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7 weeks

Wednesday, July 09, 2014

Reached seven weeks! Things seem to still be going well. Nausea increased again yesterday to the point where I'm now feeling nausea most of the time (not just when needing to eat). In fact, feeling a surge now—when I just finished eating an apple.

As of this morning, I've had 53 shots during this pregnancy. My tummy is rather bruised from the heparin shots. I'm trying to get a new place each time, to allow myself to heal. Hubby is doing well with the two weekly shots he gives me (progesterone goes in my hip, so I'm unable to give those myself).

Ultrasound last Thursday looked good. I measured at exactly 6 weeks, 1 day (which according to numbers was right on). Heartbeat was strong at 120. Doc said he is "cautiously optimistic."

I'll be going back three weeks from yesterday. He usually waits 6 weeks, but said he adds these "mental health visits" for those of us with histories of loss so that we can get peace of mind that all is well.

I still have days when I am convinced I am about to miscarry. moments when cramps seem to linger far too long (trying to drink more water to stop any unnecessary cramping scares) or when the medicine/injection protocol just seems both overwhelming and like not enough. The doc reminded me that we have covered all our bases . . . and yet, there are never any sure things. There is only so much that we can do, and everything else is out of our control. It is tough realizing that I can do all the right things and still have a bad result . . . but I am hoping more each day—especially with the increase in nausea.

We are looking into potentially buying a home, and I am picturing this little one being with us.

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TRAVELGRRL 7/9/2014 4:15PM

    As hard as it is, try to have a positive attitude! Did I tell you that my daughter, who went through a year of fertility clinic treatments, is now pregnant with her second child -- which happened AU NATUREL? I really believe that relaxing, meditating, positive visualization, etc. will go a long way for your peace of mind and a good outcome. You are doing great and I LOVE that your doctor will see you more often for visits. He sounds like a great guy. ((hugs))

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SUSANNA37 7/9/2014 1:43PM

    I'm so glad you had a positive visit. Sorry to hear about your nausea but yes, you are doing all the right things! It sounds like you have some very exciting things ahead of you! emoticon

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6 Weeks

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

I'm 6 weeks pregnant today. Nausea seems to be increasing, which I'm thankful for (that may sound strange, but I'm glad to have any sign that this pregnancy is on track). In many ways this pregnancy isn't real to me yet. I've been incredibly emotional. I reached the end of another heparin bottle yesterday and wanted to cry—not because the bottle was empty, but because all that is represented in these twice-daily injections. Wrapped up in it all is the fear that it won't be enough, that my body will still be a grave yet again.

Tomorrow is my first ultrasound, and I'm hopeful (and praying) that it will be my first ever fully positive ultrasound.

In other news, my clothes already seem to be getting too tight. Hoping this is more bloat than actual size shifting this early. My weight seems to be holding steady thus far.

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TRAVELGRRL 7/7/2014 8:23AM

    ((hugs)) Praying for you!

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MOCHACHICA 7/2/2014 4:32PM

    That was really positive! I'll try to look at nausea that way.

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QTLADY 7/2/2014 11:39AM

    I hope all goes well tomorrow!

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Third time's the charm?

Friday, June 20, 2014

I'm pregnant again! Got a BFP on Monday and immediately called the doc for bloodwork. Numbers jumped from 137 to 404 between Monday and Wednesday, so doc is pleased! I've added twice daily heparin shots to my daily protocol, so needles and I are becoming well-acquainted. I'm 4 weeks and some change, but already the nausea is creeping in—and not caring whether I just ate or not. I have my first ultrasound in just under two weeks. Really hoping that this is the baby we get to carry home. I'm feeling a bit optimistic. Hoping I can hold on to that, too!

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TRAVELGRRL 6/28/2014 11:22AM

    Congratulations!! I will keep you in my prayers for the best of outcomes! KEEP THE FAITH!

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BILL60 6/20/2014 5:32PM

    Great news!! The very best to you.

