Wednesday, September 17, 2014
At 17 weeks today! Saw the midwife yesterday—the final one in the practice I hadn't met. Adore her, too. I'm so glad that at this point I would be incredibly thrilled to have any of these ladies around when I give birth—incredible women, all.
She indicated that the little twinges I've felt here and there ARE the baby. They were so brief, then separated by a couple of days, so I assumed it was something else. But she said that is how it is in the beginning, and I should be feeling things more often as time goes on. So yay! I'm feeling the little bean!
Heartbeat was good and strong in the 150s. Husband kept making me laugh, and then would imitate the scratched record sound that the doppler would make as my abdomen jerked about. It was awful (in the best way).
Trying to sleep on my side is awful. I'm using a C-pillow that a friend gave me in my first pregnancy. It is great for awhile, but my morning I feel closed in and overly warm. So I've often shed the thing in the early hours. Glad I'm still able to be on my belly at this point.
Finally got around to starting pregnancy photos today. I definitely have a little bump (though granted, if you didn't know, you'd probably just assume I'm gaining weight). Apparently my uterus extends to about three finger widths below my belly button.
It seems impossible to ignore now: I'm growing a tiny human. How crazy is that?
Midwife said it was time to look into childbirth classes, so I've been looking at options all over the place. In an interesting email conversation with a nurse at a local hospital about hypnobabies. Loving her (the instructor) already. Also looking into Bradley options, as well as various other natural childbirth classes here and there . . . so we'll see. Crazy that it is nearly time for this already.
Injection tally: 201
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
I received an ever-so-kind message yesterday reminding me that I need to update. I totally failed at blog posting last week (and I'm okay with that!). But I am, in fact, at 16 weeks today!
Total weight gain: 3.5 pounds. Since I see that two weeks ago I was somewhere between 2-3 pounds, I guess I'm progressing at exactly the rate I want to be! Still having water retention issues here and there with weight soaring on some days, but I'm learning not to worry and just keep drinking water.
It seems that I am tolerating veggies a little better—at least in recipes. I was able to cook with onions and peppers on Monday for a lovely shrimp creole dish (check it out on skinnytaste.com If shrimp wasn't so expensive, I'd make this weekly! Considering adapting for chicken, etc). Going to attempt roasting broccoli again today (usually one of my favorites, but was not appealing at all when I tried a few weeks ago).
I'm feeling mostly good. I am hungry most of the time, so feel like I am eating constantly. And, of course, there are the multitude of trips to the bathroom. Been feeling some twinges of discomfort to come. Had one friend tell me that the 16th week was the worst for her in terms of round ligament pain. I know that can vary from person to person, but as one who is likely to have panic attacks over unexpected abdominal pain, it is good to know it is a possibility!
My next midwife appointment is on Tuesday. Can't wait! It will be good to hear the heartbeat again. I told hubby yesterday that if we get the midwife we know well, we should beg for an ultrasound to see if we can find out our monkey's gender. He is apparently practicing patience and is perfectly content to wait for our big 20 week ultrasound in a month. Sheesh. ;0)
I have had injection fatigue this past week. Had church retreat this past weekend, which takes place at a local state park with rather basic/rustic cabins (the kind with outlets, but no a/c—and potential for rodents). It broke up my regular injection routine and meant that I couldn't ice right before. Turns out the ice really does help with bruises, as I have several quarter-sized dark bruises on my abdomen now. And the whole area is super itchy. It just struck me that the use of rubbing alcohol is probably drying out my skin. Hopefully lotion will help! But I've definitely had moments where I just wish I could take a break from the shots. Minor thing, I know. I'm definitely thankful that these injections have been keeping my baby alive, and that is ultimately worth all of the inconvenience and discomfort.
Injection tally: 187
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Hello second trimester! I could not be more excited that we actually made it to this point! Honestly (and you might have caught on to this), I anticipated this pregnancy to be like the last two. I was ready to give up on my ability to carry a child and begin (or rather continue) looking into foster/adoption once we move to a bigger place (we are in a one bedroom apartment now).
Tuesday I went back to the doctor (After this appointment, we'll simply have one a month, alternating between doc and midwife. This doctor's appointment was set up before we knew that shared care was a possibility, and so we kept it), and we were able to HEAR the heartbeat! Hubby recorded it on his phone.
I've started wearing maternity clothes this week. While I don't yet look pregnant, none of my shorts fit . . . and I got a HUGE bag of summer clothes from a friend. Many of the shirts are simply the stretchy kind (no gathering on the sides), so they don't particularly look like maternity wear . . . and since it will hopefully start getting cold in a month, figured I should wear it all now! I am noticing the very beginnings of a bump.
