013
breakfast - chocolate mocha shake (milk, choc protein powder, instant coffee, ice)
Had a hard time getting out of the house and to the Y so we were very late getting there so I missed my boot camp class and only had a little more than an hour until the Y childcare closed. So I dropped the kids off put on my shoes and went to the walking track. for the first 15 minutes I alternated between walking the oval track and running it and then the last 15 minutes I walked the short sides of the oval and sprinted down the longer sides as fast as I could. I had my heart rate up pretty high and when I finally stopped to stretch thats when the sweat really started dripping down my face. I dont remember ever sweating that much after a work out other than the time I ran that 5k 2 years ago. I got a really good workout though in a very short amount of time.
I took the last 25 minutes to shower which I have to say is the best part of having a YMCA memebership. Knowing my kids are being taken care of and not killing each other so I can peacefully shower.
How do I know when I have had a good workout? When my face looks like a tomato afterwards. lol
I got home and had a turkey bacon sandwich with light mayo and lettuce on gluten free bread and a small salad with raspberry dressing.
afternoon snack was a gluten free english muffin with strawberry jam and a medium banana with 1 tbls peanut butter. The english muffin is not really like a real english muffin but its pretty good when you cant eat the real thing. They are made by glutinos if your interested.
later that day I was cooking dinner for everyone, I was going to make them chicken cordonblu that I got on sale this past week. It contains wheat for some reason so I cant eat it, so I was just going to have some soup I made a few days ago instead. Somehow I forgot to turn on the stove so by the time I checked dinner when the timer went off I only had 20 minutes till I had to be out the door with the kids for there kids water fitness class and dinner was still frozen. So I had to turn on the oven and get that cooking again and then make the kids ham and cheese sandwiches. I was completely stressed out and found myself wanting to snap at the kids because they seemed to be more annoying than usual (or maybe it was just me)....
anyway I did not have time to eat and we rushed out the door to go back to the Y so the kids could go swimming because we missed last week and I promissed. even though I did not want to go.
I dropped them at there class and decided to go walking again. turned on my music and walked for another 30 minutes. I felt much better afterwards and there was no more snapping at kids for the rest of the night.
I ended up eating dinner at 9pm so I am glad I worked in that snack earlier in the day.
I had southwest sausage and lentil soup with 1 serving of scoops tortilla chips. and then for dessert (which I had planned on, just had not planned on eating it with dinner) I had gluten free strawberry shortcake.
The soup was so good. I will post the recipe below.
overall a very good day and I tracked everything on my sparkpeople app. Which I found out now costs money... I feel lucky because when I downloaded it, it was still free. :-) I have to tell you though that if I had to I would buy it in a heartbeat because it would be worth every penny. A great tool to have.
gluten free strawberry shortcake
4 tbls gluten free cake mix mixed w 1 tbls water and 1 tsp lite butter. Microwaved in glass mug w cooking spray for 46 seconds. Frozen strawberries microwaved separately for 1 minute - topped w lite cool whip
southwest sausage and lentil soup
Recipe (this is not exact... I kinda just wing it when I cook)
Sauté red onions, 1 chicken & pork sausage link (casing removed) and diced green bell pepper. Add in 1/2 can diced tomatoes, 1/4 cup lime jalapeno salsa (trader joes) & 2 cups chicken broth. Simmer a few minutes and then add 1/2 pack cooked lentils (trader joes) about 1 cup or so and fresh cilantro
Thursday, April 04, 2013
life with baby is going really well. It has been hard ajusting and even harder getting back on track with my eating and exercise but in the last few days I really feel like things are falling into place. wow it only took almost 4 months lol. Right now I weigh about 190 lbs. My official weigh in for the week was I think 191.8 but I am pretty sure I am below that now.
Why has it been so hard for me? well I think my main problem was lack of planning. I expected to just be able to jump right back into healthy eating and exercise without any extra effort other than saying "Im gonna do this!". Well that is not how it worked when I lost weight before, why would I expect it to be different just because I did manage to lose the weight before. Nothing magical happens just because you lost weight I was not transformed into someone who never had a weight problem so why would i expect to not have to put the work in like I did before. I dont now.
So what did I do before to help me reach my goal?...
I planned and planned and planned some more. Planned out my meals, planned out my shopping trips, planned out my exercise. Tracked my accomplishments, tracked what I put in my mouth and tracked what I did with my body. I exercised every day because I knew if I didnt do something even if that ment walking in place while watching tv for 30 minutes, every day then I would get into the habit of being still and it would be that much harder to get myself moving the next day. I ate things I enjoyed eating, I found ways to work in treats and made my food look amazing and enjoyed every second of eating it because I know I cant become a person who veiws food as only fuel, thats not me, I love to eat but have to find ways to love food and stay on track. I surrounded myself with inspiration and motivation, with people who were walking down the same road as I was, by people who were once where I was and people who were standing where I wanted to get to. I visited spark people every day like it was something I needed to live.
So I need to get back to that and I took the first steps this week by planning my meals and my workouts. I have been following that plan more or less for the past few days and I feel in control which I have been lacking for a long time. I lacked control durring my pregnancy too so its been a very long time.
So This week is spring break for Aiden and Andrew took off monday and tuesday from work so we decided to take the kids to the zoo on monday. I was a beautiful day, got up to like 72, the whole park was pretty shady and there was a nice breeze. We spent from 9am to 5pm when the park closed walking and being active as a family. The park is set in the middle of a very small mountain range so it was a lot of hills and the next day I could feel the day of walking in every part of my body.
I would really like to start having more active weekends with my family. There is something so nice about getting outside and just doing something rather than sitting around indoors.
Im going to post some pictures of our trip and a few of Baby Archer. He is getting so big. He is 3m old and 15 lbs. Yesterday we noticed a tooth coming though so he has been chewing on his hands like crazy. He cant really hold toys really well and has a hard time with his hands still so he is pretty grumpy about the whole teething early thing.
He was worth gaining some weight back for though, I could no imagine my life or our family without him.
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