tonight (friday night - i suppose it is saturday morning now...)
i was very depressed. couldnt get a grip. i was wallowing. i have a cold and i am singing in a quartet in church on sunday morning and a community choir concert in the afternoon. i am lonely. DH is in a show and is gone several nights a week, including 2 weekends in December. 2 HOLIDAY weekends. This has made me sad. I am happy that he is enjoying the show but I am S-T-U-C-K and cannot seem to get myself UN-stuck.
so, when i got out of work i started to eat popcorn ( air popped with olive oil ) and melted chocolate and put it together. I also had 2 stale marshmallows. i kept eating it and kept getting frustrated. there were so many things i "should" or "could" have been doing and i couldnt make myself do it. and... i have been totally craving pizza. sigh
well, i didnt have pizza, and since we hardly have any food in the house my binge was confined to popcorn and some candy melts and 2 marshmallows. overall, it could have been much worse.
NOW for the realization.
i knew (KNEW) that if i could just DO SOMETHING, i could pull myself out of my funk. and i still (STILL!!!) struggled mightily with that.
well, the fire finally lit and my funk started to dissipate ~ and at 10pm i started hanging christmas lights out on our front entryway... and at 11:15pm i decided i needed to go for a walk since i was only able to go for .5 miles this morning -- i walked 2.8 miles and finished after 12am. -EGADS! I will be tired tomorrow but i am glad i walked. (3.3 miles today)
Now-- why cant I use my knowledge to steer clear of the funks? or at least make it shorter? I dont know but i hope i can do it sooner next time!
Doing many of the right things.... walking for an hour every day, eating at least 5 freggies daily, getting enough sleep , drinking my eight glasses of H2O , not eating between meals (at all!), limited wheat, and limited extra sugar ......
and NOT seeing any progress on the scale!!!!!!!
I had an A1C blood test for my diabetes. It went down from 7.6 to 6.8. I am very happy.
I guess it's working after all!
..... now if only that darned scale would change!!!
It's been a long long time, but i am on Day #4 of being back on track!
~ Limiting wheat. But i did eat meatballs which had breadcrumbs in them...
~ Limiting "sweets" - (i did have my small gluten free banana-oatmeal-choc chip muffins).
~ 561 days in a row of walking.
~ 7-9 freggies per day
~ working hard with the Physical Therapy and making progress!
~ havent eaten between meals at all.
~ at the PT appt today they had cookies, cider and halloween candy available- -- DANGER!
I DIDN'T EAT ANY OF IT!!!
P.S. to all of you who gave me encouragement on my last blog: "Help! I'm in danger of eating stuff I dont want to!"