Most vegetables are still hard to eat. I've been looking for ways to sneak them in. Using a lot of skinnytaste recipes, as she tends to put veggies in most things. I did manage to eat (and enjoy!) salad and corn at a friend's house on Tuesday, so hoping I can do salad at home. I've been craving salad bar salad, which somehow seems distinct from using the same veggies from my fridge. I'm wondering if the salad bars are usually kept colder than the average fridge? Or perhaps I'm just crazy (it happens). Wishing I had a high-powered blender so I could sneak greens into smoothies. Mine doesn't quite blend to that level. I have managed to eat lots of fruits, though, and getting in plenty of protein.
Total weight gain at this point is 2-3 pounds (my current weight seems to fluctuate depending on sodium, so not sure if I'm really at 3 pounds or just 2). Doc and midwife have both given me the 25-35 range, even though I started this pregnancy on the border of overweight and obese. Realizing that I'm at the point where I need to start gaining more consistently. I don't think I've ever intentionally gained weight in my life. Trying to mentally move beyond the first trimester attempt to mostly maintain to figure out how to go about gaining .5-1 lb a week.
Injection tally: 159
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Just pretend this was posted yesterday =0)
Saw the midwives on Monday. The midwife on call was offsite at a hospital attending a birth, While I was waiting on the midwife in the office, two different women called in labor. So I ended up waiting for about an hour to be seen. Luckily, the folks there are all amazing. They had be relaxed and even laughing. When I finally saw the midwife (Lisa, one I didn't know—there was only one midwife (Jessica) there a year ago when I was there with my first pregnancy), she saw no reason that I couldn't give birth there!
Baby decided to terrify me, though. She intended to just listen to heartbeat, but couldn't find it with the doppler, so I was left alone in the room as she went to get the ultrasound equipment. I'll admit to panicked praying since the last time that happened in the Birthing Center, the ultrasound revealed no heartbeat.
Since two laboring women were coming to the office, the third midwife (Jessica, who saw me and had several phone conversations with me during my first pregnancy/miscarriage) was called into the office, and when Lisa returned, she said "look who's here and waited to see you!" Behind her, Jessica was pushing the ultrasound cart. They switched places so that Lisa could attend to the laboring women, and I got a familiar face to do the ultrasound. Baby is fine. My uterus is just still mainly tucked behind my pubic bone, so doppler can't pick it up yet. Ultrasound showed heartbeat at 144, and I was able to see fingers, a leg, and the baby's little face.
Had more lab work done on Tuesday—progesterone check again and two panels (not sure what all they contained). I was a little surprised when the tech pulled out 6 vials to collect my blood. But . . . I'm officially off all forms of progesterone! I went off the injections two weeks ago, and doc took me off the pills yesterday. So down to the meds I'll be taking throughout the entire pregnancy.
I have a doctor's appointment next week (scheduled before I called the Birthing Center), which is great for my mental health at this point. I'll be talking to my doc about shared/transferred care. We may begin alternating appointments between midwives and doc. Both have been on this journey with me (Jessica sent me to this particular doc when my first miscarriage seemed to be taking a long time) and are simply great. I'm a bit sad to break the news to him that our plans are to go back to the birthing center for an out-of-hospital birth. But so excited that it will be an option!
I'll be picking up some warm weather maternity clothes from a friend this afternoon. While I still have jeans that fit (I bought the size up at a thrift store after my last pair started to become uncomfortable on my injection site bruises), I have no shorts. Midwife wants me to exercise outside (I've mostly been using the indoor fitness center in my apartment building) so that I get the benefits of the sun—and as there is a heat advisory this week, that isn't going to happen in long pants! Hoping that in the next few weeks, I'll actually have the beginnings of a baby bump.
So far I've only gained a pound (and really that comes and goes). I've started tracking food again to make sure I'm getting enough nutrients (Lisa said I need at LEAST 70 grams of protein a day). I went and bought high protein snacks yesterday—and more fruit. Found that my focus on protein yesterday had me high in protein (around 90!), but low in calories (I had to drink a glass of chocolate milk before bed to make my maintenance range). Had a higher calorie breakfast this morning (Chocolate milk, banana, and peanut butter smoothie), so hopefully I'll do better today. Since I'll be upping calories soon, need to make sure I'm eating enough now!
Injection tally: 145
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
This is the first time I've ever made it to 12 weeks. Really wish I could go to the doctor every other day for a mental health appointment. Cramping here and there, but no blood . . . so hoping all is still well.
I see the midwife on Monday to see what options are with shared care. Hoping to hear baby's heartbeat for the first time!
Not much has happened in the last week. Got a copy of "Pregnancy After A Loss" which has helped me feel a bit more normal with all the crazy all-over-the-place emotions.
I'm starting a new job on Sept. 1 and began talking about maternity leave today. So crazy to think about. All this could very well be real. Oh, please let it be real.
Injection tally: 131
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