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More than halfway through Whole30!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

My Whole30 has been surprisingly easy. That is not to say that I haven't had some major temptations along the way, but they aren't as often as I'd anticipate. I've had a couple of strange food dreams—one involving toast and another involving pretzels. Ah, carb dreams!

I feel like my body is slowly shrinking. Today I ran the fastest mile I have in a long time. Granted, that was as far as I went, but I'm slowly getting my exercise back in gear. At last weigh in, I was down another 1.5 pounds to 184. It is so nice to see things moving in a positive direction again. I feel like I am finally reclaiming myself—and I don't just mean weight. I feel like my body is working with my again . . . and after nearly a year of not trusting it, that is a lovely thing.

12 days left in Whole30! Here's hoping I can lose another few pounds!

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TRAVELGRRL 3/19/2014 8:56AM

    Congratulations! With success comes confidence, which brings more success!

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RAPUNZEL53 3/18/2014 8:53PM

  Good Luck!

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CAROL494 3/18/2014 8:42PM

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Getting smaller

Thursday, March 06, 2014

I did, in fact, win my dietbet! I won $19 for losing weight. Not bad! Starting a new one in 5 days. According to the scale this morning, I've lost an additional pound, putting me at 185.5 and officially under my pregnancy weight. Hoping to be in the 170s before trying to get pregnant again.

On March 1 I began the Whole30: giving up grains, alcohol, dairy, legumes, and sugar for 30 days. It is part of my "year of months." My main motivation was knowing what it is like to live as some of my friends who have major food allergies. What is it like to have to read the ingredients list of every label? What is it like to not be able to walk into restaurants and know if you can eat there? What is it like to not be able to participate in communion at church (during last night's Ash Wednesday service there were gluten free crackers, but I'm assuming they still had other grains and sugar—and possibly dairy! I seem to be having an easier experience than some, as my body did not go through a "detox hangover." In fact, I'm finding this surprisingly easier than I anticipated. It is strange eating so much meat, as most of what I cooked previously was vegetarian—or meat stretched with beans and/or lentils.

Technically I'm not supposed to be watching the scale or my food intake. I have not been tracking food, but since I am doing a dietbet, I am still weighing. I do hope to drop that habit at some point, focusing instead on other means of measuring progress and weighing only at the doctor's office. But after feeling insanely bloated yesterday (which is apparently also common as your gut adjusts to a new diet), it was nice to see the scale lower today! Now that I know the Whole30 isn't going to cause me to gain from all the meat eating, I'm going to avoid the scale until my dietbet weighin and then only weigh once a week.

I must say, it is nice to finally be at a place where I can treat myself well consistently again. I've not been overly great in the working out department, but I'm slowly doing better there, too. Now planning to do SOMETHING each day to get me closer to my goals of being fit and healthy!

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TRAVELGRRL 3/8/2014 5:35PM

    Proud of you! You are doing a good thing for your health, and that's soooo important to everything...after all, we only get one body so we need to take care of it! ((hugs))

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READYRACHEL 3/7/2014 8:20AM

    Congrats on the Dietbet win! Good luck with Whole30. It sounds challenging and could be interesting. You'll have to let us know how it went when you are done.

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LOSINGFORBABY 3/6/2014 10:40AM

    I really thought I would struggle, but I found a website that has compiled Whole30 recipes from across the web—30+ pages of them (I forget how many are on a page, but at least 10). So I'm getting to try new recipes (which I enjoy), and they are TASTY. The only thing I've really missed is being able to sweeten my coffee. And I am a HUGE carb and dairy fan. The night before I started, we went to a Mexican restaurant so I could binge on nachos. I have heard rumors that later in the month I may begin having bizarre cravings and dreams that rival pregnancy. We'll see. Today is Day 6. And while I don't really intend to eat Paleo after this, I have been thinking that I could.

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SUSANNA37 3/6/2014 10:26AM

    emoticon on winning $19! Good luck with the Whole30. I don't think I could do it!

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